What I said to Betty

I called up Betty right now. She sounded happy and in a good mood. Really pretty underneath, in my opinion. She was stressing with me about something. In case Betty or somebody is interested in hearing what I said, I told her that she could have asked me to clarify and that why would she talk about putting a restraining order on me? I then hung up. I said it so fast, to create an illusion that I said something simple and really well. Well, just so fast and to create a little laughter with the third party and me and possibly with herself.

I guess Betty is really attractive now that I think about it. Hehe. I can look at it as being good in that she was really agitated with me about something. Wow, I made a mistake with my own emotions. I was going some place and leaving the goods behind. I think Betty is a really good person underneath and just felt really tormented about something. This has never happened to me before and it's been a privileged experience for me. Just imagine, you do something to make a pretty girl mad at you and you're just like whatever and then you start caring thinking about her heart towards you. I'm personally glad to have known Betty and for all her charitable deeds. I think she deserves a high class high-five and what's even better is that this vexing guy does not bother me about chasing after Betty- he has a special interest for some other girl who thinks I'm something and just keeps talking about it. Well, if you read the other posts you may find out what I mean. No offense to Annie Tran or any of the sisters I can't really mention- just one of course haha.

Free Time Goals

With the 6 to 2:30 pm window set aside and knowing that I'm going to have some personal flaws to deal with, I guess with the free time that I have I'm pretty much going to set out to be around other people. I don't really feel that bored being around people and it seems to be pretty cool for me. Some of the people I have been around don't really deserve to be around others but they are still human and even though I want to count them as enemies, I should still treat them with love. Maybe for Julio, I should just treat him out because I only want to be giving and then deal with his annoyances naturally. It's a good thing we are never going to get married or anything haha. I sort of like not taking him out to places right now because of all the annoyances he placed with me. Maybe I should just inform him what I could handle while knowing I hold more money than him. haha.

With other goals, I know that I'm a little short so I want to see if I can still boost my body in growth a little more. A friend told me that I could have surgery to get taller but than I don't really want to become that desperate like some insecure individuals going in to get worked on surgically. I would like to feel really healthy in general with my own body and I think that's going to take a lot of research and taking personal notes and really reading up on different things. I also want to have fun learning self-defense and beating the snot out of myself with all those sparring pads on me- pretty fun but tiresome. Maybe I'll get a second degree black belt and then be an assistant instructor and then consensually touch people's arms and elbows haha.

6 to 2:30 Work Hours

A 6 to 2:30 pm time of work is probably considered to be so early for a lot of people but I think it's pretty cool because I'll get to beat the rush hour traffic. Since I currently am self-employed with two restraining orders that don't really count to me because I have proof that they were delusional about stuff, I'm going to just move on now with all that nonsense which made me really angry inside. I didn't blow up and wish that I could but life is moving fairly rapidly for me because I have other things that I have a calling to accomplish.

Because I work on my own, I'm pretty much going to schedule all my self-employed work to be done on a 6 to 2:30 pm window and then afterward, I will have free time to do what I want to do. Because it's really hard for me to be consistent, I'm just going to have accept that fact and be committed to the things that I want to accomplish as like a goal. I'm going to have to just push myself to move forward still and allow time to let me pick up on different tools.

1 out of 6 Have A Mental Disease

I personally have had trouble letting out some very bad personal things about my life because I just have not been wanting to expose the terrible mistakes that I made or the influences that I was a part of. Now that I think about it, it sort of makes me want to feel really sad talking about my horrible past. I guess with my faith growing stronger in the Lord, I think I can share some things about myself and to allow the Holy Spirit to bring me comfort.

I have trouble being very consistent in the beginning. It's one of my downfalls because I give it my all but don't seem to find it initially and need some additional time to be worked on. From trying to be a truck driver to pay off my debt, I drove a truck which is considered to be a very dangerous vehicle to some people and seem to be intimidating. I had trouble improving on the stick shift so I just bargained that I would get some additional road time in to work on it before going for a Class A Road test. I found out that talking to my training buddies and getting information really helped me to succeed in doing some difficult tasks in a fast period of time. Basically, being helped in learning the material really helped me put the stuff together personally and it made me succeed a lot faster. I guess I can do pretty well in study groups then.

