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Thursday, December 31, 2009
Just work at it
Okay this is so hard because life is not that easy. Okay I'm just randomly writing something right now. I'm just going to make this thing really short today. It does not matter what I am putting here as long as I put something down here everyday. It's time to add in some consistency to the best of my ability and to use the stuff that are more worthwhile and going for.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Finishing What You Started
There's a list that I am going shamelessly put in what I'm going to finish now. Right now, I am an independent contractor who has several opportunities if I am willing to travel far and am smart in how I manage my hours. I am also in line for the cool job with employment.
Here's my list that I'm going to finish if I make it so far in life:
1. Make a video game
2. Write a book
3. Convince some girls to let others see me on their facebook profile. =D (more on this later)
4. become employed at a radio station
5. get a license to drive a stupid bus
6. become a trained medical transcriptionist
7. put a website while applying all this naughty training with earning money
8. become an all-around I.T. expert
9. grow taller, get a six-pac, become a triathlon athlete
10. start giving money away (that I earn from having good cash flow) like crazy to good charities and wonderful organizations like a good Biblical based ministry.
Here's my list that I'm going to finish if I make it so far in life:
1. Make a video game
2. Write a book
3. Convince some girls to let others see me on their facebook profile. =D (more on this later)
4. become employed at a radio station
5. get a license to drive a stupid bus
6. become a trained medical transcriptionist
7. put a website while applying all this naughty training with earning money
8. become an all-around I.T. expert
9. grow taller, get a six-pac, become a triathlon athlete
10. start giving money away (that I earn from having good cash flow) like crazy to good charities and wonderful organizations like a good Biblical based ministry.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
What can I do?
This is really dumb writing about all the other jobs out there that I could do when I already have a job. Nonetheless, I'm going to write this one really fast. I don't care what I'm putting here so I'm going to analyze some situations for myself.
Life is hard and sometimes our psychological situations make it really hard for us to continue working, but it's through tough times and remaining good and living under the principles of the Bible that I believe any man can find peace and happiness while living on this world. Overall, you gotta just do what you have to do.
These are the opportunities that have stuck with me so far even under all this trouble in finding a job and stuff like that. I might as well detail it because it does not matter if people want to follow it or not or even be like the last person on the world to be treated to it. The reason why they may not be so popular is because you have to personally invest your money into it. It also takes time to finish the training. These things are such a hassle in its actuality and really force people to compromise. That's probably why they are like the most annoying jobs to apply for no matter how much they say they don't want you. Everybody would like a job where you don't have to put any money or additional time into it and then get paid a grip load. Unfortunately, I'm seeing a lot of jobs where anybody is being taken as long as they put some money into. That's what I hate the most sometimes about commission-related work. Even a restraining order can't really affect you from obtaining one of these jobs as you commit to it and finish the program.
1. Bus driver : you basically get a bus permit and then drive a stupid yellow bus that you order around and maintain kids under peaceful situations. Minimum start up is about $100 to pay for the cat-scan and bus license fees.
2. Mystery Shopper: you get paid some money as long as you fill out the forms properly. Minimum start up is about $25 to get a Silver Certification.
3. Medical transcriptionist: you get to work at home transcribing words that doctors record in speech. You then have to put all of his talk on paper and make it professional so everybody can be happy and manage medical information on a patient.
4. Car dealership: it's still around. The business may be so bad right now but people still work at the location and some places are doing better than others. Despite the economic problems, people still need cars and I think used cars can make a dealer a lot more profit than a new car.
5. Military/Police force: if you are still young and possibly thinking about serving the country. It might be a way to go, but it all depends on the person.
6. Radio D.J. - by responding to some ad, some radio stations need a little more help to maintain their station around the clock.
7. Internet marketing: if it's true about what some stories I read claim, you could be cashing in some huge stock-piles of money if you know where to put in your money.
8. Technology: This is something that depends on every other person. There are a lot of certifications that you could study for but these exams are pretty expensive and can a lot of time to cram and really take awhile to absorb what is needed.
9. Study law or medicine or anything requiring a license or registration with what people need (ex. optometry, dentistry, dermatology, financing/accounting). It also can be bad if you accumulate debt and don't really like the job or bail out after awhile.
10. Real estate: it's a pretty huge gamble investing in some nice homes to sell, but if the timing is right and you provide pretty good service. I'm sure it's worth the passion in selling a home to happy customers. People can make a lot of money selling homes.
11. Stock market: people have been known to grow broke or get really rich. This is a game that's pretty difficult to play but when the opportunity arises from all the studying and researching you put into it, you really end up big. You do need a side job to invest some. I think this is more like a supplement to your primary job, but if you are willing to risk it all then maybe this might not be that bad instead of taking the money to a casino.
12. Self-contracting: you name it basically- for me maybe becoming a free-lance writer would be fun for me but such a huge struggle and gamble. I would seriously need to balance my time a lot better and hope that the family I love to serve would understand my situation and be patient and understanding with me.
Personal conclusion/opinion:
okay, what should I do from here on out? Just do whatever because all of these options are not really that bad as long as I'm making something right now who really cares when it comes to providing for others and not being a pest to this world. I think I'm going to leave out the military part because I'm sort of reaching an age where my pride level is not really where it used to be. I want to leave the position open for those who really want to be in the front line and truly protect this country from a threat that is trying to get to us. It would be exciting to be out there and to really fulfill a goal in a team-working environment. God's always watching the children of God and has a place for them. I think praying for the soldiers' family is something that we could do sometimes.
