Verse 29 literally doesn't even finish in a sentence. I should end it here for the day. Just kidding. Verse 30 says that God commands the priest needs to examine a sore on a man or woman's head. The man could even be trying to hide the leprosy in his beard, but it might look a little too obvious when it's too late. If the sore is deeper than the skin and a thin yellow hair appears then it's called the condition of scaly leprosy. The man or woman with the condition immediately becomes declared unclean.
However in Verse 31, if the scaly sore isn't deeper than the skin then there's still a chance for the man or woman who is about to quarantined. Wouldn't it be great to be a little kid who hates school and other kids' annoying chatter? The man or woman gets the isolation treatment for a full week. In Verse 32, the priest examines it again after the time has passed. I don't see how the priest is immune to those germs, but okay. I also notice that the Bible doesn't mention the priest has to examine a woman in other parts of the body at her behest or disapproval! That's great, noting that leaves out one half of the population to worry about. Just kidding.
In Verse 32, if the priest finds that sore is not deeper than the skin with no yellow hair in it, then the hair needs to be shaved off, minus the spot that has the scale. I guess this is to make it more easier to spot or because maybe there were some issues with damaging the flesh; I don't really know, I'm not a doctor and did not even try. It would be something to not try to laugh at when a beautiful woman has to shave her head. Verse 33 says that a second week of isolation goes on again. This is the first time reading I think that goes on longer for one week while dealing with leprosy!
Verse 34 says that after all of that mess, if the scale is not deeper than the skin and has not spread then the person is pronounced clean. What a way to go! Oh, also the person needs to do some laundry. It's a nice thing that it's not much of a hassle to have a machine that does the hard work for us. I'm still feeling a little lazy to push the button every once in awhile.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Friday, July 31, 2015
Enjoying Peacefulness
Everyday I feel like not blowing up, but I let my mind wander off into an abyss of stressful times! I don't know why I put that, so I am just saying that it is what it is. I'm actually laughing to myself and breathing in short and uncontrollable bursts of those feel good muscles inside of me. Yeah, I'm getting a mental workout and enjoying my day from trying to not laugh so hard on the outside.
I'm catching myself in the act of doing something I shouldn't more often, so I'm working at doing that on a long term basis even with no one around me. What I've been now thinking to myself is that with this God-given precious time that's been laid out for me in this world, why do I have to waste time doing something that doesn't even make any sense!
To protect the world from devastation. To unite all people in something. This team will lead the way! I forgot the whole motto, but I do still want to be the very best like no one ever was. To catch them all would never really be my quest.
I'm catching myself in the act of doing something I shouldn't more often, so I'm working at doing that on a long term basis even with no one around me. What I've been now thinking to myself is that with this God-given precious time that's been laid out for me in this world, why do I have to waste time doing something that doesn't even make any sense!
To protect the world from devastation. To unite all people in something. This team will lead the way! I forgot the whole motto, but I do still want to be the very best like no one ever was. To catch them all would never really be my quest.
Enough Magic the Gathering?
I am really fond of playing my heart out with Magic the Gathering. Maybe I should really think about going on the competitive circuit with it when I'm a millionaire! I can buy all the expensive cards I need and have all the time in the world to challenge the top players for some moolah on the line.
It sounds a little silly I know, but I can't really help myself. I'm really drawn to the card game and like the style and format of it, whether I keep winning or losing. I guess it gets boring when I keep on winning. The losing part makes me uncomfortable and coming back for more while adjusting my style and changing cards to update my strategies.
Anyhow, I have one deck that I stole online (that's right) by reading up on the official website. They basically gave it away, so I feel a little sheepish and try to beat it all the time. The deck I obtained from that website pretty much beats every single deck that's out there. If we play about five times, I'm bound to win at least twice. It doesn't matter what cards the person has, it's just that good of a deck. Well, I found my champion deck with the help of the site, which doesn't feel like much of an accomplishment! I've been still playing at it for hours everyday because I am always in denial and having fun playing myself who is playing that deck and trying to introduce original play. I actually like playing other players better though. Sometimes, no one is available so I end up doing that.
From playing others, it's actually giving me the idea to use certain cards in my deck while understanding its effectiveness.
It sounds a little silly I know, but I can't really help myself. I'm really drawn to the card game and like the style and format of it, whether I keep winning or losing. I guess it gets boring when I keep on winning. The losing part makes me uncomfortable and coming back for more while adjusting my style and changing cards to update my strategies.
Anyhow, I have one deck that I stole online (that's right) by reading up on the official website. They basically gave it away, so I feel a little sheepish and try to beat it all the time. The deck I obtained from that website pretty much beats every single deck that's out there. If we play about five times, I'm bound to win at least twice. It doesn't matter what cards the person has, it's just that good of a deck. Well, I found my champion deck with the help of the site, which doesn't feel like much of an accomplishment! I've been still playing at it for hours everyday because I am always in denial and having fun playing myself who is playing that deck and trying to introduce original play. I actually like playing other players better though. Sometimes, no one is available so I end up doing that.
From playing others, it's actually giving me the idea to use certain cards in my deck while understanding its effectiveness.
Gotta Hit The Gym
I really need to go pump some iron man and run the treadmill, which I haven't done in a few weeks. This is just for my own sake. I also want to be in tip top shape and be able to compete in Iron Man's even if I'll finish in last place while qualifying!
I don't care about being in the spotlight. Finishing a crazy triathlon like that is good enough for me to say that I have enough athleticism to go where I need to when there's a call for it!
