Halloween

Today is a day where some people will go partying whereas some kids will go trick-or-treating. Because it's a Sunday, I think the partying won't be so crazy like it would on a Friday night. Since I'm at a new neighborhood for the first time, I'm not sure what my neighbors will be doing. It's pretty upscale here and seems like a conservative residency so maybe I won't see too many spooky costumes around here today.

I remember at my old town where I heard a story that some pesky residents from out of town would drive their kids to a rich neighborhood around where I lived and drop them off to go trick-or-treating. I remember when I went trick-or-treating then after awhile, my mom became bored of babysitting me to go trick-or-treating and said I was too old by the time I was in the 6th grade. Well, I don't really celebrate Halloween these days and the only time I would act like it is if I wanted to mock the holiday and scare some people intentionally. I would create a haunted shack and try to scare the living daylights out of some nasty adults- this is only if I happen to be pretty mad at the neighbors and I can't move out of there.

That was pretty funny to mention, I know and so I should keep this whole being honest-for-fun act going. I wonder whose going to be at the park today during this fine afternoon. A church is conducting a Scare Festival today which might be fun to check out later. I might go see what it's all about. I remember being there one year and being a volunteer; at the end of the night, I dumped all this candy into the kids' bag which was so fun to do. I wasn't that interested in munching on candy but nonetheless, I felt different from those greedy businesses who charge you to get some candy when you enter the door; they might still charge you for extra candy bars if you really want it! 

Confident From Seeing Good Results

I'm noticing that I'm starting to carry out the tasks that I'm writing about because I'm being really honest about what my goals are. I remember making bluffs about doing something not so serious on this blog which bugged Darunee Lee pretty badly. She brought it up in court when she was filing to put a restraining order on me. Again, I think Darunee was being crazy and I was never really into her so she just got herself into some mess she didn't know how to solve. Trusting someone who claims to know more than you and can't explain it clearly to you the first time is probably not the best idea. I was somewhere along those lines all along, so I did what was right which was coming out of my shell and just being plain honest.

This blog is totally now something that really helps complement my personal lifestyle. Regardless of whether people look it up to find my next move or not, I don't really care. I realize the world somehow has the internet to use to connect with people and lose him or herself for momentarily before going back into the real world. I remember reading some funny messages from a stranger on a chat room which started to bug this other lady.

Overall, this blog is also helping me out with my own Goal Setting 101. I'm really confident about setting my mind to some things now and working really hard for it now. My feelings may feel a little battered or cause me to worry sometimes but overall, I like this effort that I'm putting into it now.

Having Fun Working

Today is a Friday, I'm so pumped up about today. I really like Friday's, so with me ruining some people's day over not having really done anything was sort of funny to remember. They were in some state that caused them to make-believe about how a certain drama was occurring and it caused a domino effect. If the worst came from some ladies who were supposedly trying to stand by them weakly and show support with just removing me from their Facebook list, then that means nothing absolutely to me.

Overall, I wasn't affected by this but for them, it could be really bad in a make or break situation right now. So far, it's pretty much over now because they just sunk low so oh well, I didn't do anything to them so I guess I'm fine and don't have to feel any guilty ties with them or anything.

I'm pretty much going to try to continue my spiritual growth in the wisdom of the Lord through the pages of the Bible. I'm also enjoying my work, and I see that I'm going to be leading a pretty profitable career which is important in the business I'm getting myself into.

Honest Thoughts About Some Real Women

This post is meant to be a fun one for myself- after thinking about why I didn't rough house with my little sister who just went bananas over not being able to explain anything good with me, especially with the incident where she blocked me on Facebook. She did end up deleting her whole facebook account, and now I think she's an oddball for doing that and if she's lying, she's an even more bigger odd ball to me so I think you get the picture where I get even more frustrated and will act upon it with my feelings the more worse she gets with me, so I win because I'm bigger than her and a little more mature consistently. She's sort of a blockhead sometimes, but she wants to work hard for something which is what I need to give credit for her.

Since I'm in the mood for being factual and feel actually good about it, I think I'm safe in legal terms because I actually did conduct relations with these women for a certain period. Even if it makes me look bad, there's something for me to learn but I don't think there's really that much for me to be seen as having done a bad thing to them. 

I've pictured myself being the husband of Betty, Annie Tran, or Darunee Lee (Hope of God Church L.A.) and have to say that it leaves me laughing about it, meaning that I really can't imagine trying to going out with them and dating them. Honestly, the best of the trio is going to have to be Betty who I actually "chose" to be the one on this blog which turns out I was just messing around with my own feelings. I can't see myself really being that active with them, if I were to settle down and feel that it would be a direction where I would have to force myself to ensure a better life for the both of us.

I've heard from a friend that Annie T. is marrying an Australian dude- right on mate, going down under. It's interesting that someone actually wanted to pursue Annie. I wrote an e-mail to her stating that she should get married because I would never chase after her. Sort of wrote it with an impression that I was being forceful upon her. I don't know if she got my point, but probably didn't. Basically, I was pretty mad and letting go of the frustration by being straight up with her in the e-mail. It left me feeling satisfied and that one time e-mail was enough for me to never really mind Annie again. The reason why I felt angry with Annie was because she didn't know that she was under the hot seat, as being a go-to type person and not appearing active when I was really considering doing something special with her. My feelings for Annie is probably going to be the last of my childish thoughts with women. Annie did act very cat-like- so girls getting into cat fights, you see what I mean- well, she was feeling angry about me holding back something that she would never be able to know because of my relatively smart strategies where I can hide details. This feeling is really similar with how Betty felt about me.

