People I Will Bluntly Talk About

Over the course of the next few days, I will concentrate on talking about everything and writing anything that I want to say. To be protective to my own image and to be sensitive about the details I may end up sharing, I will invent names for real people. By being descriptive about who they are, it may get a little fabricated because I might be just in the mood of making fun of them to laugh away a lot of adrenaline and prevent myself from going to up to do something weird to them. I am going to solve it without their feedback because they have several times tried to go over it without really wanting to talk about it; this makes it really hard to notice what they wanted with me and how I was driving conflict. For goodness sake, I was asking reasonable questions that one guy felt was so annoying. He started whispering to me all these ridiculous remarks that makes you not want to be friends with this person. It's pretty much stating things that build up adrenaline for me. I think he really did not know what was happening after all, and the human element is that whatever he wanted me to do good about is that he should have done the same. That is why I feel he was a hypocrite.

This issue could potentially be really bad and huge for them. It could also make me look bad depending on where you stand. I'm fairly good at explaining consequences and stuff like that so it might make you feel bad to go against me after awhile. I was not really sure of myself in the beginning but I guess I'm becoming more keen and aware of the situation now. It deserves a little attention with me. These people are fabricated names not real but I guess some people may be able to relate to who they are, but I will also make up a location to.

These are the names I am going to use for all of them are a little twisted Asians: Betsy, Abby, Shawn, Charles, Brian, Gabrielle, and Anakin. I'll leave this post now until I feel more adrenaline about this issue. I pretty much feel like I unloaded everything already. I am going to be using the last sentence a lot, I think. Let's say they all live somewhere in northern Europe and hang out pretty often because they mesh together at a church with a common purpose of praying and greeting others.

Dumping out the bad things

I guess there are more stuff about me that bothers me more than just a stupid thing that a few people want to do to push me away literally, forcefully, violently verbally. This is something that's really funny to me because I never intend on bad things happening to them to get them to go this path. I think they are totally blinded by something. However, I'm hoping that they'll come around and be healthy and be able to reconcile their mad emotions that are inexplicable with me right now.

I'm really closing in how my true nature and feelings and how I want to be living the dream. It takes work to get there, and it's something that is not going to grow on trees. Maybe, my desires are totally simple and not so hard to relate to. However, I think the one and only true God should be the one in charge of all our lives.

Dee dee Random

I'm just having fun typing something on my blog today. I'm just having lots of fun and want to continue having fun doing this just for good laughs personally. I am glad that I am not in trouble with writing on this blog. I am glad that it's so great that words can be designed in a clever manner to hurt others but it's wrong to do that for a selfish purpose. I should be very careful of my adrenaline because I can pick up on things and point them out that really offends people. I heard that people by nature don't like to hear bad stuff about them in person. It's hard to deal with this sometimes because they go through stuff and sometimes want to be ignorant. I can sometimes see that by being a better person you can make others around you calm down. By bossing them around by yelling, it works for me since I'm this short guy who comes across as pretty smart but can be really sweet and nice but I don't really want to do that. I want to be consistently cool about it and open to hearing about their blunt issues. Haha.

Exception Rule

Hi, I think I'm typing another post because I'm so good at making sentences. I pretty much want to be blunt about these weird situations that occurred to me. I don't want to come across as a really bad person, but I guess I should not really impose this on people because it's like really bad for their health to hear it. If you would really to hear my really bad side then might as well drop me an e-mail and ask about my evil nature. You may be surprised of who I am and what I will admit to and also downplay for the sake of wanting to be peaceful and not offensive to others. As time goes on, I will find that connection that makes sense with people. I will admit that on an account that I won't admit I have dropped a lot of impudent and daring comments. These people don't really know me and they just pretty much make even more ruder comments which is a lot of fun. They pretty much hit the thumbs down key and the worst I've had is like -30. Must be someone who just spends their hitting their button on my comment because they think it's fun or it could really be people who thought my comment was stupid or whatever in their testosterone driven thing. Don't get me wrong, my comments may be most of the time, but most of the time it only seems to offend a little bit of people. Probably because of its lack of relevance and basically making myself laugh and not to them.

Hello

Hi, I'm just typing something as usual. I guess I can spend time on this blog because I just like to write and I should show that I could be consistent and that I'm a safe person. I can be really blunt now since this is my blog. There are some things I still don't want to talk about for the sake of protecting people's interests. I would not want the complication of people coming up to me and saying that I damaged their reputation because I was not careful and put something on here.

