A few days before New Years Eve, I might as well just go after living with what I want to do.
Once again I have it listed so I'll just copy it down and just feel good about it from seeing the list:
Bible, exercise, trade, errands, socialize, bowling, indoor climbing, piano, sing, dance, guitar, cook, grow hair, make virtual reality game, get a girlfriend, have fun at amusement park, snowboard, work at jobs, do cyber-security and competitions, master's, build combat robots, and work on health.
This is a lot of stuff to keep myself busy.
The things that distract me are the same old: pretty much turning on the TV set and sitting there surfing the web and playing card games. I could probably do better than that while I'm bored.
Well thanks for tuning into my blog, if you read through some of this. I'm pretty much done for the whole year now. So I'm signing off until next year then everybody!
Have a great 2016! Hope you had a great Christmas and enjoy your upcoming New Year's!
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Wednesday, December 28, 2016
Revisiting That Old Church
Thinking about stupid Lee again with her past restraining order that got her nowhere, I'm just starting to just not care how crazy she was. In addition to being stupid, at least she didn't get that very far with whatever she was trying to accomplish with me. She was just going donkey kong mode with me because she was mad that I wouldn't listen to her.
I was just putting up a stubborn act and it was scaring them because they didn't know what I was talking about. It's actually pretty funny now and something that took me a long while to get over even though it wasn't that serious. It is very irritating even though the whole situation turned out to be trivial. In a sense, I feel like it makes stupid Lee look really bad while it gave me something to learn off of as a valuable life lesson.
I was just putting up a stubborn act and it was scaring them because they didn't know what I was talking about. It's actually pretty funny now and something that took me a long while to get over even though it wasn't that serious. It is very irritating even though the whole situation turned out to be trivial. In a sense, I feel like it makes stupid Lee look really bad while it gave me something to learn off of as a valuable life lesson.
Wow
This format of writing isn't really anything special. It's just like a little routine and I don't really expect anything out of it except for it being sort of just practicing on being a more eloquent person. I've been practicing with a personal sense of humor and honestly, it really helps me out a lot. I'm glad that I've been around certain friends and even though a few close friends of mine have been mentally retarded, I guess it's how it is sometimes.
Maybe getting a girlfriend will seriously be the right thing for me. I think going for settling down with her after realizing she's a good person regardless of what she looks like, is going to cut it for me. If she can put up with me and just loves me for who I am, I won't mind working things out with her and being there when she needs me.
Maybe getting a girlfriend will seriously be the right thing for me. I think going for settling down with her after realizing she's a good person regardless of what she looks like, is going to cut it for me. If she can put up with me and just loves me for who I am, I won't mind working things out with her and being there when she needs me.
Things Don't Always Go To Plan
One thing that may help a lot is just hard work and going after doing things that make sense. I guess I'll see if that girlfriend of mine ends up being actually real in the end. I don't really know if I'm going to be in a relationship so far, but I guess I'll find out in the next few days. I think I just need to be patient and also wait for it.
If it's not going to come my way, then I need to go seek for it again then and just keep working at it. I think I will be happy in just doing the right thing to the best of my ability.
If it's not going to come my way, then I need to go seek for it again then and just keep working at it. I think I will be happy in just doing the right thing to the best of my ability.
Tuesday, December 27, 2016
Getting My Priorities Aligned
I guess having a job is wonderful and to be able to make a living for it. It's sort of like a home, but to go home and not have any wife or kids, man life is sort of lame man! To be at the age of 33 and not have anyone, yeah something is wrong.
I'm not really sure what's wrong with me, but now I'm thinking that playing video games or watching TV just might not be my cup of tea now. I'd rather go outside and enjoy life and do something with the family or something like that.
I wouldn't mind making video games for a living though and it would be a pleasure to play video games in the hopes of making them better for a profession. I seriously wouldn't mind doing that. Maybe, I do have a small cold right now so that's why my mind is acting a little sloppy right now.
I'm not really sure what's wrong with me, but now I'm thinking that playing video games or watching TV just might not be my cup of tea now. I'd rather go outside and enjoy life and do something with the family or something like that.
I wouldn't mind making video games for a living though and it would be a pleasure to play video games in the hopes of making them better for a profession. I seriously wouldn't mind doing that. Maybe, I do have a small cold right now so that's why my mind is acting a little sloppy right now.
What I'm Sort of Feeling
I'm feeling like I'm lacking attention right now. I really do enjoy having company with people and having a good conversation. I guess I really do need a significant other than. I might as well keep working on myself for one then. Now I'm starting to think that appearance doesn't really matter so much in a person.
I do really want to look at the person's inner beauty though and what my struggle still is to this day is the thought of settling down with a taller woman who could be a different ethnicity. Could it really work out? If it's all in love, then I guess it really could.
