Working Through Adversity

I honestly think I was naturally born for dealing with a great amount of mental adversity. I did get lucky enough to find myself out of great distress a long time ago while going through puberty! It was totally nuts while dealing with my obsession for playing video games and enjoying some perverted actions secretly while staying a true gentleman to all the ladies out there. I even read a book on "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" and was labeled as trash by the book store owner when I tried re-selling it to him.

Regardless of whatever outcome is happening, the mind should be positive about all of it and persevere with great effort to get somewhere you want to go in life. Yesterday, I realized that I was watching a highly entertaining anime series and couldn't drop it to do my grown-up activities last night. I did manage to take a shower again before going to sleep and that was only from having a revelation that it felt good and how I could just douse myself with water in the shower when I wake up to save some time while rinsing.

I would like to be able to drop a naturally fun thing for me and work on a difficult and less appealing task that I deem to be worthy of my attention! The trick is to just stay confident and positive about all of it and to keep on persevering. It's going to be never-ending so why set up a crash date? My parents were crazy to emulate because they had this type of model while I was growing up. I was confused from being spoiled with wanting nothing but the best and how they struggled from not being financially successful and unwilling to teach me a method that I would be happy with. This struggle in dealing with crazy parents and people all my life made things take longer for me, but I hold no grudges because I can't stay mad at any of them. 

Regardless of me aging, it's still the same belief system I am adopting in staying confident and positive while persevering to get anywhere I want to go and from realizing that staying glued to watching those fun episodes might have not been the best thing for me. I want to be able to break it off after having fun momentarily and get back to work. It's about managing stress and boredom and all these personal weaknesses of mine without going crazy, so being positive and confident about all of it while persevering is the way to go!   

Motivation for Blogging Here

I feel like this is my open journal I'm sharing the world with. It's also convenient to have something that I can make a feeble attempt at connecting with a reader out there. Sure, I'm Asian and that's about it unless you know my real name. I'm pretty lucky in a sense that from having been mad for awhile, I didn't write anything horrible enough to get in big trouble with the law. The worst I came close to happened outside of this blog from coming across crazy people I'm responsible for annoying in my own innocent way. I didn't do anything too bad to warrant getting in trouble like that. I think they were just going through something more deeper inside of them and didn't really have anything to relate with me, so they ended up getting crazy because they were really upset about something and couldn't accept it at the time. 

The keyword is once again with them just being crazy, and it just ties together the foundation of my education in dealing with people! It's quite interesting in that I'm not really going to benefit anything monetarily off of this. I also feel that there really isn't much positive reinforcement for blogging on this unknown site and how there's better establishments out there, if you wish to acquire different things. The reason why this site works for me is that I can be comfortable with visitors going through it and not even worried about attracting popularity. 

In a sense and to my core belief, I only need to make a difference to one soul at a time to feel satisfied somehow! I'm pretty much the most active for my occupation title of only about 890 at most right now. I could very well be one of the most active on this site as a whole from being able to post one time a day. I guess I'm pretty unique in a sense from enjoying doing this and also being self-motivated. 

Minor Issues to Work On

Yesterday, I felt a little annoyed with myself while driving and going to a drive-thru car wash. I made a couple turns too early and had to do an unwanted U-turn each time. It wasn't the worst thing since I lost only a couple minutes, but I felt a little irritated from wanting to be more efficient. I also ended up forgetting that Father's Day was coming up, so by the time this post rolls around it's going to be way past the date. 

The way I see myself going about it to make myself feel better is praying about it to the Lord and asking that I would become better while letting it be used for serving in His kingdom. It was just a simple prayer and most likely, I will be forgetting about it soon. What was interesting to watch a little while ago is this anime about a dedicated RPG gamer and how he created some NPCs with his friends and then before the game server was about to shut down, he finds himself teleported to an alternate dimension where the game became the real world. His NPCs become alive too and think he is a god for creating them and want to serve him with their whole-hearts devotionally and feel so happy from thinking he didn't abandon them like the rest of his friends did. I just wonder if there's some form of similarity with the God of this real world I believe in! 

The plus side is how I feel more relieved and aware of the things that tick me off and how I'm able to deal with them by just labeling in my head the people who make me feel that way at any time to be crazy! It doesn't affect my relationship-driven approach with them because it's just naturally who I am as a person. I like to be nice and carry a good relationship with just about anyone, no matter how bad they are. If I sense they are evil, dangerous, or a little too kooky, I'm  keeping my distance while being open to things turning out better for the both of us.

