Okay, I'm making some quick resolutions before I go to like a private New Years party. I need to spend my time wisely and get everything out of the way, much as possible before I go back to work. Once I go back to work, then my time is not going to be very what I say leisurely to the point that I can start wasting time.
I think in general the people I decide to bother just really depends on what type of person he or she is. They aren't really anything special and like I said from the last point, I was just trying to bother them without making them think I'm so crazy. I was bothering them very continuously because I just kept on getting irate with them. It's just the heat of the moment kind of thing, but the majority of people aren't really anything that special.
I'm a really special guy because these not-so-extraordinary people ended up blocking me on their Facebook because I bothered them so much with messages. It's pretty funny in that I wonder if I could write crazy messages to strangers too and then they'll just block me, instead of just ignoring my messages. I would probably just ignore it too as much as possible. I don't really know, I haven't really tried that.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Had Fun
I learned this year that the people I was causing some problems for online are actually not that important people and that I'm wasting my time trying to get back at them. I was just so mad and having a hard time getting it out of my system, so I went a little crazy in a very nice way.
I learned from a nice friend of mine that to marry someone whose right for you, you have to meet her through another close person and also have to bond very well. If she's willing to wait on you, like if you have to go away and will like to share housing with you, then yeah, I guess she's the one.
For the most part, that's how things are when everything works out well and you are a good looking and athletic guy with a very nice personality. Not everybody has those qualities, so I guess it's how it is.
I learned from a nice friend of mine that to marry someone whose right for you, you have to meet her through another close person and also have to bond very well. If she's willing to wait on you, like if you have to go away and will like to share housing with you, then yeah, I guess she's the one.
For the most part, that's how things are when everything works out well and you are a good looking and athletic guy with a very nice personality. Not everybody has those qualities, so I guess it's how it is.
Monday, December 29, 2014
Compromising With What People Want
It looks like it's really about listening and figuring out what the person wants. I was asked by some average looking Asians who were acting retarded about what I wanted. This must mean that I'm pretty good at concealing my agenda. Because they couldn't figure it out, they concluded that I was crazy and tried to screw me over but couldn't. I wasn't screwed over by young Asian people gone crazy with me because I'm just lucky in life with those types of things.
I figured out what they wanted. They want to be left alone! This is so funny because the whole time I was just angry and thinking about how it's one of the five stages of depression. I wanted to avoid the negotiation stage. I guess that's a whole bunch of baloney and doesn't always apply especially if you're smart enough to monitor your own feelings.
They wanted the freebies in life. It's like they can do their retarded and crazy thing with me and be selfish about it and then go on to live a happy life. They really struggled a lot with me because I'm just a person who gets lucky in life. I kept bothering them and they couldn't do anything about it. With them trying to kill me, it wouldn't even make any sense either because I'm just lucky at portraying myself the way I want people to think about me for my best outcome in life. My buddy told me that when they called the cops, they were trying to get the cops to do the dirty work. I drove the cops crazy too, and they couldn't get me arrested or put in jail because I'm just plain lucky.
Cute and submissive cat!
The normal looking Asian people who decided to be retarded with me should follow the lead with my Asian persuasion. They should become like the cute and submissive cat I just posted above. I'm understanding that they'll be so happy, if I make a passionate speech about leaving them alone and then live up to that while requiring them to do nothing. I think I can take a notch further from knowing what they want now and confuse them a whole lot about themselves and get them to just shut up about this whole issue that regards them and me. It wouldn't matter then if I decide to keep talking about the issue because they will just be quiet about it the whole time; meaning, I could scream at them too if I wanted, and they'll just have a blank face and take it all in.
Interesting Correlation
It seems like with the more posts that I write consistently on this blog, I am getting more visits on this site. I wonder if there's really anyone out there who would write a lot and then readers out there would be like heck no, I'm telling everybody to stay away. For myself, I seem to have this sort of mystique because I really like to take on a characteristic of being honest. In some ways, this gives hints to what type of person I really am and what I'm up to. A few individuals became paranoid about me and at the same time have been trying to cut off contact with me. It's pretty funny that my writing can actually make them behave that way.
In a way, I can say that I'm very lucky because my personality while blended in with the weird things I have got myself into, people haven't really screwed me over that badly where I can blame them in a scary manner. Definitely for myself being a really short, but decently average with a nice build, maybe I should be able to marry a nice and tall Asian woman, which my mom wants me to go after. I'm starting to become a lot more comfortable dealing with taller women these days. Sometimes, there are these ultra tall women and when I look at them, I'm like yikes look at those fat thighs or man, she's pretty ugly. Those are initial thoughts, but deep down inside, I'm hurting from being short. I really hate those thoughts of feeling sad from being reminded of how short I am. I have been getting better at coping with it.
In a way, I can say that I'm very lucky because my personality while blended in with the weird things I have got myself into, people haven't really screwed me over that badly where I can blame them in a scary manner. Definitely for myself being a really short, but decently average with a nice build, maybe I should be able to marry a nice and tall Asian woman, which my mom wants me to go after. I'm starting to become a lot more comfortable dealing with taller women these days. Sometimes, there are these ultra tall women and when I look at them, I'm like yikes look at those fat thighs or man, she's pretty ugly. Those are initial thoughts, but deep down inside, I'm hurting from being short. I really hate those thoughts of feeling sad from being reminded of how short I am. I have been getting better at coping with it.
Finishing This Up Like A Chore
I'm pretty much not really feeling like doing much of watching T.V. and movies right now. With this time that I have, I really want to use it to the best of my ability with getting some things done. It seems like there's never really enough time for getting all the good stuff done for me. There's like this personal and mental period where I'm just in existence for some time and not really doing anything fancy.
Something like that really happens to me a lot. I don't really like it. I think it's just really about just doing enough of what I like and is required then and also sometimes those requirements I like doing feel like it's more of a hassle, so I try to avoid doing them sometimes.
Something like that really happens to me a lot. I don't really like it. I think it's just really about just doing enough of what I like and is required then and also sometimes those requirements I like doing feel like it's more of a hassle, so I try to avoid doing them sometimes.
Friday, December 26, 2014
Things I Value
I just finished watching this boring lecture of the three, most highly boring habits of people. The three things are in order: 1.) they write things down, 2.) reduce to the essentials, and 3.) stop and question. I do those three things quite a lot, so that makes me a pretty boring person then, I get it.
For writing things down, it really comes down to categorizing to what you love to do and things you hate. Out of those two things, you separate them to what's important to you and isn't. Most people are very good at doing the first two things and organizing their lives around it. Researchers say that a person can have up to fifty things happening at once.
Let's start with my favorite category: the things I hate and think is a waste of time for myself to get into.
1.) Boring T.V. shows
2.) Addiction to porn and its after-effects (I won't talk about it on this blog.)
3.) Annoying friends
4.) Listening to Mom's advice about success
5.) Reading spam e-mail.
6.) Beating boring and hard video games
7.) Gambling and losing money
8.) Watching reruns
9.) Scrolling through TV Guide and finding nothing interesting to watch
10.) Buying things that accumulate space and never get around to using
11.) Playing fun video games or watching shows for so long and then feeling bad for losing track of time and focus.
12.) Feeling like I have nothing to do and then doing one of these bad things on the category.
13.) Thinking about the past and feeling bad about it while wanting to shout bad words when no one is looking.
14.) Having to deal with scam artists online, who say they want to date me.
15.) Sorting through excess stuff that doesn't pertain to me when I'm doing stuff that I like online.
20.) Feeling cheated after having put in so much time and not getting much out of it.