I do really want to look at the person's inner beauty though and what my struggle still is to this day is the thought of settling down with a taller woman who could be a different ethnicity. Could it really work out? If it's all in love, then I guess it really could.
Back To Analyzing Self
Okay, so now I'm thinking to myself that playing card games or going after watching TV and movies won't be much of a life for me now. It feels very nihilistic in a way and I don't really like that. With all this precious time that I have to myself, I'm just letting it pass by indulging on my mindless addictions and wasting a lot of time.
Now that I'm waking up to it, I just have to realize that maybe it's not really all that worthwhile with a few of the things that I'm staying consistent with doing. I'm lacking a lot of time management and just not paying attention enough. It's not good at all for me and I could do better.
Now that I'm waking up to it, I just have to realize that maybe it's not really all that worthwhile with a few of the things that I'm staying consistent with doing. I'm lacking a lot of time management and just not paying attention enough. It's not good at all for me and I could do better.
Not Really Much To Write About
I guess I have a little bit left to catch up for this year and it just seems like I don't really have much to write about anymore. I guess the good thing is that I have something that's been up here for years now. I don't really get any recognition which would be nice, so I guess I'm just not born smart enough or good looking to get that type of kind. Anyway, having too much of it wouldn't probably be a good thing anyway. I'm pretty happy with where I'm at then.
A lot of my thinking right now is that it's just very mellow and not really all that engaging right now. I guess I'm just in existence and not really feeling energy to do much. I think it's just sitting around for me. It's pretty cool though that I've had some buddies come through for me at least just one time. I'll probably never see a lot of them again, but hey, that's just life too.
A lot of my thinking right now is that it's just very mellow and not really all that engaging right now. I guess I'm just in existence and not really feeling energy to do much. I think it's just sitting around for me. It's pretty cool though that I've had some buddies come through for me at least just one time. I'll probably never see a lot of them again, but hey, that's just life too.
Starting To Think For Myself
I'm not really feeling all that great about just sitting around and not doing much for a vacation. I don't really have to work so I feel like things have slowed down for awhile. I'm about getting back into recovery mode again. It's too bad that I don't really have much going for me and I guess it's life.
I just finished reading the Bible and all day I was just going back to my weak and very bad habits again. I'm now thinking to myself what would this amount to and it's not very much now that I think about it. It feels good and that's for sure, but after all of that I've been through, I think there's something more worthwhile to seek after and that's what I'll go after then and just be patient about it.
I just finished reading the Bible and all day I was just going back to my weak and very bad habits again. I'm now thinking to myself what would this amount to and it's not very much now that I think about it. It feels good and that's for sure, but after all of that I've been through, I think there's something more worthwhile to seek after and that's what I'll go after then and just be patient about it.
Monday, December 26, 2016
It Is What It Is
I'm starting to lighten up and just be much happier. I'm no longer feeling paranoid about the cops coming over to arrest me for something that they mistook to be illegal about me. It took quite awhile to understand what was going on with me.
I'm currently typing on my iPhone while waiting in line at a Six Flags theme park. This blogger is a little buggy as well right now.
I'm currently typing on my iPhone while waiting in line at a Six Flags theme park. This blogger is a little buggy as well right now.
Thursday, December 22, 2016
Making Adjustments
I'm back to gaming the Forex market again and even though it's slightly boring for me, at least it's something that can bring me pleasure in making some money without having to really be there to monitor like the job I'm currently in. For a job that I want, I really belong in the IT industry and there's no doubt about it in my mind now.
I'm going to have to stay away from entertainment and leisure for awhile and trade it in for time in becoming a self-starter for a job that I would love to wake up to each morning for making a living. Obviously, I'm going to bored after awhile so that's why I want to be so good at Forex because it will be my ticket to an independent life. I'm willing to work for it and take some calculated risks to turn myself into a moderate expert.
I'm going to have to stay away from entertainment and leisure for awhile and trade it in for time in becoming a self-starter for a job that I would love to wake up to each morning for making a living. Obviously, I'm going to bored after awhile so that's why I want to be so good at Forex because it will be my ticket to an independent life. I'm willing to work for it and take some calculated risks to turn myself into a moderate expert.
Writing Because I Have To
This is pretty much how I feel right now. It's a chore to putting something on this blog for me. Now that I'm sort of smiling a bit. It looks like nobody really cares what I have going for myself.
I'll put down that it might be official in me actually finally having a girlfriend. It's like no big deal for most people I guess, but for me, I haven't really had one for a long time. I say in the fashion of not really to put up a nice point.
