Entered Record Breaking Month

I'm a little surprised because this month, I experienced a surge of about 500 views which is about 200 more than what I'm accustomed to seeing. I guess I have those days where I write trash and expect people to view them but then it doesn't happen and makes me get all moody. Nowadays, I'm actually laughing about it if it happens.

I'm sure those 500 views deal with a little more repeat visitors and probably they are familiar with my interesting tale of my relation with that church I formally had. I'm being super honest about it because I don't want to get basically in trouble but I know it's negative for them so I'm having fun with it. I'm actually laughing while writing about my factual account and what I'm literally feeling at the moment about the issue.

They really are powerless to stop me in this respect because it's a constitutional right to voice myself. Obviously, I'm not under any contract to not reveal anything about them in a truthful manner. Besides they're just fretting about the truth and being selfish about me pointing out something they don't want to be accepting over. In a way, it freezes them up from putting any lawsuit on me and they are forced to pretty much carry on while I keep up with my personal developments.

I pretty much have them locked up in a social manner against me now. I can sort of get them to do stuff for me as well through leading them in any manner I see fit too. It takes a little patience to make it happen because yeah, people don't want to anything for you in general. You have to literally work hard to get what you need sometimes, no matter how much it can bother you.

Finishing Up

Yeah, I'm really typing random stuff off the top of my head. The purpose of doing this is just to get some relaxation going and to also not get so angry and then blow my lid. It helps to a certain extent because I'm being absolutely honest in my writing while trying to get myself to laugh about situations. In a way, it's a form of creativity that gives me an outlet to understand some situations and be accepting of some things just not going my way.

This blog has really been useful to me because it has really sharpened my confidence level and also assisted me in dealing with conflict resolution. I deal with dummies sometimes even like my little sister who acts that way sometimes. However, from laughing about these situations that has been bugging me before I'm finding that it's really not so bad and it's not really that hard to resolve those issues even if the person I'm dealing with wants to beat around the bush.

On the long run, it's like we were just blessed with the gift of life and how we want to make it is ultimately our own doing in some shape or form. There are some attractive qualities in a person that just creates a bunch of admirers and influences others to become like him or her. I think science leaves out very difficult variables in a human such as love and sacrifice. Science in itself is pretty simple but I believe it's supposed to used to enrich our lives and build more satisfaction- it's not really meant to be turned into a religion in itself even though some purpose their life in that direction.

Dealing with evolution of humans from naturally selected ancestors, there's still a missing link in the chain so researchers can try all they want to find it in this dying planet but probably it's never going to happen in human history. I'm pretty pessimistic about it because maybe it was lost already and without visual proof there's no way of confirming the theory of evolution from humans. Therefore, it takes great faith to leap into concluding that humans had a naturally selected ancestor along with all those other species which would virtually be impossible to link up together especially with millions and millions of species on this planet. It probably won't ever be so comprehensive- I'm pretty much saying that if scientists insist on using only science then they can't believe in evolution without putting in some faith into it right now. Right now, it's just a thematic element but to be a martyr about it and claim it is actually totally factual about it might be comparable to being a religious nut.

I pretty much undervalue it right now because of the limitations in resources- why not try to solve something more important to civilization like curing cancer?

Typing Anything From My Head

Alrighty then! The word alrighty comes from a pretty messed up movie called Ace Ventura Pet Detective. I thought the movie was pretty funny, the end. No, I think it's about the Miami dolphin- the actual mascot that gets kidnapped; no, it didn't run up to some tuna and then get netted. That was random because I remember when I was in college hearing about how dolphins were being killed by getting caught in fishing nets when fishermen were catching tuna. It's pretty sad- how would you like it if a dolphin who looked like a man saw you as a fish and then caught you in a net after trying to swim with your buddies?

My roommate said it would actually be pretty messed up. Honestly, that was random. Okay, alrighty then! Ace Ventura saves the day at the end of the movie- problem solved, and the man who looks like a woman tries to get married one day to Mr. Ace and she or umm he gets caught in a very embarrassing situation and disgusts the whole police force who probably enjoyed a night of dating with him or umm her.

Fast forwarding to the most funniest and weirdest part was actually interesting because all of that literally happened at the end of the movie. I sometimes have this weird feeling that some girl who probably has an interesting personality like Annie Tran or Betty Lam does wherever they are wants to jump into some portal at her computer and then come out pouncing right on top of me from my MacBook!  I'm implying that maybe if given some incentives and a little coaxing then possibly Annie or Betty herself would actually not mind so much. I'm just saying that maybe they want me to be quiet about writing about them. Again, Annie and Betty are protected in their own right from their names being so common!

Still Keeping This Going

Obviously, I feel like when things go frantic then I lose a lot more focus during that time frame. I honestly would like to have the ability to still relaxed enough to make appropriate decisions when it happens. It's one of my weak points that I'm noticing with myself. I remember some cute girls back in the day who were shorter than me in high school :) - ah, that smile was well-written. I also remember taller girls too- man those were the good days :)

I made people feel uncomfortable for me being weird and I just didn't care at the time. I had no social life because I couldn't handle all that grown up stuff during high school. It was weird because I was expected to change into an adult all of a sudden by studying and looking for a good school and then feeling like a midget made me hindered from socializing back in those days. Oh man, those were the good times =) - again, a smile well-deserved.

Now, people are calling me midget from left to right and it doesn't faze me that much as it used to. I think this girl whose pretty cute and fit enjoys being around me and she's probably a little taller than me. She seems to not mind me. Hey, if people call me still a shorty then I'll take it because I see myself as a lucky shorty. I don't feel at all weakened or hammered down when a female tries to flatter me now. I just don't care man now.

Boy, So Repetitive

It just seems like I'm rewording the same concept over again but using absolutely new and independent words. I'm just pretty much trying to mess around with my roommate and having fun right now. Basically, it feels like typing on this blog is becoming more of a less priority but nonetheless, I still have stuff on here that pertains to me laughing about stuff that I wrote about.

I guess I'm going to go out running with my roommate now. I just typed this thing up in like five minutes. It seems like I'm trying that method of just writing anything on here so I could catch up again very quickly. I'm not really too focused about quality right now because I just want to meet that goal of catching up to my average of one post per day.

From the get go, there's a lesson that could be learned easily in my blog. Basically, when you leave behind something then coming back to it you will have to work harder to catch back up and get up to speed. It's also a lot easier to develop a routine and follow it because it just feels like things are flowing more smoothly than the times you just failed to do some tasks and now are going spontaneous over completing some tasks.

Whoopi

Shytopi! It's just a word I made up- it doesn't mean anything but just gibberish that I would like to mean as something cool. What's cool is that my top ten posts have about a thousand viewers now. That's pretty much the core and meat of this whole blog. It's pretty awesome that for the little effort I put into making those most popular posts, it now enjoys some residuary of readers.

It totally feels like some people I've possibly influenced at that church- Hope of God doesn't want me to have a certain post up that pretty much represents some people in a negative light from me being truthful to the best of my ability. Therefore, they are clicking on other posts in the top ten area hoping that the post I have on the list will disappear someday. That's what I want to think at least. See, for myself I'm aware with what types of people could actually be reading this blog. However, this blog is beneficiary for the most so I don't seem to really care being honest about what thoughts are about jerks in particular so hopefully the jerks I write about will learn to be happy in the things I say about them on this blog.

