I am using the iPhone right now. One of my friends was able to show me a very speedy patented way of texting on his Blackberry. The Blackberry is so underrated these days, and there's also this hype of it being the official mobile phone used by White House officials! I am a little envious and wish I had access to that software .
These days it seems like those few people with emotional problems are pretty much ladies who want to just fret about their problems and leave me alone because they want to be left alone. I managed to salvage my relationship with my sister from choosing to accept her stupidity and moving on. They seem to try to make themselves more prettier at times. I seriously notice that from the times they looked a little less uglier. Maybe, they are trying to get back at the system or something but because I am better than the general crowd, they must be suffering!
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Monday, June 30, 2014
Consistent Format
I'm going to try to write daily on this blog and dedicate it to my attempts in trying to make full sense and meaning of the Bible. I don't want to add my own personal preferences into the Bible, I want to just let God's Word flow into my heart and out onto this blog. Obviously, I'm not going to know everything about the Bible, but I would like to do the best I can to have an open heart that's ready to receive the fullness and grace of His glory!
I'm probably going to be switching it up quite a bit by talking about other stuff going on in my life. I'll do my best to be sensitive about my personal life and not offend anyone while letting out my thoughts, which can be very smart at times and overwhelm a good number of people who want to go against me. It's going to be just a dedication for myself because I figure that no one is really going to try to haunt nor stalk this online blog. I might as well do it as an accessory to help myself become better at communicating and see how my personal growth is occurring.
I'm probably going to be switching it up quite a bit by talking about other stuff going on in my life. I'll do my best to be sensitive about my personal life and not offend anyone while letting out my thoughts, which can be very smart at times and overwhelm a good number of people who want to go against me. It's going to be just a dedication for myself because I figure that no one is really going to try to haunt nor stalk this online blog. I might as well do it as an accessory to help myself become better at communicating and see how my personal growth is occurring.
Becoming 100%
I would really like to become a very comprehensive 100% detail-orientated type of person and doing everything that makes me fully happy. This probably means that I'm going to have to let go of things that just waste my time and to spend my time focusing on good things. It's really difficult for my right now to factor in everything. I'm just leaving out a few important things because I'm spending most of my free time just lounging around. I'm going to have to become a more practical person in order to make myself happy.
I do things that are a lot of fun in general and is pretty cool to work towards achieving. I'm so different in a good way because of my faith in God. My belief in Jesus has changed my outlook so many times with how I want to conduct myself in this world. It's been hard and tough and at times, I'm not even trying to follow Jesus even though I've been embedded so strongly with his morals.
I'm ready to give in to the better things and to let go of the things that take away my time. I'm trying my best to make sense of them and to always remember it, but I guess that's really hard for me to so right now because I'm not hurting myself or anyone right now while engaging in my personal acts.
I do things that are a lot of fun in general and is pretty cool to work towards achieving. I'm so different in a good way because of my faith in God. My belief in Jesus has changed my outlook so many times with how I want to conduct myself in this world. It's been hard and tough and at times, I'm not even trying to follow Jesus even though I've been embedded so strongly with his morals.
I'm ready to give in to the better things and to let go of the things that take away my time. I'm trying my best to make sense of them and to always remember it, but I guess that's really hard for me to so right now because I'm not hurting myself or anyone right now while engaging in my personal acts.
Letting Things Go
I guess I have issues right now where I'm not spending my time wisely the way I would like to. I realize it for myself because I just don't feel right with the usual rituals that I put myself in. It seems like there's always a connection where I become motivated about doing something before I go after it.
All in all, it's just my emotions playing tricks with myself. I think I've been having a hard time settling them all this time. I really want to not engage in those wasteful activities anymore, unless it has something that I really value. I think I really wasted my weekend by not doing the productive things that I really should have done. It's like another week wasted, even though I'm working and getting paid and all of that stuff. It's just my personal time, where I'm not really developing as I would like. I'm going to have to fix that sooner or later.
All in all, it's just my emotions playing tricks with myself. I think I've been having a hard time settling them all this time. I really want to not engage in those wasteful activities anymore, unless it has something that I really value. I think I really wasted my weekend by not doing the productive things that I really should have done. It's like another week wasted, even though I'm working and getting paid and all of that stuff. It's just my personal time, where I'm not really developing as I would like. I'm going to have to fix that sooner or later.
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Focus
I'm going to let go of my addictions with being playful to myself. I like to play card games by myself like a weirdo because I built a Magic: The Gathering deck. All the spell cards on it are rare or mythic rare, which is another word for saying ultra rare! I just play those spell cards with myself and go underneath, "Oh yeah, I'm going to kick some ..." It's like a self-ritual of becoming a prideful warrior before I put myself in harm's way again. I tested the deck against a buddy's deck which used to beat me up so much; I ended up defeating his deck repetitiously finally!