I think I had a girlfriend for a few weeks but don't think it counts. The end of my story? I was kissed by a pretty chubby girl too after two dates and she wanted to have a baby already with me. I was like umm, no and not because she's fat. Okay, it was that I was annoyed with how she couldn't do anything with me because of her big and fat weight. She couldn't take a jog with me that easily and she was walking like a cripple. It was totally ticking me off!
It's a story in that I exchanged a kiss with someone other than my family and she's the one who initiated it. I didn't really feel much of a buzz or that excited feeling of love so I guess it's not true love's first kiss for me. I haven't had that going for me. My buddy is so enamored about getting there and he's very anxious about it and uptight and won't even admit to it by arguing that he's a normal person. I don't think he's normal in that area of finding love, if you ask me!
I'll put down that it might be official in me actually finally having a girlfriend. It's like no big deal for most people I guess, but for me, I haven't really had one for a long time. I say in the fashion of not really to put up a nice point.
I think I had a girlfriend for a few weeks but don't think it counts. The end of my story? I was kissed by a pretty chubby girl too after two dates and she wanted to have a baby already with me. I was like umm, no and not because she's fat. Okay, it was that I was annoyed with how she couldn't do anything with me because of her big and fat weight. She couldn't take a jog with me that easily and she was walking like a cripple. It was totally ticking me off!
It's a story in that I exchanged a kiss with someone other than my family and she's the one who initiated it. I didn't really feel much of a buzz or that excited feeling of love so I guess it's not true love's first kiss for me. I haven't had that going for me. My buddy is so enamored about getting there and he's very anxious about it and uptight and won't even admit to it by arguing that he's a normal person. I don't think he's normal in that area of finding love, if you ask me!
Tuesday, December 20, 2016
Fixing Habit
I'm going after an early New Years resolution already. It's pretty much the same drill in that I'm trying to read the Bible, workout, and trade. This time around I'm trying to limit my times of watching TV and playing cards. I don't think it's really that worth it for me.
In the mean time, it will be good for me to do extra Christmas shopping at the last minute for my errands. Time is precious for sure and it's just cool that I'm starting to get by these days. Might as well become a self-starter with the career that I want to involve myself in now no matter how hard it may be for me.
In the mean time, it will be good for me to do extra Christmas shopping at the last minute for my errands. Time is precious for sure and it's just cool that I'm starting to get by these days. Might as well become a self-starter with the career that I want to involve myself in now no matter how hard it may be for me.
Sunday, December 18, 2016
Back To My Bigs
Okay, I'm going to try to limit my attention to watching TV again and playing games and go for something else. The only time I guess I will play games and watch movies is with a friend or a date. If it gets suggested I guess.
On the mean time, I'm going to just deal with my urges to play cards to pass the time and also watch TV by myself. Instead I'll try doing something else now. I'm trying to get myself into making virtual reality games. It would be a lot of fun and very difficult at the same time.
Basically, my big objective is to pretty much read the Bible, work out, and trade. I'm trying to add in cooking healthy as well and to be able to sing and dance pretty well too. I'd love to play the electric guitar and form a band someday too.
The little things that I'm trying to do is to run errands, socialize, and include a girlfriend in my life. I guess those are the things that I want to do now.
On the mean time, I'm going to just deal with my urges to play cards to pass the time and also watch TV by myself. Instead I'll try doing something else now. I'm trying to get myself into making virtual reality games. It would be a lot of fun and very difficult at the same time.
Basically, my big objective is to pretty much read the Bible, work out, and trade. I'm trying to add in cooking healthy as well and to be able to sing and dance pretty well too. I'd love to play the electric guitar and form a band someday too.
The little things that I'm trying to do is to run errands, socialize, and include a girlfriend in my life. I guess those are the things that I want to do now.
Thursday, December 15, 2016
Listing Activities In Order of Preference
Next year, I'm switching back to a day shift. I was the swing shift for the longest time and it had its advantages. I think it's very good if you have a wife and some kids. I don't have those things, so by going back to day shift, I guess I get to spend more time socializing and learning about myself while trying to keep a great relationship with a girl alive. I'm about 60% sure, she's being real with me right now. It does feel good though to communicate with her daily through texts.
The way that my daily life is looking will probably be like this:
wake up and wash up, get some breakfast and nutrients into my system, go to work, drive back home, run errands or start working on something, work out or socialize, shower and do some stuff to make my hair grow, read the Bible, and catch up with working out or doing something.
On the weekends, I'm looking at having a lot more time except not having to work unless I have to do overtime. I'm seriously not really enjoying putting all this time into this career that I'm doing. It's really not for me. I now understand why I have to work hard to get to where I want to be now. I also need to be a self-starter to get somewhere in life now.
