Having a really strong clear motive and being vocal with the intent of doing good while behaving in this manner is a lot stronger than not being sure about things and trying to solicit the Lion's Den. Hope of God Church Los Angeles is actually a weak organization, and I understand that if I keep a clear and good motive while being upfront about it in a moral manner than any desperate things that this church attempts against me will clearly be in the wrong and be pretty much a red flag where I could learn from their mistakes.
The reason why I might be good at dealing with these misunderstandings that arise from me not feeling confident and stable is that I've been learning how to control my anger and manage it ardously. I also learned a great and helpful ally if you use it to your advantage- being honest and factual about stuff! In principle, these issues I've been dealing with are also practical and I know that I can effectively manage others as a result. I guess it helps to be a hard working individual already who has managed to take care of him or herself before trying to manage others.
Right now, I'm understanding all these concepts and now I need to fire myself back up and get the stuff that I need to do daily out of the way and deal with this issue whenever I have time now. I see how they have been clearly in the wrong with me and what I'm about to do is probably going to hurt them more but I'm doing it in a very clear fashion while ordaining a decent amount of morality. Anyway, I've already hurt their cause so whatever negative repercussions they intend on feeding me will only affect them even more to the point that there won't be a church for people to go to. Basically, if they decide to kill me off or something it's only going to be a lost cause for them, so there really isn't a point for them to decide to do anything to me. If they did, it would only end up hurting them on the long run and they are also like a really weak mafia gang if I compare it to something.
In fact, if anyone has a related problem like mine, I would actually champion for them to continue being who they are and challenge them like I'm about to do. It's only going to help the individual even more and give more reason for the church to relent and apply acceptance against their will but they will know they are doing it for better reasons.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Liberating Self From Negative Energy
Sometimes stress that comes from the unknown or in other words what I would like to call fatigue comes from a variety of factors but probably most likely because the body just wants to shut down and not cooperate. Sometimes, you need to will yourself to power back up and I guess some people like to remind themselves by taking time to relax a little with a cup of coffee. Oh, I really see it with people who act dumb me with now.
I really see it with those people at that Hope of God Church, if it is still in existence. Basically, what I lacked a little in was personal stability so they tried to take advantage of me at all these weird angles. Now that I understand who I am and am in this mode where I actually see things for what they are, I'm ready to take advantage of the situation. Basically, people have a hard time in general admitting how they are wrong when they are in a bad mood because they are afraid of how it's going to affect them later. Also, it gives the other person the benefit of the doubt in the future to learn from these people's mistakes and take advantage of future situations. It pretty much paves a road for the other person's success.
It's really nothing personal, it's just creating personal assurance in establishing those really good relationships with others. Obviously, we all have to make some compromises but it doesn't have to get to an extreme state. With whatever you are suspecting, just be gentle about it and patient with a decent amount of perseverance.
I really see it with those people at that Hope of God Church, if it is still in existence. Basically, what I lacked a little in was personal stability so they tried to take advantage of me at all these weird angles. Now that I understand who I am and am in this mode where I actually see things for what they are, I'm ready to take advantage of the situation. Basically, people have a hard time in general admitting how they are wrong when they are in a bad mood because they are afraid of how it's going to affect them later. Also, it gives the other person the benefit of the doubt in the future to learn from these people's mistakes and take advantage of future situations. It pretty much paves a road for the other person's success.
It's really nothing personal, it's just creating personal assurance in establishing those really good relationships with others. Obviously, we all have to make some compromises but it doesn't have to get to an extreme state. With whatever you are suspecting, just be gentle about it and patient with a decent amount of perseverance.
Handling Rejection
I guess from growing up I don't really mind being rejected for any reason anymore. The only thing that I would feel an urge to clear up is a misunderstanding if I find that something is wrong. Other than that it's really waiting with a patient heart to see how things will turn out in the end. I sort of understand that it's more important to be persistent in a moral sense because the patience from being that type of person will actually pay off. Unfortunately, people are going to sometimes have those moments where they go off somewhere into Lala Land so being a stable person and consistent will really help you see if anything wrong happens and protect you from feeling bad about it.
Being persistent and moral in conduct with the things you do, despite pushing the envelope sometimes will seriously give the distinction of what needs to be done. I'm not a man for being many words right now, so I'm just posting a thought that I just brainstormed because this is really helping me to see things at a more clearer perspective. I hope that I could be of some help with this post, but if not, it's okay I totally understand.
Being persistent and moral in conduct with the things you do, despite pushing the envelope sometimes will seriously give the distinction of what needs to be done. I'm not a man for being many words right now, so I'm just posting a thought that I just brainstormed because this is really helping me to see things at a more clearer perspective. I hope that I could be of some help with this post, but if not, it's okay I totally understand.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Trying To Make These A Habit
I'm going to share what I'm currently working on. Obviously, things can change in an instant and I've also been working on being a pretty adaptable person. Basically, I said that to in a way offer some deterrence in not doing anything bad to me as a result of reading this post. I now know that people had a lot of mainly misunderstandings with me and did some minor disturbing things with me which caused others to be turned off at those individuals who did bad things to me. I'm aware that I'm pouring out my individuality on this blog and that what I've put on here really resembles the best person I can be and in a way, I like to live like this the majority of the time with what I write on here. I also have some fictional accounts which I did just for fun but it's pretty obvious that I'm making stuff up there, so there's no need to elaborate on those areas because they are just stories I made up to try to write something creative for fun.
I need to get about 8 hours of sleep a night- I can obviously do with a little less or hardly none but I'll struggle a lot then. I'm trying to work out regularly; I'm trying to spend some time writing on this blog, play the piano and sing something off of it, get taller, and work on my own personal business. It's a little hard for me not having a spouse and living with my parents because I sometimes feel like I'm lacking encouragement. I guess it's something I need to put aside and deal with it a great amount at the same time while doing the right thing. One of these days, I will find this inwardly beautiful and enchanting lady I can entrust my heart to and enjoy life with all the rest of my days. Hey, if this lady also turns to be the prettiest lady to me while others are really turned off by looking at her then I would consider myself lucky because I wouldn't really worry about her being around other dumb dudes. I can also live with her being considerably a beauty queen too even though I'll find her to be ordinary possibly. I might be in the mood all the time for something enjoyable too if people know what I mean.
I need to get about 8 hours of sleep a night- I can obviously do with a little less or hardly none but I'll struggle a lot then. I'm trying to work out regularly; I'm trying to spend some time writing on this blog, play the piano and sing something off of it, get taller, and work on my own personal business. It's a little hard for me not having a spouse and living with my parents because I sometimes feel like I'm lacking encouragement. I guess it's something I need to put aside and deal with it a great amount at the same time while doing the right thing. One of these days, I will find this inwardly beautiful and enchanting lady I can entrust my heart to and enjoy life with all the rest of my days. Hey, if this lady also turns to be the prettiest lady to me while others are really turned off by looking at her then I would consider myself lucky because I wouldn't really worry about her being around other dumb dudes. I can also live with her being considerably a beauty queen too even though I'll find her to be ordinary possibly. I might be in the mood all the time for something enjoyable too if people know what I mean.
Living Through Feeling Doubtful
Whenever I've felt doubtful in the past, I've usually just found ways to waste my time and not really invest it into things that would pretty much contribute to feeling content later. In a way, it seems like we could sometimes find ourselves doing something that would end up making us feel short-changed. It's all a part of growing up and without those experiences being something we can learn from, we can't really become a more fuller person. I've had a habit of just sitting around and just thinking about what I'm feeling and not really getting anything done. It sometimes takes awhile for my emotions to settle down and for me to start accomplishing what I need to do. Basically, I tried to run down those emotions by focusing on other distractions but all it would do is just make me procrastinate on what I really wanted to do and confuse me all over the place.
It takes a lot of heart to be able to live up to self-expectation and to be able to embrace those moments of not progressing. In a way, it's just a way of keeping up and checking one's status; it's like going through a series of tests in life and attaining new skills. Making mistakes could be seen as like failing a major course for education if the person truly desired to succeed at it. Personal stability is something that is really hard to come by these days. A lot of it seems to be a little-off balance for some people who can't really control their temper too well, which pretty much turns off others around them. Of course, having worries and concerns and actually finding resolve with them is probably what separates the men from the boys.