I'm really going to stop watching T.V. even though what I said is generally a lie. I'm going to stop playing video games even though that's a lie too! I think in my head I'm thinking about this beautiful woman who is my Facebook friend and also single; I'm going to try to limit those imaginations even though that might be a lie. I interacted with her and it was funny to observe her getting angry on the post because I made fun of her in a smart way that made sense and everyone could laugh at and then take a mental slap from her while she turned cool with me again. She's a nice lady and also a beautiful person!
I'm really going to stop watching T.V. even though what I said is generally a lie. I'm going to stop playing video games even though that's a lie too! I think in my head I'm thinking about this beautiful woman who is my Facebook friend and also single; I'm going to try to limit those imaginations even though that might be a lie. I interacted with her and it was funny to observe her getting angry on the post because I made fun of her in a smart way that made sense and everyone could laugh at and then take a mental slap from her while she turned cool with me again. She's a nice lady and also a beautiful person!
Admitting My Struggles
This month I've been really occupied thinking about a bunch of things and trying to really get into a productive mode while finally accepting everything that's happened to me. I've been just very inconsistent about a lot of things, so I think that's the very reason that caused a drop out with my readers on this blog.
I'm pretty aware that I'm a pretty harmless guy but can cause some true annoyances onto other people's lives. These people are just but a few and who have some emotional problems. I've finally managed to get one of those selfish individuals to like me again. I pretty much messaged him on Facebook, and this is no lie, he had unfriended me on Facebook and then blocked me, but then unblocked me again. Afterwards, I messaged him, and he responded back with a picture of a thumbs up symbol!
That's quite a ways gone now. Also that church who gave me some trouble looks incredibly bad now that I think of it. One question I have to ask is if they are really small because people see them as really quirky people or is it because they just have issues with people in general? They did act out weird against me because I set myself apart as different. If the general public who doesn't really worship God so vehemently like they might do while being under false, emotional pretenses doesn't fit in like I did, then could it be like so with most people? They pretty much played upon building a church while acting like very nice people- I pretty much screwed them over in that area because I did something they couldn't handle and then they blew up on me and others who were never in the scene might have got scared of them as well and ran off. I scared off some of the main people there who caused trouble for me; they are gone from that church now.
Yeah, I'm a big bad wolf in a way, without haven't meant to be that way intentionally. Or did I underneath, but my guilty conscience blocked my hypnotized stance of trying to screw them over while succeeding at it? It's all funny! I was grieving and going through those five stages of grief and finally made it to the amicable, acceptance stage!
I'm pretty aware that I'm a pretty harmless guy but can cause some true annoyances onto other people's lives. These people are just but a few and who have some emotional problems. I've finally managed to get one of those selfish individuals to like me again. I pretty much messaged him on Facebook, and this is no lie, he had unfriended me on Facebook and then blocked me, but then unblocked me again. Afterwards, I messaged him, and he responded back with a picture of a thumbs up symbol!
That's quite a ways gone now. Also that church who gave me some trouble looks incredibly bad now that I think of it. One question I have to ask is if they are really small because people see them as really quirky people or is it because they just have issues with people in general? They did act out weird against me because I set myself apart as different. If the general public who doesn't really worship God so vehemently like they might do while being under false, emotional pretenses doesn't fit in like I did, then could it be like so with most people? They pretty much played upon building a church while acting like very nice people- I pretty much screwed them over in that area because I did something they couldn't handle and then they blew up on me and others who were never in the scene might have got scared of them as well and ran off. I scared off some of the main people there who caused trouble for me; they are gone from that church now.
Yeah, I'm a big bad wolf in a way, without haven't meant to be that way intentionally. Or did I underneath, but my guilty conscience blocked my hypnotized stance of trying to screw them over while succeeding at it? It's all funny! I was grieving and going through those five stages of grief and finally made it to the amicable, acceptance stage!
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Embracing and Letting Go of Bad Addictions
I realize afterwards that I made a stupid decision that affects me only all the time! I want to no longer be a single and middle-class working, young man. I want to be a married man to the most beautiful woman on the planet! I've been getting short-sighted all the time and allowing my own personal emotions to defeat me on a daily basis. I know that I'm losing out because my brain is just that smart for allowing my heart to notice.
It's from actually caring about spending a lot of time isolated from others and also having to put in so many boring hours to get to a place that I am not even certain of. I don't have any loyal direction that I can ensure myself with actual positive measures yet.
When I'm in the mood for something, it's very difficult for me to not give into it. I think when I hear sirens from an ambulance near my workplace, I get that scared feeling of how I shouldn't be breaking the law. It works really well for me and then I use my crafty brain to try to get around the system and do my thing! I've even succeeded and have a wild story or two to just keep to myself. I'm not much of a show-off when it comes to doing questionable deeds in a moral sense. I'm even too bored and lame to go commit anything bad that would violate others' rights. I might have motivation from being angry, but I know that the next stage for me would be depression. In a way, I think everyone would rather prefer being angry than depressed. Being depressed in this world really sucks!
