Letting Myself Walk Favorably

I guess one of my strengths is being very literal about things in my thinking. I now see what it means to stretch my mind a little bit and see things a bit more artistically. I guess having been taught by a woman how to do this when I was in high school probably means that she was pretty crazy.

I'm planning stuff in my head all the time and trying to balance myself in a happier direction. I think it's just in my hormones or something to be a really active person. I remember just sitting there watching T.V. shows a lot of people thought were so great and just feeling depressed. I then would work out hard and feel like it was killing me but then from after having done it for awhile; I felt pretty good about physically improving myself. It feels pretty good in general for me to maintain my health. I don't think women are looking for muscles in a man, their great height, or money even though women might claim those things- I think women are looking for worthy men they see fit to be loving, attentive, and kind to them.

These worthy men have some characteristics that attract certain beautiful women in general. I guess if the woman is beautiful on the inside as well then it might help for her to pair up with a worthy guy.

Becoming More Stable

I think an example where I wasn't so stable was when my friend's twin brother was trying to really annoy me with irrelevant things. With him being so full of it and filthy about communicating his desires, I can understand his exaggeration of his personal self-worth. I guess it's an accomplishment if a person can be always happy about himself while selling himself much to creating annoyances in others. I am just straight up with him now, and I don't care if he says something meaningless and laughs while intending it to be something to make fun of me with. I think he has his own way of thinking and wanting to influence others even if it means abusing them. I already know he's never really been that smart, and I think he's just trying to be concerned about issues with his messed up heart.

I think it's natural for others to have some anger and nagging issues to cope with. The hard part is being able to labor and be a pretty normal and happy person.

Directness

I'm feeling that if I write very direct things on this blog now then maybe I will be screwing myself over. I'll just be open about the things that I think make me look good and isn't really showing off. I have some good friends where I'm just completely honest about myself, and they seem to understand me so I guess I have some place where I belong. I don't really want to be open when I'm not feeling emotionally strong about something.

I guess this whole incident about being involved in some drama at this church I have been talking about and where they ended up throwing me out of there is just too funny. I think I'm at the point of growing up and even though I still feel a little discomfort at times with myself, I guess I can manage it and handle myself decently. I think for a guy being able to handle himself well and be pretty successful at something is pretty favorable at winning a beautiful girl's heart.

Pretty Sweet Plans

I plan on mastering the Forex market my style, just like that song Gangnam Style does it just that I'm not going to be a poser. It's taking awhile and it's really fun to me now. That's what it's about- it's about earning a living while having fun with something you enjoy. Once I get it down, it's going to be so much fun for me and with the riches I plan on investing in some homes and doing a little real estate. Yeah, it's going to be pretty sweet.

It also seems like I'm an heir to my dad's company where my dad is playing the role of CEO and is an owner. My oldest cousins are also in the business and have a share of the ownership as well. It's a pretty prolific business and if it gets passed down to me, I plan on keeping it a family oriented business where it's about making some serious cash! On top of treating the workers like family, I would expect them to put in the work to make money. It's all about making money with this business, and I'm really enjoying the field. I just started out with my dad's company, and I will see where it leads to later for me.

I pretty much am going to try to spend time with working out and picking up my parent's native language. I am becoming more keen of the time I use, even though I slip up occasionally and focus on naughty things. These are some addicting behaviors for me, and I'm noticing that it's really more of a waste of time for me and something I shouldn't put my whole thought into anymore. I'm just going to try to stick to what's appealing for me. It's getting there for me in developing a really healthy, happy, and productive lifestyle. I seriously don't care about being rejected by beautiful women anymore either even though I'll make an effort to just stay friends with them.

Going For What's Appealing

So far with having gone after all the appealing things in life and willing to put up with the hassles and hard work to get them, it's been overall a pretty happy and smooth ride for me. I know that we are all designed differently and have a lot of variations with our flavors and preferences. Some are more appealing in others; whereas, not so much in others. 

What I'm finding that works a lot is basically making a commitment and holding on to personal values with something. There's a reason why we connect with something and treasure it so much. It's how we were born- just doing something that doesn't really fit in with what we're naturally happy and suited for doing won't be so productive and meaningful in life.

