Willing my mind is starting to get really difficult again. I just have one area of key frustration for myself now, and it's really difficult to allow it to settle in because I fully don't know how yet. Without this full revelation, I wouldn't be able to carry forward in accepting those natural provisions provided for me.
There's a balance technique in how a person should pretty much stay focused all throughout the week and then reward him or herself by doing something really fun and could be done independently after completing some productive routines. I think that's what I should really focus on doing now.
My mind is still pretty addicted to surfing the web and gets fixated on some fantasies. I think I just have to learn to make sacrifices and accept the feeling of despair while letting those obsessive feelings run its course and focusing on doing some things.
I came up with these really cool ideas and it's like always pushed aside because my current raw desires can't just be put together and lead itself to accomplishing nothing. There's nothing to fear but fear itself. With all these concerns I personally have, I should learn how to cope with them in the most humanistic way for myself without really involving others in a selfish manner.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Disciplining The Mind
I feel so groggy from working really late and then sleeping in throughout the afternoon. It feels really weird having to shut my eye in the daylight when I just feel like getting up and doing stuff to have some fun before going into work. However, I know that I would be killing myself really badly if I didn't take in the required sleep for myself. Therefore, with responsibility I have to ensure that I get the adequate amount of the rest.
I guess that's the bare minimum for myself to survive my day which is to pretty much ensure that I get around ten hours of sleep for my graveyard shift. Obviously, I feel really well-rested right now that I could pretty put in the required work up until the wee-hours have passed. Nowadays, my falling asleep stamina has been a little better in that I'm getting tired between 4:30 and 5:30 am.
I seriously need to just let go of entertaining myself and invest in a busy schedule to ensure that I have some flow going on with my own life. I was pretty heavy on soul searching last year but it looks like I've gained a pretty fairground on what I really want to do with my life.
I guess that's the bare minimum for myself to survive my day which is to pretty much ensure that I get around ten hours of sleep for my graveyard shift. Obviously, I feel really well-rested right now that I could pretty put in the required work up until the wee-hours have passed. Nowadays, my falling asleep stamina has been a little better in that I'm getting tired between 4:30 and 5:30 am.
I seriously need to just let go of entertaining myself and invest in a busy schedule to ensure that I have some flow going on with my own life. I was pretty heavy on soul searching last year but it looks like I've gained a pretty fairground on what I really want to do with my life.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Paying Off My Bills
It's getting a lot better with this whole mess of working hard and paying off all my credit debt and school loans. I'm eventually going to be in the process of getting everything done and paid off! It's a process that's just going to feel so good. I don't feel so lonely anymore about some things. I think it's actually funny now when people just say negative stuff about me, and I get to hear about it.
I'm still going to work hard at obtaining what I need in life. I'm going to make a full effort now and just go in that direction. It seems like I do have plenty of decent friends who I can hang around with so it really doesn't matter who doesn't want to be friends with me anymore. It's just something that brings up some laughter and humor to my personal life.
I'm still going to work hard at obtaining what I need in life. I'm going to make a full effort now and just go in that direction. It seems like I do have plenty of decent friends who I can hang around with so it really doesn't matter who doesn't want to be friends with me anymore. It's just something that brings up some laughter and humor to my personal life.
Knowing How To Deal With Things
More and more each day, I'm becoming more equipped and it's like I'm becoming so unstoppable with many different things. As long as I tell the truth and labor really hard and just go after it very rapidly so that the opposition is like at a loss, then I think I'm okay with whatever I decide to go after. Already, I've made out a church as a major antagonist of my life and for good reasons where they wouldn't even be able to deny those allegations I'm making about them unless they just want to believe that I've never been there. They are absolutely going to have a hard time ignoring me and already, the church is at a loss and has become a mourning place for pity or in my case, I just get to point my finger at certain people and just start laughing.
The church over there could think like I'm the ultimate antagonist as well. I'll give them a picture to relate to- I'm like the Doomsday in the Superman comics. If they decide to get rid of me, then I evolve into an even stronger person and become even more harder each time. I will have that type of resiliency but I will also stand for justice too so they will look like puny humans to the mighty Thor!
The church over there could think like I'm the ultimate antagonist as well. I'll give them a picture to relate to- I'm like the Doomsday in the Superman comics. If they decide to get rid of me, then I evolve into an even stronger person and become even more harder each time. I will have that type of resiliency but I will also stand for justice too so they will look like puny humans to the mighty Thor!
Working With Time and Patience
I'm very good at this area of being patient and allowing timely events to favor me very heavily. It's something I like to take notice when dealing with all types of people who just act stupid while in the moment. I have emotions that can be vicarious meaning that I can potentially feel the devastation, depression, or happiness of any individual. Even though I have these feelings, I don't let it get to me no matter what the circumstances are in committing myself with doing the right thing and to be selfless as the ultimate act in my flair!
I'm just not afraid anymore about what happens to me. I'm just working hard to obtain my own satisfaction in this world. I'm also glad that I have to a better than starting level experience of getting to know what the real Christ was like. There are millions of Christs out there, which one would a believer or dyslogistic person be referring too? I'm referring to the one with strong evidence that paints a historical picture of Jesus found in the pages of the New Testament. I really love the seemingly contradictory passages and how it really gets people all amped up about saying that's enough proof without even digging deeper in to surface. There seems to be these really head strong and collected believers who just serve up embarrassment on a platter for those people. Christians are composed of people with great enormous diversity! Some of them can be a bunch of dumb bells at times and I won't lie either about myself. I've been thrown off and now coming to reason that I deserve God's wraith just as any other poor sinner in this world. It's just that Jesus came along one day and his message spread throughout many historical periods and had its place and now found his way into my heart.
I'm just not afraid anymore about what happens to me. I'm just working hard to obtain my own satisfaction in this world. I'm also glad that I have to a better than starting level experience of getting to know what the real Christ was like. There are millions of Christs out there, which one would a believer or dyslogistic person be referring too? I'm referring to the one with strong evidence that paints a historical picture of Jesus found in the pages of the New Testament. I really love the seemingly contradictory passages and how it really gets people all amped up about saying that's enough proof without even digging deeper in to surface. There seems to be these really head strong and collected believers who just serve up embarrassment on a platter for those people. Christians are composed of people with great enormous diversity! Some of them can be a bunch of dumb bells at times and I won't lie either about myself. I've been thrown off and now coming to reason that I deserve God's wraith just as any other poor sinner in this world. It's just that Jesus came along one day and his message spread throughout many historical periods and had its place and now found his way into my heart.
So Hard With Everything
In current circumstances, for the majority of people I know, it's very difficult to move up the ladder in the chain of success. It's always going to be like this no matter how much better conditions become. However, I just want to strive to get there doing everything the right way. I don't care about cutthroat people- I don't care about those who try to use me and then ditch me when they don't need me anymore. I don't care because their factor in my equation is negligible.
In life, of all the schools I've been to, it was right under my nose. It's a very simple motto that I will share: Knowledge is power! It takes a lot of effort and then accumulating knowledge and then making appropriate transitions to obtaining what you want. Being a dude, I can see why a pretty significant portion of females would want to rely on a guy. Females grow up with this sense of emotional maturity but their physique doesn't really give them a chance to be super active like the most strongest male athlete in the world. They just naturally grow up to be the weaker vessel than males, but it doesn't mean that they shouldn't have equal privileges. Here's the controversial thing- the New Testament which is found on principles of love and this great news about the supposedly great God-man named Jesus and how placing faith on him ensures this sense of sincerity and much more to come for fulfillment in anyone's life has an issue that some women hate. There are some women who like to be the ones aggressively in power and conquering other males like the crazy individuals they could be, but anyway, a verse in the Bible states that women shouldn't be ordained pastors of a church according to Paul in one of his epistles.
I used to support the possible idea of this woman who goes by an androgynous name Lee and the female pastors being a leader at her church from lack of people, but it's probably lacking in people because probably God can't really bless the church with great attendance from being really weird to society and also other churches being out there. I think having female pastors is a form of heresy in the Bible. I guess if the woman wants to feel important, she could be called pastor all she wants by the ladies but for the men, it should be said unofficially. Here's the context I seem to naturally conjure up right now; the Bible is subject to misinterprations but luckily it's been around a couple millenia so now there's enough history and evidence for people to not do stupid things to each other like kill each other over just disagreeing with some religious fanfare.