I don't care about being in the spotlight. Finishing a crazy triathlon like that is good enough for me to say that I have enough athleticism to go where I need to when there's a call for it!
How It Looks
I'm finding out that even though I don't like my job that much, I've been very busy with it lately. My plans are to pretty much save up my money and invest it. That's all I really have going for me now I guess.
I don't really want to work in general, so why go to school in the first place? I might as well just go for my goal of being a millionaire with what I have going for myself right now. Maybe, I'll go finish my master's later in life when work has gone pretty slow and there's nothing much to do.
I'm thinking that in a matter of few years, I will have enough money from doing my own side business to be able to call it quits now. I really have the tenacity for it and I also enjoy it even though it feels a little stressful sometimes. It's a really unique way of earning a living and that's what I like to call it.
I don't really want to work in general, so why go to school in the first place? I might as well just go for my goal of being a millionaire with what I have going for myself right now. Maybe, I'll go finish my master's later in life when work has gone pretty slow and there's nothing much to do.
I'm thinking that in a matter of few years, I will have enough money from doing my own side business to be able to call it quits now. I really have the tenacity for it and I also enjoy it even though it feels a little stressful sometimes. It's a really unique way of earning a living and that's what I like to call it.
Thursday, July 30, 2015
Starting To Pay Attention Better
I'm realizing that my head likes to go off in a different direction, no matter what the situation is. I can learn to take in the emotional punches and feeling down in life or being super pumped up and in a crazy mood! That being said, my mind just feels smart in that it has memories of so much pain dealing with people. I actually sort of like to be recognized for some reason by my peers. I want them to be well-pleased by me, so when I get angry it's like I'm going off in a direction of forcing them to be happy with me.
It's funny because I can make it work now. The reason is because this is going to cripple my fake enemies if they read this or don't. It's because I have a strong, passionate will to be positive with them by wanting to be their friend even though I think they are retarded! They are wrong because they can't handle their personal feelings and end up doing anti-social things at a personal level to another person.
Yeah, so from me writing that, it's crippled all the people in the world who has ever had a bad fallout with me, which is practically nobody. They just went into remission with me. I understand that it's so obvious and basic at the surface that I don't even mention it at times because I'm looking for more complicated things, but it shouldn't be like that. If you use the boring coincidences to have it your way, it's actually necessary.
It's funny because I can make it work now. The reason is because this is going to cripple my fake enemies if they read this or don't. It's because I have a strong, passionate will to be positive with them by wanting to be their friend even though I think they are retarded! They are wrong because they can't handle their personal feelings and end up doing anti-social things at a personal level to another person.
Yeah, so from me writing that, it's crippled all the people in the world who has ever had a bad fallout with me, which is practically nobody. They just went into remission with me. I understand that it's so obvious and basic at the surface that I don't even mention it at times because I'm looking for more complicated things, but it shouldn't be like that. If you use the boring coincidences to have it your way, it's actually necessary.
Job Thought
The closest field of my interest deals with Information Technology. I'm going for a Master's in it right now. The only purpose for getting this job is because it's about increasing my earnings while doing something that I like doing to the maximum amount. It's pretty much the only logical reasoning that I can come up with for doing so.
I don't like my current job right now, but I am a whiz with using the computer for some things. I don't really like going to a 9 to 5 pm job in general. I want to have all the time in the world to do things that I am interested in. I am constantly reassessing the things that I'm preoccupied with.
I don't like my current job right now, but I am a whiz with using the computer for some things. I don't really like going to a 9 to 5 pm job in general. I want to have all the time in the world to do things that I am interested in. I am constantly reassessing the things that I'm preoccupied with.
Writing More Smoother
Seriously, I'm finding the heart to keep on going in an optimistic manner these days. From feeling something negative, I actually use that feeling to push myself into a positive direction again. There are some things that are definitely out of my control and nothing I can really do about it. I mean, I can improve my state of being for the moment, but it's only going to be so long before I need to release it.
I can only take precautions with myself and try to avoid an unlikable circumstance. I only have so much control that my body can give. I might be an above average person with the things I accomplish, but I really need to make some appropriate sacrifices so that I can ambitiously focus on greater outcomes.
Who am I kidding? I'm not really satisfied with something. That's why I'm continually going after it. Maybe if I were to break it down in little increments and decrease my wasteful activities even though those activities actually benefit me in some way. I know it's a contradiction, but I am gaining knowledge of useless facts. I guess it works in a way like that.
One of my friends was very confident in her abilities to remember things, but failed miserably to go where she wanted. She's beautiful and very successful. She seems like an untamed wild thing that goes around trying to micro-manage the most useless things. Anyhow, I'm just writing in an oxymoron fashion again.
I can only take precautions with myself and try to avoid an unlikable circumstance. I only have so much control that my body can give. I might be an above average person with the things I accomplish, but I really need to make some appropriate sacrifices so that I can ambitiously focus on greater outcomes.
Who am I kidding? I'm not really satisfied with something. That's why I'm continually going after it. Maybe if I were to break it down in little increments and decrease my wasteful activities even though those activities actually benefit me in some way. I know it's a contradiction, but I am gaining knowledge of useless facts. I guess it works in a way like that.
One of my friends was very confident in her abilities to remember things, but failed miserably to go where she wanted. She's beautiful and very successful. She seems like an untamed wild thing that goes around trying to micro-manage the most useless things. Anyhow, I'm just writing in an oxymoron fashion again.