Fixing Up Yesterday

So now, I'm realizing the importance of maintaining a positive attitude while being bored doing some work. I am pretty spoiled in a way that I love to have fun at everything I do, before I'm willing to commit it to daily hard work. I was trying to limit the amount of anime episodes to watch and I managed to break out of it after four episodes to go take a shower and brush my teeth while getting ready for bed. I figured that I wanted to get started on creating my accounts for doing stocks, but then I ended up watching another episode to put it off. I was really sleepy by this time and voluntarily went to sleep. I actually felt good about it since I washed up and felt satisfied with it. I'm going to repeat this thing in taking a shower before I go to sleep. 

What made me successful in carrying it out was understanding that I was going to get sleepy really soon so I decided to prep up for bed. After I had that done, I felt energized again so felt I could put off my hard task of setting up my side business and decided to watch an additional fun episode before starting but then I became exhausted and couldn't pay attention to it. I didn't feel like I was watching anything fun because I was so drowsy, so I think I could easily put it off for today to focus on this important step now. 

Setting Priorities Straight

I found myself binge watching anime last weekend and playing a few hours of online Poker while also catching up on playing some Animal Crossing. I didn't quite finish my main task at hand which was putting my money into a side business I have in mind and paying off a small bill related to auto insurance. It's really not that fun to be honest because I didn't feel that comfortable about touching my savings last weekend. I guess it's normal, and I did say that I'm comfortable about going into this business so might as well start by wagering small while working hard at it with the convenient business model I have in mind.

This evening, I plan to work on getting my side business sorted out with getting my starting accounts set up before playing some online Poker and then watching a few anime episodes before I get tired. Maybe in between anime episodes, I could work on organizing this weekend like I do plan on spending time with a friend who is a girl and someone I'm considering marrying. She shows interest in me because we have had a couple, informal, and fun dates and could also be that we were only born a few months apart. I'm the older one! She's a little taller but doesn't seem to mind at all which is cool so I might as well work on building some more confidence while I'm around her and knowing that I'll never be taking advantage of anyone. 

Understand How to Work

I'm very lucky to have this software engineering job title. I can see how it gets looked down upon by a crazy manager at work but it doesn't really bother me. It's no doubt that I am pretty good at working with computers while being able to look up on things people are willing to share over the Internet. I even have a degree in it and felt guilty pleasure for the longest time because I was conflicted about dedicating my life to God with it.Yet, now I completely understand that enjoying this line of work is pretty much a fulfilling calling for me in this world and I can apply these skills to be a servant to the Lord. I will never be that knowledgeable about the Bible because I have a falling out with it. I believe that the Lord just cares about me believing in Christ dying on the cross for man's sins and accepting him into my heart for going to heaven. I know it's hard because it is emotional in a sense to some people because they like to add on you have to be a good person as well in their own eyes, but in the end the final judgement call belongs to the Lord. 

For my job in detail, I have a list that I'm going through for making my software run better for the company. It's pretty fun. I guess since this is a family business and even though I could work on myself for finding myself a better paying job with benefits, I plan on sticking around here and enjoying the down time I can be lucky with once it happens. With the down time, I'm going to work on completing my online courses for a mini-Masters in IT. During the meantime, I have a running list to complete that I'm treating like my chore and to keep me occupied while being lucky enough that I do enjoy this work and to get paid for it. 

Looking at What Matters

When I look at it, it's pretty much a value system of personal preference and can always be subject to being tested at any time. The way I see it is to work hard, have a positive attitude, be smart, and present a nice personality no matter what happens! The people who get you ticked off are practically crazy and could be anyone in this world, so it would be a waste of time to continue staying mad at him or her.

Along with those qualities, it would be working on a nice, eclectic range that helps out a lot too! I don't think people care about me too much man, but yeah it was fun to begin with. Getting all anxious is so funny and that's what I was like. My mistakes are absolutely hilarious and even though I may think people are still crazy, it's okay I'm not going to stay mad and be that short guy who gets annoying and bullies around others while being such a lost cause to get things my way eventually. Either way, what made me get results was just sticking to it and working hard at it even if it meant feeling like the world was crashing down on me and hiding all of those insecurities from the ladies. I pretty much had a quiet nature that I was really feeling sorrowful over. It's really not much of a big deal now with all of these personal emotions, since I'm a guy and have had to work at overcoming them sooner or later anyway.   