Life is hard and sometimes our psychological situations make it really hard for us to continue working, but it's through tough times and remaining good and living under the principles of the Bible that I believe any man can find peace and happiness while living on this world. Overall, you gotta just do what you have to do.
These are the opportunities that have stuck with me so far even under all this trouble in finding a job and stuff like that. I might as well detail it because it does not matter if people want to follow it or not or even be like the last person on the world to be treated to it. The reason why they may not be so popular is because you have to personally invest your money into it. It also takes time to finish the training. These things are such a hassle in its actuality and really force people to compromise. That's probably why they are like the most annoying jobs to apply for no matter how much they say they don't want you. Everybody would like a job where you don't have to put any money or additional time into it and then get paid a grip load. Unfortunately, I'm seeing a lot of jobs where anybody is being taken as long as they put some money into. That's what I hate the most sometimes about commission-related work. Even a restraining order can't really affect you from obtaining one of these jobs as you commit to it and finish the program.
1. Bus driver : you basically get a bus permit and then drive a stupid yellow bus that you order around and maintain kids under peaceful situations. Minimum start up is about $100 to pay for the cat-scan and bus license fees.
2. Mystery Shopper: you get paid some money as long as you fill out the forms properly. Minimum start up is about $25 to get a Silver Certification.
3. Medical transcriptionist: you get to work at home transcribing words that doctors record in speech. You then have to put all of his talk on paper and make it professional so everybody can be happy and manage medical information on a patient.
4. Car dealership: it's still around. The business may be so bad right now but people still work at the location and some places are doing better than others. Despite the economic problems, people still need cars and I think used cars can make a dealer a lot more profit than a new car.
5. Military/Police force: if you are still young and possibly thinking about serving the country. It might be a way to go, but it all depends on the person.
6. Radio D.J. - by responding to some ad, some radio stations need a little more help to maintain their station around the clock.
7. Internet marketing: if it's true about what some stories I read claim, you could be cashing in some huge stock-piles of money if you know where to put in your money.
8. Technology: This is something that depends on every other person. There are a lot of certifications that you could study for but these exams are pretty expensive and can a lot of time to cram and really take awhile to absorb what is needed.
9. Study law or medicine or anything requiring a license or registration with what people need (ex. optometry, dentistry, dermatology, financing/accounting). It also can be bad if you accumulate debt and don't really like the job or bail out after awhile.
10. Real estate: it's a pretty huge gamble investing in some nice homes to sell, but if the timing is right and you provide pretty good service. I'm sure it's worth the passion in selling a home to happy customers. People can make a lot of money selling homes.
11. Stock market: people have been known to grow broke or get really rich. This is a game that's pretty difficult to play but when the opportunity arises from all the studying and researching you put into it, you really end up big. You do need a side job to invest some. I think this is more like a supplement to your primary job, but if you are willing to risk it all then maybe this might not be that bad instead of taking the money to a casino.
12. Self-contracting: you name it basically- for me maybe becoming a free-lance writer would be fun for me but such a huge struggle and gamble. I would seriously need to balance my time a lot better and hope that the family I love to serve would understand my situation and be patient and understanding with me.
Personal conclusion/opinion:
okay, what should I do from here on out? Just do whatever because all of these options are not really that bad as long as I'm making something right now who really cares when it comes to providing for others and not being a pest to this world. I think I'm going to leave out the military part because I'm sort of reaching an age where my pride level is not really where it used to be. I want to leave the position open for those who really want to be in the front line and truly protect this country from a threat that is trying to get to us. It would be exciting to be out there and to really fulfill a goal in a team-working environment. God's always watching the children of God and has a place for them. I think praying for the soldiers' family is something that we could do sometimes.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Writing to Perfection
I don't mean to sound so egocentric. I'm just sort of messing around with this blog right now. I don't really care what I'm putting here because it's like my place of just releasing everything that I need to say. I heard from my little sister that this one guy started writing all this bad stuff about other people and built a bad reputation for himself because it sounded like he was making stuff up. People would go on the blog and start reading all that interesting gossip that happened. That's pretty funny and evil at the same time.
I read on Wikipedia this one baseball player wrote something bad about his former teammate who was a closer on a team that made the World Series. The pitcher became so mad at the shortstop that he felt that everybody close to him wanted him to beat the later so badly on the baseball field. Sure enough, he had already plunked the player twice with the ball when they faced each other on opposite ends! It's like everybody close to baseball sort of knew it was coming and had to cover their face or just make a gesture to laugh about it.
