Just Posting Something

I'm just not really in the mood for typing right now but I'm going to still really be consistent with this posting. It's been really helping me recover from abusing my adrenaline with people who just been annoying me and don't really make any sense. I'm really doing a lot better than I should be. I think I'm becoming very normal in the sense that things are improving in my life. I'm so much more calmer than usual and sense that I could have greater influence even for me being a short guy.

I think height really does not matter and that when other guys just like say that there's really no beautiful person in this world who won't be with you, it is sort of being ignorant. Haha. We all carry sins that need to be repented of daily. I think the most important thing in this world is really loving God first and then secondly loving others as like they were good neighbors.

Pretty Cool Start in Job Hunt

I think I can exaggerate and say there's like over 100 K jobs related to the I.T. industry in my state. Let's see, there's the Silicon Valley where Bill Gates used to thrive and there's also another tech bowl in Orange County. There's a lot of jobs out there in Los Angeles with it being the largest city in the U.S. There are so many opportunities that there's no shame in signing up for a lot of them and never being returned a phone call. It really does not matter because as you put yourself out there and learn more material that is proven to be relevant to the work force, all these people are going to want to hire you. There is no shame in the work that you put in to get a job because it's ethical. Money is necessary but it is not really how human happiness operates. It's just the joy and passion of doing something you could make an earning off of that really holds true. It's just a mature thing to contribute at work. It's also Biblically accepted to get a job even though working at someone's company for a wage could be seen upon as a gamble. Anything that really deals with earning money is a form a gamble. It's just that some are more stable in its actuality and worth it. Like you could go to a casino and watch others win cash and get all happy which could be good but it's like if you put in the money, you definitely have a losing advantage against the casino. I don't recommend gambling your money in general. There's at least some form of agreement with the employer which could overlook your gambling aspect of working for them. You are basically gambling your time to make some money. Money is great to have but I think family, friends, and people in this world are directly more important than someone's wealth. Overall, when you are old enough it's okay to make your own decisions. So, be careful because I care.

I guess if you really speak the truth around others, they could really see your flaws. Being open about it and being selfish is like technically normal and not so really appealing. Man, I try not to get so mad about life but yeesh I feel lots of adrenaline at times by putting some thought into this pretty irritating and strange girl who I just don't want to really feel any physical attraction for. I did write about her by using a fake name. I am still going to protect her image from the internet audience but if someone finds out just letting it be known that her name is pretty common. My sister's name is pretty common too but she got plagued with identity theft. Poor gals. My sister has been annoying me a lot too but I guess I need to step up to being a big brother and try to dump out the adrenaline that I'm occasionally feeling and by being more open. I think girls can handle full throttle honesty and then start getting all nice and honest with you too. I would hate my sister visiting me in jail and going like I told you so in a nice way. I would really want to sock the living daylights out of another guy then.

Realizing Something Comforting

I'm going to cheat my usual daily dose of writing and double up just for today. Halloween is coming around the corner and I've been thinking about checking out Knott's Scary Farm for the first time with a friend. It seems like the end of this month is going to be cold windy weather for Halloween.

The main motive of writing this second post is because I have something that I need to share. I'm realizing that the pursuit of going after money is in actuality some form of gambling. People sometimes generalize this form of gambling as investing because there is skill and studying involved. The love of money is stated to be the root of all evil. You do need money to control an economy and sometimes greed can cause a chaotic mess for selfish individuals who could parade over innocent and fooled individuals.

I myself have discovered that gambling in the form of investing using your skills which is another way of stating going in to work for earning income for supporting a family is deemed permissible in an ethical fashion. It makes me feel comfortable because when you are out of job and searching for other jobs, just knowing this fact that the pursuit of money is all a gamble does not really hurt that bad because you can develop faith to overcome this hurdle. By working hard to find a job and earn something, it's all worth it even if you gain little in the beginning. My morale is starting to grow and I feel like I can make important decisions now as in being the man of the house with of course respecting the opinions of my future partner and old counselors.

Being buried in work and making money could be good but I think it's just a gamble and should be still treated with respect. When it deals with making an earning, the perspective is most definitely in the appearance of gambling, when it deals with something you have grown to be passionate about then I think making a huge earning does not really matter that much anymore because it could be generous of you to contribute to the industry. Overall, it's great to have riches and materialistic comforts but in the end what really matters more is your family, your friends, and the people who are in the world around you. Working for tenants is like gambling but since it deals with skill and is pretty stable it's considerably an acceptable type of investment that could space us out from greater responsibilities but it's still needed. It's best to accept that we are all evil and that it could reasonably be safe to conclude that only one person in the history of mankind came out to be perfect. I feel no shame after all in looking for a job and working on making money with considerable skill and then using the skill to make contributions to this world. I'm still evil though and feel lots of adrenaline sometimes still from feeling that I was wronged but I think I can learn to manage on being consistently satisfied without being a danger to anybody and doing stuff to my body to make it healthy and appear better. I am definitely becoming a communicator and blogging enthusiast now.