Just Not In Mood Anymore

Seriously, this writing has become extravagantly a lot of posting. Obviously, from the five years that I have had this blog. Man, that is a lot. I have seriously been averaging about 300 views a month on this blog which isn't too bad. Man, I am feeling so uninspired by anything right now.

Basically, I feel very stable and so I guess I don't even care if nobody wants to read this blog anymore. I'm just like doing this by treating it like a homework assignment. So yeah, I can almost exactly tell how many visitors I received for the day. I think that makes things more scary for some people to read this blog now because it gives me an indication of how well I'm doing or how bad this blog is. However, I just don't care.

Just Typing Away

Honestly, there's really not much for me to write on here anymore but yet I'm keeping it going for some reason. In a way, it exercises a part of my mind because it helps me recall some events and put together some complicated pieces to a puzzle by writing it out. I no longer feel really boggled down to many things. I don't feel offended about people being direct with me which is actually good. I guess I used to have this feeling of sensitivity but I no longer really feel it effecting that much.

I don't even care when people call me this short guy when they're describing me now. I don't even care if they make fun of me behind my back for being short. I just don't plain care and feel like laughing when people are direct about it with me. Yeah, I guess I feel really happy enough now. I don't know what I'm really typing right now. It's just junk.

Think I'm Really Cured

Maybe a couple months ago, I was pretty timid inside and feeling very diffident about myself. For whatever reason, I no longer feel that way anymore and don't feel shy. Probably the only thing that bugs me every once in awhile is how I feel short and wish I was taller so I could appear more normal and average compared to others. Instead of that being so much of a problem anymore, it doesn't really bug me at all as it used to now.

I really feel like I'm paving a pretty successful road for myself. It's just going to be about having patience and letting that be a key role in getting somewhere. Okay peace.

Trying To Think Deeper

For whatever reason, I believe that a person as a whole can sometimes forget about the good times that came from doing what's right and then resort to doing other weird things to try to live a life for filling some type of void. I've heard about how during the 80s a large number of people were pretty much creative and a bunch of brainiacs and then as the culture coming into where we're at right now; well, living in current times isn't really all that supposedly wonderful or cut out to be.

One of the major reasons possibly people forget to do good in this world is because they just completely lose focus or want to be evil and have a different plan that doesn't go accordingly with a moral standard. Maybe, it's from wanting to do too much at a certain period and meaning to do good that we might get way too ahead of ourselves and create more unnecessary problems.

Something I'm sort of realizing is that it's easier if a person has access to someone who is blessed and knows what to do, like they were born for being in that position. The someone becomes something others could rely on for leadership and then learn to be satisfied. However, once a great leader passes away, it's like he or she becomes a difficult task to replace and something gets lost in the process. Maybe in general, a person doesn't really want to listen and do what pleases him and is deemed right.

Pumping In Some More

Writing on this blog is like working out because after I'm finished, I get to feel really sweaty hands and feet and then want to go take a shower or else I'll get a mondo headache from trying to move around in my sweat. The sweat keeps me cool, yes but I don't want it to get to the point where I'll feel really sticky and then feel like freezing at the same time because of the weather acting strange with me.

I'm just typing something stupid now because I'm just trying to put something on here so that I can catch up with the year already. I guess I'm getting pretty decent at doing something consistently now. This being one of them- I also have some day trading business going on now. It's not too great- so far I've only averaged about 10% growth in my account which would equal to about $100 profit for every $1000 I have in my account. I don't put all my money in- I only put in bits and pieces because that's how I like to roll. Therefore, if I put in too much and had one trade then the fun is over. It becomes pretty much a numbers game to keep it safe and realistic. It pretty much boils down to being patient.

Writing Just For The Heck Of It

To heck with it, I can actually teach while I'm nervous. My voice all quivers and I recognize it and for some reason I don't know why but I notice it. Afterwards, all the more it makes me laugh even though I was so concentrated on the situation. Even my boss who told me to give a brief introduction to stocks told me it was good after I finished. I didn't feel a thing while my voice quivered; I felt a little nervous because I was trying to find the right words to say and basing it a little at a relational level for dimwits.

I'm going to have to catch up sooner or later with this whole writing gig. I suck at writing right now; oh well even though I've been averaging about 300 views each month on a blog that probably isn't really worth that much to look at. I guess I have some influence like I said over these Hope of God church dwellers which I thought would never get out of my head. Even though I am writing about right now as I speak, it's not really that bad as I thought it would be. Lucky me, it took me awhile to see that they being bad girls and boys with me would actually mean good luck to me. They were like my lucky charms from treating me really badly.

Interesting Stats

For some reason, I did something that I have been disregarding. From the stuff I put on here, whether it's naughty or not, I also had about 400 views already this month. That's not really a lot compared to Internet standards. Obviously, I would get crushed impeccably by Internet giants like Yahoo! and MSN even though I don't like all of Google's products. Okay Google is like my number one wing-man when I need help on stuff that I'm not going to mention but the implication is true!

I normally have been averaging about 300 views a month which is not that bad for being a blog that isn't all that cut out to be. I guess I have influence over a very small population of people, like those Hope of God church dwellers I've been basically rooting very negatively about. I pretty much am doing things that I should be trying out even though I'm not all that great yet. Probably the hardest thing for me is to just be patient. The best part about this blog is that it actually represents me to some degree ever since I stated I was going to be honest on here. I have some fictional stories on here which actually mean something but I guess most people are not even going to touch it.

Getting Used To Dull Thinkers

I guess I have one of those heads that remember stuff people attribute as being bad because when I engaged in a few of those things, I didn't like it and pretty much, refrain from doing them on a pretty consistent basis. It's probably a rare occurrance for me to falter around other people with something I would hate doing except by myself and is seen as being pretty negative by others. The negative emotions associated with those negative events pretty much imprinted onto my large head and so it's been one of those things that I don't care to be influenced into it by some individual who thinks I should.

I understand now; I was always in a laughable situation when I was dealing with those screwed up young adults at Hope of God Church. I'm not saying they were trying to be bad morally, but their thinking was to be unaccepting of me and over something that should be relatively easy to accept. They just had some feelings they did not know how to get over; unresolved issues that just never found a fulfullment deep in their hearts. They were basing it in a very uptight manner which makes them appear basically stupid while judging it from a third person view.

It was so because even I was beating around the bush about the issue, friends and everybody who talked to me about it were agreeing that what they did was wrong. Lucky me, just that I didn't see it at the time. It's one of those situations again that gets easier when you hit the replay button after some time has passed and you're committed onto a road of success. If I even got a person who blocked me on Facebook agreeing with me with some type of good sign while communicating with him, then I guess he was agreeing with me somewhere that he was wrong too. I even had Betty Lam agreeing with me too somewhere down the line, even though she blocked me on Facebook too and was going through one of those female unawareness sessions. It's just that even though I had them agreeing- I guess I was like bloodthirsty for something very funny and disrupting to happen to them so that I could feel some sort of vengeance. I was just never satisfied with those responses which was very childish of me- I was really having a hard time refraining from feeling something very bad against them. Anyway, now that I'm seeing it I'm pretty glad that I didn't put them down or really hurt them with a malice intent.

