Okay, so my plan is to basically continue working out and eating healthy to get to a six pack. It's going to happen someday. Maybe by the time next year rolls around. I don't know, but for some reason, I'm really enjoying the benefits of doing these healthy activities. I just feel so much more energy and confident about being out-going. It's like if I have a six pack, despite me being a shorty who has only gained 1/2 inch from forcing himself through some spinal straightening stretches. Actually, it feels good, I don't know why I stopped doing it. It's a pain to do each night, but after you are done, it feels so relieving. I need to go back into doing these stretches. They are actually beneficial at least in one way or another. They help out with having better posture so it would prevent me from bending my back at the old grumpy age of 100!
It's also good knowledge to pass on to the younger generation, if I can remember all of those fifty exercises and stretches off the top of my head. I will force my young ones to gain eidetic memory! If you treat it like a fun game even for mentally challenged people, then anything is possible right?
This is fun actually. Just humoring myself to pass away the time in a gentle and harmless manner while making fun of the people who gave me a hard time very nonchalantly. It's all good in that I really chose not to flip out and turn into an angry emotional train wreck that just psychotically crashes his mind's vehicle onto others' mental space and then out of feeling bad, forcing them to rebuild while putting up with me being around them, while I do it in a smart, but very naughty manner that others would have sympathy with me over doing. I'm a genius in this manner of just going all rouge in the emotional sector to suit the needs of humanity while trying to find myself in a decent light while pushing myself in an aimless manner.
Basically, the situation isn't that serious and I'm just going all ballistic to the point that my actions become understandable and tolerated by the person who really couldn't stand me in the beginning. I just didn't do it repetitively because it felt bad. I would really have to go against my human emotions to go with that type of rough but caring agenda. I'm not going back there. I would rather be this cool cat!
So on top of working out and trying to fix my TV watching habits and be consistent with reading the Bible and working on becoming a millionaire through trading currency, stocks, and options, that's pretty much how I'm trying to work on myself. I am interested in someone right now too and she's really nice and fun to be around for my taste. I guess I'd like to settle down with her, if I was given the option at this moment in time because that type of feeling doesn't come around too often and I'd be happy with her looks too! Just thinking about the possibility of her going with a different direction doesn't make me feel insecure because just the time I spent with her makes me feel grateful. It feels like a privilege, if it ever gets there and I think it would be like a really fun ride all the way.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Thursday, March 31, 2016
What This Is Reminding Me Of
I remember the days where I would look at Sports Illustrated magazines. Yes, the coveted bathing suits edition. I think I had one underneath my bed that I kept for years and then nonchalantly, it disappeared. Tapping back into my repressed memory, I think I caught a glimpse of my mother grinning sheepishly away from my direction. I honestly don't know what happened to it. Maybe, it got recycled.
Those were my teenager days, where I would never dare myself to go the extra mile to do what other trouble makers did out of having an inferiority complex! I guess my inferiority complex protected me very mightily by aiding me just a bit in becoming sensitive with the Holy Spirit by the grace of God. Hey, I can say that in a humorous fashion because it's true. I may be crude because I'm not using my words appropriately and conveying bad stuff tor people who go off thinking in another direction because of how I worded something and got misinterpreted.
Yeah, being misunderstood and then getting yelled at by an immature peer last year. I still remember saying that he's not mad at me for yelling, but just repeating himself because I didn't hear him. He yelled after repeating himself all in one day. Okay, it wasn't serious. He was mad because I messed up his head after sending him an angry text.
I guess those kind of misunderstandings can happen sometimes. I wonder what if I yelled at him and asked him if he thought I was angry and then told him I wasn't. I wonder if he would have believed me and then pointed out he was doing the same. I'm actually this type of person sometimes who can communicate like this, but now that I look back, even though I'm tempted to regret not having done that.
I'm actually glad I didn't yell at him in person for yelling at me first. I could have dealt with it in a really sinister and slick manner. I could have said some things that would have been like sharp arrows that pierced his soul! I just didn't bother to go that route.
Now that it's over and wasn't really serious to begin with and the next time, it could happen again. What would I really do next time when I feel like flipping my world upside down to empty out the garbage?
Those were my teenager days, where I would never dare myself to go the extra mile to do what other trouble makers did out of having an inferiority complex! I guess my inferiority complex protected me very mightily by aiding me just a bit in becoming sensitive with the Holy Spirit by the grace of God. Hey, I can say that in a humorous fashion because it's true. I may be crude because I'm not using my words appropriately and conveying bad stuff tor people who go off thinking in another direction because of how I worded something and got misinterpreted.
Yeah, being misunderstood and then getting yelled at by an immature peer last year. I still remember saying that he's not mad at me for yelling, but just repeating himself because I didn't hear him. He yelled after repeating himself all in one day. Okay, it wasn't serious. He was mad because I messed up his head after sending him an angry text.
I guess those kind of misunderstandings can happen sometimes. I wonder what if I yelled at him and asked him if he thought I was angry and then told him I wasn't. I wonder if he would have believed me and then pointed out he was doing the same. I'm actually this type of person sometimes who can communicate like this, but now that I look back, even though I'm tempted to regret not having done that.
I'm actually glad I didn't yell at him in person for yelling at me first. I could have dealt with it in a really sinister and slick manner. I could have said some things that would have been like sharp arrows that pierced his soul! I just didn't bother to go that route.
Now that it's over and wasn't really serious to begin with and the next time, it could happen again. What would I really do next time when I feel like flipping my world upside down to empty out the garbage?
Adjusting Habits
Habits are so hard to ease off of. It's like now almost near impossible for me to not go work out at a gym and also try to eat right. I guess that's a good thing then now!
However, I'm still watching T.V. mindlessly. It's those baseball games that get to me and hockey also. Man, they are fun to watch even though I know the team that's going to lose. I sometimes like to watch my team cream the opposition if I know it's going to be a slaughter like it was last night. The Anaheim Ducks scored 8 goals off of that small net with a huge, mean and fat goalie who is placed on the ice like an inseparable attachment!