What I'm trying to say is that there's actually a higher calling through what we deal with in our emotions daily. I say try to listen to it and go after it. I'm not saying to indulge in evil feelings and lustful intentions that are far from being a moral person. I believe that the stronger person has the ability to deal with fearfulness and be able to confront a scary situation head-on by doing the right thing at all costs. Sometimes we lose our ground and get tossed around by waves of problems and it makes me lose consciousness on what is right. During those moments, there's a dependable source we can rely on if it's what the person truly desires. To have this higher grounds of living in principle even when life is at its worst moments is something that should at least be considered by the person if he or she hasn't done it alreadly.
It takes a lot of heart to be able to live up to self-expectation and to be able to embrace those moments of not progressing. In a way, it's just a way of keeping up and checking one's status; it's like going through a series of tests in life and attaining new skills. Making mistakes could be seen as like failing a major course for education if the person truly desired to succeed at it. Personal stability is something that is really hard to come by these days. A lot of it seems to be a little-off balance for some people who can't really control their temper too well, which pretty much turns off others around them. Of course, having worries and concerns and actually finding resolve with them is probably what separates the men from the boys.
What I'm trying to say is that there's actually a higher calling through what we deal with in our emotions daily. I say try to listen to it and go after it. I'm not saying to indulge in evil feelings and lustful intentions that are far from being a moral person. I believe that the stronger person has the ability to deal with fearfulness and be able to confront a scary situation head-on by doing the right thing at all costs. Sometimes we lose our ground and get tossed around by waves of problems and it makes me lose consciousness on what is right. During those moments, there's a dependable source we can rely on if it's what the person truly desires. To have this higher grounds of living in principle even when life is at its worst moments is something that should at least be considered by the person if he or she hasn't done it alreadly.
Monday, June 25, 2012
Last One To Catch Up
For the most part, I'm going to do the best I can to keep this blog at an average of one post a day. I believe that I have become pretty proficient at typing up stuff on here and put something random on here and make at least a little reasonable sense. I don't really see it as a gift or anything but just a perk of what I see as a little harmless fun on my end. What I put on here could affect others in a negative way, so in a way I feel a little empowerment over it.
With great effort, no matter how much I wanted to bash some people for looking stupid to me by typing up lies on this blog post, I just stuck with the truth because if I ran away from the truth then I wouldn't really be helping myself out anyway. It took a lot of trial and error to finally become comfortable with reading a thick book and writing out sentences in clear English. I can honestly state that maintaining this blog contributed to me becoming more comfortable in my own shell. For some reason, I feel like the world is connected in that a good portion of people want to earn a living or experience some sentimental form of existence with what they do.
I feel like I may seem like a know-it-all brat to some people but I still care for some reason if they are going through a really difficult period that could be life altering for them. No matter how annoying or evil the person is, I care underneath but probably won't show it on the outside because I would want the person to realize what he or she is doing personally to be unhappy. I'll just stick to the truth bottomline and if hurts an evil person's feelings a lot then I'm probably going to be laughing underneath but show some sincerity on the outside. I think I understand that I sometimes have to take the lead in certain areas dealing with bad people who just aggravate you no matter how lazy I want to leave it alone.
With great effort, no matter how much I wanted to bash some people for looking stupid to me by typing up lies on this blog post, I just stuck with the truth because if I ran away from the truth then I wouldn't really be helping myself out anyway. It took a lot of trial and error to finally become comfortable with reading a thick book and writing out sentences in clear English. I can honestly state that maintaining this blog contributed to me becoming more comfortable in my own shell. For some reason, I feel like the world is connected in that a good portion of people want to earn a living or experience some sentimental form of existence with what they do.
I feel like I may seem like a know-it-all brat to some people but I still care for some reason if they are going through a really difficult period that could be life altering for them. No matter how annoying or evil the person is, I care underneath but probably won't show it on the outside because I would want the person to realize what he or she is doing personally to be unhappy. I'll just stick to the truth bottomline and if hurts an evil person's feelings a lot then I'm probably going to be laughing underneath but show some sincerity on the outside. I think I understand that I sometimes have to take the lead in certain areas dealing with bad people who just aggravate you no matter how lazy I want to leave it alone.
Making Few Adjustments
Looks like I'm making some more exciting improvements onto my endeavors. I didn't know that I could be really capable of being happy with where I'm at. Time is of the essence that is very valuable and can possibly be not enough. With where I'm at, I really need to start making a little more motivated decisions to stay on track once I start it. I think it's a matter for me to just start something and stick with it as long as I can possibly do it.
I'm finding myself wasting lot of valuable time during these moments of having down time. I really need to utilize them well so that I could later experience a very enjoyable state of euphoria from having put in the wise investments I really tried to seek after. Being young right now and having not enough money, it really sucks that I can't really enjoy life the way it should be. I don't want to keep dragging myself into this bottomless pit- one of my lazy friends told me that there's no point of building wealth if it's not really going to be spent during the wonder years of youth. I'm going to have to disagree and state that working hard while being young and then later having so much time to relax is better than not having anything at all and constantly working when there's an appropriate age for working and being the most valuable worker.
I'm really motivated to be a semi-work horse right now. I'm a little offset right now because of a few rapid changes that have happened all of a sudden in my life is a little emotionally overwhelming for me. I might as well just turn back on the gear and try to stay focused as much as possible. This is pretty much what I'm striving to do now most of the time and the rest of the time, it's pretty much going to be relaxing, recuperating, and having some fun: going to work, working out, learning a foreign language, taking a class related to my job, doing some homework, and conducting a self-employed business with my computer. On a side note, I really want to try hard to grow taller, get better at playing the piano and singing songs with it and to also read the Bible everyday. A pretty decent chunk of my free time also goes out to hainging out with some people whether at people's homes, places to eat, a church, and other gathering places.
I'm finding myself wasting lot of valuable time during these moments of having down time. I really need to utilize them well so that I could later experience a very enjoyable state of euphoria from having put in the wise investments I really tried to seek after. Being young right now and having not enough money, it really sucks that I can't really enjoy life the way it should be. I don't want to keep dragging myself into this bottomless pit- one of my lazy friends told me that there's no point of building wealth if it's not really going to be spent during the wonder years of youth. I'm going to have to disagree and state that working hard while being young and then later having so much time to relax is better than not having anything at all and constantly working when there's an appropriate age for working and being the most valuable worker.
I'm really motivated to be a semi-work horse right now. I'm a little offset right now because of a few rapid changes that have happened all of a sudden in my life is a little emotionally overwhelming for me. I might as well just turn back on the gear and try to stay focused as much as possible. This is pretty much what I'm striving to do now most of the time and the rest of the time, it's pretty much going to be relaxing, recuperating, and having some fun: going to work, working out, learning a foreign language, taking a class related to my job, doing some homework, and conducting a self-employed business with my computer. On a side note, I really want to try hard to grow taller, get better at playing the piano and singing songs with it and to also read the Bible everyday. A pretty decent chunk of my free time also goes out to hainging out with some people whether at people's homes, places to eat, a church, and other gathering places.
Moving Forward
Pretty much there's really not much going on with my life. I'm not putting so much worry about everything happening in my life anymore. It's pretty weird in that when I feel inadequate and I end up doing something really stupid, I realize how I'm not really that bad at what I thought I was sometimes and then retain some sense of stability for awhile. When I lose this focus and feel inadequate again, the process starts all over again where I feel like I'm not really that bad and attain stability again.
I'm making this same pattern of mistakes repetitiously and it's becoming really annoying for me so I'm just going to have to take the next step and just live it out in the best manner that I can when I feel inadequate again. I'm not going to resort to jealousy or hatred but try to remain in loving terms with like the worst people on the face of the planet.
I started a new occupation again which is pretty much working at my dad's company. It's really tiresome being there, but at the same time I"m really enjoying the experience and work load I'm getting from there. I feel like I'm set at an industry and can earn a form of living so that I can pay my bills and personal living expenses. I really am enjoying this challenge of becoming Mr. Responsible!
It's really been a privilege with my own upbringing, and the moment I have to sacrifice it for the greater good and the highest degree of love, it would be a moment where I tried my best to stay alive and at the same time wouldn't be that bad if the results don't really come out as I would have liked for them too. I'm a really short person for a man whose probably around 5' 3" to 5'4" and at the same time, I try to maintain a personal reflection of serenity and stability around others. I have a pretty decent amount of friends, and I have been able to still keep up in current times from being short. Maybe, it really doesn't matter being short and who I end up being with as long as the spouse is inwardly beautiful. I don't really care being made fun of because of my appearance and don't really mind being shunned because of it anymore. I'm not going to let those types of things turn me into a bitter person.
