To increase in productivity level while continuing to live a content and balanced life, I personally see that there needs to be a combination of confidence, hard work, resilience, and patience. This really gets me thinking back on the subject of dating. I think attractiveness and getting a match is sort of like coming to an agreement. Right now, they don't know that I'm clicking the like button because I'm accepting just about any lady who is within my location. I'm really interested in just who I would match up with. After clicking on everybody close by and the ones I feel comfortable with, I'm noticing that the only exception is that I don't want to match up with someone who is mutual friends with another while not really being into her. This is the only time I'm going to judge her attractiveness. Other times, I'm just hitting the like button because it's going to save time to narrow down my choices later on and I can ignore her too if I'm not really interested or change my mind.
Secondly, it's these implied thoughts that I'm able to sense now. For an unattractive and overweight woman, she might be thinking that she's fine with how she is and that she doesn't need to lose weight. I am of the opinion that she should because she could seriously look so much more attractive afterwards and would make her turn out to be more desirable for me. She could agree with me on this fact and maybe she's making the effort but I don't see these results right now from her. I don't know her motive from never having met her and maybe she's tried and given up a few times which is also a turn off for me. From having these thoughts, I am taking on a major disagreement with her by not choosing her to be my partner in the end.
On the other end, I'm revealing my short height and posting honest photos of myself out there to make it easier on the ladies. They either like me or don't, and I seriously don't care now. I'm going to keep on working on my appearance and status in the meantime while just looking to have fun with people while passing the time. I could maybe meet a special lady from doing that as well! There's really nothing I can do about having turned out to be short even if I want to feel like it's a curse on me sometimes. It's the same way with not being good looking as I would like to be comparing myself to others. If a lady instinctively chooses to ignore me for those reasons, then she's made her decision and if I did the best I could to change her mind and didn't work out then there's really nothing I can do about it anymore and have to move on. It's pretty much like having a silent disagreement because of her preferences, and there's really nothing I have control over so might as well move on and keep on searching for someone else to be interested in which could actually still be a lot of fun!
The way I like to play my cards in meeting a lady is with being proper and so smart. I think the reward is so much higher that way while being a genuinely confident and happy individual. There was a guy I used to hang around with who would try to force his way in from being aroused with ladies and just trying to touch their bare skin everywhere while focusing his attention on one lady at a time. He's most likely been lucky with one lady like being close to an actual one night stand, but it looks like he became bored from doing that and knowing that he didn't have enough money to support a future family, he eventually eased up on it because I think it came to a point that he was no longer a boy but turning into a fat, ugly man with some macho sized arms and maybe had a situation where he felt threatened about a girl potentially reporting him for sexual harassment. There was also a security guard who didn't like what he was doing, so maybe that was another stressful-related event that caused him to wise up a bit more.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Monday, October 21, 2019
Taking Notice Of Myself
On dating apps, I have taken notice that the ladies who are right away interested in me are those who I think might be having trouble finding someone to date and are open-minded with trying me out. I take it as a complement but I'm not really interested in them, too. I guess I'm shallow to a certain degree and judging attractiveness based on their photos. Yet, I still wouldn't mind hanging out with them and learning about their personalities. Maybe, I could end up changing my mind someday. It's just that I don't think it's worth my time, in addition to worrying about other annoying situations I would like to avoid if it didn't work out.
I think the attractive ladies on those dating apps don't have any problems with getting attention, so they would appear to be so busy or waiting to match up for their ideal person. I would have to say they are pretty lucky for having nice looks, but there could be a little hassle with them finding someone nice for them, if they still have a dating profile. I guess there's nothing wrong with that and feeling insecure about them ignoring or rejecting me, while having an idea of what they are trying to do would be the wrong direction to go. Being a man, I shouldn't really be bothered by it and accept that the online pool of ladies interested in me could be smaller than I would like while also not being too interested in them!
Still, I think it's fun to just try it out and have an idea with who I could end up with. Basically, it looks like the nice single ladies out there who aren't really that physically attractive would be the ones I could realistically date the easiest. I just can't really tell them in person that I don't think they are pretty enough or too overweight for my dating preferences. Yet, I'm open to possible friendship, so it complicates things because I want to always seem nice without hurting their feelings. With people being people, these ladies who struggle are probably not the most resilient people out there and will find some breathing room to talk about their problems to someone while not getting consistent turn-around results which is a turn-off for me. This is the judgement call I am making.
I guess I don't really care if a lady I like ends up wanting to only be friends. I don't mind staying that way while working hard to keep on trying to improve everything about myself and will go looking for someone else I can accept as my partner. I basically don't really care being rejected or put on hold or whatever now because I can always respect that part. This gets me thinking that I should have just told the lady who was frustrated with me my true feelings. I was physically attracted to her, but I was feeling at the same time that she might not be right person to be with. I was only interested in being a nice person and trying to work on a decent friendship with her. It didn't work out because I was too shy to reveal all of this to her. I've worked on my shyness ever since and it's been better with how things have turned out.
I think the attractive ladies on those dating apps don't have any problems with getting attention, so they would appear to be so busy or waiting to match up for their ideal person. I would have to say they are pretty lucky for having nice looks, but there could be a little hassle with them finding someone nice for them, if they still have a dating profile. I guess there's nothing wrong with that and feeling insecure about them ignoring or rejecting me, while having an idea of what they are trying to do would be the wrong direction to go. Being a man, I shouldn't really be bothered by it and accept that the online pool of ladies interested in me could be smaller than I would like while also not being too interested in them!