I read on Wikipedia this one baseball player wrote something bad about his former teammate who was a closer on a team that made the World Series. The pitcher became so mad at the shortstop that he felt that everybody close to him wanted him to beat the later so badly on the baseball field. Sure enough, he had already plunked the player twice with the ball when they faced each other on opposite ends! It's like everybody close to baseball sort of knew it was coming and had to cover their face or just make a gesture to laugh about it.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Sticking To Good Values
Okay, this is just having fun again. I'm going to start working really hard and now I'm going to deal with the high point and low points of my life in the season that I have already gone through. In the past, it might been pretty difficult for me to understand some situations, but now I'm doing pretty well. I'm not worried about a lot of stuff anymore and just need to work very hard. Being as real as possible seems to be good for me. To really stick to the principles of the Bible, it's really making me realize the freedom that is associated with it. The goodness that is so much a part of it. The peacefulness and satisfaction I get out of it is so much of a marvel for me. I want to really live in the truth, while being aware of everything that is going on in this world. I'm pretty much ready to see how the world could sure use the righteous savior in this lifetime. To go above myself and do the right things and to never worry about being in a high or low position with myself.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Having Fun Today
I guess I'm having some fun today. I really need to start working very hard again. That's pretty much what I'm writing about and focusing on. I guess it's good to bring in the $$$ so you can give all of it to the world. All your hard earned cash. Yes, it's really good to give all of it to someone who really needs it in this world- to the baby who cries all night and does not know what to do with it so you need to help the baby to some healthy vegetables before he or she starts complaining about it. Oh you can promise the kid an ice cream with the super waffle cone every once of in awhile for eating well. That's pretty nice. We all need a little fat in our lives- maybe that fat is microscopic with the muscles that can burn an athletic dude's six pack but other than that I think I'm fine in working up a six pack abs. Yes, it's really hard to do even with medication but medication is too painful for me realizing how it could be dangerous and unnatural. I'm going to just struggle to get a six pack and hopefully get it some day after climbing a couple thousand mountains in the U.S.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Second Post
It's Christmas Day and I'm writing something again. I'm just trying to hit the quota of having a post per day at the end of the month. This is where I don't expect anything to happen for me. To just be normal about circumstances and everything. Being a really laid back and down-to-earth type of guy seems to be very good. To enjoy the fruits of labor for the future, I really need to be so diligent. Am I going to change everything about myself? Most probably, not. I don't think this is really healthy in trying to communicate with someone you really want to pursue after, especially when you don't try to communicate anything directly with her in this blog.
Merry Christmas!
Hello, I missed a blog post yesterday because I was really busy. I'm just going to type really fast right now and make something up. My life right now is about working very hard for all that I know and being content with myself. What I life should be more about is loving Jesus. There's someone that I really like right now and I'm just typing stuff away so it seems like this place is just annoying someone I don't even come in contact with. =( Unfortunately, I don't know everything that I should know.
This is my mistake. I became so frustrated about everything and created lots of damage to myself. I thought being frustrated was one of my strongest points, yet it's a buildup where others felt I was sort of weird. I'm starting to see this egocentricity that I had for myself. I should not have gone that direction, ever and it's really difficult to be always good; despite being around people who try to challenge you. I remember the emotions that occurred when this happened with me doing this to other people. These details are so candid for me right now that I'm making some noise that's easy to overlook. I need to look at the right places now.
This is my mistake. I became so frustrated about everything and created lots of damage to myself. I thought being frustrated was one of my strongest points, yet it's a buildup where others felt I was sort of weird. I'm starting to see this egocentricity that I had for myself. I should not have gone that direction, ever and it's really difficult to be always good; despite being around people who try to challenge you. I remember the emotions that occurred when this happened with me doing this to other people. These details are so candid for me right now that I'm making some noise that's easy to overlook. I need to look at the right places now.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Just Writing
It's just another beautiful morning today, as Christmas Eve is tomorrow. I am looking forward to having a good time for the winter. I'm not really stuck on the events that happened to me, and I'm very fortunate that with some of the things I've done, I'm still not in prison. It's been quite a ride for me, and I'm starting to understand things a little better. It just takes time and a lot of patience in dealing with some people who seem to be making you feel lots of trouble. I mean, everybody has their own level of preference in how to do things. It takes a lot of heart to progress and overcome circumstances and obstacles.
For me, I've found something covert to do which is definitely legal in making an earning. I have some nepotism with my dad's company because they feed me free gas whenever I need it. This means that I could drive to Las Vegas whenever I want to and never worry about gas, except for oil changes. I still technically have free oil changes with a car that I bought awhile ago. I guess if you have a functional brain and willing to do things a little off (not morally corrupt jobs) to compensate for the nation's lack of economic activity, then it seems like there are still endless opportunities. Being one-dimensional has its disadvantages.
For me, I've found something covert to do which is definitely legal in making an earning. I have some nepotism with my dad's company because they feed me free gas whenever I need it. This means that I could drive to Las Vegas whenever I want to and never worry about gas, except for oil changes. I still technically have free oil changes with a car that I bought awhile ago. I guess if you have a functional brain and willing to do things a little off (not morally corrupt jobs) to compensate for the nation's lack of economic activity, then it seems like there are still endless opportunities. Being one-dimensional has its disadvantages.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Christmas Time Is Around The Corner
Sometimes life deals you a hand that you don't really want to deal with. It's important to still be diligent and to try with all your ability. Even if results don't occur after everything you've given, I'm sure there's a way to get around it. It's really hard basically to get there. I guess always writing may sometimes be a waste of time. I believe that my personality is leading me to a hard work ethic where I will be working very long hours in whatever I decide to do. I might as well become really smart with my time management now. Becoming free from any obligations will be a reward that I can find so fulfilling and to really worship the Lord for.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Enjoying Stuff
Even though the past created such a diversion in my life, it's long passing now. Especially with Christmas Eve coming up, there is so much for me to look forward to. There are still a few individuals who are still a past shadow in my life, who I need to diligently labor with. I'm being pretty extremely open with them of late now and really surprising someone a lot I know. This really happens a lot with me pretty often. I'm a little different- I know. Communicating has never been so much fun.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
No need to be so mad...hmm, oh really?