Betty tried to be upfront with me and direct, but she showed some signs of weakness and couldn't handle it. She did the next best thing which was looking out for her own interests. Betty is naturally an easy person to get to know and someone who isn't that difficult to manage if you communicate directly with her. She probably wouldn't want you to be scared to open up to her and let it out, even if it's going to make her laugh or gossip about it with other people. For a time being, I was feeling against Betty because she acted out of character by making me feel like I was dissed. It's the past and people are going to deal with emotions and so likewise, I was just mainly working on settling some of my nervous issues, I know that I was pretty good all around even while being anxious because I gave it the best I could in these areas. I've seen so much improvement that it's easy for me to lay off or settle down now, which I was most afraid of doing.

About Darunee Lee Wongstapadat (long legal name- LOL), don't get me going there. I'm not really going to dedicate much about her. I don't really like her actually in the case of relationships because she has a tendency to be too dogmatic. Another female friend noted jokingly with me that she would set me up with a bossy girl. Sometimes, what you don't like in the opposite gender is visibly seen to them and they do that to you thinking that's what you really want. Even though Darunee showed signs of liking me which I assume to be real, I couldn't reciprocate any intimate feelings back to her in my volatile moment of trying to find someone. On this paragraph about Darunee, I'm admitting that I liked someone else which turns out to be more about respect and understanding she is my type. This woman is married to Christopher Kuch (Hope of God L.A.)- the man who sided with the crazy side of Darunee Lee and couldn't explain to me what was driving him insane about me. At least I know what his problem was with me, just that he doesn't know. Kuch's wife is like a close sister to me and it means family, so I'm getting warmer in finding who the right one for me is. So in me chasing after Darunee, it's pretty much going to happen in nobody's dreams- a figure of speech that states my strong position so her trying to slap me isn't going anywhere in the future. I seriously hope I'm not wrong about this and will pray for that to happen. Just the practical imagination should be enough that I wouldn't be okay with her.

Overall, it's like my charitable duty to just be a male friend to most women. It's going to take so much work just that they don't end up being my wife which sort of sucks. I'll have to settle down with another girl while I make myself establish a friend zone with them. The biggest reluctance is obviously Darunee, so I'm not sure about even talking to her.     

 

Things Running Smoothly

I guess there's this joy that comes with doing something that you love daily, especially if it's a job because it helps give you this inner peace and a state of mind that finds purpose in living daily. I've been doing quite a lot of stuff on the computer relating to my new company that I found and think that it's a great match for me. I'm really liking the thrill of running a business and getting lots of satisfaction in researching and finding ways to improve myself to make business run more profitably. It's great to have some wonderful systems in place and to develop or increase something to make it work for you.

Besides just doing the research, it's a matter of also taking action which is probably the most scariest part for some people who want to conduct business on your own. By not doing anything, nothing can really be accomplished so getting right into the heart of making money, it requires having a strong amount of desire to do it and being smart about your investments. Sometimes, things are too good to be true which is almost a lot of cases that is generated. I believe that it's important to work with money that you can afford to lose in a business or otherwise, just wait to get that money. If you don't have a job, then you have to make a compromise in finding job security which really sucks but then again, if it's helping you achieve good things like supporting your family then maybe it's worth taking the opportunity. If it's something that you can't handle, then get ready to ride that wave of self-doubt and hopefully you'll find something to get out of it. I'm pretty much my own person, so what I did is comparatively different from others. Yet, I've been finding my happy ground with running my own business so far which is doing great!

Company Expectations

I started a new business and am feeling pretty good about the profit that I'm currently making. I'm seriously doing really well so far and plan on keeping a cool and humble mindset to keep it going. Right now, it's just dealing with the Foreign Exchange Market. Some friends have asked me what that's all about- it's pretty much dealing with trading stocks but just deals with foreign money. You make money by entering trends and can profit when an economy is slowing down or doing better; basically you are investing in a richer country. It's a pretty challenging field because at least 95% of new traders end up losing their whole account! I'm sort of on the lucky 5% right now and have been doing this for about four months now. 

What I plan to do if my account gets really huge for me from making a killing is to diversify in other stock areas, probably just dealing with trading options. I will also place some earnings in a bank and get some residual earnings through compounded interest.  I plan on also investing in making money through trying search engine optimization (SEO) marketing and having an ebay store. Overall doing those things for making a living would be a lot of fun for me. I pretty much want to open up an office so I could have some space to work and invite some friends over to work on programming and testing computer games. It could be fun throwing a lot of parties at the office and sponsoring just a tad with popular events to promote some cool games or software we come up with. When I open up the office, the business that I want to conduct is mainly giving to charity. I have a friend already who wants to be my CEO in the office. We'll see about that.

Becoming Very Stabilized

It takes quite a bit of thinking and reasonable feelings to have faith in something, wouldn't you say? I feel like I'm one of those people who like to feel happy about doing small things that are charitable- in fact they're like so many of them that I don't even realize I did them and then later throughout random days I recall it and feel good for having done them. Having faith in being generous is pretty nice, wouldn't you say? I also believe that God really created us for a purpose and that Jesus really wishes everybody to not condemn themselves over any act that they feel is unpardonable. An important role that Jesus plays is that he demonstrated the power of love by showing kindness to suspicious people he knew were about to betray him to jealous enemies. Pride really seems to get in the way to making a commitment to know Jesus and yes, occasionally people who act pretty dumb and associate with things out of character.