Still, I think it's fun to just try it out and have an idea with who I could end up with. Basically, it looks like the nice single ladies out there who aren't really that physically attractive would be the ones I could realistically date the easiest. I just can't really tell them in person that I don't think they are pretty enough or too overweight for my dating preferences. Yet, I'm open to possible friendship, so it complicates things because I want to always seem nice without hurting their feelings. With people being people, these ladies who struggle are probably not the most resilient people out there and will find some breathing room to talk about their problems to someone while not getting consistent turn-around results which is a turn-off for me. This is the judgement call I am making.
I guess I don't really care if a lady I like ends up wanting to only be friends. I don't mind staying that way while working hard to keep on trying to improve everything about myself and will go looking for someone else I can accept as my partner. I basically don't really care being rejected or put on hold or whatever now because I can always respect that part. This gets me thinking that I should have just told the lady who was frustrated with me my true feelings. I was physically attracted to her, but I was feeling at the same time that she might not be right person to be with. I was only interested in being a nice person and trying to work on a decent friendship with her. It didn't work out because I was too shy to reveal all of this to her. I've worked on my shyness ever since and it's been better with how things have turned out.
Friday, October 18, 2019
Really Building Some Character
I think it's really about taking things seriously in what you do with your time. What this means to me is laying off of less important things and prioritizing with what I want to really do to get myself going! The more I'm able to focus on what I want, the more sooner I will be able to accomplish it, assuming that it is reasonably within my reach. There are definitely some tasks that I will have to break up into several days because it will take up so much time for just one day even though it may be fun to get consumed by.
I mean I do want to live a balanced life after all and make time to go find myself a beautiful lady to date. I don't think it would be such a hard decision after all then to let go of something really fun, time consuming, and not that significant at all for love. I'm going to have to keep on laying off of surfing the web with some fun curiosities to pass the time that I will most likely be forgetting anyway and go for picking up on more of the actual good stuff!
I mean I do want to live a balanced life after all and make time to go find myself a beautiful lady to date. I don't think it would be such a hard decision after all then to let go of something really fun, time consuming, and not that significant at all for love. I'm going to have to keep on laying off of surfing the web with some fun curiosities to pass the time that I will most likely be forgetting anyway and go for picking up on more of the actual good stuff!
Wednesday, October 16, 2019
Taking Control Of Personal Urges
Well, this immediately gets me thinking about something irritating from the past that I have to deal with. A dude I hung out with a long time ago because I lacked confidence in building friendships and just being friends with anyone, used to walk up to girls and touch their hands and arms and all over as much as he could because he just felt so aroused by it. He said that he didn't want to have a baby because it would be game over while doing that to ladies. It really rubbed me the wrong way because I didn't think that was proper so I guess that means I like to still be nice even if everybody in this world was to go crazy with me. It's a strong statement but if I had a gun and it was legal then I probably would use it in that imaginative world to protect others more than myself, right? Maybe it's me first instead and then others.
It's a whole bunch of baloney to think this me against the world situation. It's a weird sensation from just knowing that I'm feeling angry. I know that I feel frustrated and mad underneath but I'm able to have nice conversations with people and focus on the bigger thing. This is all in the flesh and a terrible emotion that I'm feeling, but I don't let it drag me down.
If I'm able to keep these uncomfortable feelings under check now while feeling so confident and in the mood for working hard which is my usual memo now, I feel quite good actually and very happy! Comparing myself to this one lady from the past, it's laughable but I think she had trouble managing her frustrations with me over something ridiculous! She didn't want to talk about it either so I guess that means she just wanted to run away selfishly and protect herself from being in harm's way because she felt so paranoid about it. I definitely didn't do her any service while trying to sugar coat everything from feeling shy underneath. From having learned and with me talking in a more straight-forward manner, even my most insecure friend who I refuse to associate with lately thinks I'm humorous. It's a good thing to be associated with, and I think it's just from having the capacity to communicate openly with what I'm feeling and thoughts while not implicating any harm coming their way. It's just nice to say stuff and laugh from it being so funny personally. I think my insecure friend is even able to sense that about me from my texts and play nicely with me. When he doesn't agree with my jokes that make fun of him and me expressing a lot of LOLs, he either remains quiet or gets defensive.
It really doesn't matter what he says because I have his number. It's the same way with another guy who agreed with another person going crazy with me having just given up on me. There's another guy who does the same too with this guy by just reading my messages and not responding anymore. I know he's reading it because I get confirmation he received it. This guy will confirm it but the other guy looks like he doesn't want to read my writing because he knows it's going to tick him off so much and that I'm going to spoil his fun afterwards at his expense. I'm capable of putting myself in there with people I feel bothered by and just making them hear me out these days.
Yet, I still feel like being a gentleman and how I'm so lucky from having got away with it. I was going for like extras and desserts after feasting on the main dish with these people. I failed to obtain them, so it wouldn't figuratively be like the best meals I've ever had, but it's like I fed myself plenty of healthy vegetables while trying to deal with these people. It's amazing how strong you can become from staying confident and hard working.
It's a whole bunch of baloney to think this me against the world situation. It's a weird sensation from just knowing that I'm feeling angry. I know that I feel frustrated and mad underneath but I'm able to have nice conversations with people and focus on the bigger thing. This is all in the flesh and a terrible emotion that I'm feeling, but I don't let it drag me down.
If I'm able to keep these uncomfortable feelings under check now while feeling so confident and in the mood for working hard which is my usual memo now, I feel quite good actually and very happy! Comparing myself to this one lady from the past, it's laughable but I think she had trouble managing her frustrations with me over something ridiculous! She didn't want to talk about it either so I guess that means she just wanted to run away selfishly and protect herself from being in harm's way because she felt so paranoid about it. I definitely didn't do her any service while trying to sugar coat everything from feeling shy underneath. From having learned and with me talking in a more straight-forward manner, even my most insecure friend who I refuse to associate with lately thinks I'm humorous. It's a good thing to be associated with, and I think it's just from having the capacity to communicate openly with what I'm feeling and thoughts while not implicating any harm coming their way. It's just nice to say stuff and laugh from it being so funny personally. I think my insecure friend is even able to sense that about me from my texts and play nicely with me. When he doesn't agree with my jokes that make fun of him and me expressing a lot of LOLs, he either remains quiet or gets defensive.
