People Who Mattered

This is an area that makes me feel like an idiot. Pretty much, I was counting on some weird people to continue being my buddy, including on Facebook, so that I could keep on living while feeling like everything was well (basically, peace and safety). The result? Well, not so great of course! 

I can see how wrong I was; there literally is something wrong even though those weird people would personally state that nothing was wrong. They are also into that peace and safety belief system too. I'm glad I've been just knocked out of the undrinkable sea and placed in a plane of deep revelation where I can drink living water! 

Those people mattered to me in the beginning, but it doesn't matter how they conducted their affairs with me. I was just stupid in letting it get to me and being outplayed by a simple click of them deleting me as a friend on Facebook. I think there are those individuals I connect really well out there, and they surely are pretty nice people with their own messed up quirks also. I guess there's a reason behind all the unnecessary madness but it's something I don't think really matters anymore now and is inconsequential thanks to my personal abilities of letting go of frustrations through being like a phenomenal leader in that moment. 

Pretty Flattered

It's pretty cool that this really sexy and hot lady was trying to pursue after me on Facebook. She is a real person who actually updates her Facebook profile with her own personal photos. She is a self-made, part-time model. Wow, she is actually pretty hot and she was kinda into me while messaging me about asking me to chat with her and stuff. It was a little nerve-wrecking for me in her approach, but I guess I love the fact that she wanted to give me a chance for whatever reason she felt was good.

I pretty much bumbled the opportunity like I have in the past with other attractive women too. I'm pretty stupid in that I inadvertently push these beautiful women out of my life because of my personal complexes that I can't get over and then become depressed later after realizing how I let a really beautiful woman in my life go. It's pretty much heart-breaking, but maybe I also broke her heart in the wrong way too at the time by not responding properly to her call.

Developing Holistic Approach

I realize for the person I am in my demeanor, I am actually finding favor in a few nice individuals as well. These people are really nice and pretty cool with me. They greet me first at work and want to make themselves known with me. I'm really honored by that and pretty blessed by it.

I am noticing these little body languages that are so cool and such a privilege. I used to be bothered by it and my body language was just so weird. I was so confused and out of place with the world, so much that it made some other weird people in the world ask me to get some help.

Basically, releasing the frustration through bravery which is something that I needed for myself, it just helped me to find breathing room to continue with my life. Basically, avoid legal battles for anything with others, keep all damage to the least amount, keep it legal, and go for doing it all to get rid of the frustration in one shot! It's all a natural thing and sometimes, you just have to wing it to achieve this simple and precious thing.

It Really Works!

Sometimes, when the gut feeling is so scared of committing to a brave act you carefully thought of and discussed with an individual who supports you, it becomes really hard to not be influenced by others. It pretty much comes down to having to listen to your heart and going with it.

Just from going with my gut instinct, it tells me to release the frustration with the least amount of damage done possible and to keep it legal and then avoid legal battles. By doing this, it gave me a really positively rewarding and honest view of the situation and helped to me to find those unspoken areas that felt like I was being left in the dark.

I realize that through the conflict, I have potential to be well-liked by those individuals but they are just too crazy in general for me to hang out with. It's pretty crazy through the little acts of courage I did to express my true desires of liking a pretty ugly lady who I thought was pretty at the time, it would carry over later in the heat of the moment and actually give me a favorable result. Basically, she didn't want to fight against me in a legal battle or anything even though she was pressured by her mentor and other peers to do so.

Focusing Better In Life

A lot of distractions from feeling angry, sad, upset, or lonely don't really matter to me anymore. Overall, they don't really account for the big picture in my own personal walk in life. I pretty much realize this and now I have to go about living a really productive life.

It's just having fun and personally making myself laugh and then going about doing stuff. The things that are stressful is not really too bad for me to take anymore. I really need to try to find stuff that would work better for me.

I have all this stuff planned out in my head, but they never go according to plan. I might as just start out with the basics and try to apply natural time-management skills through a committed effort.

Getting Used To 2nd Shift

My second shift at work currently has been leaving me mostly sleepy for the last six months. I think there's definitely something wrong with me, so I looked up online some tips on how to go about it. It basically says to limit to deep sleep at about 4-6 hours each day, take 5-hour energy shots, limit sugar intake, and then have regular exercise and proper diet. It also says to not stand around and get busy with doing something and also not taking naps during break time.