I don't think they cared so much because the other team did well in scoring three goals! For the LA Kings game I saw live recently, my dad was complaining about how the net should be wider so that it would be more exciting like basketball. It would be a high scoring game! I think it wouldn't be so much as fun in my opinion. It would probably be cool for a few games, then I think the NHL would start losing a lot of money and the goalies would protest about players cheating.
Okay, so how did my mind get off of TV habits and talk about stuff that I'm watching? I guess it's just a coincidence that one thing leads to another. Seriously, that's what he (me) said.
However, I'm still watching T.V. mindlessly. It's those baseball games that get to me and hockey also. Man, they are fun to watch even though I know the team that's going to lose. I sometimes like to watch my team cream the opposition if I know it's going to be a slaughter like it was last night. The Anaheim Ducks scored 8 goals off of that small net with a huge, mean and fat goalie who is placed on the ice like an inseparable attachment!
I don't think they cared so much because the other team did well in scoring three goals! For the LA Kings game I saw live recently, my dad was complaining about how the net should be wider so that it would be more exciting like basketball. It would be a high scoring game! I think it wouldn't be so much as fun in my opinion. It would probably be cool for a few games, then I think the NHL would start losing a lot of money and the goalies would protest about players cheating.
Okay, so how did my mind get off of TV habits and talk about stuff that I'm watching? I guess it's just a coincidence that one thing leads to another. Seriously, that's what he (me) said.
Oh Yeah
I have a few posts remaining and I'm trying to be a little more consistent like I haven't been all of these ten years, but the only reliable thing that came out of this blog is that I have been averaging one post a day for the last six years. Wow, that's a long time. It's enough work at a job place to be considered the go-to expert. Like that really happens in reality. Okay, maybe more like mid-level employee.
I'm being paid like a mid-level employee these days at my job anyway. I can't really complain and it makes me want to work harder to be so good at my job that no one can beat me! I'm friendly with everybody so that I can pick their brains and just beat them in a healthy fashion. Why not? It's not being a sociopath. It's just being a wise-crack! Wouldn't one say?
I'm being paid like a mid-level employee these days at my job anyway. I can't really complain and it makes me want to work harder to be so good at my job that no one can beat me! I'm friendly with everybody so that I can pick their brains and just beat them in a healthy fashion. Why not? It's not being a sociopath. It's just being a wise-crack! Wouldn't one say?
Monday, March 28, 2016
New Hobbies
Well, it looks like my trading scheme is going okay for the second month in a row. I see it as a personal endeavor and how it can really be so risky for anyone to be a part of. I guess the way I see it is that I'm going to be learning from the experts, but I can't really bear taking on the responsibility of managing other people's accounts when I do become successful. I don't care about being paid for it either. I would rather do my own and be successful with it.
A part of me feels like it's a gamble if I were to teach others how to trade, so I'm not going to encourage it no matter how much I get so good at it and end up making a good living off of it. Today, I just tried to sing on my Xbox while playing Guitar Hero and the Beatles Rock Band on expert level. I had a hard time, but it was fun. I only managed to pass two songs on my first session. I reached about 61% efficiency. It's encouraging in that even though I kept faltering, by continuously playing it, I became more familiar with the rhythm, but also the game also cares about your pitch so it makes it incredibly difficult to reach the high notes for me.
A part of me feels like it's a gamble if I were to teach others how to trade, so I'm not going to encourage it no matter how much I get so good at it and end up making a good living off of it. Today, I just tried to sing on my Xbox while playing Guitar Hero and the Beatles Rock Band on expert level. I had a hard time, but it was fun. I only managed to pass two songs on my first session. I reached about 61% efficiency. It's encouraging in that even though I kept faltering, by continuously playing it, I became more familiar with the rhythm, but also the game also cares about your pitch so it makes it incredibly difficult to reach the high notes for me.
Friday, March 25, 2016
Happy Good Friday
I really endeavor to read my Bible and get a nice spiritual understanding off of it everyday. So today is supposed to the day of observance that Jesus was crucified and on Easter is the day that he resurrected and the tomb was empty!
In contrast to how the original Jesus and his disciples were about being peaceful and loving to everybody who hated their guts, Muhammad ended up slicing people's heads off while calling them infidels! I don't think that's right because he gave them an ultimatum to convert to Islam or die. Those were the times back then, so crazy.
I ended up playing the piano a little and texting some friends and now I feel lots of energy to go workout again. I checked up on my trades and played a little Magic: the Gathering online with someone. All I really need to do is continue to read the Bible and exercise patience and be hard working.
Thursday, March 24, 2016
Some Changes To Apply With Attitude
Having fun with a sense of purpose.
Trying to continuously press forward.
With consistency and hard work.
Keeping it smart.
What it means to me? Trying to find happiness and fun at my workplace while making money doing this. No surfing the web and watching T.V. for mindless reasons. I will continue to work out because I see that the fitness level is actually increasing my ability to be productive.
Trying to continuously press forward.
With consistency and hard work.
Keeping it smart.
What it means to me? Trying to find happiness and fun at my workplace while making money doing this. No surfing the web and watching T.V. for mindless reasons. I will continue to work out because I see that the fitness level is actually increasing my ability to be productive.
Better Focus
I plan a lot of stuff in my head, but what I end up normally doing is just this routine of watching sports games, a few anime episodes, playing Magic: the Gathering, a favorite game, or surfing the Internet for anything to pass by my time. I can sometimes get carried away with playing my piano and working on some songs I've written as well.
I think I really need to will myself to go after some tasks because I'm laying emotional values on them. I need to see things a little more logically and be willing to suffer some out of commitment and then keep a positive outlook. It's pretty tough because I can't really guide myself and get distracted rather easily into allowing myself to be dragged into the same routine that I'm doing.
I think I really need to will myself to go after some tasks because I'm laying emotional values on them. I need to see things a little more logically and be willing to suffer some out of commitment and then keep a positive outlook. It's pretty tough because I can't really guide myself and get distracted rather easily into allowing myself to be dragged into the same routine that I'm doing.