For some reason, how I get to prideful people is ask them if they think they're perfect and most often than not, that question seems to get them to stumble because it did to me and lots of other people who don't even think like they are all that. The loneliness factor of people shunning you for being so stuck up also gets to some people. For the most part, it seems to be sort of lying to yourself if you think you're a hot shot because there are others who you may want to prevent from knowing more than you because you want to like hold your position over them as long as you could be satisfied. So to answer the questions that originates from the title of this post, take the time to be blunt about yourself or in other words, straight-forward and see where that leads you. If you want to become evil, then shame on you and hopefully you won't bomb a building of Oklahoma City. I think people who are bent on doing evil stuff are pretty much idiots even if they get around to hurting other people because if you take away all the fear, then it's really messy with millions of good people still being happy elsewhere.

Finding Comfortable Thoughts

I think we're living in an informational-driven society and under experienced results as a backbone these days. There's something about big men that look so intimidating and tough sometimes, and if you have them come around as a cop then obviously criminals are going to respect them in the most cases. I remember reading a story about a short man whose around my height being a cop and trying to use trickery to get criminals to listen to him. It's really quite fascinating because I think that criminals wouldn't listen to you anyway if they could get away with you and some criminals are also pretty scary looking too- just in time for Halloween eh? I wonder if someone would dress as a scary gangster for Halloween and walk around and then tell cops it's just a costume; that would be sort of stupid but just wondering about it for laughs.

I went to a very fun reunion this week for my high school, and no I'm not at the ten-year mark yet. It was fun to reacquaint with people who I remember from those years. I remember seeing some guys who had taller wives actually, and it seemed like people weren't making a big deal about it. The guys sort of look average or above average in height, so it doesn't seem to matter that their wives appeared a couple inches taller while wearing high heels. This gives me confidence in finding the right girl again, haha. Remember Barney and Betty from The Flinstones cartoons?  I tend to be attracted to a smaller bunch- yes, Asians even though I'm Asian and pretty short, it doesn't really get to me anymore in just making friends with anyone now. For the most part, smaller confident guys tend to smile a lot more when people bring up about how short they are. Short men also definitely belong to some hearts of women, so after all anything is possible even if the polled results state the majority of females preferring at least men of average stature. I think some Asian women might give smaller men the benefit of the doubt and see them a little more average to their tastes, so I think I'm fine in this whole being attracted to Asian girls thing. 

Balancing Fun And Work

Something that really gets to me a little is my spiritual life. I seem to think quite a bit about it because it's an important aspect to me. Praying to God has really helped me figure out my own identity, likes, and dislikes. The Bible has really brought me guidance when I was really missing it in my life. I remember some prayer requests that Annie Tran of Hope of God Church made. Well, the prayer requests don't really go around anymore. I remember submitting my own and then it became reworded and wasn't exactly word for word, which is sort of interesting. What sort of bothered me about Annie was that she requested being prayed for about finding guidance. I don't really think you really have to worry about that, when your being faithful to God. Oh well, she was a little misguided somewhere then. The church pastor over there, Chai, also claimed that Annie could do what prophets do; pretty interesting. Interesting how a church looks to so much about the Holy Spirit and make it about life repeating itself on some concepts, which gets sort of dry but people still give into it. More or less, that's just how some people were born and don't mind; now that I think about it.  

So me being sued for being honest by some weird church people? Nah, I don't see it happening now. Just sticking to honesty is pretty much all I really need to do now. Yeah, even if it hurts me more than them to pain myself in being truthful. If I can stay closely to being honest with myself, then maybe I can be decent at focusing too. I'm going to try to stick to having fun on the weekend and just go all out with work when I'm supposed to work. I need to be serious and want to be ahead of things in my new business that I created. Reading the Bible for me only takes at most 15 minutes a day and it would cover the whole Scriptures in one year, even though I don't catch every single verse and my mind still wonders off. Dedicating myself on Sundays to prayer and worship with God sounds great. Even doing it throughout the week feels great too. I think I'm going to be all about balancing spiritual things and work during the week and then just have a whole lot of fun during the weekend because that's when I really don't work that much. The nature of my business is off on Friday nights, all day Saturday, and to the evening on Sunday, so it gives me plenty of time to have fun while I count the profits and work hard for it during the week.

Free Computer Games

I have found that there are a lot of good computer games out there which are free to play. I just googled for free online games and then hit this website that pretty much reviews every free game that has hit the market. Most of these games require some fee to play extra but you still get to explore a computer game and have fun interacting with other players while it lasts. Some of these are indefinitely free to play meaning that there are no restrictions to play the whole game. I played this one game all night called Ace Online, which is a jet fighter science fiction game and pretty addicting. It's free to play indefinitely and the graphics are pretty awesome for something that's free and the missions are endless because you practically get one per level. The monsters also give you a sufficient amount of experience, along with the missions you complete so it's not uncommon to find people who get to like level 90. 

This goes to my theory that anything is possible with making money and that you should do it while enjoying it. It's even possible to make money while playing games against other people online, and this does not have to do with online casino games. I believe that some old folks are really quite successful at making a living with playing online games and that they are really unique in that their minds must be still staying sharp playing against other young gamers. Best of all, making money while playing games require no start-up fee and is free!

Started Legitimate Company

I guess some friends may start asking me if they can work for me sooner or later. I'm in the trading business right now, and I've made some money - pretty good money for starting up so far. It's great to have a business because the taxes you pay are actually less than what you would typically owe as an employee. I'm also registered with the I.R.S. right now and have already made some profit, and it's great that a lot of things can be looked upon as a business deduction. Anyway, putting along aside all this projected success from doing willing and passionate hard work, it seems to fit my personality all around. I'm actually a guy for some reason who likes to give money and don't know why; maybe it's just a natural calling for me because it feels great to donate some money to a non-profit charity with a beautiful cause.