I'm making this same pattern of mistakes repetitiously and it's becoming really annoying for me so I'm just going to have to take the next step and just live it out in the best manner that I can when I feel inadequate again. I'm not going to resort to jealousy or hatred but try to remain in loving terms with like the worst people on the face of the planet.
I started a new occupation again which is pretty much working at my dad's company. It's really tiresome being there, but at the same time I"m really enjoying the experience and work load I'm getting from there. I feel like I'm set at an industry and can earn a form of living so that I can pay my bills and personal living expenses. I really am enjoying this challenge of becoming Mr. Responsible!
It's really been a privilege with my own upbringing, and the moment I have to sacrifice it for the greater good and the highest degree of love, it would be a moment where I tried my best to stay alive and at the same time wouldn't be that bad if the results don't really come out as I would have liked for them too. I'm a really short person for a man whose probably around 5' 3" to 5'4" and at the same time, I try to maintain a personal reflection of serenity and stability around others. I have a pretty decent amount of friends, and I have been able to still keep up in current times from being short. Maybe, it really doesn't matter being short and who I end up being with as long as the spouse is inwardly beautiful. I don't really care being made fun of because of my appearance and don't really mind being shunned because of it anymore. I'm not going to let those types of things turn me into a bitter person.
Dealing With Computer Issue
I keep getting these random popups every once in awhile from surfing the web on my Windows 7. What I have to do to make them stop is to pretty much clear out my history and run the programs Malwarebytes and Spybot Search and Destroy every once in awhile to clear them out. I haven't had much success in getting rid of them forever but I guess it's making some progress for me.
While having a Macbook, I'm experiencing the advantages of having the freedom to be able to surf around and do some risky activities on the Internet if I wanted to because most likely I'm not really going to catch a virus on my Mac OS and experience a lot of stability for the most part. I'm currently running a Windows 7 partition and it has created some headaches but I'm starting to learn to not really mind so much and do the best I can about it. I'm pretty much doing the same thing over and over again like it's a daily routine so I don't really need to worry about making Windows 7 secure as possible because I prefer to do most of my activities on the Lion OS. I guess overall I'm really happy to have made this leap and purchased a Macbook.
While having a Macbook, I'm experiencing the advantages of having the freedom to be able to surf around and do some risky activities on the Internet if I wanted to because most likely I'm not really going to catch a virus on my Mac OS and experience a lot of stability for the most part. I'm currently running a Windows 7 partition and it has created some headaches but I'm starting to learn to not really mind so much and do the best I can about it. I'm pretty much doing the same thing over and over again like it's a daily routine so I don't really need to worry about making Windows 7 secure as possible because I prefer to do most of my activities on the Lion OS. I guess overall I'm really happy to have made this leap and purchased a Macbook.
Not Much of Priority
I believe that I might have outlived the purpose of writing on this blog. For some reason, I no longer feel like it's really a necessity to put stuff on here to make fun of people and start laughing most of the time. Along with how it's based off of being honest which is probably something people would be offended over me revealing but then they can't do anything about it because I'm offering solutions to end their problems, I guess it is what it is now.
I experienced a little success somewhat with this blog- at it's highest peak I only averaged about ten readers a day which is not bad for being a rotten writer. I just wrote about stuff that pertained to anything I wanted to put on here. I think I understand what I really have to do when it comes to dealing with some people who just suck at being friends with you and are not really that important to you but you just want to establish something nice with them at the same time. First of all, it's to maintain composure emotionally; basically most of the time I'm feeling a lot of anger and frustration with these people but I somehow manage to work hard at not letting those negative feelings get the best of me while dealing with these people. It also requires some bravery to approach these people and then start talking pretty blatantly with them.
It pretty much gets down to the point when the conflict arises and they are pretty much acting like babies by saying how much they don't want to be around you or how much you are bothering them to just express how much of a better competitor you are than them in general and just have fun without losing your cool with them. It boils down to talking it over about the issue you want to keep bringing up and use facts to represent your case and then eventually take over the lead to get them to confide in you no matter how worthless of a relationship it feels like it will result in with you.
I experienced a little success somewhat with this blog- at it's highest peak I only averaged about ten readers a day which is not bad for being a rotten writer. I just wrote about stuff that pertained to anything I wanted to put on here. I think I understand what I really have to do when it comes to dealing with some people who just suck at being friends with you and are not really that important to you but you just want to establish something nice with them at the same time. First of all, it's to maintain composure emotionally; basically most of the time I'm feeling a lot of anger and frustration with these people but I somehow manage to work hard at not letting those negative feelings get the best of me while dealing with these people. It also requires some bravery to approach these people and then start talking pretty blatantly with them.
It pretty much gets down to the point when the conflict arises and they are pretty much acting like babies by saying how much they don't want to be around you or how much you are bothering them to just express how much of a better competitor you are than them in general and just have fun without losing your cool with them. It boils down to talking it over about the issue you want to keep bringing up and use facts to represent your case and then eventually take over the lead to get them to confide in you no matter how worthless of a relationship it feels like it will result in with you.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Balancing Time Management With Proper Actions
Being in a tempted situation when things are uncomfortable is not an abnormal situation. What I mean is that there's no need to condemn the self from having feelings of being needy about some things. What's important is being able to manage the self through discipline and still maintain a fair level of happiness. It doesn't matter if personal feelings get in the way in this discussion regarding some people. I'm just talking about an overall general picture of how people should just get along. It's so much healthier to be able to let go of some grudges no matter how hard it is. It's also good to be clever at the same time, so it doesn't mean you should be subservient to an evil person based on just having an unwavering philosophy about life.
This whole balancing effect is a very meaningful process in that it could be a factor in recuperating the soul. There's a confusion that I mainly dealt with while growing up. Through feeling personally pressured to please others because I wanted to be charming and nice, I would work really hard to gain people's approvals. An area where I never matured in was finding this holistic grounds of where I wanted to be- no matter how much I would top everybody else, I was just never satisfied as a result. After awhile, I just burnt out and shutdown to the world- as a result, I've been accused by my little sister about how selfish I am and blah blah blah.
All of that is something I can put aside in the past now. From digging deeper into myself right now in a natural fashion, I'm learning more about where I want to be. I'm finding this stability in myself and confidence from what I can accomplish more than how I physically appear to others. I think that's why I've been having an easier time in communicating and getting along with some really good looking and slightly troubled females. This attraction that comes in a form of emotional aura isn't developed through just having muscles or handsome appeal even though it misleadingly can help out, but what's even stronger is having a relationship that lasts for even ages from having this personal balance and finding the right people to intermingle with.
This whole balancing effect is a very meaningful process in that it could be a factor in recuperating the soul. There's a confusion that I mainly dealt with while growing up. Through feeling personally pressured to please others because I wanted to be charming and nice, I would work really hard to gain people's approvals. An area where I never matured in was finding this holistic grounds of where I wanted to be- no matter how much I would top everybody else, I was just never satisfied as a result. After awhile, I just burnt out and shutdown to the world- as a result, I've been accused by my little sister about how selfish I am and blah blah blah.
All of that is something I can put aside in the past now. From digging deeper into myself right now in a natural fashion, I'm learning more about where I want to be. I'm finding this stability in myself and confidence from what I can accomplish more than how I physically appear to others. I think that's why I've been having an easier time in communicating and getting along with some really good looking and slightly troubled females. This attraction that comes in a form of emotional aura isn't developed through just having muscles or handsome appeal even though it misleadingly can help out, but what's even stronger is having a relationship that lasts for even ages from having this personal balance and finding the right people to intermingle with.
Advantages of Being Truthful
Being true to yourself is a concept that I find might be harder on some females than for males. Don't get me wrong- there are plenty of females out there who are pretty secure with themselves in terms of emotional maturity; they're pretty attractive in my opinion. Wikipedia suggests that males in general have a factual account with practical matters whereas females like to rely more on being emotional creatures. I guess there's nothing wrong with being emotional if the woman is brave enough to be able to handle every situation in an outspoken manner. With emotions being so groggy every once in awhile, I guess it's reasonable to feel some women become fearful about some things like being unaccepted, unprotected, or unloved. It must be just a physical state that women and men are born with in that it separates their tendencies.
It just makes it easy with being honest about some things. Yeah, I'd probably say it too every once in awhile but it could make you feel crazy over the bad things you accomplished. One of my problems as a young adult was not being able to face these personal issues that badgered me unwittingly. Getting out of it, I had to feel that pungent pain of remorse and wanting to cry about it while constantly facing it at full scale on a daily basis. I guess because it's too much to handle for some people- they require some assistance with counseling. Mine was really border-line but I managed to find some acceptable resolve while being able to laugh a little about my own losses. Being angry at the right places helps a little, but it shouldn't be the main emotion to rely on. What I think is more healthier for guys is to focus on things they want to pursue to make themselves happier.