It really doesn't matter what he says because I have his number. It's the same way with another guy who agreed with another person going crazy with me having just given up on me. There's another guy who does the same too with this guy by just reading my messages and not responding anymore. I know he's reading it because I get confirmation he received it. This guy will confirm it but the other guy looks like he doesn't want to read my writing because he knows it's going to tick him off so much and that I'm going to spoil his fun afterwards at his expense. I'm capable of putting myself in there with people I feel bothered by and just making them hear me out these days.
Yet, I still feel like being a gentleman and how I'm so lucky from having got away with it. I was going for like extras and desserts after feasting on the main dish with these people. I failed to obtain them, so it wouldn't figuratively be like the best meals I've ever had, but it's like I fed myself plenty of healthy vegetables while trying to deal with these people. It's amazing how strong you can become from staying confident and hard working.
Tuesday, October 15, 2019
Self-control With Discipline
Obviously, there's really no one but for myself to work on. I think it's really about just hanging in there and continuously looking to make some adjustments to ultimately keep on doing something you have a passion for doing. There are a lot of tempting things to do and get around from all this searching I've done. Individuals who went crazy with me in the past were scared by how I was able to demonstrate this ability in some form. I'm lucky that I got away with it and I was searching for doing something better with them for my own pleasure while hoping they would snap out of it. The way I approached it doesn't work, so lesson learned and looking to move on from it now. My mind has naturally been sharpened in that area from having stressed a lot about it, while not knowing what I was really doing.
From these struggles, it's how I learned that confidence and hard work are really the keys to being successful while feeling lucky from having a working mind. A guy I know struggles with being smart enough and is not effective. I think this also contributes to his depression that he accepts while adopting useless theories that makes him feel so unique from having brought it up himself. He's still not going anywhere with it. He's really committing the sin of trying to escape his own reality that he has too much trouble handling sometimes.
In contrast, I have this image of being smart enough and it scared the individuals who flipped out because of me trying to get things my own way with them. I really didn't want to move on because I felt there was a proper way to exchange channels without being so flabbergasted at them while continuing to stay nice. They really influenced a catharsis upon me free flowing my words, but I managed to stay really nice still in the end. It's a work of art for myself that I don't accept proudly because I still haven't got things my way! Yet, I'm happy to work on myself with moving on while being genuinely satisfied about the experiences which I think is just imagined conflict from their end.
It's pretty hard communicating with people who turned crazy and can't help themselves with being stubborn. Not telling them about it is really doing them a disservice because I grew up confused with my parents constantly arguing with each other over stupid things and managing to stay together. My mom has this selfish personality of wanting to protect her own image. I'm totally not about those things and stressing out, but managing to still hold it together.
From these struggles, it's how I learned that confidence and hard work are really the keys to being successful while feeling lucky from having a working mind. A guy I know struggles with being smart enough and is not effective. I think this also contributes to his depression that he accepts while adopting useless theories that makes him feel so unique from having brought it up himself. He's still not going anywhere with it. He's really committing the sin of trying to escape his own reality that he has too much trouble handling sometimes.
In contrast, I have this image of being smart enough and it scared the individuals who flipped out because of me trying to get things my own way with them. I really didn't want to move on because I felt there was a proper way to exchange channels without being so flabbergasted at them while continuing to stay nice. They really influenced a catharsis upon me free flowing my words, but I managed to stay really nice still in the end. It's a work of art for myself that I don't accept proudly because I still haven't got things my way! Yet, I'm happy to work on myself with moving on while being genuinely satisfied about the experiences which I think is just imagined conflict from their end.
It's pretty hard communicating with people who turned crazy and can't help themselves with being stubborn. Not telling them about it is really doing them a disservice because I grew up confused with my parents constantly arguing with each other over stupid things and managing to stay together. My mom has this selfish personality of wanting to protect her own image. I'm totally not about those things and stressing out, but managing to still hold it together.
Building Skill From Hard Work
I'm now noticing that by doing things on own with some hints to help me out, I'm pretty much just trying to intuitively put together a working system for swing trading. It's taking a lot longer than I would like, but this whole trial and error thing while looking to profit three months straight is turning out to be a wonderful challenge for myself. I still haven't got there and maybe lasted up to almost two months.
I don't want to be a day trader either which I can relate similarly to playing Poker. It's really not in my preference and something I will do only when I'm waiting somewhere. I don't think it's in my best interest anymore to spend some time playing it while having all of these valuable resources available to me. I really should maximize my time spent with doing the harder things that would feel good if I accomplished them. It's just that I'm heavy on procrastinating, so this is what I need to work on for myself.
I don't want to be a day trader either which I can relate similarly to playing Poker. It's really not in my preference and something I will do only when I'm waiting somewhere. I don't think it's in my best interest anymore to spend some time playing it while having all of these valuable resources available to me. I really should maximize my time spent with doing the harder things that would feel good if I accomplished them. It's just that I'm heavy on procrastinating, so this is what I need to work on for myself.
Learning To Limit Myself
This is what I'm currently thinking now. Hard work is pretty much long hours of grinding and how it feels silly losing to bad players in Poker! Even when you are holding the best hand, your opponent can still catch up from gambling that he will get his card. Most of the time, he won't but with the times he does get it, it's pretty much time to take a loss then.