Interesting Computer
My All-in-One PC ended up frying its hard drive. The hard drive is 2 TB, and it really bites another one's dust to lose my data in there. Maybe I can still save the data by trying something like LiveCD or just buy an external USB HD kit to check it out.
I remember as a kid that I hated and struggled with writing. I was a perfectionist and wanted to constantly smack myself for not being perfect. I was so slow, but when it came to math, I would bust out with speed and accuracy that surpassed my classmates. This is no lie, when I was in second or third grade, I used to solve simple addition and subtraction faster than everyone in my class. I would go back and forth with every one of my classmates by standing behind them. And then... this one black dude beat me! I was like errr, I tried even harder and he was my competition!
I got lazy overall because I ended up being in third place with everything. Life was good, until the unexpected happen. Anyhow, I'm noticing that I'm warming up a little better to the female crowd. I must actually be acceptable to females who are smaller than me. I don't know why but it's possible.
I remember as a kid that I hated and struggled with writing. I was a perfectionist and wanted to constantly smack myself for not being perfect. I was so slow, but when it came to math, I would bust out with speed and accuracy that surpassed my classmates. This is no lie, when I was in second or third grade, I used to solve simple addition and subtraction faster than everyone in my class. I would go back and forth with every one of my classmates by standing behind them. And then... this one black dude beat me! I was like errr, I tried even harder and he was my competition!
I got lazy overall because I ended up being in third place with everything. Life was good, until the unexpected happen. Anyhow, I'm noticing that I'm warming up a little better to the female crowd. I must actually be acceptable to females who are smaller than me. I don't know why but it's possible.
Doing Some Push-ups
At work, I'm taking a few minutes each day to do at least 40 push ups. I was so rusty because I used to be able to do about 60. I'm now back up 46 push ups, but it's probably going to go back down. It's no worries for me. It's funny how my body just got used to doing push ups after not having done them in a long time and knocking them out.
I really need to start hitting the gym and improving my fitness level. I also have so much resources for better my life-style, but I don't use them. They are treasures on my personal book shelf that I have placed and haven't got around to reading yet.
I really need to start hitting the gym and improving my fitness level. I also have so much resources for better my life-style, but I don't use them. They are treasures on my personal book shelf that I have placed and haven't got around to reading yet.
Starting To Tone It Down
I have been getting these crazy flashbacks of doing take downs with my past bullies. I know, how can they really be bullies if I imagine myself pinning them down and then saying "1-2-3, you lost!" I now figure that I don't really have to get so worked up from being all angry and in a bad mood now. I actually scare and can annoy people in an innocuous way when I'm seemingly acting crazy.
It's my big head with a memory for pain that's keeping me from continually doing something stupid. I don't like losing Facebook friends, no matter what happened. I ended up doing that by being defiant with a church group leader. I know where she went wrong. Besides making a sexist comment, she couldn't control her temper that well because she was shouting a lot of times. If she were to be calm, then she wouldn't need to shout and be giving a prissy fit. The way I'm being right is that I'm about maintaining a positive attitude and being her friend even though I think she's retarded.
Anyway from reading the Book of Ruth in the Bible which is only four measly chapters, I don't see how no one wouldn't be able to accomplish such a feat. From reading that book, it says something about Ruth wanting her next husband-in-line to wrap his skirt around her. Interesting, indeed because the Irish wore kilts and I don't know so much about the males of a Jewish culture having to wear a man's skirt! Oh well, it just means that Ruth proposed to him. That's pretty nice, to see the least. Having a really beautiful and humble walk in on your life one day with the support of her former mother-in-law.
This being said, the puzzle all adds up because Ruth's next husband was the ideal man in general. Okay, I feel like I'm getting a ring on my finger someday. It's like my left ring finger is feeling hotter with a burning sensation more than any other. It feels like a premonition for some odd reason I won't reveal...
It's my big head with a memory for pain that's keeping me from continually doing something stupid. I don't like losing Facebook friends, no matter what happened. I ended up doing that by being defiant with a church group leader. I know where she went wrong. Besides making a sexist comment, she couldn't control her temper that well because she was shouting a lot of times. If she were to be calm, then she wouldn't need to shout and be giving a prissy fit. The way I'm being right is that I'm about maintaining a positive attitude and being her friend even though I think she's retarded.
Anyway from reading the Book of Ruth in the Bible which is only four measly chapters, I don't see how no one wouldn't be able to accomplish such a feat. From reading that book, it says something about Ruth wanting her next husband-in-line to wrap his skirt around her. Interesting, indeed because the Irish wore kilts and I don't know so much about the males of a Jewish culture having to wear a man's skirt! Oh well, it just means that Ruth proposed to him. That's pretty nice, to see the least. Having a really beautiful and humble walk in on your life one day with the support of her former mother-in-law.
This being said, the puzzle all adds up because Ruth's next husband was the ideal man in general. Okay, I feel like I'm getting a ring on my finger someday. It's like my left ring finger is feeling hotter with a burning sensation more than any other. It feels like a premonition for some odd reason I won't reveal...
Something Very Good
Honestly, I think where my path should be going is where I've been planning myself all this time. I've found a very particularly useful website and that's the commentaries section of BibleHub. It has all the well-known commentaries that are around and from reading it for an explanation, it gave me a better grasp of what's going on through the context of the verses.