21.) Feeling depressed about how short of a person I am.
22.) Getting carried away because of brats making me so angry,
23.) Forcing myself to do stuff I'm not interested in.
A thing I love and hate at the same time is messaging and playing pranks on brats (mostly, former friends) I am angry with while worrying about getting in trouble and sent to prison. I feel so excited, scared, and very angry at the same time for about getting revenge. That's a thing that belongs in Step 3, stop and question. For now, it seems like the best results occur when I initiate contact with them and make a strong motivated talk of how I'm going to leave them alone for some significant amount of time and then live up to it. They love it when they don't have to do anything in return for me. It's a compromise that gets started by me and ends with me; I'm like the higher being, just saying from a jocular standpoint. I wonder if I could force them to believe that they don't know themselves too well by playing a game of negotiating the terms for leaving them alone. It would probably get them to be quiet and I would have absolute and total control of the situation while they just don't talk negative about me because they just stay quiet about it.
These are some of the things I love doing while thinking it wastes time:
1.) Snowboarding
2.) Bowling
3.) Reading up about stuff on the Internet.
4.) Watching cool shows like some, violent anime series and movies.
5.) Very cool and awesome video games and fun games to play with buddies.
6.) Making myself more self-hygienic looking, like trying to grow my hair.
7.) Trying to make myself appear or become taller.
8.) Making time for friends.
9.) Playing my piano and experimenting with music.
10.) Reading books, stories, and comic books.
11.) Posting pictures of myself on Facebook.
12.) Writing on this blog
13.) Having a hard time with learning something new that interests me.
14.) Trying to flirt and find dates online or in person with someone that's right for me. / Trying to get married.
15.) Looking for a group to hang out with.
16.) Playing brain games to make myself smarter.
17.) Trying to learn a new language.
18.) Improving things I currently work with.
19.) Upgrading to a better future.
20.) Investing and trading money
21.) Spending money for doing fun activities
22.) Family activities
23.) Challenging myself
24.) Putting in the extra effort and trying to go the extra mile.
25.) Looking to live my life on a constant high without doing drugs, but just from hard work.
This is something that I think I hate and have to put up with:
1.) Work
2.) Militaristic style type of training.
The next step is to pretty much eliminate the stuff I hate and think is a waste of time as much as possible and then replace them with the things I love that wastes time, while constantly questioning myself along with the motives and appeals. I already know what I like doing and think is important so I don't need to list those things.
For writing things down, it really comes down to categorizing to what you love to do and things you hate. Out of those two things, you separate them to what's important to you and isn't. Most people are very good at doing the first two things and organizing their lives around it. Researchers say that a person can have up to fifty things happening at once.
Let's start with my favorite category: the things I hate and think is a waste of time for myself to get into.
1.) Boring T.V. shows
2.) Addiction to porn and its after-effects (I won't talk about it on this blog.)
3.) Annoying friends
4.) Listening to Mom's advice about success
5.) Reading spam e-mail.
6.) Beating boring and hard video games
7.) Gambling and losing money
8.) Watching reruns
9.) Scrolling through TV Guide and finding nothing interesting to watch
10.) Buying things that accumulate space and never get around to using
11.) Playing fun video games or watching shows for so long and then feeling bad for losing track of time and focus.
12.) Feeling like I have nothing to do and then doing one of these bad things on the category.
13.) Thinking about the past and feeling bad about it while wanting to shout bad words when no one is looking.
14.) Having to deal with scam artists online, who say they want to date me.
15.) Sorting through excess stuff that doesn't pertain to me when I'm doing stuff that I like online.
16.) Going to places with people involved and not feeling like I'm playing an active role.
17.) Losing focus from having vanity.
18.) Driving to places I've never been to and getting a little lost to find my way back home.
19.) Forgetting my place at a big, parking lot.20.) Feeling cheated after having put in so much time and not getting much out of it.
21.) Feeling depressed about how short of a person I am.
22.) Getting carried away because of brats making me so angry,
23.) Forcing myself to do stuff I'm not interested in.
A thing I love and hate at the same time is messaging and playing pranks on brats (mostly, former friends) I am angry with while worrying about getting in trouble and sent to prison. I feel so excited, scared, and very angry at the same time for about getting revenge. That's a thing that belongs in Step 3, stop and question. For now, it seems like the best results occur when I initiate contact with them and make a strong motivated talk of how I'm going to leave them alone for some significant amount of time and then live up to it. They love it when they don't have to do anything in return for me. It's a compromise that gets started by me and ends with me; I'm like the higher being, just saying from a jocular standpoint. I wonder if I could force them to believe that they don't know themselves too well by playing a game of negotiating the terms for leaving them alone. It would probably get them to be quiet and I would have absolute and total control of the situation while they just don't talk negative about me because they just stay quiet about it.
These are some of the things I love doing while thinking it wastes time:
1.) Snowboarding
2.) Bowling
3.) Reading up about stuff on the Internet.
4.) Watching cool shows like some, violent anime series and movies.
5.) Very cool and awesome video games and fun games to play with buddies.
6.) Making myself more self-hygienic looking, like trying to grow my hair.
7.) Trying to make myself appear or become taller.
8.) Making time for friends.
9.) Playing my piano and experimenting with music.
10.) Reading books, stories, and comic books.
11.) Posting pictures of myself on Facebook.
12.) Writing on this blog
13.) Having a hard time with learning something new that interests me.
14.) Trying to flirt and find dates online or in person with someone that's right for me. / Trying to get married.
15.) Looking for a group to hang out with.
16.) Playing brain games to make myself smarter.
17.) Trying to learn a new language.
18.) Improving things I currently work with.
19.) Upgrading to a better future.
20.) Investing and trading money
21.) Spending money for doing fun activities
22.) Family activities
23.) Challenging myself
24.) Putting in the extra effort and trying to go the extra mile.
25.) Looking to live my life on a constant high without doing drugs, but just from hard work.
This is something that I think I hate and have to put up with:
1.) Work
2.) Militaristic style type of training.
The next step is to pretty much eliminate the stuff I hate and think is a waste of time as much as possible and then replace them with the things I love that wastes time, while constantly questioning myself along with the motives and appeals. I already know what I like doing and think is important so I don't need to list those things.
Getting Back Into Sync
It's like I need to get back into sync like everyday to get to doing my goals. I just don't feel all that caught up with making myself like so pretty because I'm a guy. I'm realizing though that I'm potentially matching up or being friends with women who like to show some skin by like wearing tank tops and evening dresses. I'm actually pretty comfortable with it underneath and make a huge effort underneath to not make it a big deal. It's so natural to me now that it doesn't affect women around me now; I used to be around girls who would fix their straps and that used to annoy me a little for some reason I don't know.
I'm basically looking to get myself into peak shape by getting some six-pack abs, continue to invest, and study the Bible. Those are like my three main things, but I want to dedicate my life to God first and foremost by trying to carry out all of His commandments, which is like impossible to do. Yet, I'm just driven by my faith in Christ, so it must be the Holy Spirit that is working in me.
I'm now adding to playing and singing to my music on the piano. I'm not really that good to be honest, but it's really a lot of fun to me. I am also working on getting the right I.T. certifications and a Master's. I've been doing a little research and came up with the conclusion that in the I.T. field, if you can demonstrate enough proficiency with certain fields, no matter how you obtained it, then you can find yourself with a decent job. I would like to put my theory into practice and see if I can do it. With the full time job I have going, I'm going after an online accredited Master's degree which will cost me about $11,000. I've been told that is not a very bad price to begin with.