The Bible appeals so greatly to the woman with being submissive in a sensitive way like Jesus was when he let himself be crucified. No one is God in the world we're living in and everyone sinned except for this self-professed Christ. Everyone pretty much deserves wraith from God because the Bible states the wages of sin is death. Therefore, you don't go about self-mutilating yourself or killing bad people to think you're a righteous man of God. With whatever the woman could muster up in being submissive, it's just so beautiful. I'm a dude whose very wrought with heavy recklessness by people- it's just brought on dudes in general. For the woman, she has to just be gentle and submissive and then she starts attracting all sorts of people and making friends that easily.
I honestly don't care about a minister getting all this recognition- I care about hearing what he has to say relating to his ministry and how God is working in his life and to also be taught how to live commendably serving the Lord. If a woman became this aggressive shepherd all of a sudden with an assembly at a church, the woman whose supposed to be submissive as much as she can in a sensible way to show this beautiful act that attracts people starts losing her appeal in leading followers to Christ. Nothing wrong with the woman being prideful about Jesus though. There are other women out there who don't really want to be that religious and serve as a religious leader when they would rather care for their beautiful baby and be in love with a really handsome hubby. Women being a pastor will throw some sinners in this world off including women. I might have a strong heart to listen to everything this relgious lady wants to say and debate heartily with her, but it's a plane found in a different social environment. Therefore, I'm going to highly discourage a woman from becoming an ordained pastor; it's like the army barring women from joining the Special Forces. The politics with the context stated by a Congress man who was my high school teacher is that they don't want the female soldier to be caught in a heavily dangerous mission which happens to the best soldiers and then get raped and end up with a child of a mean terrorist! Maybe if she decided to make some physical alterations to be more like a man, but that's just to bizarre for moms and dads in general and too out of touch with reality. Men and women alike need to be in touch with this world and be good stewards to the best of their ability, so I think if a woman tried her best to be submissive in most areas then it would be absolutely fine. I mean if she's not in the mood then she's not in the mood for being abused so the context wouldn't deal with the issue of being submissive or not.
In life, of all the schools I've been to, it was right under my nose. It's a very simple motto that I will share: Knowledge is power! It takes a lot of effort and then accumulating knowledge and then making appropriate transitions to obtaining what you want. Being a dude, I can see why a pretty significant portion of females would want to rely on a guy. Females grow up with this sense of emotional maturity but their physique doesn't really give them a chance to be super active like the most strongest male athlete in the world. They just naturally grow up to be the weaker vessel than males, but it doesn't mean that they shouldn't have equal privileges. Here's the controversial thing- the New Testament which is found on principles of love and this great news about the supposedly great God-man named Jesus and how placing faith on him ensures this sense of sincerity and much more to come for fulfillment in anyone's life has an issue that some women hate. There are some women who like to be the ones aggressively in power and conquering other males like the crazy individuals they could be, but anyway, a verse in the Bible states that women shouldn't be ordained pastors of a church according to Paul in one of his epistles.
I used to support the possible idea of this woman who goes by an androgynous name Lee and the female pastors being a leader at her church from lack of people, but it's probably lacking in people because probably God can't really bless the church with great attendance from being really weird to society and also other churches being out there. I think having female pastors is a form of heresy in the Bible. I guess if the woman wants to feel important, she could be called pastor all she wants by the ladies but for the men, it should be said unofficially. Here's the context I seem to naturally conjure up right now; the Bible is subject to misinterprations but luckily it's been around a couple millenia so now there's enough history and evidence for people to not do stupid things to each other like kill each other over just disagreeing with some religious fanfare.
The Bible appeals so greatly to the woman with being submissive in a sensitive way like Jesus was when he let himself be crucified. No one is God in the world we're living in and everyone sinned except for this self-professed Christ. Everyone pretty much deserves wraith from God because the Bible states the wages of sin is death. Therefore, you don't go about self-mutilating yourself or killing bad people to think you're a righteous man of God. With whatever the woman could muster up in being submissive, it's just so beautiful. I'm a dude whose very wrought with heavy recklessness by people- it's just brought on dudes in general. For the woman, she has to just be gentle and submissive and then she starts attracting all sorts of people and making friends that easily.
I honestly don't care about a minister getting all this recognition- I care about hearing what he has to say relating to his ministry and how God is working in his life and to also be taught how to live commendably serving the Lord. If a woman became this aggressive shepherd all of a sudden with an assembly at a church, the woman whose supposed to be submissive as much as she can in a sensible way to show this beautiful act that attracts people starts losing her appeal in leading followers to Christ. Nothing wrong with the woman being prideful about Jesus though. There are other women out there who don't really want to be that religious and serve as a religious leader when they would rather care for their beautiful baby and be in love with a really handsome hubby. Women being a pastor will throw some sinners in this world off including women. I might have a strong heart to listen to everything this relgious lady wants to say and debate heartily with her, but it's a plane found in a different social environment. Therefore, I'm going to highly discourage a woman from becoming an ordained pastor; it's like the army barring women from joining the Special Forces. The politics with the context stated by a Congress man who was my high school teacher is that they don't want the female soldier to be caught in a heavily dangerous mission which happens to the best soldiers and then get raped and end up with a child of a mean terrorist! Maybe if she decided to make some physical alterations to be more like a man, but that's just to bizarre for moms and dads in general and too out of touch with reality. Men and women alike need to be in touch with this world and be good stewards to the best of their ability, so I think if a woman tried her best to be submissive in most areas then it would be absolutely fine. I mean if she's not in the mood then she's not in the mood for being abused so the context wouldn't deal with the issue of being submissive or not.
Placing Dreams On Reachable Plateau
I never really envisioned myself in becoming this individual who can say whatever he wants and eventually get away with it. When a person becomes really moody all of a sudden and acts really dumb and does something ignorant, it's actually quite funny and not really relevant to me. I understand that some people just go through a phase of being frustrated and feeling guilty about it at the same time and try to live to please their own flesh.
I was once like that too- it's not like I'm not that type of person anymore either; I'm just more expressive now. I actually take notice of those things and have a pretty good laugh about it. I can seriously really give people a hard time and get away with it. I have an idea of what they are feeling in the moment and how to orchestrate their emotions in a manner I would want them to get into.
I understand my abilities and how to go way overboard and I'm not afraid anymore. I'm going to just work hard to achieve my own personal satisfactions each and every waking moment now. It doesn't matter how little or big the outcome is, what matters is that I'm working hard to obtain that exuberant feeling from having accomplished something out of putting a strong effort. I guess I'm fortunate because I know what makes me tick and what I'm about.
I was once like that too- it's not like I'm not that type of person anymore either; I'm just more expressive now. I actually take notice of those things and have a pretty good laugh about it. I can seriously really give people a hard time and get away with it. I have an idea of what they are feeling in the moment and how to orchestrate their emotions in a manner I would want them to get into.
I understand my abilities and how to go way overboard and I'm not afraid anymore. I'm going to just work hard to achieve my own personal satisfactions each and every waking moment now. It doesn't matter how little or big the outcome is, what matters is that I'm working hard to obtain that exuberant feeling from having accomplished something out of putting a strong effort. I guess I'm fortunate because I know what makes me tick and what I'm about.
Salute To The Readers
Hello to all the blog readers, even if I'm deceiving myself and just writing to me. I've been tackling some serious issues lately and frankly, have made a lot of comments that seem relevant which is pretty much like status quo. Right now, it feels like I'm just writing something that first comes into my head and then not deleting it! I'm keeping it raw for myself and even if I feel like it sucks I'm learning to deal with it at the same time. With that thought alone of dealing with how I think my writing sucks, it's great practice for me in learning to deal with other stuff in this world.
There are a lot of things that I could do now. I see so many options and how to get around there with my own personal flair. I even use vocabulary and or search for the appropriate word now much to the chagrin of some of my less knowledgable friends of the the English language. Who knows, there's always room to have fun picking up a new word- like the word Halo when the video game was introduced to the world! The ship in the game is like the shape of a halo, and I don't see what the symbolic meaning of the title is- wait, there's Wikipedia now to get myself up to speed. Let's check.
Okay, that was a very interesting read- the word halo in the game refers to the halo megastructure which is pretty much a ringworld. It is very interesting and is very similar to the novel Ringworld which has an interesting plot about how the ringworld is 600 million square miles in diameter and encompasses 3 million Earth-sized planets.