My body is usually shot up at work for a couple hours at certain periods of my work schedule. My supervisor has recommended me to switch over to the first shift because my body is just incapable of handling the workload while being awake because it is extremely dangerous and something could go wrong if I knock out at certain parts of the job. I'm pretty concerned about it myself, so I might as well see to it that I do something about it.

Pretty Cool

When I describe something stressful that took place for me, it might be actually stupid but from actually finding that accurate perception through all of the bizarre moments, I feel really relived and satisfied with how I have been conducting myself. I have actually been described by a pretty sensitive and eccentrically self-assured lady that I am a very smart individual. I take that as a compliment while having actually taken out her to lunch and all that as a pretty close friend to her.

 It's pretty nice to be in a considerable admirable position with where I'm headed in my life. From all the hard work and training, it would be really difficult to not perceive how far I came from and with the actions I took, it's pretty darn cool and so self-fulfilling while leaving me just gaffawing at the situation that took place. The other side doesn't look so appealing now and something I don't want to be a part of anymore literally from amassing a whole lot of negative reasons that are strongly justified in an emotional way.

Overall, I'm just so relieved from having taken proper action to get something done. It took a lot of guts and wasn't easy doing it for myself, but I see how it can relate with helping others in this world and so it's just this really positive energy that flows to reach others who have had some sort of connection with me.

Developing Interesting Writing Style

I guess I start out with the words of "I guess" all the time. I'm just stating the personally obvious that might be funny to a couple people and then go for appealing to the masses. It's a lot of fun to write in this manner. Basically, I'm having a good time from laughing at the dryness that I am writing even though it might be stupid to others and then just trying to relate with everyone.

I have this morally upright standard in that I don't really believe in using slapstick, insulting comments to exploit comedic efforts unless I'm extremely anger or frustrated at the person I'm attempting to do that to. Anyhow, I'm just thinking now that I desire to limit that amount by turning into a one time thing where I let go of all my frustrations in that one setting through being this creative person. I sort of have to nowadays do this to compensate for my pretty capable mind these days. I do believe in staying legal and the minimal amount of damage so to maximize the effect, it takes quite a bit of time in general but I'm just going for doing it in a natural and very quick way. After doing that, I do feel very relaxed about going after my personal endeavors and to compete in the financial world for earning a living. I don't harbor any hatred with anyone who beats me out; I just get extremely angry sometimes when I get met with unexpected opposition and from the frustration, I act out of character to resolve it sometimes.

Anyways, from being legal and minimizing damage while pouring all my heart out onto a personally frustrating issue, I feel really released from the poison that came from it and totally relaxed about getting back to my personal studies.

Openness Policy

For a time being, I felt like I was becoming really dependent on this blog to detail all my results in life and to pretty much create an Action-Review type of journal for me to look at and also to share with others interested in reading this blog. It seems like I have been attracting some unknown readers from unknown parts of this world.

I'm pretty much this type of individual who doesn't expect much out of this blog, but it's so interesting that there are a couple people out there who don't mind anything I put on this site. For the most part, it's pretty harmless even though I felt like I was being a really relentless beast (ignorant and senseless) at certain times I was actually putting something up here.

I guess it's one of those appeals of how I feel that the show must go on. Some things left unresolved are sometimes the most frustrating things for me. Anyhow, I think I did enough of my shares now to fully be brave and content and to move forward in my life without having to significantly look back anymore now at what I did. I'm sort of happy with the turnout for myself.

Staying Diligent And Committed Through The Bumps

In terms of being successful at a sport which is pretty much competing against others with a specific purpose of beating the other person and winning to exploit the positive feelings and rewards attributed to it, it pretty much takes a lot of darn commitment and hard work. There are bumps in the road of life that will occur and knock a lot of potentially good people with great skills off the map. It will also weed out the people who are weak in heart and also those who are smart to figure they can't be successful in it for any reason.

I'm sure failures make a lot of people upset in this world, but at the same time, it's also natural for others in general to also not really be mindful about it and turned off to those who have become embittered by it. I think I see that happening with a lot of older grown-ups who are jealous of others or wanting to personally entertain themselves even though their life might not be that great as they expected it to be. I remember watching this YouTube clip on how they did a experiment where this attractive woman who is clearly portraying herself to be a gold digger placing an unidentified substance (actually sugar) on a drink and then the actor who is portraying a millionaire starts acting weird and needing to be hospitalized! The observers who were guys start mocking what they saw and joking about it while hoping the millionaire hotshot gets what they think he deserves for dating this beautiful woman who is only out for materalistic things.