In this game of trying to keep the winning percentage, going into the business of playing Poker can pretty much stay a one-man operation. It can be a lot of long hours spent gambling and also trying to outclass other opponents to make a living off of it. What I'm relating it to the most right now is a casino. A successful casino will always have the winning edge with those typical games where players can gamble and try their luck on. Having several tables operating at once, it's like the winning percentages will pay off on the long run and make them stay in business as long as the players keep on coming from treating them like valuable customers.
In a sense, with hired labor doing a lot of the physical hard work, it can be pretty nice for the owner. What I'm starting to get at is that from playing Poker, I'm taking a gamble at how I'm a winning player and using my experiences to build upon always making myself a better player. Yet, it's so much time that goes into it while still being a gamble. It's probably not the preferred route for me after all, and I'm pretty much just spending my time on it to play for fun. It's probably just a delusion then that I can be a professional player, while not being full-time with it. With a lot of above-average players losing money in this game from gambling on variance, I shouldn't statistically count myself as excluded. It's just playing for fun and getting too into it to pass the time would be a wasteful effort for myself.
In this game of trying to keep the winning percentage, going into the business of playing Poker can pretty much stay a one-man operation. It can be a lot of long hours spent gambling and also trying to outclass other opponents to make a living off of it. What I'm relating it to the most right now is a casino. A successful casino will always have the winning edge with those typical games where players can gamble and try their luck on. Having several tables operating at once, it's like the winning percentages will pay off on the long run and make them stay in business as long as the players keep on coming from treating them like valuable customers.
In a sense, with hired labor doing a lot of the physical hard work, it can be pretty nice for the owner. What I'm starting to get at is that from playing Poker, I'm taking a gamble at how I'm a winning player and using my experiences to build upon always making myself a better player. Yet, it's so much time that goes into it while still being a gamble. It's probably not the preferred route for me after all, and I'm pretty much just spending my time on it to play for fun. It's probably just a delusion then that I can be a professional player, while not being full-time with it. With a lot of above-average players losing money in this game from gambling on variance, I shouldn't statistically count myself as excluded. It's just playing for fun and getting too into it to pass the time would be a wasteful effort for myself.
Friday, October 11, 2019
Building Upon Experience
I think failures really can teach a lot after going over them. It's probably better to always do the best one can and then just relax instead of tearing everything up from being so disappointed with something not desirable happening. It can be really tricky with these emotions going crazy and then causing the person to shut down or just do something to relax while waiting for it to pass. I feel like I'm at an advantageous point because I'm the one who is writing about it and putting some of my heart into it.
This is really not based on reading someone else's writing because that would take forever but really diving into what I know. I guess I'm sounding smart to myself right now and it's always a good thing because I went through that hard time of just grinding on this blog while not knowing what I was really saying. Even my most popular posts will always stay the best but they are filled with some funny nonsense!
It's interesting how a few readers could be coming upon these words and with what I'm about to say is that, I'm not doing this for the numbers anymore. Hence, I'm the anonymous #1 Computer Science Blogger of blogger.com! It's a hip and funny assumption I'm making for myself. My only argument that tops everybody else's is that I have a fond attachment to my goal which is more consistent than all the other Computer Science-related bloggers on this hosted site and will be until I don't exist on this planet! To join the ranks and compete against me, just type in Computer Science for occupation and hopefully I'll be seeing your profile and clicking on it. Most likely, I will be regularly if I think you are a funny girl!
So my strategy from building upon the failure I experienced is something I will explain by telling a little true story from yesterday. I had the best starting hand in Texas Hold'em history, pocket aces, and then lost all of my $5.00! There's really nothing I can do about it. It stings and hurts and it's like I'm walking away from poker again for awhile because it drives me crazy after awhile seeing these well-played hands going awry for me. Still the percentages are that if I play this good consistently, then I will experience the good side of what a casino usually feels!
What I'm saying is that it's good to keep what was working and then make some adjustments. I "guessed" that I had a significant advantage and I was correct so maybe next time I'll be the one who is taking all of my opponent's money. For my risky swing trading, I properly predicted the correct direction the market was going to follow but even though I lost my battle yesterday; I'm going to keep my analysis the same because it worked and I was spot on for all of those trades even though I took a loss to each of them before exiting. I just have to come up with a better timing strategy and this is what professional traders like to call the famous pull-back! I can see myself collecting millions of dollars and a happy life with a sexy wife who is constantly crazy about me. Yes, the dream life feels so much closer.
This is really not based on reading someone else's writing because that would take forever but really diving into what I know. I guess I'm sounding smart to myself right now and it's always a good thing because I went through that hard time of just grinding on this blog while not knowing what I was really saying. Even my most popular posts will always stay the best but they are filled with some funny nonsense!
It's interesting how a few readers could be coming upon these words and with what I'm about to say is that, I'm not doing this for the numbers anymore. Hence, I'm the anonymous #1 Computer Science Blogger of blogger.com! It's a hip and funny assumption I'm making for myself. My only argument that tops everybody else's is that I have a fond attachment to my goal which is more consistent than all the other Computer Science-related bloggers on this hosted site and will be until I don't exist on this planet! To join the ranks and compete against me, just type in Computer Science for occupation and hopefully I'll be seeing your profile and clicking on it. Most likely, I will be regularly if I think you are a funny girl!
So my strategy from building upon the failure I experienced is something I will explain by telling a little true story from yesterday. I had the best starting hand in Texas Hold'em history, pocket aces, and then lost all of my $5.00! There's really nothing I can do about it. It stings and hurts and it's like I'm walking away from poker again for awhile because it drives me crazy after awhile seeing these well-played hands going awry for me. Still the percentages are that if I play this good consistently, then I will experience the good side of what a casino usually feels!