Better Time Management
I'm getting this worn out feeling of having nothing to do and it's driving my patience wild. To cope with it, I end up doing some familiar activity to keep myself busy. It looks like I'm really bored with playing Bloons TD5 now, so I guess I will be walking away from that now.
What I'm planning to do then is just read up on swing and position trading with all the financial markets and to test out personal strategies that I come up with. I feel a lot more comfortable going this route and think it will be rewarding for me in the long run.
What I'm planning to do then is just read up on swing and position trading with all the financial markets and to test out personal strategies that I come up with. I feel a lot more comfortable going this route and think it will be rewarding for me in the long run.
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Something To Strive For
This one person I'm acquainted with is a pretty strong female and she's feisty and yet pretty cute for her physique. She's not someone I would say is anime worthy, but for a Hispanic she is pretty typically attractive. I'm actually talking to her all comfortable without any butterflies in my stomach, woo hoo!
I guess it makes sense because she's in the marines. She told me that the guys have to do 20 pull ups!!! I was like what??? I can only do like four right now and maybe five on a good day. Marines must be really lean and strong to be able to have that type of stamina and strength. She said that the female marines have to do 8 pull ups! Oh my, I'm getting my tail whipped by her right now on the pull-up bar. I need to step it up.
I guess it makes sense because she's in the marines. She told me that the guys have to do 20 pull ups!!! I was like what??? I can only do like four right now and maybe five on a good day. Marines must be really lean and strong to be able to have that type of stamina and strength. She said that the female marines have to do 8 pull ups! Oh my, I'm getting my tail whipped by her right now on the pull-up bar. I need to step it up.
I Give Up
I met a really cool person while joining a group, so I guess it would be better for me to stick to it that way, instead of trying to force my way on an online dating site. I think the women on there won't really give me a chance because their initial thoughts will probably be that they have a reason to be intimidated by my strong and funny character!
Okay, I give up and I guess my best foot forward would be to just meet someone in person and then add them on Facebook or get their contact to later harass them with angry texts if they get on my nerve somehow! When I argue from being really mad and in the mood for smoking someone up, I'm actually quite good at it but it feels lonely after because everybody gets like too scared to talk to me after, and I just have this habit of shutting myself off from the world after that type of drama occurs for me.
I think I'll just stick to keeping my angry thoughts to myself instead of sharing them and stress out over how I'm going to stay warm and positive with the people around me. I'm going to be smart and strong over the conflict if it ever arises for me again.
Okay, I give up and I guess my best foot forward would be to just meet someone in person and then add them on Facebook or get their contact to later harass them with angry texts if they get on my nerve somehow! When I argue from being really mad and in the mood for smoking someone up, I'm actually quite good at it but it feels lonely after because everybody gets like too scared to talk to me after, and I just have this habit of shutting myself off from the world after that type of drama occurs for me.
I think I'll just stick to keeping my angry thoughts to myself instead of sharing them and stress out over how I'm going to stay warm and positive with the people around me. I'm going to be smart and strong over the conflict if it ever arises for me again.
Sunday, March 20, 2016
Creative Transition Making
I ended up getting carried away last night and trying to pass this one level on this game called Bloons TD5. Man, I was hooked and it was frustrating me because I couldn't pass it! Okay, enough of that little naughtiness I got myself into. Yesterday, I reverted to my introverted state and played Magic: the Gathering all day long. No surprise there, really!
I played with myself. It was so fun because it was my own decks going up against each other and giving me a hard time at the same time. I was just dueling myself and messing around like that for hours. I then went online and battled some guy for awhile. I think I won the match and that's only a thought that I won.
All right, so I'm going to deny my feelings of playing video games for now. It's like this habit or some type of flavor that I went to dwell myself into. It's just taking up too much time for me, and I can't really afford it from understanding that I have an extroverted personality.
This is where I'm going to have be more creative and motivate myself into doing other healthy activities and keep it going. I'm smart enough to be around good people and to actually have some of them texting me back. The fact that I was able to do this with someone nice for awhile of at least a three month period, it's really calmed my nerves a lot and put in better control of myself and not go off bad-mouthing people with text messages that offend them like crazy! I may be still right because I'm keeping my true colors honest, but I did it while being mad, so in a way, I'm antagonizing them and just making it harder for them to appreciate me.
It doesn't feel right for me to be like that type of person. I would rather keep my cool and dissolve my overwhelming situation by being creative and taking it to the next level of just appropriateness and fun. Yeah, I just want to be level-headed for once and get along with people as friends.
It's like just today I met this pretty attractive girl who stated she had a boyfriend to her other friend. It left me feeling a little sad, but I'm smiling at the same time because oh yeah, I have my interests taking form already with umm someone. It was cool just talking to her and enjoying myself like right at home. I might even see her again if I ever go to her group that she hangs out with. She was open to telling me about it, so I might go check it out. They play right by the beach and it's not that far away from me. Now that I'm acquainted with a girl whose going to be there, hey that makes playing with a group of people a little more fun for me.
I played with myself. It was so fun because it was my own decks going up against each other and giving me a hard time at the same time. I was just dueling myself and messing around like that for hours. I then went online and battled some guy for awhile. I think I won the match and that's only a thought that I won.
All right, so I'm going to deny my feelings of playing video games for now. It's like this habit or some type of flavor that I went to dwell myself into. It's just taking up too much time for me, and I can't really afford it from understanding that I have an extroverted personality.
This is where I'm going to have be more creative and motivate myself into doing other healthy activities and keep it going. I'm smart enough to be around good people and to actually have some of them texting me back. The fact that I was able to do this with someone nice for awhile of at least a three month period, it's really calmed my nerves a lot and put in better control of myself and not go off bad-mouthing people with text messages that offend them like crazy! I may be still right because I'm keeping my true colors honest, but I did it while being mad, so in a way, I'm antagonizing them and just making it harder for them to appreciate me.
It doesn't feel right for me to be like that type of person. I would rather keep my cool and dissolve my overwhelming situation by being creative and taking it to the next level of just appropriateness and fun. Yeah, I just want to be level-headed for once and get along with people as friends.