Overall, I don't know how I came to drawing up that funny anecdote I saw last week, but it just came to my mind. I also remember the reporter of that T.V. show being portrayed as a self-seeking beast who wants to promote himself and leave others in the dust from a movie. Hey, I guess the news media can be a cut-throat business too.

Getting Things Done Effectively

I guess I am the type that believe it or not wants to chicken out on a lot of things after planning it for awhile in his head but goes through with it anyway when some things seem to backfire or feel like an obstacle. I pretty much do a lot of improvising when I am fully committed at something and wow, it really developed some happy results for me in a short time frame.

Maybe it's because my mind is so numb and desensitized to pointless things that would be annoying to others. Yeah, basically knocking my frustrations out of the water so quickly through any available means really helps me out in becoming a very productive person. It pretty much ends up with me personally laughing at the situation and sharing it with a couple people openly, if they care to ask about something that would be perceived upon as a stressful or negative event. I seem to belong still and get away with it and at the same time look pretty darn good for the individual I have become. I guess overall things are pretty funny and actually kind of fun with the type of lifestyle I have been living.

Attempting To Find Gold

It seems like I'm a more content person these days because a lot of things go out one ear from the other. There are just a couple things that just get to me so greatly in that I will focus all my attention on that one little concern. It feels really condescending to describe this in writing so much that I want to erase this content to try to make myself look good.

I guess the sardonic appeal for myself and personal laughter that I invoke from this feel good passage that I am concocting is awesome! Wow, I am becoming much more eloquent with my writing and all these complicated ideas that fit into one big word is just flowing really well for me these days.

I am so amazed at how easy it is for me to just type something so flowy and this is just me being partially random and following some pattern of instinctual discipline- meaning I have developed some positive daily practice that actually feels really rewarding and just free-flowing from all the negative stress in my personal life.

Letting Go

I have learned that it may not be beneficial to hold on to something positive that really isn't there when it comes to dealing with individuals. The best thing to do is to pretty much be honest and knock out the frustration as best as possible in the least amount of confrontations and minimal amount of damage in a legal manner.

If something just keeps bothering you and you can't do anything about it but go about bugging the other person (even if you are being nice) who doesn't want to have anything to do with you, then that is going to make things really messy. Might as well just do a creative and legal behavior that would satisfy your urges from being so frustrated with the individual. Obviously, no one wants that from the other person and just wants to be left alone. I'm just saying this for those who are just really belligerent with their emotions- rather than committing a crime, might as well do something healthy and constructive instead of being destructive.

It's pretty much a one shot and possessing a ton of guts to let go of some dumb conflict that's been bothering the person for a long time, while being legal and morally in good considerable standing. I guess it's fair enough from a third party person and smart to filter out those individuals who have problems in general. We all have problems in general, I guess some individuals just connect better with others for any specific reason.

Trying To Catch Up

Haven't really been able to update this blog, so I might as well try my best to catch up before the month is over. I guess nowadays I feel a lot more confident and directive at obtaining a goal such as taking out all my frustrations in a creative and legal manner. It may be questionable at times to others who are absolutely bothered by it, but they can't do anything about it because I'm just slick like that.

One of the cool things from staying with reading something and trying to apply critical thinking through the use of logic and straight-forwardness is that I'm feeling a lot more smarter. I mean things are just connecting more and also my own personal judgements on the vulgarity of men and sensitivity of women seem to make more sense too with others.

Happy Father's Day

Today was actually quite an interesting day. I have some problems fully opening up online because I don't want to just spill and share everything to my knowledge. I guess I will put down what I feel is really comfortable for me and gain even more maturity as time passes with what I decide to put on this blog. I just may start adding in some photographs, too to document some of my personal discoveries and quirks!

Overall, I must be not that really at all appealing to become this full scale news writer that would bring in some fans. I'm not really pursuing after something like that. I'm just looking after writing to complement living a personally full life. Also, if it could influence others to be in a better path then that would be nice too.

Oh yeah, I totally forgot that one with Father's Day, there was this really cool event going on regarding a theater in the O.C. Fair. It's pretty much a faith movement hosted by Franklin Graham. I thought it would have been to cool to check it out, but looks like I missed out on it. I'm totally buying into this whole looking at the entire Scripture outlook now and letting it sink into my personal life.

Learning From The Mistakes of Others

I guess when someone does something you totally detest, you can always learn off of example from their own personal mistakes. Even if the person is clearly weaker, I guess you can always discern much more stronger characteristics that should be taking place and to use that to your personal advantage.