What I'm saying is that it's good to keep what was working and then make some adjustments. I "guessed" that I had a significant advantage and I was correct so maybe next time I'll be the one who is taking all of my opponent's money. For my risky swing trading, I properly predicted the correct direction the market was going to follow but even though I lost my battle yesterday; I'm going to keep my analysis the same because it worked and I was spot on for all of those trades even though I took a loss to each of them before exiting. I just have to come up with a better timing strategy and this is what professional traders like to call the famous pull-back! I can see myself collecting millions of dollars and a happy life with a sexy wife who is constantly crazy about me. Yes, the dream life feels so much closer.
Better Perspective
I'm believing that upon trying to listen to the Bible daily during my sleepy and daydreaming times while driving, it's really about placing God first for me. Upon placing this faith and trust on Him, I don't think it's wrong to let yourself naturally meet someone of the opposite gender with a similar mindset who is also interested in you. This can lead to marriage, so this cool moment should happen right after prioritizing things for the Lord!
This is pretty much it in my wrestling thoughts about going to church to meet someone lovely who likes to greet you and shows genuine interest for like the good of mankind! It would be totally contrarian to teach Christians to not marry someone you like while attending a church you go to for worshipping God. It's probably just not really placed a lot of emphasis on because I guess people are naturally going to do this anyway. I guess I just feel weird about it, so the solution for me would be to build my personal confidence from just working hard and staying in worship of the Lord.
Going over my current thoughts, I have an underlying speculation about why a pastor might bring up going to church to worship God and not be there to find someone to marry. First of all, the relationship is likely doomed from the start because it's based on selfish expectations. Secondly, a God-fearing pastor is going to probably feel better about not having to do so much marriage counseling if he teaches this! Concluding this matter without much thought, I feel like if it doesn't end up working then there's something better out there for me anyway.
It really caters to my desires to want to serve God, so if it feels like a burden then it's not really my calling. I mean it's easy for me to make fun of God's servants while being mad at them, just like it is for some people. I guess from not caring and by focusing on the truth and being hard working about that to the best of one's ability is the way to go. This probably just means eventually letting the frustrating moment go. I find it easier if I'm honest with my reasoning and just baffle them while laughing at them while being straight up via texting them! Generally, they really do like to leave me alone afterwards.
The optimal strategy to base things off of is that anything can happen to mess with a person's emotions. There are going to be some highs and lows every once in awhile so it's really advantageous to have a stable mind and capable of self-regulating one's own emotions to an acceptable standard. This is pretty easy to neglect by habit, but I guess I put enough work into it because I wanted to be accepted by everyone. Nowadays, I'm starting to not really care so my future adversaries better watch out!
Overall, the main underlying principles are to always put in the effort to do your best while working hard and being self-confident. It's a winning combo and can take down even the biggest obstacles that stand in your way.
Wednesday, October 9, 2019
Making Things Simple For Myself
Everything that's working against me has to really identify with stress and other entertaining distractions. I mean I really have something meaningful to work for now and it's probably based more on my passion. It's something that I really need to recall regularly though so I guess I just have to get myself started and keep moving in that direction I desire. It's wearing me out and it's easy to be lazy after work, but in order to build confidence for myself I really should be continuously working hard.
This also means that I'm going to have to make some lousy sacrifices. After all, I have about 18 subcategories that I want to fulfill daily. There's just too many to list them all in one sitting, so it's cool that I have it all saved in a to-do list on Google Sheets. Going through all of them on this post does feel too sheepish for my standards!
This also means that I'm going to have to make some lousy sacrifices. After all, I have about 18 subcategories that I want to fulfill daily. There's just too many to list them all in one sitting, so it's cool that I have it all saved in a to-do list on Google Sheets. Going through all of them on this post does feel too sheepish for my standards!
Sticking To The Plan
It seems like my plan is becoming more black and white and aligned with what I want to do. My goal is to pretty much just succeed, raise my confidence, and meet enough single ladies who are my ideal personality types to go dating and eventually marry one! The motivation is really that clear cut and well-worth it for me.
I know that I have my place in this world with software engineering and development. It fills me up with this excitement and joy despite facing a lot of challenges. It's still fun for me, so I guess I shouldn't let up on it because it can be a suitable career for me in the long run. Even when I'm not working, I can still program on the side to try to make money or give back to an open source community.
I hope I can be rich enough to go travel and enjoy a lot of healthy fun activities that include love making with the sexy lady I get paired up with. This is just a hopeful wish that I'm willing to work really hard for, even if it never transpires. In other words, I'm just hoping and okay with accepting if it doesn't happen because I can keep on working on building my confidence.
I know that I have my place in this world with software engineering and development. It fills me up with this excitement and joy despite facing a lot of challenges. It's still fun for me, so I guess I shouldn't let up on it because it can be a suitable career for me in the long run. Even when I'm not working, I can still program on the side to try to make money or give back to an open source community.
I hope I can be rich enough to go travel and enjoy a lot of healthy fun activities that include love making with the sexy lady I get paired up with. This is just a hopeful wish that I'm willing to work really hard for, even if it never transpires. In other words, I'm just hoping and okay with accepting if it doesn't happen because I can keep on working on building my confidence.
Really Not Much Incentive
I think I must be like the unspoken standout of the Computer Science in occupation category for this blog site. Yet, I don't think a lot of people really care! It's still fairly pleasing to me that some readers besides me go on this site. I don't know who my audience members are and likely I don't think they will even leave a comment which could be unnerving as well! It's interesting that there's really not much of a massive following with Blogger.com and I think it has to do with the name and setup with all of these unique blogs.
It would make sense for new bloggers to want some sort of incentive and it's about attracting visitors to their site. I don't think it's going to be happening, if they put down Computer Science as their occupation and my numbers seem pretty decent compared to the other 2000 blogs that are mostly left alone but I have done enough writing about a whole lot of nothing to get those views. I'm not really anybody famous either and have a bare resemblance to the CS field. I have just adopted this setup over the past years where I have been polishing up with sharing my personal thoughts openly and have grown to become confident about it.
