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Sunday, May 3, 2015
Bipolar Reading
I am short; therefore, I feel like I have bi-polar. Girls are short, so they have something. I guess that's how it goes. Guys are not short, but I am a guy so hey!
Laughing Away My Sins
I sinned so badly. I laugh at myself and ask God to forgive me. All is good? No, it isn't.
No Good For Writing
This free writing isn't good for earning a paycheck. It's just for wasting my time as a nerdy kid.
Headache
I have a creative mind that's working fast, but is no good for anyone to respond with sayings. If I listen to some people that do talk, they pretty much suck at giving advice. Why should I approach them for advice now? I should be just telling them what's wrong with them and say that they are acting so stupid and ticking me off that I want to bother them until the end of the world!
Being Full Of It
From being a young weirdo, it gave me the advantage of staying out of the negative light. I'm not such a weirdo anymore. I've been feeling the heat with people and just learning to not care!
Responding
A person was acting stupid with me by saying that he wasn't responding to my texts and said that while yelling. I told him to keep to himself and thanked him for that.
What I Imagine
It seems like I'm just venting out jokes. Scrolling down is what I see and skip as well with a headache.
Pretty Woman
Pretty woman walking down the street! The kind of woman I think is relatively good looking but no idea what her personality is! I'm so shy and feel so shallow about approaching her.
How I had a chance in the past was just from feeling nervous all the time and being very aware of everything around me and then going for the chance. I think it made the girl feel special. I didn't know I made her think I was dating her. I thought we were just friends, but okay, she's not interested in me anymore. I stood her up too many times, before I turned weird and was like oh yeah, I'm interested in you!
How I had a chance in the past was just from feeling nervous all the time and being very aware of everything around me and then going for the chance. I think it made the girl feel special. I didn't know I made her think I was dating her. I thought we were just friends, but okay, she's not interested in me anymore. I stood her up too many times, before I turned weird and was like oh yeah, I'm interested in you!
Energy To Write
I have strokes of genius and then I don't keep on developing. I just keep on trying to improve upon what I have. It's like a craft that I want to be a part of. Some of those activities are stupid and should be not for me!
Like Twitter?
I guess I could treat this blog like Twitter in a way, just that I officially have no followers. Oh yeah, I have three (counting myself) right now. I can ask more people to join this site if I wanted to. They'll probably never look at my site anyway. I could bug them too and they still won't budge. Hmm, that sounds like a good idea right now.
Very Nice
I'm now taking on this personal preference of not caring how I write my posts. This is pretty annoying doing this, so I'm sure I'm going to be losing my average readers. Actually, from just talking about the Bible, I received a huger audience than I have ever in my life.
I'm like a mixture of Christianity and struggling with my flesh. That's all I really am. I can relate to the problems that people go through, except for being incredibly sick or in very bad circumstances. The only thing I can really understand is having money problems and having trouble getting a job, no matter what the circumstances are. Even if the person is lazy, I can still feel for him or her.
One girl kept on asking me for money after meeting her on a dating site. I was like I don't have time for you babe, see ya! The amount of money invested to get to the dating website? $0, yeah I'm a genius because I got it for free. I'm embarrassed to reveal where the site is, so I'm not going to say anything.
I'm like a mixture of Christianity and struggling with my flesh. That's all I really am. I can relate to the problems that people go through, except for being incredibly sick or in very bad circumstances. The only thing I can really understand is having money problems and having trouble getting a job, no matter what the circumstances are. Even if the person is lazy, I can still feel for him or her.
One girl kept on asking me for money after meeting her on a dating site. I was like I don't have time for you babe, see ya! The amount of money invested to get to the dating website? $0, yeah I'm a genius because I got it for free. I'm embarrassed to reveal where the site is, so I'm not going to say anything.
Hey That's Cool!
I've stated ever since I've done this whole 1 post a day thing, that all I care about is making a post, so why not just make 100 sentences to catch up for the three months that I lost? It's still creating a post. Yeah, that sounds really nice now that I think of it, and it could save me so much time.
Just Writing Anything
This is where I plan on catching up and where I expect people to burn out from reading this website. This is the way to detract audiences, you just write about boring stuff that only you find exciting.
Need To Catch Up
By placing my focus on wanting to read and talk about the Bible, I haven't really been committing much on this blog. Okay, I'll just talk about how I feel in the Holy Spirit then. I'll just state that I don't really care about being blunt right now. I can also be less direct, but that's only if I want to bug people very badly now. It all depends on my mood.
After all these years, there's still a part of me that I don't want to reveal with the whole world. I'm ashamed and too embarrassed of it. I'm going to try to put an end to it, before it gets too out of hand and like the most important people in the world find out. It would be like I'm letting them down. I don't wish to talk about it ever on this blog. I might have covered it once on this blog already! I'm not going to do that again. I wrote that post like I was never going to do it again, but I have been constantly doing it in real life.
I feel pretty bad about it and need to stop. Actually, I have a small sacrifice while engaging in that action so I have refrained from doing something. This is getting me thinking that I have been so self-absorbed the whole time with this blog.