I'm planning on using all this free time to try out some exhilarating and expensive sports like sky diving; I'm trying to drag along my family to go with me but they are pretty scared already. I do have a friend who normally chickens out on roller coaster rides willing to do parachuting with me and free falling down the earth's atmosphere. It's such a contradiction to feel uncomfortable with rides and then picture yourself jumping outside an airplane. I also hope that I can be in charge of that money and give the money away to good charities so I hope to still be alive when I'm old because I won't do those dangerous sports anymore by then and just work on having good physical fitness and perhaps, run a marathon. I hope God heard my prayers, LOL. I also want to become a doctor by the time I'm an old man and having finances to cover the school cost would be great and so stress-free where I could just work on becoming a family doctor and volunteer at parts where they need good doctors. So after all, this whole feeling of ditching women who could be a potential wife with me at this bad church (Hope of God Church, L.A.) because of their bad and funny actions (Betty, Annie, and Darunee Lee) and looking out for another girl to marry somewhere else doesn't seem like a bad exchange for me. Hey readers, let's avoid rock-bottom and go for 5-star pro! 

Rainy Days

It's been pretty nice to have some rain fall; honestly, I sort of like the slightly cold weather right now because it feels like I could cool off more easily while working out. I know that possibly some grumpy old men would want to mumble about horrible weather that ruined their fishing trip, but not me I suppose because I'm still young and willing to run through a rain forest like a wildebeest. I've also been part of weather where the rain is actually warm, and it sticks to your skin- the environment felt really weird when I experienced it for the first time.

For the most part, I like not having to put on the heater or the air conditioner at my house and just enjoying the natural cool breeze which flows through my room. I actually like generating business with my computer right now. Making money is actually easy that even an idiot could do it- I'm not kidding because I have reiterated a few times already that I know somebody who was born to be an idiot. I guess the dictionary has usage for some words like blockhead, dummy, numb skull, and etc. which are synonyms to poke fun at some, not very bright people. Maybe there's a saying that idiots are almost always funny. I think smarter people can be a whole heck of a lot funnier and more appropriate at the same time.

I need to go outside and get some fresh air right now with the cold weather that I'm enjoying. I've actually set myself on a path that's making money this time while doing something I like and having my own business to show for it. Common sense would ask you why would people share knowledge that makes them money when they figure it out and then why would you waste your money on them? It's a good question to think about when considering some profit systems that are out there. The main reasons I've come across are: passionate teachers, a business of helping people, trustworthy sources, good reputation, and the product just works after testing it with a 30-day guarantee. To be on the safe side, it's really wise to be active in trying out the product and if expectations are not met then to return it. It's also important to make sure you know what you want when you're getting into a fast-track or mentoring program that really has no money back guarantee and to really ask questions; if you don't get satisfied or still suspicious about it then don't give in and hang up on the telemarketer. LOL

Revealing Myself

I recall hearing some stories or watching television shows where someone's secret diary became somehow published and then some friends felt really mocked and became bitter about hearing bad things about themselves. One of my favorite incidents with this story is actually a baseball player who was a pitcher and responsible for losing the last World Series game. The young short stop was enraged with how the pitcher didn't seem to show enough emotion to influence the last out of the game. The pitcher became really angry about it and then promised the public that he would bean the short stop and surly enough he did when they faced each other several times. It's quite an unfortunate vendetta they had with one another.

By me stating that I won't really talk about others on this blog, I don't think I'm truly being that honest then. I know I can hold back as long as I want to in putting down details. I must as well just be myself and let it rip because I'm just trying to be honest about situations, and it's been giving me a lot of comfortable closure no matter how stupid others were being to coming close to driving me crazy. In a way, this blog has brought me some interesting moments that I won't ever forget. It reveals to me that the human brain and heart struggles sometimes with immature issues and that it needs to be revealed to help the one individual whose being bad with you come to terms with him or herself. Am I sometimes being bad with myself? I guess so I write about myself objectively and the morality that's associated with it is pretty much personal. Through writing, I'm able to see myself a little better so when it comes to writing about others; well, I'm again just worrying the most about being truthful and blunt. This seems to be the best ideology that works the best for myself. The benefits that I'm getting from writing bluntly is that I'm capable of reading at a better rate with better understanding because things feel like they are flowing much better from me. Maybe, I'm a natural leader; not sure just going to have refine myself to find out.

Doing Better I Suppose

Life is good, and it takes quite a bit of trial and error sometimes. I guess I'm sometimes missing out on what I'm supposed to be doing and that I need to get back in line again to make sure that I'm going somewhere in life. Writing is actually making me feel really good and helping me see a lot more things more clearly, so in a way it's really helpful.

I've been trying Rogaine for my slight hair loss and don't really know if it works or not but anyway I keep using it and I will see where that takes me. I just need to stop getting lazy over these small things and keep at it because I know it's going to increase in measure on the long run, so it's important for me to keep on exercising and having a proper diet to maintain my weight a little. I would seriously like to make myself become the right size again. Almost anything is possible and making a little piece of money is easy enough that even an idiot could do it, like this one guy I know. He even doesn't really care if you call him an idiot because he just tries to fire back, so yeah, he has a pretty sorry life in my opinion that he seems to ignore and try to not let get to him. It sometimes gets the best of him and then he just goes all out in trying to point out how others around him are doing more worse than him and then finds excuses to avoid them if he can't find anything out about them.