Guess What, It's Today

Hey there. Hello. Guten tag. Hola! Bon jour...Grutzi... 안녕!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man it was fun to write that. I'm planning on executing a plan this time. I've been practically wasting my time and valuable resources because I have not been able to make a reasonable return with the investment I put in. I don't think there's anything wrong in putting a lot of hard work to a home business that you have faith in. Just be prepared for getting hit hard if it does not work out. With all the promises that a company will claim to sign up with them, it must be just a marketing scheme for the business to make profit and then to encourage more people to sign up for the ones who do well. It makes sense to have the powerful decision to say no in this case. There's an agreement somewhere with plenty of information given.

It's a really tough trick to not lose your cool when someone is giving you convicted reasons that sound really dumb to you. Almost everyone I know can fall into this trip with me. I really hate it when it happens with me. Pretty much, all relationships have this type of break with me. I hate it so much that I want to marry a girl who is normally unconfrontational. I've been meeting a lot of these non-confrontational girls for some reason even though I don't feel like my appearance is all that sharp, they somehow smile at me for some reason and can give me acceptance. Or it's that arrogant emotion that they project that you end up submitting to while feeling personally hurt about something that you don't want to relate them to. Hmm, I can normally do really well with girls in general. I did not really notice that for awhile. It's the guys who have dumb hormones in their heads that start acting up with me and I need to seriously speak out my mind without yelling at them. I seriously need to also not yell at my biologically younger sister who sometimes can blurt out dumb messages to me. This is a very tough trick to succumb to and to hold your cool.

Feeling Pretty Okay

I think I'm starting to adjust to being at home so much. I mean I have time to go out get some fresh air by working out my body at least on something. I've been finding it really hard to let go of some urges that have not been very productive for me. I'm only realizing after the cycle of excitement and putting long hours into it the after effects of what I did. I guess I'm not fully proud of everything that I did. I guess I have not really been living out my full desires that I've been wanting to. I'm starting to get a break with myself in that I'm not this lonely shy person anymore underneath me. I feel like I don't have to be so brave anymore. I know that I'm really short and that when it comes to the dating scene, some are going to reject me because of it. I guess I don't really mind that much about it anymore. I just personally want to be taller for some other reason I guess. Maybe it's this inner drive to have longer reach and to actually be taller than someone I like.

Overall, I think it's really about the personality that counts. All the outside appearance is nice and cool but the heart is the most important. If you lack in everything else, as long as you have a repentant heart that seeks after Jesus I don't think you'll be suffering forever. I'm not so afraid of opening up anymore and being completely honest about myself to others anymore. I might as well repent from things that I'm ashamed of so that when people ask me about these things I could sort of feel okay downplaying some things that I don't really want to let out. I think giving it all to Jesus in faith will pretty much release me from all my worries.

I'm going to keep a private diary and write all my darkest secrets and desires. I'll then relate it to how Jesus wants me to repent and ask God for forgiveness. I truly need to live out a Christian walk this time around. I think working out and getting plenty of rest while working full time on a job that I think I'm really good at and investing on wealth to give to the needy and God's kingdom will pretty much make me a whole person. Maybe I'll retire early and raise a family full-time afterward. That would be nice.

Let's Talk About Abby

I'm making another reference to a fake name. This person is a real girl but I'm not mentioning her real name in order to protect her image in front of the internet audience. I have done some searching and her full name is not really that unique as there are like several hundreds of this name. It's a pretty common name, and I've seen photos of really good looking people who top this person with the same name. I'm also doing this partially to protect my own image too. I just want to be fully honest with someone who could potentially read my posts. I feel that this will let go of some hindrances in my life and help me develop into a more nice and potentially good person. This girl Abby is someone who introduced herself to me in the beginning. I take it to mean in my heart that she was dating someone. I was physically attracted to her as I usually was for meeting a woman. She played her role in reaching out to me, and I became really shy with her and sort of gave off the body language that I wanted her to keep her distance with me. I was feeling a little agitated at times while being around her. During this transition I sort of started getting comfortable with my physical attractions and realized that it's like only skin deep and not the same as someone you pledge to spend the rest of your life with.

Abby pretty much closed herself off with me and made it highly difficult for me to understand why she was uncomfortable with me. I used to feel that being rejected by a girl was like one of the worst feelings and just wanted to avoid asking her out. After all, in some days the physical attraction was not at its peek, and I wanted to settle on just being friends with her. Abby seems to be a really emotional person who can cry about things that a guy like me will have trouble picking up. I'm a pretty sensitive individual, and so I pretty much care if I did something to wrong Abby. It has not been revealed yet to me what I did. I've been asking questions to others about it that have reflected on my wishful skepticism and just needed confirmation. These other guys started acting really rude with me and did not give me the information that I felt I had a right to question and discover.