I'm really reading verse by verse and chapter by chapter and then to book by book. I'm planning on doing this for the rest of my life. I don't care how many times I've read it, I'll just keep on abusing my time to read it. Reading it in King James version was actually pretty fun and seemed a little painless. I'm used to dreading the thought of reading, but having gained a better skill for reading, I have been enjoying the benefit.
I'm really reading verse by verse and chapter by chapter and then to book by book. I'm planning on doing this for the rest of my life. I don't care how many times I've read it, I'll just keep on abusing my time to read it. Reading it in King James version was actually pretty fun and seemed a little painless. I'm used to dreading the thought of reading, but having gained a better skill for reading, I have been enjoying the benefit.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Recap
I have practically been saying that I will be doing stuff, but actually I don't get around to doing it. The only things I've been really doing is going to work, hanging out with my best friend, and then wasting away my precious time with doing other things.
I'm going to make myself a small promise. The only accountability I really have is just my own honor while allowing God to be my witness. I'm just writing it down because it helps stick better to my memory from forcing on applying myself.
It's basically one thing and it's really about controlling myself and getting a grip of my negative emotions while I'm feeling really woozy. I can just feel like things are not going well for me and that I'm having a really hard time and things are just not going smooth for me. It's just a feeling while my mind is fixated on doing something that feels really good like Magic: the Gathering!
There's actually a geeky community for playing that card game and a lot of young men play it. I think there are a few women who are crazy about it too. I met a few in high school. My deck was a troll deck and made people mad. No one wanted to play with me, but I was so competitive and wanted to always win!
I now have about 10 decks that I can play with. I've been putting a little too much time into it as a hobby. It's definitely a luxury that I should put aside for greater things ahead of myself.
I guess making sacrifices is a requirement and you can't always be fully happy in life.
I'm going to make myself a small promise. The only accountability I really have is just my own honor while allowing God to be my witness. I'm just writing it down because it helps stick better to my memory from forcing on applying myself.
It's basically one thing and it's really about controlling myself and getting a grip of my negative emotions while I'm feeling really woozy. I can just feel like things are not going well for me and that I'm having a really hard time and things are just not going smooth for me. It's just a feeling while my mind is fixated on doing something that feels really good like Magic: the Gathering!
There's actually a geeky community for playing that card game and a lot of young men play it. I think there are a few women who are crazy about it too. I met a few in high school. My deck was a troll deck and made people mad. No one wanted to play with me, but I was so competitive and wanted to always win!
I now have about 10 decks that I can play with. I've been putting a little too much time into it as a hobby. It's definitely a luxury that I should put aside for greater things ahead of myself.
I guess making sacrifices is a requirement and you can't always be fully happy in life.
Saturday, July 25, 2015
Dedication
I notice there are three steps to ensuring a good life. The first one is planning, the second is dedicating, and the last step is reassessing yourself.
I'm practically great at planning and reassessing myself but I stink at being a dedicated person. I think it's great to add the Lord's wisdom through the Holy Spirit in each of these steps. To be able to have a sharper mindset for the things of the Lord, it's important to study God's Word and have it planted in your heart. It's not uncommon for believers of the Lord to become better servants from spending time with these little QTs. It's hard to do and I'm no exception. I just like talking and defending about how it's good to do, even though I don't always get to it.
What I'm noticing for myself is that I need to cut out the excess because I have planned for myself so many good things. It feels rather empty at times because I think I'm trying to kick out the Lord or when I do invite Him in, I still don't feel like going after my wonderful plans. I think it's just from feeling lazy or tired and wanting to pass the moment with doing something fun.
From reassessing myself with doing all that fun stuff, it feels like really cheap thrills and I'm not liking it that much. I'll try to complete all my goals in one setting and then reassess myself and see how I like it.
I really loved it when I earned a 100% and 99.9% grade on my graduate courses. I was feeling great about it.
I'm practically great at planning and reassessing myself but I stink at being a dedicated person. I think it's great to add the Lord's wisdom through the Holy Spirit in each of these steps. To be able to have a sharper mindset for the things of the Lord, it's important to study God's Word and have it planted in your heart. It's not uncommon for believers of the Lord to become better servants from spending time with these little QTs. It's hard to do and I'm no exception. I just like talking and defending about how it's good to do, even though I don't always get to it.
What I'm noticing for myself is that I need to cut out the excess because I have planned for myself so many good things. It feels rather empty at times because I think I'm trying to kick out the Lord or when I do invite Him in, I still don't feel like going after my wonderful plans. I think it's just from feeling lazy or tired and wanting to pass the moment with doing something fun.
From reassessing myself with doing all that fun stuff, it feels like really cheap thrills and I'm not liking it that much. I'll try to complete all my goals in one setting and then reassess myself and see how I like it.
I really loved it when I earned a 100% and 99.9% grade on my graduate courses. I was feeling great about it.
Thursday, July 16, 2015
Dreaded Feeling of Procrastination
From accumulating things and putting it aside, my table just gets really messy and I just leave stuff lying out there. It really gets distracting after awhile and even though I don't want to do it sometimes, I just have to man up and get it over with. This is how I feel my job is like sometimes.
Having developed some growth in the Lord for some interesting reason, my heart seems to be more at peace and capable of being patient while I go after things. My mind just feels really disoriented while I'm doing stuff I'm not accustomed to and don't have a heart for, so I guess it feels scary in a sense to get something done occasionally.
