Wednesday, November 4, 2026

Becoming Better Refined

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
  2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
  3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
  7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

---

Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and work on an online course. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing and trading. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there.

---

Current philosophical approach:

1. There are two extreme and opposite personalities when having relationships with others: toxic independence and codependency. The balance happens from landing somewhere in the middle.

2. It takes self-realization and self-discipline to respond to a common cue in a better way and change the bad habit.

3. I have four affirmations that go in order to deal with anything that bothers me, no matter how small or great:
  1. Make sure your heart is coming from a good place.
  2. Always put on a good show.
  3. Limit codependency and/or give better advice to someone annoying.
  4. Be funny!
---

End Game Mode

1. Get rich through trading and investing.
2. Work out to earn a decent amount of muscles and nicely defined abs.
3. Stay happily married.

---

Steps Being Taken to Get to 'End Game Mode'

1. Emotional intelligence and inner strength are the most important attributes to obtain before proceeding further.

2. Becoming rich will fund your desired activities like giving back to charities or doing expensive healthy activities like traveling to do cool stuff with the best gear and hiring some good guides along the way.

3. Having a fit body is the next best thing you can do for yourself, after acquiring enough mental strength and emotional intelligence.

4. My goal is finding a hot wife I can be comfortable settling down with for the rest of my life!

---

What did I do right today?

I'm just grateful to the Lord Jesus for dying on the cross to pay for our sins and with God providing the Holy Spirit to convict us of our sins, along with His mercy to allow us to always confess our sins and go for turning away from them. Christ is risen! 

---

When it comes to making yourself better and refined, I'm very biased about agreeing with putting your faith in Jesus because I believe he's the way, truth, and life (John 14:6). If anybody comes to him, then they shall find rest and Jesus mentions this in the Bible by making an analogy of being no longer thirsty or hungry.  John 6:35 (NKJV) says, “And Jesus said to them, ‘I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst.’”

It's like you can put aside all your fleshly worries and then care about the true principalities that govern this world. Ephesians 6:12 (NKJV) says, "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places."

It's reaching this true joy, satisfaction, peace, and clarity which are very difficult things to constantly have all at once that you can more easily live out as a better changed version of yourself. I believe putting your faith in Jesus can truly offer this. It's something like this that's been going on for me and I give all the credit to the Lord! 

Tuesday, November 3, 2026

Learning How to Prepare Well for Anything

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
  2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
  3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
  7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

---

Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and work on an online course. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing and trading. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there.

---

Current philosophical approach:

1. There are two extreme and opposite personalities when having relationships with others: toxic independence and codependency. The balance happens from landing somewhere in the middle.

2. It takes self-realization and self-discipline to respond to a common cue in a better way and change the bad habit.

3. I have four affirmations that go in order to deal with anything that bothers me, no matter how small or great:
  1. Make sure your heart is coming from a good place.
  2. Always put on a good show.
  3. Limit codependency and/or give better advice to someone annoying.
  4. Be funny!
---

End Game Mode

1. Get rich through trading and investing.
2. Work out to earn a decent amount of muscles and nicely defined abs.
3. Stay happily married.

---

Steps Being Taken to Get to 'End Game Mode'

1. Emotional intelligence and inner strength are the most important attributes to obtain before proceeding further.

2. Becoming rich will fund your desired activities like giving back to charities or doing expensive healthy activities like traveling to do cool stuff with the best gear and hiring some good guides along the way.

3. Having a fit body is the next best thing you can do for yourself, after acquiring enough mental strength and emotional intelligence.

4. My goal is finding a hot wife I can be comfortable settling down with for the rest of my life!

---

What did I do right today?

I'm just grateful to the Lord Jesus for dying on the cross to pay for our sins and with God providing the Holy Spirit to convict us of our sins, along with His mercy to allow us to always confess our sins and go for turning away from them. Christ is risen! 