It's not like I always run things smoothly though, and I still have clashes with an old friend in his mid 30's who doesn't have a job yet and still in school trying to be an art teacher. He's been pretty weird, but I just text him what's on my mind sometimes because I find it to be entertaining to find things to genuinely laugh about him. The thing though is that he still tolerates the way I argue with him, unlike others who decided to ignore me because they were so bothered by it. I think I was just wasting their time while they were stressing out about it and feeling it was unnecessary so they made a personal decision to not put up with it. For the time being, these people aren't anybody special or big players in this world. They are like blended in so I don't think I have to worry about it anymore, even though it ticks me off and I can debate confidently against them now. The experience has still been valuable for me in understanding my people preferences and how to deal with people properly who are annoying me in general. It does most of the time take self-control and I'm realizing it's just a temporary, aggressive mood that I'm feeling while under loads of stress but I'm smart enough to not take it out on anyone.
Tuesday, October 8, 2019
Putting Forward Daily Effort
I guess my main motivation despite what family and friends ask me about finding someone to marry is that I want to have a lot of personal confidence and be well off financially while also having a pretty nice, athletic body. This is pretty much it and the lady I want to find is someone really sexy, pretty crazy about me, passionate about being romantic, and nice.
Yeah, it would be an awesome life to work very hard for and wish I knew this is what I wanted a long time ago besides letting myself get carried away with video games and entertainment to try to drown out my miseries with not knowing what I wanted to do in life. I do have a bigger reverence for the things of the Lord now too from listening to the Bible daily, which I believe is a major connection for living a fully content life.
In the meantime, I'll be working on developing apps and studying more software engineering on the side while also doing a little bit of swing trade practice for my professional development. I could have worked hard as a truck driver or even find a comfortable role as a noncombatant soldier in the U.S. military but I chose to stick with a family business where I have a pretty prominent position. I'm looking to build off of this experience and make myself wealthy.
Yeah, it would be an awesome life to work very hard for and wish I knew this is what I wanted a long time ago besides letting myself get carried away with video games and entertainment to try to drown out my miseries with not knowing what I wanted to do in life. I do have a bigger reverence for the things of the Lord now too from listening to the Bible daily, which I believe is a major connection for living a fully content life.
In the meantime, I'll be working on developing apps and studying more software engineering on the side while also doing a little bit of swing trade practice for my professional development. I could have worked hard as a truck driver or even find a comfortable role as a noncombatant soldier in the U.S. military but I chose to stick with a family business where I have a pretty prominent position. I'm looking to build off of this experience and make myself wealthy.
Working On Discipline
I think there's really no other way around it but to just put in hard work with doing what you love and hopefully, you'll be lucky enough to get there. I think I'm just not putting enough hard work into it or something like it which is causing me to procrastinate by doing other things. I guess there really needs to be a level of comfort, which is like making something to be the main thing.
I'm really into software developing and learning more about it, but I'm just taking my time to get started on it daily and need some motivation to get started each day. It just must be really hard for me, but I think it's worth it to keep on going for it and trying very hard to get there. It's what I enjoy doing after all, despite all the craziness of not getting it and putting a lot of effort to try to make it really good.
I'm really into software developing and learning more about it, but I'm just taking my time to get started on it daily and need some motivation to get started each day. It just must be really hard for me, but I think it's worth it to keep on going for it and trying very hard to get there. It's what I enjoy doing after all, despite all the craziness of not getting it and putting a lot of effort to try to make it really good.
Friday, October 4, 2019
Settling In With Normality and Useful Things
It's pretty obvious that it's common for the majority of people to naturally do what they have to do. For myself, I have had this feeling all my life to procrastinate with doing something because I just don't like the feeling of stressing out. As a kid, it was fun to do some things and surely a lot of that has outgrown me, but now there's even more grown-up fun things to go play and enjoy by going out there to explore the world and meeting a potential mate.
I guess it's come down to the point where I'm just accepting this is what I'm interested in doing and regardless of feeling worn out or not, I still want to gravitate towards it for making myself a decent living and hopefully, become lucky enough to strike gold and then live comfortably while traveling and enjoying things working people can't do. The main things are really personal confidence and putting in a lot of hard work. It's really the foundational principles of my personal life. I still feel totally new to it so in a way, it's wonderful and fresh. I was smart enough to get by in life without a lot of confidence, but now I'm about developing more of it. Deep down, what I think is helping me persevere to get there is really from believing in and trying to study the Bible from just listening to verses everyday. I also pray and think pretty heavily about what I'm listening to sometimes. I have some weird prayers like marry me Jesus, too and then recant those.
Despite not being a really attractive looking guy for obvious reasons that I can find fault with myself: for instance, I'm just short and it's scientifically known that the majority of ladies out there naturally like guys to be taller than me. There are exceptions of course, like taller ladies who want to hit on me. It's no bad phenomenon to me anymore, but just playing some numbers game.
When it comes down to the long run, I think falling in love is the most important characteristic for happy sex! I'm not going to shy away from it while knowing it's a funny comment for little kids out there and some adults who can still live with nice humor. I remember those days. It's really about finding true love after all and that's what it means with hitting the jackpot.
I favor normality with being the basic package I'm looking for in a single lady to be with. Getting some more would make me feel more lucky each time, but the best feeling will always be falling in love! While working on myself, I think letting personal confidence shine brightly the most works like a charm.
