Today marks the last working day of the month for me- that is pretty much my day job. I do have a few birthdays coming up and want to plan something special for them. They belong to a couple of my favorite ladies so it does make sense. I haven't really been hanging out with guys too often but there's one guy I hang out with to go to a theme park consistently to ride the biggest roller coasters out there in the world- Six Flags Magic Mountain. There's another guy I'm high school buddies with who I think is a loser and tell him such on texts all the time.
I pretty much have fewer guy friends that I keep in contact with than ladies. I feel pretty content but I want to find the hot and right lady for me to marry. Fortunately, I've hung out with that one friend who I think is the type I want to marry. She's dating someone else right now, but I don't really mind to be honest. It feels good just to feel that positive energy that cares and having a fond memory while just hanging out a few times. I just have to look for someone better and has a personality like hers then and I should be golden which is pretty sad but true.
I'm surprised that with the little amount of effort I put in with trading that it reaped benefits for me this month. I'm going to keep it up and hopefully it will last. I'm trying to get back into working out so it's always these minor details that I forget about and entertaining distractions that keep me from going. I need to realize that when I'm having fun, time is going to fly by fast and keep me from getting my hard stuff out of the way. Let's see how I do during the weekend. Peace everybody and thanks for caring to even read whoever you are. Curious and/or friendly or mortally sworn enemy, thanks.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Friday, June 28, 2019
Doing Business For Fun
I went to a business meeting yesterday and met two Asian ladies who are a bit older than me. They are trying to sell products from rebranding them and customizing the basic cheap part to consumers. I thought it was fun to be a part of. They were still looking for a name, so I ended up coming up with titles of company names throughout the whole meeting and a name landed that one of them liked right at the end.
I do have an interest for becoming a product manager for video games, but this business isn't going to based off of that. Still, I think it will be good experience and also fun to do something and try to make money off of it. I noticed that these ladies are not that hot as they used to be, but I was completely fine with it and didn't care about being friendly to them. They are both married already, and I'm not really showing romantic signs of interest with them so they ended up patting me on the back. Even if I did, they would find it weird so I'm not going there ever and they would still pat me on the back while hugging if they had the courage for it.
I understand the whole patting thing and it hurts sometimes to get it from ladies. I don't really show it so much anymore while tearing up underneath but it's all good. This one lady is really affectionate and she is a great friend and has a fiancée who probably has to deal with us being that close and occasionally flirtatious for giggles. It's interesting because the lady I'm interested in right now doesn't even hug me with a pat on the back, but is also affectionate- pretty crazy!
I do have an interest for becoming a product manager for video games, but this business isn't going to based off of that. Still, I think it will be good experience and also fun to do something and try to make money off of it. I noticed that these ladies are not that hot as they used to be, but I was completely fine with it and didn't care about being friendly to them. They are both married already, and I'm not really showing romantic signs of interest with them so they ended up patting me on the back. Even if I did, they would find it weird so I'm not going there ever and they would still pat me on the back while hugging if they had the courage for it.
I understand the whole patting thing and it hurts sometimes to get it from ladies. I don't really show it so much anymore while tearing up underneath but it's all good. This one lady is really affectionate and she is a great friend and has a fiancée who probably has to deal with us being that close and occasionally flirtatious for giggles. It's interesting because the lady I'm interested in right now doesn't even hug me with a pat on the back, but is also affectionate- pretty crazy!
Nice Achievement
I'm ending this month on the positive side with practicing my trading skills with a financial market. I think I became lucky from reacquainting myself with a moving average that is catered for beginners of the market. I'm also topping it off with the local maximum of an ATR range to minimize acceptable stop-loss so I can scale my trades with gaining bigger profit in mind.
I have also been using this formulaic calculation for keeping track of market ranges. It's similar to Fibonacci pivots and don't know too much about it, but it's been working for me to model trades off of with decent reliability. I like it for myself so far, and it's been keeping me out of some trades I feel would be too risky and helping out with selecting the more premium trades for me. It's pretty cool.
Thirdly, I'm using a proprietary indicator that's based off of stochastic moving averages which measures the highs and lows of the market. It's again just a guideline that I use to model off my trades and look for a nice trend to ride. The creator gave it the name price action, but I see it more as if there's possibility with movement for bigger gains. It can still hang on the high and low side while the market keeps on dipping or rising, but just getting in before it hits the extreme sides has given me good results. If I get in after it hits, I have had some losses so I have something to model off of now.
Lastly, I have been a student of Japanese candlesticks for awhile and just keep it simple with looking for engulfing and encapsulating candles on the timeframes I'm trading to keep track of the current market. I just assume the market has changed and act accordingly to take a smaller loss if I'm still in it or take a profit regardless of how much I make. I'm totally like a robot with this and sometimes I regret not checking the market sooner when I could have noticed this happening and take advantage. I must be doing something right then and now I have a trading system that I just need to tweak around for two more months and hopefully I won't have to start all over.