Things Worth Living For

I guess some people don't know how to blow their nose properly so blood would come out of it, so thinking in that sense some people just like to over do some things and then act all weird about it. I'm not going to really go into that much with the people who did that to me anymore. At least, I know I have a life now and that it's good to be able to share the Word of God around when the opportunity rises with good friends who don't really know Jesus yet. It's probably going to be a little harder witnessing to closer friends because of the space they already feel comfortable acknowledging with you. Maybe that's why some churches that rely on building friendships may be having a little hard time in growing. So maybe really praying and doing everything the Bible tells you to do even if it means doing something that's hard to get rid of, like stop being a bad boy or super bad-crazy girl ( LOL ) would be a good start.

An Extra Post For The Holidays

Well, I'm just going to take a few more minutes to write whatever the heck I feel like just that I'm going to be super honest that it may break down some people who are try to find the negatives of this blog. What I'm doing sounds really nice, right? I'm turning people who want to mock this website into people who are forced to not care and go bother somebody else about their personal problems. So I can't force people to stay off my property, this website is like my lawn so people are coming on here to read what I have to put.

I'm just kidding about that, it's cool so share the wealth of knowledge that you have with the world. Let me know that I'm really sinking down faster than a Star Wars ship with Jedi knights on it going light speed to come to the rescue and then have the star Jedi chop off Bubba Fett's head off or something like that; I forgot who was the clone? I'm debating whether it's good or not to look that up really fast. I gotta focus on something else right now, so sayonara; hastala vista Arnie!

Stepping It Up

Okay, I am not sure what I'm writing down right now. Not really, I'm pretty aware of what I'm writing. Okay, the sun don't shine every day and the moon is always there when it's day time. Okay, I don't know how tell a good joke sometimes. All right then, things are sounding a little awkward right now. Ha ha. I'm not so sure but I'm really confident so I'm willing to become sure from being confident with something so that means I'll be self-adjusting myself when the situation calls for it.

I'm going on vacation so I have to pretty much leave an extra post so that when I do get back, I won't be behind. I guess that's not that bad, going on vacation for one day every week. Especially on a Friday night and then coming back Sunday afternoon. It seems pretty refreshing to take those short vacations to go somewhere pretty often. It's better than imagining a dumb video game in your head everyday. It's better to explore the horizons and get some fresh air.

Realizing Mistakes

I'm pretty much making this a pretty generalized post of what I noticed with the choices I made that got me pretty much feeling a little down. I know everybody is different, and I even remember hearing some people talk about living life with no regrets which is cool I suppose. In a nutshell, it's been all about being able to handle awkward situations for myself. Whether it came down to taking piano lessons to get better or sweating like crazy with working out or spending a ton of hours to perfect a skill with some lame video game, it was all about handling awkward situations and being able to contain composure without giving up. What I really like about it is that it took developing some light or dark humor to keep things going. The thing I hated the most about awkward situations is that it made me feel uncomfortable. Now, I understand a lot more about myself and where my choices should have really reflected. If I'm angry, then I'm angry and if I'm sad, then I'm sad and so on. I realize that I'm going to deal with anything awkward in my life and take it like a man and if it takes me to a bottomless pit, I'm going to still try to claw myself out and make provisions for myself as best as possible.

It's not difficult for me to get along with people at all, if I just become straight out honest with them and that's what I should do now even if I'm afraid some details are a little to T.M.I. I'm only guessing about this part, but the people who dismiss me on their Facebook page must be like aware of my attractive qualities that come out from adversity and must want to prolong it with a mean decision of letting me go. I guess that's the way to look at it and quiet their hearts around me. In a way, I'm still cool to them just that they've revealed to me where they were being weird and funny, so in a way crazy bad people. They're going to probably look for some other excuse to temporarily offset their difficult moments because they just want to have a selfish moment about something. Supposedly, it will shock them from trying to run my life if they want to do something terrifying to my liberty like those dumb church people who acted like brats did to me. I pretty much have some reasons that I posted previously just that I'm spending another majority of the time making fun of them and suddenly, I'm just willing to laugh about it and let it go now. I think that's probably the best thing for me; it's to just let it go and watch them try to claw themselves out of a jam in a joking manner because the church is not so great and struggling as usual.

Thinking Happy Thoughts

I believe that having a full life is based on living out your full desires. It is really quite interesting or maybe not, when a person goes through some financial difficulties and has a way of letting it be known to others he or she communicates with. Sometimes it takes a willing mind to seek out the expertise of others and that you also have to put in a lot of time with something to in order to ensure that things go well financially and that the business ends up flourishing.

For myself, I've noticed that I was not quite feeling it with some jobs that I did because they felt so boring and empty at times. I guess I was looking for some excitement in my work and something that had plenty of leverage. I believe that my preferences really fits a trader's lifestyle, and I think I chose a really good market to master because I really like sitting at my computer and closely monitoring my trades. It's pretty awesome because you just hunt for nice offerings and then go in to get some green to help your account grow. I'm now really growing in a lot of confidence and enjoying this freedom that comes with the idea of having financial independence. It's like becoming a leader of my own choices and believing that they will help me out in becoming successful and a happy guy. I don't even have to be a cutthroat business-man to get rich; I could just do my own thing by researching and putting the money in all the right spots and then watch the profit grow. 

