Today marks the last working day of the month for me- that is pretty much my day job. I do have a few birthdays coming up and want to plan something special for them. They belong to a couple of my favorite ladies so it does make sense. I haven't really been hanging out with guys too often but there's one guy I hang out with to go to a theme park consistently to ride the biggest roller coasters out there in the world- Six Flags Magic Mountain. There's another guy I'm high school buddies with who I think is a loser and tell him such on texts all the time.
I pretty much have fewer guy friends that I keep in contact with than ladies. I feel pretty content but I want to find the hot and right lady for me to marry. Fortunately, I've hung out with that one friend who I think is the type I want to marry. She's dating someone else right now, but I don't really mind to be honest. It feels good just to feel that positive energy that cares and having a fond memory while just hanging out a few times. I just have to look for someone better and has a personality like hers then and I should be golden which is pretty sad but true.
I'm surprised that with the little amount of effort I put in with trading that it reaped benefits for me this month. I'm going to keep it up and hopefully it will last. I'm trying to get back into working out so it's always these minor details that I forget about and entertaining distractions that keep me from going. I need to realize that when I'm having fun, time is going to fly by fast and keep me from getting my hard stuff out of the way. Let's see how I do during the weekend. Peace everybody and thanks for caring to even read whoever you are. Curious and/or friendly or mortally sworn enemy, thanks.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Friday, June 28, 2019
Doing Business For Fun
I went to a business meeting yesterday and met two Asian ladies who are a bit older than me. They are trying to sell products from rebranding them and customizing the basic cheap part to consumers. I thought it was fun to be a part of. They were still looking for a name, so I ended up coming up with titles of company names throughout the whole meeting and a name landed that one of them liked right at the end.
I do have an interest for becoming a product manager for video games, but this business isn't going to based off of that. Still, I think it will be good experience and also fun to do something and try to make money off of it. I noticed that these ladies are not that hot as they used to be, but I was completely fine with it and didn't care about being friendly to them. They are both married already, and I'm not really showing romantic signs of interest with them so they ended up patting me on the back. Even if I did, they would find it weird so I'm not going there ever and they would still pat me on the back while hugging if they had the courage for it.
I understand the whole patting thing and it hurts sometimes to get it from ladies. I don't really show it so much anymore while tearing up underneath but it's all good. This one lady is really affectionate and she is a great friend and has a fiancée who probably has to deal with us being that close and occasionally flirtatious for giggles. It's interesting because the lady I'm interested in right now doesn't even hug me with a pat on the back, but is also affectionate- pretty crazy!
I do have an interest for becoming a product manager for video games, but this business isn't going to based off of that. Still, I think it will be good experience and also fun to do something and try to make money off of it. I noticed that these ladies are not that hot as they used to be, but I was completely fine with it and didn't care about being friendly to them. They are both married already, and I'm not really showing romantic signs of interest with them so they ended up patting me on the back. Even if I did, they would find it weird so I'm not going there ever and they would still pat me on the back while hugging if they had the courage for it.
I understand the whole patting thing and it hurts sometimes to get it from ladies. I don't really show it so much anymore while tearing up underneath but it's all good. This one lady is really affectionate and she is a great friend and has a fiancée who probably has to deal with us being that close and occasionally flirtatious for giggles. It's interesting because the lady I'm interested in right now doesn't even hug me with a pat on the back, but is also affectionate- pretty crazy!
Nice Achievement
I'm ending this month on the positive side with practicing my trading skills with a financial market. I think I became lucky from reacquainting myself with a moving average that is catered for beginners of the market. I'm also topping it off with the local maximum of an ATR range to minimize acceptable stop-loss so I can scale my trades with gaining bigger profit in mind.
I have also been using this formulaic calculation for keeping track of market ranges. It's similar to Fibonacci pivots and don't know too much about it, but it's been working for me to model trades off of with decent reliability. I like it for myself so far, and it's been keeping me out of some trades I feel would be too risky and helping out with selecting the more premium trades for me. It's pretty cool.
Thirdly, I'm using a proprietary indicator that's based off of stochastic moving averages which measures the highs and lows of the market. It's again just a guideline that I use to model off my trades and look for a nice trend to ride. The creator gave it the name price action, but I see it more as if there's possibility with movement for bigger gains. It can still hang on the high and low side while the market keeps on dipping or rising, but just getting in before it hits the extreme sides has given me good results. If I get in after it hits, I have had some losses so I have something to model off of now.
Lastly, I have been a student of Japanese candlesticks for awhile and just keep it simple with looking for engulfing and encapsulating candles on the timeframes I'm trading to keep track of the current market. I just assume the market has changed and act accordingly to take a smaller loss if I'm still in it or take a profit regardless of how much I make. I'm totally like a robot with this and sometimes I regret not checking the market sooner when I could have noticed this happening and take advantage. I must be doing something right then and now I have a trading system that I just need to tweak around for two more months and hopefully I won't have to start all over.
I have also been using this formulaic calculation for keeping track of market ranges. It's similar to Fibonacci pivots and don't know too much about it, but it's been working for me to model trades off of with decent reliability. I like it for myself so far, and it's been keeping me out of some trades I feel would be too risky and helping out with selecting the more premium trades for me. It's pretty cool.
Thirdly, I'm using a proprietary indicator that's based off of stochastic moving averages which measures the highs and lows of the market. It's again just a guideline that I use to model off my trades and look for a nice trend to ride. The creator gave it the name price action, but I see it more as if there's possibility with movement for bigger gains. It can still hang on the high and low side while the market keeps on dipping or rising, but just getting in before it hits the extreme sides has given me good results. If I get in after it hits, I have had some losses so I have something to model off of now.
Lastly, I have been a student of Japanese candlesticks for awhile and just keep it simple with looking for engulfing and encapsulating candles on the timeframes I'm trading to keep track of the current market. I just assume the market has changed and act accordingly to take a smaller loss if I'm still in it or take a profit regardless of how much I make. I'm totally like a robot with this and sometimes I regret not checking the market sooner when I could have noticed this happening and take advantage. I must be doing something right then and now I have a trading system that I just need to tweak around for two more months and hopefully I won't have to start all over.
Positive Outcomes
I'm realizing that I don't really need to look at porno anymore. It's been mainly for entertainment of staying turned on whenever I've been curious about how my naïve parts work. I still feel that way to this day because I haven't been with any woman. I've been somewhat a student of it from reading up on some naughty material. I'm also very prudish and won't ever be cool doing it with just any lady which is pretty atypical for guys I think. I'm not definitely without any interest and totally want to experience it someday with a special woman after I marry her. I don't know the exact label to give myself except that I think I'm very different to most Christian guys and also worldly guys. I think I'll really be in the mood for it a lot if the wife ends up enjoying it a lot and hopefully, I'll meet her someday to go on very fun dates.
In the meantime, I just want to make myself financially successful and also go hit the gym to look sexier for building tons of confidence. There are plenty of cool ladies out there which I can't deny, so becoming a less shallow person has been challenging and so far, I'm just weighing the lady's personality type and life-style choices. I really might be open to dating this one lady I'm friends with someday. I think if I end up falling in love and bonding well with a lady then it's not really going to matter so much with the physical attraction I usually obsess about in ladies and just be like in the mood for it often.
Thursday, June 27, 2019
Taking Proper Action
Life is sometimes hard because a lot of things can happen. For me, it's been pretty smooth and I think the reason why I'm not gaining in some areas like finding a girlfriend is that I'm not taking enough action to get there. First off, I still lack a lot of personal confidence and feel like building more. I want to grow in my career while also being a super fit guy at the gym. I think I'll know when I feel really good about myself and have this knack or ability to lead a great life while attending to the needs of the wife.