Trying to focus my mind to go to work and forcing myself to eat up hours for earning pay is pretty depressing. There's nothing I can do about, but I do what I have to do. If I'm already depressed from being bored with my job sometimes, then maybe I can seriously cope with larger issues in life that would bring me down. Also, from having a willful mind I could just cope with the depressing issues.
It's from actually caring about spending a lot of time isolated from others and also having to put in so many boring hours to get to a place that I am not even certain of. I don't have any loyal direction that I can ensure myself with actual positive measures yet.
When I'm in the mood for something, it's very difficult for me to not give into it. I think when I hear sirens from an ambulance near my workplace, I get that scared feeling of how I shouldn't be breaking the law. It works really well for me and then I use my crafty brain to try to get around the system and do my thing! I've even succeeded and have a wild story or two to just keep to myself. I'm not much of a show-off when it comes to doing questionable deeds in a moral sense. I'm even too bored and lame to go commit anything bad that would violate others' rights. I might have motivation from being angry, but I know that the next stage for me would be depression. In a way, I think everyone would rather prefer being angry than depressed. Being depressed in this world really sucks!
Trying to focus my mind to go to work and forcing myself to eat up hours for earning pay is pretty depressing. There's nothing I can do about, but I do what I have to do. If I'm already depressed from being bored with my job sometimes, then maybe I can seriously cope with larger issues in life that would bring me down. Also, from having a willful mind I could just cope with the depressing issues.
Living Through Discomfort While Agitated
I realize that going after people who are unwilling to change might actually be a very bad idea. Being ignorant to a lot of things isn't really going to always make a person happy though. There's one problem to not knowing about something- if the issues suddenly take hold in your life, it becomes a struggle.
I think I made a couple of people feel angry from being a super, good writer and making them feel bad about themselves. They are definitely not really worth mentioning though because they do not really represent the general public. In other words, I'm saying that they are just a bunch of dumb Asians who have nothing better to do but spend time with each other with the very little precious time that we have. One of my buddies really suffer from trying to be very mindful about all the little details and not enjoying the hardship of living life with uncertainty.
I think the ideal person shouldn't really be bothered by anything that happens in this world. Even though I feel like a total wreck underneath, no professional has recommended me for getting therapy. Those dumb individuals were just going crazy with me and having a hard time managing their own feelings; I didn't do anything bad to them really. At the same time, I feel what the opposition might be thinking.
Okay, I have impressed upon myself in that I could literally be a great writer when I'm in the spur of the moment. It's during those times that I don't know of how great I'm actually being. Basically, I have an inconsistency of a stroke of genius but can't close it out. In other words, the very few people who are against me when compared to the general population want me to stop trying because they are afraid that I would succeed at something. I realize that the time I spend with dumb people have been a bad investment on my end, but I still love them for being human.
I think I made a couple of people feel angry from being a super, good writer and making them feel bad about themselves. They are definitely not really worth mentioning though because they do not really represent the general public. In other words, I'm saying that they are just a bunch of dumb Asians who have nothing better to do but spend time with each other with the very little precious time that we have. One of my buddies really suffer from trying to be very mindful about all the little details and not enjoying the hardship of living life with uncertainty.
I think the ideal person shouldn't really be bothered by anything that happens in this world. Even though I feel like a total wreck underneath, no professional has recommended me for getting therapy. Those dumb individuals were just going crazy with me and having a hard time managing their own feelings; I didn't do anything bad to them really. At the same time, I feel what the opposition might be thinking.
Okay, I have impressed upon myself in that I could literally be a great writer when I'm in the spur of the moment. It's during those times that I don't know of how great I'm actually being. Basically, I have an inconsistency of a stroke of genius but can't close it out. In other words, the very few people who are against me when compared to the general population want me to stop trying because they are afraid that I would succeed at something. I realize that the time I spend with dumb people have been a bad investment on my end, but I still love them for being human.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Laughing Comfortably With Myself
I'm starting to look back so naturally at my own personal writing. It seems very fun and adventuresome and occasionally scary to some people. I have like this inner-fake voice that acts like my critic sometimes, honestly. I had it with some crazy and vivid imaginations while stressing out over trying to get into Harvard. You know how that goes, being alienated and locked up in a room. My play time was just video games, instead of people. Yeah, so I wasn't very well-versed in dealing with people at the time because I was so shy.
These days, I think my intelligent mind and willing heart for doing what's right has been slowly taking over thanks to my growing faith in Jesus. I've been a believer all my life, so I understand the rituals people go through in life when it comes to being a Christian; I also understand some people get so cranky which keeps them from moving on with something, when they could do so much greater things and used by God. Likewise, I think it's really a calling that is just so hard to pick up on. The number one thing all Christians should do is to read the Bible and study it for growing in faith and applying God's perspective and not for their own gain!
