Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Omaha Hi-Lo Strategy

This is just a quick log. I am having some trouble adding some photos on this blog right now. I think I'll work on adding photos again later. I used to really like the old format but I guess they wanted to change it to add a little more power with the images.

I started out playing with just play chips and have been successful without ever having gone broke. So basically, I have a profit of only 19 cents from playing $0.02/$0.04 limit for the last two days of playing. When I made any profit from playing against 9 other players, I just quit after that. I've been testing my strategies on this whole fixed limit thing because you don't have to ever gamble all of your chump change with one buy-in unlike you do occasionally with no-limit or pot-limit.

Hopefully, if I get around to it I'll be sharing some techniques that I'm using because I don't really care if you beat me eventually in this game. It's just a hobby and if I'm a super genius at this game and you learn from the best and then become rich off of my free information then great for you! I just want to be giving in this area and have a little fun with it.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Humble, Broken-hearted, and Contrite Spirit

Today, I read an age-old passage about David committing adultery with Bathsheba in the Bible (2 Samuel 11:2-13). The aftermath of the situation was not very pretty (2 Samuel 11:14-27, 2 Samuel 12:1-12).  I think the most important part of this incident was that David confessed when he was caught by a prophet and sought to be right with the Lord again. (2 Samuel 12:13-14) One of the most sorrowful passages I've ever read came from Psalm 51, which relates the incident to the negative consequences of David's sin. The prayer that David makes to the Lord is so deepening and convicting of his guilt that it even relates to me. I could imagine David tearing his clothes up over the sin which was like a Jewish thing that symbolizes they are just absolutely feeling devastated about it.

A verse of the Bible states that sorrows of our sin can lead us to godly repentance.  (2 Corinthians 7:10) I guess the Lord tries to move everyone to a lifestyle of repentance through the working of His Holy Spirit. We need to open our eyes to see the goodness of God in life. 2 Samuel 12:8 states that God would have gave David everything he wanted and even much more if it was not enough. This implies to me that David lost self-control over his sexual urges and then pursued after a married woman. Nowadays and being blunt, men are pretty visual and can be sexually stimulated that way even if it's not the woman's intention. Doing my best to be mature here and not bashing any guy I know whose at fault with this, we should be happy where we're at and that if you're currently a single guy and are willing to wait on the Lord and are diligent with your lifestyle then maybe God has the perfect woman for you to marry and then become sexually fulfilled. The foundation all starts with our faith! According to the New Testament, faith in Christ is what justifies a man's righteousness.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Time To Move On

I guess it's a lot easier to move on when there are a lot of things to keep you busy. Sometimes, it's really more from having a lack of attitude. I guess I'm the type who can sort through things in a humble manner, if I'm given some time out and a fair amount of information. Eventually, I think it's God who just keeps on bringing me up no matter how dire the situation gets for me.

Situations are not really easy to deal with all the time. It's like my mind lacks discipline when I'm stuck in an obsession that leads me no where. It's like so important for me to stick it out and put my mind on something else that's really beneficial for me. I need to constantly be in a mode of working hard and then obtain some satisfactions so that I won't really worry about the past anymore.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Wow, Have Not Written For A Week

I guess I've been just pretty busy about stuff. I guess I'm just sort of messing around a little too. It took me awhile to finally come around to understanding all the weird stuff that happened to me. Man, that really bites another one's dust. This whole inspiration thing where you have a big heart about living and continuously persist into the days of this life is a meaning that I'm starting to uphold.

My heart refuses to give in to the evils of this world. I guess that's what writing is about. It's about clinging to your good values and then hoping for the best outcome no matter what hardships come into your zone. I'm starting to be really attracted to people who have good influences and are genuinely sweet and caring people.

My mind is really bright for some reason and I'm wasting away these days if I don't use it for the sake of improving this world. I guess one of my worst fears is just being by myself all the time while knowing I'm missing some good things in life. I can't guarantee myself victory in everything that I've done including all the regrettably stupid things that I've done. It's just time to truly face it and accept it and to become a stronger individual while working even harder to become the person I want to be and at the same time loving this transition. 