I'm basically looking to get myself into peak shape by getting some six-pack abs, continue to invest, and study the Bible. Those are like my three main things, but I want to dedicate my life to God first and foremost by trying to carry out all of His commandments, which is like impossible to do. Yet, I'm just driven by my faith in Christ, so it must be the Holy Spirit that is working in me.
I'm now adding to playing and singing to my music on the piano. I'm not really that good to be honest, but it's really a lot of fun to me. I am also working on getting the right I.T. certifications and a Master's. I've been doing a little research and came up with the conclusion that in the I.T. field, if you can demonstrate enough proficiency with certain fields, no matter how you obtained it, then you can find yourself with a decent job. I would like to put my theory into practice and see if I can do it. With the full time job I have going, I'm going after an online accredited Master's degree which will cost me about $11,000. I've been told that is not a very bad price to begin with.
Topping Out My Goals
I'm realizing that the idea of getting captivated by a woman's beautiful appearance is becoming such a waste of time! Just staring at her beauty and not getting anything done because of it is driving me a little crazy. It's also like I never even made eye contact and tried to talk to her in the first place. It's even more worse when I do this online like on Facebook. Man, it is just not a very happy making type of work to get into. My best friend does it for I don't know how long, but I just can't get into that anymore. I've seen my girl cousin get on that stuff- she's a whole heck of a lot better in dealing with that stuff.
It looks like with those photos- they are stylized and there's a reason for those being shot; I don't like photos just because it's hot or sexy or just so pretty and nice. I just don't respond to it; I'm just one of those people then who should avoid putting up photos just for the sake of attracting an audience. It's just not going to work out that way for me.
It looks like with those photos- they are stylized and there's a reason for those being shot; I don't like photos just because it's hot or sexy or just so pretty and nice. I just don't respond to it; I'm just one of those people then who should avoid putting up photos just for the sake of attracting an audience. It's just not going to work out that way for me.
My Interesting Goals
I am no doubt a believer of Christ and want to live the life that he wanted all of us to do. I am, however, an idiot and a sinner when it comes to living up to those ideals. I can only do so much when it comes to my own effort for being like Christ. I really have a limit to the amount that I can reach out to. These thoughts did depress me for the longest time, but now I accept the reality and am happy to know that Jesus forgives each time we come to him and confess. It just gets really annoying for me to have to always confess about the same sin that keeps on getting me.
I've been really working at repenting in my lifestyle. It feels like if I never really had those triggers that tempted me for the rest of my life, while actually having the perfect subsistence for what I desire, then I really could live without the sin forever! The Bible says to pretty much flee from temptation; it's hard and overwhelming sometimes, but I'm not letting up. The Bible also says to continue running the good race and finishing strong. Yeah, last night I made a mistake without knowing about it; I don't feel bad about it, but I know what I did was wrong. Even though I feel numb about sinning in that area, I'm going to repent because of my trust and love in Jesus way more than anything I've ever come across in this world.
I've been really working at repenting in my lifestyle. It feels like if I never really had those triggers that tempted me for the rest of my life, while actually having the perfect subsistence for what I desire, then I really could live without the sin forever! The Bible says to pretty much flee from temptation; it's hard and overwhelming sometimes, but I'm not letting up. The Bible also says to continue running the good race and finishing strong. Yeah, last night I made a mistake without knowing about it; I don't feel bad about it, but I know what I did was wrong. Even though I feel numb about sinning in that area, I'm going to repent because of my trust and love in Jesus way more than anything I've ever come across in this world.
Planning Properly
Man, I am so lucky in life because I did little crazy things that I was so worried about and never got busted for them by authority! I ended up bugging people who wanted me to leave them alone. I was so mad and got back at them; they never got me in trouble to the point of being arrested. Cops came over too and handcuffed me, but I went nowhere. Man, I am so lucky! I even did it repetitiously too; boy, I am so very fortunate that my criminal record never came to fruition.
I just happen to be lucky like that in those small areas dealing with slightly insignificant people when comparing it to the spectrum of billions of people living in this world. I'm now realizing that instead of playing video games or watching T.V. while I'm bored or even about surfing the Internet for interesting stories or facts I want to read or view photos about, I should be just going after doing my boring thing!
I'm sort of saying that while I'm laughing because I'm bored with investing in myself. I don't get all giddy about doing myself. I know one person which I'm not going to mention a name with but likes to show off so much even while being so unlucky in life to the point that it gets annoying. Maybe that's how the person likes to just get off in general. Well, I can understand the person needs to make a living and feel good about something, so maybe that's a way for the person to say the person is a contender from just being annoying. I'm intentionally not even mentioning the gender of this person either, to conceal every hint of identity.
This blog has been starting to get very useful for me because I'm realizing that I'm turning a little more eloquent in my writing. A few people have commented that I come across as an intelligent person for writing on here. I'm sure readers are on here for any reason, but it looks like I spread a little bit of good-willed humor on here, but not so crazy to the point that it becomes so controversial the Feds need to come over and shut it down!
I just happen to be lucky like that in those small areas dealing with slightly insignificant people when comparing it to the spectrum of billions of people living in this world. I'm now realizing that instead of playing video games or watching T.V. while I'm bored or even about surfing the Internet for interesting stories or facts I want to read or view photos about, I should be just going after doing my boring thing!
I'm sort of saying that while I'm laughing because I'm bored with investing in myself. I don't get all giddy about doing myself. I know one person which I'm not going to mention a name with but likes to show off so much even while being so unlucky in life to the point that it gets annoying. Maybe that's how the person likes to just get off in general. Well, I can understand the person needs to make a living and feel good about something, so maybe that's a way for the person to say the person is a contender from just being annoying. I'm intentionally not even mentioning the gender of this person either, to conceal every hint of identity.
This blog has been starting to get very useful for me because I'm realizing that I'm turning a little more eloquent in my writing. A few people have commented that I come across as an intelligent person for writing on here. I'm sure readers are on here for any reason, but it looks like I spread a little bit of good-willed humor on here, but not so crazy to the point that it becomes so controversial the Feds need to come over and shut it down!
On Vacation
I am currently on paid leave from my work for about two weeks. It's not bad, considering from after putting in a year's effort of hard work, I'm not in debt or anything. It would be nice to pay off my private student loan. I just found out, which sort of sucks, that the government doesn't care to help you with subsidies to get that knocked off your record. It's a pretty shady practice with taking a private student loan. Make sure to do your homework and to be able to get something that is well-supported with grants by some big guns, like the state or country!
Grants are pretty much free money for having some type of status. I was given grants of about $7000 a year for just being a student. I didn't pay any taxes nor owed anything back to the government. It was such a rush because I felt like I was getting paid to pretty much study. Little did I know back then, that amount wouldn't really be enough to carry a pretty woman on a man's back.
I'm now making way more than $7000 a year, of course. I have a full-time job, and it would be sad to work long hours and only earn that much. I could probably support a baby if I wanted to; that's about it, but a wife and a couple dumb teenagers with reckless driving records? I don't know yet. I am going after a Master's now in Information Technology or a software engineering related field. I'm really thinking about leaving my dad's business after a few years of doing it. I don't feel that passion or light to go above and beyond the calling in the industry. I want to be the best!
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Anybody Want To Know My Crazy Past?
I'm one of those people who has overcome the burden of feeling like one has to lie to get his way around. I feel like I don't really have to hide anything about my life, so much in respect to a few personal things that would probably be better not being discussed about.
