Some Techniques - Part 2c

All 163 passengers survived a plane crash in the country of Guyana (http://news.yahoo.com/cheers-screams-jet-ny-crashes-guyana-185128270.html). Today is the birthday of Harry Potter and also is the day the first patent originated in the U.S.!


Governor Of Poker cont.

When you start a new city or new game, your first game you play will always be in a tournament. If you place high enough and build your reputation meter to at least about half way, you will be invited to play in the profitable cash games which I will share how to exploit. There is also a way to bypass all those tournaments and cash games, if you just want to pass the game and it also will not take that long if you apply this technique. More on that later, I'm going to focus on the game play of the tournament and cash game subsequently.

First of all, have the list of starting hands I pointed out from yesterday. Just for review, your top hands in the tournament are in order of strength: AA, KK, QQ, and JJ. Furthermore, your position to act is just about important for timing your moves which affect the outcome of the game. There are generally, three positions to consider yourself to be in depending on where the dealer button is.

On the picture to your right, the D
button represents the dealer button. The next player to the left or going clock-wise represents the small blind and then big blind. The first person to act for the later stages of the pre-flop, flop, turn, and river will be the person whose closest to the one who played the big blind. Therefore the small blind, big blind, and a player after will most likely represent the early position; the next three players after represent the middle position, and the final two represent the late position. The player with the dealer button has the best position and provides the most strategic advantage.

Here's the game play for tournaments- whenever you have AA or KK be sure to raise the pot (amount of money in each hand) at any position you're in. If you have QQ or JJ, do an open raise (raising the pot when no other player has raised) at any position you're in. Using the list of strongest starting hands I provided, do an open raise when those cards pop up only when you're in the late position (the second to last player or last player to act). When you're in the small blind or big blind position, then just call or check to see the flop respectively. If you have any other cards besides AA, KK, QQ, or JJ in the middle position, fold them unless you are forced to call or move all-in (shoving all your chips into the pot) from not having enough chips to play competitively. Whenever you do an open raise, always make sure the chips you invest are about three times the big blind. If you make a mistake by forgetting or accidentally put in more or less chips or click on the wrong button then don't worry because you can always get them next time and still win the current hand you played in. To raise in this game, just move the bar and hit the raise button.

During the flop, whenever you have a pair always make the minimum bet and see if anyone calls or raises. When the player raises, if it's affordable and you have a better pair than the lowest card on the flop then make the call. If the computer makes a really huge bet and surprises you, then most likely it has a good hand and wants to draw you in, so call only if you have at least top pair (paring with the highest number on the board) with a decent kicker (highest card used for tie-breakers) and there is no threat like three or four cards of the same suit to represent a flush, possibility of the computer having a straight, or three-of-a-kind. If you have two pairs, a three-of-a-kind, or straight and any card in the flop (also called the third street) represents a second suit to make a flush possibility then also make a minimum bet. However, if there is no flush possibility on the flop, then check to draw the computers in and make them stay longer in the hand to see if you can exploit them later.   

Check the turn (also called the fourth street) to see if the computer decides to raise again from having caught up. If you have two pairs, a three-of-a-kind, or straight and the card in the turn represents a second suit to make a flush possibility then make a decent raise no more than two-thirds of the pot. The game will show how many chips you have invested and the total amount of chips in the pot for each hand.

On the river (also called the fifth street), if you have at least two pairs and no worries about how the board paired itself (for example, you had a 4 3 and then on the river you see it makes the board 5 3 4 A 5- this would mean the computer could be holding an ace and now have the best two pairs) then bet the amount in the pot which would most likely mean you're going to move all-in. Otherwise check on the river if you have a pair that's lower than the highest possible pairing which is also called a middle pair. (The example I just laid out would mean you're holding a middle pair to complete two pairs which means you must check right here and make an affordable call.) This is to be on the safe side, in case the computer decides to move all-in and to avoid getting upset in the end. Here comes my favorite act on the river, if you have the lowest pair or anything lower and the computer hasn't made a bet then it's the best opportunity to bluff! Don't put all your chips in or make a ridiculously large bet to try to fool the computer because it will sometimes make these nonsense calls and still win! If you have the chips to afford, then make a bluff no more than the amount of chips you invested into the pot. At the bare minimum, bluff with the minimum bet. Once the computer folds, click on the "Reveal Hand" button and you might see steam come out of your opponent's ear which is rather amusing with interesting sound effects that can happen.

The basic strategy is to play in the late position by open raising or playing with the strongest hands I laid out. Other times, you must avoid playing no matter how much chips you could have won by playing in it. It's just to be on the safe side and you can always bluff the computers later and end up winning. Because of the increasing blinds in the game, there is much added pressure and a lot of players in the tournaments will get busted which will increase your standing and help you to be in a spot where you'll earn some prize money. This is what you want to happen. Once the game is narrowed down to the final three players, it's time to treat it like a cash game and see if you become 1st place. On the next post, I will share how to become the master mind over the cash games which I discovered recently.

Some Techniques - Part 2b

Today is the birthday of Arnold Schwarzenegger and about celebrating Father-In-Law Day. I will now cover how to beat Governor of Poker on the hard mode.

Governor of Poker

This game is pretty much about buying towns back in the Old West in the state of Texas and becoming the infamous Governor of Poker who pretty much owned towns from having generated a lot of income from playing poker. The game will award milestone stars for some poker feats that the player completes, and it also provides some basic tips along the way to help the player become better at poker. It's more of a point and click interface and just clicking on people will pretty much move the cowboy or cowgirl around the map to go talk to them.

When the game starts, load up a player or create a new player and put it on hard mode. The format is pretty much simple- you will either play a cash game if you're lucky enough to win a tournament in the city or just play tournaments against other players. Once you have enough money, you will be able to purchase all of the businesses that provide some additional business income in the game which can be another way to beat this game. After purchasing all businesses in the stage, the player will eventually go heads-up against a rival character to play for a horse, wagon, or entrance into the next stage.

This is the general strategy I use based on my research of poker and having personally bested a lot of players online and earned millions of play chips. It works very well in cash games for this game. I've played for real money and have had success as well in it, but for play money, it's all based on theoretical stuff so I don't mind sharing how I play in it to be successful. When the player joins a game, the player doesn't really have enough chips because the blinds are normally too big, but this can be an advantage as well because the other characters are in the same situation and will make the game shorter and more interesting.

For those who don't know much about poker, the hierarchy is basically in order: highest card in order (2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,J,Q,K,A), pair (two of the same number in different suits- the best is A,A,K,Q,J), two pairs (the best is A,A,K,K,Q), three of a kind (three of the same number in different suits- the best is A,A,A,K,Q), straight (any five cards in ascending order from (2) to Ace - the best is 10,J,Q,K,A that is not all in the same suit), flush (any 5 cards of the same suit- the best possible flush is A,K,Q,J,9), full house (three of a kind and pair - the best possible full house is A,A,A with any pair), four of a kind (four of the same number which is the maximum you can have - the best four of a kind is A,A,A,A with any card), straight flush (straight in the same suit), and Royal Flush (highest straight flush 10,J,Q,K,A). There are only four suits as shown at the right in clockwise order starting from left: spade, heart, diamond, and club. There are tie breakers in the game of poker in the case of having the same hand like the same pair- the winner will be the one who holds the higher card like for example A,A,Q,8,7 beats A,A,J,10,9. 

The Texas Hold-em format is pretty much get dealt two cards face down which is called the preflop and then bet, get dealt three cards everybody uses which is called the flop and bet again, get dealt a fourth card for everybody to use which is called the turn, and finally a fifth card which is called the river before revealing your two cards that were face down to see if you're the winner. The objective of the game is to create the greatest opportunity of winning the hand even if you don't have the best hand, so bluffing (putting out a bet to deceive the other players) is necessary to pull down a nice reward sometimes. I'm going to share how my bluffing strategy works really well to win and also doesn't put all your chips at risk. For Governor of Poker, bluffing at the right time is necessary to win in cash games successfully. Unlike in tournaments, waiting for a strong starting hand (first two dealt cards) will usually do until it's narrowed down to two or three remaining players. 

In order to keep the game moving and to have some money in for each poker hand played, two players are forced to put some chips in before being dealt the preflop (two cards handed to everybody face down). A dealer button is passed around to notion who is going to be contributor of some chips. The first one to the left of the dealer button will put in the small blind and the next player after puts in the big blind which is mandatory. The small blind is half of the big blind. The small blind is the worst position in the game of Texas Hold' em because most often the player will fold that hand and lose a small portion of their chips without playing on the flop! 

Based on my playing experience, playing the top 25% of the strongest starting hands will mathematically give you an edge against other players and in a nine-player format, it helps me win a hand at least 1 out of 8 times I play to see the flop (first three community cards after being dealt the two pocket cards). Therefore, it means overall that I'm taking advantage of one player and taking his money. Poker is a trendy game of wins and losses, but if the player always looks to play with an edge which is challenging to achieve, he will have a profitable source of income. This game is unlike the real world because the computers you play against are rather predictable in their behavior and will make some strange calls every once in awhile, but my strategy defeats the hardest level this game provides so therefore, that's why I'm sharing.

