Figuring Out Lover to Be With

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. I want to be married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and to have this undying love and companionship with her and then maintain being a family while being a wealthy man! I must choose and be loved by this woman. Five criteria to look for:  I'm just looking for 1.) a sexy lady who is 2.) laid back, 3.) she wants to be with a guy,  4.) cares about personality more than appearances, and 5.) is usually interested in getting intimate just for fun! I'll be happy to settle with one of those women for the rest of my life.
   
2. I want to be rich from trading and investing in options, stocks, and Forex. Eventually, I want this to also include some real estate and bonds. I also want to make a lot of money from getting involved in IT which focuses on software engineering, IT security, and database administration. 
3. Buy a single family home. I must be rich!
4. Do some smart cooking. I must be vigilant, committed, not distracted, and feeling lots of time.
5. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. Buy related products. I must feel comfortable.
6. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! I must be committed and remind myself. 
7. Work out four days a week with alternating muscular, full body,  and yoga classes.  I must be committed and remind myself.
8. Conduct regular hygiene. Take a shower before sleeping. Don't forget the mouth guard. I must be committed and remind myself.
9. Read something from a book. I must commit.  

Purpose: "I am brilliant and universally favored by others therefore I will live the life of a wealthy gentleman." 

My Top 10 values are in order

1. Faith
2. Love, Happiness, and Joy 
3. Personal freedom
4. Balance
5. Understanding
6. Health
7. Strength and self-reliance
8. Inner harmony
9. Goodness
10. Enjoyment

I see myself as a fit and cut up dude enjoying physical intimacy with a beautiful woman who is my faithful wife and she's loving every second of it, too! I am also a rich man with successful results that are visible while managing any personal hassles or adversity with positivity that is second to none. I make money while having a lot of free time on my hands. 

Affirmations of what I want:

1. I am married to a hot woman who enjoys making love almost all the time and now has this undying love and companionship with her and maintaining a family as a wealthy man! I have chosen and am loved by this woman.
2. I am now averaging reading at least thirty books a year!

Affirmations of what I want to believe:

1. I am always fully happy with what I have going on in life.
2. I am capable of not feeling hurt or bothered by others.

Affirmations for compelling visions:

1. I have a purpose for living.
2. I visualize my dreams with clear and specific goals in mind.

Affirmations for thinking, speaking, and affirming into existence:

1. I have control over my thoughts and stay focused on my affirmations.
2. I enjoy thinking with optimism and a cheerful heart.

Affirmations for connecting to the heart:

1. I keep myself open-minded to finding my woman.
2. I am pursuing things that really matter to me the most.

Affirmations for acting:

1. I am taking action right away without letting it linger.
2. I let myself accept great opportunities when the situation arises. 

Summary of personal tasks:

Trading/investing, doing work, working out, growth stretches, ab belt workout, push ups/pull ups, facial product, showering, brushing teeth twice, reading, homework, and other errands. 

Summary of interpersonal goals:

Work on close friendships and love.

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Bare minimum statement:

The bare minimum things that I want to do on a regular day is invest/trade, read, clear out email clutter, workout, conduct good hygiene, and work on an online course. I no longer feel bad about trying to make money through investing and trading. I'm pretty much happy being a nobody in those sectors and don't need anyone really supporting me with how good or bad I'm doing. As long as I make enough to get around with my fat lifestyle then I'll be happy to be maintaining it when I get there. 

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What did I do right today?

I've come up with a simple requirement that's just right under my nose.

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This is something that I won't willingly share with just about anyone out in the open. This is something that the readers who have managed to stay on for whatever reason that I don't really bother to try to figure out from being confident in my writing abilities to not get myself in trouble, will get to know about! 

For me, it's not about the looks anymore. It's about the girl's personality and secondly, if I'm comfortable about the physical act of having a baby with her; especially, the fun parts of it! There's currently three girls I feel interested in; it doesn't matter if they are with someone else right now. I can be happy for them and not be some selfish and jealous jerk about it, if they currently are but they are at least friendly to me, which I like.

With my current best friend, who is a cute, curvy, attractive, smart girl in her own right and I do like her personality right now which is courteous, I feel weird about it right now. It's just the past that felt so wrong about her which would have to be undone and for now, I'm happy knowing that I feel weird about being with her. I don't know how she feels about me but I don't even care to know. I guess she wouldn't be interested and feel the same about how weird it is. I told her that I'm happy to have her as a friend in my life and she said the same thing back.  

It's just a weird feeling that isn't nasty which would be reserved for like a sibling, so she's not really a sister to me and she thought of me originally as a big brother which turned out to be wrong because I gave her such a hard time about it. She's turning out to be more agreeable in seeing me as just a regular, hang out buddy now. I don't really belong in the blood of her family, the ups and downs.