Let's keep this real

Life is good, no matter what happens because Jesus will always be there to forgive me for all my mistakes. I am ready to challenge others who challenge me. I have this moral obligation with people's feelings right now. They want to run my life the way they see as fit. Balancing these things with the feelings of others will take some time. I need to keep making mistakes with these small requests that they impose on me. The only way to find myself out is to go down trying and being myself. I believe in high values and standards, but I need to play a little dirty sometimes in a high moral fashion.

Life feels so good

I think the best way for me to be a blessing right now is to carry people's burdens in a loving way and to be very productive in the things I am doing. The reason for my thinking is that I think I'm starting to voice out a lot of my emotions in a way where people can sort of be led into. This is happening through my writings. I can always find excuses if people don't like how I have been soul searching and maybe then, I'll be able enliven something wonderful.

The way that I can be productive and a blessing to others is to read books proficiently and also study. A very important decision to me is to continue in fellowship with Christ, who is found in the traditional Bible. It's also to do things that are ultra-cool right now; such as skydiving, biking long distances, cliff-diving, rock-climbing, working out, raising a million bucks legally and with interesting tactics, etc. I could sure use a couple more inches in height, too; nevertheless, it does not bother older folks. There are so many scary stuff you could try to get taller. I recommend consulting a physician about it, but many of them may be like "Who cares, you are a unique individual with genes that you carried from your parents." Regardless, just ask about the nutrition or medication and how dangerous the exercises could be. I grew a half-an-inch from getting enough sleep and trying some of those heart-pumping exercises. I should keep it up and not feel sorry for no reason because it does not involve anyone, but myself. Can't find the verse for this one, but it says, "If the barn needs painting, paint it."

Dealing With Wall From Friendly Girls

This passage is detailing my little active struggle of not trying to live out my past. I have actually woke up this year to a lot of different experiences. Specifically, I have a wall surrounding me around three intelligent girls. This is so cool in a way because I never thought I could be considered for even rejection in a relationship. I was working so hard at not trying to give myself away at being in a relationship with anyone. I have not asked any of those girls, if they wanted to get committed in some relationship. Pretty weird because my body used to be a little uncomfortable about listening to them.

Now that I have risen at a new level, I feel the need to pump out better results. I am a very straight man by the way. No hustling going on in the last sentences. There's a special girl who I truly admire out there. It's exciting that I have actually some real life conflict to anticipate. Others have even tried to get involved with me just allowing them to solicit me. Going back to the wall surrounded around these women, I feel like having the green light to go talk to them because of everything surrounding my ignorance to them. They sort of failed to clue me in about the conflict they were going through. A straight man who appears to have no experience in this area and changing his outlook in life all at the same time; probability: almost impossible. This is where my genius may resurface.

Gosh, my head was a little messed up.

The Lord has taught me something meaningful lately. It's really to cast all my concerns on Him. Recently, I have been squirming a little about pulling out all my hairs. Life is really something, and God placed us here on this world for a definite reason. It's wonderful that our personalities are all different and some of us just need others around to help us take a break. I guess that's why I really hate it when people start acting a little different around you. You just really want to break the ice and fix something they are not accustomed to you about.

I'm currently learning to adjust at becoming a hard-working and focused student. I think the winning takes place by multi-tasking my emotions and having faith in God that everything will be okay. It's just that sometimes, my soul is just so poked at that I have to go out and do some remedial things. I would really like a balanced and fresh life, but I do not want to leave behind something dealing with people. I am not quite ready to give up on a note of misunderstanding or discomfort with someone. I think a wonderful person is also someone who can create more work for him or her to be proactive and make a positive impact. I should honestly be doing that too. Instead of being so distracted, it's to work hard at dealing with it through the Lord's blessing.

Internal Personalities

It's a pretty well-worthy note of writing to receive comfort from the Lord. I currently am finding that being a guy with so much difficulty of not casting out annoyances is sort of hampering with my life. Everyone has their desires and ideas, and they like to think it's right with absolute certainty. It's just like me. They place it upon me and then annoy me! I think my gig has been to just keep asking questions and then demand answers. I don't want to jump into rash conclusions and then spill up somewhere. That's just my train of thought, I suppose.

God is a great friend to anyone who calls out to Him when circumstances are rock-bottom. Some people ignore the wonderful attributes of getting to know the Lord. I find that my personality has not been really used to staying annoyed with something and then letting go of it. You know, I really need to start pursuing after changes but keeping the Lord in mind. I don't really feel down on myself anymore.

Moving On for Better Days

I think we would all like to view life as having a meaning and purpose. Sometimes, some of us may want to make excuses with being a dummy and accepting it. The situations that God places me in is sometimes really hard to relate in others. In some part of our lives, I think sin takes its toll and may cloud the mind. It's important to stay fresh in the Lord and to repent from all bitterness and resentment. Phil 4:8 says, "Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things." (NASB)

I don't really want to share the things that I've been going through because of conflicts-of-interests. After I deal with the situation, I may have the luxury of laughing off a wonderful story. I really like delightful things that arise from confusion and frustrations. It feels like moving forward.

I will share that I'm out of my house a lot more because I'm pretty stuffed about staying indoors and doing things that I have been accustomed to. 1 Cor 13:11 says, "When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things." (NASB) It's in my heart to move away from my parents soon and live a really diligent life without having to rely on them for financial support. My mom just wishes me to marry off and have a job that people could look up to. Maybe, this is what my mom would think is best for me. This reminds me about the parable of the talents (Matt 25:14-30, Luke 19:12-28). By being diligent in work, it is natural to master the skill and then be blessed with more tasks for gaining added treasures. This means that I may have the skills in the future to really accomplish a big dream that I have. My dream is to give support for dying nations by doing something to help out- something that is not languish; possibly, lending financial support to virtuous and wonderful volunteers with a great vision I can follow.

I am currently studying to be a high level I.T. worker. The jobs in that field are very incredible and potentially fruitful. It may actually fit my niche of what I need to help maintain a balanced life. Giving my time to serving the Lord is also an area that I wish to grow in. I hope to be the guy who can really handle a lot of things that would normally pester individuals and to deal with them strongly and come away with pleasing God.