Therefore, it's important to clear up misunderstandings because some people you know and love can be stupid sometimes. It just helps them to be more sharpened and confident about you if you can resolve something with them by being honest and in concordance with them in a relational manner. Things that you do not understand can happen, but being family and having been around doesn't mean you should be shy about not saying what you're doing to justify. It's just unfair to not listen like that anymore which they did and so they were being selfish over something stupid and caused a rift with others in the church.

Now Putting It Together

It took so long to place everything together. I guess I can share this on this blog because it seems like it doesn't matter how unique my ideas are because everyone isn't going to be able to follow what I'm doing. I'm just sharing what I've been up to because it's just pouring in some type of contribution to the idea department. I pretty much paid for it with my experience so whatever I feel comfortable about revealing, that's what I'm doing on this blog.

I see how I'm going to be able to build my resume now. Because I sold my old car which I got used to driving away and had some fun with, I pretty much cranked that baby up and had to let it go because it was not going to go anywhere. I'm glad there was a buyer who took it in- I dented it up too a little but got away with minor stuff. It's one of those things you never know what happened and thought you were lucky, but unfortunately, it just went there. Besides, the damage I caused was minimal so turning into a professional driver seems like a reasonable thing I could accomplish with plenty of dedication and hours going into it.

Since I have an I.T. degree technically and not doing anything with it, the heck with it I'm going to drive a school bus part time to have enough money to pay my bills and then volunteer for an organization that doesn't want to pay an I.T. professional. There would be no strings attached and it would look good on my resume anyway. Possibly, creative in fact. I'm also going in for a leadership role later at this one job I'm doing- I'm getting paid for the training and getting free food and lodging with it. It's pretty cool, but feels a little stale. I want to go back home now and start doing something better with my life. I'm glad the paid training and everything is going to amount to some managable job I could do and be able build some reputable resume. Also, I have two main independent contractor jobs related to my I.T. that I could also take advantage of to build my experience and in turn, become a really strong candidate for the I.T. world. I guess I didn't see how well I had it; it's so much easier when a person finds something and commits to it for something positive and then coming back to it again. It just made things make more sense for me.

One of Those Days

It's one of those days where I don't really feel like putting anything down right now, but I'm doing it anyway because I want to keep this thing going. In other words, I'm letting my focus overrun my desires to just leave this blog alone and not do anything. Because I'm starting to laugh again inwardly, I guess I'm feeling lively again. It's interesting how it only took me a few seconds to feel right at home again.

Being away from home, I am being greeted by others who are also away from home too. Most importantly, I'm noticing that females do notice me and seem to be acting quite friendly with me. I'm not lying- I guess females like guys who get some type of recognition for something positive. It doesn't matter if the female is almost taller than six inches compared to me- it just seems to be not an issue. The saying goes that love conquers all.

The reason for writing this up is because I'm just trying to logical about something complex I've struggled with through my almost nine years of legal adulthood. The things I've worried about don't really matter now that I look at them, as it felt it did when it first felt placed upon me. Just having like this form of personal stability is awesome. I don't feel so turned off as I did too or even get almost significantly hurt like it felt when someone just didn't want to do anything with me.

No Longer Beating Around the Bush

For myself, I've noticed that being directly honest with something or someone has been very beneficial for me. Sure, I might have caused some people to get mad and yell at me or whatever but in the long run, it's better because the person I'm going to be dealing with the most is myself. It really doesn't bother me that much over people hating me because I'm better than them; well obviously yeah, it makes sense. I mean to do well, but even though I might feel a little angry and shot up with adrenaline it seems like I enjoy taking the time to reflect on the circumstance and just laugh about it. It helps me relax and see that maybe there's another justly resolution to the conflict.

I can't cover a lot more than I would like to on this blog because of my commitment to try to keep it G-rated. I guess I can try to describe it in more practical terms which might actually be funny. Basically, I know that Lee liked me in some sort of way that was intended for being more than just friends. Even if she denies it, the evidence points reasonably in this direction I'm elaborating on. Boy, I would even myself believe it too if I did what Lee did and then later heard the reasons I'm about to reveal.

Maybe, Lee was mad because she didn't like it when I was trying to constantly talk to Annie Tran and Betty Lam. These girls are older and I don't mean to put down the other Annie Tran's and Betty Lam's in this world; it just happens that I'm dealing with common names so the protection of the women's identities I'm writing about is also authentic- lucky me, I get to vent all I want if I want to and laugh about it on here for years and years to come.

Unfortunately, Lee has a very unique name like mine so she's basically someone who can get highly singled out. I think Lee has the look of an average girl and at certain times she appears less appealing. I also have reason to believe that she may be still single and the guy that might be compatible with her the most in terms of upbringing is actually a dud! Another person who can also get singled out is an Chinese-American dummy named Washington. People actually laugh in the beginning when they hear the name Washington given to a Chinese guy. Washington actually roots for any sports team with the name of Washington like the Red Skins and Nationals. According to a friend, there is some reason to believe that he could be highly into both men and women. Keep in mind, I'm keeping this G-rated so my implications also include me laughing about it internally.

Reason for bringing up Lee and Washington is because they both did something negatively special to me. The reason for saying they did something special even though it's negative is because they were crazy at the time thinking they could better my life with something and failed epically. Hey, it happens and sometimes even though it didn't feel like it at first- it's victory on my end. Victory, victory- that's my battle cry!

Before I Go To Sleep

Before I go to sleep, there's somebody there. Somebody, why won't you leave me alone? Why won't you take your buttocks back home? Basically, I'm sitting here typing away in an air-conditioned room that's set up like a dorm and I'm going to a school while getting paid for it. On top of that, I don't have to pay for any food or the lodging; furthermore, I pretty much get like my own fitness trainer and get to maintain my weight and have a decent level of physical level. All of this comes with a price of course which is leaving home. That's pretty much the most expensive cost to this whole venture I'm partaking in.

I actually have a monthly salary which is like a first for me. In a sense, it's not really that bad and I wouldn't mind increasing my salary just like probably any practical human being wouldn't mind getting. I remember professors at my college demanding a raise in their salary. I was like what the heck. Okay it's getting dark in here because my roommate turned off the lights. Time to sleep.

Staying In Check

Pretty much I see myself in some time constraint right now so I'm going to be doing what my regular schedule has intended me to do. I notice that some T.V. stations actually do this by editing out some boring parts of a re-run and then cutting to the chase after airing some related thing like raising money for their station or emergency news.

Okay, so I guess it's really all interconnected now so what's the point of me staring at a television screen for so long now. I think there are more entertaining things to do then just doing something so pointless like that. I remember watching The Simpsons, a pretty funny and long-time animated series that runs during prime time. In that episode, one of the minor characters gets married and then starts badgering her husband who is a main villain in the show by wanting to view a T.V. show and then getting very cranky and telling her husband to stay quiet while he wanted to spend some quality time with her. I can understand how some kids and stupid young adults act this way when they are playing World of Warcraft.

Those things may be annoying when it happens, but what's interesting is that it's pretty funny. Therefore, if I had a child who did that to me, I would boot him out the door and when he comes back, his computer gets to go to the garbage truck or temporarily that is. I would be like "That's what you get Son. Get out of my roof! I paid for it so now it's trash."

Also, I wouldn't go this far but the main villian had one of his murderous rage reoccur and tried to kill his wife in the show and couldn't do it in the end. His main distraction is now dealing with a boy in that show with yellowish skin and who wears a red shirt with blue shorts all the time and likes to ride a skateboard. Good times, good laughs!