What I really need to work on is consistency and to have patience in whatever I am doing. This patience needs to be translated to waiting on the Lord and asking for His guidance and comfort. Growing up, I was diagnosed with bipolar disease because I heard a lot of disruptive voices in my head and it really annoyed me a lot and stressed me out so much. Those voices in my head that sounded real like someone yelling through a tunnel would depress me when it was a negative thought or make me happy when it was positive. My symptoms ended right away through being fortunate and by having the Lord on my side, I was cured and have found relief. The medication I took for only a month really worried my mom and she got me off of it once I showed signs of relief and comfort to her. I was prescribed Risperodol and Prozac. I now hear some comments about Zoloft, but yeah I think I contributed to a highly successful case with Prozac for other patients. I don't recommend seeing a psychiatrist right away if you have very irritating symptoms. So when some of the misled and delusional girls told me to go see a psychiatrist, I think they said that because I was irritating them too much in an absolute crazy way that's never really been heard of and I don't think that's a smart choice for me to go see one just because they act so persistent and passionate about me getting help while sounding pretty agitated about something. Being agitated and trying to recommend me to something especially if you are a woman does not seem to make a breakthrough connection for me. 

Kinda Crazy

I actually noticed that when Washington put a restraining order on me, he still would read my blog posts until I took it down. I then took him to court to get the restraining order off but the judge said that he couldn't do it. I then saw Washington around and even managed to say a word to him while he was smiling at me HAHA and I even touched his shoulder. I remember he was hanging out with Pete at the bowling alley, but when I saw him I was so mad underneath that I did not even say a word to him at the time. I can't believe that I made contact with Washington without being so shy when I saw him show up to a bowling alley which was supposedly the care group. So yeah, I did actually talk to him and it looked like we were getting along. The clerk at the court had said that I could get a restraining order removed if I showed up with Washington and we both signed a paper to get it removed. This is really crazy that a restraining order may not be so bad after all.

I have researched on the civil restraining order because it's been bugging me a lot. I then noticed these words "It's not a really serious court document but can have some serious ramifications." I did know what that meant at the time but it still bugged me a lot. I now understand what it means, as long as I hold to the court's legal proceedings then I avoid being in a whole heck of a lot of trouble. I do not have any problems with that, so it's basically showing to the party who placed it on me that I can actually live up to the restraining order. I could probably force it to end sooner but I don't really think that I need to. I'm seriously a step ahead now and will not hesitate to finish I needed to end a long time ago sooner or later after the restraining order is over. Whether my image is bad with them or not, I just need to be able handle things like a man now. I'm just going to be natural about things and if I get in trouble for it then well, I hope the Lord shows me mercy. 

Alrite let's get this feeling out

I think a pastor of a small church, Hope Church LA which is located in Al Hambra, CA is displaying the characteristics of a coward. This guy's name is Chai so if you see this pretty mellowed out face and might be worn out with having three sons and seems to have messages that are a little hard to pick up on me (my own opinion personally because of the distractions I felt with him) then maybe he might come up to say hi to you or maybe not.

Man, my mom sort of hates Chai right now. Yeah, what's a world without a mother placing full support over a son who can be a smart allelic when it comes to dealing with a stupid restraining order (it does not talk) and harassment by simply yelling at them but chooses not to. I guess I was living too much out of fear and did not raise my voice any sooner so that they could listen to my low-tone crooning voice. That's funny because a high-pitched sound travels better physically than a low-tone so it's like when I was trying to talk normally they really were not paying attention to me. When I yelled, they really heard me and just pretty much went "Okay" and then smile or act weird or something. I seriously hate yelling but when you are in a lot of stupid harassment and a restraining order and some people just can't hear you because they are trying to talk over you, you need to step up your voice a little sometimes or just feel like you are way better than them and move on with your life. I'm trying to be humble here in a very gray area which is not so cut and dry. 