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 14

7. I received an e-mail stating to not to come to the church anymore; otherwise, they would call the cops. I was highly skeptical. No call was made when I approached this public property. I am aware of the church's debt being managed by the government, and I have also contributed with tithes. The angry pastor who thought he could arrest me with his bare hands mentioned something about being too busy outside church and working at a car dealership. The pastor wrote on his personal e-mail to me verbatim, "I will personally arrest you"; that is how I interpret what he means. It is very alarming to me that others would act like the pastor while they are really angry about something and ignore their social status. It looks like others have been trying to support each other; however, it seems like others have been a little off. Therefore, I thought I was off the hook to meet up with church-goers at a gathering place. I was just trying to talk some sense in a hidden manner, so that it would not sound so intrusive. I now have a restraining order to deal with. I was dragged into something I did not want to be a part of, but really tried to find my place with in the confusion of everyone allowing me to coexist with one another and exercising gracefulness. I totally wonder if it is because they don't want to tolerate me anymore. I am wondering if it's something I did that was considered really bad to them, and they can't really confirm it because the Court has already verified that I am not a violent person.

8. No problems occurred while I was asked not to come to someone's property. I did keep my distance from everyone. I'm just a new person at church who was given a restraining order, all of a sudden. I think they saw me as a significant figure. I showed it by exercising self-control and limiting my desires of lashing out in anger. I seriously want to do this to others right now. Even though I hated the idea, I had no problem leaving the property after only trying to consult an individual who does not even live there at his vehicle, while touching someone else's grass. 

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 13



5. On my mark, I believe that the first time the police came over was based on an individual who does not live at the apartment. This individual and I are at the same level of status, as he and I can be similar to being called a repetitious visitor and people acted not so mindful about it. People will claim that there was fighting but no additional resident from another apartment complex had laid a physical complaint. It was an extremely quiet and staged prank based on what I know to be legal. I gave another violent man a weak bear hug from behind and he just stood there and took his time to give me an angry reaction. I then released my hold. This happened on the day everybody was celebrating his birthday, so I think that increases emotional disappointment around me. My birthday was around the same time, too. Unfortunately, I thought my birthday present could have been completely forgetting about the issue. The other very skinny, male vegetarian simply said in a calm voice, "Call the cops." I would consider him to be a very fortunate person because I would not mind him trying to strike me. I remember he had stated the same thing at another location that is miles away. He even let me approach him at that property. Nothing significant happened at that location. I was totally dumbfounded at this place of being outside the apartment where I visibly cannot lay harm to anyone and to my overpowering friend who retreated from facing the law enforcers. I believe that if I had gone inside then the cops would have left without trying to harass me with comments like forcing me take my pills and pretending to be a great psychologist. He asked me for my birth date and asked for my I.D. The officer provided all the information. If I had not given my I.D. then I believe no poor sheriff would be driving to my home which is 30 miles away in the morning from the apartment. I was still new to this club and just a distant face, as the aging pastor stated. The first page of the restraining order states that the birthday is unknown. I actually yelled at the cops too, but not on purpose. They simply dangled their hand cuffs at me and that pretty much made me more angrier but tacit and law-abiding. I have also passed with flying colors the psychological screening test for becoming an officer. I took the writing test this year! I have a letter stating it with the mayor's signature on it; I am not sure if the Court would like to see it to find any relevance with this motion. I feel like taking it again just to see if I can be admitted into the police academy, while having a restraining order that is appears to be technically default in addition to a default restraining order which I tried to challenge, but found no use in really caring remotely anything about him at that time. I recently shared a pool lane with a person who really looked like the man who put a default restraining order on me. I really did not flinch and not really mind him and went on my own business swimming. He even acted like he knew me by staring at me swimming for awhile and had an awkward swimming stroke. I did not really speak with him to confirm it. Maybe, I will confront the situation to find resolve later.

6. I am an aspiring writer and all my e-mails were based on assuming everyone was my friend and behaving malevolently around others by speaking with a spiteful attitude. These former friends are only male. I only sent my worst comments to men and left out the women. I was requested to not to text females and I resorted not to do that because I thought the men could relate to my anger. The petitioner is a woman, I am sorry for referring to her in a possibly negative and ridiculing manner. It is totally unintentional at least for the time being. The transcript of the Court will state that my writing was not violent at all to my surprise. I hope there is no reconsideration of me being violent based on any future uprisings. As long as I do not mind and am lawfully abiding within the boundaries of this injunction, I am very and extremely much not being violent. I actually have a published poem in my name with poetry.com; unfortunately, the men tried to convince the girls that my poem was demeaning and I suppose men's feelings could sometimes be different from a woman. However, I have experience with casually knowing women to want to mean good things and be wholesome in what I write about them especially with a poem. To combat the issue of my legality and authenticity of my writing, I believe that a writer would not try to mess up with his image by writing inaccurately. He would at least imply direct words are a possible maybe if he could be obviously proven wrong. Maybe there was nothing to be disproved in this case, and they had to go bonkers from feeling the writer's suspicions were correct.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 12