Description of Anger

Sometimes there's smart anger and other times, there's stupid anger. I believe that some people don't realize that their anger is causing them to be dumb sometimes and don't really care so much about it and possibly laugh about it underneath when they commit something really bad like murdering another person. This is how mobs are sometimes formed, which is based on some irrational and stupid beliefs. They don't care about how if they're right or wrong sometimes because they're just raised a certain way and can't accept sometimes about others not wanting to conform to them.

That being said, I understand and know what those girls like Betty Lam (Alhambra, CA) and Annie Tran (Australia??? No clue) were sort of looking for when they blocked me on Facebook. Sometimes in life, certain people like those girls I'm mentioning can't control certain outcomes and they just want to feel some sort of empowerment in their lives. It's actually worth laughing about which is probably what Betty and Annie wouldn't want me to do the most. Since I'm laughing now, they're pretty much entailed to go on accepting how they were being moody and etc. and try to let it wear off by playing dumb or something or just beating it around the bush in conversations.

That being said, if I state something reasonable whether they don't want to accept it or not; it's basically reasonable because I'm a guy and they are pretty much women that others can traditionally view them as in that regards. Therefore, I get to live very happy in the end and have some fun and possibly show them how I'm doing this and share it with them. I might actually be of some help to them even though I am short. It's a no-brainer that Betty and Annie were both dealing with something in their lives that they were having some trouble keeping up with.

Pretty much to get them to accept me again as a friend on Facebook, I have to be the big guy and initiate the process. What they're looking for is some sort of subtly. I could have just said that I love them for who they are and actually care about their situation and then genuinely mean it and it would have been enough to end their fiery tempers with me.

Living Water

Water is basically a substance made from combining hydrogen and oxygen and held together in a liquid state. It helps people live because they get thirsty sometimes and if no water is intaked then pretty much the person might dehydrate and possibly catch a heat stroke or something worse. It's pretty much something that helps regulate the body's temperature and also ensure the blood is circulating properly.

I just typed that description up from the top of my head. It's just making me laugh a little because it sounds really cheesy to put on this blog. I pretty much have nothing else to put so I'm just typing about random stuff for laughs. Jesus in the Bible claimed that he knew of something called living water- the type of water where no man would never need to thirst again once he drank it. Jesus was referring to something really spiritual- a type of contentment that is difficult to obtain in this world without first accepting the state our personal lives are participating in.

Jesus pretty much claimed to be the savior of this world; no matter how many times doubters want to say Jesus did not claim to be God or did not exist or whatever to offset the beliefs of the population, the concept of Jesus just doesn't end. In fact, Jesus is cited as being the most important figure in Western History and on top of that, there's also Easter and Thanksgiving to worry about besides just Christmas or what some people want to state X-mas because it offends them.

It's too bad for some people that Jesus can't be profiled as a nut like some renowned philosophers or religious leaders have been prone to. Oh yeah, there's a lifestyle that Jesus lived which was pretty much dirty because obviously he didn't wash his body for about thirty days completing a fasting ritual. On top of all this, witnesses state Jesus taught new concepts that blew the water off of contemporary religious concepts back in the day. No matter how much contradictions want to be stated; it converges into painting a historical and reliable picture of Jesus. It's just so much that accepting it based on these reasonable and historical observances can be seen as common sense.  

Carrying Forward

Right now it's pretty much just a session of writing about anything now because I believe that I pretty much put up this month's quota or something close to it by now. Anyhow, I don't really have that many ideas to keep writing up on here. I must be like a blogging junkie right now because I have nothing else to put now, and I'm like all out of ideas now and out of steam.

Actually, being angry isn't good but in a sense it might have had some entertaining value for me in respect to the things I wrote and generated. I can seriously make taller people feel disparaged to the point that even if they were to be mad at me, they wouldn't really be able to do anything about it. I would just be one of those types that they would feel is a lost cause but at the same time, I'm pretty much seen as smart by them at the same time. Basically, this entails them ignoring me in part of their daily life as their strategy.

I totally understand it's because they just want to be selfish and let go of some anger they don't know how to really drive out. I'm getting rid of mine by writing on this blog pretty effectively and has been a pretty safe outlet for me.

Pretty Much Not Flowing

I'm at one of those states right now where my writing isn't really going to be that inspiration because my mind just feels so worn out. Also, I don't fully feel comfortable right now with what I'm doing so I guess that's why it feels a little stale right now. Regardless of this, I'm still going at it because I simply just can. It sort of has some similarity in performing a job because when the going gets tough sometimes, you want to still stay at that one job and get paid for it.

With finding where I am at, I guess it's getting there and making more sense each day. The more I try my best at situating myself with something, the better I have the likelihood of getting it to occur. The hard part is just waiting it out while working hard for something. It happens that I don't seem to really care that much anymore with the things that used to bug me. Okay, it's time for me to get back into some day trading business and hopefully I will break it open and succeed at it.

Making Proper Strives

A lot of my energy seems to be derived from how awake I am. When I am tired, I'm learning to pretty much still deal with the exhaustion and still perform work at something. What I have noticed for myself is that when I stay relaxed even while I'm tired, I can still be awake and do what needs to be done. I think that's the first thing that my body feels when I awake from a nap most of the time, which is relaxation. Therefore, if I put my body in a constant state of relaxation then I probably won't need that much sleep anymore for myself.

I'm actually starting to do some complicated stuff now and sort of understanding it. The places I'm going are challenging and don't really have that much competition because it seems like the majority of people don't want to put themselves in that type of jam. The majority of people also have what seems to be called reasonable fear at attempting stuff which is probably what limits them from getting farther. As long as there is some type of contentment involved then I guess it really doesn't matter how much one accumulates in this world. I personally just have a vision that I want to live by, so that's why I make my own strives.

Typing One More For Kicks

Obviously, I'm just typing away here mindlessly still and going to probably be doing this for awhile. Along with making bad typos and not really paying attention to my grammar sometimes, I guess I'm just going at it on a binge. The reason why I do this is because I need to get caught up with my posting so that I can average one per day. Obviously, I'm behind like another month so it probably surprises me that I can write up to sixty posts in one sitting which is the remaining amount I have just that I don't do it because it would be very boring.

Okay, so the world is flat because I said so. Not really, it isn't. It's like a sphere cut into four hemispheres. Thinking about the Earth as a whole feels really depressing especially because it feels empty in that kind of regards even though there are about four billion people on Earth. I guess that's how some people might feel about others- very depressed at them because they disappointed them.

What can I say? It's just the way it is. It's good to just relax and not worry so much. There are people who will call you for whatever, so it feels like for every hundred people I know is on my Facebook, there's one person who likes to call me every once in awhile. I only know 300 people- oh well, I can get a little possey going; yay! I know a male and a female. Woo hoo, if humanity depended on me with those two people who call me, then well- see what I mean? I've even been texted by several others which would put better odds in my favor.

Need To Start Off Somewhere

Now, I understand something about video games. They can sometimes be really boring and pointless! Yet because of this addictive behavior, some players just keep on eating away more hours and missing their dinners or not taking out their girlfriends or not even doing their homework and being called a bunch of bad boys in school. What's really the point of playing if the game isn't fun anymore? So that one guy plays more than you and he ends up killing you and you want to play better than him but the game just happens to turn boring. It's either living that same old scenario over again or just going making a living and being bored in the real world. There are two forms of boredom here; which one is the better choice?

