Ending the Act of Irritating Others

I seriously imagine myself having the ability to frustrate others unintentionally. With my age getting very close to thirty, I believe that there are a lot of expectations that I have been imposed with by people who do not seem to handle life very well. I see that they have tears coming out of their eyes, which probably means there is a guilt trip that they do not want to come out of.

They don't want to be exposed about something. It drives me a little irritated and the more I think about it, the more I come up with solutions to end this matter that I don't want to deepen. I know what I need to do. It's about having a drive of confidence that swoops others and straightens them up. I have discernment that sees the weird in others sometimes instead of feeling like I need to run away.

Life Is Seriously Painful

It is okay. Life is meant to be hard! There are some things we should just forget about it. Until that day comes, things will be very painful. People say I've had a very good life. I'm so ashamed of myself. It's time to move on. I am seriously okay with that.

This is what I plan to do to get back into a club that kicked me out for writing too many bad e-mails to them. They have also called a crooked cop, and he is very feisty. I wonder if I could get him to cooperate with me. It would be an interesting marvel. I project this whole thing of getting back is going to take about a year.

I'm just simply going to keep coming, park in a convenient location, and run to my car if a cop tells me to leave. I will do this every week, until I can catch my breath to speak to one of those cops. I will also be wearing a white shirt and black shorts. I don't think it will be long for everyone to catch that I should be in.

Dumb Group Issue

Okay, a Bible verse states "Honesty is like a kiss on the lips" and it also states something like a friend who wounds you is more greater than an enemy who tries to suppress you with sweet words. I believe this opens up an interesting area of how angered people can be hypocritical if they try to reach out to you. Just having knowledge of the Word alone sometimes is enough to help you out in exercising good principles.

What I'm getting at is that sometimes you need to be honest by jabbing at your love one's actions and justifying how he is wrong and then leading him to how you want him to behave. It takes a lot of humility to accept defeat. I guess in my end, a restraining order pretty much means I did something terrible and should accept that I did something very bad. The restraining order is something I see that people could easily overreact over. It's a strange occurrence sometimes to deal with. It's not breaking the law, if it gets on you. Just give it some time to allow the other person to calm down and give the person space.

I'm going through an issue where girls are acting pretty crazy with me. They can't explain their personal reason for wanting space with me. I keep asking, and it could be frustrating but I'm not going to let it run my life down. I'm not going to mind any restraining order with them anymore. I just don't care about having to stalk them or anything anymore, if that's what they feel I'm doing. I'll just keep away and not care about their over-reactant intonation about their side of the story.

Going to Court With Mockers

Today, on Christina's Court I saw how two ladies had a dispute over a vallet car incident. It appeared that the defendant was going to win but she ended up losing. This brings me a little scare. I have naturally been scared of over-reacting people because they sort of give me the Buh G. B's. As the aftermath of these people's actions, I guess those kind of things happen where you feel like you would not mind the comfort of a therapist and then you imagine the therapist feeling like she's wasting time with you. Seriously, how often do you invest your faculty into thinking that you have the right to get involved but you are truly not going to and then nobody can really pick up on this incident. Then, by being so quiet these few individuals who scare you start talking behind people's backs with you around their little circle. Boy, I have tried so hard to avoid wraithful thinking on their part with the hands of God.

I think it had to do with me being extremely quiet in nature and having a penchant for being around whiners who are little in their ways and holding things in contempt. They all seemed to give off this similar nonchalant voice of being fully vexed about something and then they pause and put some breaks in between these repeated words. Okay, and then they start incanting the words "Don't let this out of this circle." These type of events used to horrify me and made me surly but slowly stay out of these people's paths. I then felt super lonely about something and it's so weird that I should not try to position myself in a defensive stance anymore. If people take me to court, I'm all theirs to slaughter. I just hope I didn't have enough involvement with them in the first place, and I hope my survival mode is in high gear and in ethical grounds. I say nothing about my current comfort zone.

Interesting Spin-off

I write with some idea in mind. I think that if you truly like to do something, such as writing scripts, making songs, or designing software then you should see if you could take a project and finish it through and then, maybe you can research on what people like and if they also pertain to your interests you could pretty much stick with it and make a living off of it while feeling really cool about yourself.