When I mention suited, it means cards that have the same suit like 10 of hearts and 9 of hearts would be suited. This is important to math calculations in contributing to also a flush possibility which is also a common threat you have to watch out for in a game of poker. AK suited is normally considered to be a pretty dominant starting hand but is still not paired; however, it is useful to respect this hand. Therefore, I have it listed in two areas which should be used in certain occasions. The most important to be aware of is the top starting five hands because Texas Hold' em is also about mathematically dominating other hands. The rest is stated arbitrarily because it's really going to be a small gamble to get the right cards to show up. The starting cards to play with during preflop are (keep this as a list or memorize it) according to my research with the first five being the strongest are and the 's' represents suited:
1. AA
2. KK
3. AK s
4. QQ
5. JJ
6. 10 10
7. 9 9
8. 8 8
9. 7 7
10. 6 6
11. A K s
12. A Q s
13. A J s
14. A 10 s
15-22. A 9 s, A 8 s, A 7 s, A 6 s, A 5 s, A 4 s, A 3 s, A 2 s
23-30. K Q s, K J s, K 10 s, K 9 s, K 8 s, K 7 s, K 6 s, K 5 s
31-34. Q J s, Q 10 s, Q 9 s, Q 8 s
35-37. J 10 s, J 9 s, J 8 s
38-39. 10 9 s, 10 8 s
40-41. 9 8 s, 9 7 s
42. 8 7 s
43-46. A K, A Q, A J, A 10
47-49. K Q, K J, K 10
50-51. Q J, Q 10
52. J 10

This list is definitely among the strongest starting hands in all of Texas Hold' em. This list will be extremely important in beating the snickers off of the computer in Governor of Poker. On my next post, I will try to finish the game playing strategy which includes bluffing the other players properly and stealing their chips.

Some Techniques - Part 2a

This post is going to be a little advanced because of the card playing experience I've sort of developed over the years and from having read quite a bit on some of the top professional poker player's advice. I'm going to be a little loose-ended on this blog because there are quite a bit of stuff in my head that I want to unload like this is my personal diary that I'm sharing. Obviously, I try to write at least a little nice even in my own diary when I think nobody is going to look at it to keep it honest with myself. This is pretty much how I'm writing in all phases of my life.

I've seen on a T.V. show once that a very talented recording artist but tormented person passed away recently. Man, if I had her money I would invest it in the right places right now and have even more free time to kill with more liberating ideas to go after like oil painting a whole house that I buy just for that. The person who passed away was Amy Winehouse, who also joins a list of other interesting artists who passed away during the same age of 27 like Jim Morrison of The Doors and Jimi Hendrix. The age 27 used to feel really old for me five years ago- I understand why some people said, "You're 27 now" to me; I realize the confidence that's a part of me and know how to discern the stupidity that's a part of man sometimes a little better than others; hence, I hate arguing but I am nonetheless sort of a natural polemicist who likes to joke around even while arguing with people who sort of have messed up concepts at the moment.

Yesterday, I also went to go see an early screening of a movie before it opens today! Wow, that was cool because the movie Cowboys And Aliens is expected to be a hit and I was able to see the movie for free while the theater gave away complimentary popcorn and drinks. I thought people were supposed to just walk in, and I was about to do that with my buddy who I went with. Man, it was a long drive going to Universal City Walk in Hollywood yesterday night with all the rush traffic. I felt like a dog because I felt unrecognizable while driving in the freeway- I really hate L.A. traffic. I was a little taken back that the theater wasn't full in capacity but when I reason it out, it sort of did make sense because people are driving back home from work during that hour and then having to drive in very slow traffic again would mean they wouldn't make it on time. What made me believe the drive would be initially about an hour for a normally thirty minute trip in no traffic took me two hours! Fortunately, we made it on time though because that was the time frame I set because I wanted to prepare for being in a long line. What's also funny is that there were a lot of people at Universal City Walk and it looked like they were ignorant about how this popular movie that's coming out was playing for free in the best theater which even accommodated a balcony to go watch a regular movie to my surprise there with complimentary drinks on the house. Therefore, I really want to uphold the saying "Knowledge is power!"

Here's some odd news- the country of New Zealand bans naming a baby Lucifer because the director of the baby registrar doesn't want the infant to grow up with some angst. Here's additional news that came out- did you know that the former President Bush was in a classroom filled with kids at the time news came out that the 9/11 attacks happened? His reaction is mocked by some as being a blank face- he ended up sitting there for a little longer because he wanted to project a sense of calm demeanor so he wouldn't startle the kids, if he was to jump off of his seat and leave the room. Also, one of the most attractive stars to date, Scarlett Johansson turns down a date to go to the prestigious Marine Ball.  Recent American Idol winner Lee DeWyze (a more fitting name for a guy hint-hint) pops a marriage proposal to a model who breaks down and accepts the engagement. The world's best restaurant El Bulli (smiles light up on my face) is closing.

This post is getting a little too long for me from having digressed from the topic I set off to accomplish. Since this is my blog, I may be a little unorganized to keep it convenient for myself and I could not even ever get to covering tips on how to master a pretty fun and challenging game. Therefore, I'm going to take a break from what I want to cover and call this Part 2a because I didn't get to my personal writing agenda today.

Some Techniques - Part 1

I'm going to just talk about what I'm doing with some of the stuff I do and make some practical conclusions about it while giving away the tricks I found out for free.  It's because I'm ready to move on with them now.


Playing Video Games

1. Yes, I feel like I can't live my life without playing video games sometimes. Anyway, recently I became really good or know how to be good at almost any game. The way to become great at any game is to just spend lots of time on it! Technically, I can be the greatest player in a video game if I want to be but for some reason, I don't think I want to spend all that time or feel it's really practical for me. Also, a lot of professional gamers who are awesome already intimidate me.

This is basically the kinks I learned in how to be super awesome with these games that I have on my computer and have played often- I'm going to cover Ace Online, Governor of Poker, and Wizard 101. Technically, the reason why I'm giving away my simple and winning strategies for free is because playing those games are fun, time consuming, and I want to rationalize that I'm an excellent player so that I can be satisfied and now move on to do something else so that I can become a successful person.

Ace Online

If you search on YouTube for some videos and want some pretty neat action, type in Ace Online Impossible Igear. The pilot manages to thwart off technically every user in the battlefield of the other faction and kills them at the same time! That is some awesome ownage. I know how to do it, but the person has to spend some extra time to get sponsored with upgrade points or just donate some money to the company to get that awesome.

The most deadly jets in the game are called the B-gears. They have laser sharp accuracy and can blow up just about anybody in the sky in one hit. I have fun with the I-gear because of how I can fight a whole swarm against me and feel legendary about it. This is how to become legendary on the I-gear from what I researched:

Invest most of the skill points to max out at  Evasion and Attack. Evasion provides the jet the chance to escape getting hit by enemy fire; whereas, attack points will focus on penetrating defense, more accuracy, and increase damage done in the game. Acquire the hard to acquire armors Rapid Binder and Armor Intensify Coating (XL) and then the advanced weapon called Ace Arrow. One of the advantages with the I-gear is its fast speed, so acquire those super fast engines during the high levels like the Jet-FF-IV (min. lvl 96) and get the moderately difficult to acquire unique engine I-X (or buy it from acquiring about 10 Million credits from demolishing enemies- it's very easy to become a millionaire in this game) which has the best turning radius in the game and will help the pilot win in some private duels. Also acquire at least the SC-Dolce-8A (min. lvl 82) which will provide a good load of Spirit and Fuel to keep the jet running efficiently- this can be created with a recipe! The standard weapon is arbitrary because I don't think it's that important for the I-gear, but a nice upgradable standard weapon that comes out of a boss should do. Keep leveling up and finally manage to acquire all the additional skills like turnaround, backing, turbo booster, additional evasion and attack bonuses, etc. There is a recipe to upgrade the Rapid Binder or provide more fuel for the jet on the Armor Intensify Coating (XL) found on acepedia.org with some game items at the factory in home base- this will provide more evasion to technically make the user bullet proof. By the time the user has upgraded to the final version of Rapid Binder and have all the necessary skills invested into it (max out at Evasion and Attack, about 32 on Spirit and 12 on Fuel after acquiring the Restat Card from completing a mission and SC-Dolce-8A), it's time to go on the company website and spend a little time checking out the advertisements to acquire free upgrade points. The other alternative is to just pay them money to get those upgrade points. Now, the user can purchase premium items in the Item Shop.