Some gamers still would say gaming is better. Personally, I want to agree too and wish the world was simple as seeing black and white. I guess there's nothing to it then and just letting it be. Maybe spending those few extra hours with the person you're going to marry doesn't really hurt when it's about letting go of being bored with playing games. Maybe working towards a promotion doesn't hurt so much when the paycheck appears a little larger.

No Competition

Where I'm headed, there's pretty much no competition because there's a demand for them. I think I'm going to drive a school bus and deal with crazy kids whereas some people wouldn't even want to drive for a living and probably could handle raising no more than four kids at once! Economically speaking, this is where I get to justify my points whether people like it or not or feel like it's going against them so they start picketing.

Basically, about half of the driving population have been in a traffic accident and are probably scarred for life in having the desire in driving a big, scary freight truck to earn a living. Furthermore, it's not a job for everyone; especially being away from home for a long time and having to deal with some headaches of sitting there and staring at the open road which is pretty much everyday and all day. Therefore, driving a school bus is like that just that it's for only a couple hours and also getting to discipline rowdy kids. I think those little devils will make me laugh a lot and I'll be like "I'm going to tattle-tell" to the school bully and make fun of him while he can't do anything about it and all the other kids start laughing.

I guess I have the personality to lead a group of kids; that being said, there's no competition for that kind of job for me so I'm in it for the money. It's a part time job and when I get out, I could use that money to invest so I could at least double my annual income; therefore, I would get to work half of the time than others would normally do and get their pay. I plan on doing this professional driving career until I rebuild a good credible work history and then if I can get promoted, then I'll upgrade my college degree and get certified in some areas so I could make more money.

Approaching Something

With my Facebook profile, I am now reaching 300 friends for all the mess I've accumulated in the past. "For Sparta!" My own team of Spartans is almost complete. I remember the day where I had like 250 friends and then like the next day, I lost 50 Facebook friends. Man, that was a bad and frustrating day. I call up one of those girls and she's like "Don't talk to me." I'm like, "What did I do?" even though I sort of knew and then she blocks me on Facebook. I must have caused her female emotions to worsen to the point that when she has one of those days, it exaggerates really badly against me.

It was like a small I.E.D. was set off in my Facebook profile and then it's like those 50 people were wiped off the face of the Earth because I'm so narrow-minded. They technically like don't exist to my eyes- it may be different for others. Like I said this I.E.D. analogy doesn't apply for everybody.

For What It's Worth

I mentioned a few posts back that it was important for me to some online classes. Now, I realize they wouldn't serve me really any purpose except just tickle my brain cells. There's no reason for me to take them because they would absolutely be useless from where I'm at right now. Until the day I reach a profession that would require me to obtain a Master's, I'm not really going to go after it. I know that I have the mental capacity to obtain one, but it would just be too much of a costly transaction for me while I need to make some end's meet.

Perhaps, when I have everything I need and have all the time in the world, then maybe I might go for practicing medicine so I can operate on weird people and tell them why their body is so messed up for laughs! Basically what you eat sometimes is what you get- tons of blubber. Hey, I would also want to care for regular people too. It would be easy to see that a mean person is a regular person too if he or she writes a big check. It's just the way it is.

Funny Stuff

For now I honestly can say that I'm being paid a salary bi-weekly. The pay sucks but the compensation includes free lodging and food. Basically, my house could have blown up from being bombed by terrorists and I would still be alright and getting paid because I'm staying somewhere else! It sort of sucks being away from home but what's fun is that I'm earning pay as I learn and improve my physical conditioning.

People have stated that I'm really small but it doesn't really bother me anywhere. It doesn't bother me standing shorter than most Caucasion people; oh well, that's just the way it is. I feel like being mad just like how it seems with others. It's that expressionless look on those people's faces when the guy is standing next to a taller woman- it's just classic.

It doesn't really matter, as long as the shorty can still have fun and enjoy the presence of the respected tall person and vice versa. Eh, it's okay I guess and doesn't really matter if it still doesn't bother the respected persons after being badgered by others about it. There's no reason to feel like being controlled just because you stand shorter than somebody else!

Embracing Myself

This is something that I'm finding myself doing a lot. Going after the best thing and not really settling on something second rate. It really takes having a lot of heart and obviously, I accept that I probably won't ever really be a popular person whose on like the top of the food chain especially where a lot of people go crazy over, such as never being a celebrity and famous athlete. Basically, I don't really see myself catching a break with those types of endorsements they can make and I'm okay with it.

Wherever I go now, I just need to have a lot of heart and work it to the best of my natural ability. I'm obviously going to strive at improving in life and enjoy the benefits that come out of it. I'm at a state now where my emotions just feel really relaxed, even though occasionally I feel a little shaken up from how I perceive my personal appearance. It usually leaves me inwardly smiling about it and not really caring so much about it when I become occupied in something.

Basically, how I'm setting up my life right now is pretty much working part time and investing the money in some things. It looks like it's pretty much the best I could do and something I'm going to have to live with in making a living for now. It totally makes sense to me and fits my personality. I personally understand this meaning of what it's like to be rigid and did the best I can to ameloriate my personal situations by tinkering with it. I totally see that the people who claimed to have control over my life at Hope of God Church in Los Angeles were being crazy with me. I heard that they want me back at their church and how their church has been struggling over lack of membership. It totally makes sense, and it really doesn't deal with what I did to make it happen; I was just a victim they wanted to scapegoat over.

I now have the power to influence a better direction with their messed up view of the world.

Economic Considerations

For some duration, I know how I've been making some decent posts in the past to have some fun. I'm starting to gain a whole lot of true confidence and ability to accept where I'm at while gradually coming up with a solution that might be hard, but something I can be patient about engaging in. From where I'm at, it really is a lot about having patience and letting that be a key to my success.

I don't really need any more schooling now, except for making some classes be like a fun hobby. It's not really going to inspire me or help out with a better job with my messed up job history. The only thing I can do now is just take something that pays well assuredly and something that doesn't have a lot of competition with people.

I'm just going to have to accept it and take what I can while building up some credible work history again. Maybe, I can try to marry a nice and smart woman who has a good job so that I could have a little wiggle room too with myself. I think I'll just keep an open mind about it and go for the very best I can naturally obtain and be content about it.

Head Is Starting To Click

For example, network engineering is a great field to be a part of. It deals with working with computers to set up a complex network which involves maintaining a smooth infrastructure to ensure information can transfer in a secure manner from one computer to another. Most of the job descriptions state you need at least a year's worth of related experience to even apply for this type of job which honestly sucks. 

Therefore, even though I really think think these I.T. jobs would be great. Probably the best way in getting these jobs from schooling would have been going to a really well-reputable school. Unfortunately, I didn't get into one of those and pretty much wasted some years in my life completing a degree that won't really ever be of any use to me.

The first step is always embracing what sucks in the stupid actions I conducted, no matter how much I thought it was smart in the beginning. Next step is now figuring out what to do about it.

Creating Opportunities

For myself, I'm the type of person who can find ways to get what I need but in the process I will have to sacrifice something I really value. At the same time, I would have to take the long and hard journey through like a 20-year trip making it out of the wild. Literally, it wouldn't be that long but that's how much it feels for me at an emotional level because I really would have to let something go for awhile.