I have also been using this formulaic calculation for keeping track of market ranges. It's similar to Fibonacci pivots and don't know too much about it, but it's been working for me to model trades off of with decent reliability. I like it for myself so far, and it's been keeping me out of some trades I feel would be too risky and helping out with selecting the more premium trades for me. It's pretty cool.
Thirdly, I'm using a proprietary indicator that's based off of stochastic moving averages which measures the highs and lows of the market. It's again just a guideline that I use to model off my trades and look for a nice trend to ride. The creator gave it the name price action, but I see it more as if there's possibility with movement for bigger gains. It can still hang on the high and low side while the market keeps on dipping or rising, but just getting in before it hits the extreme sides has given me good results. If I get in after it hits, I have had some losses so I have something to model off of now.
Lastly, I have been a student of Japanese candlesticks for awhile and just keep it simple with looking for engulfing and encapsulating candles on the timeframes I'm trading to keep track of the current market. I just assume the market has changed and act accordingly to take a smaller loss if I'm still in it or take a profit regardless of how much I make. I'm totally like a robot with this and sometimes I regret not checking the market sooner when I could have noticed this happening and take advantage. I must be doing something right then and now I have a trading system that I just need to tweak around for two more months and hopefully I won't have to start all over.
Positive Outcomes
I'm realizing that I don't really need to look at porno anymore. It's been mainly for entertainment of staying turned on whenever I've been curious about how my naïve parts work. I still feel that way to this day because I haven't been with any woman. I've been somewhat a student of it from reading up on some naughty material. I'm also very prudish and won't ever be cool doing it with just any lady which is pretty atypical for guys I think. I'm not definitely without any interest and totally want to experience it someday with a special woman after I marry her. I don't know the exact label to give myself except that I think I'm very different to most Christian guys and also worldly guys. I think I'll really be in the mood for it a lot if the wife ends up enjoying it a lot and hopefully, I'll meet her someday to go on very fun dates.
In the meantime, I just want to make myself financially successful and also go hit the gym to look sexier for building tons of confidence. There are plenty of cool ladies out there which I can't deny, so becoming a less shallow person has been challenging and so far, I'm just weighing the lady's personality type and life-style choices. I really might be open to dating this one lady I'm friends with someday. I think if I end up falling in love and bonding well with a lady then it's not really going to matter so much with the physical attraction I usually obsess about in ladies and just be like in the mood for it often.
Thursday, June 27, 2019
Taking Proper Action
Life is sometimes hard because a lot of things can happen. For me, it's been pretty smooth and I think the reason why I'm not gaining in some areas like finding a girlfriend is that I'm not taking enough action to get there. First off, I still lack a lot of personal confidence and feel like building more. I want to grow in my career while also being a super fit guy at the gym. I think I'll know when I feel really good about myself and have this knack or ability to lead a great life while attending to the needs of the wife.
The thing is I feel like I already could with the right woman, but I don't feel quite ready to go searching for her. If I get lucky with her just showing up in my life and she wants to make herself available for me, then yeah, it will be so awesome. What's really distracting me is my current living conditions. It's pretty stable, but I don't like that I'm living with my parents and paying them rent to live in their comfortable mansion-like home. It's really nice and built well for parties and my friends have enjoyed coming over. They ask about throwing another party that I haven't done in years because of my parents living there.
I think it's materialistic wealth and seeking after personal comforts that's really distracting me from going out to find a girlfriend. Being with the wrong girl can be such a hassle and I can tell this from being close friends with a lady who isn't my type. I honestly feel like I'm stuck with her sometimes, but I'm still treating her nicely like my younger sister. I even occasionally flirt to mess around with her and she always gets offended too, so I guess it's never going to work out between us. How funny is that though?
The thing is I feel like I already could with the right woman, but I don't feel quite ready to go searching for her. If I get lucky with her just showing up in my life and she wants to make herself available for me, then yeah, it will be so awesome. What's really distracting me is my current living conditions. It's pretty stable, but I don't like that I'm living with my parents and paying them rent to live in their comfortable mansion-like home. It's really nice and built well for parties and my friends have enjoyed coming over. They ask about throwing another party that I haven't done in years because of my parents living there.
I think it's materialistic wealth and seeking after personal comforts that's really distracting me from going out to find a girlfriend. Being with the wrong girl can be such a hassle and I can tell this from being close friends with a lady who isn't my type. I honestly feel like I'm stuck with her sometimes, but I'm still treating her nicely like my younger sister. I even occasionally flirt to mess around with her and she always gets offended too, so I guess it's never going to work out between us. How funny is that though?
Giving It My All With Courage
I think one of my minor complexes I have been dealing with all along is that I'm afraid of failing after spending so much time while labeling all of it as a waste of time in the end. It's been scary to act on haunches and personal drives at times. It was even worse while I was so mad with a few individuals over really nothing. I wanted to act it all out that was playing in my head, but I held back from being afraid of something more personal.