Anyway, I just started hacking away at the stuff that's been accumulating on my table. I feel so much more relief now that I don't have much remaining on there. I still have a lot to accomplish, but I'm more open to focusing on those things now. It's like I need to engage in a playful state for a little bit of time before I can recall my passion and energy for getting stuff done.
My main reason for actually writing on here today is because I noticed that I have an interest for reading now. I'm not really picking up on anything or very little to please my mental taste bud but it sure darn is cool to try to read fast and understand everything while going 100 miles an hour with engaging in literature and being distracted at the same time with drama that's going on in my head!
Having developed some growth in the Lord for some interesting reason, my heart seems to be more at peace and capable of being patient while I go after things. My mind just feels really disoriented while I'm doing stuff I'm not accustomed to and don't have a heart for, so I guess it feels scary in a sense to get something done occasionally.
Anyway, I just started hacking away at the stuff that's been accumulating on my table. I feel so much more relief now that I don't have much remaining on there. I still have a lot to accomplish, but I'm more open to focusing on those things now. It's like I need to engage in a playful state for a little bit of time before I can recall my passion and energy for getting stuff done.
My main reason for actually writing on here today is because I noticed that I have an interest for reading now. I'm not really picking up on anything or very little to please my mental taste bud but it sure darn is cool to try to read fast and understand everything while going 100 miles an hour with engaging in literature and being distracted at the same time with drama that's going on in my head!
Wednesday, July 15, 2015
List of Things To Accomplish
I guess by trusting in God, it's eliminating a lot of my actions that come from panicking and desiring something crazy.
Eventually, I will become an online poker pro. The way to master it is sort of my little secret that I am going to keep to myself. The same goes with doing some online trading. The hard work I put into from naturally researching and reading up on books from talented people really combines my own personal effort to mastering those crafts.
In the meantime, I'm going for a Master's degree and aiming for a job that I will be happy doing daily until I reach my ultimate goal of financial independence!
I do feel burnt out sometimes and that's probably what causes me to start wasting time by doing light activities. I think I just need to pray to the Lord to fill me with His wisdom from the Holy Spirit when that happens and to just keep on pushing.
I have some chores that I need to accomplish too, but I need to keep some a secret so I'll just keep a private journal for those related matters.
Eventually, I will become an online poker pro. The way to master it is sort of my little secret that I am going to keep to myself. The same goes with doing some online trading. The hard work I put into from naturally researching and reading up on books from talented people really combines my own personal effort to mastering those crafts.
In the meantime, I'm going for a Master's degree and aiming for a job that I will be happy doing daily until I reach my ultimate goal of financial independence!
I do feel burnt out sometimes and that's probably what causes me to start wasting time by doing light activities. I think I just need to pray to the Lord to fill me with His wisdom from the Holy Spirit when that happens and to just keep on pushing.
I have some chores that I need to accomplish too, but I need to keep some a secret so I'll just keep a private journal for those related matters.
Depending On God
I'm noticing that my crazy feelings are trying to separate my own personal rationale on some mornings. It's just a blend of stress and uneasiness. I think it's pretty much a withdrawal symptom from keeping myself in dealing with addictive material like playing video games or watching funny T.V. shows.
I'm starting to understand what it means to depend on God for all my needs and desires. Instead of going an improper way, it would be better to be patient and conduct myself in the ways of the Lord. By trusting upon the Lord in those slightly difficult moments, I can keep a steadfast heart and keep myself from falling short so often than I don't want to. The Bible says that believers can make plans for things to happen, but the Lord will ultimately direct the footsteps.
I'm starting to understand what it means to depend on God for all my needs and desires. Instead of going an improper way, it would be better to be patient and conduct myself in the ways of the Lord. By trusting upon the Lord in those slightly difficult moments, I can keep a steadfast heart and keep myself from falling short so often than I don't want to. The Bible says that believers can make plans for things to happen, but the Lord will ultimately direct the footsteps.
Leviticus 13:24-28
Leviticus 13:24 talks about how the priest needs to examine the skin for leprosy after it has been burned by fire on the condition that the burn turns into a bright, reddish-white, or white spot. Verse 25 states that if the hair of the bright spot has turned white and appears deeper than the skin, then it's a leprous sore and the person is pronounced to be unclean.
Well, that's pretty crazy. I guess leprosy will cause the hair of the skin to sink in. Verse 26 states that if the priest cannot find white hairs on the bright spot and isn't deeper than the skin while having faded then the person needs to be isolated for seven days. In a way, it seems like the person is being quarantined temporarily. Verse 27 says that if the spot has spread all over the skin then it is a leprous sore and the person is made to be unclean. Verse 28 states that if the bright spot stays in only one place then it's just going to be a scar.
Well, that's pretty crazy. I guess leprosy will cause the hair of the skin to sink in. Verse 26 states that if the priest cannot find white hairs on the bright spot and isn't deeper than the skin while having faded then the person needs to be isolated for seven days. In a way, it seems like the person is being quarantined temporarily. Verse 27 says that if the spot has spread all over the skin then it is a leprous sore and the person is made to be unclean. Verse 28 states that if the bright spot stays in only one place then it's just going to be a scar.
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
Messy Room and New Way of Thinking
I actually do have a private life and from being a short guy, I read that this crazy guy who got killed in prison once stuffed his cowboy boots so that he could appear taller to impress adolescent girls. That's quite an interesting story, but I guess as you grow older and become more smarter, those things don't really matter so much anymore.