It's like just today I met this pretty attractive girl who stated she had a boyfriend to her other friend. It left me feeling a little sad, but I'm smiling at the same time because oh yeah, I have my interests taking form already with umm someone. It was cool just talking to her and enjoying myself like right at home. I might even see her again if I ever go to her group that she hangs out with. She was open to telling me about it, so I might go check it out. They play right by the beach and it's not that far away from me. Now that I'm acquainted with a girl whose going to be there, hey that makes playing with a group of people a little more fun for me.
Saturday, March 19, 2016
Going For The Cool Option
It's just so much cooler to not be an angry guy that gives people a hard time by using humor and beating them silly with my genius-level intellect of taking advantage of people's feelings and throwing off their timing.
When it comes to a more logical approach, I'm going to be blown up by someone who is smarter than me! I hate to admit this, but it's true. Fortunately, I've been blessed that those circumstances I've found myself in isn't really that serious where using just simple logic would get me decimated. I hope I don't sign up for war and end up on the losing side going up against an enemy who will drop a nuke and wipe off everybody on this planet!
Okay, so my personality is pretty charismatic but it's so crazy at times. I don't put enough effort and I'm just doing all of this for fun. This isn't about making a living for myself, otherwise I would be about trying to be the best and spying on other people who are successful and trying to imitate their patterns a little bit too.
I've just settled into what I call my own comfort zone. I'm blessed and actually doing fine these days. I feel this upbeat and positive sense in me a lot. I'm so much more patient and willing to dodge silly arguments that would go nowhere now. When it comes to real serious issues, those are no times for playing games. I will be the best I can be. I'm actually really good at throwing off people when I want to for myself, but what I think I have is that my worst side of me is getting bothered by silly things. I think the devil knows this and so is continually pestering me over it.
I guess it would be boring to kill off a goody two-shoe for a bad guy, but if he could make fun of this guy from putting him through a lot of crazy incidents that he doesn't understand how to fight his way out of, the bad guy will just be laughing and having a good time for the rest of his life, if he could watch all the good parts. Basically, my weakest area is probably the strongest for some people, so with me being continually jaded and feeling testy, it's pretty much trying to live with my best manners in not giving into them while struggling on the inside.
When it comes to a more logical approach, I'm going to be blown up by someone who is smarter than me! I hate to admit this, but it's true. Fortunately, I've been blessed that those circumstances I've found myself in isn't really that serious where using just simple logic would get me decimated. I hope I don't sign up for war and end up on the losing side going up against an enemy who will drop a nuke and wipe off everybody on this planet!
Okay, so my personality is pretty charismatic but it's so crazy at times. I don't put enough effort and I'm just doing all of this for fun. This isn't about making a living for myself, otherwise I would be about trying to be the best and spying on other people who are successful and trying to imitate their patterns a little bit too.
I've just settled into what I call my own comfort zone. I'm blessed and actually doing fine these days. I feel this upbeat and positive sense in me a lot. I'm so much more patient and willing to dodge silly arguments that would go nowhere now. When it comes to real serious issues, those are no times for playing games. I will be the best I can be. I'm actually really good at throwing off people when I want to for myself, but what I think I have is that my worst side of me is getting bothered by silly things. I think the devil knows this and so is continually pestering me over it.
I guess it would be boring to kill off a goody two-shoe for a bad guy, but if he could make fun of this guy from putting him through a lot of crazy incidents that he doesn't understand how to fight his way out of, the bad guy will just be laughing and having a good time for the rest of his life, if he could watch all the good parts. Basically, my weakest area is probably the strongest for some people, so with me being continually jaded and feeling testy, it's pretty much trying to live with my best manners in not giving into them while struggling on the inside.
Becoming More Resilient
My closest high school buddy isn't really the brightest guy around. He's given up on chasing after a lot of interests because he finds many of them to be just so hard that it probably wouldn't be logical to keep moving forward with trying to achieve something he has little patience over.
The circumstances and his upbringing is what made him who he is and I can accept that. When I talk to him though, I've been finding out that he assumes a lot to be true without really backing them up substantially. A little hint of an indication, such as a smile or small gesture with how a person talks, is enough to lead him to scary conclusions!
What I've noticed sadly for him is that going with assumptions will only limit someone's personal freedom. It's actually quite enraging for me now that I've seen it happened to me by antagonists who were trying to control my behavior. I gave them a hard time over it of course, while they thought they were doing it for my own good.
It's based off of fear from assuming with how things will end up. Fortunately, my personal incidents with people were never really that serious but it still feels like the devil was trying to get his way with me the whole time through those unwanted clashes. It really ticks me off! Yet, I find that it would be so cool to just talk my about it easily and without having to say too much. This is where knowledge and the art of recognizing the other person's motives come into play.
The reason why it isn't really serious is that even though it may be scary to some people because of what I'm doing is so psychotic to them, the law is explicit and pretty much black and white. They don't know it fully on top of their heads and it's basically fear and how they've assumed to grow up in their lives which is what is making them tick. They are using this set of ideas to control someone in an unethical fashion. It's because they are driven by fear, which they mask as saying they aren't angry or they are just trying to look out for you. It's something that a person like myself who loves giving people freedom to do what they want until trust is broken through a reasonably proven, criminal act has to watch out for.
The circumstances and his upbringing is what made him who he is and I can accept that. When I talk to him though, I've been finding out that he assumes a lot to be true without really backing them up substantially. A little hint of an indication, such as a smile or small gesture with how a person talks, is enough to lead him to scary conclusions!
What I've noticed sadly for him is that going with assumptions will only limit someone's personal freedom. It's actually quite enraging for me now that I've seen it happened to me by antagonists who were trying to control my behavior. I gave them a hard time over it of course, while they thought they were doing it for my own good.
It's based off of fear from assuming with how things will end up. Fortunately, my personal incidents with people were never really that serious but it still feels like the devil was trying to get his way with me the whole time through those unwanted clashes. It really ticks me off! Yet, I find that it would be so cool to just talk my about it easily and without having to say too much. This is where knowledge and the art of recognizing the other person's motives come into play.