Okay this posting is going to obviously only offend those who are trying to find something bad with me. I'm not going to make it that easy and be so open in this blog for those types of people. Obviously, it seems like writing nothing but good stuff about myself would be a plus for me right?
Especially if I'm not around those people who have sort of been a lost cause with me, then I guess it's going to even offend them even more if they look at this posting. I don't know why this seems to be the case for me, but I'm just going to rely on what I did in the past to sort of help me see through some things for the future. It's a hard world out there, but what's so important is continuing in the path of surrendering to God. I'm not really in the mood for cracking out of my faith; however, it took a lot of applying some personal tests to get to the faith that I'm currently in.
I really need to stop being so punctual in this world with everything now. I refuse to see myself going through a hard time and being so frustrated now. It's a decision that I need to be constantly making for myself. No matter how hard the world gets to you or others do things that really pull your strings. No matter these things because God's love brings me an abundant life.
Especially if I'm not around those people who have sort of been a lost cause with me, then I guess it's going to even offend them even more if they look at this posting. I don't know why this seems to be the case for me, but I'm just going to rely on what I did in the past to sort of help me see through some things for the future. It's a hard world out there, but what's so important is continuing in the path of surrendering to God. I'm not really in the mood for cracking out of my faith; however, it took a lot of applying some personal tests to get to the faith that I'm currently in.
I really need to stop being so punctual in this world with everything now. I refuse to see myself going through a hard time and being so frustrated now. It's a decision that I need to be constantly making for myself. No matter how hard the world gets to you or others do things that really pull your strings. No matter these things because God's love brings me an abundant life.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Feeling Good
Today, I'm finally settling in really great. What I mean is that everything is feeling good for me. I see the good side of things for myself, and how I could really try to make things better for everybody else. I think pursuing after Jesus is really making me become more in touch with myself. It's really helping me to see some nice possibilities and to not really worry about things that much. I really see how I can really persist on some things and how I should really be thinking now. I'm not at all fully bothered with anything anymore. I think I'm totally ready to really live a good life of freedom.
My plans are to add a Christmas tree to the living room and to continue working out while finding the good stuff to develop on. I'm not worried at all with the things that happened to me anymore. I think I really see where the good is really lying.
My plans are to add a Christmas tree to the living room and to continue working out while finding the good stuff to develop on. I'm not worried at all with the things that happened to me anymore. I think I really see where the good is really lying.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Getting Over It
I'm writing in such a cryptic manner right now on this blog, that it's so generalized but making sense to me at the same time now. Basically, I'm starting to connect with my own writing like never before and also feeling confident about using it to communicate with other professionals.
We are all born in this world with certain DNA characteristics. Some of us want to be taller, others a little shorter, some want to weigh less, some want to be more better looking, and it goes on. It's so hard to get away with me making fun of girls sometimes if they agitate me so much by saying stuff about their appearance in an indirect way without calling them really gross names. There are just about no girls who will ultimately agitate me about 24-7, except for my little sister.
Even though DNA gets in the way, I still can't help but think about getting taller. I don't want to do this with surgery or anything controversial. I want to grow all natural, but to foster it based upon what I've purchased it's going to take a lot of hard work and some aches with having to stretch your spinal cord everyday or decompressing your bones by hanging on a bar and jumping as high as you can daily. Swimming also seems to be a great way to contribute to growth. Lifting weights is also pretty positive as long as you don't do exercises standing up with heavy weights- that will really stunt your growth while comparing that to some urban myths. Being a short guy with big muscles seems to be acceptable as well.
What matters in the long run is having a REALLY GOOD PERSONAL ATTITUDE. There is no time and space where you cannot get a better job. I believe that money and looks do not necessarily get you all the girls. It's better to save your virginity to focus on the woman you've been accustomed to not worrying about and really trusting in a normal relationship, then to waste it away with other distractions. It also takes work and tons of good chemistry that really should be natural and not forced upon anybody.
We are all born in this world with certain DNA characteristics. Some of us want to be taller, others a little shorter, some want to weigh less, some want to be more better looking, and it goes on. It's so hard to get away with me making fun of girls sometimes if they agitate me so much by saying stuff about their appearance in an indirect way without calling them really gross names. There are just about no girls who will ultimately agitate me about 24-7, except for my little sister.
Even though DNA gets in the way, I still can't help but think about getting taller. I don't want to do this with surgery or anything controversial. I want to grow all natural, but to foster it based upon what I've purchased it's going to take a lot of hard work and some aches with having to stretch your spinal cord everyday or decompressing your bones by hanging on a bar and jumping as high as you can daily. Swimming also seems to be a great way to contribute to growth. Lifting weights is also pretty positive as long as you don't do exercises standing up with heavy weights- that will really stunt your growth while comparing that to some urban myths. Being a short guy with big muscles seems to be acceptable as well.
What matters in the long run is having a REALLY GOOD PERSONAL ATTITUDE. There is no time and space where you cannot get a better job. I believe that money and looks do not necessarily get you all the girls. It's better to save your virginity to focus on the woman you've been accustomed to not worrying about and really trusting in a normal relationship, then to waste it away with other distractions. It also takes work and tons of good chemistry that really should be natural and not forced upon anybody.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Where Do I get To This Point, Before I have fun.