My experiences with job hunting

I was absolutely worried that a restraining order would keep me from finding a job. Man, I don't know what I did to really deserve harassment by Officer Hyunh and his hispanic partner, along with a care group at a small church.

I've been messaging the pastor a lot and I have to admit that I'm not trying to harass him. I'm just trying to be honest about it and it looks like when I raise my voice or show that anticipated aggravation, they pretty much relent. So this means that I am literally going to have to talk to Annie Tran eventually to fully complete the process.

I just did not get any agreement with Annie but I did manage to call up Betty who acted worse and supposedly confirmed by Julio about some situation that I don't even know about. It must be related to some detail in my writing that made them feel depressed. I guess if girls have that type of self-motivation problem then it might be even more painful and stressful to try to stick around them to be of good cheer and help. I think sticking to the truth even though I'm really mad at them over something so little and just repetitiously stating that I want to be good to them and love them is enough to end up being at base, just a friend.

I don't really mind that position. I never fully made it in my head to try to date Annie or Betty because I totally believe in the act of free will and I also have had some strong attractions for another decent woman who I will never name, just to be respectful and not single her out. I pretty much have an utmost desire to enjoy a monotonous relationship with the most beautiful woman on the planet for me.

I can't wait to face Julio

Haha. I'm making a very personalized journal of mine into a very public thing. It's like I have nothing on me that's going to be that useful just that I'm using this to communicate very quietly with strangers who I want to be friends with and try to show consideration for who I really am.

I'm obviously at first glance going to have some posts that are very uncomfortable with me. I'm still going to proceed with being honest about the situation. My real mantra in life when it comes to talking bad about others is to be honest about it to the best of my ability and not be like in a hopeless mood and then make absurd claims that I have to give up on them. I mean if they make some bad decisions then the consequences might be BOOM BOOM or end up in jail but I don't think I'll be supportive of them making those types of decisions and will try to negotiable even if they are terrorists. I'm not going to let them hold people hostage or escape for their crimes but I will surely give them a form of love just to show that humanity can care under the power of God.

So I will be fully honest and avoid negative slurs and also avoid using foul language and maybe at times cover it up while using good vocabulary to get practically the same meaning and a little more across in a good fashioned and down to earth method. That would be pretty cool to be blog about and enjoy myself doing then.

Let's Start With ME

I don't like calling this a ME blog but that's what it practically must be. I keep getting details in my head that I have to filter out, like these bad thoughts that are a part of me that I don't want to let out just to observe self-control and confidence to the best of my ability. I guess I can relate to somebody and listen to their funny comments or be very supportive and hoping for them.

I'm going to writing about how I feel in the process and will be highly honest about the situation. Whatever takes me out of contention for the presidency or a leadership in the future is something I will gain through respect for others, repertoire, a lot of experience, and basically knowing that I'll be the best at the job.
I guess I'm writing about other people with their names attached to it. This makes it very bad to begin with because my comments are on here and to a great degree I've made some progress to be a step ahead of the bad incident and that the little marginal advantage is pretty much enough to satisfy me and make me move on. I keep getting reminders with Julio who I practically drove to get trained to work, tried to help him on getting a modeling career haha, introduced him to people who he calls friends (very shaky understandings), and just practically comes across as being pretty insane to me.

Julio pretty much comes up to me and starts talking about Chris Kuch, how good-looking or sometimes ill-mannered Annie Tran is, and how he has support from the majority of the people at a care group. I've heard the saying that it's not really a care group if they threw you out of the group even if you were displaying very problematic emotions or actions. So almost everybody has laughed at me which I seriously don't mind when I state that I got kicked out of a small church. They ask me what I did and my reply is, I'm not so sure.

They basically said to do something and I did not live up to it with full expectations and then they took legal precautions by trying to cover up a form of harassment with me. I was pretty enraged most of the time with the replies I was getting because it was so frustrating not to get the divine answers that they so claimed to have. What I mean by "Divine answers" is that they claimed to be leaders ordained by God and that they knew what was best for me. By some of them stating that I needed to find professional help, the view pretty much does not hold.