I'm the type who has a little trouble letting go of grudges even though I eventually manage to do it or force myself on the spot to do so, if need be. Grudges are just not worth losing any sleep over- it's just a waste of energy and time over doing something meaningful like enjoying the moment of having comfort with family and friends. I'm being really flexible in making a living for myself but when I get home, I'm seriously going to ask what some people do and how much they make because I'm going to weigh that in with whatever interests me now.

Analyzing Future Moves

My mind is actually feeling really cleared up and in the zone for thinking some common sense now. Here's a rude awakening- sense is common but common sense isn't! I will share how people can literally make money in the best way I know it. The only thing is that I'm passing on free information here, just that the action to take it is entirely up to the person or not.

To make this a little easier for myself to blog, I think I'll just use myself as an example. I'm going to assume that the majority of people don't know jack and can't get a job. I'm going to think about how a friend who I think is a loser because he hasn't held a job that lasts longer than three months and been sitting on his butt all day playing video games and then lifting weights for a year now can get a job.

This loser type friend is the worst of the rock-bottom. The way he talks in private with you is so filthy and when he talks he just starts laughing and you can't understand him too. It catches on to you and makes you laugh too, but still he's a loser. He graduated from high school by default and even failed his special education classes, which means he's very unmotivated at maintaining a profession and can't follow simple directions, except when it comes to modeling. Unfortunately, he isn't tall enough in the shallow world of modeling no matter how much he insists his abs are getting stronger. It's so sad that it's really funny. So here's how this friend I know can get a job.

First off, find an organization that takes in large amounts of people related to your skill level. Bascially, my friend would need to find a company that wouldn't mind taking in dunces. I can see how a legit modeling agency would apply but he wouldn't really be that accepted as handsome from how he is. Secondly, apply to them. Some positions that might be good for him with where he's at may be the lowest ranking soldier in the military and packaging companies.With packaging companies laying off workers from going broke and also being picky on who they want to keep, he would probably need to be a soldier too and risk his life. However, he values his sorry life so much and can't make the transition into becoming a soldier. I think he'd be a bad seed too, so in a way his attitude would need to change for the better which probably won't ever.

Feeling Lucky With Betty =)

Even with Betty Lam (Alhambra, Ca) having hated me in the past over something she couldn't resolve within herself, I was lucky with her too. I'm making a theme about how fortunate I was in dealing with some women. It's actually pretty comical because I'm a short dude and in those Japanese anime, it's actually funny when all these women end liking a short guy no matter how perverted it sounds. The short guy usually ends up hating it and getting all scared with women making it even more comical in those anime.

I might have to cut this post short because I might seem like I'm disrespecting Betty. It sort of seems like she's still single and interested in looking for the one or just going through the motions of life right now. Despite those shortcomings Betty actually has in things she couldn't control like some medical issues, they don't really interfere with her cute personality or physique. A slight change doesn't really change her attractive appearance with me honestly in an overall sense. Maybe, those fickle events she dealt with might make Betty feel a little diffident; she was actually serious when I was sort of questioning about being in a relationship with her. She was just personally direct and then my face went all red and I couldn't talk anymore. Betty is also taller than me too, but it looks like she can shrug it off and take it all the way with me too. I must be one lucky short guy in this world. All I could say to Betty while she had her moment is "I don't want to do anything bad to you." Her mannerism was actually something I couldn't get mad at anymore; what a breakthrough. It probably makes sense for others to be able to do this too with her.

Exploring My Style

My style is something that never really pertained to me in the beginning. For myself, it looks like I enjoy writing things on here to make myself laugh when I go back to look at it. I have also adopted a boring and mature tone too for some reason; it's like a tone that's suitable for writing essays and doing research papers. My little sister has even suggested that I should write a paper for her which she was stressing out over one time because I actually enjoy the challenge of doing them.

One of my professors in school took one of my papers I wrote and gave it an A+++ and didn't give it back to me. I was like "What the heck?" when I last time saw him. I just nodded okay and thought he was crazy that he wanted to turn it into an example for his future classes. The topic is something that interested me a lot so I guess I was bound to put something good on it even though I completely forgot what I put on there and wasn't even thinking about what I was putting on there. I just did it all mindlessly and tried to make it look nice and organized. With all those facts I put on there, I guess something a person like me is going to get lucky from doing something I never intended happening.

I was even lucky because a taller girl who I thought hated me actually ended up liking me in the end and wanted me to hang with her. She was really cute and I was fighting these urges of chasing after her because I didn't want to get rejected by her. In a way, I was angry because I was too shy to go up and scared about getting rejected; it was so stressful and I was doing my best to hold it. For some time that passed later, she initiated trying to do a pick up move on me. Looking back, yeah I was lucky there.

This would definitely mean that size in a woman I become attracted to might actually not matter. I also get attracted to women in a pretty efficient manner so when one doesn't go so well, okay, I'm going to try to make it work if I ever commit myself but the saying goes there's a lot of fish in the sea.

There was another taller, sweet and very pretty girl who talked about getting in a relationship with this pretty hunky tall guy and she showed signs of personally liking me. Wow, even she was impressed by me and I was lucky there too.

One of those weird guys I talked about having wives now even were personally courteous to me when I was around them and it looked like those weird guys would jealous with me being around their girlfriends. I've actually been experiencing a lot of luck with even without me noticing them.

This whole luck thing isn't really a curse; it's something to embrace- that's why it's been easy for me to communicate with really cute girls now and see them as friends and accept what they feel their needs are best suited for them. Overall, I might have an ability to attract the opposite sex despite me being incredibly short as a guy; this could be something that I'm not even really aware of. The only challenge is for me to laugh it off in walking up to the alter to get married around other so-called giants if the woman I fall in love with decides to accept my proposal.

Writing Through A Cold Funk

Whether it feels foolish or not, meaningless or pointless, I'm just continually making attempts to fill up this blog with my own personal writing. I've had about four years of doing this personal style of mine and last year, I saw a major development which was actually understanding what I was putting on here. Even the posts from awhile ago, it just brings back tears of laughter when I read them and also some suspense and recalling some things I didn't want to let go of.

From the get go, it was just something I decided to do without putting a whole lot of thinking into it. Now, I just want to write about something to express something without leaning towards any merit for it. I guess that being said, I'm never really going to pursue a career out of writing. I think I would rather do this for fun and even get to a point of just writing a story to publish someday and not expect it to be a big hit or anything. I'm not in it for making the big bucks from something like this.

I'd rather be making big bucks doing something that's much more easier like learning to trade stocks which is also considerably hard but for me, it's something that excites me and I have had some recent successes in doing it. 

Something New For A Change

My mind and body don't feel so fed up anymore over adversity or feelings of great annoyance. Much like how I learned to stay awake in class even though I'm really exhausted, I have learned that it is possible to reconcile with it everyday. I don't need to justify calling people names or bickering about how they're bothering me anymore. I see a direction that's far greater with where I want to take things now.

From taking little hints now, it seems like some of the guys I actually called weird are now married. It only brings a smile on my face now, and I can't really make fun of it because it personally is something I like to respect. I'm just smiling about it quite a bit more than when they weren't married anyway. I can't judge them in that area of whether it's smart or dumb.

To say the truth, I think I have to be the better guy in that sense. This being a bigger guy deal doesn't even matter if the person is short, I'm so serious. It's just sort of funny if the short guy ends up marrying a really tall woman- there isn't really anything wrong with it in a colloquial manner.