Purchase at least three of the expensive, Enchant Protect cards! They allow any item to be upgraded up to ten times and to revert back to the 10th level instead of being destroyed with subsequent upgrade attempts.  Place those Enchant Protect cards on Rapid Binder, Armor Intensify Coating (XL), and Ace Arrow. Optionally, place another Enchant Protect on the standard weapon (not just any, if it's super good that came out of a boss) if desired. Now upgrade the Rapid Binder with the Evasion Card ten times and then afterwards, upgrade it with the Hyper Evasion Card. The user will now have like 110% chance of avoiding enemy fire! However, keep in mind that the user can still take some damage when other jets upgrade their weapons to accommodate more probability by investing in the Accuracy Card. The majority of users on the server will be owned, but you will take occasional damage so having plenty of very high repair shield and energy kits will help you stay longer when you're in an all out war with other players. Next, it's time to upgrade the Armor Intensity Coating (XL) with more evasion or just upgrade with more Shield Cards and then you will have an even greater chance of survival with the already high evasion. Finally, upgrade the Ace Arrow with the Advanced Attack Card, Advanced Pierce Card, Advanced Quick Fire, or Advanced Speed Card ten times and then start using Hyper Advanced cards.

Therefore, I've covered the building process of turning a player in Ace Online into having a legendary build and owning the skies in the game. What I've covered will provide the ultimate survival against a swarm of many different players and also penetrate enemy defenses because of the weapon choice. When you have the elite skill beserker at its final level (min. lvl 100), then it's going to be thirty seconds of unleashing ultimate mayhem and damage to the victim unless he teleports back to his base.  The user can also tag team with a high level M-gear (lvl 80) which provides additional attack, healing, and evasion bonuses. It wouldn't be unusual to get 150% evasion!

Conclusion

Ace Online is an extremely fun and high quality full version game that can be played for free. It is a very unique game that can make some users feel like it's their second home. Therefore, it can be very time consuming grinding away to get to a higher level or finding those unique item drops from bosses. It's pretty much a game geared towards fans who like high-flying, space action. The thing about is that players will own in this game if they acquire upgrade points from visiting the company's sponsors, so it can be fully free to become a dominant player. It's the trade-off of owning other players for fun or just being an average player who manages to pass every mission and join or create a brigade. Now I know conceptually what makes a super good player in this game and have shared the knowledge to help anyone who gets interested in it.

I think I'm ready to try to move up in the food chain to tackle bigger fish in this world. Next time I write if I'm not distracted from thinking about girls or weird guys, I will try to finish up writing about how I own at the other games called Governor of Poker and Wizard 101.

Revisiting Old Stuff

The point of this post is to try to sum up everything that happened in the past for me because it's so entertaining for me to write about it. There's a link to some events with it and for some reason, I'm also exercising my brain to try to be logical enough so I could master taking this reasoning test. It's going to take a lot of practice for me and won't be that easy.

Let's see what made Chris Kuch and Jarred Taing dumb as door nails and made them go on a rampage with me? Examining the facts, it's pretty straight forward in that they were over reacting and incapable of sitting still with me because their minds were just full of indecent stuff to keep them from not exaggerating about stuff that happened with me. Jarred is pretty much a scaredy-cat and Chris is some guy who will get mad when he can't convince someone what's really great or tries to get on somebody's case; Chris would have a little trouble and be overly sensitive about raising some evil kids of his own. I did beat them both in a game of chess, before so I relate it to how if I pay attention and give my full effort and diligence then I'll outdo them in anything.

The lady who supposedly liked me, Lee, only made things worse for the outcome between Chris and Jarred because she couldn't find a release point with herself to let go of any pressures and challenges that were a part of her life. An intelligent and good lady normally tries her best to be inclusive of others and to be moral about a situation. Lee really didn't demonstrate these qualities to me, but oh well. I think the reason why Lee felt a little attraction with me is because despite my feeble appearance in the height category (yeah, I'm 5' 2" hahaha who grew only two inches doing height exercises while my arm span is still about 5' 8"- explains why my sit and reach in a physical fitness test was pretty high at about 38") ...anyway, I don't look that short sometimes because it's the deception of others looking like they are really tall. Oh, getting back to why I think Lee liked me- it's because I displayed some confidence and looked like I was struggling at the same time; basically, I was showing a positive attitude while going through a perceived tough period. It's called manning up and women will marry this type of a man! Man, I want Lee to try to yell at me about stuff or get me in trouble now- I think it's so much fun because I know what the deal is; seriously, I didn't do really anything that was wrong. 

Let's see, I wrote a poem that talked about how Annie and Betty were pretty much lame, uninteresting, and not that pretty to me. A really good female friend felt my implied message in how they were giving me a hard time and that they were putting up a wall and being selfish somewhere- she knew that something wasn't right between us. Then, these gay guys at a church supposedly tried to jump me because of it. Actually, I take back what I said about Betty because I wasn't really revealing my true feelings for her. I was just feeling frustrated with her at the time because I just didn't understand how to get rid of my angry feelings with Chris and Jarred in a healthy way without bashing their heads together. Annie is completely a different situation- I felt really physically attracted to her at the time; it's not as much as I feel for her now because I totally see what I would be missing out on but ahem (clearing my mental throat), I just didn't like Annie's mannerisms- they were really anti-social and it looked like she was really being bad at the time and having a little enjoyment over causing problems for me by being passive; I really wish she just stood up for me, but not all girls are capable of doing this. I did also treat her a little bad inwardly even though I didn't mean to as expressed in that poem I wrote about her.   

Man, Chris Kuch already looks like a lame person to me and I imagine him turning into an old guy who won't be able to run away from something someday no matter how hard he tries. Jarred is like a sick minded freak to me because he gets agitated over some of the weirdest things to me and has so many complexes that make him seem sometimes conceited. Yeah, I do have feelings of bashing the heads of Chris and Jarred together and then smacking their booties into a bush while making them dive in head first. I just might do it while explaining the procedure, ethics, and how my feelings are about being normal with them and getting along eventually. At the end, I would apologize; of course. I have to do something that I'm going to be apologizing for later, in these types of incidences that occurred for me.

Okay Things Should Get Easier

Except being turned down by some women after asking them to be my partner in the raising kids category, I guess the ones who I dealt with in the past and called weird before are not hard to me anymore. I don't care if they left their current lifestyle because of me and went to live in a humid region somewhere in the Sahara Desert now. I don't recall the stuff I wrote that made them so mad, but now that I think of it; man, it is so funny thinking about how they acted with me. The stuff I said were actually jokes while I was angry with them, but now that I'm not mad at them I see how they were really jokes that they couldn't handle.

I'm almost done with my planning- I just need to figure out how I'm going to satisfy my needs to fulfill free time once I obtain it. It's like my absolute motivation to do what I'm doing right now. I do really want to do a lot of sports including gymnastics and martial arts. I'm pretty much into doing a lot of sports ranging from fishing to sky diving. I would like to learn to fly a plane, too and maybe eventually be able to do one or two tricks on it. For some reason, I never really got excited about doing skateboarding or bike tricks; I guess it's because I landed too many times on my butt and feel like I'll break a few wrist bones, so it painfully reminds me not to try it. I also would like to get into testing out new technology and seeing if I could come up with anything cool, along with raising a few pets and probably getting a little involved in science.  Also, I'm going to make some room for some spiritual growth by studying the Bible. I think it would be cool to travel like to the Bahamas to relax or maybe take a cruise around there.

For the job category until I get the money I need to be a steady investor and make a good ton of money, these things really interest me and I'll be reading up on them and seeing if I could try out some of these technologies in no particular order. I will also add more stuff to it as I go, or narrow into some stuff as I decide to specialize in some area. The fields I'm looking into now are Electronics and Computer Technology, Network Systems Administration, Web Game Programming, Game Simulation and Programming,  IT System Security, Cisco Network Systems, Software Engineering Technology, Project Management, Software Development, Mobile Communications Technology, Digital Entertainment and Game Design, and Industrial Automation Engineering Technology. Those stuff are probably what will land on my resume someday. For now, I'm just going to read up on them whenever I have time; otherwise, I'm going to be working in some dead end job just to pay some bills and get my day trading business going.

I Know What To Do Now

Oh man, it took me so long to get to an understanding of the weirdest people on the planet for me. I'm still pretty much a short loser who gets bored of living so I guess I'm just ultra-relaxed right now. I'm not really that into watching T.V. anymore; man, T.V. is getting so boring with all those reruns and new episodes which really talk about nothing - it doesn't even make me laugh. It feels like a person I don't know is just talking non-stop with me- come on, give me some space; that's pretty much how I feel.

I just can't do those weird things I did when I was an adolescent anymore without feeling like a moron. Honestly, I find myself lucky in the health and not getting in trouble category but I had a pretty boring life to be blunt. If I had cancer, then I would probably think about how life was too short and that I need to make my time count as much as possible and to make peace with God. I would probably cry every night from feeling pain in my body, so it's pretty sad to learn how some people are leaving this world because of this incurable disease.