There are a lot of things that I could do now. I see so many options and how to get around there with my own personal flair. I even use vocabulary and or search for the appropriate word now much to the chagrin of some of my less knowledgable friends of the the English language. Who knows, there's always room to have fun picking up a new word- like the word Halo when the video game was introduced to the world! The ship in the game is like the shape of a halo, and I don't see what the symbolic meaning of the title is- wait, there's Wikipedia now to get myself up to speed. Let's check.
Okay, that was a very interesting read- the word halo in the game refers to the halo megastructure which is pretty much a ringworld. It is very interesting and is very similar to the novel Ringworld which has an interesting plot about how the ringworld is 600 million square miles in diameter and encompasses 3 million Earth-sized planets.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Meeting the Bare Minimum
I think in my own personal world of prioritizing, I believe that it's good to be consistent with a few good key behaviors to ensure my own personal success. Everybody works differently but I think the tradeoff with doing what works permits better privileges on a long term scale. I just brainstormed an idea so that I wouldn't get so caught up in my distractions for a long time and later feel like a dork for not doing the right things.
First off, I work the really really late work shift during the week from the hours of 10:30 pm to 7:00 am. That's a pretty long night sometimes but in this scale of economy- I pretty much adopted flexibility so that I could ensure myself to get a nice paycheck. What I need to do on a daily basis is accumulate ten hours of rest so that I don't buzz off at work. I eventually learned that a couple cans of coke or highly caffeinated drinks weren't going to cut it if I didn't make the investment to sleep in each day.
I have a really unique situation in that I could earn some free money each month from the government by testing proficient on a foreign language that's in demand. I'm technically a government employee and not really active with them but able to receive the great benefits associated with being one. Also I feel like I'm wasting my time and rotting my body away if I don't work out, so I should really work out to maintain my body on daily basis.
I've managed to come close to sleeping an adequate amount each day, but I have had trouble willing myself to work out after waking up. I've also had trouble investing some time to learning a foreign language. I'm usually caught up with trying to invest some time into my own private business to earn a nice form of living and possibly become financially independent. I also end up lollygagging around and surfing the net about random details that I feel curious about knowing about. Overall, I think I need to just know my place while I'm in the moment and ensure that I keep on meeting my own personal standards.
I guess I'm going to have to live with like a preference chart. The first things are going to be mandatory things. Secondly, I have to ensure I'm properly rested. Thirdly, I should be working out. Fourthly, I shouldn't be wasting my time when I could be investing some time into getting some free money. Fifthly, I should work on my own personal endeavors. Lastly, I should pretty much give myself some time to mess around with video games or surfing the Internet or hanging out with friends. I think a significant amount of people are stuck with giving priority to fun over hard work. At least I have something I know I can work on.
First off, I work the really really late work shift during the week from the hours of 10:30 pm to 7:00 am. That's a pretty long night sometimes but in this scale of economy- I pretty much adopted flexibility so that I could ensure myself to get a nice paycheck. What I need to do on a daily basis is accumulate ten hours of rest so that I don't buzz off at work. I eventually learned that a couple cans of coke or highly caffeinated drinks weren't going to cut it if I didn't make the investment to sleep in each day.
I have a really unique situation in that I could earn some free money each month from the government by testing proficient on a foreign language that's in demand. I'm technically a government employee and not really active with them but able to receive the great benefits associated with being one. Also I feel like I'm wasting my time and rotting my body away if I don't work out, so I should really work out to maintain my body on daily basis.
I've managed to come close to sleeping an adequate amount each day, but I have had trouble willing myself to work out after waking up. I've also had trouble investing some time to learning a foreign language. I'm usually caught up with trying to invest some time into my own private business to earn a nice form of living and possibly become financially independent. I also end up lollygagging around and surfing the net about random details that I feel curious about knowing about. Overall, I think I need to just know my place while I'm in the moment and ensure that I keep on meeting my own personal standards.
I guess I'm going to have to live with like a preference chart. The first things are going to be mandatory things. Secondly, I have to ensure I'm properly rested. Thirdly, I should be working out. Fourthly, I shouldn't be wasting my time when I could be investing some time into getting some free money. Fifthly, I should work on my own personal endeavors. Lastly, I should pretty much give myself some time to mess around with video games or surfing the Internet or hanging out with friends. I think a significant amount of people are stuck with giving priority to fun over hard work. At least I have something I know I can work on.
Monday, July 23, 2012
Little By Little Changes
Instead of dropping my discipline and doing something that's been addictive and repetitively stupid, I am going to make some milestone steps to reach up to my goals in life for living a pretty decent lifestyle. This may sound like an exaggeration but I believe that earning an annual salary of 30 Million dollars off of mainly investments and not really have to put that many hours into it would help out with a decent living and also give some room to assist others who just didn't have the opportunity like I'm seeing right now.
It's pretty much going to start out with small and then making some long term adjustments to build up in wealth. The best way I see it for myself is to pretty much think of everything long term and going for the stable direction while reaching a level that I personally desire which is pretty much not having to really be tied onto a job and to rely on it for mainly a source of income. Some people love their jobs and by no means am I discouraging them to found out ways to retire early- I'm just thinking that I would like the time to do fun stuff that are unrelated to leading to a career and also have the funds to assist me. I'm thinking of really giving back to the less fortunate because it's just humbling to me to see people struggle and just because it feels sort of good to have made a nice contribution in ameliorating economically poor conditions.
Let's see, I can only expect about a 35 K base salary after witholding taxes right now and pretty much have the weekends off. I pretty much need to just master a language that I'm becoming more familiar with and improve on my already aggressive level of fitness. For current times, I'm going to need to take on a course so I can familiarize myself more with my line of work right now. I'm becoming pretty proficient with conducting my one-man operation of making investments- I pretty much do my own research and try to learn from the best that's out there! This pretty much involves with me having to do quite a bit of reading up on things and just learning to put those things into practice. It was initially so difficult because I was very apprehensive but I'm over that stage now and have built a decent level of personal confidence in managing my own investments.
Overall, everything is right under my nose and I'm starting to take notice of them. I'm pretty much going to have to transition into doing something different which is being an unconventional type of work horse. I'm going to need to create a routine schedule of how I concentrate on stuff and just let all of that effort build up into something nice and work that I can conduct fast before focusing on really fun stuff. Looks like I attached on the interest of making myself taller and playing the piano while singing with my painfully cracking and annoying voice. I've been trying to make plans with hanging out but it's been a little hard for me right now because I have these big interests in mind and I'm wasting time by being stupid. Writing it out is helpful right now because I'm seeing things about myself a lot better.
It's pretty much going to start out with small and then making some long term adjustments to build up in wealth. The best way I see it for myself is to pretty much think of everything long term and going for the stable direction while reaching a level that I personally desire which is pretty much not having to really be tied onto a job and to rely on it for mainly a source of income. Some people love their jobs and by no means am I discouraging them to found out ways to retire early- I'm just thinking that I would like the time to do fun stuff that are unrelated to leading to a career and also have the funds to assist me. I'm thinking of really giving back to the less fortunate because it's just humbling to me to see people struggle and just because it feels sort of good to have made a nice contribution in ameliorating economically poor conditions.
Let's see, I can only expect about a 35 K base salary after witholding taxes right now and pretty much have the weekends off. I pretty much need to just master a language that I'm becoming more familiar with and improve on my already aggressive level of fitness. For current times, I'm going to need to take on a course so I can familiarize myself more with my line of work right now. I'm becoming pretty proficient with conducting my one-man operation of making investments- I pretty much do my own research and try to learn from the best that's out there! This pretty much involves with me having to do quite a bit of reading up on things and just learning to put those things into practice. It was initially so difficult because I was very apprehensive but I'm over that stage now and have built a decent level of personal confidence in managing my own investments.
Overall, everything is right under my nose and I'm starting to take notice of them. I'm pretty much going to have to transition into doing something different which is being an unconventional type of work horse. I'm going to need to create a routine schedule of how I concentrate on stuff and just let all of that effort build up into something nice and work that I can conduct fast before focusing on really fun stuff. Looks like I attached on the interest of making myself taller and playing the piano while singing with my painfully cracking and annoying voice. I've been trying to make plans with hanging out but it's been a little hard for me right now because I have these big interests in mind and I'm wasting time by being stupid. Writing it out is helpful right now because I'm seeing things about myself a lot better.