Living the Dream Life With Diligence

I pretty much need to stop some bad behaviors right now that I don't want to really even share with myself. I believe all that it really means is that I'm supposed to wait on finding a girlfriend or getting married and that those feelings were really hard to notice for myself. I am really going to stop playing poker for tons of cash because it's not going to be really that profitable as I would like it to, when you get money then it's great but what about the others who struggle when things aren't going so straight; it's true that poker professionals specialize by researching and writing books and always trying to up their game but it sometimes comes down to just pure dumb coincidence which is horrible to a businessman. I've found that I've been looking to be an investor from playing poker and now that I've found what I've been looking for in these hard, economic times I believe that financial gain is going to be very possible for me now.

So thinking about all my life being about studying hard and being the best person you can be at everything has brought me quite a long ways in my journey. I want to give it my best all the time and not be some couch potato who lays on his bed when he gets home and watches boring T.V. because I just can't imagine having a loser mentality like that anymore. I have a lot of motivation and drive and proven experience to go where I want to be financially now and so this business opportunity for myself that I've created is the best I've dreamed up in a long while. I'm ready to be a natural and honest person with whatever I do and no matter how crazy people become with me, I will strive to finish everything I want to accomplish by keeping on with running the race just as Paul the Apostle described in his epistles.

New Post at 01 Hundred

Okay, man I need to stop stressing it so much about this thought of getting married now. So I really wouldn't mind I guess now because supposedly parents get together before they raise a family together right? So I'm not fully focused and seem to be very horrible with some things. It really doesn't matter now that I think of it. I just have to be myself; yeah, I would love to be myself and mainly, I think the most important part is to just be honest about yourself. Man, this blog is getting really lame to write about anything. I think I'm really in the mood when I have a thought that lingers in my head for a long time over complicated matters, like people who treat you personally bad in person. Those people are crazy and complicated sometimes, and it's hard to figure out what their motives were so I wrote about them and finally get it. I guess that's what the purpose of this blog can be, while trying to make it fun for myself and letting myself write a bunch of cheesy posts.

I don't really think this blog is really that important, but I do make some strong points about whatever I need to say. Oh well, I'm going to need to just get my things in order now and be more on top of things. It's never really that easy unless you know what you're doing, but it's going to come through time I suppose. I'm just rambling on about different stuff with this relatively new and recharged perspective. I'm actually enjoying myself a little more better and just trying to be honest in the living that I'm making. Oh well, I'm going to pretty much stop some activities that I've been doing since I was a kid because those acts make me feel stupid now.

Being Sardonic For Laughs

Okay, I'm just writing about something random today because this is what I'm doing and I'm just trying to be consistent with myself. I guess writing about goals is a really powerful of expressing yourself to the world, and if it's really positive then things might happen your way with good causes. I tend to think a lot about optimism and then when I'm pessimistic, I could think about taking advantage of others. Oh well, pessimism is a type of weakness where I want to go out and take advantage of those bad people who talk bad about others. I'm just weird like that sometimes, maybe because I sound like an old guy while being a young person. Oh well, okay, I'm talking pretty much random and sort of sarcastic today.

Pretty Interesting Stuff

Before I start off this blog post this morning, my condolences go out to a friend who lost a loved one through a tragic affair. Another good friend who I was worried about losing touch with ended up reconciling with his wife and had a baby daughter together. I'm so blessed that possibly God really can hear my prayers. I remember praying for a woman who I really liked and attends Hope of God Church and is now married to Chris Kuch who also attends there. The reason why I bring up names mainly is because I'm letting the world know who they are; they seem to have issues of not being able to handle some situations about themselves, and they ended up handling themselves really bad around me and tried to walk all over my life's decisions.

Finishing up my short digression, the woman who I really liked is an honest and trustworthy person and I'm glad she finally settled down because I wasn't so sure about asking her out for something serious. I would have never minded just hanging out with her and just being there for her as a friend whenever she needed me. That's pretty much how I liked her, it was unconditional to me in the end and still is today! God heard some of my prayers I made for her, and it was really aligned with what I desired for her to obtain and they came to be.  If you haven't tried praying for someone, then get to know Jesus first; it's just a start and a suggestion because I don't know, maybe your soul is on the line before you cross from this world to the other side?  I'm confident that I'm in true hope that's for the best in my prayers even if I never decide to fully commit to a weird church like Hope of God again and only pray for certain individuals there to be heavily used by God.

Some people who acted bad with me are pretty much just a lost cause and those people brought me the most useful pains for me to deal with; I've already mentioned who these people are on this blog and stated my reasons and I have so much convincing evidence that I could even convince the most stubborn of my closest friends. I have stated some of these evidence too on my previous posts, and I don't really want to keep reiterating unless it's necessary for me to revisit it for something useful to recount.

I can in a continuous motion support my own digressions now, which is pretty cool! I'm not afraid of being nervous anymore which is a phobia in itself that sucks. I have a confidence and comfort zone in dealing with awkwardness which makes my mom like not argue with me over incidents; I just continue to get that loving support I need from expressing my full desires confidently. I guess I was born to lead and get a girlfriend now.

Formulating A Plan

I don't have any problems with the morning in doing some things that I set out myself to do, but at night I'm just about ready to be beat. I think before I get really sleepy and not in the mood for doing anything because that's how I seem to always end up at night, I should pretty much take care of it before I get really sleepy or at least have a little will-power to set my personal time aside and get it accomplished.

Once In A Lifetime

The dream of having financial independence is a step closer than everyone can realize, except if you were born an idiot, sorry. I just woke up to find that I'm in pretty good hands with this whole Forex Market because the profits actually do get nailed if you perfect it with skill. It's just that again, at least 95% of novice traders lose their accounts with it. I'm pretty much looking up so much information and practicing this market right now. Again, this type of investment is not for everybody, but I know I picked the right one for myself. I actually saw profit coming in for myself here in the long run. This is really what dreams could be made of now.