It's now time for me to put it all behind me and consider myself lucky that I'm thinking really brightly about how to manage kiddie stuff with a few individuals who bother me sometimes. I think people just get sick of it after awhile and naturally get mad if they can't really do anything about it and just keeps on bothering them. They can start acting all weird about it.
Overall, I'm just really sure of myself now and can work really hard at it while in the moment and being the most competitive I can be. I may be still scared underneath, but I'm not going to give it all up while feeling so stressed out or angry.
It's now time for me to put it all behind me and consider myself lucky that I'm thinking really brightly about how to manage kiddie stuff with a few individuals who bother me sometimes. I think people just get sick of it after awhile and naturally get mad if they can't really do anything about it and just keeps on bothering them. They can start acting all weird about it.
Overall, I'm just really sure of myself now and can work really hard at it while in the moment and being the most competitive I can be. I may be still scared underneath, but I'm not going to give it all up while feeling so stressed out or angry.
Working On Myself
Lately, I think it's just the mindset and putting in the effort with the smart actions that go along with it. What I'm missing is not jumping into swiftly with what I'm feeling a little bad about not having done yesterday. I believe I could seriously train myself to make it work better.
I feel sheepish about giving into my hobbies a lot lately, so this is probably the main reason why I eventually gave up with being addicted to video games. I wasn't feeling satisfied with it even though it was fun and easy to dwell in. I need to fix it by just living with the feelings that are stressful sometimes and think positive while accepting them and letting it all resolve in time. I know I could do a lot better for myself, and I'm just going to have to start making small noticeable changes with myself.
Need To Initiate Better
I'm realizing that I'm really slow to act right after I get out of a long day of work. It's true that this is probably the case for the majority of people, but I feel like doing something I'm more in tune to so I will have to work for it. My disadvantage is that I can't stop myself from falling asleep and blacking out for the whole night.
Yesterday, I ended up reading about professional MLB and NBA teams and the transactions they are going through, so this must mean I'm a fan and I was watching YouTube clips throughout the whole night. I guess it would be fine and dandy if I didn't have other stuff bugging me to get done first.
My soul just doesn't feel at rest from how it is and living with my aging parents and arguing with them about how they should still be able to do things they did while they were younger. I want to progress further with my career and make lots of money and just have free time to build my confidence and then go find myself a great girlfriend to marry soon. It's tough for me so far and I'm still relaxing and thinking positive. I just need to get away from my hobbies and set them aside to do the priorities my soul feels is better even if it stresses me out. I would rather make some progress besides sticking to the same old schedule of hobbies.
I really need to utilize my time better and make some adjustments to feel more comfortable.
Yesterday, I ended up reading about professional MLB and NBA teams and the transactions they are going through, so this must mean I'm a fan and I was watching YouTube clips throughout the whole night. I guess it would be fine and dandy if I didn't have other stuff bugging me to get done first.
My soul just doesn't feel at rest from how it is and living with my aging parents and arguing with them about how they should still be able to do things they did while they were younger. I want to progress further with my career and make lots of money and just have free time to build my confidence and then go find myself a great girlfriend to marry soon. It's tough for me so far and I'm still relaxing and thinking positive. I just need to get away from my hobbies and set them aside to do the priorities my soul feels is better even if it stresses me out. I would rather make some progress besides sticking to the same old schedule of hobbies.
I really need to utilize my time better and make some adjustments to feel more comfortable.
Playing Catch Up
Well, I neglected being away from my blog for awhile and now, I'm starting to wake up and smell the coffee. Some people just struggle with being a friend even if it's over complete nonsense that drove them away! Oh well, it's life and I'm gaining more tolerance out of it and actually quite happy that I'm under control and not needing to act out over stuff that makes me angry. It's really hard but I guess in the end it's about picking your battles.
Something that's been playing a role for me now and another thinking tool that's been helpful for me personally is proving stuff logically by using contradicting statements. It's from assuming how a person is a certain way and then coming up with anything to prove that position is false. It works out quite nicely. I used it while working with one of my bumbling managers. I assumed that he knows how to do his job. He ended up contradicting his own statements that really ticked me off, but I realized from assuming he knows how to do his job, why would he do that if he knew how to do his job? Therefore, he doesn't know how to do his job fully and it's a fact I proved from using contradiction.
It feels a lot better and that's for sure so I don't have to go off feeling constantly angry at this dumb manager sometimes. This is a real life application of using the induction method to prove things and it's quite practical. It's something students of Computer Science have to study in order to graduate, and I thought it was a cruel thing to learn in the beginning.
Something that's been playing a role for me now and another thinking tool that's been helpful for me personally is proving stuff logically by using contradicting statements. It's from assuming how a person is a certain way and then coming up with anything to prove that position is false. It works out quite nicely. I used it while working with one of my bumbling managers. I assumed that he knows how to do his job. He ended up contradicting his own statements that really ticked me off, but I realized from assuming he knows how to do his job, why would he do that if he knew how to do his job? Therefore, he doesn't know how to do his job fully and it's a fact I proved from using contradiction.