Finding Acceptance and Improving

I've been feeling more accepting these days of my situation and not really sulking anymore underneath selfishly about things not going my way. I think everybody has their own way of dealing with some impossible obsessions. For me, I just couldn't let it go because of my stubbornness. I had some weird ideas of how life is run, but hey it was my own opinion. 

These days, I don't think it really matters too much. I do have a friend who calls me up and sees me like family. She sees me like a big brother or says she does while acting another way. Basically, she really isn't the physically affectionate type. She deals with social anxiety issues and other stress-related drama from her lifestyle choices and being born with an incurable disease. I still like her a good deal for who she is and try to go out of my way to just help her whenever she asks me, even if it's not that comfortable to me.

I'm actually comfortable about maintaining a close relationship with her, and I think the only significant opening I've seen with her is bonding together while cooking and watching movies together. We have even traveled together while being just the two of us, so she's used to being around me and treating me like another sibling while traveling. Those trips are pretty challenging in that they can get a little irritating with not much meaningful words being exchanged. It's sort of like pushing myself to make something good happen out of it, but I'm struggling underneath!  

Basically, to form a deeper and romantic relationship with her, it would just mean continuing to do things with her. I guess I could look at it from the point of being like we're currently friends with a thing for each other somehow but not trying to give into each other. She's been interested in trying to set me up with one of her friends who is a pretty and single mom and feels she would be more compatible for me. I'm really not sure about that because I am a short man even though I don't look that way entirely. Anyway, this friend of mine is one of my possible love interests. It's still fun just to have someone who I care about a lot interested in hanging out with me. 

Basic Happy Routine

Well, I'm looking to change around a lot of different things, but first I need to make the dough. I feel like I'm in the right direction now that I have decided to commit myself to investing in stocks, along with trading currency and playing online Poker. Poker is going to take me a while longer to start playing for real, but my currency trading has paid its dues and I'm ready for it. The thing about it is that all of this is something I enjoy doing as well. 

I see my objective being about learning something new to have fun in the end. I do have some unfinished graduate-level coursework to still finish. I can go about focusing on them whenever I get the chance. It's just a matter of commitment and the best way to leave it there for me is to maintain a positive attitude about it. I associate positivity with being fun and having fun is what I love to do! I just need to push myself enough while keeping it sensible and staying dedicated. I think that's all there really is to it now.

I'm going to try this whole living through entertainment with games, YouTube videos, anime, and other things by making it the last thing or when I burn out. I still want to do more with my daily life, so I will do the best I can to carry out those personal errands. It's starting to make sense with how writing this is something I could look back on as well and be in a different state of mind after letting what I currently have pass. 

At work, I'm pretty much good to begin my business everyday after answering a question on Quora, writing a couple posts on here, and looking at my trades. Sometimes, I'll let my mind wander off a little but it's really all about getting myself back to focus and doing a good job. I think I will also be looking at some emails and meetups I can attend in the future later once this Covid-19 pandemic passes. 

After Action Review From Yesterday Night

I received last night a package for learning to trade stocks. I bought a membership to a prestigious investor group that is endorsed by Bill O'Reilly who is a famous broadcaster and best-selling author of fifteen books. He is about honest journalism and likes to keep it simple but his style is entertaining too, so that's probably why he's the best.

I ended up spending the evening while feeling sleepy and played a good session of online Poker while re-reading the 4 Pillars of Wealth. I absolutely agree with everything it says and now ready to get started. There's nothing wrong here but after I was done with my Poker session, I had a few more things to do planned out in my head while I was exhausted and instead of pushing myself, I laid down thinking I was going to take a nap and then I fell into a deep sleep and woke up to get ready for work again the next day.

I missed brushing my teeth again and taking a shower! I intended to also look to do some more trading before heading off to bed. I laid off watching some anime episodes and playing video games because I told myself to save it for last yesterday. I don't really feel bad about missing out on my usual entertainment. I'll try again this time but push myself to brush my teeth and take a shower this time when I've just had it at staying up. 