That being said, I think it's really cool to think about what Jesus did for us. Jesus died on the cross practically two thousand years ago. As time has been progressing, I truly want to get to know him more. My problems are made into little pieces because of what Jesus has ultimately done for me. Sure, I'm a human being who has a selfish heart and who wants to destroy and oppress and take vengeance on the little things that people do to be evil! Presuming that it's sort of wrong, I should try to not be overreacting. The consistency rate occurs only because there is a discerning mention of doing something positive for myself that could prolong a painful feeling. To get out of this phase, I am pretty much going to have to pick it up and review my limits and privileges.

The fun part about this whole matter is that I get to mention what went wrong in a truthful manner and be laughing inside the whole time. I also get to say things in a nice and direct way that would mean that things need to be done to project things into a better situation. In other words, I need to try my hands in leading and not overreacting to negative responses.

For all the wrong things that's been done to me for trying to be under the table and not so noticeable and not wanting to follow the advice of selfish and misguided people, I am fine with all the mistreating that they have given me. I have this test which is to lead them and not overreact to it with just my emotions.

Conflict can be exciting

In circumstances that have a lot of heat, people can sometimes resort to selfish tactics to get what they want. By placing their own standards on some level of preference, it creates a bad yoke that can be tossed out eventually. What I mean by this is that sometimes people have reasons for taking action that don't really make any sense to an average person. In other words, you can sometimes hear people complaining about others behind their backs because they are constantly overreacting due to a lot of stress. This happened to bother me at one point because I thought it was being powerful when you talk bad about someone.

I'm not really worried about these little things anymore because I have had interest in neutralizing these situations. People sometimes are stubborn about changing, but appealing to them about something by placing God in the picture can be really edifying and encouraging. It takes a lot of discernment and willingness to understand my personal levels of aggression. I guess it can build up when you try to negotiate with people who think they are competent and then they end up overreacting to the circumstance.

I really see things a little better now. I don't really have to worry so much about it anymore. No matter what people who have done wrong want to advice me in, I sort of need to lead them in a better direction to ensure something good. Even if it's impossible, the personal effort is worth noting without getting personally hurt and avoiding indecent approaches.

It's okay to open up.

Today, I write with a bittersweet smile on my mind. I think sometimes I feel a little overwhelmed about inexplicable things, but I feel like I can handle it without too much of problems. I really enjoy a lot of things that happen to my life and can also not be so mad about things, if the situation is not working out. I usually thrive when I'm in a rut by leading people. I've been trying to be careful about how I need to open up. I've also been trying to not give myself too much credit in general.

I guess people telling you that there's a fundamental concern does not always create enough light. With people making these truly bad calls with me, it pretty much details a lot about their insecurity and with me changing the situation around it's supposed to be good. I finally see the way I was supposed to feel. To feel a little hurt about something, it's not always good to maximize that feeling. I think it's getting closer to Presto for me!

There is power in knowledge. Being fully honest with others and seeking to be in genuinely in love about Jesus, maybe there's something normal about it.

Writing about human nature

I realize the amount of hard work some people who get to the top do. It's really inspiring to figure how much pain that they might have passed through. To have the longing patience with the right attitude, it just helps to store up a lot of good treasures. Some things are probably not worth mentioning in light of some extremist behaviors.

I've been using writing as a tool to try to open up in an unoffensive way. To have people react to me as like they were flipping the handle, it makes me feel a little sheepish. I think it's a natural reaction that happens to people who don't feel hurt with what they are doing. To finally open up the heart and look beyond the fleshly condition, it's bringing me a lot more comfort that there's more to life than just people placing their unjustified worries with me. I think this just means to me that I need to lead in a heart-felt manner, have a lot of patience, and not be so worried or dreadful about the future with creating some misses. Rebounding is such an awesome thing when it occurs. To do it while maintaining good composure and being a normal person and finally getting everyone to come to terms with you, it pretty much opens up doors.

It's time to make it work

Not everyone can succeed in life or be really open with you. I think that's why you could sure use a little help from time to time with others who genuinely care for you. With people trying to direct you while them feeling repressed frustration, it gets sometimes a little hard to understand what they are complaining about with you.

I've been pretty stuck, and I just want to get out of it now. The best things that I value in this world can only persist by continually living in a continuance of struggles. I don't think I really need to go at it alone now. To be in a new direction and living with a little bit of pressure, it's important to get out of problems with a good attitude. It's important to not to blow up and be so angry about life, as I am prone to being. I guess others can relate to my situation. I'm pretty much just an individual who wants to transpire to lead in a good direction.