It feels a lot better and that's for sure so I don't have to go off feeling constantly angry at this dumb manager sometimes. This is a real life application of using the induction method to prove things and it's quite practical. It's something students of Computer Science have to study in order to graduate, and I thought it was a cruel thing to learn in the beginning.
Friday, June 21, 2019
Little Progress From Yesterday
Yesterday I talked about how I had trouble overcoming my sleepiness issues by knocking out on my chair in my room. I managed to overcome this a little by watching something that excited me and I finally managed to take a shower because I literally had to! Well, it's been like almost two months already and I was really in the mood for looking at porno for something and man, it disappointed me again! I think I really need to find a good partner who I'm in love with and looking to marry and wants to do it with me a lot!
Okay, so it felt like all those sexy body shapes with girls are nice and all, but it feels empty without the love and substance of really knowing the lady. If she's some image on the Internet, there's no fun in it. If I see her in person and don't even approach her, what's the point of even following her around like a stalker and waste so much time when that could go into spending time with finding someone else who happens to like you? I don't really get it but there must be something not working in the head sometimes. I have my fair share of people accusing me of being crazy because they were just flat out mad while doing something to them, but I was able to hold my peace and overcome them.
A lot of this is really getting to know yourself, so I learned that abstaining from trying to simulate making babies with watching porno doesn't really increase any output even after spending time away from it. It's almost like the same amount regardless. It's just that it doesn't feel right without a loving and understanding wife to enjoy doing the deed with several times a week maybe.
I'm a guy so I'm naturally aware of what's trying to turn me on, but it's different from considering if she's actually the right person for me. From left to right, beautiful women just exist and I'm happy to be single and not feel guilty right now. There's plenty of brain power and morality I'm using here to go out and meet this sexy and right gal for me.
Okay, so it felt like all those sexy body shapes with girls are nice and all, but it feels empty without the love and substance of really knowing the lady. If she's some image on the Internet, there's no fun in it. If I see her in person and don't even approach her, what's the point of even following her around like a stalker and waste so much time when that could go into spending time with finding someone else who happens to like you? I don't really get it but there must be something not working in the head sometimes. I have my fair share of people accusing me of being crazy because they were just flat out mad while doing something to them, but I was able to hold my peace and overcome them.
A lot of this is really getting to know yourself, so I learned that abstaining from trying to simulate making babies with watching porno doesn't really increase any output even after spending time away from it. It's almost like the same amount regardless. It's just that it doesn't feel right without a loving and understanding wife to enjoy doing the deed with several times a week maybe.
I'm a guy so I'm naturally aware of what's trying to turn me on, but it's different from considering if she's actually the right person for me. From left to right, beautiful women just exist and I'm happy to be single and not feel guilty right now. There's plenty of brain power and morality I'm using here to go out and meet this sexy and right gal for me.
Thursday, June 20, 2019
Follow Up From Yesterday
Yesterday, I went to another meetup that was about how to keep a sharp brain. It was a highly technical lecture that the speaker crammed all into one discussion under two hours. She started rushing it a lot, but what I learned is that it takes proper exercise, diet, and stress management to keep the brain functioning healthy. It was located somewhere in downtown LA and I parked at a Trader Joe store and was surprised by the great amount of physically attractive ladies who shop there!
Even when I walked out in the streets to get to the building, I spotted a few hot girls walking around. Man, they are all over the place in LA. This doesn't really make me feel so bad about getting rejected or feeling stuck with girls I'm friends with now! I can just cruise along and confidently wait for the right moment to happen with the hot girl who is just right for me. Yeah, I feel happy to be single and to be able to keep on looking. It's just this confidence that was flowing in me yesterday, and underneath I was thinking to myself, "Wow, look at all this opportunity in the heart of downtown LA with several hot girls around to try to find the right one for me."
After getting back home, I ended up just sitting at my desk trying to push my tired mind into action. I didn't end up doing my usual routine this time with surfing the web and watching entertainment. I still knocked out on my chair! I'm getting roughly six and a half hours of sleep when I do, so I guess I have time this event for myself now. I could probably make my morning routine a lot faster and get more sleep time in if I take a shower before sleeping. I guess I should be getting ready to hit the sack by 9 or 10ish and then wake up around 0430 to 0500 the next day. I'll just look to make a simple routine out of it even if it's killing me!
Even when I walked out in the streets to get to the building, I spotted a few hot girls walking around. Man, they are all over the place in LA. This doesn't really make me feel so bad about getting rejected or feeling stuck with girls I'm friends with now! I can just cruise along and confidently wait for the right moment to happen with the hot girl who is just right for me. Yeah, I feel happy to be single and to be able to keep on looking. It's just this confidence that was flowing in me yesterday, and underneath I was thinking to myself, "Wow, look at all this opportunity in the heart of downtown LA with several hot girls around to try to find the right one for me."