I played poker this morning and lost with pocket AA to pocket 2's which really bites and I went all-in with my microscopic account- $5. Man, that really nailed me. I can't really handle the pressure of gambling like that anymore just to make enough to live comfortably; it's just so humbling for me in a way which is a good thing because you're competing with others who want the same prize as you do. I guess bad beats pretty much weed out the bad apples of poker, so I humbly accept defeat with it because I can't seem to avoid bad beats even though I want to so badly. I need to be less greedy and a more humble player with a lot of patience; that's the key for me there and to gain more experience with it. That's why some call it a world class lay-down when you fold a super good hand against a better one.  I get worn out with poker so easily but yet it's fun to win against people and get some prize money out of it so that's why I play it, and it does require fun elements that are skill and luck put together.

I have been walking around to get exercise near my home, which is around a lot of beautiful hiking trails. I really enjoy the scenery that it offers and is quite relaxing with some mildly challenging climbs. Today, I hiked for two and a half hours I think. It's really lowering my weight down so it's exciting to see it decline on the weight scale and fairly rapidly as well.

I'm also trying growth techniques; I don't know if they really work but it doesn't make me feel like bawling over nothing, so doing some exercises to try to grow taller is making me feel more confident anyway. I'm also going to put on some hair loss prevention stuff because my dad is bald so I'm showing signs of it already. My sister has implied that I would look cute with a shaved head and that girl who placed a restraining order thought I looked cute with a slightly shaved head too. My mom called me a bald-headed baby with that look which got me a little upset and influenced me not to really shave it again. I keep telling my mom that I will try it someday when I have bulging muscles coming out of my body, and my mom said it wouldn't matter then so I guess I'll try it if I'm not going to do anything about my hair loss. I'm going to do something about it because I still want to keep my hair. I have some Rogaine so I'll be using it for now, while I wait for my funds to grow from trading my account.

Thoughts On Trending Market

I've been analyzing the Forex market for some time now, and when many writers claim that at least 95% of traders lose their accounts they are not lying. I have googled some honest posts from traders, and they have stated that some automated software they trusted in blew their account! From looking at my own trading post which is just a trading software platform called MetaTrader 4, I am realizing there are trends in the market and that it seems to following in a pattern. If I could ride this trend then there could be a lot of profit that would rise out of it. I have acquired a lot of free information in some loophole sense because I don't really have all the money in the world to acquire it with some convenience fees. I'm starting to not really want to trust in these robots unless they have a long term credibility attached to them. I'm also finding there are a sufficient amount of traders who are willing to share their experiences and to help along others to the road of glory, which is pretty nice of them.

I'm starting to think of these calculations mathematically now. By developing or finding some indicators (fancy tools) to help sort out the good and bad trades, I get an edge with winning more often than losing. It means that I have to do my own homework and that there's no need to engage in sufficiently risky investments like gambling at a casino. There is a useful thing called the stop loss which pretty much closes a trade when it hits an undesired mark. By keeping the stop loss low, it keeps you in the game and then when you hit a trend you will profit. If the majority of the time you make winning trades by hitting trends and avoid big losses, then the math adds up to making a very profitable career! This field is obviously not for everybody, but it can be mathematically done with determination, discipline, and skill. I'm actually liking it because it's cool looking at charts and numbers flying up and down to make money.

Adjusting Daily Routine

What can I relate to myself with- ah yes, news about the economy. It's like there are some events that happen daily, weekly, monthly, quarterly, yearly, or even once in a lifetime that makes you a million dollars. I think what I do to myself as a person is not that important because if I look at it with the broad perspective of everybody versus me, then there's no contest so I'm not even going to go any further with that joke I made. Haha.

I don't know if it's against a few people who act like kids versus me, then that might be a different story because just using intelligence can take that match a long ways to personal victory over and over again in one continuous loop. I like programming my computer with loops by the way because it helps me out and lets me relax with other things. That's just the incident that won't be able to prolong itself with me now with that whole girl liking me thing and then putting a restraining order on me and then church people acting like numb skulls with me. It's a lot of fun to describe nowadays for me on this blog. I'm not really going to make it a daily routine to bust out jokes about people who were just being plain bad with me in general. I don't care if the people around them really laugh about anything now and would encourage it as well. So yeah, the church is Hope of God Church over at California so go ahead and google for it. Just call to see if they pick up for services, which they probably won't because they are busy doing their own thing still and are a really small church.

Okay, so I'm waking up and working on automating some currency trades with a demo account and still learning this craft of making highly successful trades so that I can create a really live account and then do some damage to the market- yeah right, even a million dollar profit won't take down the Foreign Exchange market; they are worth 3 trillion dollars on the day alone! Don't believe me? Look it up on Wikipedia- here's the link: Foreign Exchange Market. There are several ways to go about it in creating automated trades which I'm still learning about, and I might get into programming my system and then see if it becomes so useful that I could help out others with it. It's a risky business like opening up your business with a lot of already made competition working against you so everybody can't do it because it requires some discipline and prowess. Anyway, lots of people lose in this business- in fact about 95% do. Still interested? I am because I have a passion with this whole creating automated profit syndrome. I don't mind being up days and weeks and months and so on to figure that out because once I get it even when I'm a 100 years old then I can happy to have something I figured out make money with me just laughing away at how funny my account is growing.