There's a Bible verse that says how ignorance is bliss in that the judgement would be greater for someone who knows the Bible and is under sin then for someone who doesn't know anything about it. Being condemned to hell is bad for everyone and even for the person who really doesn't know that he's sinning and doing evil things to hurt his own body out of doing stupid things. There's only one ticket to heaven, according to the New Testament, which is entering into a relationship with God the Father through believing upon His Son Jesus for salvation.
I don't know if I seem really preachy, but I've been a Christian all my life and have doubted it too at times. Yet, from searching for material to give it a chance, I found that journey to have been a wonderful thing for myself and I can't go back no matter what. This life is worth losing for my trust in God with what lies on the other side. I would even die defending others in a war or something and have no problems, if duty calls with it because of my stability from trusting in God.
These days, I think my intelligent mind and willing heart for doing what's right has been slowly taking over thanks to my growing faith in Jesus. I've been a believer all my life, so I understand the rituals people go through in life when it comes to being a Christian; I also understand some people get so cranky which keeps them from moving on with something, when they could do so much greater things and used by God. Likewise, I think it's really a calling that is just so hard to pick up on. The number one thing all Christians should do is to read the Bible and study it for growing in faith and applying God's perspective and not for their own gain!
There's a Bible verse that says how ignorance is bliss in that the judgement would be greater for someone who knows the Bible and is under sin then for someone who doesn't know anything about it. Being condemned to hell is bad for everyone and even for the person who really doesn't know that he's sinning and doing evil things to hurt his own body out of doing stupid things. There's only one ticket to heaven, according to the New Testament, which is entering into a relationship with God the Father through believing upon His Son Jesus for salvation.
I don't know if I seem really preachy, but I've been a Christian all my life and have doubted it too at times. Yet, from searching for material to give it a chance, I found that journey to have been a wonderful thing for myself and I can't go back no matter what. This life is worth losing for my trust in God with what lies on the other side. I would even die defending others in a war or something and have no problems, if duty calls with it because of my stability from trusting in God.
Making Sense Of My Negative Emotions
I realize that I get even moody with myself at times, but I don't act on it. I still have some issues that I'm working with people. What I really dread and have a hard time getting over is when a person does something funny like delete me as a friend on Facebook. I still get those childish feelings of wanting to hang on to good things which is just an extra profile linked on to my Facebook page, so I could show off to the world that I have a good amount of Facebook friends! That's pretty much why I get bothered when a person decides to remove me and not even communicate with me.
I understand why I've been so mad and bothered about people wanting to leave me alone and asking me to stop bugging them. They aren't that great of people to begin with, but that's not really the point. I just want to have a friendship count and keep it building, so I actually have a place where I could feel I identify in this world and be comfortable with being myself. Is it worth becoming a terrorist over? Not really. Why? Because I want to be rich and very strong and give back to the needy in a comfortable and fulfilling way. I think giving back, even though it might be very weird to a lot of people, builds up my confidence and happiness- I get tempted to feel like I'm better than they are. Not entirely true though! I just get like this electrifying feeling of having done something in this physical world and to be a part of something no one ever has to really know about!
I understand why I've been so mad and bothered about people wanting to leave me alone and asking me to stop bugging them. They aren't that great of people to begin with, but that's not really the point. I just want to have a friendship count and keep it building, so I actually have a place where I could feel I identify in this world and be comfortable with being myself. Is it worth becoming a terrorist over? Not really. Why? Because I want to be rich and very strong and give back to the needy in a comfortable and fulfilling way. I think giving back, even though it might be very weird to a lot of people, builds up my confidence and happiness- I get tempted to feel like I'm better than they are. Not entirely true though! I just get like this electrifying feeling of having done something in this physical world and to be a part of something no one ever has to really know about!
Trying Not To Lose Track Of Time
I'm noticing this personal emotional pattern of mine of where I feel really down about stuff and am having a hard time from being randomly discombobulated. I get that because I place my thoughts first above anything else sometimes and get worried about the ramifications it might still have. I'm actually sort of a sensitive guy, but I like to be brave about it underneath. I just have this piece of mind take over sometimes and just go after something, whether I fail at it or not. Even if I fail, I'm so used to feeling down with myself. These days, it's a little easier for me to let it go and pick up the broken pieces and rebuild myself again.
Actually to be really honest, I'm really wishing that I was married and intimately active with a really attractive lady. It's funny that I mention it right now and have a sheepish grin on my face about it. I even look at myself in the mirror and laugh about how short I turned out to be for my own stocky size. I am getting a kick out of my own, personal human frailties and flaws.
