Pornography is an issue that I have struggled with in the past. I am currently recovering from this addiction and luckily, I never came to a relationship with a woman and invaded her special territory. I have to assume all the guilt for piquing my sexual desire even more by using a medium, instead of allowing it to flow naturally. This causes me to in a way get neutered with the thought of finding a decent woman to carry a long-term relationship with.
In a way, masturbating to porn reminds me of self-abuse. It's just killing the sensation that could be enjoyed with a loving wife. The Bible states to avoid fornication, and I think it's not that God does not want us to please ourselves, it's more about a genuine protection. It really protects us by giving us time to think about who we are committing to. God ideally would like for us to have one partner, just as Adam found his ideal woman out of Eve. There's an Eve to every man whose ever been interested in marriage or has a sexual liking to the opposite sex. There's definitely a danger of making your life more hectic by fooling around. Two of the most womanizers of the Bible are King David and King Solomon- father and son. They transgressed against God's command to take and marry only one wife. Genesis 2:24 says "This explains why a man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one." (NLT) A husband and wife's utmost devotion is a prized possession to God's eyes and places imagery on a strong relationship with Christ. I've surprised myself by finding someone whose my type. I would not want to disrupt a good relationship by deceiving it with pornographic material. I don't mind the idea of working out and increasing stamina for anticipated sex life. According to Apostle Paul, little profit is gained from exercise!
Porn just gets you feeling down on yourself. The second you blow your lute, it's like the fun is over and you get down again. It's not fun to always mess around with yourself when it's repetitious and you are now conscience of all the acts. After awhile, the mellow fun just turns more gloomier and things will get harder. I've just personally had it with porn now. It's an area that I want to conquer for life. I am still like on a mission to find the most beautiful wife to enjoy sex and raise a family with. She will then be my best friend for life.
Porn in itself is really condemned by a lot of preachers. I personally want to condemn it too, but my feelings can get carried away. I want to let go of it because it's a temptation that I don't want to get too cocky with. I don't want to imagine myself sleeping around with many women and then find unwanted surprises. Some things included are AIDS, pregnancy, and moody girl to deal with. To just do it for pleasure and use a nice woman as a toy, just fills my heart with sadness. I really do not want to resist the Holy Spirit in my life. I know how society tries to help us cope with the consequences but relationships are really stemmed from genuine trust. Someone can really get hurt, if the relationship is not placed at a higher level.
Personally, I write this even though I know that I have a chance to hurt my reputation. I want to finally come clean with God by letting cyberspace be my witness. I am one of those people who want to experience an ecstatic, full meaning life. It's like the best calling you could ever get from the Creator. I know that I internalize most of my sins by not trying to get others involved with my selfishness. My own selfishness can become a snare to me and really nail my emotions. At the time of this writing, I'm in a period where I long to be in a committed relationship, have no snares that affect it, and be ecstatic about life while worshiping the Bible wholeheartedly.
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