Money does not really grow on trees. It's really something that I've known for a very long time. Right now, I'm trying to figure out a way where I could make money legitimately without having to do that much effort. It also should not have to require of my attention to begging others of their resources. I want it to be based on something that I get really excited about and can enjoy. I want to be focusing my attention on the more serious cares of this world. Like making more friends, hanging out with my date, contributing to society, and loving Jesus most of all. I also would like to build confidence to go out to the gym and know how I could be a servant to my brothers and sisters in the Lord.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Possible Endeavors
I'm going to continue writing about stuff. The trick is not to get so frustrated about anything and to remain cool about it while doing what I'm supposed to do.
I have a way of making some money legitimately right now even though I don't really like the job that much, it's something for right now and I hope to do it temporarily. I'm going to have to just be very diligent at it and eventually get to where I really want to be.
I have a way of making some money legitimately right now even though I don't really like the job that much, it's something for right now and I hope to do it temporarily. I'm going to have to just be very diligent at it and eventually get to where I really want to be.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Managing Through All This
I'm starting to live with a better positive attitude for myself. I feel really great about what I have to offer, and I need to not feel so let down with myself especially when I feel that I want to mean well with anything that I'm doing. Despite a lot of bizarre chain reactions that try to frustrate me, I need to lift myself above that surface and really become better at it.
I now need to live in pursuit of managing my time a lot better and being a more improved person mentally, physically, and spiritually. I'm going to start listening to others and not let it really overflow my heart with frustrations now. I'm totally better than all this that has happened to me. I'm pretty much the same spirited person I was since I learned to accept it in lieu of people by loving others with respect and honoring Christ in my heart.
I'm going to have to become diligent like crazy and take some financial risks when I can afford it.
I now need to live in pursuit of managing my time a lot better and being a more improved person mentally, physically, and spiritually. I'm going to start listening to others and not let it really overflow my heart with frustrations now. I'm totally better than all this that has happened to me. I'm pretty much the same spirited person I was since I learned to accept it in lieu of people by loving others with respect and honoring Christ in my heart.
I'm going to have to become diligent like crazy and take some financial risks when I can afford it.
Monday, December 14, 2009
I really need to prioritize a lot better and be more alert and well-focused in life right now. I need to be diligent and really not get so frustrated with myself about anything. The best thing to do is just keep trying and working really hard at it, until you get there. There are no regrets that you should possess for something you should see as very healthy and positive and really reinforcing in a great way.
I need to now really try very hard and not worry about all the mishaps in my life. I need to really manage my time a lot better so that I have time to really do things that I like doing. I need to stop wasting my time and energy now. It looks like I'm not a very desperate and frustrated person as others have been with me. These types of people are very difficult to deal with for me, and I have been dealing with several of them at the same time. It pretty much does not make them very well-off individuals. I'm pretty much going to be different in a better and nicer way even if they try to hide themselves and continue being this selfish.
I need to now really try very hard and not worry about all the mishaps in my life. I need to really manage my time a lot better so that I have time to really do things that I like doing. I need to stop wasting my time and energy now. It looks like I'm not a very desperate and frustrated person as others have been with me. These types of people are very difficult to deal with for me, and I have been dealing with several of them at the same time. It pretty much does not make them very well-off individuals. I'm pretty much going to be different in a better and nicer way even if they try to hide themselves and continue being this selfish.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Releasing Problematic Feelings
I know that many people have this issue while they are growing up, like the people I was around. They were not really that aware of how I was paying attention to them speaking, while I was really confused and quiet. I have been told countless times that I am pretty cool. People have often been confused by me especially those who have been a lost cause. I'm just that good at confusing them like that and then start saying what I need to eventually. I'm not going to talk about the worst stuff about myself obviously and in return I'm also not going to spill out names who were really bad with me right away. I'm just letting go of all my frustrations with people who confused me a lot for a long time because they're words and actions were contradictions. They were pretty much liars and pretty evil about this stuff. It brings a lot of laughter now to really think about how they were evil, and it was really bothering me but now I'm not frustrated with it anymore. I'm doing really fine.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Understanding the meaning of letting go
This is really important sometimes because in life, people can sometimes be a jerk and set you up in some trial you don't want to be in. This has really happened with me. I'm understanding that my side I was being really sensitive and very frustrated at the same time. It was so hard to overcome this area and not do criminal activities with these people. I'm sort of hacker too man if I want to be because I have a degree in Computer Science, not the business-oriented side, the side that focuses on the architecture of computers. Haha.
I'm just kidding about being a hacker, of course. I think I'm really finding a lot of new things in my life and enjoying a feel of a better sense of freedom and maturity. I'm not going to be a mean guy anymore or really hurt other people. I'm just going to be nice about everything to the best of my ability. Even though people may see things a little differently, I have to do my best to explain things without being selfish in general. It's not all that hard to do, if you manage to let go of all your frustrations. I need to explain things without raising my voice and appearing fully angry about things. It's happened with me a few times, and I got away with them but it's not healthy on the long-run and I know that evil people out there would want to get that angry and cause anarchy. I'm just not in the mood for that stuff anymore.