I'm sort of doing it on my own, nowadays. I totally wonder if her decision to not place me on a social networking site is really dealing with her decision to not date me as a person. An attractive girl who I met as a stranger out of the blue at a coffee shop, put me on Facebook like it was no hassle to her. I sort of asked her why Abby was acting this way to get a girl's perspective. She told me that she does not know why girls act this way sometimes and that maybe the relationship was supposed to be bigger than I could imagine. I remember feeling a little bothered, sidelined, and in between my rushing thoughts of formerly chasing after Abby by noticing a ring on her finger. It was not really on her marriage finger, but I was so curious to what the background of it was. I really wanted to be friends with Abby so she could open up with me in some intimate details about her life.

Morning Time

I'm ready to do the best I can. My own personal issues are something that I'm finally understanding. I guess I get stuck on some things that are pretty shallow which could take down my confidence. I'm ready to let those things go. It does not really involve anyone and I am so capable of praying for others and wishing the best for them. It has to deal with me keeping my emotions in check. Everyday, I'm seeking to push myself to obtain something that I desire. I guess I'm doing fine nowadays and need to get around to promoting wonderful things that are a blessing from the Lord. I need to be better at handling sad events for myself. I'm not going to kill myself because of something very bad that happened to me or if I perceive some distress for myself which is pretty daily for me, but I want to stay in focus and truly repentant for eternity now.

Writing Safely About Others

I'm starting to realize that nothing is as always as it seems. Personality plays a very large role in determining how others are motivated to behave around you. Sometimes, a temporary discomfort is necessary to sort it out. It is not like the person sometimes really has something bad to deal with you. I think this is where the act of being able to calm down, be nice, and be extremely honest plays a very good role. I don't think it's gambling at any time being at your best behavior because it's what everyone should strive for doing even if others don't want to see what you are doing is beneficial. I, myself, am going through some adrenaline underneath. I know this and that's it is something personal of mine. It makes me feel capable of feeling guilty when I have this adrenaline underneath me. I think my feelings are something I could easily downplay and take control over. I can still be a rational individual. I just don't really know about them now.

Today's Approach

I have this stint where I'll be paid about $18/hr for moving machines around to convert different technology for a JP Morgan bank. It included training. I am also paid for being part of the training. It was one of those conference calls that you log onto. A very cool thing that I have is a magicJack which allows you to place computer calls and make unlimited calls for the whole year and call anywhere in the U.S. or Canada. It's been highly useful and I love the invention. I have a built-in microphone on my laptop so it proves its usefulness.

I'm starting to realize bluntly that the guilt that I had was only centered on me and not because I was being bad with others. These people may like to say that I was being bad around them but I really was not. I was having a hard time deciphering their cryptic remarks and where they were coming from. They were just full of hot air and trying to be good about it. They failed by going overboard and is calling upon others to support their decision. This is where it gets very tricky in drawing the line and feels like almost everybody who does not have that much experience in being a socialite and pretty open about themselves will give me bad advice in fulfilling this direction. My solution is to just be nice about it and to talk to them even if they don't want to hear about it. I'm glad that I have enough friends playing devil's advocate with me to help give me practice in what the true approach should be. On the long run, this type of practice is giving me an edge and confidence that is not going to swagger. It's going to be used for a good purpose because I'm being nice. It's like the best combination in feeling quite happy about yourself and not worrying so much or depending on them for something that they can't really provide. It's just nice to be around because it's me that's being courteous and not really them. In other words, I want to step up to the plate in leading them to the Lord's kingdom. It feels like they've been lost sheep who have gone astray. Four things- pray, fellowship, read the Bible, share your faith with others; that's how you grow as a Christian.

What I needed

Okay, let's talk about Betsy really fast. She's a fake name but some may be able relate who Betsy is. I am just calling her a different name to be protective about her and to also protect my own image. You can add character and supposedly say whatever you want because you have decided to use a fake name. I don't think it's going to hurt me or anyone else by doing this. It would be good to let off some steam.

Betsy pretty much said there was a conflict and mentioned it by stating she was uncomfortable about something she did not understand. It's pretty trippy because I sent messages to her that were not clarified and they seemed to make her mad for some reason. My intent was not to start conflict and to lay off on powerful words. Oh well, Betsy sort of said something was there when I was meaning to say all along that there really was not anything.

Story about Bob

Bob is a pretty fake character that I'm making up. Before I go on to talking about other people with their fake names, I will talk about Bob. Bob's mind is so distracted. He has been watching a lot of porn recently and is starting to feel entangled by it. He is in love with this woman Erica and just can't see himself using the pursuit of porn as making this woman happy.