It just makes it easy with being honest about some things. Yeah, I'd probably say it too every once in awhile but it could make you feel crazy over the bad things you accomplished. One of my problems as a young adult was not being able to face these personal issues that badgered me unwittingly. Getting out of it, I had to feel that pungent pain of remorse and wanting to cry about it while constantly facing it at full scale on a daily basis. I guess because it's too much to handle for some people- they require some assistance with counseling. Mine was really border-line but I managed to find some acceptable resolve while being able to laugh a little about my own losses. Being angry at the right places helps a little, but it shouldn't be the main emotion to rely on. What I think is more healthier for guys is to focus on things they want to pursue to make themselves happier.
Learning To Let Go
Sometimes having just a great desire to do something might actually end up being a waste of time. I mean just factoring in how we should spend our time, I'm sure there's a lot of empty downtime that gets tossed around. Anyway having those really exciting emotions while hooked onto something is pretty normal to have, but the hard part is being able to recognize it and deal with it in a healthy manner occasionally. I guess this is where discipline comes into play in that we take out the excess and focus on the necessities.
It's been taking a long time but I'm starting to discern a great deal about myself. I guess living life based on just personal feelings is like living a lie sometimes. What I'm learning is that being patient, courageous, and hard working at something after having done the homework with no rush to figure everything out about it along with having a good correspondence and then going after the position from really desiring to do so is the way for a young adult to go. Just coming to necessary realizations is what it's about, there's no need to feel all eccentric about how your current life is going.
It's been taking a long time but I'm starting to discern a great deal about myself. I guess living life based on just personal feelings is like living a lie sometimes. What I'm learning is that being patient, courageous, and hard working at something after having done the homework with no rush to figure everything out about it along with having a good correspondence and then going after the position from really desiring to do so is the way for a young adult to go. Just coming to necessary realizations is what it's about, there's no need to feel all eccentric about how your current life is going.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Happy Father's Day
Today pretty much commemorates everybody's dads- I'm sure there are a few wives out there who probably don't want to celebrate this holiday too badly for their husbands but I guess it is what it is. I think the general rule of thumb to get the wife happy is for the husband to keep a romantic flame burning and making her feel appreciated while giving her plenty of love and affection. Also, it's for the man to work hard to ensure a pretty comfortable lifestyle and possibly having a position where the wife would be enthused about supporting. In a nutshell, I'm trying to point out how a pretty good family man who remains devoted to his wife and genuinely affectionate to her while the wife isn't really crazy would lead a pretty happy life.
Being in the position that I'm in now, I'm really looking more for the inner beauty now. I realize that no matter how pretty a woman is, there's no point in feeling nervous about her presence from being so good looking and then practically doing nothing to bore her to death. Furthermore, it seems like every good looking woman I've ever made friends with are now just ordinary people to me. Some are really beautiful from getting to know their personality. I pretty much know how to deal with it in that the worst part of being single is just being bored at times and longing to do something exciting. I'm going to continue to labor and then I'm starting to realize that a man's appearance could be overrated and even if it attributes to good fortune for the handsome guy, then I guess it's only natural. I'm starting to look at things that actually make sense and regarding how people think about some issues they try to hide, it's stuff that can find resolve.
Being in the position that I'm in now, I'm really looking more for the inner beauty now. I realize that no matter how pretty a woman is, there's no point in feeling nervous about her presence from being so good looking and then practically doing nothing to bore her to death. Furthermore, it seems like every good looking woman I've ever made friends with are now just ordinary people to me. Some are really beautiful from getting to know their personality. I pretty much know how to deal with it in that the worst part of being single is just being bored at times and longing to do something exciting. I'm going to continue to labor and then I'm starting to realize that a man's appearance could be overrated and even if it attributes to good fortune for the handsome guy, then I guess it's only natural. I'm starting to look at things that actually make sense and regarding how people think about some issues they try to hide, it's stuff that can find resolve.
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Reminding Myself of Things To Do
One of the advantages of having a blog like this one is being able to write whatever I feel like and laughing at the people who struggle because of it. I basically can come out overly strong in my expression with them and scare them silly to the point where they are like helpless and then do my part in encouraging them to build them back up. Despite my social aggressiveness and picky attitude of even the most minute details when I'm in that state of mind, they seem to not regret after awhile who I am about and try to support me as well.
I always had a feeling where I had to treat people I came across as being somewhat special. This really agitated a lot of guys with some anomalies because they sensed that my sensitivity of the matter wasn't being very helpful to them. Practically almost all guys might go through this period in their life where they feel like their head is spinning and the world is just going out of proportion because they're just so mad about not getting what they want. People you think who could be accountable can sometimes turn out to be not what you had in mind. This can exaggerate the state of mind into a form of great discomfort if you don't labor hard to get out of whatever brought you into the state in the first place.
These challenges in life are what I'm happy to say normal! Unfortunately, so many people can fail in this matter in that they have some issues where they can't really solve the issue and become lost in translation; thus, resulting in divorce or broken relationships. I myself am happy to find that I labored hard to gain a revelation when those struggles hit me pretty hard and that I found a greater sense of purpose after those trials found resolve on my end. Now, I'm a little concerned for those people who tried to victimize me in the event because I see where they could end up rotten; I don't know what it is that makes me feel that way. It's probably just in my nature to care, but what I may do is remind them to have a hard time because it will help me see where they lack in developing some character.
I always had a feeling where I had to treat people I came across as being somewhat special. This really agitated a lot of guys with some anomalies because they sensed that my sensitivity of the matter wasn't being very helpful to them. Practically almost all guys might go through this period in their life where they feel like their head is spinning and the world is just going out of proportion because they're just so mad about not getting what they want. People you think who could be accountable can sometimes turn out to be not what you had in mind. This can exaggerate the state of mind into a form of great discomfort if you don't labor hard to get out of whatever brought you into the state in the first place.
These challenges in life are what I'm happy to say normal! Unfortunately, so many people can fail in this matter in that they have some issues where they can't really solve the issue and become lost in translation; thus, resulting in divorce or broken relationships. I myself am happy to find that I labored hard to gain a revelation when those struggles hit me pretty hard and that I found a greater sense of purpose after those trials found resolve on my end. Now, I'm a little concerned for those people who tried to victimize me in the event because I see where they could end up rotten; I don't know what it is that makes me feel that way. It's probably just in my nature to care, but what I may do is remind them to have a hard time because it will help me see where they lack in developing some character.
Friday, June 15, 2012
Developing a Winning Spirit
A personal commitment through the rough struggles is what I really lacked in the last couple years. I really didn't know most of the time what I was getting myself into, and I didn't know how to look past beyond what my needs were at the time. Things felt really crazy, and I couldn't accept that I wasn't measuring up to a situation when I was indeed some things incorrigibly. It took about a year to recover from making those few big key decisions.
I went through so much doubt and yet, I did the best I could to keep my head high. I was pretty much a normal person who put himself through situations that he felt he wasn't properly trained for. I felt like a person who made some really stupid decisions and was pretty much screwed because of having a pessimistic attitude of how the system was made. I really tried but it didn't seem like it was enough to measure up to an acceptable standard when I was given the chance. From missing those chances when I was given an opportunity, I buried myself into a deeper hole.
When the going gets tough, pretty much take the straight path and try not to curtail through things while being diligent and mindful to do the required work to earn a paycheck. It might put a strain on relations with other people for awhile, but nothing like putting it to the test to see who your best friends really are. It's also being done out of personal necessity, and if the person you're trying to get relate to you isn't able to comprehend it then I guess it's time to move on while maintaining pretty significant effort to explain things in plain speech or get back to the person when you have time again. Without having those hardships, there really wouldn't be development in some key areas that really matter. It's about maintaining a good healthy attitude and doing the best to keep progress while being personally honest the whole time. It really works and will help develop some sort of stability and the ability to resolve personal matters that originated in some conflict no matter how lost the situation became.
I went through so much doubt and yet, I did the best I could to keep my head high. I was pretty much a normal person who put himself through situations that he felt he wasn't properly trained for. I felt like a person who made some really stupid decisions and was pretty much screwed because of having a pessimistic attitude of how the system was made. I really tried but it didn't seem like it was enough to measure up to an acceptable standard when I was given the chance. From missing those chances when I was given an opportunity, I buried myself into a deeper hole.