The reason why it isn't really serious is that even though it may be scary to some people because of what I'm doing is so psychotic to them, the law is explicit and pretty much black and white. They don't know it fully on top of their heads and it's basically fear and how they've assumed to grow up in their lives which is what is making them tick. They are using this set of ideas to control someone in an unethical fashion. It's because they are driven by fear, which they mask as saying they aren't angry or they are just trying to look out for you. It's something that a person like myself who loves giving people freedom to do what they want until trust is broken through a reasonably proven, criminal act has to watch out for.
Living For What I Want To Be Part Of
Honestly, I still haven't forgotten about how good it really is to have a relationship with Jesus. I'm not talking about some random Mexican here. I'm talking about the chosen one that Americans like to profess if they want to call themselves Christians.
For some time, I felt really sensitive about that literally and would also say Jesus Christ is about this and Jesus Christ loves you. Okay, so I want to stay in fellowship with Jesus because after all these years, I still feel that amazing work that he did for me on the cross. It's a joy and a blessing to be so much under God's love and mercy. It's only through God's work by allowing the Son to shed his blood on the cross that those who believe upon him will find everlasting life.
I honestly didn't even have a clue what everlasting life meant. It's obviously eternal and is it going to be like our very imperfect nature is just going to be expunged and we're going to become like perfectly able robots? Is this really some type of heaven when there's really no more struggles to overcome? The Bible does promise that there will be no more pain and suffering, neither will no one have any hunger nor be thirsty ever again.
I guess the reward really is like this, which is what Paul states in the Bible that it's about running the race - basically, like striving to continuously live for the things of God and to one day arrive in the gates of heaven. It's like the final destination that is filled with eternal exuberance that goes off the charts. I have this living hope in me still.
For some time, I felt really sensitive about that literally and would also say Jesus Christ is about this and Jesus Christ loves you. Okay, so I want to stay in fellowship with Jesus because after all these years, I still feel that amazing work that he did for me on the cross. It's a joy and a blessing to be so much under God's love and mercy. It's only through God's work by allowing the Son to shed his blood on the cross that those who believe upon him will find everlasting life.
I honestly didn't even have a clue what everlasting life meant. It's obviously eternal and is it going to be like our very imperfect nature is just going to be expunged and we're going to become like perfectly able robots? Is this really some type of heaven when there's really no more struggles to overcome? The Bible does promise that there will be no more pain and suffering, neither will no one have any hunger nor be thirsty ever again.
I guess the reward really is like this, which is what Paul states in the Bible that it's about running the race - basically, like striving to continuously live for the things of God and to one day arrive in the gates of heaven. It's like the final destination that is filled with eternal exuberance that goes off the charts. I have this living hope in me still.
Going After Desires
I'm still chasing after the six pack abs, which would be so amazingly cool for me! I'm not minding the intense workouts each morning I give myself anymore. I'm also factoring in with motivating myself to eat right as well. I would really like this to happen sooner or later. I'm just being really patient with it and understanding that it's really about a building process.
Because it's what I really have in mind of accomplishing for myself, I'm continually going in to go get it. On the side, I'm also working at becoming a millionaire too. I can see how this little side journey that I'm doing for myself is incredibly unique compared to how the typical winners have achieved it in this world. I'm just different like that in my approach with getting the million dollars through legitimate struggles and great effort.
Overall, I just have to state that it's all been like a building process with the effort that I've put in. Along the way, I've also been enjoying myself with putting up with it. Maybe in the end, it really is my calling to go in this route.
Because it's what I really have in mind of accomplishing for myself, I'm continually going in to go get it. On the side, I'm also working at becoming a millionaire too. I can see how this little side journey that I'm doing for myself is incredibly unique compared to how the typical winners have achieved it in this world. I'm just different like that in my approach with getting the million dollars through legitimate struggles and great effort.
Overall, I just have to state that it's all been like a building process with the effort that I've put in. Along the way, I've also been enjoying myself with putting up with it. Maybe in the end, it really is my calling to go in this route.
Working Through Challenge and Being Creative
I'm now finding that playing video games just for fun might really be using up all of my valuable time and energy. I mean I could find myself playing with exercise, dancing, singing, and instrumental games, but the ones where you sit down and work through puzzles, seem to be about driving me crazy now!
Yet, I still don't mind giving myself the opportunity to make a video game that others will go crazy over and then esteem it into cult status! It would be fun to just try though and give it my all, even if others out there would end up still hating it.
Regarding my strengths and weaknesses, I really do like to strive in a productive and stress-free environment. If only something like that actually existed, I would be feeling so much freedom in myself.
Yet, I still don't mind giving myself the opportunity to make a video game that others will go crazy over and then esteem it into cult status! It would be fun to just try though and give it my all, even if others out there would end up still hating it.
Regarding my strengths and weaknesses, I really do like to strive in a productive and stress-free environment. If only something like that actually existed, I would be feeling so much freedom in myself.
Something More Fulfilling and Cool
From having worked out consistently over the last two months, I feel awesome and really confident with myself! I'm just more willing to be outgoing and talk to people. I'm like not acting so introverted anymore with beautiful girls who surround me. I'm actually able to have a normal conversation with the typical and slightly privileged woman now.
It's really fun being around pleasantly-minded people who love to be outgoing. I'm finding myself being a part of it too with my own unique sense of style now. There's really no right and wrong and it can be filled with lots of laughs!
It's really fun being around pleasantly-minded people who love to be outgoing. I'm finding myself being a part of it too with my own unique sense of style now. There's really no right and wrong and it can be filled with lots of laughs!
Placing Efforts On Clearer Path
From playing a little bit of chess and smart thinking games like FreeCell, I can compete at a decent and average level. I'll give myself that. I'm not extraordinary like some gifted minds on this planet and who actually make a living off of playing games like that!
I just don't really have a calling for it then and stressing myself out with trying to be the best at something because my passion is just too great to contain. In other words, I feel empty if I continue to do it for a long time.