The thing is I feel like I already could with the right woman, but I don't feel quite ready to go searching for her. If I get lucky with her just showing up in my life and she wants to make herself available for me, then yeah, it will be so awesome. What's really distracting me is my current living conditions. It's pretty stable, but I don't like that I'm living with my parents and paying them rent to live in their comfortable mansion-like home. It's really nice and built well for parties and my friends have enjoyed coming over. They ask about throwing another party that I haven't done in years because of my parents living there.
I think it's materialistic wealth and seeking after personal comforts that's really distracting me from going out to find a girlfriend. Being with the wrong girl can be such a hassle and I can tell this from being close friends with a lady who isn't my type. I honestly feel like I'm stuck with her sometimes, but I'm still treating her nicely like my younger sister. I even occasionally flirt to mess around with her and she always gets offended too, so I guess it's never going to work out between us. How funny is that though?
The thing is I feel like I already could with the right woman, but I don't feel quite ready to go searching for her. If I get lucky with her just showing up in my life and she wants to make herself available for me, then yeah, it will be so awesome. What's really distracting me is my current living conditions. It's pretty stable, but I don't like that I'm living with my parents and paying them rent to live in their comfortable mansion-like home. It's really nice and built well for parties and my friends have enjoyed coming over. They ask about throwing another party that I haven't done in years because of my parents living there.
I think it's materialistic wealth and seeking after personal comforts that's really distracting me from going out to find a girlfriend. Being with the wrong girl can be such a hassle and I can tell this from being close friends with a lady who isn't my type. I honestly feel like I'm stuck with her sometimes, but I'm still treating her nicely like my younger sister. I even occasionally flirt to mess around with her and she always gets offended too, so I guess it's never going to work out between us. How funny is that though?
Giving It My All With Courage
I think one of my minor complexes I have been dealing with all along is that I'm afraid of failing after spending so much time while labeling all of it as a waste of time in the end. It's been scary to act on haunches and personal drives at times. It was even worse while I was so mad with a few individuals over really nothing. I wanted to act it all out that was playing in my head, but I held back from being afraid of something more personal.
It's now time for me to put it all behind me and consider myself lucky that I'm thinking really brightly about how to manage kiddie stuff with a few individuals who bother me sometimes. I think people just get sick of it after awhile and naturally get mad if they can't really do anything about it and just keeps on bothering them. They can start acting all weird about it.
Overall, I'm just really sure of myself now and can work really hard at it while in the moment and being the most competitive I can be. I may be still scared underneath, but I'm not going to give it all up while feeling so stressed out or angry.
It's now time for me to put it all behind me and consider myself lucky that I'm thinking really brightly about how to manage kiddie stuff with a few individuals who bother me sometimes. I think people just get sick of it after awhile and naturally get mad if they can't really do anything about it and just keeps on bothering them. They can start acting all weird about it.
Overall, I'm just really sure of myself now and can work really hard at it while in the moment and being the most competitive I can be. I may be still scared underneath, but I'm not going to give it all up while feeling so stressed out or angry.
Working On Myself
Lately, I think it's just the mindset and putting in the effort with the smart actions that go along with it. What I'm missing is not jumping into swiftly with what I'm feeling a little bad about not having done yesterday. I believe I could seriously train myself to make it work better.
I feel sheepish about giving into my hobbies a lot lately, so this is probably the main reason why I eventually gave up with being addicted to video games. I wasn't feeling satisfied with it even though it was fun and easy to dwell in. I need to fix it by just living with the feelings that are stressful sometimes and think positive while accepting them and letting it all resolve in time. I know I could do a lot better for myself, and I'm just going to have to start making small noticeable changes with myself.
Need To Initiate Better
I'm realizing that I'm really slow to act right after I get out of a long day of work. It's true that this is probably the case for the majority of people, but I feel like doing something I'm more in tune to so I will have to work for it. My disadvantage is that I can't stop myself from falling asleep and blacking out for the whole night.
Yesterday, I ended up reading about professional MLB and NBA teams and the transactions they are going through, so this must mean I'm a fan and I was watching YouTube clips throughout the whole night. I guess it would be fine and dandy if I didn't have other stuff bugging me to get done first.
My soul just doesn't feel at rest from how it is and living with my aging parents and arguing with them about how they should still be able to do things they did while they were younger. I want to progress further with my career and make lots of money and just have free time to build my confidence and then go find myself a great girlfriend to marry soon. It's tough for me so far and I'm still relaxing and thinking positive. I just need to get away from my hobbies and set them aside to do the priorities my soul feels is better even if it stresses me out. I would rather make some progress besides sticking to the same old schedule of hobbies.
I really need to utilize my time better and make some adjustments to feel more comfortable.
Yesterday, I ended up reading about professional MLB and NBA teams and the transactions they are going through, so this must mean I'm a fan and I was watching YouTube clips throughout the whole night. I guess it would be fine and dandy if I didn't have other stuff bugging me to get done first.
My soul just doesn't feel at rest from how it is and living with my aging parents and arguing with them about how they should still be able to do things they did while they were younger. I want to progress further with my career and make lots of money and just have free time to build my confidence and then go find myself a great girlfriend to marry soon. It's tough for me so far and I'm still relaxing and thinking positive. I just need to get away from my hobbies and set them aside to do the priorities my soul feels is better even if it stresses me out. I would rather make some progress besides sticking to the same old schedule of hobbies.
I really need to utilize my time better and make some adjustments to feel more comfortable.
Playing Catch Up
Well, I neglected being away from my blog for awhile and now, I'm starting to wake up and smell the coffee. Some people just struggle with being a friend even if it's over complete nonsense that drove them away! Oh well, it's life and I'm gaining more tolerance out of it and actually quite happy that I'm under control and not needing to act out over stuff that makes me angry. It's really hard but I guess in the end it's about picking your battles.
Something that's been playing a role for me now and another thinking tool that's been helpful for me personally is proving stuff logically by using contradicting statements. It's from assuming how a person is a certain way and then coming up with anything to prove that position is false. It works out quite nicely. I used it while working with one of my bumbling managers. I assumed that he knows how to do his job. He ended up contradicting his own statements that really ticked me off, but I realized from assuming he knows how to do his job, why would he do that if he knew how to do his job? Therefore, he doesn't know how to do his job fully and it's a fact I proved from using contradiction.
It feels a lot better and that's for sure so I don't have to go off feeling constantly angry at this dumb manager sometimes. This is a real life application of using the induction method to prove things and it's quite practical. It's something students of Computer Science have to study in order to graduate, and I thought it was a cruel thing to learn in the beginning.
Something that's been playing a role for me now and another thinking tool that's been helpful for me personally is proving stuff logically by using contradicting statements. It's from assuming how a person is a certain way and then coming up with anything to prove that position is false. It works out quite nicely. I used it while working with one of my bumbling managers. I assumed that he knows how to do his job. He ended up contradicting his own statements that really ticked me off, but I realized from assuming he knows how to do his job, why would he do that if he knew how to do his job? Therefore, he doesn't know how to do his job fully and it's a fact I proved from using contradiction.
It feels a lot better and that's for sure so I don't have to go off feeling constantly angry at this dumb manager sometimes. This is a real life application of using the induction method to prove things and it's quite practical. It's something students of Computer Science have to study in order to graduate, and I thought it was a cruel thing to learn in the beginning.
Friday, June 21, 2019
Little Progress From Yesterday
Yesterday I talked about how I had trouble overcoming my sleepiness issues by knocking out on my chair in my room. I managed to overcome this a little by watching something that excited me and I finally managed to take a shower because I literally had to! Well, it's been like almost two months already and I was really in the mood for looking at porno for something and man, it disappointed me again! I think I really need to find a good partner who I'm in love with and looking to marry and wants to do it with me a lot!
Okay, so it felt like all those sexy body shapes with girls are nice and all, but it feels empty without the love and substance of really knowing the lady. If she's some image on the Internet, there's no fun in it. If I see her in person and don't even approach her, what's the point of even following her around like a stalker and waste so much time when that could go into spending time with finding someone else who happens to like you? I don't really get it but there must be something not working in the head sometimes. I have my fair share of people accusing me of being crazy because they were just flat out mad while doing something to them, but I was able to hold my peace and overcome them.