3. If the Court would not want to grant me that sufficient amount of evidence, then I apologize for only just having a possible ability to see the plaintiff in the honorable Court. I just wish to give my side of this incident that I never really had any emotional attachment over. This would infer that I do not need to follow around any person continuously. While practicing escapism through my writing, it would show that a temporary over-reaction took place with the people who were indirectly involved with me. This motion aims to defeat the element of stalking, which is highly laughable to me. I was trying something positive, and they just wanted to prevent me from doing something. I am having too much trouble relating to them. After having been there for an average few hours out of the week in a year, I am not sure how they assumed to know me so well. This restraining order is not highly personal, and the intent is to reflect others' wishes remotely without others being able to file a restraining order on me. My intent was not to attract negative attention with anyone. For at least some odd reason, I feel I have been engaged in cruel and unusual punishment. It is a relatively awesome thing that I would like to ponder about how I could do things while having a good conscience about it, no matter how cantankerous I appear when others become insecure over indirect matters. With everything feeling so laughable to me, I am not sure how many restraining orders became shot at me to impose good order. I believe they were telling me to submit and to respect a relationship because they thought it was good. I felt they were forcing me to be in a relationship. I wonder if having others force you into a relationship is not really that bad. It seems like they were feeding off and receiving anxiety based on me feeling guilty over something. My attempts of trying to understand what I had to feel guilty over made them feel that I was assuming to be guilty of something right away. They still did not want to understand that there was a possibility of increasing my discomfort over this whole matter by not wanting to discuss it with me and telling everyone they were explaining things very clearly with me. In case someone wants to read this to others and try to laugh out loud, I might as well state that I like hanging out with some people at the apartment because I get along really well with them. For protection, I am not even stating their names. Everybody else who I do not mention in this whole motion are the ones I get along with, and they represent the majority. It looks like everything is based on their wrong ideology and reluctant cops. They asked but did not follow through, and they do not even belong to a church or would assert themselves as being righteous people. I am not so sure about righteous people doing something like taking another person to court because they can't solve their own mess of forcing another person to behave under their own account of maintaining a relationship.

4. The officer and I shared an abnormal experience. The officer played a larger role than an indifferent law enforcer by harassing me with curse words, threatening to send me to a mental hospital if I did not answer his questions, and lying about how he found me when I was away about 100 yards from the undisturbed apartment residence before the restraining order. I have suspicion that he had collaborated already with the party (without me) and wanted to stay mad for the sake of fulfilling his needs of wanting to help out everybody. The officer even spoke to witnesses who were outside, and I believe he had hired them. They simply pointed with their fingers repetitiously that I was walking around at least a 100 yards away from the apartment. I just wanted to clear up my head by observing the stressful site at a distant location and being a smart citizen. He stated that I was making him very angry and even brought out a taser gun when I was facing away from him and walking with my head down. I was only looking at his I.D. badge. On the night everybody thinks he arrested me, he directed me to my parked car, I was definitely away of at least 100 yards before the restraining order took place and he opened the door at night and started shouting at me to start my car. He then shut the door very violently and walked away from me and gave me a lot of time to leave. I drove into a gas station and then he stopped harassing me there. This officer's name is A. Hyunnh. I had even asked him repeatedly where the location of the police station was and he would not give me a direct answer. I just wanted to get a clear picture of what everybody was requesting for me to do, after he would calm down. I went to the only two police stations, and they stated this officer does not exist. I totally question if this officer is a real legitimate cop. Things have not been very clear for me. I believe that if I had gone inside then the cops would have left without trying to harass me with comments like burning my car. I actually showed up on a Saturday morning and parked next to the apartment on the main street and might have smiled at him if he was paroling that day. I guess he did not notice. While I was in hand cuffs for some interesting reason, I felt that celebrities have been hand cuffed in movies and so I should not really take it that seriously for this incident. I even saw his partner hit the back of the car repeatedly. The other cop who was there told me not to come again, and he said in a very calm concerned look. That made me want to really listen. Officer A. Hyunnh said "I will give you a can of whoop A-- if you ever come back again." That is a very laughable statement to me now. I do not really mind the idea of being totally mocked, just that this angry drive was sort of killing me but now it's released by being very successful at what I'm doing. I can now look back and feel highly special with all this treatment that I had. I am seriously noticeably a very short person, too even though my writing seems to equate to being adult-like sometimes. I noticeably want to get taller and am trying out protein shakes for larger muscles. This main desire does not require another person. Protein bars are sold separately.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 11