After getting back home, I ended up just sitting at my desk trying to push my tired mind into action. I didn't end up doing my usual routine this time with surfing the web and watching entertainment. I still knocked out on my chair! I'm getting roughly six and a half hours of sleep when I do, so I guess I have time this event for myself now. I could probably make my morning routine a lot faster and get more sleep time in if I take a shower before sleeping. I guess I should be getting ready to hit the sack by 9 or 10ish and then wake up around 0430 to 0500 the next day. I'll just look to make a simple routine out of it even if it's killing me!
Wednesday, June 19, 2019
Still Missing Few Things
I pretty much went to a meetup yesterday that talked about how to be a successful product manager. It was a great discussion and the speaker pretty much said you have to be competent at it from doing your homework and also managing great relationships with the staff and customers. This is pretty much the main takeaway I got from it.
Once I came back home, I sat at the couch where my dad was watching some Korean movie I thought was boring, so I got up and went to my room. I was starving after the meeting, so I snacked on some ice cream and then surfed the web with reading up about this Anime I'm currently hooked on and watching YouTube clips about NBA legends. I thought looking at that stuff wasn't going to hurt me, but then I became really tired and started sleeping while sitting on my chair. This has become a habit that I'm getting tired of.
I need to find some way to keep pushing myself even though I'm really sleepy and get my tasks done. I guess it would be easier if I just manned up and did the boring and hard stuff that I need to do first and get it out of the way. I think I could give my life to boredom and constant agony of being pestered with wanting something so badly that's out of reach and just work on it while feeling all that burn and just keep going at it while knowing this is what I want to do in the end anyway. I can focus with playing on Friday to Sunday. Therefore, I have to give my work focus four days and then the rest will be party time for me with whatever I want to do, and I will worry about how to do fun things to be happy and manage that problem in the meantime as well.
Tuesday, June 18, 2019
Things To Add In Or Fix With Current Situation
Right now, I definitely know what I feel inspired with doing. It's crazy because one of my dumb goals is to be a medical practitioner someday while paying for my own medical school and then volunteering while not receiving any pay for it! Yes, I'm that interested in helping out and it's not about the money for me. I want to earn all the money I need from being successful trading in financial markets and doing it with a swing trading and investor's mentality. It means that I don't have to be constantly monitoring several charts and skimming through updated news on the other monitor even though I find it to be more fun these days than stressful. It sucks when you're losing but that's where confidence plays a role and for me, I don't want to be there when I'm going to have a losing trade and just collect my winnings like it was done automatically. This is how I feel from doing the long term investing modes.
It's cool I know and a lot of people are into it, I know. Guys with my similar attitude approach me and talk to me about it. I can only share so much you know and it's a competition after all to hog all the money, so helping a little guy out with just a few tips here and there help reinforce the brain with sound techniques that have to be done in order to keep on winning all that money! It's common sense with the way I'm also acting, and I even blew off a guy too who was about trying to make me encourage others to be lazy and make me feel like they are my boss. I'm not having it and making them work for the money, if they want in so badly. I'm also a highly competitive person when I get angry so yeah, I'll be nice and law-abiding citizen - yeah right, if I can't get away with it and keep staring at all those cops and everybody else who gets on my bad side with dirty looks they don't want to see from me.
What I need to add in is maintaining all of my bills. I'm skipping just the minor ones like monthly memberships for gyms right now and amusement parks. I need to get that settled. I guess it's common to miss out on those payments and happens to be honest. I also need to complete my car registration. I still haven't got that out of the way. It's just catching up with bills pretty much. That's the only thing I really need to work on to keep it going.
I also need to complete the computer courses I paid for now. There's no refund from them, and I'm heavily interested in them so would be dumb to keep on procrastinating with having fun even though it feels like a contradiction. I guess I'll have to be manly here because I do want to earn more and move out of my parent's comfortable mansion by going to some place better and start laughing at them when I pick up a girlfriend who isn't the race they want me to marry. I'll still be laughing if I get the race they want but she might not be the type they want me to marry.
It's cool I know and a lot of people are into it, I know. Guys with my similar attitude approach me and talk to me about it. I can only share so much you know and it's a competition after all to hog all the money, so helping a little guy out with just a few tips here and there help reinforce the brain with sound techniques that have to be done in order to keep on winning all that money! It's common sense with the way I'm also acting, and I even blew off a guy too who was about trying to make me encourage others to be lazy and make me feel like they are my boss. I'm not having it and making them work for the money, if they want in so badly. I'm also a highly competitive person when I get angry so yeah, I'll be nice and law-abiding citizen - yeah right, if I can't get away with it and keep staring at all those cops and everybody else who gets on my bad side with dirty looks they don't want to see from me.