After all these years, there's still a part of me that I don't want to reveal with the whole world. I'm ashamed and too embarrassed of it. I'm going to try to put an end to it, before it gets too out of hand and like the most important people in the world find out. It would be like I'm letting them down. I don't wish to talk about it ever on this blog. I might have covered it once on this blog already! I'm not going to do that again. I wrote that post like I was never going to do it again, but I have been constantly doing it in real life.
I feel pretty bad about it and need to stop. Actually, I have a small sacrifice while engaging in that action so I have refrained from doing something. This is getting me thinking that I have been so self-absorbed the whole time with this blog.
Not Much Help
I'm falling to prey as a victim of mismanaging my time. There has got to be a way that the Lord intended things to be. Being at service today and listening to the pastor in person was a total blessing for me. I felt closer to how God wants to work in my life.
On top of feeling so annoyed from constantly losing an average of like one friend on Facebook every few months, I guess that's the main thing that bothers me. I'm still functioning by going around bugging those people who did or get around to do it, but I don't really have time to put a lot of focus into them now. What really helps so much is that I don't really care about the consequences anymore. I've gained so much confidence over it. It's like a state of mind that just hits me instantaneously.
Everything just adds up together and then all of a sudden, when you take it in, the information either feels good or bad.
On top of feeling so annoyed from constantly losing an average of like one friend on Facebook every few months, I guess that's the main thing that bothers me. I'm still functioning by going around bugging those people who did or get around to do it, but I don't really have time to put a lot of focus into them now. What really helps so much is that I don't really care about the consequences anymore. I've gained so much confidence over it. It's like a state of mind that just hits me instantaneously.
Everything just adds up together and then all of a sudden, when you take it in, the information either feels good or bad.
Focus Shouldn't Be On Me
When I look at myself, I see a shy and not that very handsome and short person. I am a person who gets away with doing some naughty things too. I'm not going to talk about it because those things aren't a very Christian thing to do. Let's just say, I don't really like using curse words when I'm by myself. I'm catching myself do this, and I need to be all about the Holy Spirit now.
This is a really big challenge for me and it's not something I'm ruling out as impossible for me now. In God, I think anything is possible with Him. I'm sure there has to be an answer to all of my miseries. I'm not that appealing of a person, but I am considered to be rather nice though. Also, actually there are some people I'd really love to be around and feel influenced very well by. I feel like a dork!
I really don't mind people acting so ticked off with me now when I talk to them in person. The situation isn't even that important to get so worked up about now. Those feelings of theirs belong to them and not me, and they are just having trouble managing them because it's annoying them. Maybe they should go see a therapist to help them resolve those problematic feelings.
This is a really big challenge for me and it's not something I'm ruling out as impossible for me now. In God, I think anything is possible with Him. I'm sure there has to be an answer to all of my miseries. I'm not that appealing of a person, but I am considered to be rather nice though. Also, actually there are some people I'd really love to be around and feel influenced very well by. I feel like a dork!
I really don't mind people acting so ticked off with me now when I talk to them in person. The situation isn't even that important to get so worked up about now. Those feelings of theirs belong to them and not me, and they are just having trouble managing them because it's annoying them. Maybe they should go see a therapist to help them resolve those problematic feelings.
Things I Need To Put An End To
I think it's time for me put my full trust in the Lord. I believe that I have been putting too much focus on myself all this time. I think that's probably what's causing me to feel very sad in life. I'm not really established with anything yet either. I'm still like a fresh pup with an aging body. It would be really depressing if I was writing these types of posts at the age of 50. That would really suck!
Anyhow, I don't care about the restraining orders now. It's just a bunch of junk and who cares about that stuff. I have been just getting carried with Magic the Gathering the whole time and playing poker. I've been playing a lot of those two card games lately. I think I need to start prioritizing better.
This is such a challenge for me to break out of this stupid habit of mine. It's a little stressful for me to stay consistent in other words. I need some type of inspiration to get me to my goals.
Anyhow, I don't care about the restraining orders now. It's just a bunch of junk and who cares about that stuff. I have been just getting carried with Magic the Gathering the whole time and playing poker. I've been playing a lot of those two card games lately. I think I need to start prioritizing better.
This is such a challenge for me to break out of this stupid habit of mine. It's a little stressful for me to stay consistent in other words. I need some type of inspiration to get me to my goals.
Back In Church
I am not really anyone special, but what still depresses me is from just feeling all jacked up, along with being a short person. I am really a shallow person on the cover, but don't judge with that criteria for really anything. It's like I am still open to hanging out or helping them out for something with a smile. It feels good to be back in church.
A pastor tried to recruit me and said I belonged at his church. However, I feel like I am a very irritating person and also sensitive, too. I think the biggest shallow thing that bothers my confidence is my perceived lack of height. Despite the bothered feelings, I don't go around breaking things and abusing alcohol to land in jail or something.
A pastor tried to recruit me and said I belonged at his church. However, I feel like I am a very irritating person and also sensitive, too. I think the biggest shallow thing that bothers my confidence is my perceived lack of height. Despite the bothered feelings, I don't go around breaking things and abusing alcohol to land in jail or something.
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