This impending order implies that if there is any more backing after someone reads this, that I should not be bothering someone else. I have texted her countless times, could go to her house and make her feel nonthreatening with what she's already been through, and even continue to leave messages that she wishes to shrug off and not challenge legally. This person is Betty, and I have done no sick thing to her. I have hugged her once or twice and she responded positively. Annie has never had a hug from me, maybe I should after something great happens! The apartment renters could have also been wanting an excuse to do something terribly wrong by trying to blame that their desire was in association with an unfair officer's abuse.

2. I want a review of the case so that I could counter-sue for defamation, money for therapy, and a restraining order to deter any willing petitioner from forcefully using a weapon against me, out of bad judgment. It seems that they wanted to force a relationship under their own terms and did not want to discuss about it. Since it was relational and my background of getting negative feedback with their direct replies from every one of them not wanting to talk about it with me, I did not see it as wrong to continue discussing it through a different medium that I felt was less direct. The consequences that they thought they could legally impose on me were excommunication from a church and being arrested for no apparently bad reason. The main evidence that I celebrate is that never went to jail so that means no police record with no absolute victims. It could have been reported with a very active and biased officer motioning out of being very angry but it did not happen with me. If the arguing could go back and forth, then they relent to wanting to not talk after I impose my views then I think they are wrong for stating I should be arrested. The implied remarks of stopping a discussion with them were not really that verifiable to me as it had never crossed my mind. It feels like they would not mind using violent force since they sort of praised it with their written accounts. They would try to hide things by stating it was uncircumstantial evidence and try to ride on the fear itself. I believe it is practicing McCarthyism, which has been a notable practice; history does have the potential to repeat itself in eccentric, social circumstances.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 10

It pretty much appears that they were misinterpreting something badly with me and could not find any resolution with it because they were only focused on themselves and badly placed their resentful feelings with me. There was really nothing logical about this because they were very closed off and not articulate. I did my best to understand them and what would make them happy but it was too unclear for me. Therefore, I deduce that they pretty much had no idea but stated that they did. I did not resort to being a rude person by not saying unpleasant things (e.g. cursing and bruising forceful) to them and limiting my attempts of questioning them. Compared to what others could potentially do, I could have been more highly active about this but tried to encourage their personal freedom to understand something good and being at peace with one another. I believe that I potentially have the ability to get along with about 99.49 out of 100 women in this world. Overall, I could argue that it appears that they were the rude and dangerous ones and in need of getting therapeutic help. It looks like they just needed to be ensured of something positive with a good impression upon me and just took things too far. All these elements that have been added on to me have been quite a challenge to talk through, but I don't really need or feel the need to be bothered ever. I'm just being natural about this event and trying to add the element of being nice.