I noticed the girl I like on Facebook to not be really on her profile like a hawk anymore. I'm still wondering all the time if she's going to discontinue her Facebook for some time to take a break from it. She's done it to my knowledge about three times already, which is sort of a lot. I think she was raised a good Christian girl and might actually be a very nice and wise person as well, who likes to have fun. To be a little honest, she's pretty hot but I don't really feel like messaging her because I don't want to look desperate or anything. I don't want to beg and encourage something, especially when I could spend my time developing. Until the day I find someone else, if she ends up with someone else, it's going to suck so much for me!
Actually to be really honest, I'm really wishing that I was married and intimately active with a really attractive lady. It's funny that I mention it right now and have a sheepish grin on my face about it. I even look at myself in the mirror and laugh about how short I turned out to be for my own stocky size. I am getting a kick out of my own, personal human frailties and flaws.
I noticed the girl I like on Facebook to not be really on her profile like a hawk anymore. I'm still wondering all the time if she's going to discontinue her Facebook for some time to take a break from it. She's done it to my knowledge about three times already, which is sort of a lot. I think she was raised a good Christian girl and might actually be a very nice and wise person as well, who likes to have fun. To be a little honest, she's pretty hot but I don't really feel like messaging her because I don't want to look desperate or anything. I don't want to beg and encourage something, especially when I could spend my time developing. Until the day I find someone else, if she ends up with someone else, it's going to suck so much for me!
Winning and Losing the Right Way
I'm starting to understand that maybe it's better to be a loser with stuff that are just a bunch of nonsense. It would be better to lose in those areas and become more confident and happier in areas that I want to grow strong stronger in.
Deep down inside, I just had this small voice inside of me which feels demonic sometimes say, "You're dangerous buddy" or something like that. I sort of have a short term memory too because I don't pay attention to my subconscious with that stuff like waking up from a dream, so of course it would be normal for everyone else, too.
I'm going to start my routine with working out again. I picked up a pamphlet on Hot Air Balloon rides, and I don't think I need to go along with it because there's already one near back home for me. I missed my major opportunity to check out an actual NASCAR race I was interested in attending live, but since it was being broadcasted over the Internet, I was like maybe I could just stay indoors with the A/C and watch it on my laptop. It's not a big deal anyway, and it's not really what I went to Michigan for.
Deep down inside, I just had this small voice inside of me which feels demonic sometimes say, "You're dangerous buddy" or something like that. I sort of have a short term memory too because I don't pay attention to my subconscious with that stuff like waking up from a dream, so of course it would be normal for everyone else, too.
I'm going to start my routine with working out again. I picked up a pamphlet on Hot Air Balloon rides, and I don't think I need to go along with it because there's already one near back home for me. I missed my major opportunity to check out an actual NASCAR race I was interested in attending live, but since it was being broadcasted over the Internet, I was like maybe I could just stay indoors with the A/C and watch it on my laptop. It's not a big deal anyway, and it's not really what I went to Michigan for.
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
It's So Much Fun
I think burning calories is a lot of hard work and feels very pressing on the body. Yet, I want to continue to endure it. I've also learned to stay awake with this weird trick- I imagine myself waking up after drinking some cold water. I do it constantly and repetitiously while my mind wants to be stubborn and fall asleep during work or classroom hours. Yet, the multi-tasking effort isn't keeping me from paying attention to what's going on around me now. It's pretty cool that I have developed something that keeps me awake in class now.
I'm so different from the rest of the people; I know this because I'm just weird in a good way. Quite possibly, that's a bad thing to say; I don't know, I like to see myself as super normal and in a good way while living a life that's fun, upbeat, and concentrated on effort to make great things happen. I never really was that appealing in the past to others, even though I was advanced by some girls too. Actually, without me knowing about it but how they did, I turned them down very nicely by saying that there was already someone for me- they were the ones who asked me assertively first and I just replied. It was a pretty funny exchange where the girl was being aggressive and chasing me while I just responded to her. Actually, none of those girls really got my attention except for one girl, who already had a boyfriend. She became interested in me and chased after me too, but I felt weird about reciprocating my feelings back to her because she was already involved with someone else. I think it was a mistake to become enamored with her eventually. I'm actually laughing while having written this statement too, so it's getting old already to keep on writing LOL in a long sentence form, so I'm going to stop now. Whether the reader wants to take me seriously or not, when I say something that's questionably a joke or not, I mean to be funny and get good laughs about it. I'm going to try not to offend anybody either; it's not in my taste that I prefer, but I do understand some people can get moody all of a sudden and for me to have caught them at a bad time.
