I think we would all like to view life as having a meaning and purpose. Sometimes, some of us may want to make excuses with being a dummy and accepting it. The situations that God places me in is sometimes really hard to relate in others. In some part of our lives, I think sin takes its toll and may cloud the mind. It's important to stay fresh in the Lord and to repent from all bitterness and resentment. Phil 4:8 says, "Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things." (NASB)
I don't really want to share the things that I've been going through because of conflicts-of-interests. After I deal with the situation, I may have the luxury of laughing off a wonderful story. I really like delightful things that arise from confusion and frustrations. It feels like moving forward.
I will share that I'm out of my house a lot more because I'm pretty stuffed about staying indoors and doing things that I have been accustomed to. 1 Cor 13:11 says, "When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things." (NASB) It's in my heart to move away from my parents soon and live a really diligent life without having to rely on them for financial support. My mom just wishes me to marry off and have a job that people could look up to. Maybe, this is what my mom would think is best for me. This reminds me about the parable of the talents (Matt 25:14-30, Luke 19:12-28). By being diligent in work, it is natural to master the skill and then be blessed with more tasks for gaining added treasures. This means that I may have the skills in the future to really accomplish a big dream that I have. My dream is to give support for dying nations by doing something to help out- something that is not languish; possibly, lending financial support to virtuous and wonderful volunteers with a great vision I can follow.
I am currently studying to be a high level I.T. worker. The jobs in that field are very incredible and potentially fruitful. It may actually fit my niche of what I need to help maintain a balanced life. Giving my time to serving the Lord is also an area that I wish to grow in. I hope to be the guy who can really handle a lot of things that would normally pester individuals and to deal with them strongly and come away with pleasing God.