The party of apartment renters were pretty much responding to a mishandled situation which is to their discredit in being effective, successful peacemakers by doing something in front of others for the motive of probably respect or pride in who they want to associate with. The party of apartment renters pretty much could use a man in the house, and if it's supposed to be me this is not a good start. They personally acted different in the off-hours which means when nobody is around; they have been much more polite and receptive to my benefit. This is more of a publicized attempt to teach the lesson that someone else's opinions are always better than a person who sees it right but uses the same concepts but in a different medium- meaning I agree but wish to go about it in a manner that is suitable for me. I actually admit to liking Annie a little better than Betty to be on the safe and truthful side even though I have been sort of trying to pretend that I am chasing after Betty by writing horrific love-letter attempts. I can sort of reluctantly imagine Annie being in the arms of another person, which is definitely not a problem for me. I really wish Annie would be spiritually content by finding someone to help complement her fragile and precious traits. I just fear that Annie may have been in a relationship that became broken but she invested a lot of herself. This is not an attempt to destroy Annie's image; I would actually help by listening and accepting her and being a friend who wants to just plainly love people who give you a hard time. For a very short and not so handsome guy that I am. A person has the ability to turn it around whenever he or she wants to. That faith puts me in a better situation than most people. A song incants, "Why can't we be friends?" while avoiding all the sexual references. I believe that I touched upon a universal truth that can be only described in feelings and more words that transpire to maintaining relationships with people outside the owners' property that is used and touched upon by people who rent the place and invite people who reflect on violence with diplomacy and cover it up. I cannot do anything only with that. Everything else, I will stay neutral. I just appeal for sake of noticing that a Court's favor coming from my request could benefit everyone in this world. Annie and Betty do not live at the rented apartment in a permanent basis but they are source of this conflict. The source of this whole conflict does not revolve around an apartment. It transcended from someone else trying to do others favors but almost had the chance to get away with it. I know now that justice is served through God's eyes without me having to really do anything. With Annie, I was sort of offended about having to feel physically attracted to her and how I felt impelled to talk to her about not putting me on Facebook. With Betty, I've had this thing of liking her for some reason and thought maybe the act of bringing up going out with her might have been bad timing. Normally, young and single women have historically felt complemented when I said something about their good looks or natural propensity of being nice. It's been really difficult for me to say these things about Annie and Betty because they have blown me off. I just feel impelled to talk to them to bring them relief somehow and let go of this adrenaline rush from having negative focus on them. Everybody else did not want to respect or discern this decision of mine; I am not scaring them because I took measures early to prevent Annie and Betty from being influenced by others to place a TRO on me. Annie did not testify at court; I think it's a resemblance of how I sort of like her and get along with people I actually tend to like. At the time, I was not feeling really good about Betty, Lee, or my sister and because of it relating to not really liking them I think that's the result I saw happen at the court, which is practically shooting myself in the foot. I've been a coward all this time and failed to come clean with myself because of my private practices. I want to get outside more and hang out with close friends who are related to this circle. I am practically head over heels fond of some people at the church. That is why, those girls remain friendly with me even if they decided not to keep me posted with important stuff. What I wrote was insignificant and only a minority compared to the whole population treated it like life and death; it's horrible. To keep this thing at bay without me shedding any bad light, I'm going to treat this as a topic of establishing a spousal relationship- no fair, I never asked them out in the first place and was not being a jerk because it took them over a year to not finally tolerate me. They went way overboard and allowed themselves room to curve into the land of nod.  

Man It's So Easy To...

Man it's so easy to get people to stop bothering you. It only gets easier once you make the commitment to become selfless. It's a concept that Carlos Julio, a guy I know, has some trouble still understanding. To encourage and influence others to be selfless (yes, do your part to make the world happy), make the commitment to be a selfless individual. Then, incorporate a lot of hard work at your workplace and be so diligent at your job and truly be selfless and ready to be so giving to others. YOU HAVE TO LIKE DOING THIS; IT'S A KEY and can contribute to becoming the most imaginative good person you could think of. I mean be so ready to forgive others who trespass against you in a social sense. Be willing to take care of the guy like Julio who just is seeking a little attention through being jealous of your conduct and tries to be a little weird about it to make something excusable in his mind. Just be forgiving to this guy Julio. Generosity may seem so hard to give but the benefits of it could be pretty nice. I guess don't lose yourself and continue being yourself. Exercise common sense. 

I think having a good job and then trying to help economically after you're convinced a guy like Julio is going to not try to take advantage in a selfish manner with others will pick a guy like Julio up and help him to conceive things a little better. So while I was in a pretty angry state, I guess it was just so bottled up and that all I had to release it was just yell at someone; I know how bad that sounds and I really hate the idea of yelling and don't really want to resort to more screaming and then taking it to a much weirder level without exercising unconditional forgiveness. Just don't get really mad and stay sharp with a guy like Julio. Forgive him and still have a little fun with him. Nothing really wrong with that.   

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

I Finally Understand How To Live Emotionally

It's more simple than I could imagine. With whatever that upsets me or angers me, I'm supposed to be able to forgive the person who offended me. I did not know that's all it requires. I guess I was just not smart enough to pick it up so fast, but the fact that I understand now and am applying forgiveness to those who offended me, my life has become much more free. With the way I see it, they pretty much forced me out and were pretty much at the top of their worst behavior; whereas, I was acting pretty emotional and trying to control my temper which I did manage to do. Now that I am forgiving them, I no longer feel that much burden anymore.