When the going gets tough, pretty much take the straight path and try not to curtail through things while being diligent and mindful to do the required work to earn a paycheck. It might put a strain on relations with other people for awhile, but nothing like putting it to the test to see who your best friends really are. It's also being done out of personal necessity, and if the person you're trying to get relate to you isn't able to comprehend it then I guess it's time to move on while maintaining pretty significant effort to explain things in plain speech or get back to the person when you have time again. Without having those hardships, there really wouldn't be development in some key areas that really matter. It's about maintaining a good healthy attitude and doing the best to keep progress while being personally honest the whole time. It really works and will help develop some sort of stability and the ability to resolve personal matters that originated in some conflict no matter how lost the situation became.
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Goals I Am Going For
I have some really extreme goals in mind for myself. Keeping in mind that I'm being pretty much blunt here, I'm just making general points about what my desires are. Being by myself right now and not married and not under any courtship, I have been trying to figure out how I could support myself and balance things in my life properly so that I could end up being ready for the next step when the right woman comes along for me. I've been fortunate to establish some cherished friendships with some females, and I see how I can create opportunities to get to meet up with a woman if I find interest in her. Basically, I've been trying to write good stuff about Betty Lam at that Hope of God Church in Los Angeles she used to attend. I think I owe it to myself to take her out for a cup of coffee and have some fun experiencing how rigid she would be with me! I'll just give it my best effort in getting her to open up with me as a friend and get to know some important things about her. Even though I'm comfortable with pursuing romantic relationships with attractive female adults, it's not my initial thought when I first have a chance to meet them. I used to get this feeling of jealousy if she was married or had a boyfriend already, but now I don't really care anymore. I would just prefer letting the right woman come along through meeting with people now.
My personal endeavors right now are pretty crazy, which I didn't describe from the last paragraph. I'm going to be working out in a pretty hectic manner six days a week- basically, I do different exercises each day so that I don't overly stress the same muscles. I'm also going to try to make myself grow taller because I just want to have a good laugh giving it a shot- I don't care if people think I'm being delusional or believe that I won't become any taller, I'm just going to try out the suggestions that have been made. Besides, I get to be more physically active to try to make myself taller and eat more healthier substances so I don't care if I don't grow anymore, but I just want to see the limits where my body will take me. I'm going to be training to drive a school bus around. I'm going to continue to volunteer at a hospital for repairing medical equipment. I'm also going to be part of a Medical Reserve Corp unit which will basically train to respond to state emergencies. I'm going to enroll in school to become a licensed psychiatric technician so that I can get to work with crazy people. I'm planning on also picking up on two languages that I'm already a little familiar with.
I already have endeavors being done for my retirement! Pretty much, I'm a day trader for Forex, and I enjoy playing a little poker to make a living. I'm also going to be reading up on acquiring houses for really cheap and then selling them at a very low market price to make some profit. In other words, I'm going to invest in real estate with money that I have to afford! I have this really crazy desire to have the certifications where I could be a professional hacker and also practice as a medical doctor. I want to retire ASAP with plenty of financial backing to provide for families if I feel obligated to do so and to also pursue these crazy ideas that might even lead me nowhere. I plan on being the same honest person who makes deliberate moral decisions all throughout my life now.
My personal endeavors right now are pretty crazy, which I didn't describe from the last paragraph. I'm going to be working out in a pretty hectic manner six days a week- basically, I do different exercises each day so that I don't overly stress the same muscles. I'm also going to try to make myself grow taller because I just want to have a good laugh giving it a shot- I don't care if people think I'm being delusional or believe that I won't become any taller, I'm just going to try out the suggestions that have been made. Besides, I get to be more physically active to try to make myself taller and eat more healthier substances so I don't care if I don't grow anymore, but I just want to see the limits where my body will take me. I'm going to be training to drive a school bus around. I'm going to continue to volunteer at a hospital for repairing medical equipment. I'm also going to be part of a Medical Reserve Corp unit which will basically train to respond to state emergencies. I'm going to enroll in school to become a licensed psychiatric technician so that I can get to work with crazy people. I'm planning on also picking up on two languages that I'm already a little familiar with.
I already have endeavors being done for my retirement! Pretty much, I'm a day trader for Forex, and I enjoy playing a little poker to make a living. I'm also going to be reading up on acquiring houses for really cheap and then selling them at a very low market price to make some profit. In other words, I'm going to invest in real estate with money that I have to afford! I have this really crazy desire to have the certifications where I could be a professional hacker and also practice as a medical doctor. I want to retire ASAP with plenty of financial backing to provide for families if I feel obligated to do so and to also pursue these crazy ideas that might even lead me nowhere. I plan on being the same honest person who makes deliberate moral decisions all throughout my life now.
Putting Everything Together
I'm pretty much like on a quest to get the things I want done and out of the way through making a daily effort. I feel a little worn out or bored at the thought of making it become a routine but I know that it's for the reasons of obtaining what I desire. With this desire that I have now, even though the current present with these feelings of being unsure of things or not in the mood for pursuing after those goals I have in mind by simply just making an attempt to do them on a daily basis, it makes me feel satisfied.
The purpose is to pretty much just motion over to attempting to get the goal done for the day before setting it aside to attempt it again the next day. With bits and pieces, I have been learning that failing at a task from having put a lot of effort through it doesn't really matter. I think what's really important is to keep a sense of personal morality because regardless of what I put myself through, I would still be the same person that others know me for.
Setting personal responsibility up into doing something with first earning a living and then giving back through volunteering some efforts for a community doesn't seem to be a bad thing at all. I'm no longer this apprehensive and nervous person- I even dreamed of picking up the trumpet again and playing it last night even though I had so many struggles at the thought of standing out. I have no idea what it was that motivated me. I was a really shy and nervous person from not feeling prepared all the time and from also not liking my own appearance. It took me awhile to get over those minor obstacles by seeing the bigger picture. I just hung on to it for a very long time through my adolescent years and into my young adulthood. I'm now in a mental state where I'm understanding what I put myself through and how to remain happy regardless of what some bad apples might do to offset some good times for me.
The purpose is to pretty much just motion over to attempting to get the goal done for the day before setting it aside to attempt it again the next day. With bits and pieces, I have been learning that failing at a task from having put a lot of effort through it doesn't really matter. I think what's really important is to keep a sense of personal morality because regardless of what I put myself through, I would still be the same person that others know me for.
Setting personal responsibility up into doing something with first earning a living and then giving back through volunteering some efforts for a community doesn't seem to be a bad thing at all. I'm no longer this apprehensive and nervous person- I even dreamed of picking up the trumpet again and playing it last night even though I had so many struggles at the thought of standing out. I have no idea what it was that motivated me. I was a really shy and nervous person from not feeling prepared all the time and from also not liking my own appearance. It took me awhile to get over those minor obstacles by seeing the bigger picture. I just hung on to it for a very long time through my adolescent years and into my young adulthood. I'm now in a mental state where I'm understanding what I put myself through and how to remain happy regardless of what some bad apples might do to offset some good times for me.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Finding Joy In Being Bored About Hardwork
Basically, it's about trying very hard to be happy when the thought of working hard in the moment you are stuck in becomes really boring. For myself, I am a dude- regardless of whether people want to call me a happy dude or not; I am a man; therefore, being a man, I have to get situated in dealing with many uncomfortable situations that women can't even handle. Life is what you make of it; the answer isn't to really think about how hard or easy it is- the saying goes you reap what you sow.
No matter how painful and needy I become from being bored, I need to just suck it in and put myself in a comatose state so that I will endure the boring feeling I am having. I'm just going to have to accept that I am a boring person when those situations arrive where I'm tempted to become stupid to make myself laugh temporarily before I regret ever having got myself into the situation. I guess I don't really care what other people do to look stupid that much- as long as we are alive and healthy and trying to make some sort of effort to be happy, I guess it really doesn't matter how annoying that person gets even though everybody might start cheering the day he clears out his desk to leave his job.
No matter how painful and needy I become from being bored, I need to just suck it in and put myself in a comatose state so that I will endure the boring feeling I am having. I'm just going to have to accept that I am a boring person when those situations arrive where I'm tempted to become stupid to make myself laugh temporarily before I regret ever having got myself into the situation. I guess I don't really care what other people do to look stupid that much- as long as we are alive and healthy and trying to make some sort of effort to be happy, I guess it really doesn't matter how annoying that person gets even though everybody might start cheering the day he clears out his desk to leave his job.