I'm just kidding about being a hacker, of course. I think I'm really finding a lot of new things in my life and enjoying a feel of a better sense of freedom and maturity. I'm not going to be a mean guy anymore or really hurt other people. I'm just going to be nice about everything to the best of my ability. Even though people may see things a little differently, I have to do my best to explain things without being selfish in general. It's not all that hard to do, if you manage to let go of all your frustrations. I need to explain things without raising my voice and appearing fully angry about things. It's happened with me a few times, and I got away with them but it's not healthy on the long-run and I know that evil people out there would want to get that angry and cause anarchy. I'm just not in the mood for that stuff anymore.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Putting On More Weight and Less Fat
Okay this posting is purely just messing around little with myself and developing better inner humor as I write this. It's just a pretty humorous oxymoron in my opinion. I can see how it might have its usage for someone who is really skinny and needs to add weight. Maybe he just works out so much and then starts gaining muscle, so it really sort of it makes sense actually. Wow, I thought it really wouldn't work out.
With this example that I just described, that's how it is in an argument sometimes. We all need to contribute to our statements that can look logically like a contradiction. I've been sort of bashing or in a less offensive sort of conduct berating someone in writing (hehe), which is definitely uninvited by the whole universe but not really constituting to harassing, because they fail to justify their accusations or points that can aggravate someone like me. In a way, making a point with another accusation like this person has been doing with me and is now trying to hide his face from the whole world, which I need to work with on encouraging him back to good health; is really adding in more contradictions. I spoke with a lawyer and tried to describe it and, she was like "What" the whole time. Haha.
With this example that I just described, that's how it is in an argument sometimes. We all need to contribute to our statements that can look logically like a contradiction. I've been sort of bashing or in a less offensive sort of conduct berating someone in writing (hehe), which is definitely uninvited by the whole universe but not really constituting to harassing, because they fail to justify their accusations or points that can aggravate someone like me. In a way, making a point with another accusation like this person has been doing with me and is now trying to hide his face from the whole world, which I need to work with on encouraging him back to good health; is really adding in more contradictions. I spoke with a lawyer and tried to describe it and, she was like "What" the whole time. Haha.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
There's A First Time For Everything
I'm just writing this post really quickly and don't expect anything out of this. I am now feeling that there could be someone whose trying to lay out a stupid trap with me. Haha. I think it makes that person very inconsiderate and someone who is about taking away someone's freedom to state whatever is true to his heart. Haha.
This was sort of fun to write that. I'm just practicing my chops by trying to flow a little. I understand that I'm really trying to make ends meet right now and I'm having so much trouble understanding my issues sometimes because it deals with another person. I'm just going to keep writing. I plan on going to this upcoming writer's meeting group now. I look forward to finishing this cheesy story that I'm turning into a novel and let them read it. If it gets published then that's cool, if not then I'm going to pay to have it customized and look like a novel with some independent publishing company. Maybe it will go into the public domain file because it's so cheesy and a fun hobby at the same time for me.
This was sort of fun to write that. I'm just practicing my chops by trying to flow a little. I understand that I'm really trying to make ends meet right now and I'm having so much trouble understanding my issues sometimes because it deals with another person. I'm just going to keep writing. I plan on going to this upcoming writer's meeting group now. I look forward to finishing this cheesy story that I'm turning into a novel and let them read it. If it gets published then that's cool, if not then I'm going to pay to have it customized and look like a novel with some independent publishing company. Maybe it will go into the public domain file because it's so cheesy and a fun hobby at the same time for me.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Making Money With Spare Time
I guess I'm really focusing a lot of hard work and attention on doing what I can to make more money on the side while I work with my primary job. My main focus right now is to get the Master's set up and get a really good cash flow so I don't really have to worry about the money and use it to contribute in this world the way I know. I think it's really all about hard work to get to where you want to go. For me, working hard to help out in this world is something that excites me now. I really feel very encouraged to just work hard and be of service to others and to really make an earning that could contribute to the well-being of others.
I'm starting to realize that I should never have been frustrated in the beginning. I should have always put stuff behind me. That's what I have been missing this whole time. Even though a few people I know have been acting out really sick and weird with me, I still am going to love them Jesus-style. Hehe. I don't need to feel frustrated about their own folly, and how it put me in their cross-fire. I should not have been feeling so frustrated at them in the beginning and talking in a nervous manner. That was my mistake and now I've grown from this and know what their mistakes were and can happily live in this world that I know right now. As I constantly repent and run away from my old sins, I'm finding more freedom for myself than I ever knew.
I'm starting to realize that I should never have been frustrated in the beginning. I should have always put stuff behind me. That's what I have been missing this whole time. Even though a few people I know have been acting out really sick and weird with me, I still am going to love them Jesus-style. Hehe. I don't need to feel frustrated about their own folly, and how it put me in their cross-fire. I should not have been feeling so frustrated at them in the beginning and talking in a nervous manner. That was my mistake and now I've grown from this and know what their mistakes were and can happily live in this world that I know right now. As I constantly repent and run away from my old sins, I'm finding more freedom for myself than I ever knew.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Started Working Out
I sort of started to work out yesterday. It was just doing some fancy stretches that supposedly increase flexibility to your spine. If all goes well, I may look about two inches taller, which would be nice for me. Haha. If not, oh well it was fun buying the book and doing something different. It supposedly takes about 27 weeks to see some true gains. I totally wonder if it's going to work, so I'm going to also add in what I'm supposed to be eating. I'll be working with weights as well just to see how my progress ends up. It's pretty nice that I also built a database form to log while I work out. It's a cool incentive for me. I don't have any trouble feeling I'll keep up with it. Time for me to go back out there and earn some money to pay off my education. Haha.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Just Amusing Myself Truthfully
Just feel like messing around with this posting today. I'm my usual self as I have always been. I just added a little extra baggage to my life, out of trying to observe good character. Wow, life can sometimes feel that way. Where you really want to strive at doing something, but the circumstances just keep pressuring you to fall off your mule. Hehe.