It looks like I didn't do enough soul searching and was never really mature to get anything done. With everything that I'm doing now, I'm going to have to make my activities more compact and precise with a good motive.
The way that my daily life is looking will probably be like this:
wake up and wash up, get some breakfast and nutrients into my system, go to work, drive back home, run errands or start working on something, work out or socialize, shower and do some stuff to make my hair grow, read the Bible, and catch up with working out or doing something.
On the weekends, I'm looking at having a lot more time except not having to work unless I have to do overtime. I'm seriously not really enjoying putting all this time into this career that I'm doing. It's really not for me. I now understand why I have to work hard to get to where I want to be now. I also need to be a self-starter to get somewhere in life now.
It looks like I didn't do enough soul searching and was never really mature to get anything done. With everything that I'm doing now, I'm going to have to make my activities more compact and precise with a good motive.
Possibly Taller Girlfriend
Okay I'm listing out the things in priority that I'm doing. I pretty much watched TV again yesterday night before falling asleep like at 3 am. I think I can get away from doing that then. With some time to kill, I've been doing a little bit of house cleaning. It reminds me I need to get back into doing that and go for Christmas shopping.
Fortunately, it's a lot easier from having access to a computer so I can just research and order something on Amazon for the people I want to present a gift with. This year seems pretty interesting because it finally looks like I could be ending up with a girlfriend and she's no ordinary one- a pretty cute and very loving one. If this is like magic that's happening for me now, then this significant other will be taller than me by like three inches! Adding that with heels on, she's going to be so tall. Oh well, let's see if I can work out something with it. She said that she's good with it and it's more about true love. I'm the same way back with her, and I'm not really a jealous type and seeking for positive attention so if I draw some situations with guys trying to hit on her and being jerks then I'll stand my ground. I'll just be protective of her if she's feeling uncomfortable and that's about it I guess.
I'm at a disadvantaged 5' 3". It's better than nothing and some days I wish I was more average in height, but I do look pretty well proportioned which is what some people do notice with me. I stand there sometimes and cry underneath while listening to a person's story because I envy that person's height and the fun life that he or she has lived. It doesn't stay there for me and I think the key to me being happy about my appearance is really just mainly from working out, being successful, and creative while taking on a personal sense of humor.
A recent date with a friend who is not this tall girl I'm talking about is shorter than me by a few inches. When we went out and took a nice photo and then I posted it on Facebook, it attracted the most likes from people I've ever had in my life of having Facebook to begin with! I'm taller than her and people were like asking if we're married. Even her older sister was saying we look cute together. Maybe, I won't have any problems appearance wise if I date and end up marrying a cute and petite Asian girl who is shorter than me.
Fortunately, it's a lot easier from having access to a computer so I can just research and order something on Amazon for the people I want to present a gift with. This year seems pretty interesting because it finally looks like I could be ending up with a girlfriend and she's no ordinary one- a pretty cute and very loving one. If this is like magic that's happening for me now, then this significant other will be taller than me by like three inches! Adding that with heels on, she's going to be so tall. Oh well, let's see if I can work out something with it. She said that she's good with it and it's more about true love. I'm the same way back with her, and I'm not really a jealous type and seeking for positive attention so if I draw some situations with guys trying to hit on her and being jerks then I'll stand my ground. I'll just be protective of her if she's feeling uncomfortable and that's about it I guess.
I'm at a disadvantaged 5' 3". It's better than nothing and some days I wish I was more average in height, but I do look pretty well proportioned which is what some people do notice with me. I stand there sometimes and cry underneath while listening to a person's story because I envy that person's height and the fun life that he or she has lived. It doesn't stay there for me and I think the key to me being happy about my appearance is really just mainly from working out, being successful, and creative while taking on a personal sense of humor.
A recent date with a friend who is not this tall girl I'm talking about is shorter than me by a few inches. When we went out and took a nice photo and then I posted it on Facebook, it attracted the most likes from people I've ever had in my life of having Facebook to begin with! I'm taller than her and people were like asking if we're married. Even her older sister was saying we look cute together. Maybe, I won't have any problems appearance wise if I date and end up marrying a cute and petite Asian girl who is shorter than me.
Putting On Thinking Caps
With the so many activities that I've planned out, honestly because of my job I don't really have time to finish them all in one day. I think I'll just have to settle with doing bits and pieces. I still haven't been able to accomplish this yet.
I'm really going to have to give it a try. One of the things that I shouldn't really be doing is just watching T.V. or surfing the Internet mindlessly. From recalling some fun things in the past, I can also just form a question that I'm really curious about and go after reading some information on it. It's basically about trying to store trivial information. I don't think I can really afford to that now if I really do want to live this full life I have planned for myself.
I might just have to settle with not giving into it now.