Life sucks in a way sometimes and it's painful when you feel like you're missing out on some stuff. Even trying to look on the bright side by making fun of the people who made you feel this way is starting to feel cruel for me. I think I'm just becoming this individual whose learning to let go and to still be a wisecrack in the future about it. Having the time to do something extraordinary is amazing and right now, I'm feeling a little sidelined because I just don't know what to do really to pass away time. It's like just thinking about it endlessly without going anywhere is supplying me with excitement and anticipation. I've learned a connection that's going to help me out a lot- basically, when others do stuff that I don't like, it's my responsibility to not let it get to me and become driven mad because of it- it's like I can feel a sense of relief if what they did was immoral and they were caught by authority and were punished because of it; otherwise, I'm just steering clear of them and going to try to protect some loved ones and myself if they become too violent. Overall, any distractions which are a part of me will ultimately affect my own decisions so I accept that my actions originate out of me and that I have no problems taking full responsibility for whatever happens to me now.  

Surviving From What Little I Have

This whole being bored everyday is a bunch of baloney. It's true that I may be very relaxed everyday from being bored, but there is some excitement that I strive for right now even though I'm currently living a sad, chaste life. I'm thinking like that while having a small frown on my face- it's like a similar train of thought that goes through my head momentarily when I'm communicating or initially thinking about a taller, attractive female before I zone out. Oh well, maybe my life was just meant to be boring and lived out by myself for a lifetime; how unappealing and boring. Even though I don't seem to have too many problems being in normal terms with any women regardless of how pretty or more taller than they are to me, I'm just like thinking to myself sometimes while having a frown on my face for being short and then smiling inwardly about the thought that I could be rejected because of my height alone by any person I try to get close to.

I have no idea, but height doesn't really matter to me and for those who do care about it like me, then well I guess those types of people just need to fry the part of their brain cells that makes them worry so much. No, I'm just kidding around a little. I don't know what the theory is with how a small dude manages to marry a tall, successful, and beautiful person, but it's definitely not that common to me. I guess people are going to say stuff about it and express some concerns. Man, I feel really short and old at the same time.


Even though it's hard sometimes, I wonder if there are more people out there who are shorter than me and about the same age could step up to the plate and really nail marriages that are conceived to be impossible to work out and then inspire me to try also. I guess I'm just trying to go through the motions right now with everything happening in my life and thinking more clearly about my decisions and responsibilities that I would like to obtain for myself.

I would really like to have a more active mind, so I believe that working out is helping me to achieve this great state of mind. I would also like to relax more and feel prepared to take on difficult challenges that come my way and to be able to successfully deal with them. Looks like I just want that additional boost in my life along with some stability and to also be able to accept my fate if it's not going to happen the way I wanted it to. I just want to be prepared for stuff like this now. Overall, I feel like I have no role models to really look up to, but do feel like respecting others and being honest with them regardless of who they are. If I'm called stupid for being brave and making a mad man torture me slowly and take away my life, then well, I just accept my fate if I become immobilized for defending myself or helplessly others I want to protect; furthermore, I'm not changing for being upfront with anybody. Even though I'm good at keeping secrets and will commit to my promises of not letting it out once I give into it no matter what, I'm still going to be upfront about stuff and not be shy.  

Forgetting To Write

Okay, I'm tired from having gone somewhere. I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain; man that place was so packed today. For some reason, I don't feel depressed when I go to places anymore. I don't know; maybe in the beginning, I had some depression issues from going to different places or staying home or doing nothing or doing something. I don't know, being depressed just for the sake of being depressed really sucks and is boring. I guess because I was so bored and so fed up with being part of something that really sucks, I pretty much cheered myself up.

Okay, this blog is so useless. I only managed to ride like only 4 rides in 8 hours and then I popped my old tire on my car on the way back. Man, dumb freeway, and it was also my careless mistake of not changing my tires because I thought I could keep them on for long periods. I ended changing a tire while a female friend who rode with me was taking pictures of me and laughing at me switching it with a spare. Man, I felt like a man after switching my flat tire with a spare. It felt good. I held up my flat tire proudly and smiled happily at the camera and then she had a good time forwarding it to other friends. Her other female friends got the picture and started laughing about it, too. Okay, that was interesting and I didn't mind so much at all. At the end of the night, I got to watch a movie at another female friend's house. Okay, it doesn't hurt to have some female friends and to be able to crash on their couch after they host a big party and stuff like that and just not be judged and be seen together very comfortably as friends. It was good times, and I really enjoyed myself with company of some good friends. Now, I'm starting to realize what being a good friend really means or how I could be one and apply it these days.

Dropping A Brown Mullet

What's with the funny title? It's Australian: a brown mullet is slang just like in American slang, it would mean taking a number two. I've asked an Australian once if he's ever seen a brown mullet in the clean waters of the coral reef, but to my expectations he stayed quiet.

This is my copy and paste letter that I wrote to some male leaders I don't really feel that much association with anymore after they were just yelling and screaming at me over being annoyed about something so little and couldn't drop it. I understand if a woman does this, but some guys being a bunch of whiners and all weak inside so they become irate, man they acted like a bunch of losers- here's my e-mail:

"I forgive you for your acts of cruelty which came from you being weird to me. The whole time I was meaning to argue with you. By me forgiving you, it doesn't mean that I won't stop arguing with you. Being in contention with you doesn't mean I'm trying to stalk you. HAHAHA! It didn't matter even with Lee's restraining order. I still managed to get around it; I guess it's something dealing with me being Korean. It's one of those Korean things that makes me capable of dealing with these weird situations that came out of your group. With Betty having left the group and Chris Kuch as well, that is a major let down to your church- it brings the advantage back to my end. I simply just had to wait it out- it was really simple; also, if I don't want to wait any longer, I can come back now and I do have a really good understanding of these situations now and I will be extremely difficult to get rid of unless you sin by committing murder. I literally mean what I'm saying by being honest with you. 

By the way, I had fun calling up Betty and emailing her and Annie even with the restraining order going which Lee tried to forbid me to do. I think Lee sort of liked me period. I'm okay with knowing about it now and can accept it even though it will take me a little while longer to not feel so reluctant being around her. I'm shorter than her too by the way; I guess it didn't matter to her at the time. I guess a good woman doesn't really look at a man's height but how attractive the man is overall. I didn't know I can be attractive sometimes- err, I mean to say confident. Basically, I'm saying that Lee sort of liked me because of what she did and that I accept it now but I feel really overwhelmingly reluctant with the idea of dating her. Therefore, as much as I might laugh about her being intimate with someone; I'm learning to accept the situation and to wish her well. It's not in my major interest to share this with Lee as well right now, so what you do with this information is independently up to you.

Man, I think I'm going to be all right and have to give all my credit to the Son of God. I guess I make myself out with someone you wouldn't really want to argue with and overreact against because of the many personal headaches you would feel with me. I think I might come to the defense of others or that situation you hate at the moment because I just want to be in contention with you now just for personal laughs. You have to kill me literally now if you want to get rid of me, and I am going to be try to be cool in the things I say, so you're in for a handful now. If you're so heavily bent on something like saying "There's no God" later even though you preach at a church, well, it's your decision and my own responsibility to try do the moral thing with what I decide to do in the end even with all of those powerful influences giving me some hints to take the evil way out."

Yeah, so that's what I call dropping a brown mullet. There are two things I promise to do:
1. Stop playing online poker, except if I obtain some ownership to that software and it will give me some money, or I'm just trying to get an idea of the technology. Therefore, I'm going to avoid trying to make playing strategies on something that doesn't belong to me online now. (Wait until I create an automated robot that plays poker and takes people's money, now that's something worthwhile.)
 
2. Accept no substitutes with the idea of getting a wife if people know what I mean because I think I would kill myself if I never obtained something good like that. Right now, I have to assume being chaste is the right of way until I marry. Man, I won't be hurt if all married women want to ignore me.

My Confidence Is Rising Yet Boredom Goes Up

I find a stupid game of messing around in a poker game to be exciting. Just sitting there and watching those hands dealt and then pushing all my chips in every hand and watching the other people squirm online and complain that he can't beat me, man that's fun even if I do it not for the money. Okay, it's partially true because I can't see the other person's face online. Playing poker online is confidential because I can write a lot of insults in the chat box against the other player without getting a gun pulled out on me.

I feel bad for playing poker and feeling this fix underneath me. Man, I want to get married to an attractive woman I feel right about marrying more than just wasting my time playing poker for zero cents in return. I'm just so bored because of my low maintenance activities, it's like I only need to spend like two minutes to make 1000000000 dollars and then I have the whole day to myself. Man, it's so boring. Okay, I'm exaggerating about the figures but yeah, I'm into putting my money in and letting people do all the work for me while I just relax and hardly do anything at all.

Poker is just too much high maintenance for me, even though it's sort of a similar idea to making money investing in stuff. It's all about finding the right edge and then competing against practically everybody in the world. The nice thing is that there are people nice enough to share what they know and contribute to helping others be more successful at what they do and to find some fulfillment out of it. I seriously need to stop playing online poker for fun now and just concentrate how bored I am doing what I feel is my dream and just go at it now. I want to be so under self-control that seeing that I can have access to a poker game any time I want, I don't really give into it no matter how bored I feel and know that it will make me feel a little excited to just play for no money and only fun. I need to push aside my mistress which is poker right now and focus on my boring dreams which I've felt would be satisfying on the long run- I guess it's just that it's long term diligence that I feel bored of doing sometimes and maybe I haven't found the right lady even though I know who the right person is for me and when she comes around I'm going to make a move- even though there are plenty of nice women out there who haven't been hand picked by other guys yet.