I have found out something that's really cool from professing to be a Christian or strong believer of God the Father. From being able to reflect on my needs and praying for them to be met, it gives me a sense of purpose and makes me actually more comfortable while being patient. No matter what the desires are, how small or great, by praying and then be willing to accept the direction that the hand of God will take you in, it promotes a much better and happier life. I think that's what I just need to do to keep my mind off of temptations and continue to repeat a sinful activity.
For myself, I have developed some huge no-nos in my life. Like I'm not going to be reckless with my driving habits nor do drunk driving because it's stupid. I don't really care what I'm going through or what peer pressure is given to me, I'm never going to do that. Also when it comes to dating, I'm never going to engage in a promiscuous activity because I just want to save all of that for marriage. I would like marriage to feel like a winning prize for myself with some awesome fun if you know what I mean! I can hold out on that intimate stuff and keep it a cute and controlled level while anticipating the big moment.
I have found out something that's really cool from professing to be a Christian or strong believer of God the Father. From being able to reflect on my needs and praying for them to be met, it gives me a sense of purpose and makes me actually more comfortable while being patient. No matter what the desires are, how small or great, by praying and then be willing to accept the direction that the hand of God will take you in, it promotes a much better and happier life. I think that's what I just need to do to keep my mind off of temptations and continue to repeat a sinful activity.
For myself, I have developed some huge no-nos in my life. Like I'm not going to be reckless with my driving habits nor do drunk driving because it's stupid. I don't really care what I'm going through or what peer pressure is given to me, I'm never going to do that. Also when it comes to dating, I'm never going to engage in a promiscuous activity because I just want to save all of that for marriage. I would like marriage to feel like a winning prize for myself with some awesome fun if you know what I mean! I can hold out on that intimate stuff and keep it a cute and controlled level while anticipating the big moment.
Sunday, July 12, 2015
Change of Plans
I have been playing Magic the Gathering online for free which is nice against some very smart players. I have been getting whooped and also defeating some players too. There's a competitive version that exists for the game but I don't like the format of it. I'm thinking of it as being too much leisure for me now.
I'm going to just let it go then. With poker, as long as there continues to be a long line of people playing it, I see that there's a future with me getting involved with mainly the online side of it. I'm pretty interested in doing it mainly part time instead of full time for trying to make a living. On top of that, I see myself combining trading to earn a living. Those endeavors are going to take several years to get better at it.
In the mean time, I might as well study for a Master's and try to earn a job that I would be willing to wake up for each morning. My current job is okay, but I would like to do something better and it's probably something I'm going to end up getting good at as time goes on, but I want to move on with it already.
I'm going to just let it go then. With poker, as long as there continues to be a long line of people playing it, I see that there's a future with me getting involved with mainly the online side of it. I'm pretty interested in doing it mainly part time instead of full time for trying to make a living. On top of that, I see myself combining trading to earn a living. Those endeavors are going to take several years to get better at it.
In the mean time, I might as well study for a Master's and try to earn a job that I would be willing to wake up for each morning. My current job is okay, but I would like to do something better and it's probably something I'm going to end up getting good at as time goes on, but I want to move on with it already.
Friday, July 10, 2015
Being Mindful
With my emotions and addictions trying to run my life, I'm going to try to exercise my desires at the same time and manage my time to get somewhere. This is something that's going to turn into like a routine, which I truly dread. I think I just need to be a man about doing some routine and just see where it's going to take me later on.
I'm giving up on something that I'm not mentioning but yeah, it's a big thing to let go of especially for a single man who struggles in finding the most beautiful girlfriend in the world. It's all good, I'm not depressed about my situation in that area.
I think my area that I want to struggle and bash my head over is in the areas of playing online poker and online trading. It's a battlefield out there and mostly I'm ending up breaking even with a very slight margin of profit. I'm going to keep on going with the most minimal amount invested and when I do double my money like that while developing a boring routine, I'll have something going that will provide me with a lot of leverage and financial independence.
In the meantime, I'm going to finish a Master's degree and it's only because I said I would. I would only be doing myself a disservice if I didn't. I said I was going for being a millionaire and a six pack as well. Even though I'm tired and feeling lazy, I'm determined to go after it.
I'm giving up on something that I'm not mentioning but yeah, it's a big thing to let go of especially for a single man who struggles in finding the most beautiful girlfriend in the world. It's all good, I'm not depressed about my situation in that area.
I think my area that I want to struggle and bash my head over is in the areas of playing online poker and online trading. It's a battlefield out there and mostly I'm ending up breaking even with a very slight margin of profit. I'm going to keep on going with the most minimal amount invested and when I do double my money like that while developing a boring routine, I'll have something going that will provide me with a lot of leverage and financial independence.
In the meantime, I'm going to finish a Master's degree and it's only because I said I would. I would only be doing myself a disservice if I didn't. I said I was going for being a millionaire and a six pack as well. Even though I'm tired and feeling lazy, I'm determined to go after it.
Finding Balance
I need to try harder next time when I'm feeling a little down and bored. It happens to me when I keep my guard down. I just need to be more committed and exercise better time management.
That's what I'm going for then. I like the feeling of struggling now and being angry and worried about stuff. It makes life worth something to struggle after. I think in those moments of desperation, I just need to man up and suck it up and just continue to work at it. Even though my brain isn't feeling good about doing it and it would easier to just relax, I need to just stress it a little better in managing my own time and being productive on a daily basis. It's going to be something that's long term for me.