I'm so different from the rest of the people; I know this because I'm just weird in a good way. Quite possibly, that's a bad thing to say; I don't know, I like to see myself as super normal and in a good way while living a life that's fun, upbeat, and concentrated on effort to make great things happen. I never really was that appealing in the past to others, even though I was advanced by some girls too. Actually, without me knowing about it but how they did, I turned them down very nicely by saying that there was already someone for me- they were the ones who asked me assertively first and I just replied. It was a pretty funny exchange where the girl was being aggressive and chasing me while I just responded to her. Actually, none of those girls really got my attention except for one girl, who already had a boyfriend. She became interested in me and chased after me too, but I felt weird about reciprocating my feelings back to her because she was already involved with someone else. I think it was a mistake to become enamored with her eventually. I'm actually laughing while having written this statement too, so it's getting old already to keep on writing LOL in a long sentence form, so I'm going to stop now. Whether the reader wants to take me seriously or not, when I say something that's questionably a joke or not, I mean to be funny and get good laughs about it. I'm going to try not to offend anybody either; it's not in my taste that I prefer, but I do understand some people can get moody all of a sudden and for me to have caught them at a bad time.
Not Living In Sin Anymore
It's been a lot easier to want to get out of a sinful life from having read up on how certain behaviors associated with it make the person stupid. For example, shooting up crack is a sin because it is abusing your body without even knowing it and the Bible says to take care of your body so that it wouldn't bring you into a state of anxiety from being so hooked onto receiving that form of temporary pleasure, while destroying your body. Being always drunk and an alcoholic is a sin, too; sure, you could forget about your painful status in life while doing so, but it comes at a cost of eventually losing your liver and being able to manage another good life from having a second chance, if it comes your way. In a way, they are both a disease; and I am going to have to agree with Dr. Drew who manages to appear on CNN and describe it in that manner.
I'm not saying I was a drug addict all this time nor a drunkard, but I know what it could do to me and I'm going to swallow my pride regarding those things and not go after it. I prefer to create my own endorphins from viewing beautiful women sometimes from walking around town and from feeling like a lonely single man, but I don't want that to get out of hand too. I'm pretty much laughing while I wrote that last comment, too.
I understand how the human body can sometimes be in a state of frustration, feeling oppressed, or how it wants to blame something that's out of control. I'm thinking about this one girl I like unconditionally. I know she's not perfect, but even if she was to lose her physically attractive appearance, I would still go after her because I think her personality is the right one for me. It's either her now or someone who is at least slightly a little better. I'm going to go for settling down now, but if it can't be her then might as well go for someone who I know would be better. I'm not saying someone is better than her either because I think her line of conduct and prettiness would make me happy. I already have a sweet car that I sometimes walk to and think to myself, "Wow, is this really my car that I bought?" I'm laughing again with that last remark.
I'm not saying I was a drug addict all this time nor a drunkard, but I know what it could do to me and I'm going to swallow my pride regarding those things and not go after it. I prefer to create my own endorphins from viewing beautiful women sometimes from walking around town and from feeling like a lonely single man, but I don't want that to get out of hand too. I'm pretty much laughing while I wrote that last comment, too.
I understand how the human body can sometimes be in a state of frustration, feeling oppressed, or how it wants to blame something that's out of control. I'm thinking about this one girl I like unconditionally. I know she's not perfect, but even if she was to lose her physically attractive appearance, I would still go after her because I think her personality is the right one for me. It's either her now or someone who is at least slightly a little better. I'm going to go for settling down now, but if it can't be her then might as well go for someone who I know would be better. I'm not saying someone is better than her either because I think her line of conduct and prettiness would make me happy. I already have a sweet car that I sometimes walk to and think to myself, "Wow, is this really my car that I bought?" I'm laughing again with that last remark.
Good Enough For Me
I am not very consistent with this whole online blogging thing, but I did notice that a few of my posts are considerably hits compared to others, especially from analyzing it. It seems like my style at its best is the kind you don't really respond to with me directly about. I think I'm more of a person who would be more appealing in person to others rather than indirectly.
Actually, when I direct my comments at people where they are supposed to read it; they sometimes get well a little moody about stuff. I've been someone who shouldn't be really shooting himself in the foot, but I did it to face it for myself and to man up about it. Wow, for the circumstances I've really had to deal with, I've been really fortunate and blessed to have been raised into the person I am today.
For the stupid things that I've pushed myself to deal with, I think they aren't really worth it anymore especially when I could chase after beautiful women and make that my conquest now. I say that with a huge laugh outwardly to myself. No one is currently in my room, so I'm pretty much freshening myself up and smiling all over the place like a happy, little kid would who really has no worries to deal with in the real world. When I'm outside my room or around my mom, I have to act pretty serious!
Actually, when I direct my comments at people where they are supposed to read it; they sometimes get well a little moody about stuff. I've been someone who shouldn't be really shooting himself in the foot, but I did it to face it for myself and to man up about it. Wow, for the circumstances I've really had to deal with, I've been really fortunate and blessed to have been raised into the person I am today.