Bob is starting to realize that the world may be different and entangled in this web of deceit. What people claim to make a living out of could actually be a stumbling block to others. Bob needs to realize that there's a true savior out there. Someone who everyone has turned their backs on. He realizes that his mind is currently corrupted and wants to recover without having to claw his way back. He believes that a lot of people downplay his emotions and so getting therapy would be useless. He needs a healing in his life. Bob realizes that when others asked him to leave, he knew that they were at their peril and wrong about the approach. As frustrated or annoyed he was, he tried to solve it using his own resources. He had this guilty feeling all along. This type of living that comes from being filled with depravity. He was confused and wondered if it had to deal with these people telling him things he did not want to hear about.

They were making a big deal out of hot air. The real issue centers around Bob's private life when Bob is all by himself. Bob's coy remarks found on the e-mails with these people have nothing to do with what Bob is feeling guilty about. Bob just needs to center his attention on being right with God. A concept that is totally unheard of. A loving savior who asked the Father to forgive those who crucified him. To Bob, he is starting to realize that being right with Jesus is the way to happiness, forgiveness, excitement, and contentment. No matter what journey Bob has struggled with, Jesus promised the Holy Spirit to work in his life. Mark 10:26-27 says And they were greatly astonished, saying among themselves, "Who then can be saved?" But Jesus looked at them and said, "With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible."

People I Will Bluntly Talk About

Over the course of the next few days, I will concentrate on talking about everything and writing anything that I want to say. To be protective to my own image and to be sensitive about the details I may end up sharing, I will invent names for real people. By being descriptive about who they are, it may get a little fabricated because I might be just in the mood of making fun of them to laugh away a lot of adrenaline and prevent myself from going to up to do something weird to them. I am going to solve it without their feedback because they have several times tried to go over it without really wanting to talk about it; this makes it really hard to notice what they wanted with me and how I was driving conflict. For goodness sake, I was asking reasonable questions that one guy felt was so annoying. He started whispering to me all these ridiculous remarks that makes you not want to be friends with this person. It's pretty much stating things that build up adrenaline for me. I think he really did not know what was happening after all, and the human element is that whatever he wanted me to do good about is that he should have done the same. That is why I feel he was a hypocrite.

This issue could potentially be really bad and huge for them. It could also make me look bad depending on where you stand. I'm fairly good at explaining consequences and stuff like that so it might make you feel bad to go against me after awhile. I was not really sure of myself in the beginning but I guess I'm becoming more keen and aware of the situation now. It deserves a little attention with me. These people are fabricated names not real but I guess some people may be able to relate to who they are, but I will also make up a location to.

These are the names I am going to use for all of them are a little twisted Asians: Betsy, Abby, Shawn, Charles, Brian, Gabrielle, and Anakin. I'll leave this post now until I feel more adrenaline about this issue. I pretty much feel like I unloaded everything already. I am going to be using the last sentence a lot, I think. Let's say they all live somewhere in northern Europe and hang out pretty often because they mesh together at a church with a common purpose of praying and greeting others.

Dumping out the bad things

I guess there are more stuff about me that bothers me more than just a stupid thing that a few people want to do to push me away literally, forcefully, violently verbally. This is something that's really funny to me because I never intend on bad things happening to them to get them to go this path. I think they are totally blinded by something. However, I'm hoping that they'll come around and be healthy and be able to reconcile their mad emotions that are inexplicable with me right now.

I'm really closing in how my true nature and feelings and how I want to be living the dream. It takes work to get there, and it's something that is not going to grow on trees. Maybe, my desires are totally simple and not so hard to relate to. However, I think the one and only true God should be the one in charge of all our lives.

Dee dee Random

I'm just having fun typing something on my blog today. I'm just having lots of fun and want to continue having fun doing this just for good laughs personally. I am glad that I am not in trouble with writing on this blog. I am glad that it's so great that words can be designed in a clever manner to hurt others but it's wrong to do that for a selfish purpose. I should be very careful of my adrenaline because I can pick up on things and point them out that really offends people. I heard that people by nature don't like to hear bad stuff about them in person. It's hard to deal with this sometimes because they go through stuff and sometimes want to be ignorant. I can sometimes see that by being a better person you can make others around you calm down. By bossing them around by yelling, it works for me since I'm this short guy who comes across as pretty smart but can be really sweet and nice but I don't really want to do that. I want to be consistently cool about it and open to hearing about their blunt issues. Haha.