What I'm Going To Do With These Feelings
I have plenty of feelings, just like any other human being does. It's basically composed of one feeling- boredom! Boredom exists; therefore, I exist- I am; therefore, I think. From being bored the whole time and bored from people acting dumb and then shunning me which I don't really care. From people being who they are and me not caring so much about it sometimes, I am just plain bored being by myself and having to study all this stuff to interact with other boring people.
Excitement is in one of those few people that we are all surrounded by. These people are rare and so I have to think about the common things, which are boring people sometimes. These boring people can do funny things every once in awhile and even if it's being ngeative towards me, it still brings a lot of entertainment and something to think about. I'm not the type who will write up lies and stuff about people to defame and bring them totally down. I do it through telling the truth! The truth is so down to the point in that it amazes me.
Excitement is in one of those few people that we are all surrounded by. These people are rare and so I have to think about the common things, which are boring people sometimes. These boring people can do funny things every once in awhile and even if it's being ngeative towards me, it still brings a lot of entertainment and something to think about. I'm not the type who will write up lies and stuff about people to defame and bring them totally down. I do it through telling the truth! The truth is so down to the point in that it amazes me.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
I See My Personal Issue
I can explain why I've been sitting around doing nothing and fixating my thoughts on getting something done. It's because I'm uncomfortable about investing my time into something that would end up wearing me out. Through the last couple months, I have really settled in with deciding what I want to do with my life and where I would like to spend my time. The problem is that sometimes I feel uncomfortable about giving in some time to do them.
I wrote a blog post awhile ago about a girl who blocked me on her Facebook profile from just being uncomfortable. Obviously, she wasn't really being the brightest girl at the time and she had some issues that she would have liked to run away from. You could be uncomfortable about a lot of different things like being tired or feeling a surge of passion to stay up all night long for anything, but it's not going to keep the person from stopping. What I mean to say is that just being uncomfortable and doing things because of it doesn't make sense.
Since I know what I want to do, I'm going to work on those things that make me uncomfortable. I want to be a hard working and successful person, so I'm going to have to deal with plenty of discomfort anyway. I'm pretty much turning into a self-motivator. The girl on the other hand, because of her background and becoming a little weird could have used some positive motivation from me- in other words, I should have led and encouraged her in a positive direction just like a pretty good friend or family member would do. I was really angry about how she acted like she didn't want to get along with me and couldn't explain anything with me when she did finally open up. It was the little things about her that ended up bothering me, but now that I see the full picture, I could settle it better with another person next time if it does happen.
I wrote a blog post awhile ago about a girl who blocked me on her Facebook profile from just being uncomfortable. Obviously, she wasn't really being the brightest girl at the time and she had some issues that she would have liked to run away from. You could be uncomfortable about a lot of different things like being tired or feeling a surge of passion to stay up all night long for anything, but it's not going to keep the person from stopping. What I mean to say is that just being uncomfortable and doing things because of it doesn't make sense.
Since I know what I want to do, I'm going to work on those things that make me uncomfortable. I want to be a hard working and successful person, so I'm going to have to deal with plenty of discomfort anyway. I'm pretty much turning into a self-motivator. The girl on the other hand, because of her background and becoming a little weird could have used some positive motivation from me- in other words, I should have led and encouraged her in a positive direction just like a pretty good friend or family member would do. I was really angry about how she acted like she didn't want to get along with me and couldn't explain anything with me when she did finally open up. It was the little things about her that ended up bothering me, but now that I see the full picture, I could settle it better with another person next time if it does happen.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Worthiness Using Firefox For Blogging
Well for once, Firefox is really helpful in doing some spell checks. I haven't been too finicky about checking my spelling anymore as I used to. I was really about the techniques of writing for awhile and didn't care about not making any sense in my writing. I just didn't get how to write sentences that flowed really well for awhile. Okay, now that I do, I've been doing some justice with my writing in bringing those dirty-minded, possibly fake Christians at that church I've been writing about in the past to absolute embarrassment and shame by reprimanding them about their ungodly actions.
I'm basically moving along now and not making too much of a force of habit to continuously bring them up on this blog for discussion anymore. Basically, what inspired me to write on this blog today was thinking about the pursuit of happiness. What personally drives an individual to attempt or achieve greater heights? Also, what are their goals in life which help them to interact under certain situations? Just examining some data and coming up with honest observations which tie into being universal is something that could be of some use for the workplace and dealing with others.
Here's my situation. I've been fibbing on this blog about how I have a beautiful wife because I have never married. That's why it is easy for me to imagine myself having a wife and regardless of what she looks like on the outside, she would score perfect marks on the looks department for me. I have met a lot of cute, brilliant, and nice women who wouldn't mind me devoting myself to the right person but I have overlooked them a lot because I have just been an idiot like that. I have basically been insecure about how short I appeared and from what I looked like on the outside, how I would be really hated by others- I just really cared about my image all the way down to the shallow levels. It took me so long to realize that the right type of people don't care about it and will even not be bothered being married to a really short or homely person.
I feel so much better coming clean with a small lie like that meant to be a joke. I also have another lie on my Facebook- it says that I'm in a relationship with a woman and it's complicated. I really am not in one- I just did that to attempt to make myself look good. I'm not going to update my marital status on Facebook because I really like the way it is right now, until I get pretty serious about settling down with someone. Looks like my biggest worry for me and number one priority I will pursue with great difficulty is to find romance in marriage with a beautiful (not based on looks) woman and devout Christian woman who hasn't been in any previous marriages or without any biological children. I missed a chance a couple years ago to a pretty dim-witted guy because I was just being an idiot. Man, I had some really beautiful women who were just that available and attractive for me to just pick and choose one. I'm going to have to start all over again now. I'm letting go of any stupid misconceptions I have about women and some worldly thoughts that are just plain selfish. If I fail, then at least I'm happy to know that I failed while giving enough effort. Basically, just the effort and pursuance provides a pretty nice feeling of balance in my life. If it eventually happens for me, then it would be about taking the next step.
I'm basically moving along now and not making too much of a force of habit to continuously bring them up on this blog for discussion anymore. Basically, what inspired me to write on this blog today was thinking about the pursuit of happiness. What personally drives an individual to attempt or achieve greater heights? Also, what are their goals in life which help them to interact under certain situations? Just examining some data and coming up with honest observations which tie into being universal is something that could be of some use for the workplace and dealing with others.
Here's my situation. I've been fibbing on this blog about how I have a beautiful wife because I have never married. That's why it is easy for me to imagine myself having a wife and regardless of what she looks like on the outside, she would score perfect marks on the looks department for me. I have met a lot of cute, brilliant, and nice women who wouldn't mind me devoting myself to the right person but I have overlooked them a lot because I have just been an idiot like that. I have basically been insecure about how short I appeared and from what I looked like on the outside, how I would be really hated by others- I just really cared about my image all the way down to the shallow levels. It took me so long to realize that the right type of people don't care about it and will even not be bothered being married to a really short or homely person.
I feel so much better coming clean with a small lie like that meant to be a joke. I also have another lie on my Facebook- it says that I'm in a relationship with a woman and it's complicated. I really am not in one- I just did that to attempt to make myself look good. I'm not going to update my marital status on Facebook because I really like the way it is right now, until I get pretty serious about settling down with someone. Looks like my biggest worry for me and number one priority I will pursue with great difficulty is to find romance in marriage with a beautiful (not based on looks) woman and devout Christian woman who hasn't been in any previous marriages or without any biological children. I missed a chance a couple years ago to a pretty dim-witted guy because I was just being an idiot. Man, I had some really beautiful women who were just that available and attractive for me to just pick and choose one. I'm going to have to start all over again now. I'm letting go of any stupid misconceptions I have about women and some worldly thoughts that are just plain selfish. If I fail, then at least I'm happy to know that I failed while giving enough effort. Basically, just the effort and pursuance provides a pretty nice feeling of balance in my life. If it eventually happens for me, then it would be about taking the next step.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Trying To Keep This Appropriate While Letting Loose Out Everything
What I have been in one sentence is lollygagging around inappropriately. I guess that's my general bad thing that I have been doing. That was really appropriate for me to write that way, now I have to figure out how to end my lollygagging. It's a particular type of messing around that gets very addictive and brings fun in the moment but then afterwards brings upon personal thoughts of how stupid it was to engage in it. It's like a cycle that goes over and over again for me. I need to just end it now and not really care about what is bugging me to make me try to enjoy the moment when a symptom of the cycle arises again.