Maybe I could just enjoy those types of games just to socialize with people and not worry about winning or losing. I'm going to outsmart some people and those slightly gifted individuals will end up beating me as well. There's nothing I can do about it.
I just don't really have a calling for it then and stressing myself out with trying to be the best at something because my passion is just too great to contain. In other words, I feel empty if I continue to do it for a long time.
Maybe I could just enjoy those types of games just to socialize with people and not worry about winning or losing. I'm going to outsmart some people and those slightly gifted individuals will end up beating me as well. There's nothing I can do about it.
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Improving Self
I'm noticing that with my personality, with the areas I could improve myself on, it includes exercising better situational awareness, self-control, and patience.
By just having those things, I come to basically reason that those are Biblical qualities that God would like everyone to exercise while possessing love for Jesus and others. It's something that I really need to make an effort on and will strive to do.
Something that's been working for me is that I don't really mind being so short, which is something that I let get to me still after all these years. It has affected my self-confidence and willingness to socialize which is actually one of my natural preferences. I just tell myself that I'm at the bare minimum height for being a UFC fighter! It really works for me and when I told that to some people, they just started laughing which I didn't mind at all as well. I am working out and trying to stock my body up on some proper nutrition, so I think that's really helping keep my mindset at an all-time positive as well.
Being able to text someone on a daily basis and just get a response back has also allowed me to have better patience and confidence at getting along with others as well. I'm pretty much grateful that I'd been working on myself and just feeling happy about making some good progress. I don't think I really need to flip out anymore to get what I want with people who I'm just getting tired of being so annoying to me now.
Overall, I've been just having fun and trying to work hard to accomplish my dreams and I'm happy as a result because of that, so I will keep on trying to go with that route.
By just having those things, I come to basically reason that those are Biblical qualities that God would like everyone to exercise while possessing love for Jesus and others. It's something that I really need to make an effort on and will strive to do.
Something that's been working for me is that I don't really mind being so short, which is something that I let get to me still after all these years. It has affected my self-confidence and willingness to socialize which is actually one of my natural preferences. I just tell myself that I'm at the bare minimum height for being a UFC fighter! It really works for me and when I told that to some people, they just started laughing which I didn't mind at all as well. I am working out and trying to stock my body up on some proper nutrition, so I think that's really helping keep my mindset at an all-time positive as well.
Being able to text someone on a daily basis and just get a response back has also allowed me to have better patience and confidence at getting along with others as well. I'm pretty much grateful that I'd been working on myself and just feeling happy about making some good progress. I don't think I really need to flip out anymore to get what I want with people who I'm just getting tired of being so annoying to me now.
Overall, I've been just having fun and trying to work hard to accomplish my dreams and I'm happy as a result because of that, so I will keep on trying to go with that route.
Thursday, March 10, 2016
Goal Setting
I took some notes on proper goal setting, which could more or less be powerful stuff, so I'm going to record it on this blog before I recycle the piece of note paper on my desk for aesthetic purposes!
Goals are driven by internal motivation and what can get us going is having that positive emotion of just "being in the flow." A negative attribute that can keep us from reaching our goals is anxiety.
What goals are supposed to do is activate, direct, and adjust our behaviors. There are mainly seven steps when it comes to setting up goals.
1. Define the goal.
2. Describe where you are at.
3. List what you need.
4. Make a plan for improvement.
5. Pursue regular actions.
6. Commit yourself completely.
7. Continually monitor your progress.
Basically you figure out the how(?) portion, realize your personal values, and maintain motivation.
Goals are driven by internal motivation and what can get us going is having that positive emotion of just "being in the flow." A negative attribute that can keep us from reaching our goals is anxiety.
What goals are supposed to do is activate, direct, and adjust our behaviors. There are mainly seven steps when it comes to setting up goals.
1. Define the goal.
2. Describe where you are at.
3. List what you need.
4. Make a plan for improvement.
5. Pursue regular actions.
6. Commit yourself completely.
7. Continually monitor your progress.
Basically you figure out the how(?) portion, realize your personal values, and maintain motivation.
Things I Could Change
I'm having these cravings for just sitting around and watching T.V. but I know it's going to do me not really any good. From realizing that I'm a people person, I prefer trying to text or call someone on a daily basis. I already got that out of that way, so it's time to get to my goals.
When I get home, I'm finding myself falling asleep while sitting on the couch. I would like to minimize that activity and actually get around to brushing my teeth and doing some stretches to experiment on trying to make myself taller. That's pretty much it.
Along with trying to maintain excellent nutrition and having decent work outs, I see myself getting to my goal of a six pack. It might be several months, but I should have it sooner or later.
When I get home, I'm finding myself falling asleep while sitting on the couch. I would like to minimize that activity and actually get around to brushing my teeth and doing some stretches to experiment on trying to make myself taller. That's pretty much it.
Along with trying to maintain excellent nutrition and having decent work outs, I see myself getting to my goal of a six pack. It might be several months, but I should have it sooner or later.
Wednesday, March 9, 2016
Making a Video Game
I'm now at the point of my life where I actually do want to make a video game for fun now. I'm really bored off my wit's end with playing video games, but I think it would be great to make them so others could enjoy them. I don't really know how this contradicts lifestyles, except that maybe I could try making a little living off of it just for fun.
I have been told that it starts out with a design document which I really need to work on. If I can get that working then maybe it will be cool. I also need to start designing the app and programming it to get the gist of the game. I can just later hire some talented people to make it look more better, but by getting the game functionality all smoothed out, I could probably be an asset to a group while also looking to become a better designer myself at the same time. Maybe, I'll just do it for fun instead of trying to take classes. I would rather just be a self-starter and motivate myself to the finish by looking up stuff on the web and keeping it cheap for myself. It sort of makes sense to do it this way, save money, and work on some impressive projects in case I do get an itch to work on bigger projects that other companies have to offer in the future.