I basically totally feel like I'm living the dream with some of those individuals that tried to stir up some nonsense with me. I'm going to basically work on having compassion for those people now and just go after living a full life while not really caring about those incidents, not making any personal mistakes I would regret, and just go for the direction I should be living now.

Utilizing Personal Time Better

I think I have an area where I would like to get to, and it's something that I really want to strive towards now. I don't have any apprehensive feelings over it and am now willing to go full charge at the strongest grandeur of things I never imagined.

It's just amazing how my personal emotions just strengthened itself all of a sudden, and for some things, what it's worth isn't really that bad. It can also be pretty funny even if it's a little emotionally unsettling! I'm starting to become a whole heck of a lot better at expressing my full self more courageously. It's getting a whole lot easier and so I might as well just go after the things that are personally the most important things for myself, no matter how much I feel with a person does would be beneficial for that person. He or she made the decision, so the form might as well play out in a later time even if it doesn't show to be that much of an effect currently right now. Overall, I'm just becoming more efficient with something.

Totally Free In Spirit

My mind is totally relaxed about everything that happened to me in the past. I have now done what I personally needed to be satisfied about a certain situation and now ready to move forward permanently. Now I'm just thinking to myself "Oh well, they are not that smart anyway!" Besides not having that much time anymore, I think I should build my life elsewhere now.

Having this new level of concentration now, I guess I shouldn't let jealousy or personal anger from absolute disapproval of something just get to me and cause me to do some negligible things to a person. I'm going to learn from that as an example and not be that type of individual. I'm not even going to allow fear, discomfort, or any emotional pains get in the way of the situation. I am also not going to allow it to haunt me in the near future, while making peace with it at the full blown scale now.

Oh boy, those people were really funny and they didn't know what to do with their part in getting along with me or reestablishing a decent relationship. Looks like, I'm just constantly reinventing the wheel these days. Not so much of some old things I did, but more of looking forward with a better mature personality and actual sureness in my own spirit.

Going After Better Opportunities

The thing I find the most important in life with settling down with a beautiful person is to pretty much not let their unavailability or rejection to bring you down. In terms of confidence, it's important to not force the issue at hand and to focus on finding the opportunity elsewhere if it doesn't present itself to you in that time. I'm a really fortunate person capable of talking and acting my way out of many distressful situations a few people tend to try to hurt me for.

I can honestly say now that the two individuals who were supposed to play the biggest role in my life but I didn't let them because they were just holding me back are absolutely wrong about everything and with how they behaved to deal with me. I feel safe to now close the book on them and to move freely with my life after giving them a heads up confrontation where I will probably be an absolute jerk to them. It's going to be extremely quick and blowing things out of the water and result in me running out of the building! The actions I have planned out in my heart is so fast and fluid, where they won't be able to do anything about it no matter if others get legal law enforcement involved with the situation or not.

Moving On Effectiveness

I predict that I am going to be a really absolute jerk about a misunderstanding two individuals have had against me. What I'm doing is going to really make sense and clear up confusion really fast while making me look good to them at an individual level. I feel like a jerk having to resort to this level of personal individualism to get them to calm down. Even though they acted inappropriately from the start and didn't have to behave in that manner, I'm thinking about just moving on after being quick and ruthless with them and running out of the building!

The way that I want to structure this ruthless plan of mine is that I will feel like a jerk afterwards from having let that bad side of me come out in the open. I normally try to control my temper tantrums and angry feelings in the flesh where I just want to plot vengeance to strike their heart and damage their personal feelings. If I see them again or others affiliated with them, they won't get in the way and even if they have their hand with wanting to intrude somewhere in my life, they won't be able to make that much of a difference. This behavior of a jerk that I will momentarily be with them is that I want to have the confidence where they can't affect my life anymore and then just move on.

Finalizing Moments

I can honestly state that I have lived a really interesting life to my personal existence and enjoyed literally getting away with things even when a few individuals have thought that I'm crazy. It's time for me to move on with those people and let them walk in their own meaningful path of existence or letting them coexist with others in their own world. In this instance, I'm just going to have to be the stronger person now and focus after confronting them with an issue they don't want to face alone.

By not needing to put that much thought into it anymore, I'm learning by habit to focus on more important things such as work and personal endeavors on developing other key relationships now. I realize that I'm going to occasionally feel a little bothered underneath from feeling like a short person or something not going well as I had hoped but it's not going to change my personal efforts to be gentle with everyone and positive outlook. I accept those feelings that I have because it feels a lot like multitasking where I make the effort to continue striving after something and pushing a minor setback out of my heart.