A lot of this is really getting to know yourself, so I learned that abstaining from trying to simulate making babies with watching porno doesn't really increase any output even after spending time away from it. It's almost like the same amount regardless. It's just that it doesn't feel right without a loving and understanding wife to enjoy doing the deed with several times a week maybe.
I'm a guy so I'm naturally aware of what's trying to turn me on, but it's different from considering if she's actually the right person for me. From left to right, beautiful women just exist and I'm happy to be single and not feel guilty right now. There's plenty of brain power and morality I'm using here to go out and meet this sexy and right gal for me.
Okay, so it felt like all those sexy body shapes with girls are nice and all, but it feels empty without the love and substance of really knowing the lady. If she's some image on the Internet, there's no fun in it. If I see her in person and don't even approach her, what's the point of even following her around like a stalker and waste so much time when that could go into spending time with finding someone else who happens to like you? I don't really get it but there must be something not working in the head sometimes. I have my fair share of people accusing me of being crazy because they were just flat out mad while doing something to them, but I was able to hold my peace and overcome them.
A lot of this is really getting to know yourself, so I learned that abstaining from trying to simulate making babies with watching porno doesn't really increase any output even after spending time away from it. It's almost like the same amount regardless. It's just that it doesn't feel right without a loving and understanding wife to enjoy doing the deed with several times a week maybe.
I'm a guy so I'm naturally aware of what's trying to turn me on, but it's different from considering if she's actually the right person for me. From left to right, beautiful women just exist and I'm happy to be single and not feel guilty right now. There's plenty of brain power and morality I'm using here to go out and meet this sexy and right gal for me.
Thursday, June 20, 2019
Follow Up From Yesterday
Yesterday, I went to another meetup that was about how to keep a sharp brain. It was a highly technical lecture that the speaker crammed all into one discussion under two hours. She started rushing it a lot, but what I learned is that it takes proper exercise, diet, and stress management to keep the brain functioning healthy. It was located somewhere in downtown LA and I parked at a Trader Joe store and was surprised by the great amount of physically attractive ladies who shop there!
Even when I walked out in the streets to get to the building, I spotted a few hot girls walking around. Man, they are all over the place in LA. This doesn't really make me feel so bad about getting rejected or feeling stuck with girls I'm friends with now! I can just cruise along and confidently wait for the right moment to happen with the hot girl who is just right for me. Yeah, I feel happy to be single and to be able to keep on looking. It's just this confidence that was flowing in me yesterday, and underneath I was thinking to myself, "Wow, look at all this opportunity in the heart of downtown LA with several hot girls around to try to find the right one for me."
After getting back home, I ended up just sitting at my desk trying to push my tired mind into action. I didn't end up doing my usual routine this time with surfing the web and watching entertainment. I still knocked out on my chair! I'm getting roughly six and a half hours of sleep when I do, so I guess I have time this event for myself now. I could probably make my morning routine a lot faster and get more sleep time in if I take a shower before sleeping. I guess I should be getting ready to hit the sack by 9 or 10ish and then wake up around 0430 to 0500 the next day. I'll just look to make a simple routine out of it even if it's killing me!
Even when I walked out in the streets to get to the building, I spotted a few hot girls walking around. Man, they are all over the place in LA. This doesn't really make me feel so bad about getting rejected or feeling stuck with girls I'm friends with now! I can just cruise along and confidently wait for the right moment to happen with the hot girl who is just right for me. Yeah, I feel happy to be single and to be able to keep on looking. It's just this confidence that was flowing in me yesterday, and underneath I was thinking to myself, "Wow, look at all this opportunity in the heart of downtown LA with several hot girls around to try to find the right one for me."
After getting back home, I ended up just sitting at my desk trying to push my tired mind into action. I didn't end up doing my usual routine this time with surfing the web and watching entertainment. I still knocked out on my chair! I'm getting roughly six and a half hours of sleep when I do, so I guess I have time this event for myself now. I could probably make my morning routine a lot faster and get more sleep time in if I take a shower before sleeping. I guess I should be getting ready to hit the sack by 9 or 10ish and then wake up around 0430 to 0500 the next day. I'll just look to make a simple routine out of it even if it's killing me!
Wednesday, June 19, 2019
Still Missing Few Things
I pretty much went to a meetup yesterday that talked about how to be a successful product manager. It was a great discussion and the speaker pretty much said you have to be competent at it from doing your homework and also managing great relationships with the staff and customers. This is pretty much the main takeaway I got from it.
Once I came back home, I sat at the couch where my dad was watching some Korean movie I thought was boring, so I got up and went to my room. I was starving after the meeting, so I snacked on some ice cream and then surfed the web with reading up about this Anime I'm currently hooked on and watching YouTube clips about NBA legends. I thought looking at that stuff wasn't going to hurt me, but then I became really tired and started sleeping while sitting on my chair. This has become a habit that I'm getting tired of.
I need to find some way to keep pushing myself even though I'm really sleepy and get my tasks done. I guess it would be easier if I just manned up and did the boring and hard stuff that I need to do first and get it out of the way. I think I could give my life to boredom and constant agony of being pestered with wanting something so badly that's out of reach and just work on it while feeling all that burn and just keep going at it while knowing this is what I want to do in the end anyway. I can focus with playing on Friday to Sunday. Therefore, I have to give my work focus four days and then the rest will be party time for me with whatever I want to do, and I will worry about how to do fun things to be happy and manage that problem in the meantime as well.
Tuesday, June 18, 2019
Things To Add In Or Fix With Current Situation
Right now, I definitely know what I feel inspired with doing. It's crazy because one of my dumb goals is to be a medical practitioner someday while paying for my own medical school and then volunteering while not receiving any pay for it! Yes, I'm that interested in helping out and it's not about the money for me. I want to earn all the money I need from being successful trading in financial markets and doing it with a swing trading and investor's mentality. It means that I don't have to be constantly monitoring several charts and skimming through updated news on the other monitor even though I find it to be more fun these days than stressful. It sucks when you're losing but that's where confidence plays a role and for me, I don't want to be there when I'm going to have a losing trade and just collect my winnings like it was done automatically. This is how I feel from doing the long term investing modes.
It's cool I know and a lot of people are into it, I know. Guys with my similar attitude approach me and talk to me about it. I can only share so much you know and it's a competition after all to hog all the money, so helping a little guy out with just a few tips here and there help reinforce the brain with sound techniques that have to be done in order to keep on winning all that money! It's common sense with the way I'm also acting, and I even blew off a guy too who was about trying to make me encourage others to be lazy and make me feel like they are my boss. I'm not having it and making them work for the money, if they want in so badly. I'm also a highly competitive person when I get angry so yeah, I'll be nice and law-abiding citizen - yeah right, if I can't get away with it and keep staring at all those cops and everybody else who gets on my bad side with dirty looks they don't want to see from me.
What I need to add in is maintaining all of my bills. I'm skipping just the minor ones like monthly memberships for gyms right now and amusement parks. I need to get that settled. I guess it's common to miss out on those payments and happens to be honest. I also need to complete my car registration. I still haven't got that out of the way. It's just catching up with bills pretty much. That's the only thing I really need to work on to keep it going.
I also need to complete the computer courses I paid for now. There's no refund from them, and I'm heavily interested in them so would be dumb to keep on procrastinating with having fun even though it feels like a contradiction. I guess I'll have to be manly here because I do want to earn more and move out of my parent's comfortable mansion by going to some place better and start laughing at them when I pick up a girlfriend who isn't the race they want me to marry. I'll still be laughing if I get the race they want but she might not be the type they want me to marry.