What I need to add in is maintaining all of my bills. I'm skipping just the minor ones like monthly memberships for gyms right now and amusement parks. I need to get that settled. I guess it's common to miss out on those payments and happens to be honest. I also need to complete my car registration. I still haven't got that out of the way. It's just catching up with bills pretty much. That's the only thing I really need to work on to keep it going.
I also need to complete the computer courses I paid for now. There's no refund from them, and I'm heavily interested in them so would be dumb to keep on procrastinating with having fun even though it feels like a contradiction. I guess I'll have to be manly here because I do want to earn more and move out of my parent's comfortable mansion by going to some place better and start laughing at them when I pick up a girlfriend who isn't the race they want me to marry. I'll still be laughing if I get the race they want but she might not be the type they want me to marry.
Plans For Marriage
It looks like a lot of times my thoughts of getting married was really hyped up and I had to deal with a major complex that I was born with. My parents can't really do anything about it, and no matter how hard they tried it still does play a factor. I'm seen upon honestly as a pretty good guy but it can be seen as weird for my appearance because there are plenty of shallow people in this world and even though most of them aren't going that far to keep up in this lifetime, it still plays a role in how they judge others and most likely hoping for themselves, they want to hang on to some influence. I'm quite good at proving people wrong and not necessarily with only the shallow ones. On occasions, I have put them up to challenges they have failed to follow through with, after I decided to hold back on it from not feeling right for a long time about many things.
It's weird in that I was on cruise control for most of those years while I was holding back and not feeling sure about stuff. Gosh, it's so annoying and wants to drive you crazy or that's how it was for my personality. Along with that, I had a complex from being physically short all my life compared to everybody else. My parents couldn't do anything about it, no matter what they said, I was never satisfied. They don't consider themselves to be top class and they do have some oddities for the most part or that's how I feel about them at least. They weren't great leaders with me for the most part because they were focused on other stuff and somewhere along the lines, decided to let me figure out my own life.
Well, I'm still living with my occasionally crazy parents. I'm a work in progress and this is what's keeping me from settling down. The easiest thing would be to find a Korean chick with a lifestyle and desires I'm dramatically into and also finds me hot enough to enjoy lots of it! I get along with girls easily- it's just that I'm not sure about committing to any of them so far because of a few noticeable flaws or the intangibles keep on getting to me. Wow, I kept on having some nice opportunities and it's something I can laugh about now from getting over my complexes as I keep on aging by living my life while working at thinking normally these days. I might have another good one right now even, how cool and funny is that!
It's weird in that I was on cruise control for most of those years while I was holding back and not feeling sure about stuff. Gosh, it's so annoying and wants to drive you crazy or that's how it was for my personality. Along with that, I had a complex from being physically short all my life compared to everybody else. My parents couldn't do anything about it, no matter what they said, I was never satisfied. They don't consider themselves to be top class and they do have some oddities for the most part or that's how I feel about them at least. They weren't great leaders with me for the most part because they were focused on other stuff and somewhere along the lines, decided to let me figure out my own life.
Well, I'm still living with my occasionally crazy parents. I'm a work in progress and this is what's keeping me from settling down. The easiest thing would be to find a Korean chick with a lifestyle and desires I'm dramatically into and also finds me hot enough to enjoy lots of it! I get along with girls easily- it's just that I'm not sure about committing to any of them so far because of a few noticeable flaws or the intangibles keep on getting to me. Wow, I kept on having some nice opportunities and it's something I can laugh about now from getting over my complexes as I keep on aging by living my life while working at thinking normally these days. I might have another good one right now even, how cool and funny is that!
Anime Watching Hobbies
It looks like I'm a total sucker for watching anime that's about action-packed fighting with humans in mechs. Along with that, the story of an ordinary and nice guy who just got lucky and commands the attention of a really pretty and unique love interest keeps watching the episodes so fun and moving it along. Anime can be a very creative art form and explore different types of good and bad people who are out there, even though it's all fantasy. It's funny that you can learn a few things off of it and even relate the personality of a character to someone you know in real life.
I mean it would be cool if I could mix all pleasure with work, but I also have other interests in life and if I don't put my attention to those things then I'll be missing out on opportunities to make easy money. It's good that I don't have a lot on the line for me right now and that I'm feeling the tension from practicing like it's some sort of game and trying to win at it.
The real world situation is that I'm a pretty nice guy and nowhere near the ordinary person in this world we were supposed to turn out to be. I guess that's why it makes sense I don't have a girlfriend and get along with only certain types of people. Putting myself out there, it's been fun and I still have yet to make a move with dating the right person. I think I may have found them already several times, but it turns out that I just wait too long all the time. I'll explore more about this on my next post.
I mean it would be cool if I could mix all pleasure with work, but I also have other interests in life and if I don't put my attention to those things then I'll be missing out on opportunities to make easy money. It's good that I don't have a lot on the line for me right now and that I'm feeling the tension from practicing like it's some sort of game and trying to win at it.