Disadvantages of Playing Online Poker

This post is just something I'm creating because poker seems to be getting more popular these days. Let's assume that money is more priority than just fun and that the person is making it full time. Let's also assume that the person is really poor and has average talent, along with no sponsors really to cover the costs of getting blanked by a gambler, which they refer to as sometimes a donkey.

1. It can be addicting.

2. There is an up and down spread in your winnings. You'll maximize your chances of winning at any given moment but then something comes swooping down and says no to your hard effort and thought given into it. They mention this as getting beat by a two outer or that 1 card you know won't pop up actually appears. This is where people have been known to throw tantrums because they don't want to accept what poker players call a bad beat.

3. Since you are poor, you could get so energetic and carried away with the cheap sit and go tournament also referred to as a SNG. After a hard hour of reading people's cards mentally, you can just rake in a small measly 2 bucks, or a 100% return on investment.

4. People can play so random and be deceiving. It's like sometimes they don't want you to call but place a huge bet. This is also known as bluffing. There are other times when you want people to call but your calculations of how much to put in is inaccurate. This is also known as out-betting or under-betting a value bet.

5. It just makes you feel sorry to get kicked in the rear by another player. You can still place an online note on the tab which poker sites provide you with that he does not know how to play and just got lucky. Yeah, ignoring the fact that he took all your chips.

6. It can get your mind off of important and more natural things like having sex with your spouse or from coming to the dinner table and making up excuses to stay at the computer.

7. Everyone is a winner and loser. It is the worst oxymoron ever, and this one player still thinks he can outlast them all. His excuse for getting knocked out is that they all play really inferior to him. He has won the most championships so maybe he has a point.

8. It's ultimately with a skill set that involves anticipating if a person has a better hand than you. This can be used and totally annihilate you versus other people if you are not a winner in the first place. Like you could start carrying more guts and really make things worse for yourself by being stuck in this psychological arrogance that should be avoided or gut wrenching decision that should be done which could mean life or death.

9. Maybe there's another passion that needs to be fed but the gaming is interfering with your life. No offense with all the professional players who made it big. They seriously mastered the complex system and world of chaos that involves just a deck of playing cards. They have it pretty unique and can be pretty laid back people with fans.

10. It can seriously be a rough sport. It is not for everyone and probably some would not even try it and be conservative which is okay. It is sometimes a peculiar experience because it's hard to gauge where the sweet spot is.

I've outlined ten reasons with some filler statements. Maybe going on this ride is an unnecessary experience.

Haha

I guess I'm doing okay so far today and mentally I'm pretty sound. I'm just on my own and really being lousy with myself right now. I think I can be funny if I want to be and that can help in establishing relationships again. I think I'm fine and nothing is wrong with me.

Eventually It's Going to Click

One of these days, I am going to give up all the bad habits I'm doing and become that person I really want to be deep down inside. No hard feelings with anyone and no resentments with people. I am really brave enough to bring up the topic now and lead the way with any problem someone has with me. I really want to avoid falling into temptations and following the pack. I just do it because I am inspired by Jesus in my life. I managed to get a 3 day trial membership at a YMCA yesterday. Not much of an accomplishment, but looking forward to checking out what I could do at a gym to get fit and healthy.

I'm so poor and will eventually get that job and protein in my body to make me stronger. The active part of me is going to initiate. I am truly okay and wherever I am at, I will make the most of it and worship God after praying for forgiveness. I'm going to feel much better if I get consistent in doing what my heart truly would be content with. I'm going to work on myself first and take my time without hurting myself. I want to love others and to do this, I'm going to have to spend time modeling my life after a loving Savior who is ignored very often in people's lives.

Blueprint to riches+optional fun at work Version 1.0

I'm just going to write this in case someone would like to try out my ideas of wealth. This could potentially generate $300-$500 per day or maybe a lot more with low maintenance once set up right. I am going to share what I know to reward that special someone, if he or she decides to use these things. This is pretty much free information given by me. I have tried other things too but I think these things that I'm listing have the most potential in raking cash with lowest money to gamble. Expect to gamble some money and to put in some time. I'm pretty much laying it all out because I might be as well be useful and encourage others to contribute their wealth for helping out people they want to care about.

For the first six, just google for it. Only one of them has been verified by me to work really well and is marked.