It's always been right under my nose. It's something that can't be forced into your system. For myself, it's just something that you learn to embrace and deal with to have the opportunity of going after the best and most wonderful things in life with what you have.

Sensing Better Changes

With my confidence level skyrocketing passed the roof, I'm expecting more better things to happen now. Like I mentioned in my last post, it's like learning to ride a bicycle for the first time sometimes. Things may get rough but if you keep hauling to gain experience then you'll succeed with happiness in something. Yes, I want to keep ties with Scriptures and I do have a church that I try to affiliate with. The sermons feel so dry sometimes but it gets the job done because it's like getting a history lesson and personal encouragement from the pastor who actually shares his 30 years of serving in a ministry.

For awhile I was in a questioning mood, but I feel like they're more toned down now. I mean searching for those answers have only blessed me with more certainty in my direction. A main thing I'm noticing is that people should really learn to love one another at a fully comprehendible level and be harmonious with each other. It doesn't mean that evil won't ever stop in this world and to not do anything when some evil dictator comes along again. It's just having respect for one another still and being there for our buddies when they need us so that we can go home together and enjoy our lives. It's about participating in a world worth being a part of.

Seeing Doors Open

I believe that I might have made a wise decision with where I'm headed. By simply initiating things that I solely desire and yes, keeping it in alignment with Scriptures, I see myself improving and on my way to becoming one of the best at it. I read a pretty good illustration; it's like learning to ride a bicycle for the first time- without those training wheels it may get tough. It was also tough for me to transition from roller skates into roller blades. It brings good memories in learning to ride a bicycle; I can honestly state that I was a good brother during those times because I was the first one to help and watch my sister ride a bicycle. I just told her to push those pedals, and I'm lucky no driver interfered with our small street.

Okay, I had some good luck with females too- I thought I was a plain loser all this time. The effects of puberty are just about wearing off of me now; it's not really about what's on the outside when obtaining inner happiness can be obtained through true love. In a way, this also reflects somewhat with my bread winning ability too now. I'm much more confident and my emotions are becoming stable to a point where I know how to hang onto focus still and endeavor to succeed at something by meeting a perfect standard.  

Living In the Moment

Living in the moment is sometimes ineffective because it seems to have its negatives just like every other person does in this whole wide world. The only person who isn't without any flaws is me; yeah for sure. No, okay, I'm making a big mistake- I know. The world revolves around me or you- no, it doesn't I know.

People don't like being made fun of in general. That's just a relative fact based on the laws of psychology and economics. That's why we sometimes should put on our armor which is our sense of humor and make fun of ourselves just for fun. Like the other day at around two in the morning, a person I know tried to injure himself really badly like cutting himself with a razor. Why? I thought that was a female thing.

My point is that the guy was funny when he made fun of himself. During that time, he was equipped with armor which is having a sense of humor. I think it's important to not lose it once it's been put on. There are times when we'll be off guard but sometimes it's good to hussle and put back on the armor to protect ourselves from people being dumb with us.

Mind Is Feeling Busy

I'm pretty much typing away right now because I feel really empty inside from being a little worn out after working out. I just turned on this Mac machine and then started blogging. As boring as this routine feels sometimes, it's actually inducing some happy and jolly feelings inside of me. I guess I like to laugh on the inside while looking serious on the outside. I tell people that I'm thinking about money and what I want to do with my wife most of the time. I've heard it's actually quite typical for guys to think this way while they end up laughing and also saying it's good stuff.

It isn't really that hard to relate if you keep it honest and going after the best quality stuff in this world. There's really no need to feel like you're being brought down by something else. It's just better to accept the situation and do what's needed to get to a better state. There's really no need to feel depressed all the time, no matter how rough life seems. I mean I have had my days where I felt disappointed in myself but I never let that get to me so much like a few people I know have. I guess there's this undying confidence of being alive and living for something meaningful; I think that's where God fits in for me.

Getting Used To Working Out

It looks like in the morning, I go out to pretty much work out. My body just feels great after the work out, regardless of how much sleep I had the night before. It's pretty nice that having to work out and getting paid for it is actually cool. I actually get paid to train on learning a technical subject. On top of that, there's free lodging and food so pretty much I get to have all this money to myself. It isn't that much as I would like it to be yet, but it's a good start.

I think I've developed a harmonious state where I'm pretty much squared away now. Everything that I'm doing has a purpose and on top of that, there are a lot of benefits I am experiencing. I'm going to continue working hard and figuring out things to go after the best stuff. I might as continue to write about some of these things that I'm going after and look at is as a goal.

Tough One

I was asked to guard a position from midnight to 6 A.M. After taking a whole day to carouse with some jocular-inducing substances along with a bunch of guys who bought these substances- I myself invested $60 of these stuff. Boy, what a ducey. Staying up for six hours straight when it's time to go to sleepy time was an epic fail for me. Here's why?

I wanted to look professional at all times so I didn't play with my cell phone. Also, I wanted to constantly stay relaxed because it helps me stay up. I was also reading a book while my mind was tired. I was stuck on the first couple sentences and then my mind shut down. I would probably wake up every 15 minutes after, until the guy in charge walked up next to me and asked "Are you all right, partner?" I felt so embarrassed. He told me to go out and get a soda and the other guy next to me was ordered to do the same. We walked out into cold weather of probably about 40 to 45 F with the wind blowing. It was like cold water was rushing through all my body- it felt nice even though it was freezing. The walk to the vending maching woke me up and then going back into the warm ventilated room, it felt good.

This time was my mind was awake for the last one and a half hours and I wasn't going to doze off again. What I missed was, I didn't stand up and walk around while I was extremely drowsy. I kept on trying to read a book that is known for being pretty tough to read in those instances- I was looking at a lot of text. I was reading the Old Testament about Jews reaching their promised land and all of their dry customs they were required to practice. Boy, it was a tough one!

Suiting Up And Getting Somewhere

I am pretty happy about where I am in that when I give my full effort to get something done then more often than not even if I fail during that moment, I can go back to it later to catch up if I want to. Anybody has this potential, there's this guy who is pretty much a dumb guy- a dummy I should say. The dummy took a basic algebra class in college and failed it five times. I told him to keep going and to not give up- there's something he's doing wrong. He showed me his homework and he was just repeating something that didn't need to be done. Like his homework was pretty much doing addition from 1+1 until he got up to adding 10 digits. That is really time consuming and he was saying the reason why he failed the class is because it's baloney.

Okay, from this example, don't be a dummy and then become stubborn as a mule about it. Man up and feel the pain of failure and then examine what could be done to bring yourself back up. Don't just soak in anger and bitterness and not listen to anyone and then start becoming unsociable. It's just so unpleasant because he has actually been rejected by all the women he's tried to form a relationship with. He's in it for the wrong reason and creating babies is what he's afraid of even with contraceptives lying around, so he's really screwed for being a bitter dummy and making slightly retarded jokes to make himself laugh.

He's like at a point of return where his personality isn't going to change. Being around a lot of frustrating co-workers, I guess I've learned how to laugh to let stuff go now. I can seriously damage people with the details I cover because I'm being truthful about it and not really committed to doing anything with them. In fact, this form of critique is something that I do to let go of my steam and to laugh at the person so I can still fight to form a relation with the person and try to be nice to; regardless of how annoyed I get by him.