I actually don't mind Julio talking to me about it anymore. Because I'm a step ahead now and have some satiable actions under my belt, I feel like reminiscing over refutable actions that I did to not be bothered by Julio's stupid accusations.

Oops

I have practically gone without a week of typing stuff on this blog. I guess I've been pretty inward the whole time because I have been wanting to keep my life a secret. I guess being so open about bad stuff makes me pretty uncomfortable. I might as well just be blunt and then if there's something wrong with me, then let the caring professionals convince me through analytical details the problems that I have and recommend me some paths that I should take. I think some people make a living off of that and some really enjoy the rewarding challenges of investing a bit of their energy into helping or mentoring people.

I find it to be very difficult on the topic of mentoring people. I just don't see it working for me all the time. It takes a lot of patience but sometimes I feel like I'm dealt with some people who are just not really that appealing and causing more problems for me, like they won't really communicate at a level I personally have a demand for. Maybe, I'm not really cut out to be a coach. I'm going to have to deal with a lot of stuff but I think there's some fun that could come out of literally having a passion for the game and just getting to relax at times.

Some changes need to be made

I've managed to expose the weak frustrated characters of different people now. The majority of people in this world do not seem to mind me. I know how to deal with these few amount of people now. I seriously know now and feel very confident about it. I'm not so nervous or scared about it anymore. You know what, I refuse to be so angry about it too now. I refuse to be very mad to the point that I break my own home's windows with a baseball and excuse myself by saying that I'm an aspiring pitcher. I refuse to be so angry to the point of playing golf in my house and not caring if it travels to hit my old china plates. I refuse to let it get to me now. I refuse in all those things now. I just plainly refuse to lie about stuff too. I refuse to hide the truth and not let it out. I refuse now to be a bad person on rare occasions.  

Dog Fight

My friend has three dogs- two dachsunds and a chubby small terrier. They look so cute, unfortunately, two of the dogs are male and the other is a new comer- a female. The two male dogs are fighting each other over the female. It's so funny because one of the male dogs is very gentle and won't bite and be very docile with everybody. He will whimper for attention. He then starts fighting the other male dog who is the more aggressive dog and ends up beating the snot out of it. It's so funny the chubby small dog just keeps growling and then attacks the dachsund and pins it. My friend told me they fight over the female dog- over who gets to keep her. It's all about the hormones I think. The chubby small dog will forget about fighting when he is at a distance of not seeing the female dog. It's so interesting that all of them are not even fixed, and the female dog has not ever been impregnated. I think the male dogs are too old now and just trying to settle a score of whose the better dog at winning the female dog's attention.

What do I really need to do?

I shared very honestly about my restraining order that was placed on me. I finally understand the neglect that was part of it. I feel that by me not even trying to talk to the other person was more of a neglect because I would think about them rotting temporarily and then I would not be in trouble for bothering other people who were harassing me then right? Wrong, they justified themselves enough to hammer me but they did not leave out the harassing part with me. Harassment can actually be a pretty serious violation; well, if you need the money like I do right now which I would want to obtain with a job and then their harassment led to them calling the cops on you and then you don't even enter jail and then it prohibits you from getting a job, then I think that constitutes to a pretty justifiable law suit against them.

Once again, I have proven that they are wrong about it. I have it underneath me to really get out of these situations and I can utilize my desires very well while trying to be a pretty charitable guy. I think what I could do is obtain just about anything, but I don't want to be selfish about it. I have this confidence now even though I'm short to get whatever I need to get going. It's going to take me a lot of painstaking effort and time, but I don't mind giving it some worthwhile management now. I pretty much know what makes me a jerk and now I can pick it up for myself. The only thing that I feel is the most worthwhile of my whole entire life is spending an eternity worshiping a loving God who created me and experiencing His kindness with me.

What I really missed in life was that people can sometimes be dealing with a hard time that they don't want to relate with you but unfortunately had it fall upon them and it does relate with you and then harass you while they are replying to you and that means there's something that needs to be done to fix it.