Projecting True Stability
Let's face it. In a time of economic down turn that has struggled to get out of intangible debt, there are places that really have survived in a competitive world. I finally have something that I can say is more rewarding than those people at that Hope of God Church in L.A. put all together. I'm helping my dad out with a business that has survived for twenty-five years! It's a business that specializes in machine milling and especially creates some airplane parts. My dad called me up and actually put me in the night shift, so I'm experiencing this personal economic stability these days. My loans are being paid off in full and I have extra monies to conduct my personal business of investing for financial freedom.
Just the job title alone and the expensive and flexible machining equipment that I get to operate, there's just so much potential with how I could lead this business if I ever get to that state. My dad really grinded very hard even in times that seemed really difficult and managed to find success in a business model that works charms! It's a business that focuses on impeccable standards because being perfect would definitely ensure success. In the world of airplanes, it definitely has really strict standards that make it difficult for other businesses to compete and my dad managed to master this art of being perfect with machining parts.
It's really cool to be a part of helping to build airplane parts and with the amount of knowledge I'm gaining on a daily basis with how to invest properly and secure a very healthy financial future, I definitely have something better than what everybody can expect at that Hope of God Church. Man, I have something better than they do nowadays and literally am being honest about it at the same time.
Honestly, this personal projection of stability has had some benefits. For instance, I noticed that a pretty average woman around my age was instantly attracted to me when I mentioned to my friend and she overheard me talking about my job. I go around projecting personal confidence because that's what I'm feeling on the inside and no matter what happens I'm going to stay confident and grind my way to success. I just have this will and drive to succeed and to do it with some style. I notice that I can actually be alright partnering up with a pretty normal woman in marriage. Obviously, I'm looking for inner beauty and I'm going to have to apply a series of tests to ensure her friendship doesn't turn awry and someone I can commit myself to and enjoy a pretty decent life style of doing the right things! I'm pretty crafty in this area of committing myself and forming a relationship because even though I do similar stupid things in a sinful manner to myself, I just don't give in to women for some reason. I would rather stay friends for even a lifetime with the most prettiest girl on the planet, if possible.
Just the job title alone and the expensive and flexible machining equipment that I get to operate, there's just so much potential with how I could lead this business if I ever get to that state. My dad really grinded very hard even in times that seemed really difficult and managed to find success in a business model that works charms! It's a business that focuses on impeccable standards because being perfect would definitely ensure success. In the world of airplanes, it definitely has really strict standards that make it difficult for other businesses to compete and my dad managed to master this art of being perfect with machining parts.
It's really cool to be a part of helping to build airplane parts and with the amount of knowledge I'm gaining on a daily basis with how to invest properly and secure a very healthy financial future, I definitely have something better than what everybody can expect at that Hope of God Church. Man, I have something better than they do nowadays and literally am being honest about it at the same time.
Honestly, this personal projection of stability has had some benefits. For instance, I noticed that a pretty average woman around my age was instantly attracted to me when I mentioned to my friend and she overheard me talking about my job. I go around projecting personal confidence because that's what I'm feeling on the inside and no matter what happens I'm going to stay confident and grind my way to success. I just have this will and drive to succeed and to do it with some style. I notice that I can actually be alright partnering up with a pretty normal woman in marriage. Obviously, I'm looking for inner beauty and I'm going to have to apply a series of tests to ensure her friendship doesn't turn awry and someone I can commit myself to and enjoy a pretty decent life style of doing the right things! I'm pretty crafty in this area of committing myself and forming a relationship because even though I do similar stupid things in a sinful manner to myself, I just don't give in to women for some reason. I would rather stay friends for even a lifetime with the most prettiest girl on the planet, if possible.
Leaving Behind My Dumb Self
It takes a lot of painful concentration and effort with this painful cajoling that just wills the mind and soul to try to always do the right thing. My body and mind is like in that state now and no matter how much I try to keep it for- maybe like two weeks tops at most- I really got to release myself and act stupid sometimes to have this pleasure of doing something wrong which I shouldn't be doing. I'm like cursed because I know that I'm a sinner and that I can't stop sinning on my own without help from trusting in a divine intervention.
Basically, I could be called something like a renegade believer of Christ because I don't really fall under that religious scheme of things that outsiders like to characterize Christians as. I don't live to perform religious service to make myself feel better and look down on others. I don't act like putting on a show to try to put up this model of behavior just for the sake of making myself look good. I'm just keeping it straight forward and it's like a pretty good amount of Christians still have trouble with accepting how things are and try to escape their personal devestations through brainwashing themselves in living a life that only mimics a portion of what a true believer should possess. For what it seems like, a significant amount of believers remain carnal even the ones who teach out of the Bible!
A true believer is going to pretty much be there, regardless of who he or she is. Therefore, the majority of true believers have certain characterisitics that they have or will develop through acknowledging this personal walk in following Christ and believe he is actually alive!
Basically, I could be called something like a renegade believer of Christ because I don't really fall under that religious scheme of things that outsiders like to characterize Christians as. I don't live to perform religious service to make myself feel better and look down on others. I don't act like putting on a show to try to put up this model of behavior just for the sake of making myself look good. I'm just keeping it straight forward and it's like a pretty good amount of Christians still have trouble with accepting how things are and try to escape their personal devestations through brainwashing themselves in living a life that only mimics a portion of what a true believer should possess. For what it seems like, a significant amount of believers remain carnal even the ones who teach out of the Bible!
A true believer is going to pretty much be there, regardless of who he or she is. Therefore, the majority of true believers have certain characterisitics that they have or will develop through acknowledging this personal walk in following Christ and believe he is actually alive!
Pretty Interesting Week
This week I'm basically caught up with doing the stupid stuff that I shouldn't be doing. I guess in a form of being stupid in the morning because the weekend just passed and I work during the week only at night time, I pretty much indulged in stupidity the whole morning. I need to really stop doing stupid things- it's going to take a lot of discipline for me to repent from those bad activities fully.
Obviously, I'm glad that I believe in a loving Christ found in the actual pages of the Bible because it helps me out in settling with repenting and knowing how stupid of a person I really am after falling to sin daily. I have to make this great effort and concentration to not fall and I still fall because I'm just a really messed up individual like that. I know and at the same time, I don't mind pointing out this in others who deserve to know like over at that Hope of God Church in L.A. if I ever have the time to drive over there. I really feel like that church has no significance anymore and that the people who go there don't really matter to me neither are they going to play a huge factor with anything totally important. It's just a lot of those female emotions that focus on sentimental values and try to place the individual in a higher and arrogant place. It's so much like brainwashing the soul and being ineffective with stabilizing an individual. I guess some of the women who assume a leadership at that church might have some difficulty expressing submissive values because they would rather be in charge with this driving force that really focuses on sinful values. What's the point of even having a church like that if it's going to focus on asserting contradictions?
Obviously, I'm glad that I believe in a loving Christ found in the actual pages of the Bible because it helps me out in settling with repenting and knowing how stupid of a person I really am after falling to sin daily. I have to make this great effort and concentration to not fall and I still fall because I'm just a really messed up individual like that. I know and at the same time, I don't mind pointing out this in others who deserve to know like over at that Hope of God Church in L.A. if I ever have the time to drive over there. I really feel like that church has no significance anymore and that the people who go there don't really matter to me neither are they going to play a huge factor with anything totally important. It's just a lot of those female emotions that focus on sentimental values and try to place the individual in a higher and arrogant place. It's so much like brainwashing the soul and being ineffective with stabilizing an individual. I guess some of the women who assume a leadership at that church might have some difficulty expressing submissive values because they would rather be in charge with this driving force that really focuses on sinful values. What's the point of even having a church like that if it's going to focus on asserting contradictions?
Wow
At first I was really horrible but now I'm averaging on a daily basis with getting someone to read this site besides myself. I guess it can be looked upon as a good learning experience for me to just write about stuff on this site. I've only had this blog for about four to five years now and from having attempted to post something everyday, I see that it's benefitted me quite a bit in the "being able to reword stuff" department. I don't really try that hard anymore to keep myself laughing, so I guess typically I'm a pretty boring person and someone who is easy to forget about.
It seems like most people don't really know or care about stuff that's happening except for how they're maintaining themselves and the things they care about. I mean I sort of see it in my friends and family who express a little bit of road rage! It's pretty funny to notice some things and not really mention anything about it anymore while staying objective about personal things.
It never hurts to be full-on honest. One of my friends admitted to me that he accepted a form of permanent depression after realizing he wasn't really going to have the ability to continue pursue after a dream. He manages to still find some type of activities to do for himself and fight the good fight.