Setting Priorities Straight

Yesterday was my birthday so I ended up lounging around and watching anime episodes. Today, I could try going after my more fun priorities and stick to entertainment for my last because they tend to be the most time consuming and most engaging anyway. They feel the most rewarding too sometimes that I want to skip right to doing them first, but it doesn't always feel right to me after a time being. 

I guess I'm meant to be a more serious and practical individual even though I just spill out a lot of personal comments that gets me laughing about it quite a bit. I can be pretty serious, technical, and boring as well on topics I know about so it's interesting with my range that I'm capable of communicating. 

The thing is I don't have full mastery of these great intentions yet. I don't think I'm very locked in on it because I don't see how I could really make a living off of it from not really being my calling. I don't really like doing a service for people and getting paid for it. I guess this is why I'm switching over to competing in lucrative and fair games to take money from outsmarting opponents who are in it to do the same with me as well. I intend to of course give back and maybe I'll overlook the bad apples and still give regardless since as a whole the potential is great. 

I don't want to reward laziness with the hard work I put in and think those people are being crazy asking me to do the work for them while being business owners. I don't really need their money to begin with, so I prefer to compete against them while being lazy and crazy and then take their money, too!  

Realizing From Hindsight

I recognize something that would be considerably scary to some but never took it seriously while I was driving some individuals crazy in the past. They ended up gaslighting me! Only two individuals out of the many and one doesn't count now went for a restraining order on me. Of the two, one was a young man and another a young, crazy lady. I think it's fair to call her Crazy Lee to this day because I kept on letting the keyword slip right past through me. The word I'm referring to is 'crazy'! 

I accept all of it with how I was being very annoying to them and not approaching them tactfully enough. I wasn't too bad with them of course, since I'm still a relational-type person no matter how much someone ends up trying to destroy me or drives me nuts! What just held me back all this time was from being really angry about it and not able to accept it. 

I don't know how this acceptance phase happened for me, but it's something important to touch upon as I can remember. First off, it was about finding relief from this poor drama which felt like a sickening comedic act was being forced upon me the whole time. This is where God came into play and what helped was seriously reading and connecting with those devotionals a lovely person gave to me. I'm seriously touched by how it still has this lasting effect on me even though the details are slowly fleeting away. It was after all, an experience with getting a positive emotional recovery! 

Developing faith in Jesus can be such a wild, emotional ride but what must be rooted in me is just how the Lord's message of salvation clicked for me back then. It's going to be different for everyone else of course and some may be less sensitive to it. I can't represent everyone but having this loving attitude for the things of the Lord and continually praying for someone to come to the Way sure is a beautiful and amazing thing! It can be a lifelong journey that's very satisfying when it does reach its destination and what better way than to end this post on a beautiful note from the encouraging Bible. 

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

Creating Better Habits

It looks like I want to be more professional and accepting of how things are going. With current times as I'm writing this post, I know it's going to be a little late by the time this post comes around. There's been some looting and protesting going on with the whole Black Lives Matter incident. A black man died from not being able to breath while a cop was detaining him on the ground and a video has gone viral. The cop has lost his job, but he hasn't been prosecuted yet which was what the protesting crowd is calling for. 

Thinking about it, it's time that I started putting in some money on my currency trades and also doing some investing with my preferences having been set. I'm pretty excited about where this could all lead to. I'm probably going to cap it at $5000 per year at the moment, until I can get better results. I don't really mind losing but that's not what I'm going into this business for. I'm trying to turn myself into a millionaire! 

I guess I could do that and then work on some cooking. It would be nice I suppose. I don't think my looks really matter that much after doing the best I could with it! It's about maintaining confidence and meeting the right one or working it out with someone I like who is nice enough to let me. Rejections are a thing that happens and it's not really playing into any negativity for me now.   

Thing to Improve

Well, I'm writing this post on my birthday right now so it means this will be long gone for me by then when it shows on the blog. It's interesting how writing can be a useful tool for me. Basically yesterday, I ended up playing Animal Crossing a lot longer than I should have and then did a little trading and falling asleep while playing online Poker and then brushed my teeth before going to bed. I was too tired to work on planning some stocks after.

I think from today, I can focus on playing Animal Crossing and other games on my Switch last. I also have some fun anime episodes I could watch too while streaming them for free! 