For the stupid things that I've pushed myself to deal with, I think they aren't really worth it anymore especially when I could chase after beautiful women and make that my conquest now. I say that with a huge laugh outwardly to myself. No one is currently in my room, so I'm pretty much freshening myself up and smiling all over the place like a happy, little kid would who really has no worries to deal with in the real world. When I'm outside my room or around my mom, I have to act pretty serious!
Monday, June 16, 2014
Going To Get Ready For A Good Week
I pretty much picked up a few pamphlets on things that interested me. Yesterday, they had a NASCAR speed race at the Michigan track. Danica Patrick and Dale Earnhardt, Jr. raced in it, but what made me not go see it was from noticing that it was being broadcasted. I saw online some very nice and first-class rated seats at the stadium which allows you to see everything so clearly and live at the center of it all. It was being sold for $100 which is actually not a bad deal for myself, especially from knowing that it's outdoors in the sun and also how sporting events can get very pricey sometimes. I also didn't go to sleep until like 5 am and all the action was starting at 6 am, so I said to heck with it and left it alone. I also didn't feel like I was going to be that very important of a person attending there either, so it didn't cross my mind to go check it out.
Anyhow, I have other stuff to try to do like going on a balloon ride in the country side of Michigan. It seems like a very good deal, especially with the sun setting. I might try it out, even though I've already rode on a plane that's only a two-seater. That was a fun date with a female friend; she's a little crazy, but it's still all good.
Anyhow, I have other stuff to try to do like going on a balloon ride in the country side of Michigan. It seems like a very good deal, especially with the sun setting. I might try it out, even though I've already rode on a plane that's only a two-seater. That was a fun date with a female friend; she's a little crazy, but it's still all good.
Being In A Faster Time Zone
I'm originally raised up in the Pacific Time region, which is really nice and feels pretty laid back. Right now, I'm doing my thing in the state of Michigan which is about three hours faster. There are a few things going on with me, if anyone out there is pretty interested. I don't feel very comfortable about sharing them with even myself on this blog. However, I'm not plotting anything evil at the moment which would be in my best interest, so there's really not anything to worry. I'm sure a few people out there would still get anxious with me and then try to spy on my like a hawk from being unrelentingly skeptical; it happens!
Just writing that comment made me a laugh a little inwardly. Most definitely though, I don't think people really intend to do me harm for the most part, especially if they have some beef they can't settle with me too well. I guess I'm lucky in that fashion and also from having a heart that likes to reach out to people and not really turn down people, even if others hate them.
The only people I'm totally concerned about in this world are those who are dangerous and unpredictable. I don't want to be around someone who is just going to be mad for like no reason and then go off killing others including myself. Other than that, I'm starting to become very proficient at letting this go and moving on without holding onto any negative feelings, which others still maintain with me to this day. Where I'm actually lucky is that they are afraid to do anything with me and don't want to involve me from knowing that I'm sort of a properly, raised goody-two-shoe. Yet, I've turned into quite a skilled man who can relieve tension with any woman from just stating a few words to form a sentence. I enjoy the art very much and take pleasure in resolving conflict with beautiful women, who can sometimes be sensitive and troubled creatures for unnoticeable reasons.
Just writing that comment made me a laugh a little inwardly. Most definitely though, I don't think people really intend to do me harm for the most part, especially if they have some beef they can't settle with me too well. I guess I'm lucky in that fashion and also from having a heart that likes to reach out to people and not really turn down people, even if others hate them.
The only people I'm totally concerned about in this world are those who are dangerous and unpredictable. I don't want to be around someone who is just going to be mad for like no reason and then go off killing others including myself. Other than that, I'm starting to become very proficient at letting this go and moving on without holding onto any negative feelings, which others still maintain with me to this day. Where I'm actually lucky is that they are afraid to do anything with me and don't want to involve me from knowing that I'm sort of a properly, raised goody-two-shoe. Yet, I've turned into quite a skilled man who can relieve tension with any woman from just stating a few words to form a sentence. I enjoy the art very much and take pleasure in resolving conflict with beautiful women, who can sometimes be sensitive and troubled creatures for unnoticeable reasons.
Useful Tool
I ended up buying myself a small hard drive that gets powered by a USB. If I had the time, I would have actually taken a picture. Right now, I'm not really in the mood for doing that. I just feel a little comfortable about sharing how the drive is 1 TB and I only have used up 20 GB of it right now to store all my songs.
I really like the usage of it because it's very portable and convenient for me. Instead of having to always rely on a physical connection and a little lag for an iCloud which is pretty cool, I actually have something on the go with me. I might actually end up signing up for one of those eventually, which would make everything even more wireless for me.
I really like the usage of it because it's very portable and convenient for me. Instead of having to always rely on a physical connection and a little lag for an iCloud which is pretty cool, I actually have something on the go with me. I might actually end up signing up for one of those eventually, which would make everything even more wireless for me.