The real world situation is that I'm a pretty nice guy and nowhere near the ordinary person in this world we were supposed to turn out to be. I guess that's why it makes sense I don't have a girlfriend and get along with only certain types of people. Putting myself out there, it's been fun and I still have yet to make a move with dating the right person. I think I may have found them already several times, but it turns out that I just wait too long all the time. I'll explore more about this on my next post.
Friday, June 14, 2019
Knowing What You Want
Well, this blog has turned into something personal where I'm just sharing things that I would feel comfortable about while having some anonymity. I don't think I'm really that controversial though because I'm always trying to go for some decency. I'm going to share what I know that I want with myself so far. It's really that simple.
I would like to finish up my online classes for becoming a software engineer and to manage projects effectively while being creative and giving the customers what they want. I'm also trying to get stronger by learning more about investing. My swing trading has been looking good so far this month. It's two weeks in a row with profiting and it looks like I could be netting a three months showing sooner or later. What's cool is that the way I'm modeling my trades so far has been working the majority of time and bringing in a decent chunk of change. I'm pretty excited and want to do more eventually by learning to trade also other financial markets like stocks and options.
On top of getting going with my ideal way of making a living, I would like to be pretty athletic like have a nice six pack with some muscles and practically a masculine beach body I would be happy and also end up with a decent and physically attractive lady or just beautiful to me in general- doesn't matter how as long as I'm happy. There is a lady I'm friends with and seriously enjoy as a person and it doesn't have anything to do with her outward appearance and I might be feeling it with wanting to go all the way with her and be so passionate in the relationship too.
I would like to top off my time with also spending it with nice friends and even having room to meet more of those nice people and to even hang out and have good laughs or some fun. I definitely need to build a lot of confidence in myself so I'm going to have to hit the gym more often and start cooking more. Basically, be adept at all the little things that make me a bigger man and also some things I think ladies like and can personally handle. The Bible is also always going to be a part of my life. I'm listening to it with an app and has cool music and Hollywood actors reading the passages. It's beautifully acted, but I'm still not paying attention to it and thinking about my own stuff that makes me happy. I mean I get carried away but it's something I'm going to have to just deal with.
I would like to finish up my online classes for becoming a software engineer and to manage projects effectively while being creative and giving the customers what they want. I'm also trying to get stronger by learning more about investing. My swing trading has been looking good so far this month. It's two weeks in a row with profiting and it looks like I could be netting a three months showing sooner or later. What's cool is that the way I'm modeling my trades so far has been working the majority of time and bringing in a decent chunk of change. I'm pretty excited and want to do more eventually by learning to trade also other financial markets like stocks and options.
On top of getting going with my ideal way of making a living, I would like to be pretty athletic like have a nice six pack with some muscles and practically a masculine beach body I would be happy and also end up with a decent and physically attractive lady or just beautiful to me in general- doesn't matter how as long as I'm happy. There is a lady I'm friends with and seriously enjoy as a person and it doesn't have anything to do with her outward appearance and I might be feeling it with wanting to go all the way with her and be so passionate in the relationship too.
I would like to top off my time with also spending it with nice friends and even having room to meet more of those nice people and to even hang out and have good laughs or some fun. I definitely need to build a lot of confidence in myself so I'm going to have to hit the gym more often and start cooking more. Basically, be adept at all the little things that make me a bigger man and also some things I think ladies like and can personally handle. The Bible is also always going to be a part of my life. I'm listening to it with an app and has cool music and Hollywood actors reading the passages. It's beautifully acted, but I'm still not paying attention to it and thinking about my own stuff that makes me happy. I mean I get carried away but it's something I'm going to have to just deal with.
Tuesday, June 11, 2019
I See My Issue
It's always been a part of me, but I have a hard time focusing because I always want to have fun. If it's my time to study, I'm just thinking about other things and wanting to procrastinate the whole time. From reading my last post, it says that it's just being done for the short run, so what I really struggle with is being positive and committed to personal discipline. I should just keep on going with it until something comes up or bumps me along to another path.
I'm going to just live for being positive about my aspirations and keep going at it even if I feel lazy about it. There's always a next time with reading stuff on the Internet or watching movies and TV, even if it's not going to be in the preferred outlet. Overall, it's all about just being positive and sticking to something that I want to experience in the end after all of that grinding takes place. It's about having self-discipline and by knowing myself, all my anger is really rooted with being my competitive drive.
I'm going to just live for being positive about my aspirations and keep going at it even if I feel lazy about it. There's always a next time with reading stuff on the Internet or watching movies and TV, even if it's not going to be in the preferred outlet. Overall, it's all about just being positive and sticking to something that I want to experience in the end after all of that grinding takes place. It's about having self-discipline and by knowing myself, all my anger is really rooted with being my competitive drive.