I know that many controversies people wanted to say I had are actually not linked with me anymore. It's linked with them, and they are going to be affecting a lot of people pretty negatively on the long run. Haha. It does not matter whether they want to avoid my writing on this blog or not. They still are going to be influencing others in a deceitful pattern. I totally understand this perception, which is related to putting aside what's tempting me to do something selfish. It is then releasing that energy by applying myself in love with these totally misled people. Haha. It's a lot easier for me to spot them because I have memories of my childhood where a few friends turned on me temporarily and really hurt me. Man, that boy wanted to fight and was acting pretty crazy. I'm all like "Let's 'restle" because I'm so confident I could sit on him while weighing in at about 180 pounds while I was 4' 11". People would be like no way to that description, but yeah I was pretty chunky back then. Haha. Surprising how I eventually disciplined my diet and exercise to avoid a health hazard. Haha.
I know that many controversies people wanted to say I had are actually not linked with me anymore. It's linked with them, and they are going to be affecting a lot of people pretty negatively on the long run. Haha. It does not matter whether they want to avoid my writing on this blog or not. They still are going to be influencing others in a deceitful pattern. I totally understand this perception, which is related to putting aside what's tempting me to do something selfish. It is then releasing that energy by applying myself in love with these totally misled people. Haha. It's a lot easier for me to spot them because I have memories of my childhood where a few friends turned on me temporarily and really hurt me. Man, that boy wanted to fight and was acting pretty crazy. I'm all like "Let's 'restle" because I'm so confident I could sit on him while weighing in at about 180 pounds while I was 4' 11". People would be like no way to that description, but yeah I was pretty chunky back then. Haha. Surprising how I eventually disciplined my diet and exercise to avoid a health hazard. Haha.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Just Filling In Something
I'm starting to really get a little more patient with my life. I guess that's a good thing. I'm not sure what to write about right now, except that it's going to take a little effort and practice to stay focused while I'm working on something. I guess I'd like to get some muscles and work out a little more to add in to the work that I'm currently doing. Hehe. Yeah, that sounds pretty cool. I'm also going to need to read the Bible to finish out the year. I'm doing okay now totally and don't see anything wrong with how I've sort of been thinking. I guess I'm ready to make some big improvements with my life right now.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Setting Personal Stuff Aside
I realize that I'm really better than some people I'm dealing with right now. I know that I'm supposed to just set aside my personal feelings that are not feeling the resolve part. It's been distracting me a lot. Without yelling and turning my thoughts into guilt, I turned to humor and trying to be nice and the best I can be. I can sort of feel proud about this accomplishment, even though it's not that much with me. These people I have been dealing with are actually pretty small in their status. I can now not feel so offended listening to comments or feeling so bothered when I see a cop around. I know what I'm capable of doing and what my rights are and how I will be improvising to keep those unalienable rights upon myself and others without doing anything bad which comes from observing the law of God.
It's a great struggle and much better than just feeling like a sloth. I'm pretty much growing into a more bigger individual now and feel so much better. I don't feel so bothered listening or reading bad comments about myself anymore. I know who I am and what I want to stand for. I'm still not going to let this pressure that they sort of been fostering in a negative way to keep me from helping others in the world. I'm still going to exercise agape love to the best of my ability and to what I know Jesus has done for me. The main things that I'm focusing on is trying to release my frustrations in the most healthy matter. It does not deal with talking to some professional. I know what they are, and if I did not end up in prison for it even though they said I would then I'm practically fine. Haha. I know the consequences now, and how it's going to affect them if they are to add me back in to their lives. I know how I'm going to remain- the best as ever and making room to improve even better and to help others in this world. I feel pretty good. It's all of these thoughts on my father's birthday today. Hehe.
It's a great struggle and much better than just feeling like a sloth. I'm pretty much growing into a more bigger individual now and feel so much better. I don't feel so bothered listening or reading bad comments about myself anymore. I know who I am and what I want to stand for. I'm still not going to let this pressure that they sort of been fostering in a negative way to keep me from helping others in the world. I'm still going to exercise agape love to the best of my ability and to what I know Jesus has done for me. The main things that I'm focusing on is trying to release my frustrations in the most healthy matter. It does not deal with talking to some professional. I know what they are, and if I did not end up in prison for it even though they said I would then I'm practically fine. Haha. I know the consequences now, and how it's going to affect them if they are to add me back in to their lives. I know how I'm going to remain- the best as ever and making room to improve even better and to help others in this world. I feel pretty good. It's all of these thoughts on my father's birthday today. Hehe.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Okay
I'm okay. Just need to relax. I'm doing fine. I really need to just go in and do what I can. I do have what I'm looking for. It looks like I need to keep searching around for bigger opportunities and investing in a company. Right now, I really am going to have to do the best I can. I am going to have to do things that are not very well thought upon by others. Just have a simple job and feeling good about a work that you can go everyday to is such a cool feeling.