It seems like most people don't really know or care about stuff that's happening except for how they're maintaining themselves and the things they care about. I mean I sort of see it in my friends and family who express a little bit of road rage! It's pretty funny to notice some things and not really mention anything about it anymore while staying objective about personal things.
It never hurts to be full-on honest. One of my friends admitted to me that he accepted a form of permanent depression after realizing he wasn't really going to have the ability to continue pursue after a dream. He manages to still find some type of activities to do for himself and fight the good fight.
Friday, July 20, 2012
Hopefully Third Time's A Charm
I've been attempting to get things my way while cheating honestly if people know what I mean. Basically, I've been just winging it in dealing with stuff and it happens to make me really content and jocular inside from expressing myself in an honest matter. Even if it ends up hurting some feelings, I can also manage those people's feelings and help them out a little if they really need it from me.
I received an e-mail from Yelp after commenting on Hope of God Church LA. The first post was deemed too controversial so someone flagged it. Now, it's my third attempt and this time I'm not filtered out and I have used the theme of writing about a consumer experience and it's very negative and trashy on this church. Here's the link- http://www.yelp.com/biz/hope-of-god-church-los-angeles-los-angeles...
My last statement talked about how lucky I was in attracting some beautiful girls' attentions and I did it for fun. Anyway, I plan on finalizing my thoughts about the church and moving on for good. Just in case it magically decides to delete my influential comment, here it is while basing it on Yelp's guidelines which I have no problem submitting to because anyway it still can bash any church based on looking at it from a consumer point of view. Only way I see it for this church to get away with it is now denying that I ever attended Hope of God Church in L.A. This would mean that all the leadership would have to leave and be replaced by completely different people:
"Going to try to stay within the confines of Yelp's guidelines because I can do it. The food at the church is horrible for the rate that they charge you which is $3. I've never been charged that much for community food. The building is really ugly despite their attempts to fix it up- it's just too old of a structure to be really that attractive. The worship music they consider is great is very amateurish. The speeches from the designated speakers have statements that feel pointless and irrelevant and not that encouraging. The servants are really unfriendly and made me feel unwelcome. Overall, the consumer experience over here is very repulsive and it would be better for no one to really attend here in general. It's just my word with a consumer opinion but anyone can disagree with me if they wish.
Please let me know if this post deserves to be deleted too because it's my own consumer experience with this place unless they want to deny that I ever attended there."
I received an e-mail from Yelp after commenting on Hope of God Church LA. The first post was deemed too controversial so someone flagged it. Now, it's my third attempt and this time I'm not filtered out and I have used the theme of writing about a consumer experience and it's very negative and trashy on this church. Here's the link- http://www.yelp.com/biz/hope-of-god-church-los-angeles-los-angeles...
My last statement talked about how lucky I was in attracting some beautiful girls' attentions and I did it for fun. Anyway, I plan on finalizing my thoughts about the church and moving on for good. Just in case it magically decides to delete my influential comment, here it is while basing it on Yelp's guidelines which I have no problem submitting to because anyway it still can bash any church based on looking at it from a consumer point of view. Only way I see it for this church to get away with it is now denying that I ever attended Hope of God Church in L.A. This would mean that all the leadership would have to leave and be replaced by completely different people:
"Going to try to stay within the confines of Yelp's guidelines because I can do it. The food at the church is horrible for the rate that they charge you which is $3. I've never been charged that much for community food. The building is really ugly despite their attempts to fix it up- it's just too old of a structure to be really that attractive. The worship music they consider is great is very amateurish. The speeches from the designated speakers have statements that feel pointless and irrelevant and not that encouraging. The servants are really unfriendly and made me feel unwelcome. Overall, the consumer experience over here is very repulsive and it would be better for no one to really attend here in general. It's just my word with a consumer opinion but anyone can disagree with me if they wish.
Please let me know if this post deserves to be deleted too because it's my own consumer experience with this place unless they want to deny that I ever attended there."
Monday, July 16, 2012
Putting Myself On Forever Mode
I've only managed to be fully dedicated with something probably about 50% of the time. My mind sometimes plays back the addicting and exciting feelings from associating with something when I try to withdraw myself from it. I'm no robot because I can't turn these human factors about me on or off. I make mistakes that I regret from having trouble in this area.
Overall, I'm dedicated to working on myself to become this really successful person and at least okay individual and to all the good friends who are out there for me to reach. I shut myself down unfortunately and it might result in me unintentionally hurting some feelings. I also experience those emotions too from others. I don't mean to be bad from trying to be sensitive about this stuff; therefore, I try to get back to socializing with those people who I thought I hurt later.
Having those really angry feelings and frustrated thoughts from me persuming about a person has found it's way into something I can cope with and be patient about in resolving. I managed to finally do it while burying myself into some really difficult angles that are hard to straighten out. I know that I'm a work in progress. Now, I'm really keen to what my personal desires are to keep my heart content.
Briefly my goals aren't really what define me- what defines me is how I'm living in the present and where I believe I'll be ending up. I honestly have faith in a loving God, and I truly believe in this true existence that God did create this whole universe and that perception lies deep in awakening an individual to expecting there are better things. Like the movie Prometheus, I choose to believe in there being a heaven during the afterlife. In a nutshell, I choose to live a moral life because I know it makes me happy- not because I think I deserve to be in heaven for it.
This is my goal because I've found power in writing about my goals on this site- I'm going to learn three different languages so I can earn a thousand dollar bonus each month with my government occupation which is already responsible for paying off my student loans. That would be so sweet! I could go further in my government job and become like a crazy skilled boss but I want to mainly stay home and have liberty to do anything my heart is in the mood for working hard in for my enjoyment and also be able to play with stuff for longer durations! Focusing on vast wealth through hard work, determination, and long term struggles by investing it properly is the way to go because later, I wouldn't really have to work long ten hours to constantly multiply my income especially when it goes on autopilot. I'm also so very health conscience so I want to work out enough to eventually gain muscles and feel good and have a good laugh flexing every once in awhile. All the females and guys are pretty much average in appearance to me and I don't care how big of a giant or scary looking they are; I'm not basing things off of appearances anymore- I'm going to just focus on doing the moral thing even if it requires painful sacrifices. I think that's the key word- commitment!
Overall, I'm dedicated to working on myself to become this really successful person and at least okay individual and to all the good friends who are out there for me to reach. I shut myself down unfortunately and it might result in me unintentionally hurting some feelings. I also experience those emotions too from others. I don't mean to be bad from trying to be sensitive about this stuff; therefore, I try to get back to socializing with those people who I thought I hurt later.
Having those really angry feelings and frustrated thoughts from me persuming about a person has found it's way into something I can cope with and be patient about in resolving. I managed to finally do it while burying myself into some really difficult angles that are hard to straighten out. I know that I'm a work in progress. Now, I'm really keen to what my personal desires are to keep my heart content.
Briefly my goals aren't really what define me- what defines me is how I'm living in the present and where I believe I'll be ending up. I honestly have faith in a loving God, and I truly believe in this true existence that God did create this whole universe and that perception lies deep in awakening an individual to expecting there are better things. Like the movie Prometheus, I choose to believe in there being a heaven during the afterlife. In a nutshell, I choose to live a moral life because I know it makes me happy- not because I think I deserve to be in heaven for it.
This is my goal because I've found power in writing about my goals on this site- I'm going to learn three different languages so I can earn a thousand dollar bonus each month with my government occupation which is already responsible for paying off my student loans. That would be so sweet! I could go further in my government job and become like a crazy skilled boss but I want to mainly stay home and have liberty to do anything my heart is in the mood for working hard in for my enjoyment and also be able to play with stuff for longer durations! Focusing on vast wealth through hard work, determination, and long term struggles by investing it properly is the way to go because later, I wouldn't really have to work long ten hours to constantly multiply my income especially when it goes on autopilot. I'm also so very health conscience so I want to work out enough to eventually gain muscles and feel good and have a good laugh flexing every once in awhile. All the females and guys are pretty much average in appearance to me and I don't care how big of a giant or scary looking they are; I'm not basing things off of appearances anymore- I'm going to just focus on doing the moral thing even if it requires painful sacrifices. I think that's the key word- commitment!
Still Some Mischievous Behavior With Myself
When I'm by myself and no one is looking, it gets really easy for me to think about how I'm going to get away with some things when no one is there to keep me accountable. Getting lost in that moment of thought translates into a really impulsive and stupid behavior that results in me regretting it over and over again. Even if there are some negative things about me, at least I can try to work it out with others if they have the same problem that bugs me.