---

I believe the main natural thing for optimizing your preparation is intuition. It can only get better, if what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!  You basically spend a lot of time with it and try to always be engaged by concentrating your thoughts and actions on a proper flow of reasoning. I've observed a pair of twins I'm close friends with who appear egotistical and act like they know what they are doing while being outwardly highly confident because they like to see themselves as the top standard on doing anything right. They can get it wrong and then start reacting while turning so mad at the world after failing multiple and countless times! They can get really depressed and then switch it up all of a sudden with laughter and annoying mockery. I don't know how they easily manage to continue surviving, but it seems like they are doing just fine with it. Jokingly, they should be an inspiration for anybody to keep on living their life, if they ever feel really down and want to already give up. 

I think those twins I mentioned are an extreme case of hard-headedness and inability to publicly admit you were being stupid on top of being so wrong. They never like to say it out loud, but visibly look like they are going to cry! Actually, they like keeping their mouths shut around new people since they love getting any free positive attention and this was probably reinforced from holding onto good manners. Yeah, on the surface, they look well-mannered but when you get to know some people at a personal level then man, there are some annoying things about them and plenty of it! They also can't stand some things that are pretty minor and it's like no wonder they had to sometimes break up with some people. I don't really care about any of it to be honest since I've already accepted all of them to be like family and because they are still my friends! 

Monday, November 2, 2026

Winding Down to the Big Professional Exam

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
  2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
  3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
  7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

---

Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and work on an online course. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing and trading. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there.

---

Current philosophical approach:

1. There are two extreme and opposite personalities when having relationships with others: toxic independence and codependency. The balance happens from landing somewhere in the middle.

2. It takes self-realization and self-discipline to respond to a common cue in a better way and change the bad habit.

3. I have four affirmations that go in order to deal with anything that bothers me, no matter how small or great:
  1. Make sure your heart is coming from a good place.
  2. Always put on a good show.
  3. Limit codependency and/or give better advice to someone annoying.
  4. Be funny!
---

End Game Mode

1. Get rich through trading and investing.
2. Work out to earn a decent amount of muscles and nicely defined abs.
3. Stay happily married.

---

Steps Being Taken to Get to 'End Game Mode'

1. Emotional intelligence and inner strength are the most important attributes to obtain before proceeding further.

2. Becoming rich will fund your desired activities like giving back to charities or doing expensive healthy activities like traveling to do cool stuff with the best gear and hiring some good guides along the way.

3. Having a fit body is the next best thing you can do for yourself, after acquiring enough mental strength and emotional intelligence.

4. My goal is finding a hot wife I can be comfortable settling down with for the rest of my life!

---

What did I do right today?

I'm just grateful to the Lord Jesus for dying on the cross to pay for our sins and with God providing the Holy Spirit to convict us of our sins, along with His mercy to allow us to always confess our sins and go for turning away from them. Christ is risen! 

---

The reason why I'm making such a big deal about AWS Certified Solutions Architect- Professional (SAP-C02) is because it's being retired and updated into SAP-C03 on November 17, 2026. This is only a couple weeks away. I'm planning to take this exam on the last day, so there's this pressure to pass it on my first try. 

The reason why I care so much is because I don't want to spend any more money and additional time to prepare for the updated test. I would rather study my heart out right now and pass this exam since I've already invested so much studying into it. I've spent nearly 25-30 hours per week over the last five weeks. I think I'll finally attempt to pass it after Week 7. 

It isn't the end of the world, if I end up failing it for some reason. I'm not going to kick my own behind if it happens to be honest. I'm already over those sensitive emotions, since I'm not having any trouble truthfully calling myself a nameless sinner here! The Lord Jesus saves and it's his love for the world that made him die on the cross for everybody's sins. For God so loved the world, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life (John 3:16). Then, there were a few who replied by talking about the next verse! 

Sunday, November 1, 2026

Better Studying Concepts

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
  2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
  3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
  7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

---

Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and work on an online course. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing and trading. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there.

---

Current philosophical approach:

1. There are two extreme and opposite personalities when having relationships with others: toxic independence and codependency. The balance happens from landing somewhere in the middle.