I am a truly lucky son of a gun. I can write to people and affect them to the point that they'll respond negatively to me and not do anything physically bad to me. I received two jacked up restraining orders and that didn't keep me from entering a rigorous career field of choice. I made the people who put those restraining orders on me pay very dearly for it, while avoiding prison. I was able to do that because I have been just lucky in those areas of my life. I wish my luck would be a little more fortunate in the area of treating women right and settling down with someone beautiful.
No one is really going to believe me, but I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder while going through puberty. It makes me laugh a lot now thinking about those painful times, but my mom always cries and tells me to never bring it up. My mom told me that if someone doesn't want to hear about your mess, then why do you keep talking about it? I just replied by saying my mom is making me a little mad and that I'm going to work hard to be nice. After I said that, I just kept on talking. I had to repeat that sentence about five times, but it gave me so much creative control over what I wanted to talk about.
I don't currently have symptoms of bi-polar. Heck, if I was in jail for the jacked up restraining order a man (yes, you heard that right) put on me and pranks I did to very angry people then I would admit to anything about how crazy I am and ask for professional help and counseling. There's no such thing as rehab at this point for constantly harassing or stalking people for no reason at all.
There's something called sexual harassment, racial discrimination, and life threats which are horrible things to experience and protected by the law. Other than that, I see that it's really for the taking. You see guys chasing after the same woman whose been turning him down for years and won't let up. She's tired and preaches to other guys not to do that, but the guy is happy because he ended up with her.
I heard actual voices that were so vivid but they were shouting down a tunnel like an echo. Those voices would copy everything I thought. You know how sometimes you can take a random noise like a blow dryer makes and then turn it into whatever tune you want? I had sometimes like that, but they were like actual voices that shouted at me from within an environment. I couldn't even see the person; I only heard the voices, and it was very tormenting to me. I became so depressed, and it was the biggest fight of my life with battling suicidal thoughts. More so, this happened during my tender ages of being a teenager while getting those hormonal imbalances of liking girls and feeling very inferior to other people who looked better than me.
I don't hear voices anymore in my head like that. It occasionally freaks me out, when I feel like I've developed the same symptoms again. Those voices back then hurt me the most when they accused me of being a gay boy. That's why I am absolutely not gay, today; I don't even entertain the idea, but actually, I joke around by pretending to be gay; I don't feel right but yeah, I joke around about it all the time with some guys.
So yeah, that's a portion of my weird and crazy past that no one wants to hear about and will not want to have anything to do with me because of it. What do you know? I have a decent load of friends to cherish and enjoy some times with. I even have been blessed by God with a mom, dad, and sister. Am I right for someone out there? My overall personal appeal could be a little too quirky, but I've been able to find potential matches with some wonderful looking women in the past.
I really don't know if this past is so dirty and crazy that I shouldn't pass on my smart genes that helped me overcome these setbacks. Now that I think of it, then maybe I should go for the best woman out there by preparing myself as a whole person.
I am a truly lucky son of a gun. I can write to people and affect them to the point that they'll respond negatively to me and not do anything physically bad to me. I received two jacked up restraining orders and that didn't keep me from entering a rigorous career field of choice. I made the people who put those restraining orders on me pay very dearly for it, while avoiding prison. I was able to do that because I have been just lucky in those areas of my life. I wish my luck would be a little more fortunate in the area of treating women right and settling down with someone beautiful.
No one is really going to believe me, but I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder while going through puberty. It makes me laugh a lot now thinking about those painful times, but my mom always cries and tells me to never bring it up. My mom told me that if someone doesn't want to hear about your mess, then why do you keep talking about it? I just replied by saying my mom is making me a little mad and that I'm going to work hard to be nice. After I said that, I just kept on talking. I had to repeat that sentence about five times, but it gave me so much creative control over what I wanted to talk about.
I don't currently have symptoms of bi-polar. Heck, if I was in jail for the jacked up restraining order a man (yes, you heard that right) put on me and pranks I did to very angry people then I would admit to anything about how crazy I am and ask for professional help and counseling. There's no such thing as rehab at this point for constantly harassing or stalking people for no reason at all.
There's something called sexual harassment, racial discrimination, and life threats which are horrible things to experience and protected by the law. Other than that, I see that it's really for the taking. You see guys chasing after the same woman whose been turning him down for years and won't let up. She's tired and preaches to other guys not to do that, but the guy is happy because he ended up with her.
I heard actual voices that were so vivid but they were shouting down a tunnel like an echo. Those voices would copy everything I thought. You know how sometimes you can take a random noise like a blow dryer makes and then turn it into whatever tune you want? I had sometimes like that, but they were like actual voices that shouted at me from within an environment. I couldn't even see the person; I only heard the voices, and it was very tormenting to me. I became so depressed, and it was the biggest fight of my life with battling suicidal thoughts. More so, this happened during my tender ages of being a teenager while getting those hormonal imbalances of liking girls and feeling very inferior to other people who looked better than me.
I don't hear voices anymore in my head like that. It occasionally freaks me out, when I feel like I've developed the same symptoms again. Those voices back then hurt me the most when they accused me of being a gay boy. That's why I am absolutely not gay, today; I don't even entertain the idea, but actually, I joke around by pretending to be gay; I don't feel right but yeah, I joke around about it all the time with some guys.
So yeah, that's a portion of my weird and crazy past that no one wants to hear about and will not want to have anything to do with me because of it. What do you know? I have a decent load of friends to cherish and enjoy some times with. I even have been blessed by God with a mom, dad, and sister. Am I right for someone out there? My overall personal appeal could be a little too quirky, but I've been able to find potential matches with some wonderful looking women in the past.
I really don't know if this past is so dirty and crazy that I shouldn't pass on my smart genes that helped me overcome these setbacks. Now that I think of it, then maybe I should go for the best woman out there by preparing myself as a whole person.
Constant Motion Through Hard Work
During these past months, I've been at times agitated to the point of wanting to fantasize the ruining of a few people's lives. It always has to be just that one person to spoil the fun, huh? I must be like that to a few people already too.
The problem really lies in my own sins and not really placing my focus on the right things nor being aware of it. I'm having a little hard time sometimes with fully focusing on stuff at work because I just want to think about something else and have a good time over it or find a solution to it. Luckily, I'm not someone who would be diagnosed with A.D.H.D. because I already am aware of my situation. I just need to make a keen and strong effort- that's about it.
Lately, my mind and heart has been really put to work for overcoming some minor setbacks. I'm really enjoying the ideals of working so hard now. On top of placing God first in my life through the pages of the Scripture, I want to become successful in terms of having lots of money, more intelligent and nice, stylish and cool in terms of fashion with great hygiene, and athletic. I basically think that chasing after the cream-of-the-crop lady to marry will motivate me very strong to pursue after those goals. It just ties really well for me and helps me get my act together.
The problem really lies in my own sins and not really placing my focus on the right things nor being aware of it. I'm having a little hard time sometimes with fully focusing on stuff at work because I just want to think about something else and have a good time over it or find a solution to it. Luckily, I'm not someone who would be diagnosed with A.D.H.D. because I already am aware of my situation. I just need to make a keen and strong effort- that's about it.
Lately, my mind and heart has been really put to work for overcoming some minor setbacks. I'm really enjoying the ideals of working so hard now. On top of placing God first in my life through the pages of the Scripture, I want to become successful in terms of having lots of money, more intelligent and nice, stylish and cool in terms of fashion with great hygiene, and athletic. I basically think that chasing after the cream-of-the-crop lady to marry will motivate me very strong to pursue after those goals. It just ties really well for me and helps me get my act together.