Exception Rule

Hi, I think I'm typing another post because I'm so good at making sentences. I pretty much want to be blunt about these weird situations that occurred to me. I don't want to come across as a really bad person, but I guess I should not really impose this on people because it's like really bad for their health to hear it. If you would really to hear my really bad side then might as well drop me an e-mail and ask about my evil nature. You may be surprised of who I am and what I will admit to and also downplay for the sake of wanting to be peaceful and not offensive to others. As time goes on, I will find that connection that makes sense with people. I will admit that on an account that I won't admit I have dropped a lot of impudent and daring comments. These people don't really know me and they just pretty much make even more ruder comments which is a lot of fun. They pretty much hit the thumbs down key and the worst I've had is like -30. Must be someone who just spends their hitting their button on my comment because they think it's fun or it could really be people who thought my comment was stupid or whatever in their testosterone driven thing. Don't get me wrong, my comments may be most of the time, but most of the time it only seems to offend a little bit of people. Probably because of its lack of relevance and basically making myself laugh and not to them.

Hello

Hi, I'm just typing something as usual. I guess I can spend time on this blog because I just like to write and I should show that I could be consistent and that I'm a safe person. I can be really blunt now since this is my blog. There are some things I still don't want to talk about for the sake of protecting people's interests. I would not want the complication of people coming up to me and saying that I damaged their reputation because I was not careful and put something on here.

Disadvantages of Playing Online Poker

This post is just something I'm creating because poker seems to be getting more popular these days. Let's assume that money is more priority than just fun and that the person is making it full time. Let's also assume that the person is really poor and has average talent, along with no sponsors really to cover the costs of getting blanked by a gambler, which they refer to as sometimes a donkey.

1. It can be addicting.

2. There is an up and down spread in your winnings. You'll maximize your chances of winning at any given moment but then something comes swooping down and says no to your hard effort and thought given into it. They mention this as getting beat by a two outer or that 1 card you know won't pop up actually appears. This is where people have been known to throw tantrums because they don't want to accept what poker players call a bad beat.

3. Since you are poor, you could get so energetic and carried away with the cheap sit and go tournament also referred to as a SNG. After a hard hour of reading people's cards mentally, you can just rake in a small measly 2 bucks, or a 100% return on investment.

4. People can play so random and be deceiving. It's like sometimes they don't want you to call but place a huge bet. This is also known as bluffing. There are other times when you want people to call but your calculations of how much to put in is inaccurate. This is also known as out-betting or under-betting a value bet.

5. It just makes you feel sorry to get kicked in the rear by another player. You can still place an online note on the tab which poker sites provide you with that he does not know how to play and just got lucky. Yeah, ignoring the fact that he took all your chips.

6. It can get your mind off of important and more natural things like having sex with your spouse or from coming to the dinner table and making up excuses to stay at the computer.

7. Everyone is a winner and loser. It is the worst oxymoron ever, and this one player still thinks he can outlast them all. His excuse for getting knocked out is that they all play really inferior to him. He has won the most championships so maybe he has a point.

8. It's ultimately with a skill set that involves anticipating if a person has a better hand than you. This can be used and totally annihilate you versus other people if you are not a winner in the first place. Like you could start carrying more guts and really make things worse for yourself by being stuck in this psychological arrogance that should be avoided or gut wrenching decision that should be done which could mean life or death.

9. Maybe there's another passion that needs to be fed but the gaming is interfering with your life. No offense with all the professional players who made it big. They seriously mastered the complex system and world of chaos that involves just a deck of playing cards. They have it pretty unique and can be pretty laid back people with fans.

10. It can seriously be a rough sport. It is not for everyone and probably some would not even try it and be conservative which is okay. It is sometimes a peculiar experience because it's hard to gauge where the sweet spot is.

I've outlined ten reasons with some filler statements. Maybe going on this ride is an unnecessary experience.

Haha

I guess I'm doing okay so far today and mentally I'm pretty sound. I'm just on my own and really being lousy with myself right now. I think I can be funny if I want to be and that can help in establishing relationships again. I think I'm fine and nothing is wrong with me.

Eventually It's Going to Click

One of these days, I am going to give up all the bad habits I'm doing and become that person I really want to be deep down inside. No hard feelings with anyone and no resentments with people. I am really brave enough to bring up the topic now and lead the way with any problem someone has with me. I really want to avoid falling into temptations and following the pack. I just do it because I am inspired by Jesus in my life. I managed to get a 3 day trial membership at a YMCA yesterday. Not much of an accomplishment, but looking forward to checking out what I could do at a gym to get fit and healthy.

I'm so poor and will eventually get that job and protein in my body to make me stronger. The active part of me is going to initiate. I am truly okay and wherever I am at, I will make the most of it and worship God after praying for forgiveness. I'm going to feel much better if I get consistent in doing what my heart truly would be content with. I'm going to work on myself first and take my time without hurting myself. I want to love others and to do this, I'm going to have to spend time modeling my life after a loving Savior who is ignored very often in people's lives.