I'm really going to have to give it a try. One of the things that I shouldn't really be doing is just watching T.V. or surfing the Internet mindlessly. From recalling some fun things in the past, I can also just form a question that I'm really curious about and go after reading some information on it. It's basically about trying to store trivial information. I don't think I can really afford to that now if I really do want to live this full life I have planned for myself.
I might just have to settle with not giving into it now.
Faltering A Little
Okay, I didn't really get much accomplished today except just watch a whole bunch of YouTube videos that I probably shouldn't have looked at in the first place. I guess I was just going for watching something flashy. After having been awhile from YouTube in that manner, I was sensitive about going back to it. Now that I've been acquainted for almost several hours for today, I can tell that I might even become desensitized to it already!
Okay, I have goals that I want to accomplish and decisions to make in getting there. For me, it's just a matter of getting around to trying to do it and going from there. It's not really that tough as I usually make it out to be.
Okay, I have goals that I want to accomplish and decisions to make in getting there. For me, it's just a matter of getting around to trying to do it and going from there. It's not really that tough as I usually make it out to be.
Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Today
Well, I today made plans on how I was going to socialize during the weekend after working out. I guess that was my personal time that I decided to go into doing that. One of the things that I did yesterday that I could have laid off of was watching T.V. again. I'm relapsing into doing that and I could have tried to keep my mind off of that.
I think the important thing right now is to go find someone to settle down with, work on making a living that I would be happy with, continue to build a relationship with God, and have a healthy lifestyle. These are the things that I'm struggling with and I'm not like panicking so much as I used to. I don't have that much anxiety anymore, and I'm actually pretty approachable even though I know I could be pretty bad. From having that type of fiery personality, I'm being left alone more often.
I guess I'll try to deal with my boring job at the moment. I want out and to move on to something greater now. I'm going to have to be a self-starter because I'm too old to be given a mentor and a fresh start from another huge company that has interest in me. I need to make up for some things to make myself stand out and so that's what I want to go for. I want to be like a shiny star that just appeals and pops out.
I think the important thing right now is to go find someone to settle down with, work on making a living that I would be happy with, continue to build a relationship with God, and have a healthy lifestyle. These are the things that I'm struggling with and I'm not like panicking so much as I used to. I don't have that much anxiety anymore, and I'm actually pretty approachable even though I know I could be pretty bad. From having that type of fiery personality, I'm being left alone more often.
I guess I'll try to deal with my boring job at the moment. I want out and to move on to something greater now. I'm going to have to be a self-starter because I'm too old to be given a mentor and a fresh start from another huge company that has interest in me. I need to make up for some things to make myself stand out and so that's what I want to go for. I want to be like a shiny star that just appeals and pops out.
Reviewing Yesterday
One of the things I lived up to is mainly just working out yesterday and that's pretty much all I made time for. Oh yeah, I also played some guitar too and played a little bit of piano. Okay, now I'm realizing that playing on the piano that's out of tune really sucks so I need to keep at playing some that is in time. I'm going to avoid playing my out of tune piano now and go after sticking to my keyboard. I'm going to have to pay someone to tune my regular piano eventually. It's probably going to cost quite a bit of money to make it work. I guess I'll look around to see if I can get a deal.
Let's see I missed reading the Bible, doing some errands, bowling, indoor rock climbing, dancing, cooking, trading, and working on a virtual reality game. I have so much that I could do and I just don't really have the time to afford doing them because I struggle with making time to do them. I'm a little all over the place. I guess that's normal to begin with.
Starting To Not Feel Mad
After letting my heart out through messages that are not replied back to, I'm starting to not feel that bad anymore. I guess sometimes it's not a bad thing to not reply back to someone. It's just quite possible you could just be busy or going through something where you just want to be left alone.
I remember going through a period where I wanted attention from others and to be spoken to but I just get left alone. It's just one of those times that everybody goes through I guess and to some degree it can be a big thing or not. I don't know how I really got over it, but I guess it just came from developing self-confidence and working at socializing. It's been mainly just having a lot of patience and it's rewarding to wait for a bit and get a response back from an attractive friend or love interest.
I remember going through a period where I wanted attention from others and to be spoken to but I just get left alone. It's just one of those times that everybody goes through I guess and to some degree it can be a big thing or not. I don't know how I really got over it, but I guess it just came from developing self-confidence and working at socializing. It's been mainly just having a lot of patience and it's rewarding to wait for a bit and get a response back from an attractive friend or love interest.
Saturday, December 10, 2016
Spending Time Wisely
I could have probably brushed my teeth again before having gone to sleep and put on some Rogaine. Okay I haven't gone to the gym in a few days. I need to go back to it again and that's what I plan to do. I would like to workout on something everyday.