Boredom Vs Wasting Time

Today, I'm pretty bored again and feel like I don't really have that much time to blog on this machine. I'm really bored, but I'm not really wasting time so that's the trade off for me right now. By being engaged in doing some things, I may be very bored but at least I'm getting some productive things done and getting to a point of doing what I really want to accomplish.

I guess because I really need the money and think I really suck at being desperate with other companies to take me in and help me get a better lifestyle, I can't be another one who is going to bite the dust. Therefore, I might as well do something that's been making me money ever since the beginning of when I knew what the word job meant.

There's pretty much only one loose end that I really need to fix for myself now. I'm doing something that could be fun but is sort of questionable for myself because I'm not fully satisfied participating in it. There are enough activities in the back of my mind that could help fill this gap of doing something that I feel is meaningful and at least doing something, besides just trying to spend most of my free time with something that really isn't worth my time. I'm going to try something, no matter how bored I feel about doing something that's productive and fulfilling to me, I'm going to be engaged in it no matter how small I feel it is at that moment and try to let it build into something useful and what I totally want.

Ending Some Bad Habits

Okay, I need to really let go of some hours and put it into something more useful. It's really hard utilizing my time properly for me for some reason because I'm on my own right now most of the time. I think I need to just continue to try my very best at some things that I want to get good at and to let go of some other stuff. A problem that I might be having is that I want to be good at a lot of lot things at once. It's really hard for me to not want to get carried away with this and just spend lots of time and not really get anywhere for awhile.

I need to let go of some areas and just place my focus on things that I want to accomplish right now. I really need to stay focused and really discipline myself into getting stuff done no matter how bored I feel about it. It's this feeling that I have underneath me that makes it so easy for me to get carried away and lose track of stuff. I really need to understand what it is for myself and just be able to deal with it properly and then motivate myself to get a position where I'll be in okay standing.

What I really need to try is to get the stuff that I can get done out of the way quickly and then to invest more energy into stuff that I really want to accomplish. I really need to dedicate myself and keep myself motivated to the point that I'll know what I'm doing. I think I really need to base myself on some personal moral standards that I have for myself. I'm going to try to plan executing important stuff first of all and taking practical stuff for myself most of the time now. I guess when I'm satisfied with most of the important stuff and have some stability going then that's when I could really relax and have a lot of fun because where I'm trying to lead myself is a direction where I'll have something that's low maintenance, heavy wealth-building, and fast! It's a lot of work- that's for sure and I have some preferences that really are low maintenance and doesn't require too much team work to be prolific at some stuff. I think it's just how I was made and maybe doing these activities to obtain stuff that I don't have is what I'm supposed to do right now to keep myself occupied and to think about how I'm going to chill out become a later activity. I just need to accept some things now and not really worry about some stuff in the back of my mind that's so pestering about others now. 

Finding One's Path To Pure Satisfaction

One of my friends told me how he was encouraged to walk all the way down the Las Vegas Strip starting from the first hotel and all the way to last one. He said that he enjoyed looking at dancing girls in some hotels. For myself, I feel that they are getting paid for it so I don't really see how it's very sexy to me. I think stability and a healthy marriage with an attractive woman is tons more fulfilling and way more sexy. Okay, for now on, when I'm saying what I feel and the other person doesn't want to understand what I'm saying, I'm going to be like "Fine then, just don't say that I did not warn you" and stop arguing after saying my main point short and sweet. I shouldn't put all this energy that I'm not too sure about on a weird person and end up doing something stupid with him or her. I think I'll just call it being patient with the person and continually working on myself. It actually works, one way or another, and doesn't matter what you're feeling in the moment. Besides if someone you thought was normal ended up doing something weird in the end, at least there's more attractive people to try to connect with later. It doesn't matter if that other person thinks you're weird too- it's like getting a fresh start so see what I mean; having some type of impersonal feelings about an individual doesn't really matter in the end, and it's very hard for almost everybody to understand it.

I'll share what I want even though I feel like it's a secret that I'm giving away for free in this world. First of all, having a spiritual relationship with Christ through studying the pages of the canonized Scriptures or what most people refer to as the Holy Bible is actually very fulfilling and meaningful. Being under bondage of a sin (like a bothersome addiction) eventually feels like a burden for some people and just doesn't feel right to continue in it to choose a certain life-style like entering into a committed relationship with someone. By having faith in someone who the person can trust to deliver from these types of sins, it makes life a lot more meaningful and can help the person to cope with the situation and repent of his or her sins. It's so powerful to have this new found influence under the Holy Spirit, and it isn't easy- nothing really worthwhile in this world comes cheap anyway.

This is what I think some other people in this world would normally want to cherish in their hearts. Having stability, free time, and being a part of raising a pretty cool family. If my time is cut short because of my pursuance of living this desired lifestyle, then honestly, I can accept my fate now. My faith is seriously in the hands of God now. I'm not afraid to man up to a situation and to really give all the effort I can to put up a good fight to keep it going with what I want. In addition to having those valuable things I just mentioned, I want to be more athletic and literally stand a couple more inches taller so I'm going to continue trying those elongation exercises which ended up working for me. Also, there has been some speculation in the scientific community that shorter peers than their taller peers may possess a "Methuselah mutation gene" (http://www.scientificamerican.com/article.cfm?id=methuselah-mutation-linked-to-long-life) which is linked to providing long life. In addition to applying those body elongation exercises I covered briefly from the last post, now that's called adding some personal touch! Nothing totally great comes so easy, so be happy with giving it your all and working hard for something to go your way.

Time To Kick Some Tail

Yeah, I'm really interested in doing this. I can only bench press up to my weight right now which is only 175 pounds. Yeah, I only stand at least about 4' 10" and weigh 175 pounds which I can bench press with ease. Ummph! Okay, maybe it takes a little more effort to max out at it. Just look at my photo, I'm standing next to that midget nutcracker at the top of this page. That person you're staring at is me, a former midget because I grew one inch so I'm not really a midget anymore because I'm taller than somebody in this world. I possess the willing to grow genes- this one guy told me that when I did growing taller exercises to get one inch taller, he said "What you just said is the most amazing thing I have ever heard." Another guy was like, "Tell me how you did it, I really need it."

I can tell you how to do it for free. Basically, do yoga stretches that target your spinal area. The science is in straightening out the spine and allowing it to add some fluid so that the person can permanently gain about 1-2 inches off their original height. Pretty interesting right? It's not really growing like puberty, but more like elongating the body which is actually quite possible. So maybe when the date is a little thrown off by how short you are, you could apply that type of exercise and maybe it will be beneficial for you later. Another way to elongate the leg's growth is to cycle with a raised seat for about thirty minutes everyday. By forcing the body to pedal through the metal at a longer length, it forces the legs to grow naturally. Also to get longer arms, do something dangerous like become a hard-throwing pitcher in the major leagues. Throwing those 100 mph fastballs elongates their throwing arm too, so that is why some pitchers have one arm longer than the other.

So enough with this common sense in how to elongate the body and become taller. Let's move on to how I'm going to use my new height that I have right now. I only gained one inch after puberty, so let's see what I can do. I'm taller than a few more people and about the same height with others- that's about it. I'm going for another inch in my height now. That's about it. Because my torso is about 40 inches, seriously, it is about 40 inches, for a midget like me and I'm so hairy with a hairy chest for an Asian guy- I'm so serious and being honest, and how I have a foot size of a 10 wide meaning that it was a sign that I was going to grow but my body still decided to stay a midget- actually, some taller people who complained about me being short said "Don't worry, there's a girl whose shorter than you." Yeah, being at least 4 feet tall was never so much fun than I ever thought.

Actually, Not Finished Yet

Man, I was on vacation for the last two days. I went to Las Vegas, which has been like my tenth time going there. I am so bored of that place now. One of the interesting highlights in my visit was that there was a group of young, male Christians about in their college years yelling at the middle of the sidewalk with a lot of people where a murder took place awhile ago about accepting Christ. I looked at the poster which said "No Gambling" and a list of other things. I overheard one of the guys say, "If you don't care about your soul, then keep walking." I ended up smiling and just kept walking past him- honestly, I was thinking to myself that a person doesn't need to breathe down someone's neck to get a point across or to force it upon them. Just let it all out in one gulp of fresh air, no need to hold back and if the world labels you as an insane loner than oh well. While we were walking back, one of the guys caught the attention of a family who stood there listening to what he had to say and my little sister said, "Wow!"