It's cool I know and a lot of people are into it, I know. Guys with my similar attitude approach me and talk to me about it. I can only share so much you know and it's a competition after all to hog all the money, so helping a little guy out with just a few tips here and there help reinforce the brain with sound techniques that have to be done in order to keep on winning all that money! It's common sense with the way I'm also acting, and I even blew off a guy too who was about trying to make me encourage others to be lazy and make me feel like they are my boss. I'm not having it and making them work for the money, if they want in so badly. I'm also a highly competitive person when I get angry so yeah, I'll be nice and law-abiding citizen - yeah right, if I can't get away with it and keep staring at all those cops and everybody else who gets on my bad side with dirty looks they don't want to see from me.
What I need to add in is maintaining all of my bills. I'm skipping just the minor ones like monthly memberships for gyms right now and amusement parks. I need to get that settled. I guess it's common to miss out on those payments and happens to be honest. I also need to complete my car registration. I still haven't got that out of the way. It's just catching up with bills pretty much. That's the only thing I really need to work on to keep it going.
I also need to complete the computer courses I paid for now. There's no refund from them, and I'm heavily interested in them so would be dumb to keep on procrastinating with having fun even though it feels like a contradiction. I guess I'll have to be manly here because I do want to earn more and move out of my parent's comfortable mansion by going to some place better and start laughing at them when I pick up a girlfriend who isn't the race they want me to marry. I'll still be laughing if I get the race they want but she might not be the type they want me to marry.
Plans For Marriage
It looks like a lot of times my thoughts of getting married was really hyped up and I had to deal with a major complex that I was born with. My parents can't really do anything about it, and no matter how hard they tried it still does play a factor. I'm seen upon honestly as a pretty good guy but it can be seen as weird for my appearance because there are plenty of shallow people in this world and even though most of them aren't going that far to keep up in this lifetime, it still plays a role in how they judge others and most likely hoping for themselves, they want to hang on to some influence. I'm quite good at proving people wrong and not necessarily with only the shallow ones. On occasions, I have put them up to challenges they have failed to follow through with, after I decided to hold back on it from not feeling right for a long time about many things.
It's weird in that I was on cruise control for most of those years while I was holding back and not feeling sure about stuff. Gosh, it's so annoying and wants to drive you crazy or that's how it was for my personality. Along with that, I had a complex from being physically short all my life compared to everybody else. My parents couldn't do anything about it, no matter what they said, I was never satisfied. They don't consider themselves to be top class and they do have some oddities for the most part or that's how I feel about them at least. They weren't great leaders with me for the most part because they were focused on other stuff and somewhere along the lines, decided to let me figure out my own life.
Well, I'm still living with my occasionally crazy parents. I'm a work in progress and this is what's keeping me from settling down. The easiest thing would be to find a Korean chick with a lifestyle and desires I'm dramatically into and also finds me hot enough to enjoy lots of it! I get along with girls easily- it's just that I'm not sure about committing to any of them so far because of a few noticeable flaws or the intangibles keep on getting to me. Wow, I kept on having some nice opportunities and it's something I can laugh about now from getting over my complexes as I keep on aging by living my life while working at thinking normally these days. I might have another good one right now even, how cool and funny is that!
It's weird in that I was on cruise control for most of those years while I was holding back and not feeling sure about stuff. Gosh, it's so annoying and wants to drive you crazy or that's how it was for my personality. Along with that, I had a complex from being physically short all my life compared to everybody else. My parents couldn't do anything about it, no matter what they said, I was never satisfied. They don't consider themselves to be top class and they do have some oddities for the most part or that's how I feel about them at least. They weren't great leaders with me for the most part because they were focused on other stuff and somewhere along the lines, decided to let me figure out my own life.
Well, I'm still living with my occasionally crazy parents. I'm a work in progress and this is what's keeping me from settling down. The easiest thing would be to find a Korean chick with a lifestyle and desires I'm dramatically into and also finds me hot enough to enjoy lots of it! I get along with girls easily- it's just that I'm not sure about committing to any of them so far because of a few noticeable flaws or the intangibles keep on getting to me. Wow, I kept on having some nice opportunities and it's something I can laugh about now from getting over my complexes as I keep on aging by living my life while working at thinking normally these days. I might have another good one right now even, how cool and funny is that!
Anime Watching Hobbies
It looks like I'm a total sucker for watching anime that's about action-packed fighting with humans in mechs. Along with that, the story of an ordinary and nice guy who just got lucky and commands the attention of a really pretty and unique love interest keeps watching the episodes so fun and moving it along. Anime can be a very creative art form and explore different types of good and bad people who are out there, even though it's all fantasy. It's funny that you can learn a few things off of it and even relate the personality of a character to someone you know in real life.
I mean it would be cool if I could mix all pleasure with work, but I also have other interests in life and if I don't put my attention to those things then I'll be missing out on opportunities to make easy money. It's good that I don't have a lot on the line for me right now and that I'm feeling the tension from practicing like it's some sort of game and trying to win at it.
The real world situation is that I'm a pretty nice guy and nowhere near the ordinary person in this world we were supposed to turn out to be. I guess that's why it makes sense I don't have a girlfriend and get along with only certain types of people. Putting myself out there, it's been fun and I still have yet to make a move with dating the right person. I think I may have found them already several times, but it turns out that I just wait too long all the time. I'll explore more about this on my next post.
I mean it would be cool if I could mix all pleasure with work, but I also have other interests in life and if I don't put my attention to those things then I'll be missing out on opportunities to make easy money. It's good that I don't have a lot on the line for me right now and that I'm feeling the tension from practicing like it's some sort of game and trying to win at it.
The real world situation is that I'm a pretty nice guy and nowhere near the ordinary person in this world we were supposed to turn out to be. I guess that's why it makes sense I don't have a girlfriend and get along with only certain types of people. Putting myself out there, it's been fun and I still have yet to make a move with dating the right person. I think I may have found them already several times, but it turns out that I just wait too long all the time. I'll explore more about this on my next post.
Friday, June 14, 2019
Knowing What You Want
Well, this blog has turned into something personal where I'm just sharing things that I would feel comfortable about while having some anonymity. I don't think I'm really that controversial though because I'm always trying to go for some decency. I'm going to share what I know that I want with myself so far. It's really that simple.
I would like to finish up my online classes for becoming a software engineer and to manage projects effectively while being creative and giving the customers what they want. I'm also trying to get stronger by learning more about investing. My swing trading has been looking good so far this month. It's two weeks in a row with profiting and it looks like I could be netting a three months showing sooner or later. What's cool is that the way I'm modeling my trades so far has been working the majority of time and bringing in a decent chunk of change. I'm pretty excited and want to do more eventually by learning to trade also other financial markets like stocks and options.
On top of getting going with my ideal way of making a living, I would like to be pretty athletic like have a nice six pack with some muscles and practically a masculine beach body I would be happy and also end up with a decent and physically attractive lady or just beautiful to me in general- doesn't matter how as long as I'm happy. There is a lady I'm friends with and seriously enjoy as a person and it doesn't have anything to do with her outward appearance and I might be feeling it with wanting to go all the way with her and be so passionate in the relationship too.
I would like to top off my time with also spending it with nice friends and even having room to meet more of those nice people and to even hang out and have good laughs or some fun. I definitely need to build a lot of confidence in myself so I'm going to have to hit the gym more often and start cooking more. Basically, be adept at all the little things that make me a bigger man and also some things I think ladies like and can personally handle. The Bible is also always going to be a part of my life. I'm listening to it with an app and has cool music and Hollywood actors reading the passages. It's beautifully acted, but I'm still not paying attention to it and thinking about my own stuff that makes me happy. I mean I get carried away but it's something I'm going to have to just deal with.