2. It takes self-realization and self-discipline to respond to a common cue in a better way and change the bad habit.

3. I have four affirmations that go in order to deal with anything that bothers me, no matter how small or great:
  1. Make sure your heart is coming from a good place.
  2. Always put on a good show.
  3. Limit codependency and/or give better advice to someone annoying.
  4. Be funny!
---

End Game Mode

1. Get rich through trading and investing.
2. Work out to earn a decent amount of muscles and nicely defined abs.
3. Stay happily married.

---

Steps Being Taken to Get to 'End Game Mode'

1. Emotional intelligence and inner strength are the most important attributes to obtain before proceeding further.

2. Becoming rich will fund your desired activities like giving back to charities or doing expensive healthy activities like traveling to do cool stuff with the best gear and hiring some good guides along the way.

3. Having a fit body is the next best thing you can do for yourself, after acquiring enough mental strength and emotional intelligence.

4. My goal is finding a hot wife I can be comfortable settling down with for the rest of my life!

---

What did I do right today?

I'm just grateful to the Lord Jesus for dying on the cross to pay for our sins and with God providing the Holy Spirit to convict us of our sins, along with His mercy to allow us to always confess our sins and go for turning away from them. Christ is risen! 

---

I give thanks to the Lord for having a slightly better understanding of how to study. I used to dread studying so much, and I think a lot of it really came from experiencing reader fatigue fast. It would be frustrating to read sentences out loud in your head without moving your mouth and then not catch what it meant. It can still get this way a lot even when I only try to listen to my Bible app! I keep on doing it only because of putting my faith in Jesus.

Alas, I finally found a natural solution to alleviate this conundrum. I'm giving credit to the Lord for allowing me to study for one of the world's hardest IT exams. The best part is that I'm enjoying it, so I just naturally came up with something that's more efficient. I'm not here to sell anything. All of this is something that I can mindlessly explain here like it's no big deal. The only catch is that it will probably make up only a few sentences for my general explanation. 

Instead of trying to pronounce words out loud in your head while reading, you can relieve the pressure by not trying to do that. I remember trying to read through this thick book that's loaded with 1000 pages of research for just learning how to read. I bought it surprisingly at a library for only a few dollars because it was a donated book they wanted to sell. This book mentioned doing the same thing! 

Being the stubborn person I am, I kept on pronouncing words in my head and like to still revert to it while reading my past write-ups. I'm so used to having headaches from reading my own write-ups because it's only me that I'm dealing with. 

Long story short, I started reading fast in my head while trying to avoid sounding out words and then it made my studying sessions easier to handle. It's like less of a load to deal with and you are flowing better. My mind still likes to wander off, but now I can catch up faster by re-reading it up to like five times faster than how it was before. From going after trying to understand what I read line by line and doing it as fast as I can, I have a studying method that feels more effortless. 

All of this positive effect happened from only not trying to say the words out loud in my head while reading. This sort of makes sense because there is like a brain delay that happens and maintaining it with normal concentration is always cumbersome. No wonder why some people don't bother themselves to study, even if it would be better for them. 

Saturday, October 31, 2026

Facing Haunting Memories

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
  2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
  3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
  7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and work on an online course. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing and trading. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there.

---

Current philosophical approach:

1. There are two extreme and opposite personalities when having relationships with others: toxic independence and codependency. The balance happens from landing somewhere in the middle.

2. It takes self-realization and self-discipline to respond to a common cue in a better way and change the bad habit.

3. I have four affirmations that go in order to deal with anything that bothers me, no matter how small or great:
  1. Make sure your heart is coming from a good place.
  2. Always put on a good show.
  3. Limit codependency and/or give better advice to someone annoying.
  4. Be funny!
---

End Game Mode

1. Get rich through trading and investing.
2. Work out to earn a decent amount of muscles and nicely defined abs.
3. Stay happily married.

---

Steps Being Taken to Get to 'End Game Mode'

1. Emotional intelligence and inner strength are the most important attributes to obtain before proceeding further.

2. Becoming rich will fund your desired activities like giving back to charities or doing expensive healthy activities like traveling to do cool stuff with the best gear and hiring some good guides along the way.