I drove my family all the way to Vegas and my dad commented how it was the most comfortable time he's been there all these years. Yeah, I've learned to drive a truck and big school bus and I was applying the habit of it in the vehicle while making turns and being defensive on the road which was unpleasant for my little sister who was complaining about how I was driving too slow and not being aggressive enough. While driving back I was hitting 90 MPH, so don't tell the California Highway Patrol I went that fast and my parents and little sister were all asleep in the vehicle.

Coming back, I drove my family back too while I was half asleep for half of the way there. When we stopped at a dead outlet mall in the city of Barstow, I switched places with my lil' sis and she took over while I slept in the shot gun position. She ended up taking us to this Fish Restaurant and I saw a girl who looked like Betty. She had black, painted nails and looked really skinny, but her face looked very much like her- I don't know if that's really Betty but okay. I was smiling because after what she's put me through, I can laugh it off and still initiate shaking her hand or blocking her hitting me over anything. Afterwards, she took us to this bread place which was packed- I think it's called 85 degrees. I saw a lot of Asians there, and I was thinking to myself that if a person rejects me and does something weird to me to shun me for the rest of my life then at least I have virtually an unlimited supply of attractive and good people I can try to be good to in the future, regardless of whatever happens so I have learned to be happy now. Yep, it's a big deal for the person whose at the other side of the rainbow- nobody.

Work Hard To Make Things Happen

Life is so difficult sometimes, the end. Okay, that's the end of my never ending blog fest. Maybe, I could program something to continue writing for me and posting on this blog even when I'm long gone. Okay, that sounds really creepy, like what topics am I going to be programing into it and how am I going to set up money that will never go away that I could be dead to let it happen. Bleep bleep bloop, I'm a robot created by this sicko guy- no, just kidding hahaha. I wonder if I could create an automatic blogger that has a sense of humor and then if anyone is crazy enough to purchase it, the buyer will go through an automated process in sending money that will be of no use to anyone because I'll be long gone by then.

I'm realizing that some people I sort of know who have me not listed as their friend on Facebook didn't really feel comfortable about something I did to them. Okay, I get it now and I see how I can take advantage of laughing about it now. I understand what they were going through even though it's extremely funny for me to describe it now. Maybe, I should talk about how funny it is. First of all, they went to sleep somewhere in their room and then they woke up and brushed their teeth and then changed out of their pajamas and then went to work. That's the reason why they're feeling uncomfortable with me because I know too much about their little things which I commonly relate to just like everybody else. Man, that was boring wasn't it? Okay, so it's not really that funny in general.

I understand this whole concept of not caring now. It was extremely hard to do for me over little things and maybe, that's why some of those creeps I mentioned were like getting the hives underneath their skin and just reaching a high level of fever from having caught a virus and just do something weird to me as a result. Yes, I'm implying they were infected and were pretty much "It" in real life circumstances and acting all weird around me and talking nonsense baloney about others which felt like they were wanting to drag me to hell. Bleep bleep bloop, I had to do a personal mind dump- so I own this dumb site now. He's only kidding by the way, and- I'm alive!!!!

Making Sense Out Of Something

This post is going to be very embarrassing for me, so maybe some readers who feel my pain and want to show me some mercy can hit the back button. Or, maybe if I did a horrible job then they'll never come check up on this site again! I'm pretty much applying some honesty therapy treatment with my mind, while yes, I'm holding back on some truth because I don't want to let it out- that's about as far as I want to be honest in saying bluntly that I'm holding back on some things. I guess if I can make a fool out of myself while writing stuff on this blog, then I'm pretty much doing my job as something like an unpaid intern doing some blogging.

This is probably the most embarrassing thing to date for me- I've been such a lazy idiot with no confidence. By driving a school bus around, I'm feeling a little competent again and maybe it will give me the drive to stop driving a dumb yellow bus around picking up immature kids screaming they're sick of me driving them. It's a curse for me right now- I love kids and they're so little and cute even if they act like little devils. My driving score on a school bus is basically whooping the competition just like any good driver is normally capable of doing. It's just a given that anyone can drive a truck or school bus for a profession as long as he or she didn't do something so majorly stupid- like get into an unavoidable accident which would mean you're screwed! No, seriously- don't get caught doing drugs or drunk driving or it's over with a lot of things, which some celebrities don't seem to get a clue with. Secondly, don't be nervous about anything at all even if a mean girl acted like she really liked you and then did something weird to confuse you like Darunee and her alternate personality named Lee, Annie (not the musical), or  Betty (not Ugly Betty) who I'm trying to force myself to say is actually sort of nice. Oh man, it's so fun having common girl names to relate to in this blog sometimes.

I actually can't say much about Annie anymore except that I'm not really interested in her that much. Big deal, she left the States to marry somewhere close to Antarctica which is Australia - man that place must be cold. Actually, I think South America is closer and it must get super hot there with the melting ozone layer. Annie is also a little taller than this other woman but I'm still taller than her- yes! Height doesn't matter, which I'm saying while partying being taller than some ladies. Again, just don't be nervous about anything- that's the best advice I've written in all my years of writing about (B.)aloney (S.)andwiches.

Clearing the Mind

The mind is challenged with tempting zones everyday,
The juice flowing within is choosing adversity.
Just imagine special ed people going to an university.
Their success out of it is helping to inspire my virility.

I'm not a special ed person, but know his potential affability.
It's difficult to see good in some who came out of it confidently.
What I mean is that they were trying to act in class diffidently.
They probably managed to kill time laughing at them heinously.

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I made it up trying to bag on some people who fake how much effort they give in life and try to take short cuts to get the upper hand, and maybe they end up short-handed in the end. I know two people who are twins and have been in special ed while going to school- they like to talk a lot about what their social class was like in high school and how rich and proud their grandfather was of them and how one of them liked some girls and felt he could get along with some of them and just never initiated anything with them; whereas, the other twin was super aggressive towards women and became so angry about being rejected and didn't know how he was scaring off the women- so now he's like inactive in trying to get in a relationship with women and wants to stay single. I'm thinking to myself that if a woman really liked a man she saw a couple times and she was really interested in him, she would actually do stuff like bump into him to make it look like an accident or say something to him. Actually, I do believe that one of those twins did receive some advances from some aggressive women, so maybe I can believe that some of the shy ones really were sort of into the shy twin. I wonder if he could introduce me to one of those really pretty shy girls he felt too shy to talk to while thinking she was his soul mate. I mean, he likes this one girl right now, and it feels like I'm really cool with her now because I'm like comfortable in my shell and think she's a nice person. For some reason, I'm like feeling some signs of older, single women liking me when I get that certain level of confidence- I'm still trying to decide to be faithful to a younger woman than me by just a tad and not too young.

Spending Time Wisely

Boy with the time I have, I guess I hope I don't have to be that much convincing to others with what I want. Let's see I want to elongate my legs and upper body about four more inches and then marry a beautiful wife whose about 5' 6" or shorter. I know that I can be confident around girls who are shorter than me already even if they wear high heels- okay, there's not that much to it. I think it's a pretty funny request that I'm writing for myself- with guys being all visual and stuff, I guess I'm taking my view of myself a little personally in a visual sense.

Here's another thing I would like to gain, I want to get fit and considered to appear sexy while doing a healthy approach to get there. It's all smiles here because I'm probably going to hear my mom in the back of my head saying "You go do that son, stop talking about it and get it done! (Like you aren't already handsome to me.)" Having so much money and then literally killing my time with free time and a pretty stable family would be nice.

I'm just too confident to feel let down by anybody now on the long run. It really doesn't matter what the person did to me anymore now. I just don't want to waste my valuable time thinking about how I'm going to demolish that person when I could be thinking about how I'm going to spend time with family and earn free time. Definitely, I would rather have that person never remember me like catching some amnesia and forgetting whatever troubles the person felt with me. I would like people to feel that way with anything that I did that was considered bad to them. If I can pursue my time wisely and use it to build a strong foundation of wealth and invest in the free time to make myself four inches taller by elongating the bones or something or my fingers (through the use of a Cello) or becoming a hard-throwing pitcher to elongate my arms with one side longer than the other, than maybe things will be quite interesting in where I want to take it. 

Taking It Moderately

I've pretty much ended some distractions so that I could focus on earning a living. It's necessary for me right now because I need to put in the time and effort so that I could have more free time later and pretty much do whatever I want to my heart's content. I guess for the time being, I can't really focus on playing some addicting computer games. I don't really have time to spend interacting with people online anymore either. I pretty much have to treat this very fast computer that pretty much loads everything up in two seconds and will do a million things at once, so it's like I'm tempted to do all that stuff on it; I have to put in the time to think about finding the right opportunities that will work for me with it now.

I remember like it was yesterday's dream- a teacher put in a huge 5.25" disk on a DOS-based computer and started it up and then I started playing this simple math game that asked for simple answers like what's the answer for 21+14 and for every correct answer, a piece of a rocket ship was completed. After solving a slightly challenging question, the rocket ship blasted off into space! Man, that was a fun computer game back then for me while I was in second grade. From the moment I became hooked on my slow and faulty but lovable machine that originated in ancient computer times, that's when I learned simple commands and programmed it every time I started it because it was really stupid and wouldn't remember what to do each time. I have to admit that in five seconds it was on a functioning GUI so it's faster than any computer that's ever been built in the start up category. One of the best moments was having the game Jeopardy and copying down answers for each question and then I would get every answer right and earn like $100,000 in the game.