I felt really harassed by Washington when he e-mailed back replies because I felt they were pretty enraging. He did not know that he was doing something wrong with me. I kept it hidden from him because I wanted to symbolize being a guy who was not going to complain about it. I then became fed up when he started talking behind a person's back because I felt he was just being full of it. I then wrote a blog post stating how his dad died of cancer and that he must have been stupid for leaving the family to come here. I was sort of joking of course but Washington just could not handle it. I wrote that comment because I wanted to show a little respect to him while curing myself of having to feel angry with Washington.

All my comments were about curing myself by inducing a little laughter to myself inwardly without having to fully make any sense so that I would be cured from feelings of animosity over feeling harassed by an individual. It happened to say that they tried to get rid of me but sort of lost a little bit of themselves in the process. I'm definitely not some guy you just trash talk in the back and then leave behind. I'm someone who can be more than just mistaken for and possibly liked a little better in the end and that can cause a personal ruckus with anybody who was mad at me.

The only fault I had was that I lacked some precision in what I was trying to communicate- that's it! I finally get it.

Another Blog post

I really like writing on this blog to practically talk about nothing. It's just cool to waste a little time. I haven't had so much time to go on this blog and to be very active about the situation. I guess I'm losing a lot of time to blog. I think I may even have to go on a blog posting binge one day just to see the junk that I'm typing up. I may even break each post into just one paragraph just to be funny. Okay I'm just going to talk about anything now and I see that I'm not about going out to commit nasty crimes to hurt myself. Yeah, I could pretend I'm robbing myself and then change into a hypochondriac one day. I think I'll actually pass on that. I was just joking inside of course.

Okay time to write some more. Maybe I could write some good poetry that's easy for everyone to just overlook and be like cool and then they go do their thing. 

I think I've hit a safe haven of writing

It looks like I have developed some sort of appropriateness in writing about anything truthful in this blog here. My style that I have developed is not absolutely perfect in any way, shape, or form. I guess I'm just writing about nothing to keep myself occupied right now.

I bought some growth supplements online awhile back and never tried them because I wanted to save them for optimal growth. I also need to get my car an oil change and also need to give it a better car wash. I guess my life is not really that exciting because I just want to be just plain ordinary about the situation. I don't believe in cursing at anyone neither do I want to be so harassing to others. Maybe that makes me pretty sensitive most of the time, but I've grown a lot of rationality that I sometimes neglected. I should really use it more often instead of just trying to rely on luck so much. It may feel so hard at times and may be like I need to get some professional help. Yeah right, I don't see it that way. I don't need any professional help. I'll be just fine worshiping God.

Am I supposed to be saying what I need to say without approaching them about it?

I have love for those who wronged me

I'm starting to feel this amazing love for those who angered me a lot in the past. Currently, there's one guy who I personally sanctioned myself to not to talk to or hang out with. I feel like we've argued so much and I've been irritated with him that I need to take things a little more cooler with him. I guess I purposed in my heart to separate myself with him for the time being now. I hope our relationship can grow stronger as a result of doing this.

I finally see that I love my little sister a lot. Despite her annoying remarks, I think they are becoming so funny to listen to now. My mom told me that it's because I'm growing up a lot now. I feel like I've not woke up to smell the coffee- that I missed so much out of this life out of wanting petty revenge over nothing. Getting back at others in a nice way may not been so evil and my method has been grown to not be so harassing but still it needs to be worked on by changing these angry feelings with love and affection.

Honestly

I'm starting to get really bored with playing poker. It's just playing cards and there's no harm in wasting a couple bucks over some harmless chatter. What I really want to do is retire early, yeah that would be pretty cool. I want to have priority in my life and constantly occupied with the good things in life. I want to have this joyful life apart from thinking so negatively about life. I really need to focus in and try super hard now. My life is so centered on me trying to break free and becoming a person who is satisfied with everything.