I'm not really that lucky, even though I saw some opportunities in the past and let them go. Actually those opportunities weren't fully what I was looking for anyway. I think maybe God or myself has been holding them back for a reason. Maybe, I'm not meant to go that route and I need to just change myself for the better. That's what I'm going to go after now.
What I Need To Do
I don't think I will ever be a very satisfied person in life anyway. I'm not born with anything exceptional to be noticed by the most attractive people out there. I would like to live the best way that I can so going under the knife or getting therapy won't be the answer for me. I'm just going to accept my personal strengths and weaknesses and try to overcome my own weaknesses.
I need to stop wandering off in my head and develop some sort of addiction while neglecting my own personal health. What I need to do is allow myself to suffer under great and extreme discomfort. I'm a really short person and don't have any depression issues. Okay, I'm not that that short, but I'm still a little small.
Good things just don't come to me that easy. I'm not lucky like that. I guess that's what I've been trying to say here. It's all long term and might even never happen for me. I think while feeling depressed from being stuck I just need to keep on pushing and laboring for it. Even if it doesn't make any sense, I just need to give it my all and push for it.
I need to stop wandering off in my head and develop some sort of addiction while neglecting my own personal health. What I need to do is allow myself to suffer under great and extreme discomfort. I'm a really short person and don't have any depression issues. Okay, I'm not that that short, but I'm still a little small.
Good things just don't come to me that easy. I'm not lucky like that. I guess that's what I've been trying to say here. It's all long term and might even never happen for me. I think while feeling depressed from being stuck I just need to keep on pushing and laboring for it. Even if it doesn't make any sense, I just need to give it my all and push for it.
Monday, July 6, 2015
No More Distractions
I'm realizing a lot of my intentions are really for vanity or slightly unimportant values, basically it's all in the name of fun. I guess I'm trying to rear myself into a more practical person.
It looks like I'm entering into a state of retention and development once again. I wish I was like at age 16 with the experiences that I have been going through, but there's not much I can do about that. I'm pretty much double that age now. If I can make the most of it now, then I think what counts is pretty much doing things that would please God more than myself.
Okay, I'm limiting more of those vanity rushes and going after pursuing some healthy and long term goals. I think having those helpless and negative emotions is really giving me so much more motivation to get out of them and work even more diligently and in a healthy manner. I think it's good to be under some stress and practice problem solving skills. I should be okay with where I'm going these days.
It looks like I'm entering into a state of retention and development once again. I wish I was like at age 16 with the experiences that I have been going through, but there's not much I can do about that. I'm pretty much double that age now. If I can make the most of it now, then I think what counts is pretty much doing things that would please God more than myself.
Okay, I'm limiting more of those vanity rushes and going after pursuing some healthy and long term goals. I think having those helpless and negative emotions is really giving me so much more motivation to get out of them and work even more diligently and in a healthy manner. I think it's good to be under some stress and practice problem solving skills. I should be okay with where I'm going these days.
Sunday, July 5, 2015
How I'm Scary
If you me know me as a person and have placed a bad judgement on me in the past, it's a bad call. I'm scary in that when I'm really angry with someone, things can turn out very bad for him or her in the end. I realize that I have a passionate drive from being an angry doofus. Heck, I'm still running around a little smart while being that way.
I used to feel bad like I had an unfair advantage over others because of it. Not anymore, man. It's all because even while I'm running wild like a carefree stallion and stampeding over little babies (people around my age), I know that my anger has a purpose. It's about being positive! Uh oh, because I'm going to be happy and make you look bad while others will be like what the heck? In the same process, they will go this guy (me) likes to be a nice guy but don't want him mad. No no, not a good idea.
What also makes me scary is that I'm personally laughing about how short I am as a person compared to others who are taller than me. When I mention that, people don't respond to that statement very well. It's like they are in disbelief!
I guess I like the stereotypical very hot and ultra nice, light-colored, Korean girl around my age and madly in love with me. Hahahaha! She's also not that tall too as a person. So stereotypical for a guy like me. No wonder, why I don't have that going for me because I can't seem to find her nor interact with her that well. Maybe the girls on TV like to wear so much makeup that I want to go blah at the toilet bowl if I ever see her true physical beauty. I want this girl to even be a dedicated Christian which makes it even ten times harder than what I originally have a longing for.
I think overall, this person would contribute to bringing everybody around me a peace of mind and satisfaction in benefiting out of it. I'm just saying... In the meantime, it's just meet and greet and moving on if there's nothing to really gain out of it and using those longing feelings to get something good out of it through hard work and patience. It's pretty much a mind trap when you are boggled down with sad feelings; there's no need to linger there no matter what you have going.
I used to feel bad like I had an unfair advantage over others because of it. Not anymore, man. It's all because even while I'm running wild like a carefree stallion and stampeding over little babies (people around my age), I know that my anger has a purpose. It's about being positive! Uh oh, because I'm going to be happy and make you look bad while others will be like what the heck? In the same process, they will go this guy (me) likes to be a nice guy but don't want him mad. No no, not a good idea.
What also makes me scary is that I'm personally laughing about how short I am as a person compared to others who are taller than me. When I mention that, people don't respond to that statement very well. It's like they are in disbelief!
I guess I like the stereotypical very hot and ultra nice, light-colored, Korean girl around my age and madly in love with me. Hahahaha! She's also not that tall too as a person. So stereotypical for a guy like me. No wonder, why I don't have that going for me because I can't seem to find her nor interact with her that well. Maybe the girls on TV like to wear so much makeup that I want to go blah at the toilet bowl if I ever see her true physical beauty. I want this girl to even be a dedicated Christian which makes it even ten times harder than what I originally have a longing for.