Making Decisions To Not Regret
This is something that I'm writing for myself and may seem really off from trying to tap into my subconscious thoughts and intentions. I naturally feel like being lazy and not doing much to bother with a lost cause now. Something underneath me says it's wrong to hold back from wanting to be lazy, but you have to work hard and be brave about the situation. All this anger underneath me is really translating into something very competitive for what I want and feel a strong passion for. I may not be that lucky, but I'm going to keep hanging in there.
I ended up skipping everything yesterday to watch the NBA Finals game, and it was a very entertaining game to be honest. I don't think I can really afford this luxury when I should be doing something else to get going with my life. There's always reruns I can purchase to relive the moment whenever I can afford to and probably by then I will have already forgotten about it. In the short run, it's about living for the moment and feeling that escape from excitement. I should be more worried about maintaining a personal discipline with a positive outlook in life. It's a struggle but I think the effort is really worth it in the end. In the end, I think it's pretty sexy to be like this so I might as well commit to it and see where I can get to with it.
I ended up skipping everything yesterday to watch the NBA Finals game, and it was a very entertaining game to be honest. I don't think I can really afford this luxury when I should be doing something else to get going with my life. There's always reruns I can purchase to relive the moment whenever I can afford to and probably by then I will have already forgotten about it. In the short run, it's about living for the moment and feeling that escape from excitement. I should be more worried about maintaining a personal discipline with a positive outlook in life. It's a struggle but I think the effort is really worth it in the end. In the end, I think it's pretty sexy to be like this so I might as well commit to it and see where I can get to with it.
Personal Perception With Social Media
I don't think people in high numbers in general really care about what I have to say on Facebook. It must be that if a person has or wants to act up about something with me, it's because he or she is struggling with letting go of something that really doesn't have much resemblance with the real world. They are just having trouble managing their own personal negative emotions which has nothing to deal with me. It may be annoying to have to go through the unnecessary trouble like being stuck with having to attend a high school you don't want to go to anymore, even though you are smart enough to study and pass the graduation exam already early. Yet, it's always a brilliant thing to put on a strong effort and get over that hurdle.
Talking about it with others around and having a true purpose with getting somewhere with that person who feels like a victim with you over really nothing is embarrassing for that person. They probably thought about something that has stressed them out in the past and let themselves get there because the other person just doesn't want to let up and wants to stick to his or her stance. There's nothing wrong about it. They are only human and talking about it some more with them is going to make them suffer because it's naturally an embarrassing thing for them to endure. If that person is engaged in this unwilling discussion, then he or she is going to have to learn to toughen up or face some embarrassing consequences. In the end of all of this, it's nice for the opponent to still be friendly with them even though they are going to outplayed by him from being more competitive. Basically, it's about making a point and going for it while knowing that you can really never lose to these types of people.
Talking about it with others around and having a true purpose with getting somewhere with that person who feels like a victim with you over really nothing is embarrassing for that person. They probably thought about something that has stressed them out in the past and let themselves get there because the other person just doesn't want to let up and wants to stick to his or her stance. There's nothing wrong about it. They are only human and talking about it some more with them is going to make them suffer because it's naturally an embarrassing thing for them to endure. If that person is engaged in this unwilling discussion, then he or she is going to have to learn to toughen up or face some embarrassing consequences. In the end of all of this, it's nice for the opponent to still be friendly with them even though they are going to outplayed by him from being more competitive. Basically, it's about making a point and going for it while knowing that you can really never lose to these types of people.
Nice Update
Reliving how my trades went from yesterday after overtrading a lot, it turns out that it wasn't that bad for me. I received more confirmation of how I should be modeling my trades and this one moving average that I have in place is turning out to be such a blessing for me. It's totally adding up for me these days and I'm also experimenting with using a local maximum of ATR(14) to calculate the stop loss. With the volatility being pretty good in Forex, I already have a pair that has almost doubled its target from leaving it running for only a day. What I believe is really important when it comes to swing trading is to also find some confirmation with a higher timeframe. Looking at the 4-hour and daily charts have hit the sweet spot for me.
Overall, it's turning out to be nice with working at picking up this skill to trade. I'm also going to meetups now that emphasize this whole passive income lifestyle from learning to be successful from trading different financial markets. Hopefully, I'll be able to reach something comfortable where I wouldn't have to worry about coming into work for a regular job someday. In the meantime, I need to back this up in case anything terrible happens so I will choose software engineering with an emphasis on video games and phone apps. Hopefully, I'll be able to put in a lot of hard work and get rich off of doing these things that I have come to enjoy.
Overall, it's turning out to be nice with working at picking up this skill to trade. I'm also going to meetups now that emphasize this whole passive income lifestyle from learning to be successful from trading different financial markets. Hopefully, I'll be able to reach something comfortable where I wouldn't have to worry about coming into work for a regular job someday. In the meantime, I need to back this up in case anything terrible happens so I will choose software engineering with an emphasis on video games and phone apps. Hopefully, I'll be able to put in a lot of hard work and get rich off of doing these things that I have come to enjoy.
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