I want to really make things count and really be able to see the big picture on the long run. I think when I was at this small church, I was feeling a little led but not really fed with how I'm supposed to live my life. Maybe there were so many conflicting ideas to the situation that I should not really come back now. I think it's time for me to move on with my life and repent in different areas that I never really felt about before. I do still have good parents living in this household. I could probably try to spend more time with my parents and bond more closer with them. I have a little sister whose sometimes a poor sport, but still I could really love her very much.

I have friends who call me up and ask me how my life is. I should really respond and be out there and seriously make it work for me. I really need to utilize fellowship with God, really center my life on His Word, and seriously allow it to really lead me. I think my life is really centering on changing my life around to live for God now. I really need to maintain a healthy body for myself.

I have so many ideas in my head that I want to try out. I have so many that they are so hard to keep track of. I really need to discipline myself so I can reach this state of satisfaction which is creating these inventions and keeping up with my priorities.

Happy Valentine's Day

What's a blog if the major recognized events are not even written about? I've been doing this for about three years now and I've been basically writing just random stuff dealing with my life. I've been pretty blunt with myself on this blog and I'm finding out that I don't really mean any harm with anybody even if they were pretty mean with me. I guess I don't believe in being evil back with someone who was evil with me.

There are times I can really be pushy but I don't mean to be like that on a permanent basis and I never would want to be not that bad of a person. I guess writing has helped me get through some tough spots, but I'm really trying to set up and make a living for myself right now. I realize that I have some really good friends and that it's okay to deal with the fact that some people make up lies about you and then force you out of their lives. The problem I have with that is if it is affecting my job right now then I really need to counter it so I can keep working and serving others.

Winning At Poker

I have said that poker is a waste of time. I'm starting to realize that my mind is capable of winning at it. I've read up on some tricks and material on how to strategically play and used some of them. They actually work pretty well. When you play poker for a long time, the numbers and figures really matter. It's like running a business- when you know that your investments will make you a positive return it becomes a very good option.

I've been specializing in Omaha Hi/Lo because I like how you also get the option of splitting the pot with another player. It's really not bad for me because I categorize myself as a recreational player who can play well enough to just break even. Some players are negative return players and should never really return to the table. Some players are super good and make so much because they know when to bluff and can manage to find the luck of the draw and also manage their bets very well. Those players should continuously play at tables and make an earning off of it, if they really want to that is. Poker is pretty popular on the online culture these days around the world and so some make it a profession for themselves.

These are the strategies that I've found work quite well for Omaha Hi/Lo. In Omaha, it's all about your starting hands or pre-flop. Omaha plays just like Hold-em, but you play with four pocket cards instead of two. You then get dealt three cards called the flop. Players usually have five options: check, call, raise, re-raise, or fold. To be successful, all of these must be used! Then the turn card is played, after that you get the river. For a total of five cards played, you get what's called the community cards which is what everybody shares. In Hold-em, the best five card hand is made. However, in Omaha you can only use two of your four original cards and also only three of the community cards to make the best hand. If you misinterpret the rules for Omaha Hi/Lo, you may end up regretting it a lot.

I just call with some starting hands, sometimes you have to fold when people keep on re-raising because you have to sometimes believe they are holding better starting hands than you. It's also not also that bad to be the underdog but in figures it's good to not put all your money in the pot for a starting hand you know is not that good compared to the other players. As you keep playing, you may develop this sense that the player has something that works for them; there's a winning repertoire that you have to develop to win at poker. You also have to be prepared to fold the your aces because the flop did not look that good- like three hearts may symbolize someone caught their flush compared to your aces which was very good during pre-flop.

Here's my labeling X means any card, T means ten, J = jack, Q= queen, K= king, and A = ace. Your best starting hands are composed of high double suited pairs like AAKK diamonds hearts or KKQQ clubs spades. They are super good because you get two royal flush draws, two high three-of-a-kind draws, two high straight draw, two high flush draw, and so on. It will most likely add up to the most possible factors in winning the pot at preflop. It's going to be extremely rare to get these hands so it's important to not fold pretty okay hands when you could just call to check the flop. There's also a gambling factor which some people are not comfortable with because you could end up losing your pot that day. It's important to know if you are an average, good, or poor player to make a smart decision for yourself.