Blueprint to riches+optional fun at work Version 1.0

I'm just going to write this in case someone would like to try out my ideas of wealth. This could potentially generate $300-$500 per day or maybe a lot more with low maintenance once set up right. I am going to share what I know to reward that special someone, if he or she decides to use these things. This is pretty much free information given by me. I have tried other things too but I think these things that I'm listing have the most potential in raking cash with lowest money to gamble. Expect to gamble some money and to put in some time. I'm pretty much laying it all out because I might be as well be useful and encourage others to contribute their wealth for helping out people they want to care about.

For the first six, just google for it. Only one of them has been verified by me to work really well and is marked.

1. Blackmask
2. Google Assassin
3. FapTurbo
4. TradingFromHome.com *
5. Google Payload
6. Adwords Miracle

For the next two, focus on placing ads in the right magazines. It can get a little tricky and will take experimentation. Basically, the magazine or periodical must specifically be related to the product that the intended readers would be interested in. The periodicals will vary for all locations. I would say try searching online or go to a library to search for placing these related ads.

1. Magic Kids (Liquidated Children's Clothing)
2. Ecoquest (Ozone Layer Creator Air Purifiers)

This next option deals with buying stock options. Basically the most profit is made during a upward or downward trend in the stocks. It basically takes advantage of dramatic change of an economic situation.

1. Optionetics

I have come across an organization that focuses on top-notch service with real estate. You can practically search a database where professionals will manage the home for you and give you some residual income. You just place a down payment on the home and then rent it out to someone. You just provide the financing and then a group of professionals handle the management of renting out your new home. They also provide classes that are taught by some of the world's best real estate professionals.

1. Noveu Rouche

I also know how you can get a 120 K job. Get an I.T. degree and then get certified in the networking field. Basically search for popular Cisco certifications (CCNA, CCNP, CCIE, and CCDP) in Network Engineering careers and also Microsoft ones (MCSE and MCSA). If you get a lot of these certifications you'll definitely land a job in this huge job market. It is growing daily in jobs because the internet is practically being used everywhere and things going wireless relate to this I.T. field. Take this option, only if you see yourself having a passion doing this line of work. If you would like to take a managerial role then maybe a MBA with technological emphasis might be useful.

Optional fun

1. Start an e-bay related business that deals with drop shipping (google this for some programs).
2. Get some coaching to set up an online business website - Omni Business Solutions (*risky and pricey)
3. Work at a radio station that gives you air time that you can pay for or get sponsored for it - ARN in Hollywood...(managable to fit any 24 hour block)

Try to keep to a minimal amount of time if you like this stuff:

1. Playing online poker
2. Mystery Shopping

Do more of exploring your options and discover what you are into. Make room for lots of hobbies if you are still single and waiting on your love life before your new family or spouse becomes your new number one priority.

Side Note:

If you want to develop some pride in health terminology, become a Medical Transcriber. Google for "School of Medical Transcriptionist" or "MT Professional". There are some fees to pay. I only recommend this if you want to be an enthusiast. There is a job offer if you graduate into a professional. You get paid approximately 11-13 an hour but get to work at home and set up your own hours. I might just do only one hour and read up on health a lot to be a useful person for others, as just a hobby.

Hits and Misses

I don't really know someone who would really want to waste their time with me reading all my posts. I guess I'm just doing this for myself. I tend to like to write and then let others do what they need to say. I'm starting to understand that relevance to the the topic is very and highly important. It could make you come across as a mean and dumb person if you do not speak on the topic. Sometimes you could act a certain way to give the other person an impression about how you feel about the situation and then be like I don't know where I need to change. That's quite a funny impression and can seriously leave your opponent flustered and feel totally alienated from you. Once you know all the facts, which I have now through reasonable accounts and opening myself up to different possibilities in the life of others, I'm really starting to feel that someone was being dumb about this situation and caused me only a little pain. They receive a lot more pain than me so maybe it's best to relent for awhile and confront this dumb person and literally read his mind on the spot just to scare him because I don't care if he wants to put a restraining order on me now. A man putting a restraining order on me makes me think that maybe he has a feminine side that he does not know how to control very well. I'm seriously okay with receiving it again from this person. He's probably not going to file against me because I may seriously have this gritty lock on him that makes him feel really bad and locked up horrendously. I'm getting these threats of having the cops come directly to me from not directly threatening them which is an amazing feat that I don't even know how I even accomplished.