Secondly, I thought of an inappropriate scene for Toy Story that I wouldn't mind animating it but of course, I really wouldn't advertise it then if I did. I'm going to keep this thing G-rated with a few minor hints that grown ups might know about. Basically, it starts with the kid playing with Woody and then being put in an awkward position by being inadvertently forced by the kid to do the splits while in the toy box. After the kid leaves and the coast is clear, Woody starts complaining about arthritis and asks everybody to help him out but they are all busy. Woody first asks his running mate Buzz Lightyear for help and Buzz says something like "Not now, I'm going to be busy playing with the cow girl." Let's just say the cow girl and Buzz end up in a wrestling match that turns out to be pretty intimate with lots of laughing and hollering. Woody becomes jealous and tells Buzz that he will have his way with him once he gets out of the stance. While the other toys ignore Woody and keep jumping out of the box, he then notices the pig toy looking at himself in a barbie-sized mirror. Woody gets the attention of the pig and asks him to help him up and the pig is like "Not now, I'm on a date with Piggy." The pig talks to himself in his best manly voice and then puts on a blonde wig and starts talking in a falsetto voice to represent a female while looking at the mirror. The pig switches back and forth while viewing the mirror to represent a dialogue.
One of the main toys then finds that the kid is coming back to the room. While Woody barely managed to get out of his position, he then sighs and putters momentarily in a hopeless fashion. Woody yells out "Hey, I require assistance to be put back in position!" Then the army men carry a toy hammer towards Woody and manage to place it on the slinky dog toy while he's stretched out. The slinky dog gets released and the hammer conks Woody on the head hard enough for him to start sinking. The hammer starts doing a rapid hammering action and while Woody is in pain, he finally gets into his position. The box opens up with the kid looking inside. The kid finds Buzz Lightyear and the cow girl in a wrestling position while on top of each other and is unaware they are not in position. The kid shakes his head while thinking "I must be seeing things. This always happens when I try to keep the cow girl and Woody together."
Secondly, I thought of an inappropriate scene for Toy Story that I wouldn't mind animating it but of course, I really wouldn't advertise it then if I did. I'm going to keep this thing G-rated with a few minor hints that grown ups might know about. Basically, it starts with the kid playing with Woody and then being put in an awkward position by being inadvertently forced by the kid to do the splits while in the toy box. After the kid leaves and the coast is clear, Woody starts complaining about arthritis and asks everybody to help him out but they are all busy. Woody first asks his running mate Buzz Lightyear for help and Buzz says something like "Not now, I'm going to be busy playing with the cow girl." Let's just say the cow girl and Buzz end up in a wrestling match that turns out to be pretty intimate with lots of laughing and hollering. Woody becomes jealous and tells Buzz that he will have his way with him once he gets out of the stance. While the other toys ignore Woody and keep jumping out of the box, he then notices the pig toy looking at himself in a barbie-sized mirror. Woody gets the attention of the pig and asks him to help him up and the pig is like "Not now, I'm on a date with Piggy." The pig talks to himself in his best manly voice and then puts on a blonde wig and starts talking in a falsetto voice to represent a female while looking at the mirror. The pig switches back and forth while viewing the mirror to represent a dialogue.
One of the main toys then finds that the kid is coming back to the room. While Woody barely managed to get out of his position, he then sighs and putters momentarily in a hopeless fashion. Woody yells out "Hey, I require assistance to be put back in position!" Then the army men carry a toy hammer towards Woody and manage to place it on the slinky dog toy while he's stretched out. The slinky dog gets released and the hammer conks Woody on the head hard enough for him to start sinking. The hammer starts doing a rapid hammering action and while Woody is in pain, he finally gets into his position. The box opens up with the kid looking inside. The kid finds Buzz Lightyear and the cow girl in a wrestling position while on top of each other and is unaware they are not in position. The kid shakes his head while thinking "I must be seeing things. This always happens when I try to keep the cow girl and Woody together."
My Struggles
I can't explain a part of myself which I don't like very much about myself because it would be inappropriate for some kids to look at. Keeping in mind that I'm trying to make this G-rated so that I won't have any moral backlashes of feeling guilty later on in my life, I think I've written a pretty comprehensive course of some daily stuff. Along with having a good time poking fun at some people with honest remarks that pretty much could hurt their reputation, but I keep on manifesting honesty and doing it very bluntly so that they can't do anything about it to get revenge. Especially when it's all out in the public to see and how it really affects them. I'm not about blackmailing people, but about seeing people rise back up again once they've taken a knockout.
Honesty is like a double-edged sword and really helps in piercing the most stubborn hearts known to the ages. Fact is that it's going to happen regardless and truth will force people to act a certain way especially when they have never seen it coming. Here's an idea that most people who probably are used to reading my blog posts would never have thought I would propose: the Holy Bible we know of today is composed of inerrant factual information to form the Word of God. It's really quite bold for me to make this remark but from the time and research I've put in, I'm convinced that this mystery of tying together religion and science has found a parallel in my personal journey.
I believe in moral assertions so I will never use the highly misinterpreted idea of like "I signed the contract so now I'm morally free to sin against God" clause. Being a true follower of Jesus means taking trust and letting him become the king in your life. How badly did Jesus really not like religious people? The Bible mentions that Jesus was not really all that into religious fanatics like some of the people at that church I've been writing about. Okay that was fun to write.
I didn't get to write about my struggles in this post. It's because I'm afraid that it will be inappropriate material for young kids and I want to make this G-rated so I will have to find a different outlet or word it into a very intelligible and approriate context. I think that's the effort I'll try to put into it; therefore, I receive more practice instead of coming out overly hoarse.
Honesty is like a double-edged sword and really helps in piercing the most stubborn hearts known to the ages. Fact is that it's going to happen regardless and truth will force people to act a certain way especially when they have never seen it coming. Here's an idea that most people who probably are used to reading my blog posts would never have thought I would propose: the Holy Bible we know of today is composed of inerrant factual information to form the Word of God. It's really quite bold for me to make this remark but from the time and research I've put in, I'm convinced that this mystery of tying together religion and science has found a parallel in my personal journey.
I believe in moral assertions so I will never use the highly misinterpreted idea of like "I signed the contract so now I'm morally free to sin against God" clause. Being a true follower of Jesus means taking trust and letting him become the king in your life. How badly did Jesus really not like religious people? The Bible mentions that Jesus was not really all that into religious fanatics like some of the people at that church I've been writing about. Okay that was fun to write.
I didn't get to write about my struggles in this post. It's because I'm afraid that it will be inappropriate material for young kids and I want to make this G-rated so I will have to find a different outlet or word it into a very intelligible and approriate context. I think that's the effort I'll try to put into it; therefore, I receive more practice instead of coming out overly hoarse.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Noticing Something That Really Helps
It's basically about being able to accept the situation you are in while being honest about it. Whether the emotions are about feeling lonely or unappreciated, it takes quite a lot of pure honesty to be able to analyze personal things. That's pretty much it for me and basically I'm continuously trying to let it be a driving factor in establishing the things that I really need.
A lot of things may bug me a little, but I don't really see them as a problem anymore. My confidence level is starting to really soar, and my ability in doing things might begin to be very effective. I might really be in a state where I really want myself to be in and to let myself go in a direction where I really need to be. I'm going to continue using honesty with others when it comes to dealing with stuff in others.
A lot of things may bug me a little, but I don't really see them as a problem anymore. My confidence level is starting to really soar, and my ability in doing things might begin to be very effective. I might really be in a state where I really want myself to be in and to let myself go in a direction where I really need to be. I'm going to continue using honesty with others when it comes to dealing with stuff in others.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Coolness
I managed to write a script that is related to the language C and assists in doing day-trading. It is now up for grabs at http://codebase.mql4.com/8336; the script is called Money Management Script. I am happy to state that I have joined a community of traders, and have about 65 downloads already. Yeah, I feel like I have garnered some attention already.
It is amazing how I don't even average that amount of readers on this site and somehow just like poof, a number of users I can barely juggle in my head have already downloaded the program on the first day it opened. I guess I realize that people need to make a living and some people are more attractive than others for whatever reason. I'm starting to not really care about it now.
I have developed a pretty reliable system in playing online poker where I just keep breaking even and making a little profit. It's pretty neat in how I have been testing and refining it the past couple years. It's a really small percentage of profit, but what I have found is this poker site that offers money back deals and my style can play a lot of hands pretty reliably. What I mean is that with just one buy-in, I was able to play the amount it takes to buy in twenty-five times! It is amazing- with all of those hands I can play for cheap, I'm getting some money back from the poker site which is offering it. Therefore, it entails making some form of living I can imagine making now as long as I stick to my systematic method.