It's good to mathematically just minimally call with any two suited cards like two diamonds and two hearts or two clubs and two diamonds and so on. Some hands are weaker than others so you may have to fold pre-flop if it's too much to call. It's best for you to make that type of judgment. It's also good to play with double  connectors which are hands that you will give you two up and down straight draws. Like for example, you hold a A2 34 which have double connectors and then the flop gives you 5 6 3. You now have an up and down straight draw with your 3 4 because you just need a 7 or a 2 to make a straight. On the turn let's say you hit a 4 then you have an up and down with A2 but made the nut straight with 2 3. Note you can only use two of your pocket cards and only three of the community cards. Holding the nuts means that you have the best hand for winning the pot. Example you could have a nut flush if you flop it while holding the ace and something suited. Up and down straight draws are pretty good draws but sometimes you have to watch out for a flush draw like there are two hearts. I generally like nut flush draws on the flop and on the turn. If it's too much it might be best to fold unless you are willing to make that gamble. Some people crank it up so much with flush draws and sometimes it's better to manage your money for another pot because you could still be mathematically an underdog to two pairs, a set (three-of-a-kind), a straight, and so on.

I can also call a minimal raise with a starting hand that holds a possible nut flush draw with an ace like A 9 diamonds. In that case, if you flop three diamonds then you have a great possibility of playing to try to make the most return out of that hand. Someone could also call with a lower flush draw and then they may be unsuspecting of your Ace high flush.

One of the hardest to play with in my opinion is with AA XX. It's so hard to distinguish when it's good with this one because the AA is one of the strongest starting hands in poker. However, it's very common for the aces to not hold up in Omaha. When I have aces for a starting hand, I try to figure out all the combinations of the winning draws. If I see enough, then I pretty much crank up the pot and hope for the best. It does deserve to see the flop in most cases.

In Omaha Hi/Lo, it's generally agreed upon that AA2X double suited is one of the most powerful starting hands. I can also pretty much call anything with A2 pre-flop in Omaha Hi/Lo. If you play just Omaha and not with the low then you will probably never split the winning pot. Anyway, if you finished this post which is just one of my thoughts then I wish you the best of luck if you decide to try out poker. It's good to read up a lot on the subject and to be comfortable with losing some hands to people who just got the better draw. The figures do work out in the end but everybody is going to lose at poker so that's what makes poker an intriguing topic in how some people just stay on the profitable margin. I'm just someone who can break even so I just play for fun and not going to come even close to killing myself with a million dollars on the line in poker.

Road Runner Plan Turbo

The Timer Warner field guy came over today and helped me hook up the internet which is pretty fast compared to my last DSL subscription that I had at my old home. They said that if you pay about $10 more per month then you can have a faster internet connection. When I ran the download speed test, my connection came up to about 16 Mbps and upto 1 Mbps upload. That's not bad compared to what I'm used to getting. It's almost twice as faster than my previous connection. It's pretty nice even for a wireless connection. I guess the technology for the internet is getting faster and more affordable these days. I would really like to enter into a career dealing with computers and namely I'm thinking that dealing with network engineering technology would actually be a great career path for me.

For some reason, my mind just keeps getting smarter when it comes to dealing with people. I still want to retain my own personal identity and not be in the way of someone's development. I guess I will never be able to pride myself in being a jerk to someone. It's just not how I grew up; I care about it when I think I hurt someone's feelings even if it was not intentional. It was never even in my interest to do things to get a restraining order from a girl who I did not even touch or get a chance to know or even share a large portion of my life with. I'm fairly confident now that as long as I stay off her property, I'll have a great chance of getting it revoked and being able to work for a good company again. I think that she sort of liked me too and I pretty much had no problems seeing her as just an average friend. Oh well, things can go bust in life sometimes but in the end, what you learned out of it and gained something positive from it is more important than seeing the glass half-empty.