Friday, December 19, 2014
Leviticus 9:21-Leviticus 10:1-3
The last verses of Leviticus 9, starting from Verse 21 is a little confusing. In Verse 21, Aaron takes the breasts and right thigh of the bull or ram and then did a wave offering. I'm not sure if he used both the bull and ram, but they were used for peace offerings. Also, from Verse 21, it says the right thigh like it's being used in singular form, so I wonder if it came from either.
Verses 22-23 state that Aaron lifted his hand toward the people to bless them. I don't understand how this is done yet, so I'm not guessing at the moment and taking it for what it is. Verse 22 also states that Aaron came down from doing the sin offering, burnt offering, and peace offerings. It's like the people were able to see what Aaron was doing. Verse 23 states that Moses and Aaron first went into the tabernacle of meeting and then came out to bless the people. It must have been a moment that felt very good for the people of Israel who were there.
Verse 24 reminds me of like the ultimate finishing move for a fighting video game. It states that fire came out and consumed the burnt offering and the fat on the altar. The funny animation is something I thought would be a knock off version, but I sort of get the idea from it. This is supposed to feel like the most exciting part to me because God said that He would show himself before the people. It's something that the people had never seen before, and this chapter concludes with them shouting and falling on their faces. It's like they were afraid of what they saw. I didn't really expect that to happen.
Overall, I sort of wish that maybe God could have done a more miraculous thing before His people. It actually makes sense for fire to consume and burn livestock. Maybe the way it burned was just one of those days where you felt that it's out of the ordinary and that might have been enough for these people to be convicted that God does exist.
My best friend is a firm believer of God, but his ideas of who God is overrun how God actually portrays Himself in the Bible; I believe that it's a pretty common thing for people to think like this. What I'm saying is that even though these children of Israel were convinced of God leading them through Moses, some of them were still not fully happy about committing to the Lord's ways and wanted to do personal things to get some pleasure out of it that were not aligned with the Lord's commands. Those people just probably had the wrong ideas going for them and couldn't overcome their carnal desires that filled them with lusting for it more.
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Leviticus 10 starts out with Aaron's sons fooling around with the Lord's commands by creating their own incensed fire to offer to the Lord. I remember doing this at a Buddhist temple once; I seriously ticked off my buddies, and I thought I was going to get a heart attack, but fortunately nothing happened. Verse 2 states that Aaron's sons weren't so lucky like I was; they ended up getting burned up by the Lord's fire.
Verse 3 talks about the Lord's explanation for causing this. The Lord commanded Moses to tell Aaron, "By those who come near Me I must be regarded as holy; and before all the people I must be glorified." It seems like Aaron's sons treated these sin offerings, burnt offerings, and peace offerings like it was some sort of game. Maybe they were too immature even though they might have meant good intentions when God called them to be priests. Most definitely though, it serves as a warning for other faithful generations to come. I think this could probably be what fearing the Lord is related to.
What I sort of notice is that Aaron and Moses has some history dealing with God. Moses has this great and intimate relationship with God. However, Aaron sort of knew not to mess with God because he was there all the way with Moses during their time in Egypt with the well-known tale of the seven plagues that terrorized the Pharaoh. It looks like Aaron's sons on the other hand were oblivious about the Lord's ways and were just starting up. How Aaron didn't complain to the Lord about this incident is such a marvel to me. I guess Aaron took it like a man, literally and was still able to be a good man; I believe there are some people who would go crazy from this stressful incident and not function properly.
I guess there's the saying of when the going gets tough, you got to ___ (fill-in). I'm really encouraged by how Aaron who was a lesser man than Moses was able to be a good sport. Being the older brother, it would probably be easy to let the age factor bother him especially in those times. Job is an even greater example of going through hard times and then being rewarded like three-times fold at the end of the book by God. If I was in a bad situation, I would want to ride it out too with the Lord's help and stay right with the Lord's ways; whether the Lord's intentions is to keep me in a tight spot or not.
I sort of feel like in these verses how some people reading this could be like, "Come on, people dying by fire created by God? It's got to be only a myth." Well, I can only hope that maybe someday they'll come to a conviction that the God that exists in the Bible is a true God. If God was truly living and alive and amazing like this, then I'm sure this scene wouldn't be too much of a surprise dealing with God's abilities. That's where I'm at right now, I don't know about you.
Going the Right Way
I'm noticing that for myself, I'm about becoming well-disciplined for myself. This pretty means like no wasting time by looking at pretty girls. Instead of doing that, I'm going to go after what I like to see and try to have a normal conversation with her and see if I can get a date for fun! This is all part of what makes up discipline for me.
Instead of playing very hard video games, which I'm accustomed to passing just for the fun of it; I'm going to start doing some homework that I perceive might pay off no matter how boring I see it as. I think I'm starting to see that my whole life is improving by dedicating myself more to trying to marry the cream-of-the-crop lady. This means for all the preparations I'm doing, I'm benefiting myself as a whole. I don't know who the best girl in the planet for me is yet, but I do know that I'm confident and willing to do what it takes to eventually settle down with her.
In the mean time, if it doesn't work out like I thought, at least I'll end up with a killer body, more sense of personal style, and lots of money. I don't think it's going to be a bad constellation prize then. This is pretty much my ultimate goal that gets even better now because it's just two things in my life to live for and is starting to tie together.
1. Living a Christ-centered life based off of studying the Bible verse-by-verse.
2. Working hard to marry and keep around a beautiful girl like this.
Thursday, December 18, 2014
Beat My Old Score
If you look at it more closely, the stats say that I won 44 times in a row with Microsoft's Free Cell, a variation of the popular game Solitaire. Here, I'm about to win 45 times in a row. Just as Microsoft's old Internet games suite contains, how about that?
If you look closely at my Fun Reminders, which is using Sticky-Notes, you will notice the acronym BET. I bet your life that following what I'm doing will end up making you happy, if it's something you put your heart into.
I'm retiring now as a pretty decent Free Cell gamer. I'm putting my focus more into BET-ing.
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
General Idea
Some days just suck. No other way to put it. I'm forcing myself to like people I'm angry with, so I can teach them a lesson and be happy while I get away with it and then move on to other things. For those religious people, I could claim that two people know that person isn't equipped to serve Jesus right. It's him or her and then me! That makes two of us claiming the person isn't that great to begin with.
Okay, that was so funny to put that and I am enjoying sharing the idea. I am going to make that pastor with some vanity issues cry so much. Okay, on to the next best thing. I think it's really about maintaining a constant and steady path without lingering out of it so much.
I learned from my mom, so listen up boys because it makes a whole lot of sense, if you want to get your pick among the cream of the crop for a lady to marry then you have to be successful in terms of having money, intelligent, nice enough, stylish in a very cool way with great hygiene, and athletic. What if you don't have one of those qualities? Then you have to work hard for it, nothing comes cheap. What if it's too hard of a task to accomplish?
Well, if something is so hard and you feel like relenting over it while feeling like you can compensate for it while doing something else, then you are a loser! Maybe you were just meant to be that way. I'm sorry, there's nothing I can do for you with your small depression of loneliness and feeling special while you are the lone wolf. I'm a man with ambitions and happy to be alive and able, even though God is so high and mighty; I will honor and respect the Lord's ways as much as possible while I live my life.
Actually what people say about you doesn't really have much with what you actually do, so those gossip circles as scary as they are affect the ordinary crowd. You can just go after shining while being above and beyond.
Being tall or short, which I struggle with because I'm short doesn't matter from just being part of the looks category. Actually being short is more than just looks, it's also striking the emotional and security zone of a woman. Short guys are going to have to be diligent and figure out how good to come across to make the girl feel good about them, just as they already feel with the tall guy. It's just extra homework for me then. It's also just one of many different factors.