Systematic Way of Thinking

In a holistic sense, there's a way I think just like everybody else. It seems that a lot of it centers on going after the best thing now. Some people just hold themselves back thinking that they are indulging too much on life or just want to be lazy which is comical to think about. Anyhow, it doesn't hurt to take a little part of the day to think about making improvements and trying to settle on the best things that you believe you were born to be happy about.

I guess when life gets depressing, it's really hard to think about the best stuff that would make you happy. Like, it could feel like being in a really boring job for days and just doing it for a paycheck and mainly having pride in only that. There's way more to it that could be about going after; one of the drawbacks is that honestly, it can be very difficult to get the best quality in places where it's offered. This might be in a way debilitating and create some funky emotions in a person. I personally understand it and feels like I've actually conquered some of those emotions now.

That being said, with the incident of a slightly older female who said she loved me being angry about not following her wishes of never trying to communicate with two other women (hint hint, Betty Lam and Annie Tran),  she isn't really the best quality type for me. I'm writing this while laughing. I can't really compare Lee to a product, but I'm just judging the profound surface that relates to everything. Also, the church Lee associated with rubbing against me and having attempted to throw me onto the curb, I can't say that church is the best place that God has to offer also.

In honesty, I am glad that I never tried to form a marriage with Lee because I would really want to smack myself on the forehead today if I did something like that. I am also glad that I didn't try to seriously pursue after Betty and Annie because I'd be like "What am I thinking?" Anyway, I was more attracted to Annie in a physical sense but I hated her in a spiritual sense because I was against her cons. I'm more attracted to Betty in a spiritual sense but her physical sense is also not that bad too. I think Betty has the capability of embracing who she is and that's what makes her powerfully beautiful, so in a way, I can treat Betty like another friend now and calm her down relatively easy now. In fact, bringing up these emotions that girls typically feel; I guess it isn't always so hard for a man to examine their needs a little to make their life more meaningful and to be a good man.

Good Review For MacBook Pro

Honestly, I've used this MacBook for only a few days now and I am really impressed with its features. Surely, it's an expensive product but the money that goes into purchasing one of these really makes up for power and convenience. One of the comparisons I'm finding is that these laptops really save a lot of power in that with a very fast processor, one would expect the power to drain but instead this laptop estimates at least five hours of run time. With an i7 processor which is another way of saying, the fastest line of processors out there at this time and still managing to conserve for five hours straight while running only on battery, then that's some really good quality compared to other laptops out there. Along with this laptop being the lightest out there with a meager four pounds, it's amazing how this laptop would be really pleasing as a gift for a grandson or wife.

I honestly can say that this is one of the best products out there in the market at this time and that I'm really happy with this purchase. I also bought myself a convenient wireless mouse too that runs on almost any surface so along with that, it's pretty cool that my MacBook instantly tracked it and started working once I plugged in the little thing that covers a USB port.

Hey Have A Buddy

Yes, I have one follower on this blog. Woo hoo! One person is meaningful and then if it adds up to too many people then that's probably where headaches can sometimes form up. I realize that I had pretty good fortune for being the type of person I am- if I was smart enough in those opportunities, I might have been able to capitualize on them. Those situations are gone now and it's only something I can reflect.

It's now different times and things have evolved for me. It's really interesting in how my emotions cause me to react. The most powerful feelings occur to me when I'm feeling anger or agitated about something. Regardless of how much feelings interrupt myself, I've decided to be fully honest in every way, shape, and form to the best possible way.

Unique Workout

I actually have a workout that doesn't require a gym or any investment in equipment. For being a starter or intermediate athelete, I believe that's where most of us are. It's mainly having the dedication to give into working out- I know how hard it is to will the mind to do something that's hard and uncomfortable. However, when those emotions are conquered for doing something really beneficial and turns out to make the person happy then I guess that's what a part of success means.

Here's my work out, it feels really fast to get through it which means explosiveness and also it's very challenging for what it appears. It's like the concept is really easy, but difficult to master- as an analogy, easy to play but hard to master competitive games are the most addicting.

First off, do as many pushups as possible in 35 seconds. Be sure to have a wristwatch or something similar to a stopwatch to time yourself. Count the number of repetitions. Once you have done that- the result will be in that in two minutes, you will potentially be able to complete twice as many if you choose to continue working out. Sometimes, the body will give in more or less- it's just completely naturally.

Secondly, take a 55 second break and then put yourself in a push up stance with four points of contact. Basically leaning backwards will provide some stable rest. Once another 5 seconds have elasped totaling a minute, begin doing the first number of repetitions again. Ideally, it should be 45 seconds which would mean you are in good shape. However, if you're pushing yourself above your current max- it's okay to take small breaks as long as you complete the reps throughout the whole workout.

Thirdly, take another 55 second break and then get in the push up resting stance. Once 5 seconds have passed, begin doing more reps than the first set. This will be very challenging and the muscles will wear out. However, completing it will be the challenging part and provide a very stable workout. Ideally it should be completed in 1 minutes and 20 seconds.

Don't believe me? Try it out, you'll see how hard it is to do these push up drills. After finishing the third set, then do plenty of situps that would take awhile. Ideally, it's good to have someone hold your feet and test how many you can do in two minutes. This will be a good guage in how situps you should do. Let's take for example, the person did 50. The next step would be to subtract the total situps by 5 so the person would be doing 45 per round of doing those pushups.

Do two rounds of those pushups followed by situps and you will have a strong workout. If the person is very highly developed, then make it three rounds. For most people, two rounds will develop plenty of muscular endurance and strength. Do this every other day three times a week and take a 48 hour break on the last day- for example, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

Posting Status

Pretty much, it looks like I'll be making 366 posts this year because it's a leap year. I've actually hung on to this blog long enough to actually be able to claim that I'll be averaging one post a day out of the year. That being said, I have quite a bit of catching up to do. Anyway, I will hopefully sooner or later overtake this blog and complete those posts; however, I've found it really difficult to write on here everyday to have this perfect attendance kind of thing and alignment with my blog archive.

I feel content in having an average, so that is why I continue to make these pathetic attempts of writing really well and putting something up for people to admire over. Other than feeling offended every once in awhile over stuff that never resolves itself, I guess I'm doing alright.

Strategy In Staying Awake

From having been with only four hours a sleep a night, it was obviously very difficult for me to stay awake for classes. From where I have been, it's not a wonder why I was always up like that- especially with the intensity of not getting much food and also moving around the body really actively to different places. Yeah, I basically lost weight very easily and it was not even fat camp for me!

One day, my body just finally got it together and I managed to stay awake for a very boring six hour class while having barely three and a half hours of sleep. I will share how I did this because this may actually help some people be successful at their career or school if they have those ambitions and have been frustrated like I was in falling asleep.

There's basically one thing- it's to not stress out and force yourself to stay awake. It's pretty much relax while knowing you are in a very sleepy and tired state. It's like don't strain your eyes and relax them while you sit there. Basically, hold it there and not fall asleep. In other words, I like to call this being half asleep. While the brain waves are sending the body a sleep message, your body is actually getting a chance to sleep and nobody ever notices your half-awake because you have your eyes regularly opened. While in this status, it is also possible to continue taking notes and barely be able to participate in a class lecture.

After awhile, when the brain waves keep coming and make you feel tired, if done properly you will feel rejuvenated again and you'll be able to conduct some things while fully awake in the day! It's like feeling that morning stretch after waking up.