I was ahead of my time when I was a second grader, so I was technically a prodigy because nobody else had a computer like mine. I then started shutting off the T.V. when it advertised a really cool Apple desktop- yeah, times can catch up on you and beat you really fast. It was a no brain-er that I would end up being the top of my computer class and make fun of people for looking at their fingers while typing on a keyboard. I would stare at some kids in envy if they occasionally surpassed my greatness and became heavily rewarded with a glow-in-the-dark sticker or the wonderful book cover because I had taught myself to read instructions on putting it on properly, so I was really proud to do it whenever I had the chance. Therefore, it's a no-brainer that I'm going to constantly be learning to keep up with current times in computing technology- I want to be a know-it-all of some sort with computers and make a living off of it; I even don't mind if I get paid like a dollar an hour and get to drink red wine while living in a villa at some far off place in Italy doing it.

Just Try Your Best

Basically, I'm living by one rule right now to combat the debt I owe. Don't use money, unless it is absolutely a must! A lot of time and money get wasted by investing in stuff that never get used anyway so why give into them to feed an anxiety when in the future it's not going to help anyway. I think I'll just think to myself that I owe $100,000 right now.

Okay, with debt piling up and how I will never default on my payments because I absolutely need my car, I have had a lot of time to think long and carefully on my journey to making a good living. Regaining confidence on my own without a soul mate to keep encouraging me or money to go see a therapist was tough, but not impossible. With the experience that I had for myself, as cheap the thrills were in going about trying to obtain money, I'm pretty much better off being labeled by employees as an absent-minded dork who won't get anything done right and so I have to be yelled at and cited for having a lack of positive energy and motivation and alienated from the job sector.

I have to pretty much do everything the hard way now. I'm going to be driving a school bus around to pick little kids up and take them to school and back home. That's the best I could do for myself right now and that's the situation I'm in. I tried to be a truck driver but the gear shifting in that thing and the thought of being away from home for so long on the road and lonely has been mentally challenging. My driving skills are pretty much on the upper tier of other drivers, and I'm considered to be a good driver for having about 10 years of perfect driving on my record- I had a lot of close calls but were able to dodge them with some success and cool on my end. I don't want to brag but I really avoided major accidents like avoiding getting smacked by another truck driver who didn't see me on his side and was lane changing while I was entering a one-lane curve on a highway with him. Man, I had to stop right in the middle of the ramp and was lucky the truck didn't phase and kill me! One time, I braked so hard and the car started skidding with very dim lighting in heavy traffic (downtown Los Angeles at night time on the worst freeway in the world) and I ended up avoiding a very bad collision to the back of another car- that was pure luck that there was space in the fast lane! For now on, I drive like a professional because I'm actually training to be one! Basically, I just go with the flow and can see everything ahead of me like 10-12 seconds and not cuss out drivers if they do something weird on the road. I should be smacking my forehead for being Asian, around other Asian drivers, and a good driver which is a contradiction.

Rules of Life I Want To Live By

Examining my life, I feel that it's all about the timing and putting it together properly to make something work. I may be exaggerating or not, but I feel like I had a lot of near misses because I just couldn't get passed my anxiety. Enough living in the shadows now for me, I'm still making preparations to have a rather depressing life. It feels like I would be missing out on a lot by keeping to myself the next couple years and that trying to get situated back into the human world would be extremely difficult. Probably the only ineffective tool I will have remaining could be this blog which I'm treating like my personal therapy session each time and just letting it out bravely with the world. I think I'm a guy who likes to live on the edge of things; always taking risks that I'm not so sure of sometimes and being ignorant about some things.

The reason why I feel like I'm going to be closed off for awhile is because I pretty much have no wife and have to settle for the worst-case scenario job in paying off my debts the quickest. I feel like I can't get any personal resolve out of having debts to still live by- therefore, I'd probably be a bad politician. I made some poor decisions that have been life-altering for me in terms of economic and social well-being. It's hurt my personal confidence quite a bit too and even though it's very overwhelming, I'm still pushing myself to fight through it. Maybe because it was ultimately my own doing, I'm pretty much stuck with myself!

It's just my personality and personal values that can't make me ignore some things about myself. I just can't run away from some things, so it might be better for me in the future to keep trying my best to avoid any temptations to do bad things in general. From everything I suffered through and which is mentally abrasive sometimes, I just gained confidence in myself now. 

Finding Motivation From Within

Looking up on the news and significance of the day is such a fascinating activity if one could make some time for it. It's been really pleasurable for me, like drinking a cup of coffee every morning. I guess it's just part of my leisure now and that I don't really have a lot of time for it because my need is to just write about anything now daily and really fast. It's like a quick fix for me and has been relatively a nice routine for me. It's time to break it down a little with what I'm finding out about myself honestly.

By being honest, I'm realizing that if life is compared to playing a game- people are always going to win and lose sometimes because people can logically be grouped together. By being honest with myself and living a life of integrity, I see that I'm going to be a winner most of the time. Therefore, writing bluntly on this blog about anything that I've wanted has been relatively a good practice for me and has really sharpened my socializing skills quite a bit. From being honest, I'm not afraid of some whack jobs claiming I did something wrong and offering their spin on life as advice for me which I don't really listen to anymore if what they're referring to really sucks in general. 

Where I'm going at right now with my living is to find a direction of making money by doing low maintenance activities. For example, trading stocks or what people refer to as daytrading can be a low maintenance job because of the need to just spend probably like an hour to monitor a long term trade each day. Another could be something that lets you schedule around your time and still allow you the mobility to have free time. My personality really wants a low maintenance activity that is profitable so that I can have so much time to do whatever I want with the money and extra time that comes out of it. It all depends on the personality of each individual because another person may want to always be involved with his or her line of work and be dedicated to it most of the time.

If some readers have caught my drift which is so very difficult to obtain for the average person, then here comes to answer to the question "How do you go about obtaining so much profit and have so much time to do whatever you wanted without getting in trouble for it?" I think the first step is to think about all the ethical considerations and comfortable desires for the individual. For example, being a professional athlete could keep you away from home for several months before going into the off-season. Another could be the thought of drug dealing which is an illegal and dangerous activity that probably could substantially increase one's profit and then all of a sudden land the participant in jail with everything confiscated.   

Depending on what satisfies each individual, it's mainly confidence that really drives a man to provide food for the table. I'm not sure how women get it done, but I guess they just try to work really hard too at their careers. A guy I know usually says a lot of idiotic things around me like how he's the greatest at what he does and keeps on making jokes to cheer himself up and try to bring down the morale of my friend and me with it. He's been saying how he could attract people to hook him up and then take advantage of them. He does a lot of asking with me which is like a door salesman knocking from door-to-door and eventually, every persistent salesman is going to make a sale but probably not generally liked if the product really sucks. I guess it's okay to leave those types of guys in the dust because they will find a way to adjust to any discomfort even if they become really eccentric and stay annoying to others. Basically, what I'm getting out of everything I put here is just staying away from leisure and putting my time and effort into getting a low maintenance thing going. In life, everything needs commitment and hard work to make something happen; for myself, working hard to get to a period of having it easy for the rest of my life sounds like a very fulfilling task and something I don't want to mess up in anymore.

No Time Again

Okay, I was having fun with the whole looking at news and something about history and was probably creeping some people out with me writing about it. Yeah, people can take facts and sometimes twist it into their own words to get whatever meaning conveyed that they want. It's actually quite fun to do, sometimes and in fictional incidences that probably is just too over-the-top and too good to be true. Okay, so I'm starting sentences with a preposition that sucks and doesn't give that much pleasurable meaning.

I don't really have time right now so I'm just randomly typing whatever is coming out of my head. Oh yeah, I need to write a sentence about Annie Tran- that one not that one in the world- man, it gets confusing knowing that Asia probably has at least a couple thousand Annie Tran's to look at; man, that name is starting to bug me for some reason too now. Okay, so she's a lady with a pretty chameleon like face and then sometimes, it seemed like she was releasing a lot of stress by crying in tears a lot. I think since she's a lady, it's okay for girls to cry whenever something is overwhelming them- I wouldn't be surprised if the amount of times she's cried could fill up a 15 gallon tank that goes into a water container. That's a lot of useful crying to get over stuff- I guess that's something nice I could write about Annie. Seriously, I'm trying the best I can right now.