On A Business Trip
These days I'm just rolling along and trying to do stuff that pertains and interests me. Of course, there are moments where I'm not feeling good about something because I'm annoyed with something I can't change. I guess that's where the feeling of accepting things comes in handy.
Basically, I'm currently working in the field of metrology right now. It's been actually pretty fun despite the classes being expectedly a little dry. Yet, it deals with some form of programming so I can actually live with it. The opportunity is something I was actually sort of born to be a part of, so I feel very blessed in that sense. It reminds me, I could really start reading the Bible for myself a little more. It's been pretty hard for me to dedicate myself on this blog.
Basically, I'm currently working in the field of metrology right now. It's been actually pretty fun despite the classes being expectedly a little dry. Yet, it deals with some form of programming so I can actually live with it. The opportunity is something I was actually sort of born to be a part of, so I feel very blessed in that sense. It reminds me, I could really start reading the Bible for myself a little more. It's been pretty hard for me to dedicate myself on this blog.
I Guess When I Have Time
I think my personality in general isn't really that naturally great at getting stuff done. In a way, if I want to accomplish something then I'm going to have to work for it. I guess recently I've been doing things in my personal life to try to make myself ahead and more balanced.
Yet, there are some distractions that come along my way and keep me from getting to my own intended direction. It feels like imaginatively every time I make a stride to be pleasing to God that the devil is filled with displeasure and is shouting a huge comment of disapproval at me, "Noo!" I don't really want to listen to Satan anyway nor be scared about his tactics with me.
Anyway, I've been having a pretty enjoyable time and I am really aware of my personal time. I think the successful people really manage their time properly and find themselves enjoying what they are doing to earn a living. Sometimes, we influence those around us and are really into. I want to see myself being in a leadership position as well. It's pretty unfortunate how in life, some very good people end up being dealt a bad hand and have to suffer immensely for it. I think there's a reason for all of it, but I surely do want to help out if I can get myself in the mood pretty consistently.
Yet, there are some distractions that come along my way and keep me from getting to my own intended direction. It feels like imaginatively every time I make a stride to be pleasing to God that the devil is filled with displeasure and is shouting a huge comment of disapproval at me, "Noo!" I don't really want to listen to Satan anyway nor be scared about his tactics with me.
Anyway, I've been having a pretty enjoyable time and I am really aware of my personal time. I think the successful people really manage their time properly and find themselves enjoying what they are doing to earn a living. Sometimes, we influence those around us and are really into. I want to see myself being in a leadership position as well. It's pretty unfortunate how in life, some very good people end up being dealt a bad hand and have to suffer immensely for it. I think there's a reason for all of it, but I surely do want to help out if I can get myself in the mood pretty consistently.
Monday, June 2, 2014
Trying To Be Consistent
I think being positive really helps a lot. These days, I've been listening to a Christian radio station mainly even among all the hype of people cussing each other out over road rage. I only listen to it, while driving, so yeah, it's very peaceful up in my head for the most part. I might let a dumb driver just go for the moment while not raging over thinking about how beautiful God is.
For the most part, I feel like there's a lot of good things to laugh at in a positive manner with me. I'm going to try listing my goals without giving regards to any discipline at the moment. That's where I'm trying to dedicate myself now. I guess I can always add to the list if someone just doesn't feel right and I can't handle something to well to try to compensate for it. In a way, I haven't even been doing stuff on my list but just like hanging out with friends and watching movies with family and stuff like that. With the spare time I have, I think I should try living out most of my goals on a daily basis because that's what I wrote down feeling it would make me happy.
I'm pretty good at writing down and peeking into my own conscience. Other times when I'm in the moment, I have a hard time with that and it gets easy to sidetrack myself especially if I don't have any commitments. I think I'll commit myself to what makes me happy on a daily basis and go from there. I don't care about how hard it is, and I see it that if I don't try now then I'll never by on my way of living a happy and successful life.
For the most part, I feel like there's a lot of good things to laugh at in a positive manner with me. I'm going to try listing my goals without giving regards to any discipline at the moment. That's where I'm trying to dedicate myself now. I guess I can always add to the list if someone just doesn't feel right and I can't handle something to well to try to compensate for it. In a way, I haven't even been doing stuff on my list but just like hanging out with friends and watching movies with family and stuff like that. With the spare time I have, I think I should try living out most of my goals on a daily basis because that's what I wrote down feeling it would make me happy.
I'm pretty good at writing down and peeking into my own conscience. Other times when I'm in the moment, I have a hard time with that and it gets easy to sidetrack myself especially if I don't have any commitments. I think I'll commit myself to what makes me happy on a daily basis and go from there. I don't care about how hard it is, and I see it that if I don't try now then I'll never by on my way of living a happy and successful life.
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