There's not a lot of research done for short guys because most guys are just average, so the short man has to pretty much come up with hitting one big home run that wins like the World Series to succeed in getting the hottest girl out there. There's one charming and handsome Hollywood actor who is one of the shortest ever while standing at 5' 1", but had the right qualities of a leading man- he did marry the hottest wife at the time and even cheated on her! Ugly but successful guys have fallen happily in love with beautiful women, too; it happens. Let go of those feelings of guilt and inferiority. I'm actually saying that for myself as well.
How Success Might Make Sense
I'm going to get back to my Bible studies again tomorrow and at a later time. One of my weaknesses is that I'm not really a streaky or habitual type person. I need constant reminders, but what I seem to be good at is bugging people who tick me off so much and are so helpless to get me in trouble for it! They end up doing stuff that gets me even more angrier, and it doesn't make them stop no matter how I confront them. I guess this is how you live life sometimes; you just have to deal with how it is.
I haven't been able to confront a person I totally like while I'm angry. I actually avoid making people mad to those I really like. If they get mad, then most likely I find something faulty about them and start disliking them. It gets ugly from there!
How does this all relate to success in the first place? Well, it doesn't! Loosely, I can just say, you have to know yourself and what I just put is something I realized for like the first time in my life because I worded it differently.
Going Back To Bible
Right now, I feel like taking a short, 2 and a half mile run up and down a big hill! I literally do it and think it's manageable even though some people think I'm so hardcore for doing that. The average person is decent at running but not quicker than me, yes, especially with all the ladies. Well, no contest please, I need to be careful how I write and run my mouth.
These days it feels like my fear of hearing cops roam all over the place and are out to get me don't really bother me anymore. I see a cop car on average everyday. It gets sometimes annoying because I want to drive really fast in my mustang. I have to slow down and act like I'm a good driver so I don't get pulled over and ticketed for my commercial driver license.
These days it feels like my fear of hearing cops roam all over the place and are out to get me don't really bother me anymore. I see a cop car on average everyday. It gets sometimes annoying because I want to drive really fast in my mustang. I have to slow down and act like I'm a good driver so I don't get pulled over and ticketed for my commercial driver license.
Friday, December 12, 2014
Leviticus 9:5-20
Leviticus 9:5 starts out with Moses getting the congregation to draw near to the tabernacle of meeting. This chapter is where things start getting pretty interesting. In verse 6, Moses states that after carrying out God's command of making the sin offerings, burnt offerings, and peace offerings, He will appear before the congregation.
Verse 7 pretty much confirms that Aaron had sinned as Moses was smart enough to find out somehow, and how Moses made his older brother carry out a sin offering to atone for himself and then for the people. This is where I think doctrine could get a little tricky in that maybe some wise guy out there might think he has the power to atone for his own sins and others like Aaron did.
Aaron didn't really have the power to forgive sins or wipe them out because it was basically carrying out God's command to obtain forgiveness of one's sins. The Bible says currently in the New Testament so it applies to today, that to obtain forgiveness of sins, one has to confess his or her sins, repent of that nature when it comes to his or her knowledge, and believe upon Christ, the Son of God, who died for our sins on the cross. I think because of Christ being the initiator and finisher of having our sins blotted out from getting forgiveness, it doesn't really fit in how some believers are called upon today to be priests like Aaron was. To go far as to say, it's something spiritual well, it seems to be sketchy. It looks like Jesus is the only needed, ultimate, and perfect priest we can go to for atonement as described in the book of Hebrews.
Verse 8 says that Aaron used a calf for a sin offering which is an interesting choice, considering how the previous chapters started out with saying to use a lamb or a goat. I'm not sure if the calf had to be male or not. However, when the common people did a sin offering, the animal had to be female! Maybe the females actually carried a little more value for livestock in family and God wanted the best. However, in a chauvinistic culture like back then, I'm sure it would be easy to write this off and be like yeah, always go for the males!
It looks like if any animal of a herd was lacking in stock, then God was open to allowing another kind to be used for a sin offering. This goes to show that God isn't very picky and so stringent like some religious people could become. He just gave out a command to be observed, which does seem to be a lot of work! For back then, I wouldn't really want to even unintentionally sin after reading these verses, but I know I wouldn't be able to help it. I am thankful for us living in the New Testament and how Christ fits in the picture for all of us believers. I am grateful but don't want to fall out and become spiritually lazy.
Verses 9-11 describe the usual procedure of the priest using the blood of the sin offering and burning all of the fat. Verse 10 is interesting in that says that the kidneys were also burnt. I thought it was just the fat everywhere, but for some reason, maybe the kidneys were too fatty. From a medical standpoint, the kidneys filter the blood to produce urine. God did command the people of Israel to abstain from eating blood of any living creature, so maybe that's why the kidneys were omitted. Verse 11 talks about how because the blood of the calf was used to make atonement in a sin offering, everything was burned up outside the camp.
For verses 12-15, it gets to the burnt offering. It looks like even though the blood was sprinkled all around the altar, it wasn't used for atonement but from what I remember with the previous chapters, it could be for consecration or maybe, it was just continuing a ceremonial practice. Therefore, Aaron and his sons will get a chance to chow down on the burnt offering afterwards.
Verse 15 talks about how Aaron took a goat for a sin offering. It doesn't say if the goat was a female or not, but most likely, it could be from what the earlier chapters are inferring. From my last post, I was able to find out from Leviticus 4 that when the common people did a sin offering, it had to be female. From Verse 15 as well, it looks like that one goat was good enough for the whole congregation to atone for sins. That seems pretty nice in a way because God didn't require everybody to individually sacrifice their goat.
Verse 17 refers back the grain offering. The priest is supposed to burn a handful of grain that was mixed with frankincense and oil and then burn it. The rest becomes the priest's share. This was talked about in the previous chapters. Maybe the grain offering would probably be the most common and accessible to do later on, with the people getting some fertile land to live off of (the promised land). What's even more nice is that God stated that the grain offering was the most holy offering, and I think could be used for a sin offering. It said something about the person could do a grain offering to atone for unintentional sins, but it probably stretches far to coming to the knowledge of the sin.
Verse 18 talks about a bull and ram was used for a peace offering and that was enough to cover for the people! That's pretty awesome in that it looks like God didn't keep a tab on the maximum number of people that would be accounted for sacrificing a livestock. I just noticed for the peace offering, even though the people could have offered female livestock, God specifically wanted males for the peace offering. A bull and a ram are pretty much the male form of a cow and goat respectively.
Verse 20 talks about a weird procedure I haven't read about yet, but it says placing fat on the breast of a bull or the ram and then burning the fat on the altar. It then goes on to the wave offering in verse 21, which is confusing me. Aaron would take the breasts and right thigh and then wave it; I don't really know the significance too well but I think I said from earlier that maybe, it was the intent of publicly acknowledging an obedient heart with the Lord. Secondly, I said that it looked like this was done before burning it in the altar. Maybe the breasts and right thigh (possible symbol to Jacob's thigh getting touched up by God after their wrestling match) were the best part of the livestock and so this was like an offering to the Lord before the priests got to chow down on it.
Looks like I'm out of time to blog for today, so I will have to leave the grand finale for tomorrow, Sunday, or Monday. I might be off to take a short vacation and won't have that much access to a computer. I'll be taking my laptop along, so I don't know maybe I'll put something up on this blog tomorrow, if I'm not feeling lazy with it being the weekend and away from doing my normal routine.