I mean don't we all just want to live a really satisfying life and enjoy good times with one another, especially with our spouses, kids, and friends? I'm going to be open about my testimony- going after the appealing things to me while sticking really close to my faith in God and applying all of the absolute Biblical concepts after receiving these principles from examining them in an unbiased format has been filling a void in my life and making my life more meaningful to live for and something I wouldn't mind sacrificing if it's my time to go from having made peace and finding personal joy. 

Swing Trading Upgrade

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I am now trading on the 4H chart because the day chart just takes too long for me to get a signal and I prefer to be in trades a little more aggressively. I am looking to ride the high and low swings of the week based off of only doing technical analysis. It's been a challenge but it's getting there with the tools finally adding up.

I'm using three charts totaling 52 indicators, which is all visual aids to pump out just one appropriate trade! I have added on a neat commentary and price action indicator which pretty much gives me palatable trades if it is within the channel that my indicator draws automatically. I'm now just lining up a good trade using all of these charts now.

I might be averaging one or two trades a week with each currency I trade. I am testing out this strategy in a demo account using 26 different pairs! That is plenty of opportunities to test my theories before I decide to narrow in on the more profitable ones and start playing with real money. I am just keeping this simple- buying low and selling high, sticking to the main trend, and riding a channel using price action. All of these indicators match up nicely with each other in confluence which is what makes my chart unique. I'm using three instead of just one chart to make my trades!

Happy Thanksgiving

I guess Thanksgiving is all over and it's going to be Black Friday tomorrow. I have heard of DVD's and blue ray discs being really cheap with the pricing being 3.99 and 8.99 respectively. It is a pretty good deal, so I might go pick some up for laughs. Actually, I don't plan on really buying anything tomorrow. I guess I don't really care too much about buying stuff anymore. 

My mind is now starting to see the pointless things that I could endlessly get myself into. I do not want to get into that anymore. I see how addicting the behavior is but it's so pointless to even think about getting myself into so might as well just suffer day in and day out when I'm by myself. This is only if I can remember to keep this type of discipline for myself going. 

I honestly don't really care that I'm short now. I really don't care at all. I don't how it really got to this, but it doesn't matter to me anymore because my cousins and relatives all came out normal. I'm thinking that my genes might actually come out normal even though I'm a little shorter than everybody else in my family. I guess my kids might come out normal or if they care about their appearance like I did while growing up, I'll make them appreciate more important things and to have confidence in who they are and to compensate in a really healthy manner that wouldn't even make their appearance be a factor to the people who matter the most to them. Now, I'm starting to see that my insides are not really caring about what's on my outside except being clean, healthy, and presentable in appearance. 

Brute Force Method

This is a pretty simple game plan that I have in finding a proper wife. It's basically to just ask directly the woman who I'm interested in after getting to know her a little and letting her know a little about me. If she says she's busy, has a boyfriend already, or is not interested then it's something for me to not worry about. I don't care about rejection anymore- I'm just going after what's appealing now, and I'm going to get over it really well.

I still intend on staying friends with the girls I'm really interested in, so I guess it will help me know a little more about myself and what I'm really into and how I tick. The hard part is that sometimes I might have an interest in a woman right off the bat, but feel like something is holding me back or maybe, the next day I might not really be that interested in her anymore.

There's one girl who I can say that I have maintained a good level of interest. At least I can say that we're pretty good friends and she's pretty cool! It's been really beneficial because she has been pretty open about her life and what she's been up to. I guess my values are to mainly be committed and a loving type of person- it's something that's part of my core belief system; I don't think I'm too much different from a pretty average person whose into getting along with others.

Refraining Myself

Some things that I want to work on is pretty much refraining myself from doing some things that I know are selfish and bad. Maybe my heart is going to get so worked up from not understanding anything and just try to give into some type of pleasure without thinking about the consequences. In these moments, I want to stay strong now and not give into them. I want to do the right thing, and it's just in my desire to do so now and something I'm going to have to labor in so that I could make it happen.

Basically, I think it starts with the mind and then works down to the heart. It's like a constant battle but once harmony is reached then I think that's where the fun begins. It's like these ideas are coming from something I'm inspired by and by constantly writing like this, I'm eventually going to have to look into more the subject that influences me and start writing about it.

Remembering Important Things

Sometimes its so easy to get caught up in the moment and forget about some priorities. I guess I haven't really been mindful of things with my own personal goals and aspirations that much. I would like to be a little more focused and relaxed at the same time now. I'm not really too worried about my general nature now. I understand where it's rooted in and with the areas that I have preferences of communicating with.