Once again, I want to get back to reading the Bible again. It's going to probably be dedicating about an hour at most for me each day to study the Bible. I didn't expect it to be that long but it looks like that's where it's heading. I have to embrace it for that then I guess.
I'm trying to get a healthy routine going everyday and would like to avoid watching T.V. and playing video games during my own personal time. For the exception of video games, I'll accept singing and dancing games and going go for doing some electric guitar practice. It actually sounds pretty fun. I guess I'll just do a little bit of that then and see what else I can do to keep my day going.
Okay I've been playing Magic the Gathering all day now. I think I'm going to quit that and not really go for watching TV and playing other video games. I'm just going to go for socializing then and doing errands and working out and going after my current job that I want to do.
I'm trying to get this done for myself. Overall, I'm just going to read Bible, workout, trade, run errands, indoor rock climb, do some bowling, sing, dance, play piano, learn to play guitar, socialize, snowboard which I'm now in season to do so, go to an amusement park, make virtual reality games, cook, try to grow my hair, and make room for a girlfriend or wife and family. I can just list it then. It's just that my jobs I'm doing right now are killing me and I need to get out of them sooner or later. This is pretty much my life in a nutshell.
Thursday, December 8, 2016
Update
I think I'm going to lay off of poker now for being a serious consideration of making money. It is pretty much a gamble to a degree and I don't really like being that close to having made it and then ending up losing in the end. It's exciting indeed so I'll have to put it aside and treat it as a hobby.
Because of my long work hour schedule, I don't think I can afford to do too many hobbies now. I did manage to read the Bible after I got up while having slept a long time today. I guess that's really a good thing.
Pretty much I'm looking at working out, trading, reading the Bible, focusing on video game development, socializing, and creating future plans. I believe that I am meant to be a coder, so might as well go after what I've sort of longed for and feel a pretty good passion for even though it might be really hard for me.
I'll have to see if I can add room for a Master's later on, but I sort of doubt it at this point in time. Exercising is pretty much a routine for me now. It's just going to the gym, doing rock climbing or bowling. Along with doing video game development, I want to try out cyber-security on the side now so I'll look into that as well.
For fun, I'm still trying to add in playing the electric guitar and singing and dancing. I might not have that much time for it, so I'll probably just do one quick one. I need to become more consistent with brushing my teeth when I get home and putting on some rogaine before I go to sleep. I also would like to take my supplement that will help me become loss sore in the morning. I think I'll just brush my teeth anyway and go with the night feeling a little hungry, or I think I'll just make myself another small protein shake before I go to sleep.
I need to start being more disciplined again and keep it as a routine for me.
Because of my long work hour schedule, I don't think I can afford to do too many hobbies now. I did manage to read the Bible after I got up while having slept a long time today. I guess that's really a good thing.
Pretty much I'm looking at working out, trading, reading the Bible, focusing on video game development, socializing, and creating future plans. I believe that I am meant to be a coder, so might as well go after what I've sort of longed for and feel a pretty good passion for even though it might be really hard for me.
I'll have to see if I can add room for a Master's later on, but I sort of doubt it at this point in time. Exercising is pretty much a routine for me now. It's just going to the gym, doing rock climbing or bowling. Along with doing video game development, I want to try out cyber-security on the side now so I'll look into that as well.
For fun, I'm still trying to add in playing the electric guitar and singing and dancing. I might not have that much time for it, so I'll probably just do one quick one. I need to become more consistent with brushing my teeth when I get home and putting on some rogaine before I go to sleep. I also would like to take my supplement that will help me become loss sore in the morning. I think I'll just brush my teeth anyway and go with the night feeling a little hungry, or I think I'll just make myself another small protein shake before I go to sleep.
I need to start being more disciplined again and keep it as a routine for me.
Wednesday, December 7, 2016
Future Plans
I'm working two jobs right now and they suck and not up my alley. However, I can't do anything about it and have to go for earning money. In the meantime, I could try to do the best I can with a few minutes to spare in trading currency and playing poker for profit. With both of them, I'm not really spending that much time on them, but I can see them both being very effective for me if I start making some explosive gains.
For a career, I'd like to make myself be a I.T. project manager with a specialty in programming. My other endeavor will pretty much be cyber-security which is exciting and it will about doing competitions for possible prize money.
That's pretty much how I had to vent what I want out of my career now. For personal stuff, yeah I definitely want to commit myself to a good girl now who is loving and compatible with me. I'm finding out that it requires a certain degree of patience to keep yourself from acting out all weird with a girl whether in person or texting her. It's worked out really well and I'm glad I learned that patience is my primary key to solving personal issues.