Secondly, I'm supposed to not lose heart and keep trying. Sometimes, my mind may act not so sure but I'm supposed to be actively engaged in doing something for all the things that my heart is desiring. I need to live being peaceful with myself and just flourish with this attitude that wishes to hack difficult circumstances while being in a relaxed and happy state for the rest of my life. It feels like 90% of it is all in my mind.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 9

1. I would have normally waited for three months to prove that I am not crazy, but the deadline looked slated to be a month. Therefore, I must file out of suspicion of fraud and grounds of perjury. I did not present my defense and the honorable Court allowed negotiation of time to take place, because of my submission to the Court with a lawyer. The transcript of the Court should state it was a borderline case, based on me having said nothing. All over the internet, I have read of accounts where people have tried to force upon a restraining order for selfish purposes. A person has felt she is going to court to prevent a restraining order from being placed on her, after facing a TRO repeatedly. She counter-filed a restraining order and this is something I am truly contemplating for my own protection. A party of highly aggravated and effeminate men have been associated with my former TRO, so I think it would make sense if I decided to go around town to dine at someone's favorite restaurant. I have only not stated my side to prevent this from happening, and it feels like 90% of the time, the favor is going to go on the person who filed it by default without wanting to carefully look at the details. The cops came over, tried to arrest me out of their own abuse and failed to do so, and I am now laughing over this whole incident. I am definitely confident after not being so sure of myself that I did not do anything which was the problem in allowing this to happen. From having not done anything, it appears to be my fault on the surface from having purposefully given lack of knowledge from others who only wished to speak with brevity while angered by something they felt totally tortured by. It was something that they did not want to resolve within themselves because the origin was from their own psychological faculty. I did not insult them directly, nor harrass them in a manner that made me end up in jail. The officer who was trying to abuse me tried with all his might but failed to arrest me. I am under a hedge of protection from heaven and wish to be punitive by showing up and letting visitors know that these people really are not the greatest and could use a lot of good friends and sound leadership. For a church, outsiders characterize them as placing the Bible as a second-hand thing and are filled with the lusts of life. Carlos also believes that these friends totally trust him for something. I sort of see him as being quiet and when he engages, his heart is really into it and is basically being happy about assuming things going for him. I guess that's sometimes a good thing, and I could learn to love him even while he has that flaw. Maybe for a occasionally frustrated guy as me, I know how to take things well and end up stronger in the end. No matter what happens, I project success for myself and that this motion is as healthy for any person who feels mistreated or a side that feels they are better. It's practicing optimal objectivity. 