I think overall, this person would contribute to bringing everybody around me a peace of mind and satisfaction in benefiting out of it. I'm just saying... In the meantime, it's just meet and greet and moving on if there's nothing to really gain out of it and using those longing feelings to get something good out of it through hard work and patience. It's pretty much a mind trap when you are boggled down with sad feelings; there's no need to linger there no matter what you have going.
Vanity
It's not that big of a deal to be the ultimate geek with playing Magic: the Gathering for me. It's not even that big of a deal for me to be friends with everybody in the world and getting anybody I can get in contact with to unblock me as a friend on Facebook and then add me as a friend on Facebook over and over again.
It's all vanity, period! My important goals that I want to do is have a relationship with God and become a millionaire with a six pack. Yeah, with no need to be defensive yeah, those guys who blocked me on Facebook seriously should go check in with a counselor because when I'm on a rampage, yeah, they are really going to need take it up. They say they were scared in the past, but I give them something to be really scared about and it's threatening them that they will end up in a psychiatric ward!
They pretty much are going to go cuckoo for cocoa puffs in wanting me to leave them alone! I will state that being admitted into the asylum is an excellent way to meet new people and have someone look over you 24-7 because they will be peering at you through a stainless glass that you can't break out of! In other words, their minds will be so warped from doing lobotomies that with the early onset of forced Alzheimer's disease, they won't even know that I was bugging them in the first place.
I JUST WANT TO BE THEIR FRIENDS!!! THEY ARE MAKING IT HARD ON THEMSELVES, NOT ME. I'm used to all of that gibberish talk and laughing at them while making them look like low-class fools. It's something I was born with and accept very happily and mightily.
It's all vanity, period! My important goals that I want to do is have a relationship with God and become a millionaire with a six pack. Yeah, with no need to be defensive yeah, those guys who blocked me on Facebook seriously should go check in with a counselor because when I'm on a rampage, yeah, they are really going to need take it up. They say they were scared in the past, but I give them something to be really scared about and it's threatening them that they will end up in a psychiatric ward!
They pretty much are going to go cuckoo for cocoa puffs in wanting me to leave them alone! I will state that being admitted into the asylum is an excellent way to meet new people and have someone look over you 24-7 because they will be peering at you through a stainless glass that you can't break out of! In other words, their minds will be so warped from doing lobotomies that with the early onset of forced Alzheimer's disease, they won't even know that I was bugging them in the first place.
I JUST WANT TO BE THEIR FRIENDS!!! THEY ARE MAKING IT HARD ON THEMSELVES, NOT ME. I'm used to all of that gibberish talk and laughing at them while making them look like low-class fools. It's something I was born with and accept very happily and mightily.
Running Emotions With Patience Involved
This is something that's now coming to my attention. With these sad feelings of wanting to do something, it's easy for guys to just go kill something! I don't literally mean taking away a life; I mean like doing something stupid to momentarily distract ourselves. It's like ruining the mood of someone else's party by crashing there and then making everybody angry with you.
Doing what I just described is the short cut to being a big time jerk and letting loose momentarily before allowing those lonely and depressing feelings to kick in, which makes you want to go binge on some more stupidity. I'm being pretty honest here, even though I'm laughing my knockers off. I found out the solution to all of this madness. Note how I'm making this part of the paragraph bold.
The answer is: patience.
...
Was I just going to leave you hanging there? No, I'll explain. By letting those feelings want to come around and kick our butts, it's better to just work hard for obtaining something that we want. It could be working out or making ourselves a better person even. I went out of my way and messaged a dumb guy with diabetes and said I want to be his friend and made fun of him. Yeah, something like that. I hit on this girl on Facebook for laughs even though she's way too much older for my taste and made fun of some of her friends by trying to make her laugh in the process. It's about trying to be positive!
Being patient just makes you so much more desperate and makes you want to be more smarter in how you conduct yourself. In a way, it makes you behave like a good boy or girl. I say that by having those running emotions that make you want to go shout at somebody or encourage a potty mouth, it's better to just let those emotions remind you and drive you on with the priorities that you want to accomplish in your life with proper time management.
Doing what I just described is the short cut to being a big time jerk and letting loose momentarily before allowing those lonely and depressing feelings to kick in, which makes you want to go binge on some more stupidity. I'm being pretty honest here, even though I'm laughing my knockers off. I found out the solution to all of this madness. Note how I'm making this part of the paragraph bold.
The answer is: patience.
...
Was I just going to leave you hanging there? No, I'll explain. By letting those feelings want to come around and kick our butts, it's better to just work hard for obtaining something that we want. It could be working out or making ourselves a better person even. I went out of my way and messaged a dumb guy with diabetes and said I want to be his friend and made fun of him. Yeah, something like that. I hit on this girl on Facebook for laughs even though she's way too much older for my taste and made fun of some of her friends by trying to make her laugh in the process. It's about trying to be positive!
Being patient just makes you so much more desperate and makes you want to be more smarter in how you conduct yourself. In a way, it makes you behave like a good boy or girl. I say that by having those running emotions that make you want to go shout at somebody or encourage a potty mouth, it's better to just let those emotions remind you and drive you on with the priorities that you want to accomplish in your life with proper time management.
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