No matter how frustrated or incited with great anger I want to become, I'm dedicated to end up doing the right thing and living a pleasing life to serve others and also enjoy life. A guy told me that it's not all about waiting for the right moment with something but what you do today to reward yourself. Obviously, there are a lot of weak minds out there and from even saying a hint of truth to them, it's going to hurt their feelings. I think it's a permissible thing to do to help them out even if they can only complain about how it hurts and not be able to fully elaborate on details about how the person is accurate in describing the whining person's poor lifestyle and attitude.
Overall, I've learned that it takes a lot of bravery to defend the truth, and I'm not going to blackmail anybody for getting something I want to lust after. I'm just going to let it spill and regardless of what happens to me, there's a clear motive which will be deterring for anyone to do something bad to me even if the person turns crazy. Basically, I'm never going to screw anyone up over lies; even if I end up taking the blame or fall, I'm just going to do the moral thing found on the pages of the Bible. Even if I get so hurt over a decision that's life changing for me, if it's the best and moral thing to do, I personally accept the sacrifice now because this is the type of person I so wish to be.
No matter how frustrated or incited with great anger I want to become, I'm dedicated to end up doing the right thing and living a pleasing life to serve others and also enjoy life. A guy told me that it's not all about waiting for the right moment with something but what you do today to reward yourself. Obviously, there are a lot of weak minds out there and from even saying a hint of truth to them, it's going to hurt their feelings. I think it's a permissible thing to do to help them out even if they can only complain about how it hurts and not be able to fully elaborate on details about how the person is accurate in describing the whining person's poor lifestyle and attitude.
Overall, I've learned that it takes a lot of bravery to defend the truth, and I'm not going to blackmail anybody for getting something I want to lust after. I'm just going to let it spill and regardless of what happens to me, there's a clear motive which will be deterring for anyone to do something bad to me even if the person turns crazy. Basically, I'm never going to screw anyone up over lies; even if I end up taking the blame or fall, I'm just going to do the moral thing found on the pages of the Bible. Even if I get so hurt over a decision that's life changing for me, if it's the best and moral thing to do, I personally accept the sacrifice now because this is the type of person I so wish to be.
Being Kind, Patient, and Understanding
I've had a little fortune these days with testing out my writing. From having written on this blog about mainly the truth and my aspirations and literally trying to live up to them on a daily basis, I've taken it to a point where I can say that I'm very comfortable with texting other friends, especially the females! It isn't really that hard once you learn to manage your own moodswings and how to live out a perception that greatly disturbs you about a person in a healthy and positive manner.
Just for fun last weekend, I ended up e-mailing random females from a free site where people post to find pen pals and found that using humor had a pretty favorable result in getting half of the females to respond back to me. Being friends and conversating about funny stuff and just having fun is all right I suppose. It also helps to create a certain understanding with a person.
I guess I'm not really the type to ditch a person but would rather leave it up to the person now even if he or she is having a hissy fit. Trying to remain in stability and reasoning it out with these crazy individuals might end up with me trying to tell them to get some help to become more of a people's person.
Just for fun last weekend, I ended up e-mailing random females from a free site where people post to find pen pals and found that using humor had a pretty favorable result in getting half of the females to respond back to me. Being friends and conversating about funny stuff and just having fun is all right I suppose. It also helps to create a certain understanding with a person.
I guess I'm not really the type to ditch a person but would rather leave it up to the person now even if he or she is having a hissy fit. Trying to remain in stability and reasoning it out with these crazy individuals might end up with me trying to tell them to get some help to become more of a people's person.
Friday, July 13, 2012
Managing Time For Others
I guess there's a time and place for everything. There are some people like my little sister and the weird people at Hope of God Church in Los Angeles who don't want to have anything to deal with me. I seem to find myself drawn to getting those weird people to change their minds about me; obviously, I'm going to succeed at it eventually. Hands down, I was once a weird young man too but now I totally see things about to go in my favor.
This is really strange in that forming a really nice bond with people doesn't really deal with their appearances. Most of the people in this world are pretty much average and it doesn't matter how much make up a female puts on to make herself more attractive, she's still about average in appearance to me. Therefore, I'm concluding that it really isn't about appearances in finding a good match for settling down with. What I'm looking more for is compatibility and inner beauty of a female now- I also desire to be really good friends with her and know she is someone I can count on.
I might have stumbled upon some secrets on how to live happily. They aren't really secrets because they are pretty much buried under everyone's nose. It just happens in a pure instinctively and natural way sometimes. Well, for myself, it didn't hurt to notice that I personally find myself to be slightly handsome in my average appearance. Because I'm also short, that's why I had to think really hard in this area of dealing with people's appearances. It really doesn't matter, and I guess now that I'm really comfortable in my shell, I really might have a ton of fun in anything that I do. I think for the reason in that how I might be able to give some people a hard time, the mean people are not really going to want to bother me no matter how much it is in their nature to do so.
I've pretty much figured out that it takes hard work to live a satisfying life. So might as well wing it and work hard for an everlasting and enjoyable life.
This is really strange in that forming a really nice bond with people doesn't really deal with their appearances. Most of the people in this world are pretty much average and it doesn't matter how much make up a female puts on to make herself more attractive, she's still about average in appearance to me. Therefore, I'm concluding that it really isn't about appearances in finding a good match for settling down with. What I'm looking more for is compatibility and inner beauty of a female now- I also desire to be really good friends with her and know she is someone I can count on.
I might have stumbled upon some secrets on how to live happily. They aren't really secrets because they are pretty much buried under everyone's nose. It just happens in a pure instinctively and natural way sometimes. Well, for myself, it didn't hurt to notice that I personally find myself to be slightly handsome in my average appearance. Because I'm also short, that's why I had to think really hard in this area of dealing with people's appearances. It really doesn't matter, and I guess now that I'm really comfortable in my shell, I really might have a ton of fun in anything that I do. I think for the reason in that how I might be able to give some people a hard time, the mean people are not really going to want to bother me no matter how much it is in their nature to do so.
I've pretty much figured out that it takes hard work to live a satisfying life. So might as well wing it and work hard for an everlasting and enjoyable life.
Establishing My Own Future
Looks like I'm pretty much learning to do some things I'm interested in for making a living everyday right now. After coming back from a long night of working as a night owl, I pretty much go to sleep and then wake up and then get on with learning to do some stuff with my life. I guess it's pretty much a routine for me and something I sort of have fun doing at the same time.
Because of my pretty stable job right now, I can really see how if I really work hard at it and learn a lot then I pretty much have something to fall back on if I ever need a typical 8 to 5 job. I'm also going to keep my Commercial Driver License intact as long as possible because I pretty much worked for it and if I ever need a job as a truck driver then I wouldn't really have any problems with it.
It's pretty crazy in that I'm establishing a mode of financial security for myself through hardwork and determination. I obviously have Plan A in mind which is what I'm striving for but just in case anything goes wrong I have alternatives all the way down to Plan D.
Because of my pretty stable job right now, I can really see how if I really work hard at it and learn a lot then I pretty much have something to fall back on if I ever need a typical 8 to 5 job. I'm also going to keep my Commercial Driver License intact as long as possible because I pretty much worked for it and if I ever need a job as a truck driver then I wouldn't really have any problems with it.
It's pretty crazy in that I'm establishing a mode of financial security for myself through hardwork and determination. I obviously have Plan A in mind which is what I'm striving for but just in case anything goes wrong I have alternatives all the way down to Plan D.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Time To Move It
A song by Will.I.Am has these lyrics "I want you to move it!" When you see a bunch of animated monkeys dancing in the movie Madasgascar and the zebra making a comment on how it violates a universal code of conduct then I don't see how it wouldn't really be remembered as being a little cheesy. I just wrote that because I found myself snooping around on some home pages of news and discovered some pretty crazy news that popped up.
I pretty much got up right now after working a long night shift and found myself sitting around for half an hour already just reading up on crazy stuff that came up on the front page. I'm going to have to use this time wisely everyday now and continue to develop some skill. All I'm really doing right now is just working on myself and it looks like I'm going to be finding myself reading the Bible and trying to apply everything I find out about it from looking at commentaries and prayer to live an absolutely satisfying life. One verse in the Bible says to seek after the Lord's kingdom and then everything will be added onto you. It pretty much says that everything that your heart desires can be filled with content if you can live a life God intended for you to have.