With the things that I want to work on, it now figures that you just have to set your mind on it and work hard at it. It also deals a lot with your personal attitude too. Seriously, I don't think being short really matters that much anymore. I'm less likely to turn any heads than my much better looking and taller competitors. It's not really that necessary anyway and just have to work at finding someone better to be with then. In the meantime and just for fun, I could maintain myself while trying to make myself good-looking much as possible.  

Keeping It Positive and Comfortable

It looks like my mind has been getting better at handling some letdowns. I still feel a little sad to the eyes when I approach a taller person sometimes. It's just a feeling of personal grief! I'm able to still grind at pushing myself while being under the spell. I can now laugh at crazy, taller people making fun of my height though. 

It really does come down to having a healthy mindset and working towards achieving something. Overcoming mistakes are sort of like trial and error. It's like playing this puzzle game called Death Squared on the Nintendo Switch. It's basically blocks moving around on a platform and controlling them to avoid booby traps to get it to its designated spot. The time to finish each level is recorded and even the amount of deaths from falling into a void, blowing up, or hitting spikes are kept track of. The difficulty of getting through obstacles increases as you get through later stages but isn't impossible if you can visualize what will happen and have enough patience. It's entertaining and is sort of how the mind works to solve problems!  

I think it's really just starting on something and then committing oneself to finishing it, while making it a daily routine. I guess it's mental stress or something else going on underneath that keeps you from going there. I guess the mind needs to feel warmed up or engaged first before it can handle something less exciting. This is probably what daydreaming and searching the web for other solutions can help you in. 

Mainly, it's about staying positive and committed to going where you want to go. It can apply at anytime and where I treasure my heart lying at the most is putting my faith in the Bible. It's like having this feeling of unforgettable joy for me and this connection of so much personal relief while continually increasing in self-acceptance. I'm staying a true believer of Jesus but I can't say that my heart is always aligned to his ways. This reminds me that I should be asking for forgiveness while seeking out the perfect path to walk. It's a bunch of labor pains! 

Oh, What to Do?

Backtracking from yesterday, I went to bed without taking a shower but I wasn't sweaty or anything. I realized that I was half-asleep while playing on my laptop and just dozing off and forcing myself to wake back up again. I forgot that if I really wanted to stay awake then I could have made myself some coffee or tea.

I ended up playing a few hours of Animal Crossing and then found myself dozing off to online Poker and working on managing my currency trades. I'm pretty much ready now to start playing for real money in currency and investing in long-term stocks. I think I will start out with contributing about $5000 on stocks per year total and keep it at only $1000 on currency because of its high risk and volatile nature. This sounds like a pretty good newbie amount for me. 

I would still like to put in the time to cook and work out, while fussing a little over my personal hygiene and giving myself a better appearance just for fun. It's really about putting the heart in the right place now. There's no need to look down upon others. Besides, I'm already a shorty! Not that I really care anymore. Thinking about it, it may matter to some but there might be others who don't really mind if you are short to them. It's just about working on the personality, intelligence, and being successful. It should be good enough then with finding a beautiful lady to enjoy a nice life with. Hard work isn't limited to just a few people. It can be accessible to anybody!  

Finding It Funny

What used to bother me for so many years wasn't really ever such a big deal in the first place. I was going through a lot of personal complexes and grinding it out while feeling so angry over things that I felt were out of hand and trying to stay a gentleman about it. I did get my beautiful answer from messaging the right person, who was a girl of all people! She wisely didn't reply back with her own words but used works from a writer who she looks up to. The focus was mainly on God's message from the Bible. God's Word is really powerful and life-changing stuff. 

Along with finding comfort in my own shell thanks to being encouraged from reading Scriptures, I started labeling all my past troubles as crazy including the ones who became like loose cannons to me. Yeah, it's an issue I can personally sort out now and it's mainly from not losing heart if there's any failure that happens while putting in the effort to try again in a more tactical manner. At least I'm not trying to make something worse but feeling good about getting along no matter how weird it feels to the other crazy person. I drove those people crazy over silly matters they were confused about and gave them a hard time. I'm at fault for this, but what I realize overcomes the repercussions from them being so bitter with me or not in the mood for being nice, is just talking them through it. 