1. Blackmask
2. Google Assassin
3. FapTurbo
4. TradingFromHome.com *
5. Google Payload
6. Adwords Miracle

For the next two, focus on placing ads in the right magazines. It can get a little tricky and will take experimentation. Basically, the magazine or periodical must specifically be related to the product that the intended readers would be interested in. The periodicals will vary for all locations. I would say try searching online or go to a library to search for placing these related ads.

1. Magic Kids (Liquidated Children's Clothing)
2. Ecoquest (Ozone Layer Creator Air Purifiers)

This next option deals with buying stock options. Basically the most profit is made during a upward or downward trend in the stocks. It basically takes advantage of dramatic change of an economic situation.

1. Optionetics

I have come across an organization that focuses on top-notch service with real estate. You can practically search a database where professionals will manage the home for you and give you some residual income. You just place a down payment on the home and then rent it out to someone. You just provide the financing and then a group of professionals handle the management of renting out your new home. They also provide classes that are taught by some of the world's best real estate professionals.

1. Noveu Rouche

I also know how you can get a 120 K job. Get an I.T. degree and then get certified in the networking field. Basically search for popular Cisco certifications (CCNA, CCNP, CCIE, and CCDP) in Network Engineering careers and also Microsoft ones (MCSE and MCSA). If you get a lot of these certifications you'll definitely land a job in this huge job market. It is growing daily in jobs because the internet is practically being used everywhere and things going wireless relate to this I.T. field. Take this option, only if you see yourself having a passion doing this line of work. If you would like to take a managerial role then maybe a MBA with technological emphasis might be useful.

Optional fun

1. Start an e-bay related business that deals with drop shipping (google this for some programs).
2. Get some coaching to set up an online business website - Omni Business Solutions (*risky and pricey)
3. Work at a radio station that gives you air time that you can pay for or get sponsored for it - ARN in Hollywood...(managable to fit any 24 hour block)

Try to keep to a minimal amount of time if you like this stuff:

1. Playing online poker
2. Mystery Shopping

Do more of exploring your options and discover what you are into. Make room for lots of hobbies if you are still single and waiting on your love life before your new family or spouse becomes your new number one priority.

Side Note:

If you want to develop some pride in health terminology, become a Medical Transcriber. Google for "School of Medical Transcriptionist" or "MT Professional". There are some fees to pay. I only recommend this if you want to be an enthusiast. There is a job offer if you graduate into a professional. You get paid approximately 11-13 an hour but get to work at home and set up your own hours. I might just do only one hour and read up on health a lot to be a useful person for others, as just a hobby.

Hits and Misses

I don't really know someone who would really want to waste their time with me reading all my posts. I guess I'm just doing this for myself. I tend to like to write and then let others do what they need to say. I'm starting to understand that relevance to the the topic is very and highly important. It could make you come across as a mean and dumb person if you do not speak on the topic. Sometimes you could act a certain way to give the other person an impression about how you feel about the situation and then be like I don't know where I need to change. That's quite a funny impression and can seriously leave your opponent flustered and feel totally alienated from you. Once you know all the facts, which I have now through reasonable accounts and opening myself up to different possibilities in the life of others, I'm really starting to feel that someone was being dumb about this situation and caused me only a little pain. They receive a lot more pain than me so maybe it's best to relent for awhile and confront this dumb person and literally read his mind on the spot just to scare him because I don't care if he wants to put a restraining order on me now. A man putting a restraining order on me makes me think that maybe he has a feminine side that he does not know how to control very well. I'm seriously okay with receiving it again from this person. He's probably not going to file against me because I may seriously have this gritty lock on him that makes him feel really bad and locked up horrendously. I'm getting these threats of having the cops come directly to me from not directly threatening them which is an amazing feat that I don't even know how I even accomplished.

Fair Attempt

I believe that when someone does something to you like a personal decision that you do not agree with, it's okay to mention how others can see it as an issue. It requires some sacrifice, and I think discussing about your suspicions in a nice way with others around really helps a lot. It could equate a little bit into humor. Basically, what I'm talking about is that my sister decided to put me on her block list on Facebook. I think what I can say around others effectively with my sister are just three things. 1) Others could probably see this as an issue. 2) I care to listen to her personal issue because I'm just that type of person and because she does not want to talk about it, she's dismissing something that she could not be resolving with me. 3) I can jokingly ask if she is trying to have me avoid pursuing after her.