I would like to finish up my online classes for becoming a software engineer and to manage projects effectively while being creative and giving the customers what they want. I'm also trying to get stronger by learning more about investing. My swing trading has been looking good so far this month. It's two weeks in a row with profiting and it looks like I could be netting a three months showing sooner or later. What's cool is that the way I'm modeling my trades so far has been working the majority of time and bringing in a decent chunk of change. I'm pretty excited and want to do more eventually by learning to trade also other financial markets like stocks and options.
On top of getting going with my ideal way of making a living, I would like to be pretty athletic like have a nice six pack with some muscles and practically a masculine beach body I would be happy and also end up with a decent and physically attractive lady or just beautiful to me in general- doesn't matter how as long as I'm happy. There is a lady I'm friends with and seriously enjoy as a person and it doesn't have anything to do with her outward appearance and I might be feeling it with wanting to go all the way with her and be so passionate in the relationship too.
I would like to top off my time with also spending it with nice friends and even having room to meet more of those nice people and to even hang out and have good laughs or some fun. I definitely need to build a lot of confidence in myself so I'm going to have to hit the gym more often and start cooking more. Basically, be adept at all the little things that make me a bigger man and also some things I think ladies like and can personally handle. The Bible is also always going to be a part of my life. I'm listening to it with an app and has cool music and Hollywood actors reading the passages. It's beautifully acted, but I'm still not paying attention to it and thinking about my own stuff that makes me happy. I mean I get carried away but it's something I'm going to have to just deal with.
Tuesday, June 11, 2019
I See My Issue
It's always been a part of me, but I have a hard time focusing because I always want to have fun. If it's my time to study, I'm just thinking about other things and wanting to procrastinate the whole time. From reading my last post, it says that it's just being done for the short run, so what I really struggle with is being positive and committed to personal discipline. I should just keep on going with it until something comes up or bumps me along to another path.
I'm going to just live for being positive about my aspirations and keep going at it even if I feel lazy about it. There's always a next time with reading stuff on the Internet or watching movies and TV, even if it's not going to be in the preferred outlet. Overall, it's all about just being positive and sticking to something that I want to experience in the end after all of that grinding takes place. It's about having self-discipline and by knowing myself, all my anger is really rooted with being my competitive drive.
I'm going to just live for being positive about my aspirations and keep going at it even if I feel lazy about it. There's always a next time with reading stuff on the Internet or watching movies and TV, even if it's not going to be in the preferred outlet. Overall, it's all about just being positive and sticking to something that I want to experience in the end after all of that grinding takes place. It's about having self-discipline and by knowing myself, all my anger is really rooted with being my competitive drive.
Making Decisions To Not Regret
This is something that I'm writing for myself and may seem really off from trying to tap into my subconscious thoughts and intentions. I naturally feel like being lazy and not doing much to bother with a lost cause now. Something underneath me says it's wrong to hold back from wanting to be lazy, but you have to work hard and be brave about the situation. All this anger underneath me is really translating into something very competitive for what I want and feel a strong passion for. I may not be that lucky, but I'm going to keep hanging in there.
I ended up skipping everything yesterday to watch the NBA Finals game, and it was a very entertaining game to be honest. I don't think I can really afford this luxury when I should be doing something else to get going with my life. There's always reruns I can purchase to relive the moment whenever I can afford to and probably by then I will have already forgotten about it. In the short run, it's about living for the moment and feeling that escape from excitement. I should be more worried about maintaining a personal discipline with a positive outlook in life. It's a struggle but I think the effort is really worth it in the end. In the end, I think it's pretty sexy to be like this so I might as well commit to it and see where I can get to with it.
I ended up skipping everything yesterday to watch the NBA Finals game, and it was a very entertaining game to be honest. I don't think I can really afford this luxury when I should be doing something else to get going with my life. There's always reruns I can purchase to relive the moment whenever I can afford to and probably by then I will have already forgotten about it. In the short run, it's about living for the moment and feeling that escape from excitement. I should be more worried about maintaining a personal discipline with a positive outlook in life. It's a struggle but I think the effort is really worth it in the end. In the end, I think it's pretty sexy to be like this so I might as well commit to it and see where I can get to with it.
Personal Perception With Social Media
I don't think people in high numbers in general really care about what I have to say on Facebook. It must be that if a person has or wants to act up about something with me, it's because he or she is struggling with letting go of something that really doesn't have much resemblance with the real world. They are just having trouble managing their own personal negative emotions which has nothing to deal with me. It may be annoying to have to go through the unnecessary trouble like being stuck with having to attend a high school you don't want to go to anymore, even though you are smart enough to study and pass the graduation exam already early. Yet, it's always a brilliant thing to put on a strong effort and get over that hurdle.
Talking about it with others around and having a true purpose with getting somewhere with that person who feels like a victim with you over really nothing is embarrassing for that person. They probably thought about something that has stressed them out in the past and let themselves get there because the other person just doesn't want to let up and wants to stick to his or her stance. There's nothing wrong about it. They are only human and talking about it some more with them is going to make them suffer because it's naturally an embarrassing thing for them to endure. If that person is engaged in this unwilling discussion, then he or she is going to have to learn to toughen up or face some embarrassing consequences. In the end of all of this, it's nice for the opponent to still be friendly with them even though they are going to outplayed by him from being more competitive. Basically, it's about making a point and going for it while knowing that you can really never lose to these types of people.
Talking about it with others around and having a true purpose with getting somewhere with that person who feels like a victim with you over really nothing is embarrassing for that person. They probably thought about something that has stressed them out in the past and let themselves get there because the other person just doesn't want to let up and wants to stick to his or her stance. There's nothing wrong about it. They are only human and talking about it some more with them is going to make them suffer because it's naturally an embarrassing thing for them to endure. If that person is engaged in this unwilling discussion, then he or she is going to have to learn to toughen up or face some embarrassing consequences. In the end of all of this, it's nice for the opponent to still be friendly with them even though they are going to outplayed by him from being more competitive. Basically, it's about making a point and going for it while knowing that you can really never lose to these types of people.
Nice Update
Reliving how my trades went from yesterday after overtrading a lot, it turns out that it wasn't that bad for me. I received more confirmation of how I should be modeling my trades and this one moving average that I have in place is turning out to be such a blessing for me. It's totally adding up for me these days and I'm also experimenting with using a local maximum of ATR(14) to calculate the stop loss. With the volatility being pretty good in Forex, I already have a pair that has almost doubled its target from leaving it running for only a day. What I believe is really important when it comes to swing trading is to also find some confirmation with a higher timeframe. Looking at the 4-hour and daily charts have hit the sweet spot for me.
Overall, it's turning out to be nice with working at picking up this skill to trade. I'm also going to meetups now that emphasize this whole passive income lifestyle from learning to be successful from trading different financial markets. Hopefully, I'll be able to reach something comfortable where I wouldn't have to worry about coming into work for a regular job someday. In the meantime, I need to back this up in case anything terrible happens so I will choose software engineering with an emphasis on video games and phone apps. Hopefully, I'll be able to put in a lot of hard work and get rich off of doing these things that I have come to enjoy.
Overall, it's turning out to be nice with working at picking up this skill to trade. I'm also going to meetups now that emphasize this whole passive income lifestyle from learning to be successful from trading different financial markets. Hopefully, I'll be able to reach something comfortable where I wouldn't have to worry about coming into work for a regular job someday. In the meantime, I need to back this up in case anything terrible happens so I will choose software engineering with an emphasis on video games and phone apps. Hopefully, I'll be able to put in a lot of hard work and get rich off of doing these things that I have come to enjoy.
Monday, June 10, 2019
Organizing My Actual Plans
Well, it looks like it's taking my third attempt to really write about my plans with the general overview. The other posts were something I wrote to just have fun communicating about to anyone or anything out there and willing to read them. I have actually found some enjoyment out of writing about my personal life and have to lay a complaint that it gets a little annoying to constantly see the words "I", "my", and "me" very often in my posts! I am rereading all of this and it's just pretty much a personal narrative that I'm writing about the whole time. It's all about keeping it true even though it feels like I'm being so self-absorbed about all of this.