Fair Attempt

I believe that when someone does something to you like a personal decision that you do not agree with, it's okay to mention how others can see it as an issue. It requires some sacrifice, and I think discussing about your suspicions in a nice way with others around really helps a lot. It could equate a little bit into humor. Basically, what I'm talking about is that my sister decided to put me on her block list on Facebook. I think what I can say around others effectively with my sister are just three things. 1) Others could probably see this as an issue. 2) I care to listen to her personal issue because I'm just that type of person and because she does not want to talk about it, she's dismissing something that she could not be resolving with me. 3) I can jokingly ask if she is trying to have me avoid pursuing after her.

I think this is the method I've been searching after this whole year; however, my adrenaline really got in my way and I took an approach that felt unnatural because I did not want to come across as a very stressed out person who yells basically half the time I'm around here when she's by herself and not around others. It's like doing a guerrilla attack where you end up yelling at them while keeping your distance and when others show up, you just stay quiet and act normally. I guess it's effective because it's similar to how a Drill Sargent will get to you and make you cooperate; he basically cares about your well-being and wants you to stay away from being too stubborn and going defective. Hmm, I have never thought about how a short guy like me could do that sort of nasty stuff to slightly unattractive girls like my sister and these other ones who also put me on their block list. I corresponded with them in real life, not just online.

Thinking about something

There's a lot to life than meets the eye. Being filled with the passion of living life is a great thing, and sometimes I take too many things for granted. I no longer feel that adrenaline is controlling me. I no longer feel uncertain about what the whole truth is, even though it's understandable in my situation and already justified by those other guys. For me, when it comes to having a problem with the opposite sex even when it deals with my sister, I think it should not be about pursuing after them in a wrong direction. It should about focus, friendship, and concern. Even if it cross paths with my own interests, I should not think about it as being selfish. They hold the decision in the end, and this type of talk is not about a person being ridiculed for feeling that he is a short person.

Getting a job and working there, it's like almost certain that the worker will get paid. I have thought about the possible funny outcome of the world crashing to the floor then there's no more money to work for. In an empty world, God truly fills the void. This sacrificial God forgave believers of their sins, and they have entrance into His eternal goodness. No matter how faulty believers are sometimes like the ones I came across in the San Gabriel Valley, God still loves them. I think some of those peculiar boys and girls had some unsettled emotions that were inherited from their parents who immigrated or faced separation and prefer to live in negativity.

Writing at 6 am

I'm up right now after having an important dream that pretty much ties everything together over a stupid mess that others were ignorant over. I think out of their ignorance and causing something really bad to happen to me; I've been really able to calm down and not feel the adrenaline or unfairness tugging me down anymore. I know it's not wrong to reveal what they did wrong to me; it's going to affect others around me. There is nothing wrong in resolving a situation revolving around humanity, big or small thing. The reason why they haven't really reached out to me is because they are not really that capable of doing it, and I actually have provided that channel for them just that they have not been able to induce the proper respect that you give to a fellow.

Boston Red Sox lost to the Angels yesterday which was a pleasant surprise. They were shut out throughout the whole game, and I think that was an amazing accomplishment that the Angels did. Today, Angels are going up against the best pitcher of Red Sox, Beckett. Beckett has compiled a really respectable win-loss ratio with a good ERA; he's very compatible with big game situations and will not lose very often. He's sort of been through some injuries and might be worn out; we will have to see how well Beckett is able to handle the dangerous lineup dealing with the Angels. I remember one year everybody really took the Angels lightly but this year they have really made a statement.

The Dodgers we know still have yet to make another trip to the World Series. It would be nice to have an LA Freeway Series for the World Series. With California being the largest and most popular state, it would be hard for the world to ignore this feat that has happened for the first time since professional baseball originated.

Let's be honest with myself

I'm going to write a secret post where I detail everything that I want to say. I think this is something I want to keep personal for the sake of trying to move on better. Overall, I see that my emotions are easily becoming very nice for me to overcome. I have the ability to outdo my own personal frustration and anger. I have this inner desire to be thinking about things in a fair manner whenever I feel that a thought on a person is going downhill. After all, I'm starting to not really mind a forced upon separation with others. I don't want to let down others now. I need to turn it around and be more disciplined. I could see that even though I feel that I'm really short, I have a privileged mind that feeds on feeling great about propriety, morality, humor, and nice sensibility. I think I've done enough soul searching with myself these past couple years. It's time to start a new slate clean with the hope of the Lord. I think it's okay to be blunt in front of others sometimes, even if it makes them want to shy away from you later. With a nice smile and good attitude in the face of hostility, danger, and confusion, it sure beats violence a million times.

This morning

I think my posts are starting to scare some people or make some people angered for no real reason that they would not want to bother to explain in a through manner. The questions that I ask may be so annoying to them because they don't know how to answer and still believe that I am not deserving of what it is that they can't really reveal to me. They would probably like to think that it's mean but I should just keep writing because if someone is brave enough to read my writing they will probably let it influence themselves. This writing is probably so uncomfortable that some people need to disassociate themselves and act a little different around me then they normally would. I am not trying to suck up to anybody here. I'm just trying to make sense of this adrenaline flow I'm getting and adjusting to it for the best results. I just need to be committed and that should work.