Reading the Bible is definitely going to be a good thing for me and I want to keep up with it. Playing the electric guitar and sticking to playing the piano while singing would be just phenomenal. Learning a few good dance songs would also be great. Working out, bowling, and indoor rock climbing as well. A lot of these things are really good and I look forward to trying to make all of this work out while limiting my own personal entertainment now for the time being until I can get rid of my busy jobs and replace them with a more productive and less time consuming occupation. I also want to cook and grow back some of my hair too.
For a career, I'd like to make myself be a I.T. project manager with a specialty in programming. My other endeavor will pretty much be cyber-security which is exciting and it will about doing competitions for possible prize money.
That's pretty much how I had to vent what I want out of my career now. For personal stuff, yeah I definitely want to commit myself to a good girl now who is loving and compatible with me. I'm finding out that it requires a certain degree of patience to keep yourself from acting out all weird with a girl whether in person or texting her. It's worked out really well and I'm glad I learned that patience is my primary key to solving personal issues.
Reading the Bible is definitely going to be a good thing for me and I want to keep up with it. Playing the electric guitar and sticking to playing the piano while singing would be just phenomenal. Learning a few good dance songs would also be great. Working out, bowling, and indoor rock climbing as well. A lot of these things are really good and I look forward to trying to make all of this work out while limiting my own personal entertainment now for the time being until I can get rid of my busy jobs and replace them with a more productive and less time consuming occupation. I also want to cook and grow back some of my hair too.
Planning Life
This time around I am seriously about to make room for a girlfriend/fiancee in my life now. I get the whole dating scene better and don't really give a rat's poop if my advances get rejected. I'll just analyze and see if my chances are okay. The thing that I've struggled a lot with is if a girl I like is already in a relationship with someone or she's just not ready to be in one. It might be just about anyone whose gone through it.
I think the solution is to just continue building confidence and working on improving yourself. It's to also look for places where the grass is greener. When the opportunity knocks, I guess it's going to be a decision made from the heart then. I've been pretty numbed out emotionally with finding love, but I still get excited about the opportunity and happy with feelings of disappointment, loneliness, and sadness as well.
I think the solution is to just continue building confidence and working on improving yourself. It's to also look for places where the grass is greener. When the opportunity knocks, I guess it's going to be a decision made from the heart then. I've been pretty numbed out emotionally with finding love, but I still get excited about the opportunity and happy with feelings of disappointment, loneliness, and sadness as well.
I See Where I Belong Now
Volunteering wise for no money, I can see myself operating on a person to save his or her life. It would be awesome to obtain this type of training and background from a very reputable source. It would probably take me years of training and also a lot of money to get it done. I just might do so if I have nothing to do in particular and I'm just well off in life. I'll also look into building combat robots too.
I think one of my obsessions that I need to learn to control to be successful in life is to understand how to manage my drive to be great at making money off playing poker and winning tournaments at MTG. I may just have to start trying different learning resources with a lot of trial and error to see if I can still wing out my unlucky periods and come up on top. It's just fun that way and wears me out constantly at the same time. I don't think I can turn these two hobbies of mine into a profession. I'm just going to have to be on the look out for how much I put my time into it and go for limiting them without getting to involved with them and later regretting my situation I've built myself up to be put into.
This time around, I would like to go for my own destiny and build myself in the direction, along with the Lord's help and inspiration, to go for not regretting what I did in the past and learning to put myself in a happier direction.
I think one of my obsessions that I need to learn to control to be successful in life is to understand how to manage my drive to be great at making money off playing poker and winning tournaments at MTG. I may just have to start trying different learning resources with a lot of trial and error to see if I can still wing out my unlucky periods and come up on top. It's just fun that way and wears me out constantly at the same time. I don't think I can turn these two hobbies of mine into a profession. I'm just going to have to be on the look out for how much I put my time into it and go for limiting them without getting to involved with them and later regretting my situation I've built myself up to be put into.
This time around, I would like to go for my own destiny and build myself in the direction, along with the Lord's help and inspiration, to go for not regretting what I did in the past and learning to put myself in a happier direction.
Spending Time Wisely
Again, I really want to spend my time so wisely that I can get everything that I want out of life while being satisfied and also be able to spend time with a girlfriend now. I'm ready to include her in now and even go for making her my wife.
Being short, I've thought about it a lot of moments in my life. Even though I've been pained through it, from just working out, it's actually made my life a whole lot better. Basically, one advice I have for short people who struggle with being confident about their own image from their appearance is to just work out and go for like a six pack.
From just being athletic, it puts you a little further out ahead of the pack and can land you a beautiful spouse if you work on your personality as well.
Being short, I've thought about it a lot of moments in my life. Even though I've been pained through it, from just working out, it's actually made my life a whole lot better. Basically, one advice I have for short people who struggle with being confident about their own image from their appearance is to just work out and go for like a six pack.
