Kick Start

Being able to write about several things over the past by being definitely true to my colors has helped me realize that God is great in delivering! With the struggles that still accumulate through success, it's more like a humbling feeling through the storm and good blessings associated with it. Being a young fellow coming to my senses after being a prodigal, I realize that absolute honesty and pursuing after God is the most important step anyone can take.

It's comely enough for me to continue writing despite the low probabilities of receiving any monetary gifts. I think through adjusting periodically and placing my writing under some tests of fire, I can be a voice that is heard. I know that I'm pretty sensitive and the thrill of not knowing what's happening through the civilized writing that I've composed. It's so easy to refuse hearing another man or woman's issues in the heart especially by being so self-absorbed.

My self-absorption in the past has always been about how I feel that I'm a lousy person making little strides to be a better person. Through trying my best to not offend and give all my energy to the other person in burdensome periods of myself, meaning I literally developed cortisones from self-induced stress by trying to connect with friends under total exhaustion. I was just too quiet through the times I felt baffled with things they had to say. I literally hated these periods because of all the confusion in my emotions, like being torn from my belief systems in a feeling-based way. In short conclusion to give myself another rest period, I realize that a person's voice can indeed be powerful even though the person doesn't feel it under the territory of pursuing after God with the heart and not for any selfish reason at all! Start reading the Bible already if you haven't, the Lord has many exciting stories to share. May be a little challenging to connect at first, that's why I encourage going out to a good Bible teaching and fellowshipping church. Read Acts Ch. 2 vs. 42 if you haven't already. "All the believers devoted themselves to the apostles' teaching, and to fellowship, and to sharing in meals (including the Lord's Supper), and to prayer." (NLT)

Ultimate Sex in Bible

I'm starting to realize the secret to women. I know how many stubborn guys who feel they have the ultimate reason that girls would love them say that their method is right. It's quite creative and amazing how being a moral person through facing inevitable rejections could really help you cope with being on the losing end.

The secret to women is that there isn't really any. The Bible explains most of it so nicely. It's just like women asking why men don't like any of them. We both coexist and the basics of marriage life is that women have to taken cared of by their hubby. It's an honest principle that a lot of masculine beefcakes fail to realize. The Biblical principles are amazing and really teach the core of a loving and happy relationship with the spouse. Basically, the man has to love God first and then put his wife second. The man looks out for his wife's needs first before his own. Just think of all the deserving women out there. Those who are not part of the "game" you guys would love to play.

Just when the man thinks he has a big load on his shoulders, wives also play a nice role for their husbands by submitting. This makes it easier for the man to lead the household and come up with solutions to manage daily dramatic affairs. Women were born to be perfect when Eve came along, but sin sent the world upside down. Therefore, women are a little more easier to lead astray emotionally. One girl carefully confessed that she bases a lot off her emotional decisions, which could make it hard to be logical sometimes- example, her going shopping and running a credit card bill a little high. Sin was not part of God's original intent which so many people have trouble understanding. We are loved by God and encouraged to multiply our faces in godly homes that disciple their children into holding their ground when being tossed around like waves.

Anyone struggling with their appearances? This is so amazing finding that I understand now. Women don't really care about a man's height, although some are negatively impressed by it. It can take some trivial convincing through the pursuance but that is not the main reason why women reject a man who so covets sexual attention at times. I find that women are not really too fond of men who like to flaunt their bodies and talk about being a model. This is one of the most lethal moves because women can't really use an uncommitted man's body for her being served. To be on the safe end and have protection from feeling doomed without a soul and no concern of living; the thrill of life includes sex and for it to become anything less than some fun with hormones is pointless. To have a dedicated and sexy wife, it's better to be rewarded a thousand times better than swinging with just a "consenting" adult.

Energy Testimony

I'm finding it a little difficult to battle my narcolepsy. I believe that it's all about having proper diet, rest, and utilizing time to work out. I did manage to control my diet for about two months, which helped me regain my physical level of energy. After that, I started to wind my way down the toilet a little. I think it's in this manly behavior that we as men would love to drink beer, party with pizza all the time, and watch a superbowl-type extravaganza as much as possible all year.

I personally find myself attracted to Jesus, even though the flesh tells me to ditch God's ideals. I don't do it for religious purposes but more for stability in my life and the hope attached with it. I think God does exist in heaven and that all should come to the knowledge of Jesus. I know it's a little hard with all these questions and from people not perceiving their hearts enough to turn to him. There are so many things to conquer in life, and all of it can't be done without the Lord's help.

I'm personally going to try my best to get enough rest, have enough healthy food to eat, exercise at least three times a week, invest some time developing spiritually through the renowned Bible, have tons of good fun like going on physical adventures (mountain climbing) and make some money...

My Thought About World Focus

I seriously wonder where all our focus has gone in this world. Like, it seems that people have a hardened heart for pleasing only themselves. I come to realize that everyone has a soft spot when they are in a weak position. I guess it's easy to judge how a few people can grow up having everything they ever wanted materialistically. Even though with all this money and glitz, some celebrities still resort to drugs and alcohol from trying to get a high in their life. Life can get seriously depressing for everyone at times.

I think most of us try to numb away the past pains that we have felt. We sometimes get hit in a position that could turn us into a shell. Having walked in a lot of misery over feeling like I was lacking in something, like money, recognition, and glory, I have come to realize that those things are influences that an average person doesn't need to worry about. We all seriously have a calling in life to find acceptance and be tuned in with the system. I myself had a little trouble finding a waking direction. My life all changed when I came to the realization of a simple faith has made a dramatic appeal to me. I was only a third grader when I came to realize a higher power in heaven, tugging on my heart. I remember that before I was not really accountable but trying my best to please my parents by obeying every command they told me. This faith to this day has been challenging to uphold with all the influences the world wants to uphold for selfish reasons. It's like friends support their selfish decisions as long as it appeals to them as well. Like a support group, and when someone in the group they love is acting weird they might have the heart to change the man. I am safe to say that I am not a religious person but someone who is experiencing an authentic relationship with God. If you feel like God is touching your heart, Romans 6:23 states For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord. By repenting our sins and turning in the direction Jesus the true savior of this world, we can experience ultimate joy and peace of security for eternity. God has designed man to worship a creator and to live in full harmonious satisfaction with Him through our living out the teachings of Jesus that remain in born again hearts.