I did read about different diagnostic methods of depression, and I don't think I have it because I'm still capable of controling my own emotions. I guess I speak out my mind a lot better in person and should come to an understanding that some individuals just want to stay uptight no matter what they want to do. I need to convince them that it's wrong to view an individual from a wrong angle especially when they think they are so right. I guess that's what really scares them the most that they could be wrong when they think they are so certain about something.

Very bad very...

I need to stop doing bad things in general. It makes me feel bad, and I know I have the energy and confidence to do it without needing to think to myself about self-esteem all the time. I know that some people just talk and then eventually get themselves frustrated and then isolate themselves. I really don't know how I cause this to happen with some people, but when that happens, it sure is very annoying to me. I don't need to talk behind their backs or do all that other meaningless stuff. I do discuss about a friend's twin brother all the time. I even talk what I say twenty-four hours with him and very bluntly. I don't mind if he changes for the better because I would not want him to be a vexing person. Even if he tries to look me down, I don't really mind anymore. It's just hard work and persistence. Not too many people know about this and just feel like giving up too easy. I don't think it's fully right but it's okay I guess.

Interesting Times

Today, my faculty is filled with inspiration. I'm in a slope where my emotions are riding higher, and I feel that all my inner emotions that others sort of have displayed with ineptitude is not that bad at all. I think the more I study, the more deeper I can look into my heart. I have hope that I can solve problems with the help of the Spirit of God leading me. I think the Spirit of God wanted me to develop confidence to pursue the path of righteousness. It's a wonderful trial that I went through, and I feel that God's grace has sufficiently kept me going.

Moving Forward

A lot has been happening for me, and I'm reaching in deep to really know what my desires are. I've been so accustomed to feeling that my desires are never really going to get met in this world and that suffering through my little pains of like not getting any taller or succeeding is something to just feel underneath but try to be good about it. I'm starting to feel really confident about so many things. I really want to also express myself in a humble fashion but I guess it's not enough sometimes. Maybe, I do it in a way that is not appropriate. I think I need to be successful and happy and experience the joys of fruitfulness and helping others before I can let my heart be humble. For the time being, I should just be getting completely honest about myself and allow myself to be understanding.

Unresolved Questions with simple answers

This post just reflects the annoyances that people like to put on you with statements that don't really reflect who you are and then they state they want to help you. This is something outside the box about unresolved issues- I realize that gambling is not good, not that I really get into it or anything; that's something people could have a hard time getting over if they do it too much of. An ignorant person told me that he wanted me to become a blessing; to be a blessing you simply just need to help out in something. I guess he did not want to think about those things I excelled in to help out, while he was really bothered about something and took him awhile to crack. This probably means something good to me because I did not do something really that bad in the beginning, and he had told me that he was sorry for what he did. I'm starting to build confidence here now. I'm getting a lot of apologies which is important to acknowledge and for me to accept maturely and to be happy about while gaining more confidence to solve this issue dealing with people.

I guess my own internal feelings of aggravation don't really come out because I like to knock it off. I am totally ready to work hard at it and also experience the good side of things that are out there. It's easy for me to connect with older individuals who have lived interesting lives and know what's going on. I think that's going to help me in the future and to be a better and more capable individual. The stress is always going to be there and just talking about it to solve it is not going to really do much. Just have to take it as suffering and still with intent of loving them and being smart with them. Overall, I think that's being fair and keeping yourself happy and in accordance with staying pleasing to the Lord.

Conclusion of Camp

Today is the final day of camp for me. I've pretty much signed up for learning a lot more about the LAN/WAN industry which is basically setting up computer networks and maintaining them with complicated stuff. They have you get certified, make this nifty resume, and apply for like over 1 Million jobs in the U.S. Demand for network engineers is really high and for many reasons that seem obvious. The internet is one reason because that's what a network really is.

Understanding the theory and applicable stuff is actually pretty fun for me. Even though it can be a challenge, I don't mind putting the hard work into it. It's a pretty lucrative position too. Something that I've felt like I need to be a part of. Maybe this field is a calling for me. What I take out of this camp is some great references who will put in a good word for me and the highest level of certification with a top 10 Fortune 500 company- that is Cisco and Microsoft. Let's see where this takes me because the state of California easily tops out to be the most technological with LAN/WAN jobs. I searched over 20,000 jobs already in the last days and it's still growing by the hundreds daily. I have a chance of getting at least scraped by a company that needs hook ups and promoting certified people with some experience. They say my Computer Science degree could count as about 2-3 years of I.T. experience depending on the employer. I am very excited with the opportunity that is ahead for me.