I pretty much got up right now after working a long night shift and found myself sitting around for half an hour already just reading up on crazy stuff that came up on the front page. I'm going to have to use this time wisely everyday now and continue to develop some skill. All I'm really doing right now is just working on myself and it looks like I'm going to be finding myself reading the Bible and trying to apply everything I find out about it from looking at commentaries and prayer to live an absolutely satisfying life. One verse in the Bible says to seek after the Lord's kingdom and then everything will be added onto you. It pretty much says that everything that your heart desires can be filled with content if you can live a life God intended for you to have.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Making Right Connections
I guess in life there will always be people who do not receive what they have been looking for throughout their lifetime. In those incidences, I say to just continually improve the self and work hard at achieving satisfaction. I mean I do care if I don't get what I was looking for, and it might feel a little distressing at times but it seems like I could be putting too much emphasis on some things that don't really matter a lot. What I'm going to do is to learn to suffer really well with not currently possessing some things that I know would make me happy.
I'm going to work hard at being really patient with a decent attitude and be continually ready to make necessary adjustments. I'm just going to have to focus on being pretty intelligent with my decisions and also have a decent moral and spiritual side. What I've been thinking about is how I would like to teach any of my own future children how to discern a confusing situation with some moral choices. Obviously, the body may display some primal urges and cause some people to act very impulsively. I would like my own kids to always have an upper hand in those personal matters.
It's definitely not personal when I make an attempt to communicate with some unwilling people. I'm just working hard at achieving personal satisfaction with some people nowadays, and it seems like if I keep a pretty stable footing then it doesn't become that difficult if I'm forced to move on. If I'm learning to manage my own feelings really well and not let it get the best of me then I guess I'm on my way with staying as an even more normal person. Overall, I'm pretty much ready to wait even a lifetime while continually making proper improvements to myself and being dilligent with obtaining some really satisfying goals. It's pretty much like a personal journey that I am ready to pursue.
I'm going to work hard at being really patient with a decent attitude and be continually ready to make necessary adjustments. I'm just going to have to focus on being pretty intelligent with my decisions and also have a decent moral and spiritual side. What I've been thinking about is how I would like to teach any of my own future children how to discern a confusing situation with some moral choices. Obviously, the body may display some primal urges and cause some people to act very impulsively. I would like my own kids to always have an upper hand in those personal matters.
It's definitely not personal when I make an attempt to communicate with some unwilling people. I'm just working hard at achieving personal satisfaction with some people nowadays, and it seems like if I keep a pretty stable footing then it doesn't become that difficult if I'm forced to move on. If I'm learning to manage my own feelings really well and not let it get the best of me then I guess I'm on my way with staying as an even more normal person. Overall, I'm pretty much ready to wait even a lifetime while continually making proper improvements to myself and being dilligent with obtaining some really satisfying goals. It's pretty much like a personal journey that I am ready to pursue.
Monday, July 9, 2012
Becoming Set In Stone
When the intention of anything is personally known and set in unwavering place, I think when it comes to dealing with conflict, it doesn't really become that hard to deal with it as long as it's morally reasonable and not really set upon some corruption or evil desire. I think that's really stupid and will really affect things to happen in a negative way later.
For some reason, I've really gained this personal conscience level where I know what I'm doing and what I'm working hard for. I don't see any reason to really overreact anymore and can pretty much make an individual effort to really go after what I'm interested about. It's nice to be spoon-fed some details every once in awhile to make life easier or to just make assumptions based on your preferences but what makes things an even greater challenge is to actually come up being upright when circumstances don't make it very favorable. I guess I want to strive to have excellence all the time now and to work hard towards achieving my goals through being moral and satisfied at the same time.
For some reason, I've really gained this personal conscience level where I know what I'm doing and what I'm working hard for. I don't see any reason to really overreact anymore and can pretty much make an individual effort to really go after what I'm interested about. It's nice to be spoon-fed some details every once in awhile to make life easier or to just make assumptions based on your preferences but what makes things an even greater challenge is to actually come up being upright when circumstances don't make it very favorable. I guess I want to strive to have excellence all the time now and to work hard towards achieving my goals through being moral and satisfied at the same time.
Dealing With Stress Management
After all these years of making the same mistakes over and over again in one particular area, I'm starting to see what it may be about now. I guess prayer does really help in these respects before and after the temptation kicked in and whether or not, I had to give into it. I really see it in sort of a emotional way and with some sort of clear vision that can't really be explained in words. It's like a momentary realization where you just see a thousand acts in the brain under two seconds. I seem to have that type of feeling when I brainstorm but the hard part is actually working hard and managing life sometimes.
I'm not necessarily saying to ignore everything a person desires. I think life can be lived in a direction where the heart is filled with content. Things are sometimes going to bring you down any amount but you shouldn't let that be a factor in giving up. I believe having a pretty constant steady flow of working hard towards obtaining a satisfying goal is a life pretty well worth living.
In addition to being a master at managing my own personal boredom and loneliness, I also want to have the ability to manage my own stress. I'm not really the accepting kind with some things and will always be contentious about few things and mindful of some little details. I am just going to be really patient even though I'm going have these strong longings for some things that I know would make me happy. I'm just going to be a hard working individual in a creative way to obtaining those satisifying goals. I will really care obviously if things don't go my way, and I'm not going to give up while constantly improving and adapting to situations. I'm going to try to remain positive regardless of what happens for me and try to make those appropriate acts all the time regardless of what I'm feeling in the moment.
I'm not necessarily saying to ignore everything a person desires. I think life can be lived in a direction where the heart is filled with content. Things are sometimes going to bring you down any amount but you shouldn't let that be a factor in giving up. I believe having a pretty constant steady flow of working hard towards obtaining a satisfying goal is a life pretty well worth living.
In addition to being a master at managing my own personal boredom and loneliness, I also want to have the ability to manage my own stress. I'm not really the accepting kind with some things and will always be contentious about few things and mindful of some little details. I am just going to be really patient even though I'm going have these strong longings for some things that I know would make me happy. I'm just going to be a hard working individual in a creative way to obtaining those satisifying goals. I will really care obviously if things don't go my way, and I'm not going to give up while constantly improving and adapting to situations. I'm going to try to remain positive regardless of what happens for me and try to make those appropriate acts all the time regardless of what I'm feeling in the moment.
Power of Discipline
Having discipline for me is like forming a mode of patience. It's pretty much investing time and exerting a significant amount of energy and concentration with a particular subject. If I do it a great amount which far exceeds some people who speak ill of me, then those people are pretty much in for a surprise! In anything that you decide to do, perhaps working hard to maintain a high level of personal satisfaction is the way to go. With the free time we have, it's a really good idea to invest some time into developing a skill and then doing our part to come up on top for possibly earning a large amount of profit and enjoying those wonderful vacations and time to practically mess around later.
Perhaps, we should make it our business to care about what happens to us. I really dare a lot of people to do some stupid things I perceive they are going to do, but it's probably because I care about facing their baloney to set the table straight. I think it's about trying to not let depression strike us so badly when that moment comes when something just didn't go your way. I think it's just reason to mentally pick yourself back up and try again when that happens.
Perhaps, we should make it our business to care about what happens to us. I really dare a lot of people to do some stupid things I perceive they are going to do, but it's probably because I care about facing their baloney to set the table straight. I think it's about trying to not let depression strike us so badly when that moment comes when something just didn't go your way. I think it's just reason to mentally pick yourself back up and try again when that happens.
Living With Firm Choices
Sometimes when a decision isn't really that flat out based on some firm principle then others could sometimes persuade you to not get into some things even if you have really good intentions. What I am about to do is become a master at managing my own boredom. One of my friends told me that I was lucky because I know the things that would actually make me happy. I say that in order to achieve some sort of happiness one really has to work hard for it.
With whatever worries I have, I'm going to maintain positive expectations while laboring dilligently at them. Right now, I'm in great position to finish off paying everything that I owe and I'm going to do it rapidly as possible so that means trying to stay healthy and advancing in my job. It's a pretty secure job and something I don't really have to worry about being left out of. I'm going to take advantage of milking every moment I can get out of my job.