It's true that people who have lived like forever on this planet might value an intelligent partner over a good looking one who doesn't want to have sex. Also, having good character might contribute to falling in love. It seems like that from the basis of how a good friend got married. She said that she's jealous of her husband's kindness because she can't match it! Her husband is sort of funny looking to me so it gets me smiling a lot to myself often because she's the better looking half. What I tried to cover over all is that for myself, I need to combine intelligence and good character with hard work and personal confidence to make myself appear to be the most sexy I can be to the single ladies I want to be with and then go ask them out. Hey, it would be pretty interesting if a hot lady thought I was too hot to be with and would be so cool to find out!
I guess it's come down to the point where I'm just accepting this is what I'm interested in doing and regardless of feeling worn out or not, I still want to gravitate towards it for making myself a decent living and hopefully, become lucky enough to strike gold and then live comfortably while traveling and enjoying things working people can't do. The main things are really personal confidence and putting in a lot of hard work. It's really the foundational principles of my personal life. I still feel totally new to it so in a way, it's wonderful and fresh. I was smart enough to get by in life without a lot of confidence, but now I'm about developing more of it. Deep down, what I think is helping me persevere to get there is really from believing in and trying to study the Bible from just listening to verses everyday. I also pray and think pretty heavily about what I'm listening to sometimes. I have some weird prayers like marry me Jesus, too and then recant those.
Despite not being a really attractive looking guy for obvious reasons that I can find fault with myself: for instance, I'm just short and it's scientifically known that the majority of ladies out there naturally like guys to be taller than me. There are exceptions of course, like taller ladies who want to hit on me. It's no bad phenomenon to me anymore, but just playing some numbers game.
When it comes down to the long run, I think falling in love is the most important characteristic for happy sex! I'm not going to shy away from it while knowing it's a funny comment for little kids out there and some adults who can still live with nice humor. I remember those days. It's really about finding true love after all and that's what it means with hitting the jackpot.
I favor normality with being the basic package I'm looking for in a single lady to be with. Getting some more would make me feel more lucky each time, but the best feeling will always be falling in love! While working on myself, I think letting personal confidence shine brightly the most works like a charm.
It's true that people who have lived like forever on this planet might value an intelligent partner over a good looking one who doesn't want to have sex. Also, having good character might contribute to falling in love. It seems like that from the basis of how a good friend got married. She said that she's jealous of her husband's kindness because she can't match it! Her husband is sort of funny looking to me so it gets me smiling a lot to myself often because she's the better looking half. What I tried to cover over all is that for myself, I need to combine intelligence and good character with hard work and personal confidence to make myself appear to be the most sexy I can be to the single ladies I want to be with and then go ask them out. Hey, it would be pretty interesting if a hot lady thought I was too hot to be with and would be so cool to find out!
New Professional Self-reflections
It's most likely not going to be a good idea to try to gamble for money when I'm really bored now. From having been at amusement parks and while standing in a long line, I have had some connection problems getting to a poker game that plays with a $5.00 buy-in using $0.02/$0.05 blinds. It can considerably be pretty challenging sometimes because a lot of poor people all over the world try to play it to make some extra money on their free time. It's just chump change and sure, it can add up to bigger losses for anyone if he wants to play stupid. From having put some effort into building my skills, I can usually last for a long time with an expected earning wage of only $1.00 per hour. This is why I don't take my game of playing poker very seriously anymore. I don't want to grind my way to the top with those numbers nor improve with more time invested anymore. I get too sick of it after awhile.
Instead of having nothing to do while being bored and trying to do the next easiest thing which is to grind away while gambling for taking home some profit, I can instead focus on building my confidence to approach the attractive and interested, single ladies out there since I'm still available. I could be like heading to the gym or putting in more hours to develop myself as a software engineer. Even better, I could go out with some friends and go do fun road trips with them while putting in some effort with being confident. It's really getting better for me since I am outgoing and not in bad shape.
I have learned that for trading purposes, it's probably better to avoid entering trades on the closing and opening days of the market. For Forex, it opens on a late Sunday afternoon and closes shortly after noon on Fridays. While it's closing, the opposing price can spike against your trade from its spread rising. During the opening, the market really is warming up and it's pretty hard to get on there since it's relaxing Sunday. Therefore, I consider my trading business hours to be Monday to Thursday. It's definitely not a good thing to look to trade the Forex for fun while being bored. It needs to be treated like a business in order to make some money. This is something I have finally learned for myself.
Instead of having nothing to do while being bored and trying to do the next easiest thing which is to grind away while gambling for taking home some profit, I can instead focus on building my confidence to approach the attractive and interested, single ladies out there since I'm still available. I could be like heading to the gym or putting in more hours to develop myself as a software engineer. Even better, I could go out with some friends and go do fun road trips with them while putting in some effort with being confident. It's really getting better for me since I am outgoing and not in bad shape.
I have learned that for trading purposes, it's probably better to avoid entering trades on the closing and opening days of the market. For Forex, it opens on a late Sunday afternoon and closes shortly after noon on Fridays. While it's closing, the opposing price can spike against your trade from its spread rising. During the opening, the market really is warming up and it's pretty hard to get on there since it's relaxing Sunday. Therefore, I consider my trading business hours to be Monday to Thursday. It's definitely not a good thing to look to trade the Forex for fun while being bored. It needs to be treated like a business in order to make some money. This is something I have finally learned for myself.
Thursday, October 3, 2019
Dealing With Being Sleepy
It feels like a good portion of my life is really spending time on the road thanks to all the Los Angeles rush hour! Commuting around after work to get to another location in downtown LA for taking care of my app development, after spending time there and right after getting back home, I was really sleepy and falling asleep while sitting anywhere. I knew yesterday that I still wanted to get things done but the sleepiness just overtook me and that's how my night ended.