I think this is the method I've been searching after this whole year; however, my adrenaline really got in my way and I took an approach that felt unnatural because I did not want to come across as a very stressed out person who yells basically half the time I'm around here when she's by herself and not around others. It's like doing a guerrilla attack where you end up yelling at them while keeping your distance and when others show up, you just stay quiet and act normally. I guess it's effective because it's similar to how a Drill Sargent will get to you and make you cooperate; he basically cares about your well-being and wants you to stay away from being too stubborn and going defective. Hmm, I have never thought about how a short guy like me could do that sort of nasty stuff to slightly unattractive girls like my sister and these other ones who also put me on their block list. I corresponded with them in real life, not just online.

Thinking about something

There's a lot to life than meets the eye. Being filled with the passion of living life is a great thing, and sometimes I take too many things for granted. I no longer feel that adrenaline is controlling me. I no longer feel uncertain about what the whole truth is, even though it's understandable in my situation and already justified by those other guys. For me, when it comes to having a problem with the opposite sex even when it deals with my sister, I think it should not be about pursuing after them in a wrong direction. It should about focus, friendship, and concern. Even if it cross paths with my own interests, I should not think about it as being selfish. They hold the decision in the end, and this type of talk is not about a person being ridiculed for feeling that he is a short person.

Getting a job and working there, it's like almost certain that the worker will get paid. I have thought about the possible funny outcome of the world crashing to the floor then there's no more money to work for. In an empty world, God truly fills the void. This sacrificial God forgave believers of their sins, and they have entrance into His eternal goodness. No matter how faulty believers are sometimes like the ones I came across in the San Gabriel Valley, God still loves them. I think some of those peculiar boys and girls had some unsettled emotions that were inherited from their parents who immigrated or faced separation and prefer to live in negativity.

Writing at 6 am

I'm up right now after having an important dream that pretty much ties everything together over a stupid mess that others were ignorant over. I think out of their ignorance and causing something really bad to happen to me; I've been really able to calm down and not feel the adrenaline or unfairness tugging me down anymore. I know it's not wrong to reveal what they did wrong to me; it's going to affect others around me. There is nothing wrong in resolving a situation revolving around humanity, big or small thing. The reason why they haven't really reached out to me is because they are not really that capable of doing it, and I actually have provided that channel for them just that they have not been able to induce the proper respect that you give to a fellow.

Boston Red Sox lost to the Angels yesterday which was a pleasant surprise. They were shut out throughout the whole game, and I think that was an amazing accomplishment that the Angels did. Today, Angels are going up against the best pitcher of Red Sox, Beckett. Beckett has compiled a really respectable win-loss ratio with a good ERA; he's very compatible with big game situations and will not lose very often. He's sort of been through some injuries and might be worn out; we will have to see how well Beckett is able to handle the dangerous lineup dealing with the Angels. I remember one year everybody really took the Angels lightly but this year they have really made a statement.

The Dodgers we know still have yet to make another trip to the World Series. It would be nice to have an LA Freeway Series for the World Series. With California being the largest and most popular state, it would be hard for the world to ignore this feat that has happened for the first time since professional baseball originated.

Let's be honest with myself

I'm going to write a secret post where I detail everything that I want to say. I think this is something I want to keep personal for the sake of trying to move on better. Overall, I see that my emotions are easily becoming very nice for me to overcome. I have the ability to outdo my own personal frustration and anger. I have this inner desire to be thinking about things in a fair manner whenever I feel that a thought on a person is going downhill. After all, I'm starting to not really mind a forced upon separation with others. I don't want to let down others now. I need to turn it around and be more disciplined. I could see that even though I feel that I'm really short, I have a privileged mind that feeds on feeling great about propriety, morality, humor, and nice sensibility. I think I've done enough soul searching with myself these past couple years. It's time to start a new slate clean with the hope of the Lord. I think it's okay to be blunt in front of others sometimes, even if it makes them want to shy away from you later. With a nice smile and good attitude in the face of hostility, danger, and confusion, it sure beats violence a million times.

This morning

I think my posts are starting to scare some people or make some people angered for no real reason that they would not want to bother to explain in a through manner. The questions that I ask may be so annoying to them because they don't know how to answer and still believe that I am not deserving of what it is that they can't really reveal to me. They would probably like to think that it's mean but I should just keep writing because if someone is brave enough to read my writing they will probably let it influence themselves. This writing is probably so uncomfortable that some people need to disassociate themselves and act a little different around me then they normally would. I am not trying to suck up to anybody here. I'm just trying to make sense of this adrenaline flow I'm getting and adjusting to it for the best results. I just need to be committed and that should work.