My daytrading strategy has also finally developed into a long-term method where I just ride it out and receive profit automatically. Along with that script I'm offering for free, my daytrading is becoming like a dream occupation where I only have to work an hour at tops per day. I'm also volunteering mainly in the medical field- I'm really interested in a position working at a hospital now. Just for fun now and to do something, I have a job driving a little school bus around with kids in it. I'll see where my imagination can take me now, and I don't plan on staying stagnant very long now.
It is amazing how I don't even average that amount of readers on this site and somehow just like poof, a number of users I can barely juggle in my head have already downloaded the program on the first day it opened. I guess I realize that people need to make a living and some people are more attractive than others for whatever reason. I'm starting to not really care about it now.
I have developed a pretty reliable system in playing online poker where I just keep breaking even and making a little profit. It's pretty neat in how I have been testing and refining it the past couple years. It's a really small percentage of profit, but what I have found is this poker site that offers money back deals and my style can play a lot of hands pretty reliably. What I mean is that with just one buy-in, I was able to play the amount it takes to buy in twenty-five times! It is amazing- with all of those hands I can play for cheap, I'm getting some money back from the poker site which is offering it. Therefore, it entails making some form of living I can imagine making now as long as I stick to my systematic method.
My daytrading strategy has also finally developed into a long-term method where I just ride it out and receive profit automatically. Along with that script I'm offering for free, my daytrading is becoming like a dream occupation where I only have to work an hour at tops per day. I'm also volunteering mainly in the medical field- I'm really interested in a position working at a hospital now. Just for fun now and to do something, I have a job driving a little school bus around with kids in it. I'll see where my imagination can take me now, and I don't plan on staying stagnant very long now.
Monday, June 4, 2012
Pledge I Will Try To Keep
The only difficult thing that is holding me back now is pretty much feeling bored and impatient and in the mood for being impulsive. I come to accept that my nature is going to want to do some foolish things every once in awhile and be in the back of my mind to complete the task. However, I need to accept that those are my old ways and how I have better things to accomplish now no matter how long the wait is. If I don't see results right away, then I need to accept the state I am in and continue working hard and not really expecting anything great. I plan on just living with a sense of purpose and trying to move with a sense of stern direction and a harmonious balance.
I pretty much ask the Lord to forgive me for realizing my personal faults of looking at things to be prideful about in my appearance and being too insecure about it sometimes. I feel like I'm wasting time on things that I could really be accomplishing to promote good health and a great quality of living. It's pretty much about being in a cycle right now of getting myself jump-started. I no longer feel those pangs from being doubtful in my current situation. I think I should live with a little more confidence and strive to do bigger things. I enjoy continuing to joke around in an optimistic manner and caring for others in a sensitive manner; also, I believe in being upfront with my views with a person now.
I pretty much ask the Lord to forgive me for realizing my personal faults of looking at things to be prideful about in my appearance and being too insecure about it sometimes. I feel like I'm wasting time on things that I could really be accomplishing to promote good health and a great quality of living. It's pretty much about being in a cycle right now of getting myself jump-started. I no longer feel those pangs from being doubtful in my current situation. I think I should live with a little more confidence and strive to do bigger things. I enjoy continuing to joke around in an optimistic manner and caring for others in a sensitive manner; also, I believe in being upfront with my views with a person now.
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Letting Things Flow
It looks like I really need to get back into shape again and hopefully everything will turn out okay. I don't know what it is but it looks like from having aged a lot, the boredom that I'm usually feeling isn't really going to go away. I might as well just deal with it and concentrate on the things that I should really be doing. I'm going to mainly focus on being a pretty disciplined person, and I shouldn't forget to mention that I'm going to keep up with what I can in studying.
When I'm on this computer, I'm going to try to focus on getting what I need to accomplish done first before I start lollygagging around. I now understand that priorities need to take precedence before I can engage in some fun activities. It's how life should be meant to be accomplished, and it also promotes balance. I'm going to see how I do being on my own this week. I pretty much know what I want to do with my schedule so now I just have to keep up with them in any fashion on a daily basis.
When I'm on this computer, I'm going to try to focus on getting what I need to accomplish done first before I start lollygagging around. I now understand that priorities need to take precedence before I can engage in some fun activities. It's how life should be meant to be accomplished, and it also promotes balance. I'm going to see how I do being on my own this week. I pretty much know what I want to do with my schedule so now I just have to keep up with them in any fashion on a daily basis.
Good Moment In Time And Space
It's pretty easy to write this post fairly early and positive in the morning because today is my birthday! I really don't know what it is about me but I guess I'm doing okay. I really understand a lot of events that have been happening for me lately, and it doesn't really mean anything to get so excited about. I still have a little difficulty in becoming fast again.
I guess it is what it is and man someone told me yesterday that women are corrupted enough in Las Vegas that someone pretty enough would go on a date with me. Yeah, that was really funny to hear and then he said that he would bring a girl who looks like the girl I had some trouble dealing with over to his house. It's all just talk but funny I suppose. They were supposed to very inciteful comments from the way he presented it, so I pretty much told him that I wished he could say things that were really funny and people actually understood all the time because usually he isn't on the mark.
It seems like having been put to the test, I don't really get bothered about those things anymore and can actually settle fairly decently any conflicts that arise for myself now. It seems like a pretty big amount of people have some complexes in life and just can't deal with it in a smart fashion; in other words, there aren't too many people who end up being successful from becoming complacent about some personal issues. These personal issues seem to be pretty strewed when dealing with some females sometimes. There was probably a female or two who I never really had a chance to settle a minor matter with- they sort of made it really big and contradicted themselves; I was in a pretty agitated state to anything about it. First off, it's important to learn to manage morally when your lid gets blown off. I totally get it and know what I could do for my part to help now. It's oh well for me with those girls being gone somewhere I might not be able make any contact with, but I might be able work with the few guys and girls who still remain. Basically, being fully honest and not delusional creates a wonderful new upbringing.
I guess it is what it is and man someone told me yesterday that women are corrupted enough in Las Vegas that someone pretty enough would go on a date with me. Yeah, that was really funny to hear and then he said that he would bring a girl who looks like the girl I had some trouble dealing with over to his house. It's all just talk but funny I suppose. They were supposed to very inciteful comments from the way he presented it, so I pretty much told him that I wished he could say things that were really funny and people actually understood all the time because usually he isn't on the mark.
It seems like having been put to the test, I don't really get bothered about those things anymore and can actually settle fairly decently any conflicts that arise for myself now. It seems like a pretty big amount of people have some complexes in life and just can't deal with it in a smart fashion; in other words, there aren't too many people who end up being successful from becoming complacent about some personal issues. These personal issues seem to be pretty strewed when dealing with some females sometimes. There was probably a female or two who I never really had a chance to settle a minor matter with- they sort of made it really big and contradicted themselves; I was in a pretty agitated state to anything about it. First off, it's important to learn to manage morally when your lid gets blown off. I totally get it and know what I could do for my part to help now. It's oh well for me with those girls being gone somewhere I might not be able make any contact with, but I might be able work with the few guys and girls who still remain. Basically, being fully honest and not delusional creates a wonderful new upbringing.
Friday, June 1, 2012
Starting All Over
There are some distractions that I have to keep in mind now while being at the computer. I need to just cope with them while I work hard at obtaining what I need now in life. I need to be pretty consistent on a daily basis now and rest when time can afford it. There are a few things that I'm missing and have to just get by in doing now.
I finally have a daily rough plan in what I am about to do routinely for my life. I have it pretty sunk into my brain so I don't really need to write any schedule down so I guess that is pretty cool. I am pretty much going to will myself into doing things the best I can at all times and even if I fail now, it's going to be about failing through giving my best effort and going after what I desire.
I guess I don't really care about constantly failing now and see them as a good learning experience for myself. It's one of those times where I know how to align myself into doing some things. Probably the coolest thing I'm planning on setting my mind to is studying a foreign language. I might just go after most of my time developing in a professional direction now.
I finally have a daily rough plan in what I am about to do routinely for my life. I have it pretty sunk into my brain so I don't really need to write any schedule down so I guess that is pretty cool. I am pretty much going to will myself into doing things the best I can at all times and even if I fail now, it's going to be about failing through giving my best effort and going after what I desire.
I guess I don't really care about constantly failing now and see them as a good learning experience for myself. It's one of those times where I know how to align myself into doing some things. Probably the coolest thing I'm planning on setting my mind to is studying a foreign language. I might just go after most of my time developing in a professional direction now.
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