Honestly, I feel like what I'm lacking is getting things right the first time and having to go through all of those struggles. There's really nothing about it, and I'm not so much panicking anymore if my life is like going to be over, so I don't know now if it's just plain stupid or being courageous. I definitely feel at peace and so I went off again besides getting to my point of topic. I'm going to have to be cut and dry so here it is:
Personal Algorithm of Making Decisions Currently
1. Go on meetups and pull up events that pertain to my interest level for gaining inspiration to finish out my software engineering and project management related courses. Also go to meetups that are related to learning about investing with trades.
2. If nothing is available for #1, look for meetups that relate to being inspired to workout like hiking, playing tennis, or volleyball and project if enough cute or hot women will be there at that meetup. If not, go for the standard gym to not waste membership!
3. Look to be social with friends and to go on dates if I get to be lucky that week.
4. After coming back from a meetup, go to the regular gym if I can make it.
5. Get ready for the next day and work on completing the classes until I tire out or feel bored of them that I do something else.
Honestly, I feel like what I'm lacking is getting things right the first time and having to go through all of those struggles. There's really nothing about it, and I'm not so much panicking anymore if my life is like going to be over, so I don't know now if it's just plain stupid or being courageous. I definitely feel at peace and so I went off again besides getting to my point of topic. I'm going to have to be cut and dry so here it is:
Personal Algorithm of Making Decisions Currently
1. Go on meetups and pull up events that pertain to my interest level for gaining inspiration to finish out my software engineering and project management related courses. Also go to meetups that are related to learning about investing with trades.
2. If nothing is available for #1, look for meetups that relate to being inspired to workout like hiking, playing tennis, or volleyball and project if enough cute or hot women will be there at that meetup. If not, go for the standard gym to not waste membership!
3. Look to be social with friends and to go on dates if I get to be lucky that week.
4. After coming back from a meetup, go to the regular gym if I can make it.
5. Get ready for the next day and work on completing the classes until I tire out or feel bored of them that I do something else.
Organizing Personal Time With Effort
I'm looking to go to meetups for inspiration to finish out my software engineering courses I'm really interested in completing for the knowledge and to also go into a side business of developing apps in hopes of giving the users what they want and to get some good money off of it. This will also increase my professional experience and I will have some skills to also present to other prospective employers in the future. I'm also feeling good about combining this with swing trading the Forex and now opening myself up to learning about trading stocks and options while trying to master the first one to begin with.
I am seriously realizing this is what I want to do and it's just kicking itself into gear. Well, there is a girl out there who I really like as a person and she said she likes hanging out with me too. I can tell we like each other quite a bit and have room to grow really attracted to each other. I don't really care so much about how cute she looks on the outward but feel great underneath from spending time and getting to know her. She's a really cool person to me, and I totally dig her personality. She's currently dating someone I know, and I don't really mind it. I'll just have to wait and see what happens between those two. I don't really think my situation sucks either because there are other opportunities to meet different types of women from finding and joining in with social mixers. I think bringing a buddy along who is a girl sort of hinders me from putting myself out there with the more pretty ladies I could get to know, so I might have to go to those meetings by myself now and without her presence to be supportive of me. I know I could always talk to her and a few other lady friends after to discuss about anything regarding my dating problems.
I am seriously realizing this is what I want to do and it's just kicking itself into gear. Well, there is a girl out there who I really like as a person and she said she likes hanging out with me too. I can tell we like each other quite a bit and have room to grow really attracted to each other. I don't really care so much about how cute she looks on the outward but feel great underneath from spending time and getting to know her. She's a really cool person to me, and I totally dig her personality. She's currently dating someone I know, and I don't really mind it. I'll just have to wait and see what happens between those two. I don't really think my situation sucks either because there are other opportunities to meet different types of women from finding and joining in with social mixers. I think bringing a buddy along who is a girl sort of hinders me from putting myself out there with the more pretty ladies I could get to know, so I might have to go to those meetings by myself now and without her presence to be supportive of me. I know I could always talk to her and a few other lady friends after to discuss about anything regarding my dating problems.
Patching Things Up
It looks like I'm learning to prioritize my interests a lot better now. It does take some effort to put yourself in motion and attempt to get things done in a productive fashion. I have been categorizing my interests into three basic things with a lot of details going into each one. I still remember my three main ones in the beginning: Bible, exercise, and learning to trade successfully.
Nowadays, I listen to the Bible by default whenever I'm driving around by myself. I hardly play it when I have a passenger with me, unless maybe it's that one girl who hangs out with me often. She tolerates all that boredom and likes to fall asleep a lot so yeah, I'm glad she doesn't mind it so much. I'm already listening to the whole Bible for my fifth time on repeat in the last two or three years and yes, I have spent plenty of time driving solo everyday.
I haven't really been hitting the gym as much as I would like to. I have been more like running outdoors and emphasizing cardio to burn off calories and keep myself from getting too fat. A few people think I'm buff even though I haven't lifted weights in awhile. I'm thinking of getting myself back into it because I already do plenty of walking and running for maintaining the pounds.
It looks like I'm going to meetups now that relate to my goals with career advancement. Mainly, I'm interested in obtaining a lot of passive income via swing trading and investments. I'm trying to master Forex right now and later on, I'll be adding on other things to invest in once I can earn consistent money with great discipline. My secondary career I'm looking for is to be a software engineer or project manager dealing with the video game industry. I think I will have so much fun coding in that field and feeling blessed to be part of a cool team while also having fun competing with other players off the game I helped to develop for only personal pleasure. I'm not riding all my hopes on this passive income thing, but it's something I'm willing to spend a significant amount of energy on.
With the career advancement aside, I'm looking to maintain myself, and then lastly just go and have fun during the weekends while looking for nice and single ladies to meet.
Nowadays, I listen to the Bible by default whenever I'm driving around by myself. I hardly play it when I have a passenger with me, unless maybe it's that one girl who hangs out with me often. She tolerates all that boredom and likes to fall asleep a lot so yeah, I'm glad she doesn't mind it so much. I'm already listening to the whole Bible for my fifth time on repeat in the last two or three years and yes, I have spent plenty of time driving solo everyday.
I haven't really been hitting the gym as much as I would like to. I have been more like running outdoors and emphasizing cardio to burn off calories and keep myself from getting too fat. A few people think I'm buff even though I haven't lifted weights in awhile. I'm thinking of getting myself back into it because I already do plenty of walking and running for maintaining the pounds.
It looks like I'm going to meetups now that relate to my goals with career advancement. Mainly, I'm interested in obtaining a lot of passive income via swing trading and investments. I'm trying to master Forex right now and later on, I'll be adding on other things to invest in once I can earn consistent money with great discipline. My secondary career I'm looking for is to be a software engineer or project manager dealing with the video game industry. I think I will have so much fun coding in that field and feeling blessed to be part of a cool team while also having fun competing with other players off the game I helped to develop for only personal pleasure. I'm not riding all my hopes on this passive income thing, but it's something I'm willing to spend a significant amount of energy on.
With the career advancement aside, I'm looking to maintain myself, and then lastly just go and have fun during the weekends while looking for nice and single ladies to meet.
Friday, June 7, 2019
Letting Myself Be Inspired
I feel much happier these days from knowing what I'm looking for in life and learning to come to terms with people who struggled with me in the past. Back then, it didn't cross my mind that they were having a hard time with me because I thought they were just being jerks and constantly testing my angry emotions. It took me long enough, so I'm just happy to have finally realized it. I can go back to being the great person I was in the past and patch up what's left in all of our friendships. We never officially did break it off with each other and just let a funny rift get between us. Okay, it's really one-sided here; I'm the better person from having figured it all out and having always taken the better road than them while unwillingly having watched them suffer because of me. In a way, I'm just so glad to know now they aren't better people than me!