I guess there's really nothing I can do about it at that point, but to just push myself to conduct some bedtime hygiene. I could take a shower, brush my teeth, get my vitamins, and do my eccentric, growing-taller technique! I don't really even know if the growing taller method will work on me anymore since I managed to make myself get only half an inch taller, right after my growth period stopped. People say that it's genetics with me being short and don't believe that you could make yourself taller from doing so-called growth exercises. I guess for myself since it's stretching out the body from doing yoga poses then might as well because it will promote better posture for me if I do the routine regularly. Also, I can make myself feel better because I'm doing something healthy about not enjoying my height that much even if it doesn't work out. Just having an inch more will make me feel more confident to approach more single ladies appropriately, so doesn't hurt to try. In the meantime, I will also look to keep on building my personal confidence from working hard for that purpose.
Besides me being short and feeling like I can't make my hair grow back into what it used to be, I might as well just work hard to be confident and consistent enough at it for happiness.
Wednesday, October 2, 2019
Not Trying To Leave Things Out
I guess the mind can be a great place to find comfort and joy. Well, it's like this for me because there are things I can find to laugh about all the time. At the same time though, it sucks to remember stuff that makes me want to cuss at the person. I just don't do that to him or her because it's not my preferred style. It's funny though that I didn't mean to scare most of them by sending long messages that are about me explaining why I think they are out of line. It was my attempt to do that while I was mad and being the nicest I can be. I wrote in stuff I don't recall to take some shots at their character while I was mad, so I could laugh about it. Obviously, almost all of them totally lost it and tried to take it out on me but failed to let it go through. It's because it wasn't that serious and they let themselves get all crazy from being so worked up about it. Now that I'm realizing I got away with it and can be happy while still doing nothing about it, it's time to move on.
It feels nice to be confident and if there's not enough, to go work on it. Well, I have to feel apologetic about the past though with those former friends or acquaintances because I didn't know what I was doing and working on some self-control issues. It's good that I find it to be funny again, but I know where I needed to work on to be nicer with my tone. This experience has helped me a lot for dealing with people relationships and stress with actual problems. Communication with girls is really vital and I find that being close to a few of them and butting heads with one girl, I guess I think she's still cute even though she's too weird for me to be with.
This is stuff that I don't really have to tinker too much over anymore because of what I want to make my priorities with gaining happiness. The experience has been truly valuable and meaningful and I'm grateful that I found a way to turn it around for all the future people I end up butting heads with. I'm capable of expressing myself more accurately with them and getting what I intend out of it. It's all based on having personal confidence and putting a lot of hard work into it.
It feels nice to be confident and if there's not enough, to go work on it. Well, I have to feel apologetic about the past though with those former friends or acquaintances because I didn't know what I was doing and working on some self-control issues. It's good that I find it to be funny again, but I know where I needed to work on to be nicer with my tone. This experience has helped me a lot for dealing with people relationships and stress with actual problems. Communication with girls is really vital and I find that being close to a few of them and butting heads with one girl, I guess I think she's still cute even though she's too weird for me to be with.
This is stuff that I don't really have to tinker too much over anymore because of what I want to make my priorities with gaining happiness. The experience has been truly valuable and meaningful and I'm grateful that I found a way to turn it around for all the future people I end up butting heads with. I'm capable of expressing myself more accurately with them and getting what I intend out of it. It's all based on having personal confidence and putting a lot of hard work into it.
Tuesday, October 1, 2019
Solving Personal Issue
What bothers me is leaving one thing out and then feeling like I missed out on an opportunity. I can be in the process of doing something and then completely forget about it while going for doing another thing. I'm going to probably need a personal system or discipline to keep track of my progress with completing things that are important to me. The most obvious way will be listing them out.
I must have a hard time from being a procrastinator and also about mainly having a fun time so it can get difficult for me to stay focused on a hard task. I need like some type of personal nudge to stay with it and to be accepting of the mild confusion or distress I will be putting myself through. As long as I know it's what I want on the long run, then I can run with it while making the effort.
I must have a hard time from being a procrastinator and also about mainly having a fun time so it can get difficult for me to stay focused on a hard task. I need like some type of personal nudge to stay with it and to be accepting of the mild confusion or distress I will be putting myself through. As long as I know it's what I want on the long run, then I can run with it while making the effort.
Sticking To It
I really like Nike's slogan of Just Do It. Sometimes, a person can go to the gym to work out while not being in the mood for it. It's like once the person gets back into his or her routine, then it can start feeling good again. In a likewise manner, I think focusing is done like this with things that are interesting.
I really want to set my sights on planning for things to do, trying to make a decent living, and developing myself. Focusing on too much entertainment just might not be so appealing to me anymore. It's pretty hard to set out to do what I have in mind sometimes because what keeps me preoccupied is my curiosity and then reading or watching details about it online is probably what keeps me entertained a lot. It's also how doing some things that I planned for just might feel stressful and stale while not being a big thing that's so exciting to be a part of. It does get really easy to make oneself comfortable and keep him or herself entertained, afterwards.
Knowing all of this, I'm destined to fail at some things I really desire to do on a daily basis. I'm just going to have to keep on working at it to keep myself in-line while staying calm and happy.
I really want to set my sights on planning for things to do, trying to make a decent living, and developing myself. Focusing on too much entertainment just might not be so appealing to me anymore. It's pretty hard to set out to do what I have in mind sometimes because what keeps me preoccupied is my curiosity and then reading or watching details about it online is probably what keeps me entertained a lot. It's also how doing some things that I planned for just might feel stressful and stale while not being a big thing that's so exciting to be a part of. It does get really easy to make oneself comfortable and keep him or herself entertained, afterwards.
Knowing all of this, I'm destined to fail at some things I really desire to do on a daily basis. I'm just going to have to keep on working at it to keep myself in-line while staying calm and happy.
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