Funny Stuff

I guess it really doesn't matter what happened to me that much. I feel really good about laughing at Golf, Chai, Betty, Annie, Chris, Jar(r)ed, and Darunee "Lee" in a good sense now. The church is located off 710 Fwy in California. Just google for Hope of God Church; hopefully the listing will still be there if they couldn't pay off the debt that the pastor owes to the government for using that place as a facility. It's not really that conveniently located for everybody to come because the parking lot is pretty small and it's around a lot of other what they may call "worldly" distractions. Haha. I don't mind if the church as a whole at that place laugh about anything now. They were a pretty messed up bunch at the time and acted like little kids who didn't know how to grow up at that time. It was so funny that they actually acted really bad with me now, with me having done nothing. They alleged I did some things that they were doing to me; no wonder why they felt it was bad because when they did those things to me, they were so horrible at it.

My close friend who wants a girlfriend right now pretty badly told me that possibly the girl who placed a restraining order would want to slap me if I go near that place again, and she happens to be around.  She showed signs of liking me because she didn't want me to chase after Betty. I was trying to express that I wasn't too serious about it and in a nice way. I had these weird feelings for a weird person, Annie. She like shuts herself off on one of those days, and it's like what did I do when I wasn't even there. I honestly believe that she was going through some abnormal depression with the stresses of life; I heard from someone that she's worried about her wedding financially- I'd say screw it just make it affordable, it's the thought and the heart you put into it that counts. She was also sad about leaving the state or country- I say well you're with the person you love for the rest of your life; that is more important to you, so don't worry your friends will be in contact with you. Technically, I heard the restraining order was recanted and hopefully, they realized their mistakes by now. By the way, it's really funny remembering all the mistakes they made with me now and talking about it.

I think Betty was okay with me; I seriously hung out with her and she was pretty funny with some of the things she told me. She is also a pretty bright person who seems to have an aptitude of getting confused more often and expressing it to the people she truly loves. She's genuine and I would say that if it was the case of me being forced to marry her, I wouldn't mind at all. I would know how to support her and be the man in her life. Haha. I'm glad I didn't do anything to induce a shot gun wedding because I would probably be in a mob for something like that with my little sister. Getting some lit torches in the name of my sister and chasing the guy who abandoned her would be a fun vacation while running around the world. I might hook him up with some auto-income and preach him the good news to help him out a little though and see if he would be willing to change his heart in accepting his full desires and living them out with my little sister.

Recapping With Social Things

I find it pretty crazy to be very blunt about the things that happened around me; it takes guts to be able to let it out sometimes and holding it in like a coward is only going to bring you down as if you're already defeated. My problems are actually quite cool to talk or write about because it's an unique experience that a large number of people don't really associate with but at the same time can encourage someone to be built up in a positive way. I guess from having a blog, I'm able to work on communicating very efficiently with myself- even if this means at the expense of others from having been really honest in the way I came across with them. This means that I'm going to write things the way I see things physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually to express myself truly. This could be very bad for people who were going through a hard time because I might see the area where they were being selfish and reveal the parts of interaction I had with them to prove my points. I'm going to save myself from digressing into additional banter for today and leave that off for possibly tomorrow or another day for sure. I have something in my head forming to share and write about in this blog.

Finding Work

Work is not really easy and even running your own business with it, is pretty tough as well in the beginning. I think it's all about hard work and enjoying what you are doing to get to the later stages of success. A problem that I think a significant number of people face is wearing out or feeling empty inside with some job.

I felt this way quite a bit with some of the jobs that I did; I was amazed by how some coworkers knew how to cope with it. I guess in general you can't succeed in a job that you don't like. I remember destroying a business' reputation once by throwing phone books around the neighborhood; that was so funny and not the usual way a person should conduct himself to get paid. I took delivering phone books around Beverly Hills as a one-time job and saw some really beautiful homes there from left to right. A regular neighborhood had all these beautiful settings and was so upscale. What I really thought about doing was renting a caravan and loading up all those phone books and then delivering it. Man, it was a lot harder than I thought because you had to navigate all around these cities and then when you went into the business; they would turn you down in getting a phone book. It was so pressuring and tough. I also had a dumb friend as a partner, who turned out to be an idiot because he didn't know how to navigate and tell which streets to go to; man, I really wish I had a better and more willing business consultants and that the pay was better. I accept my former partner as having been born a dummy because sometimes with the chances life gives you, you still decide to be impulsive and selfish to the point of wanting to lead others and yourself nowhere. I think if I had the right people, then I would have still made little money and be like spending for gas money anyway, so it's just breaking even pretty much. I really wonder how shallow the people there could be, and I would seriously want to think twice about settling down there for the sake of the kids. In a way, Beverly Hills seems like a boring place to live or work at despite the rich community. I would want to think Palos Verdes or Newport Beach honestly. I'll see where I end up and hope that I get set to enter a marriage, which is embarrassing to me to mention on this blog.

Snapping Out Of It

I think life in itself is about snapping out of things- in most cases, it's like the very best achievers need years of practice and experience before coming to realize their potential. For myself, I believe that I could just consistently read up on things that I want to learn more about and then eventually by practicing it, I'll snap out of this bad funk of not getting it. Life in a nutshell is already made for everybody; it's just the clear narrow path that a person needs to decide if it's for him or her. For me, that's where Jesus comes into play.

Just figuring things out at this day and age is finally getting me to not really worry about too many things anymore. I believe that every once in awhile, a person needs to just sit back and laugh about the shortcomings that occurred for him and her and just deal with the scorch that just wants to ignite you into doing some things. I believe that the important thing is for the person to come to realization and then to get himself on the right path again.