With whatever worries I have, I'm going to maintain positive expectations while laboring dilligently at them. Right now, I'm in great position to finish off paying everything that I owe and I'm going to do it rapidly as possible so that means trying to stay healthy and advancing in my job. It's a pretty secure job and something I don't really have to worry about being left out of. I'm going to take advantage of milking every moment I can get out of my job.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Utilizing Hope and Prayer
For this post, this is something that I'm barely starting to scratch the surface with. The first thing that comes out of my mind about it is being able to maintain patience and a healthy attitude. Being able to wait for a long period of time while maintaining excellence in everything you do and having fellowship with God which is basically living a blameless life is very difficult and not something that can come from relying on the present and personal abilities of the self. Furthermore, when negativity becomes expressed around you it's easy to feel bitter and become really moody about it.
Because I've been really feeling all down about how short I am and how it sucks to not be taller than an average person, I just tapped into how a smaller race of women which is predominately Asian can actually deal with it maturely and not mind so much about it. Even my little sister doesn't care about a man's height. From being Asian, I just had a natural inclination to research into how Asian women think; here's my interesting finding but not really so surprising- 50% of Asian women don't care about a man's height when it comes to dating.
Because I've been really feeling all down about how short I am and how it sucks to not be taller than an average person, I just tapped into how a smaller race of women which is predominately Asian can actually deal with it maturely and not mind so much about it. Even my little sister doesn't care about a man's height. From being Asian, I just had a natural inclination to research into how Asian women think; here's my interesting finding but not really so surprising- 50% of Asian women don't care about a man's height when it comes to dating.
Hardest Part To Get Over
Pretty much stressing out over feeling no recognition is something that I have had to deal with a little more sensitively as a guy. It sometimes feels a little depressing to be just by yourself and no one to really be around for companionship. I guess God intended in His design of Man for others to have a longing to be able to connect with attractive people. Coming to these realizations, I believe that a super majority might be facing some sort of problems similar to mine. The issue of what sets a person from normality and insanity would be how the person is able to cope with them.
There's a positive and negative side to nearly everything and it seems like there's some difficulty expressed by some people in not being able to handle negative things being pointed out with them. Managing these emotions is tough and a lot of hard work but the reward seems to be a greater fulfillment and readiness in accepting bigger and great things.
There's a positive and negative side to nearly everything and it seems like there's some difficulty expressed by some people in not being able to handle negative things being pointed out with them. Managing these emotions is tough and a lot of hard work but the reward seems to be a greater fulfillment and readiness in accepting bigger and great things.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Putting Forth A Decent Effort
I'm sure people in general have areas where it's pretty hard for them to have some self-control over. For example, it's pretty obvious that some people say curse words when things aren't go the way they like it too and know it's pretty bad to use that type of foul language. I'm sure people know it and laugh about it with themselves when it's brought up to their attention by someone else. In that type of abrupt manner based on some whim of impulse, it looks like I get caught up with doing some stupid things that won't even help me that much on the long run. Why do I keep doing the same thing over and over again?
I think it's because I'm trying to break free from not being completely happy with my upbringing. What I'm going to try to do now is just trust in what the Bible says. The Bible states to seek after the Lord's kingdom first and then everything your heart desires will be added onto you. In a way, you are laboring a lot and working on yourself by setting yourself up to go in an upright manner. Even if it's so hard at times and it feels like the right thing is to take the easy way out, it's worth hanging onto these Christian values no matter how much the world wants to scorn at you about it. I guess the world can be seen as a bunch of mortal humans who bunch up together and think they could be happy living in the moment and try to take it away from some people who they don't see fit. In a way, the world is built up of weak people in general too because their lives will be passing away too.
If the world is going to engage in some unfair activity, then why be in a rush to be evil with them? It would be much stronger to withstand your moral grounds through encouragement of the Bible and develop some ingenious tactics to succeed in this world. I'm going to try to labor hard in a spiritual sense along with putting a high physical effort in my occupation and try to be diligent in being steadfast to what the Lord intended in the Bible. I'm going to put forth a greater amount of faith then I ever have in Christ and let go of some addictive cycles that have only amounted to bringing greater hardships and heartaches with myself.
I think it's because I'm trying to break free from not being completely happy with my upbringing. What I'm going to try to do now is just trust in what the Bible says. The Bible states to seek after the Lord's kingdom first and then everything your heart desires will be added onto you. In a way, you are laboring a lot and working on yourself by setting yourself up to go in an upright manner. Even if it's so hard at times and it feels like the right thing is to take the easy way out, it's worth hanging onto these Christian values no matter how much the world wants to scorn at you about it. I guess the world can be seen as a bunch of mortal humans who bunch up together and think they could be happy living in the moment and try to take it away from some people who they don't see fit. In a way, the world is built up of weak people in general too because their lives will be passing away too.
If the world is going to engage in some unfair activity, then why be in a rush to be evil with them? It would be much stronger to withstand your moral grounds through encouragement of the Bible and develop some ingenious tactics to succeed in this world. I'm going to try to labor hard in a spiritual sense along with putting a high physical effort in my occupation and try to be diligent in being steadfast to what the Lord intended in the Bible. I'm going to put forth a greater amount of faith then I ever have in Christ and let go of some addictive cycles that have only amounted to bringing greater hardships and heartaches with myself.
Monday, July 2, 2012
Living For Freedom
I guess I'm pretty open to doing some fun things with friends such as going hiking and dining at different places. I'm just going to try to wing it everyday with what I'm trying to accomplish now. I'm going to have to eliminate a lot of leisure during my free time and just equate those moments to studying, resting, exercising, or anything related to self-maintenance.
I really enjoy the idea of using an Xbox with its dynamic motion sensor to work out while doing coordinated dance moves. It seems like a lot of fun and a decent work out so that I could also maintain a little creative side of myself. I'm going to keep it natural with myself now when it comes to meeting the right woman to marry and in the process, I'm going to do my part in developing into how I would see being a perfect family man is. I'm just going to be ultra patient and be natural in my inquries while being fully honest with myself.
Instead of doing some evil activity I have going for myself, I'm just going to try to wing it into some productive activity that would be very beneficial. Even if it's me being by myself most of the time, I'm going to have to work at not minding so much about what I'm trying to go after and work it around those areas while enjoying a career that I'm setting out to accomplish. I know I'm going to momentarily falter with the same things over and over again, but one of these days I'm going to break out of those cycles one by one and be a step closer into becoming a more fuller person each day that I live. Basically, I'm going to try my best to live a decent life everyday no matter how stupid my decisions and actions were. I'm going to repent of those decisions at a daily manner when I realize the sin I was carried over with.
I really enjoy the idea of using an Xbox with its dynamic motion sensor to work out while doing coordinated dance moves. It seems like a lot of fun and a decent work out so that I could also maintain a little creative side of myself. I'm going to keep it natural with myself now when it comes to meeting the right woman to marry and in the process, I'm going to do my part in developing into how I would see being a perfect family man is. I'm just going to be ultra patient and be natural in my inquries while being fully honest with myself.
Instead of doing some evil activity I have going for myself, I'm just going to try to wing it into some productive activity that would be very beneficial. Even if it's me being by myself most of the time, I'm going to have to work at not minding so much about what I'm trying to go after and work it around those areas while enjoying a career that I'm setting out to accomplish. I know I'm going to momentarily falter with the same things over and over again, but one of these days I'm going to break out of those cycles one by one and be a step closer into becoming a more fuller person each day that I live. Basically, I'm going to try my best to live a decent life everyday no matter how stupid my decisions and actions were. I'm going to repent of those decisions at a daily manner when I realize the sin I was carried over with.
Keeping It Real
What's been hard for me is living in a direct approach while doing things that are supposed to be very meaningful to me. It's like I've lost my way somewhere along the path I've led. Despite all these struggles that I have internally, I need to still find a way to come up on top so that I can find contentment with where I'm at. It's like no matter what I do, it's never really going to find that perfect peace and harmony while just living for myself.
The reality is that I need to end some things that will never really have any real benefit to how I'm living my life. I'm just going to have to live with boredom and just work hard and live with the constant pains of struggling with going wherever I need to be. I'm just going to work out a schematic where I live a decent life while being totally aware of myself and try my best in choosing to the right and best things for myself. I'm going to have to constantly live in this manner for a lifetime now.
The reality is that I need to end some things that will never really have any real benefit to how I'm living my life. I'm just going to have to live with boredom and just work hard and live with the constant pains of struggling with going wherever I need to be. I'm just going to work out a schematic where I live a decent life while being totally aware of myself and try my best in choosing to the right and best things for myself. I'm going to have to constantly live in this manner for a lifetime now.
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