3. Having a fit body is the next best thing you can do for yourself, after acquiring enough mental strength and emotional intelligence.

4. My goal is finding a hot wife I can be comfortable settling down with for the rest of my life!

---

What did I do right today?

I'm just grateful to the Lord Jesus for dying on the cross to pay for our sins and with God providing the Holy Spirit to convict us of our sins, along with His mercy to allow us to always confess our sins and go for turning away from them. Christ is risen! 

---

I’m honestly not doing that great at dealing with these random and distressing memories that can trigger while studying and trying to push myself to the max. It’s a sensation that I’ve always had with me. The good thing is that I don’t respond too sensitive about it anymore but it does feel like I’m blurting out stuff I shouldn’t be saying involuntarily. I’ll just leave it to the obvious imagination to the reader on how I’m constantly tripping myself up here.

I’m constantly asking for the Lord’s forgiveness and trying to get a hold of myself here. I’m doing rather well about keeping this always silent whenever I’m around others. I’m very dedicated to being like this because I just don’t want to look plain weird and undisciplined to anybody in general as a person! It’s when I’m by myself that I’m constantly slipping up. Maybe I’m trying to instinctively accept some kind of loophole from my faith in the Lord.

I think the Lord’s grace and unconditional love is beyond amazing and satisfying while filling me up with so much vigor! I’m going to continue trying to put in the work whenever I’m by myself and trying to study intensely to not give into these random haunted thoughts that can pop up out of nowhere from the temporary and strange discomforts I am facing at the moment. I’m not the same immature and arrogant kid who failed constantly at this and dwelled in prideful self-pity while repeating the cycle and trying to get by in life.

Friday, October 30, 2026

Moving Forward With Better Implications

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
  2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
  3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
  7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

---

Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and work on an online course. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing and trading. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there.

---

Current philosophical approach:

1. There are two extreme and opposite personalities when having relationships with others: toxic independence and codependency. The balance happens from landing somewhere in the middle.

2. It takes self-realization and self-discipline to respond to a common cue in a better way and change the bad habit.

3. I have four affirmations that go in order to deal with anything that bothers me, no matter how small or great:
  1. Make sure your heart is coming from a good place.
  2. Always put on a good show.
  3. Limit codependency and/or give better advice to someone annoying.
  4. Be funny!
---

End Game Mode

1. Get rich through trading and investing.
2. Work out to earn a decent amount of muscles and nicely defined abs.
3. Stay happily married.

---

Steps Being Taken to Get to 'End Game Mode'

1. Emotional intelligence and inner strength are the most important attributes to obtain before proceeding further.

2. Becoming rich will fund your desired activities like giving back to charities or doing expensive healthy activities like traveling to do cool stuff with the best gear and hiring some good guides along the way.

3. Having a fit body is the next best thing you can do for yourself, after acquiring enough mental strength and emotional intelligence.

4. My goal is finding a hot wife I can be comfortable settling down with for the rest of my life!

---

What did I do right today?

I'm just grateful to the Lord Jesus for dying on the cross to pay for our sins and with God providing the Holy Spirit to convict us of our sins, along with His mercy to allow us to always confess our sins and go for turning away from them. Christ is risen! 

---

It looks like after about a month of studying, I've learned enough to have the foundation to pass that difficult IT test which is like mentally climbing one of the 7 Tallest Peaks in the world! The AWS Cloud Solution Architect-Professional (SAP-C02) has literally this kind of reputation. I enjoy it and feel like I'm thriving over the pressure to conquer this challenge! I think it matches my career profile that I grew up with. I was really into playing with computers and felt so lucky about my dad owning one of the earliest PCs from the mid-80s which was a very dumb machine compared to the self-managing computers we have now.  My dad abandoned the machine, but I would play with it daily. 

I had a best friend who was a better computer whiz and way more book smart. He set me up really well with some fun computer games.  Man, I loved that dude but it broke my heart when he left my school to move a couple cities away while being only miles apart. It felt like we were a world apart daily and I was suffering so much. This is how my childhood felt like. You exaggerate some special relationships. 