I'm trying to make a run these days with making myself financially rich on my own and I have chosen swing trading to be my unique vehicle for it. On the side, I'm trying to expand on my software engineering and developing skills to also effective project management skills so I can eventually try my hands at making a future popular video game or app. I'm just looking for a one-hit wonder that will hand me passive income- that's what all my dreams of working is about. It's just that I find it exciting to be into these things.
I'm going to have to keep on looking for girls I'm interested in dating so I'm going to have keep on trying and hopefully something good will come up again for me. I just wasn't ready for it back then but I did have a few good opportunities. I could have had like four or five ex-girlfriends by now if I really compromised and went for it back then. I could have also lost my virginity too if I wanted but I didn't want it to be some random fat girl who admitted to weighing over 200 pounds and was so into me! Yuck! She kept on saying she wanted to be my girlfriend and started being annoying not being able to keep up with me like on the second date. I don't know, I wasn't comfortable with it!
I mainly have Cambodian lady friends now and they are all interested with me getting a girlfriend. I think some of the girls who have shown some sort of interest with me are like not around though and I like them too. It's like I could end up just wanting to be only friends with them and maybe they would want something better out of the relationship if I ended up choosing them. Maybe they aren't that open-minded about it with me right now because I could just show myself to not be ready for it yet. I might have to keep hanging in there to find the right girl with the mindset I'm looking for and I'm sure she's out there and very attractive too.
I'm trying to make a run these days with making myself financially rich on my own and I have chosen swing trading to be my unique vehicle for it. On the side, I'm trying to expand on my software engineering and developing skills to also effective project management skills so I can eventually try my hands at making a future popular video game or app. I'm just looking for a one-hit wonder that will hand me passive income- that's what all my dreams of working is about. It's just that I find it exciting to be into these things.
I'm going to have to keep on looking for girls I'm interested in dating so I'm going to have keep on trying and hopefully something good will come up again for me. I just wasn't ready for it back then but I did have a few good opportunities. I could have had like four or five ex-girlfriends by now if I really compromised and went for it back then. I could have also lost my virginity too if I wanted but I didn't want it to be some random fat girl who admitted to weighing over 200 pounds and was so into me! Yuck! She kept on saying she wanted to be my girlfriend and started being annoying not being able to keep up with me like on the second date. I don't know, I wasn't comfortable with it!
I mainly have Cambodian lady friends now and they are all interested with me getting a girlfriend. I think some of the girls who have shown some sort of interest with me are like not around though and I like them too. It's like I could end up just wanting to be only friends with them and maybe they would want something better out of the relationship if I ended up choosing them. Maybe they aren't that open-minded about it with me right now because I could just show myself to not be ready for it yet. I might have to keep hanging in there to find the right girl with the mindset I'm looking for and I'm sure she's out there and very attractive too.
Nice Week Of Trading
This is my first week in a long while after wildly swing trading last month and losing the majority of the time, I have been profitable from the trade selections I made. I ended up making some adjustments to my trading methodology and rolled with it to see what happens. It's been fairly predicting nice profitable outcomes and at least, I haven't been stopping out before the whole day closes. I'm going to see if I can keep this up for the next week now and if not then no worries, I'm going to keep on making adjustments until I get there for three months straight of profitable trading.
The tools I have found are readily accessible from searching on the web, and I have learned that it caters to my personal preferences. I'm pretty much just looking to be a trend follower for at least a day and the more days it keeps going the merrier. I'm basically combining a whole bunch of ideas I have learned about and modeling my trades based on the success I can obtain and if not, I'm just making adjustments while struggling. It looks like I'm going back to the trend following indicators I started out with and put some time into to try to learn even though I understood nothing back then. By itself, it's really not enough so I have combined it with more interesting ideas I have learned about and fortunately, it was a stroke of luck that I remembered an indicator I tested a long time ago and that's the one I'm using today.
The tools I have found are readily accessible from searching on the web, and I have learned that it caters to my personal preferences. I'm pretty much just looking to be a trend follower for at least a day and the more days it keeps going the merrier. I'm basically combining a whole bunch of ideas I have learned about and modeling my trades based on the success I can obtain and if not, I'm just making adjustments while struggling. It looks like I'm going back to the trend following indicators I started out with and put some time into to try to learn even though I understood nothing back then. By itself, it's really not enough so I have combined it with more interesting ideas I have learned about and fortunately, it was a stroke of luck that I remembered an indicator I tested a long time ago and that's the one I'm using today.
Hindrances To Achieving Success
The biggest obstacle I face in life with getting to where I want to is falling asleep on my chair while procrastinating- that is all! It's a hilarious statement and at the moment, I have to achieve better time management and expect myself to get bored and just fall asleep any moment even though it wasn't my intention. For example, I realized that while driving for 90 minutes yesterday, I was trying to listen to a well voice-acted dramatization of the Bible and was still phasing in and out. I managed to finish listening to what I could with the whole Bible two days ago and then started all over. It's going to be my fifth time around. I'm guessing by the time I get to a thousand times of listening to the whole Bible, then I'll know something if I gain something out of it at all.
Overall, I think it's about filling myself with confidence and just trying while giving it my all and being manly about the disappointments that may come way. I guess I'm fearful about over-doing it and stressing out while becoming depressed. I don't want to be perceived in a negative way either, but there are plenty of negative people out there already for the most ridiculous reason. I have a whole crowd against me too! Oh well, I'm not going to be able to rely on people too much then to find my personal motivation for becoming successful with the things I'm interested in. I'll just hope with great confidence while building perseverance from good character to begin with.
Wednesday, June 5, 2019
Nice Message
I feel blessed for finally figuring it out after only like eight years passed by. It's not bad and could have been worse like towards the end of my life. I seriously had some wonderful ties with a nice Christian lady at the old church where Lee decided to go bonkers with me on. They both had their share of struggles with me, a restless guy from who was down in the dumps because a friend turned sour from losing control after I wrote something about him that ticked him off so badly and shared it to people. He's a drama queen and turned paranoid when I didn't let up with my stance. He was being a pain to me at the time, while talking negative about people behind their backs. I wasn't much a fan for it and it really aggravated me that I decided to post it on an old blog. I don't feel like searching for it and so no one is really going to message me to put it up here. I just know how this blog works and all these readers who come on it.
The special lady deleted me as a Facebook friend but she's such a nice Christian that she's been responding to my messages and has been helpful in identifying past problems with the crazed sector at that old church building and agreeing with the great points I'm able to mention dealing with our faith. I am so meant for marrying a nice girlfriend someday. This is what I wrote to her:
"A big brotherly kiss on the cheeks to you and a nice pat on the back. I felt something special with you back then. You are a dime of a dozen I let get away in terms of being Facebook friends. I'm really sure if I managed to patch things up with everyone at the old church you wouldn't mind accepting me again as a Facebook friend. I still have the old part of me alive that used to get nice results with people who struggled with me. The big secret is that I wouldn't mind someone acting like I did if I behaved like they did.
I just identified how they were struggling with me from only yesterday. I've just begun and made mistakes that are ending up to be in my favor. "Come now, let us settle the matter," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. Isaiah 1:18."
What's interesting is that with the other lady who put herself into a fight with me, I wasn't this personally courteous with her and treating the matter in a very dismissive manner and telling her what to do. She didn't like it and struggled with it because it is a lot to take in, especially if I'm spilling all the bad beans about her friends she loves dearly at that church. With this special lady, I'm just so naturally nice to her so there's definitely a connection I should be looking for in my future partner. This one is already taken, and I know she likes me too but I'll keep it low key because I honor marriages and already-made commitments above anything else. I just don't go seeking to find out if she ever gets available though, so maybe I would have if I really did like everything about her and so far, I haven't really found the one like that.