Who knows, if I cut it out I might not be writing about the Bible for awhile again and go back to my regular posts that don't really gather that much attention anyway. It's funny in that from not going in depth with Leviticus in the past, I was really bored about reading this book. From me, just diving into it all of a sudden for a challenge, I feel a whole lot happier for some reason and content about fearing the Lord's goodness and wanting to obey God more willfully while having a less tortured heart.
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Leviticus 9:1-4
Looks like I might have goofed a little, but not completely in that I said that the people were able to hold the horns of an animal that was being sacrificed. Also, maybe a female from the flock being offered didn't have horns either, so it might have to be holding the head for all cases. I just read there are over 210 different breeds of goats now and that some females do have horns. I must have read something in between the lines to say they had to hold the horns, but going back it just says holding on to the head of the animal. Maybe, they could have but I'm not going to stand by it anymore. I'm basically going to change that comment from my posts to reflect myself on being more up to date.
Leviticus 9 starts out with after the seven-day, consecration period had ended for Aaron and his sons, Moses commanded Aaron to do another sin offering with a young bull and then a burnt offering of a ram, both without any blemish. This would mean that the bull would not be eaten and completely burnt down because it was used for atonement. The ram, on the other hand, could be chowed down upon after being offered to the Lord. I wonder if Aaron and his sons were forced to fast, but no verse says they had to so far. Also, it looks like maybe Aaron felt like questioning his role of becoming a priest for a little bit because Moses told him to do a sin offering. I would be so bored being stuck in one place for a whole week and not really moving around! That alone would make me feel like going crazy and possibly sin unintentionally.
Leviticus 4:3 talks about how if an anointed priest like Aaron sinned, then he had to sacrifice a young bull without blemish as a sin offering, which looks like what happened. Leviticus 4:13 says if the whole congregation sinned, then the elders laid their hands on the head of a bull before it was killed right outside the tabernacle of meeting. From verses 1-2, it looks like Moses said it directly to Aaron, the anointed priest, to offer a young bull for a sin offering so therefore Aaron was the one at fault for having sinned.
Verses 3-4 sounds pretty amazing in that the Lord said He was going to appear before the children of Israel. Therefore, God commanded them to use a kid of a goat as a sin offering, take a calf and a lamb of the first year, both without blemish, for a burnt offering, a bull and ram for as peace offerings, and a grain offering mixed with oil. Wow, this is such a handful of stuff to sacrifice!
These were talked about from the earlier chapters. Loosely, I recall from Leviticus 4:23 that a male kid of a goat without blemish had to be a sin offering of a ruler. Here, it doesn't mention if the kid had to be male. The burnt offering originally goes back to Leviticus 1:3 and Leviticus 1:10. So far the only exception I've seen for allowing a female to be sacrificed voluntarily deals with the peace offering. From Leviticus 4:28 and 4:32, it gets interesting in that it's mandatory to use a female kid or lamb for a sin offering, which would have be done by common folks like you and me!
From visiting verses 3-4 again, it looks like females could have been used for the peace offering. I'm not sure if a female kid of a goat was used for the sin offering because it dealt with the common people of Israel getting together, but it would have been that way anyway if they went separately. From what I've read so far, the burnt offerings had to be a male without blemish. I think there's some meaning to all of this and I'm a little out of time with blogging so I'm going to cut it short here and go again tomorrow.
From having dedicated myself so far to studying verse by verse out of this tedious book Leviticus on a daily basis, I'm amazed at how much it's been really putting my heart at ease. I'm just going through reading the Bible and trying to make sense of what's going on and that's about it.
Leviticus 9 starts out with after the seven-day, consecration period had ended for Aaron and his sons, Moses commanded Aaron to do another sin offering with a young bull and then a burnt offering of a ram, both without any blemish. This would mean that the bull would not be eaten and completely burnt down because it was used for atonement. The ram, on the other hand, could be chowed down upon after being offered to the Lord. I wonder if Aaron and his sons were forced to fast, but no verse says they had to so far. Also, it looks like maybe Aaron felt like questioning his role of becoming a priest for a little bit because Moses told him to do a sin offering. I would be so bored being stuck in one place for a whole week and not really moving around! That alone would make me feel like going crazy and possibly sin unintentionally.
Leviticus 4:3 talks about how if an anointed priest like Aaron sinned, then he had to sacrifice a young bull without blemish as a sin offering, which looks like what happened. Leviticus 4:13 says if the whole congregation sinned, then the elders laid their hands on the head of a bull before it was killed right outside the tabernacle of meeting. From verses 1-2, it looks like Moses said it directly to Aaron, the anointed priest, to offer a young bull for a sin offering so therefore Aaron was the one at fault for having sinned.
Verses 3-4 sounds pretty amazing in that the Lord said He was going to appear before the children of Israel. Therefore, God commanded them to use a kid of a goat as a sin offering, take a calf and a lamb of the first year, both without blemish, for a burnt offering, a bull and ram for as peace offerings, and a grain offering mixed with oil. Wow, this is such a handful of stuff to sacrifice!
These were talked about from the earlier chapters. Loosely, I recall from Leviticus 4:23 that a male kid of a goat without blemish had to be a sin offering of a ruler. Here, it doesn't mention if the kid had to be male. The burnt offering originally goes back to Leviticus 1:3 and Leviticus 1:10. So far the only exception I've seen for allowing a female to be sacrificed voluntarily deals with the peace offering. From Leviticus 4:28 and 4:32, it gets interesting in that it's mandatory to use a female kid or lamb for a sin offering, which would have be done by common folks like you and me!
From visiting verses 3-4 again, it looks like females could have been used for the peace offering. I'm not sure if a female kid of a goat was used for the sin offering because it dealt with the common people of Israel getting together, but it would have been that way anyway if they went separately. From what I've read so far, the burnt offerings had to be a male without blemish. I think there's some meaning to all of this and I'm a little out of time with blogging so I'm going to cut it short here and go again tomorrow.
From having dedicated myself so far to studying verse by verse out of this tedious book Leviticus on a daily basis, I'm amazed at how much it's been really putting my heart at ease. I'm just going through reading the Bible and trying to make sense of what's going on and that's about it.
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Leviticus 8:18-36
Finishing from we left off, verses 18-21 talk about how Moses sacrificed a ram for a burnt offering. This one is different from the sin offering that was made in the earlier verses. Verse 22 brought up something I haven't read about yet in the other chapters, which is sacrificing a second ram for consecration. Verses 23-24 talk about how after Moses killed it, he took some of its blood and put it on the tip of Aaron's right ear, on the thumb of his right hand, and on the big toe of his right foot. He did the same to Aaron's sons and then sprinkled the blood all around the altar.
Verses 26-27 describe a little more about the procedure of doing a wave offering. I don't know what its significance is for right now. Moses put an unleavened cake, a bread cake anointed with oil, one wafer onto all the animal fat and then put it into the hands of Aaron and his sons. He then had them wave for a wave offering. I seriously don't know what this is about, and it seems a little silly to me.
Verse 28 says that after the wave offering, Moses took all of them out of Aaron and his sons' hands and then burned them on the altar to make the consecration offering. Okay, so now it looks like before an offering is burnt on the altar, it gets waved to the Lord to show the fear of wanting to remember and abide by God's commandments or something like that.
Verse 29 talks about how Moses took the breast of the ram and waved it before the Lord. This verse says it was part of the consecration offering, so I think it implies that Moses burned it on the altar after. In Verse 30, Moses took some of the anointing oil and some of the blood that was on the altar and then sprinkled it on Aaron, his sons, and their garments. I remember from the earlier chapters that the holy garments sprinkled with blood had to be washed in a holy place, which is the court of the tabernacle.