I had to format my dad's computer every time I turned it on because it was only running like 16 megabytes of volatile RAM. The hard drive was cooked, so I think it was rewired to install software onto the onboard chips. Whenever you shut down the computer, everything you did would be lost. I remember how I worked on some school reports and it was always very frustrating to lose all my hard work, so I had to grind and finish it in one session. Still, this is probably where I learned to man up and get it done at a very young age.

Thursday, October 29, 2026

Optimizing Concentration Skills

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

  1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
  2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration.
  3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
  4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
  5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
  6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself.
  7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
  8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
  9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  
Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman."

My Top 10 values are in order
  1. Faith
  2. Love, Happiness, and Joy
  3. Personal freedom
  4. Balance
  5. Understanding
  6. Health
  7. Strength and self-reliance
  8. Inner harmony
  9. Goodness
  10. Enjoyment
I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands.

Affirmations of what I want:
  1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
  2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!
Affirmations of what I want to believe:
  1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
  2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.
Affirmations for compelling visions:
  1. I have a purpose for living.
  2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.
Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:
  1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
  2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.
Affirmations for connecting to the heart:
  1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
  2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.
Affirmations for acting:
  1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
  2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises.
Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands.

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

---

Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and work on an online course. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing and trading. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there.

---

Current philosophical approach:

1. There are two extreme and opposite personalities when having relationships with others: toxic independence and codependency. The balance happens from landing somewhere in the middle.

2. It takes self-realization and self-discipline to respond to a common cue in a better way and change the bad habit.

3. I have four affirmations that go in order to deal with anything that bothers me, no matter how small or great:
  1. Make sure your heart is coming from a good place.
  2. Always put on a good show.
  3. Limit codependency and/or give better advice to someone annoying.
  4. Be funny!
---

End Game Mode

1. Get rich through trading and investing.
2. Work out to earn a decent amount of muscles and nicely defined abs.
3. Stay happily married.

---

Steps Being Taken to Get to 'End Game Mode'

1. Emotional intelligence and inner strength are the most important attributes to obtain before proceeding further.

2. Becoming rich will fund your desired activities like giving back to charities or doing expensive healthy activities like traveling to do cool stuff with the best gear and hiring some good guides along the way.

3. Having a fit body is the next best thing you can do for yourself, after acquiring enough mental strength and emotional intelligence.

4. My goal is finding a hot wife I can be comfortable settling down with for the rest of my life!

---

What did I do right today?

I'm just grateful to the Lord Jesus for dying on the cross to pay for our sins and with God providing the Holy Spirit to convict us of our sins, along with His mercy to allow us to always confess our sins and go for turning away from them. Christ is risen! 

---

I don't have a great idea on how to gain better concentration and manage it consistently yet. It's just not natural enough and my mind will just go off to think about random things that I'm not always proud of! Despite having this despicable weakness, I'm doing the best I can to work with what I have during the daily time the Lord has allowed us.  

My intuition is telling me to have the best concentration, you need to be enjoying whatever it is you're trying to focus on. From leaning into listening to my Bible audio, I have plenty of conflicting thoughts entering my head. I guess this is a natural indication that I'm a sinner and can't help it too much with needing to live in the flesh sometimes. To be frank, listening to the Bible doesn't always feel exciting and it's like when one of the main apostles or prophets is trying to teach something, it's like you can feel like not paying attention to it. Some believers might not even be aware of this happening to them while they are still trying to give it their all. I think it's a lot of wrestling that believers have to deal with sometimes. There are still even plenty of believers out there who don't try to engage with their Bibles in a daily fashion. 

The main thing that's keeping me going with trying to stick to studying this difficult Bible that can feel very offensive to my sinful soul sometimes is just putting my faith in Jesus. It's been all worth it so far, even from the start when it was really hard. It's still difficult, but I'm not giving up. I give all the credit to the Lord Jesus for being the author and finisher of our faith (Hebrews 12:2).