From just being athletic, it puts you a little further out ahead of the pack and can land you a beautiful spouse if you work on your personality as well.
Being Productive
Okay, I might need to lay off on entertaining myself now as best as possible and go after just a clean and healthy mess of doing what I'm satisfied with doing. I want to go after some very clean time management.
So just listing it out again, I want to read the Bible, trade Forex for profit, work out, do some bowling, indoor rock climbing, learn to play electric guitar, play some piano, sing and dance, cook, and grow back some of my hair! I also want to get into making video games, so I feel that virtual reality games will be just so fun to mess with to make it more interesting for me. I don't care if my game is going to suck while hooking it up to a VR machine. I'll improve upon it later or look for some talent to help me out once I can get the kinks moving with it.
Later on if I'm like a millionaire and have so much free time even with a gorgeous wife and beautiful children, I'd like to learn some of that physician's trade and also some engineering technology that would allow me to be build a combat robot from scratch.
With technology wise in the IT field, I'd like to go for doing some hacking competitions as well and form and train a nice team someday. I'll make it happen. I just have to get out of my current jobs which is sucking the life out of me and making me work long hours.
So just listing it out again, I want to read the Bible, trade Forex for profit, work out, do some bowling, indoor rock climbing, learn to play electric guitar, play some piano, sing and dance, cook, and grow back some of my hair! I also want to get into making video games, so I feel that virtual reality games will be just so fun to mess with to make it more interesting for me. I don't care if my game is going to suck while hooking it up to a VR machine. I'll improve upon it later or look for some talent to help me out once I can get the kinks moving with it.
Later on if I'm like a millionaire and have so much free time even with a gorgeous wife and beautiful children, I'd like to learn some of that physician's trade and also some engineering technology that would allow me to be build a combat robot from scratch.
With technology wise in the IT field, I'd like to go for doing some hacking competitions as well and form and train a nice team someday. I'll make it happen. I just have to get out of my current jobs which is sucking the life out of me and making me work long hours.
Back To Trying Again
Well, I really shouldn't be playing video games while knowing that's going to be making me feel guilty. I really shouldn't be going for watching any T.V. either if possible. I think I really need to be more informed about this world is going. I should just optimize my situation to put myself in a better situation mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually, and financially.
There's really nothing fancy with my writing. It's just plain forward and nowadays, trying to find a purpose.
There's really nothing fancy with my writing. It's just plain forward and nowadays, trying to find a purpose.
Friday, December 2, 2016
Trying To Do Things On Time
I think one of the biggest keys for me is not lose track of my time and get carried away with the fun stuff I do during my own lonely personal time. Basically, I'm just gluing myself onto the T.V. for like two hours sometimes and it totally makes me regret the lost time. It happens to me quite a lot. Since I'm feeling guilty over letting myself go like that, then I guess it means I have bigger priorities that I want to set myself to do but I just can't because I want to chicken out from the stressful feelings of taking on responsibility.
I also feel empty at times too and not in the mood so it just makes it twice as harder to get things done sometimes around. I can also let my mind move slow too so I can try to be collective. These are a few of my weaknesses that I'm trying to deal with. Yet with the time winding down after procrastinating, it's like I'm on the move again. I would rather be on the move often and have so much time to myself that I'm worrying about not knowing what to do with all this time. I think that's a healthy worry for me that I would always like.
I also feel empty at times too and not in the mood so it just makes it twice as harder to get things done sometimes around. I can also let my mind move slow too so I can try to be collective. These are a few of my weaknesses that I'm trying to deal with. Yet with the time winding down after procrastinating, it's like I'm on the move again. I would rather be on the move often and have so much time to myself that I'm worrying about not knowing what to do with all this time. I think that's a healthy worry for me that I would always like.
Cool Honored
I'm actually going for typing something on here everyday now if I can. I want to be up to date. Just think of it. Anything that I could write on here whether it be good or bad, minus a few unmentionables that I will never go across the boundary to reveal. I'm not going to be that crazy because I'm not that up for the consequences.
So I'm about reading the Bible, exercise, trading, dancing, playing the guitar and piano, singing, blogging on here for a little bit, bowling, indoor rock climbing, and making video games. It's looks like I'm trying to make room for a girlfriend or financee now. I think it's about time that I finally had a serious relationship and see how well I can do.
So I'm about reading the Bible, exercise, trading, dancing, playing the guitar and piano, singing, blogging on here for a little bit, bowling, indoor rock climbing, and making video games. It's looks like I'm trying to make room for a girlfriend or financee now. I think it's about time that I finally had a serious relationship and see how well I can do.
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