Where my fault lies is that I didn't do exactly what needed to be done because my heart was in the wrong place. I was going to yell at them and knew that I was going to go crazy while feeding them passionate lip service where I would have no stable grasp over. I didn't want to feel insecure about yelling at them and then saying that I wanted to be cool with them the next day I saw them. This is why, it's important for me to constantly think they are already crazy so acting like that won't ever happen because I can't stay mad at those types of people.  

Being Self-motivated

It's quite funny in a sense with how I'm being entertained by reading my own writing now. I don't recall everything I write, but even if I did I would call it a curse then because I occasionally have a few posts that don't connect very well with people. I think most of the time it seems like I might be giving off this whole high and mighty act while feeling good about it from being so confident. It doesn't take away the attention of people for some reason and neither does it really get someone to simply click the like button for me. I'm not really asking for it in the first place.

This is how I'm perceiving my own writing. It's pretty good in a sense that I like to get carried away with what I put in the past and read them over again a lot. It feels good to read mainly positive and highly energized posts from myself. It's probably what is causing this good effect of keeping me committed to writing decent posts. 

Yet now, I'm pretty much ready to invest my money now to focus on it as a side business in hopes of becoming wealthy. I am grateful for this opportunity I have as a software engineer and even though I'm not getting the paid the amount I like, it's still comfortable enough to feel like I could take myself to the next level with it. Overall, I believe it's also a fair exchange with what I'm receiving for my own services. I'm just plain lucky to have got here so far.

The thing that I would like to routinely work on after doing my side business is work out and cook. For my personal free time, I can enjoy watching a few anime episodes and play games on my Switch. I'm pretty happy with what I have going and think I have to take care of it.   

Looking into Yesterday's Tasks

I spent some time researching my investing options, and I feel confident about having picked the right source to use and with making the right considerations. I'm going for an all-out moderate approach, since I don't mind risking a decent amount to make it big. Of course, I'm not going to put all of my money into this and keep a little aside to pay off the bills or go on a vacation spree!

From spending most of my evening, looking up the products and services that are being offered for me, I feel like I really made a wise choice with signing on to be a member. I realize that I have a specialty in also short-term swing trading the spot currency market. It's so highly volatile, and I've managed to come up with a personal system that leaves me comfortable with checking it just once in the morning and another in the evening. It makes a lot of common sense as well, which can be hard to find sometimes in this world of investing! I'm practically going to guard it so closely with my heart, since I don't want evil hands getting a hold of it and maybe even my own kids someday. That's how serious I am about withholding it from people. It can technically become a very dangerous area from dealing with uncertainty, and I don't ever want to be blamed while being a part of some fools' mess where they just couldn't keep up with me. Some people are better at putting a blind eye to it and sticking to their plan faithfully and these are the ones I'm happy to learn from as well, but my flawed personality just limits me here, so I'm going to take it like a sponge for personal endeavors and direct others to these very capable experts if the need ever arises.

After I decided to take a break on my focus, I ended up taking a shower and brushing my teeth. I watched two or three episodes of a new series to keep my motivation up for the reward of working on something. I didn't quite finish but I was working at it with some keen focus, so I don't feel bad about it but I would just like to add in some growing taller stretches before I go shower now and get ready for bed. I'm noticing my posture is slouching a little from being on a computer for the most part of my day so they will help me keep a better one out of habit. It's pretty much it, but the last time I stuck to it religiously, it made me permanently grow 1/2 of an inch at the age of 25 so it may get really helpful again. I'm not dying so much underneath of personal grief from being a lot shorter than I would have liked. I guess it's funny to me.   

Where Height Matters

I think physical height comes into play for like modeling, acting, professional sports, and sometimes dating. Yet the most successful types are only limited to significantly less than 1% so you could say they have been born into like royalty. Other than that, height is just a number and if used well for putting on a show, then more power to you!

I accept myself with being short now and realize that I'm still quite a decent looking guy. I can rather focus on my inward confidence while working hard to gain wealth and working out to have a sexy body, while also being a nice person to be friends with and ask out single ladies who I'm attracted to while hoping it will lead to a happy marriage. 

Like a numbers game, it eventually is going to land as long as you continue to have your head properly in it. I don't really mind rejection from people anymore and won't hinder me from working any harder or less than I want to. Other than for the people who think height matters, for everyone else, it really doesn't. The most important thing is that it isn't with how everyone feels about your height if you aren't happy with it and should be rooted in maintaining a healthy mental state.