I did read about different diagnostic methods of depression, and I don't think I have it because I'm still capable of controling my own emotions. I guess I speak out my mind a lot better in person and should come to an understanding that some individuals just want to stay uptight no matter what they want to do. I need to convince them that it's wrong to view an individual from a wrong angle especially when they think they are so right. I guess that's what really scares them the most that they could be wrong when they think they are so certain about something.

Very bad very...

I need to stop doing bad things in general. It makes me feel bad, and I know I have the energy and confidence to do it without needing to think to myself about self-esteem all the time. I know that some people just talk and then eventually get themselves frustrated and then isolate themselves. I really don't know how I cause this to happen with some people, but when that happens, it sure is very annoying to me. I don't need to talk behind their backs or do all that other meaningless stuff. I do discuss about a friend's twin brother all the time. I even talk what I say twenty-four hours with him and very bluntly. I don't mind if he changes for the better because I would not want him to be a vexing person. Even if he tries to look me down, I don't really mind anymore. It's just hard work and persistence. Not too many people know about this and just feel like giving up too easy. I don't think it's fully right but it's okay I guess.

Interesting Times

Today, my faculty is filled with inspiration. I'm in a slope where my emotions are riding higher, and I feel that all my inner emotions that others sort of have displayed with ineptitude is not that bad at all. I think the more I study, the more deeper I can look into my heart. I have hope that I can solve problems with the help of the Spirit of God leading me. I think the Spirit of God wanted me to develop confidence to pursue the path of righteousness. It's a wonderful trial that I went through, and I feel that God's grace has sufficiently kept me going.

Moving Forward

A lot has been happening for me, and I'm reaching in deep to really know what my desires are. I've been so accustomed to feeling that my desires are never really going to get met in this world and that suffering through my little pains of like not getting any taller or succeeding is something to just feel underneath but try to be good about it. I'm starting to feel really confident about so many things. I really want to also express myself in a humble fashion but I guess it's not enough sometimes. Maybe, I do it in a way that is not appropriate. I think I need to be successful and happy and experience the joys of fruitfulness and helping others before I can let my heart be humble. For the time being, I should just be getting completely honest about myself and allow myself to be understanding.

Unresolved Questions with simple answers

This post just reflects the annoyances that people like to put on you with statements that don't really reflect who you are and then they state they want to help you. This is something outside the box about unresolved issues- I realize that gambling is not good, not that I really get into it or anything; that's something people could have a hard time getting over if they do it too much of. An ignorant person told me that he wanted me to become a blessing; to be a blessing you simply just need to help out in something. I guess he did not want to think about those things I excelled in to help out, while he was really bothered about something and took him awhile to crack. This probably means something good to me because I did not do something really that bad in the beginning, and he had told me that he was sorry for what he did. I'm starting to build confidence here now. I'm getting a lot of apologies which is important to acknowledge and for me to accept maturely and to be happy about while gaining more confidence to solve this issue dealing with people.

I guess my own internal feelings of aggravation don't really come out because I like to knock it off. I am totally ready to work hard at it and also experience the good side of things that are out there. It's easy for me to connect with older individuals who have lived interesting lives and know what's going on. I think that's going to help me in the future and to be a better and more capable individual. The stress is always going to be there and just talking about it to solve it is not going to really do much. Just have to take it as suffering and still with intent of loving them and being smart with them. Overall, I think that's being fair and keeping yourself happy and in accordance with staying pleasing to the Lord.

Conclusion of Camp

Today is the final day of camp for me. I've pretty much signed up for learning a lot more about the LAN/WAN industry which is basically setting up computer networks and maintaining them with complicated stuff. They have you get certified, make this nifty resume, and apply for like over 1 Million jobs in the U.S. Demand for network engineers is really high and for many reasons that seem obvious. The internet is one reason because that's what a network really is.

Understanding the theory and applicable stuff is actually pretty fun for me. Even though it can be a challenge, I don't mind putting the hard work into it. It's a pretty lucrative position too. Something that I've felt like I need to be a part of. Maybe this field is a calling for me. What I take out of this camp is some great references who will put in a good word for me and the highest level of certification with a top 10 Fortune 500 company- that is Cisco and Microsoft. Let's see where this takes me because the state of California easily tops out to be the most technological with LAN/WAN jobs. I searched over 20,000 jobs already in the last days and it's still growing by the hundreds daily. I have a chance of getting at least scraped by a company that needs hook ups and promoting certified people with some experience. They say my Computer Science degree could count as about 2-3 years of I.T. experience depending on the employer. I am very excited with the opportunity that is ahead for me.