What I'm looking for deals with helping others. I would also like something related to technology. I am going to be studying a lot and building upon more knowledge because I need to do this. I need to go out there and work, so I can build some money to test on other things. As long as I don't place myself in a huge deficit and make a consistent effort, then I should be fine. I guess I don't really care about my weaknesses right now. I know what my strengths are and that it surpasses my weaknesses. What I support is the full counsel of God and the truth that is embedded in the pages of the Bible. It's hard to believe and some may think I need to get some help still and in that time, I would have to just talk to them about it by saying they told me that and I just want to get it cleared, even if they feel harassed. I can also do this in front of others too and do it in a nice way without getting too caught up with my emotions. It seems like the best way to approach it and it's going to be a lot of effort on my end. It all seems like a waste, but it's better than nothing in getting rid of my frustrations.
What I'm looking for deals with helping others. I would also like something related to technology. I am going to be studying a lot and building upon more knowledge because I need to do this. I need to go out there and work, so I can build some money to test on other things. As long as I don't place myself in a huge deficit and make a consistent effort, then I should be fine. I guess I don't really care about my weaknesses right now. I know what my strengths are and that it surpasses my weaknesses. What I support is the full counsel of God and the truth that is embedded in the pages of the Bible. It's hard to believe and some may think I need to get some help still and in that time, I would have to just talk to them about it by saying they told me that and I just want to get it cleared, even if they feel harassed. I can also do this in front of others too and do it in a nice way without getting too caught up with my emotions. It seems like the best way to approach it and it's going to be a lot of effort on my end. It all seems like a waste, but it's better than nothing in getting rid of my frustrations.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Making Room For Writing
I have been working on a lot of stuff. I realize that sometimes when I justify my meanings appropriately, even if others temporarily see me as being wrong somewhere, I can pass for being an okay individual. Sometimes, it really takes a long time because there are also other areas where I can fall prey under by being hypocritical.
I'm planning on joining a writer's group and going to check out a meeting. I have been working on a story, which is pretty cheesy but sort of fun and creative to talk about. A friend of mine thought it was funny to listen to and thought it was cool that I've been writing about some imaginative story. It must in a way be pretty respectful. I think I have the tools to mark my behaviors into becoming a normal and steadfast and pretty dedicated individual now. It's really thanks to a lot of good people and mainly to Jesus. Jesus' life really shines brightly in my life. What Jesus did on the cross to pay for my sins, it really fueled my life completely in a direction that gave me fire and a life where I could breathe again.
I'm planning on joining a writer's group and going to check out a meeting. I have been working on a story, which is pretty cheesy but sort of fun and creative to talk about. A friend of mine thought it was funny to listen to and thought it was cool that I've been writing about some imaginative story. It must in a way be pretty respectful. I think I have the tools to mark my behaviors into becoming a normal and steadfast and pretty dedicated individual now. It's really thanks to a lot of good people and mainly to Jesus. Jesus' life really shines brightly in my life. What Jesus did on the cross to pay for my sins, it really fueled my life completely in a direction that gave me fire and a life where I could breathe again.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Writing About Something
Hey there, I'm just writing again. I have been doing this for the last two months, and I don't really know what to write today. It's been like this in the past, so I would only leave like a few posts. The great thing is that I strived for at least 4 posts a month. Now, I'm trying to post something everything. I'm running out of ideas, and it's sort of amazing that I keep writing away.
I really am starting to get it now. Some people were thinking I was crazy or something. I really did keep my distance from them, and they still thought I was crazy. Haha. It's starting to make me laugh recalling all of that stuff coming from older people. I'm sort of realizing that it's easy for me to get along with people who are around my age. Oh yeah, I had this dream I was like a flying superman going on vacation to take a break by going to the Antarctic. Pretty funny. Maybe I should sleep with a thicker blanket, I don't know, but I'm sort of enjoying the feel. It's like an air conditioned room for me right now because we're in the Winter. Haha.
I really am starting to get it now. Some people were thinking I was crazy or something. I really did keep my distance from them, and they still thought I was crazy. Haha. It's starting to make me laugh recalling all of that stuff coming from older people. I'm sort of realizing that it's easy for me to get along with people who are around my age. Oh yeah, I had this dream I was like a flying superman going on vacation to take a break by going to the Antarctic. Pretty funny. Maybe I should sleep with a thicker blanket, I don't know, but I'm sort of enjoying the feel. It's like an air conditioned room for me right now because we're in the Winter. Haha.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Setting Up Personal Schedule
I see what I really want to do. It's going to be very highly difficult for me because of my energy level not being so proactive all the time. It's really easy for me to get so caught up with video games for awhile, and I know it's pretty fun to play with other friends at the same time. I am just going to stick to what I want to pursue after.
Working out is going to start being fun. I have created a database where I can track all my exercises. It's a pretty cool chart using OpenOffice Base. I was working with it yesterday with the online help files. It's a really neat invention. There's a sample CD-Collection template that you could use and to create a form to track things. Base is not a difficult thing to use, and I think it just requires an interest of wanting to learn it. With my computer background and learning to apply myself, I think I can pick up on the technologies while having fun doing something with them. It feels like a rush, and it's a lot of hard work, but in the end it's pretty cool stuff.
Working out is going to start being fun. I have created a database where I can track all my exercises. It's a pretty cool chart using OpenOffice Base. I was working with it yesterday with the online help files. It's a really neat invention. There's a sample CD-Collection template that you could use and to create a form to track things. Base is not a difficult thing to use, and I think it just requires an interest of wanting to learn it. With my computer background and learning to apply myself, I think I can pick up on the technologies while having fun doing something with them. It feels like a rush, and it's a lot of hard work, but in the end it's pretty cool stuff.
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