I have been told that it starts out with a design document which I really need to work on. If I can get that working then maybe it will be cool. I also need to start designing the app and programming it to get the gist of the game. I can just later hire some talented people to make it look more better, but by getting the game functionality all smoothed out, I could probably be an asset to a group while also looking to become a better designer myself at the same time. Maybe, I'll just do it for fun instead of trying to take classes. I would rather just be a self-starter and motivate myself to the finish by looking up stuff on the web and keeping it cheap for myself. It sort of makes sense to do it this way, save money, and work on some impressive projects in case I do get an itch to work on bigger projects that other companies have to offer in the future.
Staying Consistent
I guess the only main thing I'm staying consistent with is just working out on a regular basis. Pretty much, my dream job is just trading money on Forex and making a decent living with it. I guess it's a pipe dream at the moment, but it's something that I'm starting to accomplish with a limited amount of success. Well, last month was actually my first winning month!
I did knock off a few goals and added in a few more. I'm just going to keep on trying to live out my goals and see how I like it after. Overall, my main concern at the moment is to get a six pack and become a millionaire!
I don't really see much basis either than that's just how I want to live my life. Apart from that, I just need to keep on moving forward. I really haven't tried my hand at cooking yet, but I do feel like it would be fun to just try it out and see where I can go from it.
I did knock off a few goals and added in a few more. I'm just going to keep on trying to live out my goals and see how I like it after. Overall, my main concern at the moment is to get a six pack and become a millionaire!
I don't really see much basis either than that's just how I want to live my life. Apart from that, I just need to keep on moving forward. I really haven't tried my hand at cooking yet, but I do feel like it would be fun to just try it out and see where I can go from it.
Turning Into A Positive Junkie
Ahhh. I'm just exercising my thinking and feeling of some humor! It's actually quite fun to express to my own self on this vast and expanding universe, where the most important people will probably never care to take a look. Wait, if someone else besides me took the time to read this then he or she is important to me! It's a contradiction in itself, so it's just a waste of thought to think that nobody important will ever read this God-forsaken blog site!
I enjoy taking about God and Jesus by the way. I actually like to worship Him in my heart, whenever I can remember what my A-Zs are with the Bible. I talk so different with how I write, so it's just been a force of habit for me to try to incorporate the way I would normally talk into this blog. It's like a good sense of practice.
Hey, this guy I really ticked off, after I said some words to him, it moved him and he came out crying with some tears. He then later tried to toughen up and said, "You think your words are going to change things?" Why even ask that, if it didn't even move him? It was pretty obvious that I can be a little charismatic but won't be effective in leading people because of my lack of self-esteem. It even resonates with my body language and people have been like, "What's up with you? Are you alright?" It really shows and people notice me acting that way, just that most people don't care to pay attention to my cool personality. When they do notice, they don't really say anything.
It's just the way it's been and common folks are trying to just be like everybody else- trying to make a name for themselves and get on with their lives while being in the mood for happiness and comfort! When it gets disrupted, all sorts of crazy fireworks just start igniting all over the place.
I enjoy taking about God and Jesus by the way. I actually like to worship Him in my heart, whenever I can remember what my A-Zs are with the Bible. I talk so different with how I write, so it's just been a force of habit for me to try to incorporate the way I would normally talk into this blog. It's like a good sense of practice.
Hey, this guy I really ticked off, after I said some words to him, it moved him and he came out crying with some tears. He then later tried to toughen up and said, "You think your words are going to change things?" Why even ask that, if it didn't even move him? It was pretty obvious that I can be a little charismatic but won't be effective in leading people because of my lack of self-esteem. It even resonates with my body language and people have been like, "What's up with you? Are you alright?" It really shows and people notice me acting that way, just that most people don't care to pay attention to my cool personality. When they do notice, they don't really say anything.
It's just the way it's been and common folks are trying to just be like everybody else- trying to make a name for themselves and get on with their lives while being in the mood for happiness and comfort! When it gets disrupted, all sorts of crazy fireworks just start igniting all over the place.
Knocking Out A Goal
This goal is pretty funny in that I decided to add in materializing my two Magic: the Gathering decks into physical existence by buying those expensive cards! My MTG buddy has been like waiting for a long time for me to make them because he's really interested in seeing my different styles. I'm really going to get him fired up because he's probably going to enjoy beating me! He sees me as a legitimate challenge to beat, and his decks sometimes really suck.
I'm just a pretty good experienced player and for some reason, I don't really mind giving my buddy support with the knowledge I accumulated. I even look up the information just to help him out and back up what I know. In a way, I'm actually mentoring him which is part of my personality type.
I'm naturally meant to be good at something and then be a good guy by helping out others who are interested. I have been like the go-to guy with some friends who caught on to this really fun card game. It's mainly just guys who play, but this one guy managed to get his wife to play also. What a lucky man!
I actually had this dream, which might seem really immature, where I played MTG with a girl who I'm friends with while being naked. After having that dream, I feel more comfortable talking to her and just laughing about it to myself without telling her about it. She even pursued me just a little I guess, while looking for a partner but I just laid low. Little did I know, a lot of girls act similar, so by not embracing her, I was hurting my chances.
Interesting Reflection
Going back and reading my texts makes me laugh sometimes. However, I've noticed that my comments can be really aggressive in that I'm holding nothing back while keeping my political correctness. This really ticks a lot of people off, especially when I'm sending them angry text messages.
In those moments, I can take charge but from feeling guilty because of my lack of self-esteem I guess I let them try to run right through me, but they can only get so far without doing that much harm to me which is still funny in a sense! I now know and understand my pretty rare personality and I haven't been around too many people who actually share my type, but they are pretty noticeable. I'm sure some people also hate them too, especially if those people go on the opposite, and heck, I know a few people who tried to come at me with full force. I still responded back to them in a lazy manner, but it did make me struggle a little inwardly.
Thinking about those past moments with good feelings even though it hurt back then is such an oxymoron, but it's really all the persevering I've had to bear with myself because of my emotional and sensitive personality. I still have a lot of goals and promises to go after.
In those moments, I can take charge but from feeling guilty because of my lack of self-esteem I guess I let them try to run right through me, but they can only get so far without doing that much harm to me which is still funny in a sense! I now know and understand my pretty rare personality and I haven't been around too many people who actually share my type, but they are pretty noticeable. I'm sure some people also hate them too, especially if those people go on the opposite, and heck, I know a few people who tried to come at me with full force. I still responded back to them in a lazy manner, but it did make me struggle a little inwardly.