I have had the privilege of being improperly placed under arrest by a misguided officer. The reason why it is improper is because hand cuffs were applied, I was placed in the vehicle, and over all his efforts he did not take me to jail contrary to what an untruthful clergy man told me would happen. This happened at an apartment complex where others could have noticed or filed a complaint to further note that I was a being a danger to a shared property. No other neighbor who was actually occupied at their home came out to verify the commotion or add to the consensus that I was being a brat. The apartment renters may try to counter this claim but I think they will fail in getting truthful answers of witnesses that are under oath and can be potentially violated to their advocation of perjury and going about just leading them to answer what they want to hear only. The party of witnesses were pretty much laughing at the officer's remarks of advocating violence for self-defense. The officer even admitted that he was losing a lot of patience with me. The officer may note to tell everyone not to say this outloud to others, even though it still happens in future incidences. The officer may or may not want to appear to the court, and I am totally indifferent about it now because I just want to let out the truth to his forced upon appeal which supposedly may hurt the image of a body of peaceful believers over a logical incident that was only placed on arguing over principles and agreed upon principles of not needing to over-compensate personal spaces. Some officers have been noted as not being that great workers to civilization, which was surprising to me. Knowledge is a very key factor raising awareness, which is something I lacked in and made me diffident. I now feel empowered just by having this spot to just set up an appeal. I just want the Court to just review it and provide a favor that will benefit everyone in this world. I think I have an idea. Not to make any support but a lot of cool celebrities in movies get hand cuffed or placed under arrest for something minimal and to create an effect for the audience to see that there is a side of appreciating personal expressions, so I must have been attracting attention even though I did not want it to get so rowdy and never put up my daisy dukes to fight or cause someone to be hospitalized. The officer even tried to convince me that I should lose my mind to him and go to a mental hospital, which now brings a lot of laughter to me with no hard feelings. The sheriffs have been a real treat to me because they see it as me not being in trouble at all. I really admire sheriffs and possibly over an officer who is trying to get a pay check and be a desk warmer.  When the officer said that he found me in the bushes and applied hand cuffs, that really was not being completely honest.  I am sort of astonished as to how a regular resident would fall for that remark because there are no bushes for me to hide in the apartment complex. I did not even go bother their house again by knocking on it or making a highly bad noise to disturb the neighbors living in the apartment. I was expecting to receive a phone call from Jarred who had taken the liberty to message me a few times. I wanted him to do me a favor which was to get the contact number of the officer. I had visited the two stations, and they stated that this so-called officer who had applied handcuffs on me was not a legitimate police officer at the city's two offices. I believe that he not was really supposed to patrol this area and was only trying to do an ill-advised favor.  I just wanted to exercise my right to be informed about the conflict, which I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I can sort of laugh at this amusing remark now. I did see him but I hid behind a large vehicle by bending down because I'm pretty short. Afterwards, I was walking toward my vehicle. The cop greeted me as I was walking towards my vehicle. I saw the car's light flashing in my eyes and really bothered my eyes because it was pretty close, and I felt terror griping me. I was actually walking around the dog pound that is at the end of the block and is about 100 yards away from the apartment complex where the renters reside. Dogs were totally barking a lot. People were outside, and they kept on pointing with their fingers that I was walking far away from there. I actually observed the cop talk to them outside and repetitiously asked. The cop was blinded and did not know that my car was parked pretty far from the apartment complex and that dogs were barking. I speculate that I could drive another person's vehicle, stay there, and no one would notice I am there. The cop did not wish to acknowledge this because he saw me from a distance. He just wanted any affirmation that I was hiding in that bush and did not care that I was straddling away from the building as far I can. He just did not understand the human element of what I was going through. He also did not tell me in person that I was hiding in the bush and that's the reason why he arrested me. He just told me to be quiet and to "Shut up." I would like this man to tell me in court why he applied hand cuffs on me and not take me to jail! I actually know a friend who is in the entry level office patrol of a police force and is very friendly with people. He also knows quite a bit about professionalism and treating the accused with proper respect. He should be voted among the city's finest. He could pretty much detail where this officer who mistreated me went wrong. The officer went in to apply hand cuffs by himself without any backup and fortunately, he found someone who was not in the mood for being violent. Still with three officers, I think it is not very advisable to want to harm someone who they would think is a dangerous man and risk their lives without any sufficent evidence on the spot. There must be a class that teaches all this at an academy. This is great because he was only in the mood for mocking me by bringing out his taser gun and not very threatened by me. He was just being immature and needed some time off but was totally feeling horrible because he thinks I lied to him about not coming back. I think the cop will be a changed man regardless of what happened alreadly; he has to if the renters want to keep this restraining order going. Whether I look bad or good after this situation, the situation to really look at is that if this thing gets off, I may want to relate this as being a bad experience to the people involved and that they may have less of a reputation already. I totally wonder if the group will benefit with this coming off, but I naturally want to testify that there is a great possibility on the long or short run. Overall, the cop's natural instincts were to think that I did something wrong and that the cop was just wrong about going after his instincts this time around and that it may always be. I want to press severe discipline on the cop by talking about it with his captain. I was never booked or even saw a cell after getting handcuffed- that is too remarkable for me. I even sat in the police man's car on the back and was treated like an accused criminal. I've seen a man sitting outside and a sole woman standing behind him sort of smiling with a cop in front of both of them with his patrol vehicle. There is some relation to this just that Chris ruined it by being the one to call this immature police man. I question why Chris had to be so effeminate when he knows these things. I wonder if Chris is doing this out of jealous attention or to protect his interests, like his pride that a lion protects in a diplomatic fashion. I am thinking all of this without putting that much effort, and I am completely happy to acknowledge that I can be a benefit if the judge would see it my way. I promise that I am good about these situations. I won't find my way to a jail cell after the restraining order comes off; regardless of when it is even in that short time frame where they want to re-evaluate using their ignorant skills and I get to vocalize. 

Monday, April 5, 2010

Let's Get To Work Man

About nine years ago, I graduated from high school. I would then go on to practically finish college in four years with a very long major that made me take up about 210 units by the time I got out, keep in mind I did this while also transferring from a semester-long city college. It was a pain to have to take some additional courses. I have the sweat and tears of failure all underneath me. Why is it that I don't want to repeat the same thing again?