I think Annie isn't the greatest looking gal anymore either but she dressed up pretty well- so she's a pretty fashionable person. Okay, that's another nice thing to say about her. Man, I'm forcing myself to see the positives about her right now. She wants to be easy-going, even though in a weird way sometimes and I guess she doesn't mind someone to lead her in some areas where she could use some advice in- this could be a very positive trait for a woman. Let's see, I'm not a woman but I'm trying to be honest about her so I'm trying to tap into my female side which is pretty much rolled up into nothing for me right now. I guess somebody had the hots for her, so somebody tried to ask her out so I guess she is someone who could come across as a decent wife to somebody because she did mention once that she was into the thought of getting married someday. She doesn't have all the physical qualities of a knock-your-socks-off type but she can be a very charming person and get you feeling very bothered about yourself if she doesn't talk to you sometimes for any reason. In a way, with a little work, she could really be a genuinely, wonderful person someday.

Lacking Time Today

Okay, I'm not very talented with this whole writing gig. Sometimes, I'm not fully there in the head or something. Oh well, but it seems like if I just stay honest, all seems to go well for me. It's like the best things that happened for me came because I was honest about stuff. Yeah, I've sinned with some stuff and I'm not going to say that I'm better at sinning less than others because it's just an idiotic thing to think about.

Man, I've read up on some famous people who are short like Tom Cruise and I'm thinking to myself that it doesn't matter if a person is tall or short when it to comes to obtaining things. I think happiness is really appreciated a lot more by working after stuff, not some nonsense that isn't related to hard work. I think the world sees less short people who are famous because most of the people in this world are technically average, so when it comes to looking at the bell curve and quality then maybe short people have better quality in some things than average people because there isn't just that many compared to them.

I think the short man who feels a lack of confidence in some ability to do things well and just becomes lazy all of a sudden with something is sort of a normal funk for them to go through. It's just the process of putting it together that takes awhile and then acting out on some new found knowledge. I know this first hand because I'm a short individual like Tom Cruise too. Tall people supposedly lay a lot longer when they sleep in bed so they probably need to pay a lot more to get bigger stuff to accommodate them so they are forced to work harder- what about those tall people who are poor and dreaming of making it big? I guess it's just the way of economics.

Little Bit Off Course

Okay, today I went to Batman's city, Gotham City because I just wanted to try out something called Batman The Ride. Gotham City is located in something called Magic Mountain right off Valencia, CA and the 5 Interstate Freeway. That sounds really easy to find, I'm guessing. Okay, why am I writing about Batman instead of the new ride called Green Lantern? Okay, I rode the Green Lantern today and found it to be quite a popular attraction while over there today in the afternoon. Man, I was hoping it would be empty but looks like people just want to come to have some fun. I actually had fun in the rides and wasn't feeling like throwing up on any ride even though I had a heavy lunch- it's because I'm a veteran with riding crazy and sickening, jaw-dropping, gravity defying rides. Yes, I've been on it all- well most of them. I just haven't been cleared for take off into outer space or riding a MACH 3 jet yet. Just make a one-stop trip to Six Flags Magic Mountain and all your wishes of going on some crazy rides will come true- that is if the lines don't keep you from going on them in one day.

I'm steering a little off course from writing about the news today and significant events because I don't have the time right now and that I just felt like writing today at the same time. I'm basically trying to write this really fast in like 10 seconds. I guess my typing and thinking at the same time skills is not that bad and because it's a higher level then just talking without thinking, I think that's why when I'm being brutally honest while writing, it seems to have that guy spunk that's a part of me.

Okay, for now on I'm going to treat all ladies I'm writing about with some subtly. Actually, I don't care if the man I'm thinking about is the devil himself now. I'll just think to myself the Devil May Cry character will pop up out of nowhere someday and do the demon some poetic justice. This is why, I don't even have to go for any legal disclaimers and rid myself of any liabilities. So, even though I feel Darunee Lee Wong (sta- something something added to her 'Wong'-in status) is not the greatest woman to write about, I'll eventually write nice stuff about her. Just not right now- just yet. I think writing nice stuff about Betty was actually the best upgrade for me in describing girls nicely. I feel that I've benefited so much from trying to write nicely about Betty, so I guess I'm going to leave out talking about Betty for now and focus on trying to write good stuff about Annie Tran (Darunee's failing protege haha). I'm probably going to be a little rough around the edges writing about Annie, so please condone my honest speech if it sounds sort of sickening- I can't liven it up that well right now just like I did with the other woman I'm used to writing about. Basically, Round 2 in my discussion about some ladies that I have been associated with will be Annie Tran (the one who went to that church I wrote about, I wonder if it's no longer there because I hear a lot of them left.) Man, I'm going to be literally a very boring writer and probably bored to death trying to describe Annie painfully in typed words on this blog.

Happy Independence Day!

Interesting News
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1. Iran annuls death sentence of a Christian pastor. Wow, their Supreme Court is starting to catch on. (Yay, another link that's not from Yahoo.)
http://www.assistnews.net/Stories/2011/s11070011.htm

2. Sometimes, pictures can say a thousand words and convey things absolutely better than my cheesy writing. Like that's Front News to me, but seriously, the photo to the right depicts an American soldier mourning for his fallen comrade and to give homage to the warriors that have given up their lives for a mighty nation that successfully toppled Saddam Hussein. It was designed by an Iraqi artist who was forced to create statues of Hussein, but when those statues were taken down, he melted three heads of the fallen statues and created a work of art.

3. Contrary to popular legend, John Hancock did not sign his name the biggest on Declaration of Independence to be the lone cool guy so that the fat king of England would see it without his spectacles. It's because he was the first to sign. The truth of the matter is that all of the delegates did not sign the remarkable document at the same time in July 4, 1776. It was completed by November.
http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/life/the-story-of-john-hancocks-signature-2505538/

4. Fox News gets hacked on Tweeter and then tweets false messages about Obama.
http://news.yahoo.com/foxnews-website-hacked-false-tweet-says-obama-shot-131341952.html

5. Taliban militants attacked a Pakistani post, which left one soldier dead. I'm seriously believing these Taliban religious jerks trying to do their own crusade or something are making the wrong enemies right now.
http://news.yahoo.com/militants-afghanistan-attack-pakistani-post-102828440.html

6. North Korea gathers together to do an anti-South Korea rally- like that's signifying something different. I think China which has supported North Korea in the past but from benefiting with trade from South Korea has withdrawn a little support over another Korean War. It's like China is asking the Koreans to stop fighting like little kids and wanting to be like a surrogate mother. Man, I'm still rebelling over a possible Chinese dominion.
http://news.yahoo.com/nkorea-holds-massive-rally-condemning-skorea-govt-132605142.html

Today's Significance
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1. That's easy, Happy Independence Day everybody!

2. Louis Armstrong was born today and is listed in some Jazz history textbooks; however, a recent scholar noted his birth was actually on August 4.

3. Today marks the birth of Calvin Coolidge (30th president), author Nathaniel Hawthorne, and Yankees owner who died recently Steinbrenner.

4. The second and third president of the U.S. died respectively after each other today after celebrating the 50th anniversary of Independence Day. Actually, (number 2) John Adams held out a few hours longer than (number 3) Thomas Jefferson. Must have been an honor for John Adams to go after President Jefferson. I can see them mingling with a cup of coffee and doughnut in heaven haha.

Time To Blog
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Today is also the birthday of a stupid man who thought it was wise to give me a restraining order. The judge ordered us to be 0 feet apart at work and to keep it work-related, technically destroying his intent of getting me to leave the job site he recommended me as an employee. He ended up leaving his job right after giving me a restraining order. I could have stayed and been like boss eventually but my confidence level was a little drained from what happened, so I had to go and finish my computer science degree. I'm not mentioning that Washington Chun is a weird person anymore and err, I'm getting tired of thinking about him on his birthday today.

I'm doing something that's considerably an impossible thing to do now. I'm capable of convincing the middle child to give up on some of his or her conquest of doing something off the wall to garner some attention. I'm the oldest child, and I can sensitively see what their "problem" is enough to the point that my mom and another friend is asking me to provide some pointers on how to live a good life- both of them are also the middle child. Actually, Darunee Lee Wong [-sta blah blah, don't remember actual last name too well] is a middle child too and it looked like she kinda liked me, but I was thinking to myself nahhhhh. Technically speaking, she was definitely caught off guard ordering me to not make Betty my girlfriend and started blaming me about some stuff I don't recall and yelling and getting all crazy in front of the judge- oh man, those are good times for me that probably scared off her protege who was with her, so Darunee made the mistake of filing a restraining order against me which I am happy to oblige with. I don't care, period. The reason for bringing up Darunee is because I can't help pairing her up with Washington- it seems to make some holistic sense. I'm not trying to make their conceivable relationship a running joke either. Darunee is a middle child and Washington is the youngest child- I think it would make sense for them to pair together. It's going to be a relationship that was formed by the devil for me- no, I'm just kidding.

After all, with all of this nonsense that I have been through- it doesn't really matter if I end up killing my credit score too; there's always a way around it and as long as I make payments to keep my car and then finish off paying what I owe, it's okay to take your time and to focus on building wealth. Girlfriend or nothing, wife or nothing, I embrace where fate will be taking me-it's important to do this part really well to never lose heart and continue chasing after a passion.