I'm starting to brainstorm something. I think I'm supposed to be the guy that gives chase and that since I can see where opportunity would arise, I should just go after what's appealing to me even if I'm feeling uncomfortable about something. Pretty much what I really want to stand for is my background of sticking to my most important values which have been heavily influenced through my belief in God. If I get rejected, then there's really no reason for me to continuously putter around anyway; I'll be getting over it, so might as well get on the move with it.

Mixing Desire and Hardwork

Having used to be a pretty studious kid, I remember the joys of bringing home straight A's on my report card  and then showing it to my mom and dad. For the way that I was with being this really chubby and short kid, I was not really seen upon as that bad of a person- in fact, I was voted as the most nicest person in my own class. I was a little psyched out because one of my friends made fun of me and paired me up with a nice Japanese girl- I'm guessing she's probably grown up to be a really attractive female but no boy who hated cooties would ever think about the big picture and with growing up.

 I'm just reminded of being brought to smiles now. I became really crazy during my puberty and reached a pretty scary and depressing moment in my life. I guess it was a really defeated feeling and with like no purpose in my life. I didn't understand the direction that I was supposed to be heading and really fully couldn't turn my attention or trust anybody for a certain point of my life. Despite this delicate moment of being really discouraged and relenting about things in my life, I managed to find personal redemption and to grow out of it. It was pretty much a stage in my life where I could have used a wonderful mentor, but my mind was so finicky and complex at the time, it was probably never going to have settled down anyway.

Leading By Example

I have to admit that I am a very faulty person and if someone copied exactly the way I am, I would be a little disappointed in him or her.  I see that it's going to have to be a work in progress for me. While I'm contemplating on what I'm doing wrong sometimes, it's hard for me to move on with something. It's taking quite a bit of painful effort in making it happen.

The best part is that I'm willing to accept my roles and feelings now and to exceed with what others expect me to fulfill. Inwardly, I feel like life just keeps on going and that we all have our appointment with meeting our maker someday. I am striving to not live such a disappointing life now- I want to live a great and pleasing one.

Now I see the differences with the things I put my time into. Initially, things may start out rough but if I can manage to hang on or get back into the mood again then I have likely a better chance of reconciling with my negative feelings of productivity and to remain pretty satisfied. I think we live in a world where hypocrisy and craziness is sometimes considerably the norm. I would like to get a little better with reading other people's body language now in general- it's actually a lot easier for me to see it when things are directed at my attention, so I guess I don't really pay attention when it's not really that meaningful; I guess it would be fun to do this effortlessly. Basically, I was forgetting to mention that I'm addicted to some things while knowing it's not good for my overall productivity or career now. Since I see this now, I am willing to accept my fate of having to deal with those crazy withdrawal symptoms and focus on something I think is really worthwhile, even though it might be so hard and feel meaningless to do. I think that is the secret to success for myself, which is dealing with this factor and making better time commitments.

I am ready to utilize this and pretty much prioritize no matter how plain and dull the situation can get. I'm pretty much going to focus on becoming more focused these coming days now.

My View On Online Poker

Poker is a game where people play against each other and either put together a profitable strategy or just play in hopes of getting lucky. The problem I see with poker is that the greatest poker players can sometimes take a hit on their finances and then swing back and forth dealing with wealth.   I'm not really comfortable with having a large draw down. I would rather be able to make profits consistently and be able to have time to do other things.

I'm not really so worried about making as much as possible anymore. I would rather earn enough to live comfortably now. I see that it's coming along gradually for me now.

Understanding the Self

The person inside of me is pretty messed up, and I realize it. These days I'm learning to compensate for how messed up of a person I am. I guess now that I know quite a bit of things, I can make considerations of what my actual desires are and then try to go after them. It's sometimes a pain for me in that I go over some things that have already happened in my head and wonder how I would have done better if I played out the event differently. I guess it's the part that can get a little aggravating and something I mope about slightly inwardly.

I'm no longer getting that longing feeling of changing back the clock. It's time for me to keep moving forward and make peace with those moments where things just that didn't go as planned.