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter

Well, that's a nice picture. Okay, is that all I have to put on here for right now. I guess I don't know what else to put except finish up that funny and awfully long and super boring posts on vacating my restraining order. I'm just putting it out because I'm just sharing it. I might as well share some of my files. Eh, I guess I'm not going to try to do something stupid or something that I'll regret and then post it on this blog.

Hmm, I even wonder now if this blog is even worth any value to really place a restraining order on me. I think the two people who placed a restraining order on me really based it off of this blog. I guess I'm just writing stuff that are not really that bad and they just happened to be around to think weird about something.

If you look at it, for every person who acts pretty weird with me I think there's like 50 other people who don't mind talking to me. I read on the blog conduct of rules that there's a freedom of speech and that they can't really do anything about people slandering. Hmm, so what's the point of writing on this blog if every once in awhile I'm writing while not inspired by anything. I might as well just go play and ask those people who placed a restraining order on me to jokingly take some pills after it gets off. When the restraining order gets off for the maximum period, it's going to be highly interesting what happens next when I see them in person. So the next people who think about placing a restraining order are not going to want to place a restraining order on me because I am going to encourage them to hang tough this time around. Anyway have a Happy Easter and hope you have fun and enjoy your company. I say all this while laughing pretty hard underneath.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

TributeTo U.S. Soldiers In Middle East

I myself tried to sign up with the U.S. Army on the year I graduated from my college. I could see myself tracking down enemy signals and decoding difficult locations of the enemy. I was going to go in to be a signal intelligence officer, or that's what it seemed. I was going to be on base, probably where the general was situated and be assisting him because I would be known as military intelligence personnel.

Nowadays, it's really hard to even get that type of opportunity for me. Yesterday, I read an article about Osama Bin Laden threatening the U.S. to not give the death penalty to one of al Quaeda's senior officers who was currently in Guantanamo Bay, Cuba. I just had to write a post to give some tribute to the men and women who put themselves in harm's way to ensure the world's protection. Being a believer of my faith, I recall reading an article on the LA Times about a soldier who became water baptized in Iraq and gave witness to the coming of the Lord. May God's Spirit solely rest on all these soldier's lives. I wanted in but my parents, friends, and sister all forced me not to go in so I had to give in to them. Nowadays, I really want to do something to make this world a more meaningful place.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 8



The person some people think that I had trouble with in a conflict are actually okay about communicating with me in a friendly manner. It is because I have not really done anything bad to them. Jarred and Carlos are still able to talk to me over the phone. Jarred has been capable of messaging me; I believe that my writing is on its way to polishing up and under a serious tone, it really does not make too much noise and cannot disturb or disparage others with a clean purpose. I never really had a motive for making people uncomfortable in the first place. The girls that were supposedly bothered by me, when they were inside I had heard them sort of feel okay with me being there. Meaning under my covert activity, they had not really talked or felt bothered by me or even might have been a lot better. It must be an emotion that I could place under feminine impersonal desires. I believe I had all this time to think about it and be relaxed over this whole incident now to really come to this conclusion. I was able to get some support that was related to my personal assurance as well. There's nothing wrong about petitioning if one feels that something is wrong in the judgment. That is why the lawmakers have made it an available situation to give both parties an equal chance. I did not get my chance in this hearing, so I just practically file to try to follow up. I don't think anyone was really that mindful enough to have the desire of going out of their way, but I believe I actually carry that trait.  I believe that I fall under the category of exception after taking time to understand what was right and wrong about this situation. The main point being that the focus of the problem did not place a TRO on me, then I think this restraining order should be vacated.

    I think Annie and Betty not wanting me to be on a Facebook page may relate a little to silly pretensions. They have been pretty direct with me in person, so I don't think they are incompetent and scared with me at all. With being able to talk with them, I believe that sets a more serious tone and is more vital than just a Facebook connection. Because we can connect by mingling, I do not see a bad reason for having the potential to write to them. It's a little questionable with how they might not want me to know who their friends are, especially when I have already been around the majority of them. If it's dealing with their suspicious problems of viewing their photos, I can see them in person and think they look fine even if I am agitated or annoyed by them. Problems started with the aggressors who brought up an issue with me, but keep in mind that the Court has not confirmed me to be violent which I am ecstatic over. Because of their personal decision and incidences which I care about as a distant friend should, I feel that my pursuance of one of them is going to be downplayed by me.