Thinking about those past moments with good feelings even though it hurt back then is such an oxymoron, but it's really all the persevering I've had to bear with myself because of my emotional and sensitive personality. I still have a lot of goals and promises to go after.
Monday, March 7, 2016
Personality Types Part II
I was introduced by an acquaintance to a website called 16personalities.com - you basically answer a series of questions with no right or wrong answers and if you are honest with your response, then it tells you what your type is and is spot on.
For my type, I got the ENFJ type which stands for (E)xtravert-(I)ntuitive-(F)eeling-(J)udging. My type is known as the protagonist, so I'm the main character baby yeah! Because I am short, it's been hard to show that I have natural leading capabilities. One thing that did pop out though is that I have noticed a friend asking me to lead the way.
Oh yeah, before that weird church girl did something to me out of being very heavily frustrated and irritated with me, she let me lead her into going out for some coffee. Weird! Okay, I'm not going that much further to release my story, but it's on this blog somewhere. It's where I'm venting my fury and actually, I come across as pretty smart even though it sounds all childish with me just doing outbursts.
My personality type is actually brilliant and a people's person. My negative qualities is that I'm pretty much dependent on people and can let them bring my self-esteem to an all-time low. I care just too much even in these small scuffles that happened where it escalated and they can't be my friend anymore. This personality type of mine is so heavy on personal improvement and so when I reflect on the past, I'm about actually improving myself so I can be a better person.
This type is just meant to have a significant other and now that I know, me going all off on some people in the past probably just had to do with me being disappointed and critical about their actions when I put in the effort to be cool with them. My type isn't very good at dealing with situational awareness, but can pick up on the mood rather well.
Like I notice this, when I'm not paying attention, someone says a sentence that everybody else heard except for me and then it led into a whole topic that I really had no idea what that main idea was. Others start laughing and I'm trying to understand so I stand there just smiling and having a good time about having missed that idea. I'm just trying to fit in just like that.
Personality Types
So this is an interesting thing that I found out about myself, if anyone in this little bubble space of the Internet with harmless data so far and counting because it's been ten years that has me talking about anything that goes on. I guess the people I have dealt with on this Internet site is basically not too bad. I still try to go through lengths to give them some respect, which could be misinterpreted easily, but I understand that I have to change up my tone and let out a little anger in exchange because it gets me relaxed and after that, somehow my charm is still able to kick in with all the experiences I've had and those people end up letting go of whatever they were bothered about.
Anyway, my type is funny to the introverted because as an extrovert that represents only 2% of the population, I can find myself in social settings where I don't let up, but since I'm a funny guy naturally so yeah, that's why my introverted friend laughs at some of the things I say and do.
Here's a funny comment for most guys I came up with. I meet the bare minimum for my height to be a UFC fighter! It gives me a whole heck of a lot of confidence and keeps away the inferiority complex. It's like Wolverine who is described as short and stocky in the comics is my personal inspiration.
Just because of that revelation I confide in, I don't really mind being around and carrying conversations with taller women who are married of course! It's like I don't really mind what they reveal to me about their family and husbands. I just take it like a man and listen.
Anyway, my type is funny to the introverted because as an extrovert that represents only 2% of the population, I can find myself in social settings where I don't let up, but since I'm a funny guy naturally so yeah, that's why my introverted friend laughs at some of the things I say and do.
Here's a funny comment for most guys I came up with. I meet the bare minimum for my height to be a UFC fighter! It gives me a whole heck of a lot of confidence and keeps away the inferiority complex. It's like Wolverine who is described as short and stocky in the comics is my personal inspiration.
Just because of that revelation I confide in, I don't really mind being around and carrying conversations with taller women who are married of course! It's like I don't really mind what they reveal to me about their family and husbands. I just take it like a man and listen.
Leaving Behind a Weird and Funny Past
I guess it was fun to continually visit the past and pain myself over it and to no luck find no solution, so I would just get this built-up anger and push other people's buttons over it by texting them. Anyhow, I've managed to send out a few texts with a person for like two months straight and this nice lady has actually replied back to me, out of all the possible nonsense that I could think of!
It's nice that I built a little personal confidence and patience because she gets busy with working and living life, but man, I feel sort of lucky that she still takes a few minutes to write a sentence or two with me. It doesn't matter what she replied back to me with- anything, basically answering a silly question because I want her to say anything with me!
She seemed pretty open as well to meeting up, which is cool. Okay, so I seem to be comfortable with females because I'm like around them practically every week at least. My mom is still the worst to deal with at times and has her useless parenting moments with me. It's in and out through one ear, and if my mother understood English, she would definitely kill me for writing this about her.
It's nice that I built a little personal confidence and patience because she gets busy with working and living life, but man, I feel sort of lucky that she still takes a few minutes to write a sentence or two with me. It doesn't matter what she replied back to me with- anything, basically answering a silly question because I want her to say anything with me!
She seemed pretty open as well to meeting up, which is cool. Okay, so I seem to be comfortable with females because I'm like around them practically every week at least. My mom is still the worst to deal with at times and has her useless parenting moments with me. It's in and out through one ear, and if my mother understood English, she would definitely kill me for writing this about her.
Positive Mindset
I think what's important is to just keep the mind going strong! I'm just talking a little random, but trying to funny with myself. This is after all my small blog that has accumulated only 30,000 views in ten years with this vast and ever-expanding universe that you call the Internet. With billions of people on here, yeah that's pretty small amount!
Heck, it's all free though, so what do I have to lose except be in trouble if I upset the wrong people. So why do I still write like a dumb maniac sometimes and leave behind my track? I'm a pretty idealistic person and whether it's my flaw or not, it's actually my personality.
Heck, it's all free though, so what do I have to lose except be in trouble if I upset the wrong people. So why do I still write like a dumb maniac sometimes and leave behind my track? I'm a pretty idealistic person and whether it's my flaw or not, it's actually my personality.
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