The special lady deleted me as a Facebook friend but she's such a nice Christian that she's been responding to my messages and has been helpful in identifying past problems with the crazed sector at that old church building and agreeing with the great points I'm able to mention dealing with our faith. I am so meant for marrying a nice girlfriend someday. This is what I wrote to her:
"A big brotherly kiss on the cheeks to you and a nice pat on the back. I felt something special with you back then. You are a dime of a dozen I let get away in terms of being Facebook friends. I'm really sure if I managed to patch things up with everyone at the old church you wouldn't mind accepting me again as a Facebook friend. I still have the old part of me alive that used to get nice results with people who struggled with me. The big secret is that I wouldn't mind someone acting like I did if I behaved like they did.
I just identified how they were struggling with me from only yesterday. I've just begun and made mistakes that are ending up to be in my favor. "Come now, let us settle the matter," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. Isaiah 1:18."
What's interesting is that with the other lady who put herself into a fight with me, I wasn't this personally courteous with her and treating the matter in a very dismissive manner and telling her what to do. She didn't like it and struggled with it because it is a lot to take in, especially if I'm spilling all the bad beans about her friends she loves dearly at that church. With this special lady, I'm just so naturally nice to her so there's definitely a connection I should be looking for in my future partner. This one is already taken, and I know she likes me too but I'll keep it low key because I honor marriages and already-made commitments above anything else. I just don't go seeking to find out if she ever gets available though, so maybe I would have if I really did like everything about her and so far, I haven't really found the one like that.
Tuesday, June 4, 2019
Other Side Things
On top of wanting to work on friendships with people who struggle at it with me, I really want to be friends with them because it motivates me to be better than them at everything. I'm also nice to them too and will stay that way. Currently, I have a bunch of people at one location who I have finally identified to have this struggle with me and I feel blessed to realize this opportunity, but it's something I have to put on hold. I have a few greater tasks for myself that I need to accomplish first, so I'll just let it go for now to focus.
One of the things I'm heavily interested in is getting myself a girlfriend who is athletic, enthusiastic, and an overall nice lady. I would like to do these fun activities outdoor together and don't mind paying for all of it! I'm going to have to keep on building my confidence whenever I can get the chance though.
I also have good friends to hang out with lately and my own crowd which I feel very comfortable to have settled into. It's really quite nice and I don't feel pressured underneath anymore about disappointing someone as I used to. I have the confidence to do well in my personal dating relationships now. I'm definitely accepting how a lady isn't right for me if she isn't into me. I really want to focus on the future partner's happiness more than my own honestly and to look for someone who is hot and wants a lot of sex in marriage!
One of the things I'm heavily interested in is getting myself a girlfriend who is athletic, enthusiastic, and an overall nice lady. I would like to do these fun activities outdoor together and don't mind paying for all of it! I'm going to have to keep on building my confidence whenever I can get the chance though.
I also have good friends to hang out with lately and my own crowd which I feel very comfortable to have settled into. It's really quite nice and I don't feel pressured underneath anymore about disappointing someone as I used to. I have the confidence to do well in my personal dating relationships now. I'm definitely accepting how a lady isn't right for me if she isn't into me. I really want to focus on the future partner's happiness more than my own honestly and to look for someone who is hot and wants a lot of sex in marriage!
Starting Out Solid This Month
I closed a few trades out from yesterday and so far I am in the green while also having some profitable trades running today. It looks like from having over-traded last month with my demo account, it's been allowing me to figure out a trading model that will work the majority of time. I am just letting myself go while testing all of my hunches and personal thoughts about how the market is working. I really have nothing to lose here, and it's still fun while learning to make myself a competitive trader.
I have my sights really set on moving out of my parent's house this time, so I want to at least put some work into this trading gig with also developing my blue collar and 9 to 5 job of choice being software development. Ideally, I would love to make video games and in this world there are still companies paying for programmers to develop proprietary software and even if I can't get what I want in the end, it's still fulfilling for me. I have learned this is the case from the software developing I'm doing right now at my current company. Therefore, I'm basically looking for motivation to finish up my mini-master degrees so I could be on my way to ultimately become a successful video game developer.
I have my sights really set on moving out of my parent's house this time, so I want to at least put some work into this trading gig with also developing my blue collar and 9 to 5 job of choice being software development. Ideally, I would love to make video games and in this world there are still companies paying for programmers to develop proprietary software and even if I can't get what I want in the end, it's still fulfilling for me. I have learned this is the case from the software developing I'm doing right now at my current company. Therefore, I'm basically looking for motivation to finish up my mini-master degrees so I could be on my way to ultimately become a successful video game developer.
Monday, June 3, 2019
Setting Priorities Straight
I'm understanding that my number one priority is to get the heck out of living under my parent's roof at the old age of 36! I'm still unmarried and paying for high car insurance. Lately, with my circumstances and no matter how annoying it might be to me with these relatable things I feel like laughing about it.
The reason for moving out is because I want to marry whoever I want to and if I'm under their roof then I have to abide their rules of how to live life. My parents aren't the most happy people out there either, so I'm not motivated to follow after them anytime soon. To get out of the house and live comfortably, I need to earn a lot of cash and soon as possible! I'm working on it and I have chosen my ultimate goal of making a living full-time to be developing video games. It can seem pretty childish I know but video games are the only software out there I can be gung-ho about having to purchase to play. Everything else should be free and open-source software. I believe Microsoft Windows should be free also and allow for everyone to look at the code and add in funny bugs if they wish to make fun of it!
My secondary option of making money is with me hardly being at the computer and maybe around a cumulative total of one hour or add a couple more if I want to gloat to myself about how I did so well or sucked that day with making money. It's swing trading and it's an aggressive form of trading but less than day trading and yes, it's super risky and competitive and can wipe out your whole bank account in a few seconds if you are stupid. I'm not sharing my floor with the scrubs but kissing up to the hot shots.
First thing is first, I need money to get the heck out of my parent's luxurious and Beverly Hills mansion-type of house! I don't want to listen to them say marry this Korean lady I hardly know because it's time and always fight to keep her. I have met a hot Korean lady I believe will do very well with but she's hard to catch and a little anti-social so there's not much I can do at this point. My parents don't really know about her and I think they would find her to be scary and crazy too! I like her though, so it would be about my happiness and they would be getting a Korean lady for a daughter-in-law but they could end up not wanting me to marry her either. Therefore, I need to move out of this house when I can practically project myself to be a millionaire.
The reason for moving out is because I want to marry whoever I want to and if I'm under their roof then I have to abide their rules of how to live life. My parents aren't the most happy people out there either, so I'm not motivated to follow after them anytime soon. To get out of the house and live comfortably, I need to earn a lot of cash and soon as possible! I'm working on it and I have chosen my ultimate goal of making a living full-time to be developing video games. It can seem pretty childish I know but video games are the only software out there I can be gung-ho about having to purchase to play. Everything else should be free and open-source software. I believe Microsoft Windows should be free also and allow for everyone to look at the code and add in funny bugs if they wish to make fun of it!
My secondary option of making money is with me hardly being at the computer and maybe around a cumulative total of one hour or add a couple more if I want to gloat to myself about how I did so well or sucked that day with making money. It's swing trading and it's an aggressive form of trading but less than day trading and yes, it's super risky and competitive and can wipe out your whole bank account in a few seconds if you are stupid. I'm not sharing my floor with the scrubs but kissing up to the hot shots.
First thing is first, I need money to get the heck out of my parent's luxurious and Beverly Hills mansion-type of house! I don't want to listen to them say marry this Korean lady I hardly know because it's time and always fight to keep her. I have met a hot Korean lady I believe will do very well with but she's hard to catch and a little anti-social so there's not much I can do at this point. My parents don't really know about her and I think they would find her to be scary and crazy too! I like her though, so it would be about my happiness and they would be getting a Korean lady for a daughter-in-law but they could end up not wanting me to marry her either. Therefore, I need to move out of this house when I can practically project myself to be a millionaire.
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