Dangers of Not Being Straight Forward

No matter how inappropriate it feels sometimes to be fully honest about an issue, if it isn't done then the situation could get worse. Under the terms of being actual friends, there's really no need to feel so nervous about something you don't want to be uncovered. All these feelings of getting hurt by someone you once trusted can be really hard to resolve and to also reestablish something meaningful again.

It really comes down to the will and the intentions of the heart. Some hearts are just plain selfish and uncaring about others; whereas others will try to put forth an effort in doing good for this world. There's also in between which therefore creates a variety of hearts in the world we live in. Having to function together to live peaceably in a society can actually be a really good thing.

No matter how scary it's been for me from the moment I started to open up, it's been a wild ride and I've been reaping the benefits from being able to see things more under my nose lately then I've ever had been able to do. It's like I can anticipate how someone who I'm interacting with me is going to feel about me personally, and how I could take measures to collaborate on things that I desire with the person.

Not Taking Things So Personally

I've been starting to do what a female friend has told me growing up. I'm getting the same responses from some of these female friends in that it's actually positive in that I've learned so many lessons over the past three years and am now stable on the inside. I've even managed debating against an Atheist online who is an absolute stranger without either of us losing our cool. I even laughed at some of his comments which were meant to scorn Christians. Oh well, I can see that he's a doubter so hopefully, he'll be pretty serious about challenging the evidence on Christianity and finding out for himself the actual incriminating evidence that proves his suspicions. The reason for saying this is because mostly the ones who go all the way with trying to disprove the existence of God actually end up becoming believers.

A show on The Simpsons had an episode where Homer practically became a genius at the IQ of around 110 after removing a crayon that got stuck on his brain. Because of his new gifted intelligence, he ended up coming up with the actual proof of no existence of God in a matter of minutes and gave it to his Christian neighbor Flanders. Flanders read the proof and went "Yup" and then ended up burning the paper with a lighter. I know it's just a joke because the world will probably never get to see it as long as civilization is running.

Getting More Used To Things

Obviously, I've been looking up just a little online about short men because I am short. I actually read or watched some videos that made fun of short people, and I actually didn't care what I was discerning and laughed. I guess if a person of any appearance or whatever situation he or she gets put into has a pretty general stability inwardly then it's not really going to be a problem.

I find that from just being straight forward and sticking to it and just not worrying about getting rejected, then I appear that I'm handling myself really well with others. I guess for myself I find it a little funny to be a short person, but it doesn't keep me from engaging in friendly conversations with others. It's really cool how I managed to put it all together for myself now.

Forex Trading

I've learned that in Forex trading, it's really about competing with fellow traders and earning their money that they have in the market. On top of the big international and multi-billionaire banks playing in this field, I guess it can get really intimidating for most people. Without knowing what you are getting yourself into, I'm sure it's easy to naturally blow out your whole account.

Therefore, I'm just running demo accounts right now and working with some systems that suit my desires of how I want to trade. I've learned that my preference is to be really be more of a swing trader rather than a day trader or position trader. The difference in these types of traders is pretty much the duration of time spent on keeping a trade. By being a swing trader, I'm relying on big reversal trends so that I can ride with the right direction for up to a few weeks. This allows me to avoid competing for fast cash against other traders who are really out to grab a quick profit (day traders) and follow the big guys who are setting the overall direction (banks and governments).

I'm constantly updating myself on new developments with the Forex market. With these new ideas that keep popping out, I really rely on other fellow traders who don't mind giving their input. For myself, I'm being a little sneaky right now with what I have going and it's just a matter of time before I get to reach the cusp of greatness and have a chance to mentor others later.

Recovering From Cold

My head feels pretty shaken up right now and is aching while wanting to feel little dizzy. It must be that I'm still a little bit too exhausted. I slept about seven hours which is pretty decent amount, but I guess a cold virus that I'm dealing with right now has me feeling otherwise. Anyhow, I still need to go in for work which is a ten hour shift- it's a pretty long time but getting the work done and receiving a paycheck feels just about good as any good day.

I have yet to explore areas where I have been really nervous about figuring in the past. For instance, I've been really too shy and nervous to talk to most women and try to get to know them especially the really beautiful ones. I guess I had this feeling of thinking I was too unworthy to be with such a great person. Maybe, it's just all relative and something I need to discover for myself in the type of person I am. I think I have the bravery that I need now to be friends with attractive females and to start going after a decent relationship. I think it would be a little better to be able to have a female partner whose my best friend at the same time and to really spend some compassionate, quality time together.

Understanding the Times

I guess this is just a random post in response to the readers who have came on this blog and started reading my posts. Well, first of all, I just want to thank all of you for having made your way here and entertaining yourself or just doing something on here momentarily if it's by accident.

I feel really compelled these days to hold back on some things now. I guess it's just a matter of discomfort for me to reveal something and then later have to stress myself to fix the issue if it didn't go according to plan. For awhile, I was really about just telling the truth while being pretty mad underneath about some things. Now, I'm about saying things in both truth and love.

Picking Things Back Up

It's really come to a point in my life where by feeling the pursuit of something, I don't really feel alone anymore. For myself, I'm learning to just grasp patience and be really stable underneath. By having an eye for these sort of things, I think I can seriously see the bigger picture on a larger scale for myself.

I guess I've been really busy with earning money at work and creating a living with something that I'm really interested in doing. It's really taking a lot of time but with the hours that I spend on working on it, it really feels meaningful to me. I no longer really purpose in myself to watch T.V. or play video games that much anymore. I used to be really big on those things but not anymore.

Making Some Interesting Progress

Looks like I had to take a very long drive to pick up some sausages for my friends' birthday party tonight. Oh well! Living in a nice suburbia of Orange County, I had drive quite a ways to pick up some reputable sausages for a female friend who just loves sausages! I've been doing this for a couple years now and even though I don't fully understand her love of some fancy sausages, I guess I don't mind buying them while going for a pretty long, stale drive. They are pretty expensive too, and I ended up buying a whole party's worth which ended up all going to the birthday girl herself.

This is also the first time I actually kissed a female other than my mom on the cheek. There were moments where I feigned it like with my annoying little sister and older neighbor. Oh man, my little sister really hates me when I try to mess around with doing gross and loving things like that with her. I felt it was actually appropriate because it seems like she's a really good friend now and someone who I could trust if my life really depended on it.

I've been fortunate over the last couple months to engage in plenty of text messaging with some female colleagues. Man, it's made me very comfortable in engaging a decent conversation with attractive females without going ballistic and feel like blowing up over being nervous. I tried a funny pick up line at the party with a girl when she was talking to another guy who was roaming around trying to flirt with as many girls as possible. It ended up working and before I left, she let me know that liked me! Yes, I'm starting to get somewhere with this whole initiating a date and relating to her thing.

Updating Situation

Looks like for this month, I feel like bombing this blog because I really don't feel like I'm in the season for writing a lot. Nonetheless, I've been busy coming up with newer developments and keeping myself busy. For some reason, I've been stuck at the piano playing tunes that I love replaying over and over again for hours for my enjoyment. I guess I don't care that I make mistakes now at the piano because I really enjoy hearing rhythmic sound and to just be in the moment feeling like I'm partying underneath.

I'm realizing that my experience with finding a life partner is getting more enriched by mainly being stable emotionally. It's like I'm running into sensing those little details now but not minding so much about it in others. For myself, I like to believe that there are always greater fish in the sea to go after. If the woman I like purposes in her heart to reject me then even though I may be a little sad, it still doesn't bug me that much because I could anticipate in finding a more beautiful lady to marry.

Upgrading Forex Trading

Looks like I've had some trouble trading with only using the daily charts. I really do enjoy spotting signals on the daily, but it seems like I'm jumping in a little too late with possibly an unadvantageous stop loss; therefore, I'm now looking for entry points using the 4 hour chart. I also have some automated chart pattern recognition and support/resistance going on now which is making me feel like getting a bigger edge on the market.

I pretty much have the chart pattern recognition set up on the 1 hour frame because the software can only update itself every five times the amount of respected time, or in other words every five hours. It's turning out to be quite fun learning how to be successful in this market. I'm aiming for spending roughly ten minutes a day on average to become my new occupation and then spending my time doing a lot of personal things I want to endeavor myself in doing.

Just going back and forth while running demo accounts has pretty much protected me from going broke. It's been pretty much a lot of personal testing of what works best with my own personal style of trading. Again, I have to stress that there's no such thing as winning 100% of the time, otherwise everybody who willed themselves in this market would be millionaires and have only perfect principles to apply each time. Therefore, my trading ideas might not be suitable for someone else, so the best I see it is to go after advice that appeals to you the most and test it out yourself.