Verse 31 is where Moses commanded Aaron and his sons to eat the ram of consecration after having boiled it at the door of the tabernacle of meeting. From what I remember earlier, they had to eat the meat with unleavened bread in a holy place, which is the court of the tabernacle inside the tent. Verse 32 said that the remainder of the meat and bread had to burned with fire. I don't know if this is to discourage people from eating leftovers, but it seems more along the lines of burning up garbage. I remember from earlier that the excess meat for a voluntary, peace offering could be kept for three days before burning it. For this consecration offering, there's also the burning of unleavened bread from the consecration basket involved.
The ram of consecration was not used to make atonement for sins, so it was allowed to be eaten by the priests. Verses 33-34 talk about how Aaron and his sons had to participate in a consecration ritual by staying inside the tabernacle of meeting for seven days. By doing so, the Lord will have like prepared them for their role of being priests and to also make atonement for their sins.
Verse 35 says that if they leave the tent for any reason, then the Lord might kill them off. Verse 36 states that Aaron and his sons did everything that the Lord commanded which was delivered by Moses. Now after reading through this chapter, I don't think I want to go through the hassle of being a priest in the Old Testament. It seems like a lot of work and having to live with a very strict diet doesn't really seem like a very enriching life to begin with. I don't really feel so jealous about Aaron and his sons anymore. They just accepted their role, as the Lord had commanded and chose them!
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
Leviticus 8:1-17
Leviticus 8 is a very complicated chapter so far for me. It seems like it's talking about Moses going through the motion of making animal sacrifices before the Lord to ceremonially induct Aaron and his sons into becoming priests. There are a bunch of details in here that I don't really understand. Moses was commanded by God to specifically do these rituals, and they must have some significance. It looks like Moses can technically be a priest already because God did call the males of his tribe, the Levites to do so for generations to come. If this isn't known yet, Aaron is the older brother of Moses!
Verses 3-4 talk about how God commanded Moses to gather the congregation at the door of the tabernacle of meeting. Verse 6 talks about Moses washing Aaron and his sons with water; I don't think they had to strip buck naked because the verse that referred to this a few chapters ago says to just bathe them in water. Someone is still watching the priests being washed; man, I'm not feeling attracted about some stinky odors. Imagine having to go through this humbling act in front of the whole people of Israel. My buddy doesn't like to show off his body because he hates his birthmark!
Verses 7-9 talk about Moses clothing Aaron with the holy garments that were created by the gifted craftsmen and as commanded by God. Moses basically put on a tunic, sash, robe, ephod, breastplate, and turban. Verse 10-12 talk about Moses using an anointing oil to consecrate the tabernacle and all that was in it, the altar by sprinkling it seven times, and then poured some of it over Aaron's head. Man, I feel a little jealous over Aaron getting some holy treatment if you know what I mean. In the New Testament, I recall from John 12:3 how Jesus was blessed by Mary after being poured a pint of expensive perfume on his feet. I don't know if this Mary is the mother of Jesus or the other Mary yet. I even heard that in Mexico, if you shout Mary down a tunnel with a bunch of women walking through it, many of them will turn their heads to look at you.
In verse 13, Moses ended up doing the same thing to Aaron's sons but instead he put hats on them! This is sort of funny to me because they made hats back then. It reminds me the saying of wearing different hats. Oh wow, in verse 14, Aaron and the sons participated in what I think is the first sin offering by laying their hands on the horn of the bull, but in this verse it states they held the head. Basically, this means the first priests were having like a humble beginning by confessing their sins to God before the whole congregation. Maybe based on this verse, when multiple people participated in the sin offering like the one with elders doing it for the congregation, they just needed to at least hold on to the head.
Verse 15 states that Moses ended up making atonement for the altar by using the blood killed from the bull. This verse even describes that the altar has some horns, which is a little scary but okay. Verse 16 states that after Moses killed the bull, he took all of the animal fat found everywhere in the trunk and burned it on the altar.
Verse 17 ties it up by saying that the whole bull that was used for atonement was burned up outside the camp. This goes back to the previous chapters saying that no one could eat the meat where its blood was used to make atonement of sins. This makes a little more sense now with how the priests get to eat meat.
I feel like how someone can loosely tie this to saying that if Moses did sacrificial offerings to make atonement then why can't I? Moses was pretty much related to Aaron in family blood, so it makes sense that God could use Moses to induct Aaron to be the first priest. Another verse from earlier in the Bible talked about how God said that Moses would be seen upon as like God to the whole children of Israel and that Aaron would be like the main helper. Moses was specifically chosen to partake of this and I don't think it fits in saying that we are like priests from the Old Testament, just because. God pretty much blessed the whole people of Israel to be His children, but only one tribe, the Levites were called to be responsible for the priesthood.
Monday, December 8, 2014
After Thought of Leviticus 7
After reading through this chapter, it reminds me loosely that even though the people from that messed up and very small church kicked me out of there which I'm fine with now, it makes me feel a little like how they cast me as unclean and that I did something worthy of being banned from their community. They did a pretty horrible job at it though, but nonetheless, I have to give them credit for helping me get a better understanding what being isolated is about. After watching a movie, I really feel cool about leaving them alone after confronting them once and they tell me to leave. It's just that I finally figured out they were being unintentionally bad about the situation, and I might be able to get them back to square one.
I feel so much cooler in the head now, instead of getting that hotheadedness and wanting to just yell at them all over the place and just go crazy while lambasting them. I had this incident where my dad said something that made me really mad underneath. I was thinking to myself that I want to yell, then I proceeded to talk calmly after taking a breather and describe the situation to him; my dad ended up letting go of the misunderstanding. My dad is very what you call picky with his battles and will go all out about an issue he finds wrong with me. If I was able to resolve this situation successfully and have my dad's heart find some rest, then I might be able to bury the hatchet with those troubled church people now.
I'm pretty busy so I'm adding that I'm going to try to put in some work out and then get around to trading some stocks. I've been trying to find some dates online too just for fun. I'm only interested in friendship so far. I'd like to gain some experience in this area and spend some meaningful time while developing good relationships with nice and attractive ladies. Maybe I'll get to do all of this right after I wake up. Anyhow the opportunities seem to present itself nicely and I'm so far only getting back responses for short periods of them from some alleged females.
I feel so much cooler in the head now, instead of getting that hotheadedness and wanting to just yell at them all over the place and just go crazy while lambasting them. I had this incident where my dad said something that made me really mad underneath. I was thinking to myself that I want to yell, then I proceeded to talk calmly after taking a breather and describe the situation to him; my dad ended up letting go of the misunderstanding. My dad is very what you call picky with his battles and will go all out about an issue he finds wrong with me. If I was able to resolve this situation successfully and have my dad's heart find some rest, then I might be able to bury the hatchet with those troubled church people now.
I'm pretty busy so I'm adding that I'm going to try to put in some work out and then get around to trading some stocks. I've been trying to find some dates online too just for fun. I'm only interested in friendship so far. I'd like to gain some experience in this area and spend some meaningful time while developing good relationships with nice and attractive ladies. Maybe I'll get to do all of this right after I wake up. Anyhow the opportunities seem to present itself nicely and I'm so far only getting back responses for short periods of them from some alleged females.
Leviticus 7
Leviticus 7: 1-8 summarizes the law of the trespass offering. From verse 1, it says that it is the most holy. The kill is made and from what I remember in previous chapters, the person guilty of the sin ends up holding down the head of the livestock. If the whole congregation was at fault, then the elders of the tribes will hold down the head. After removing all the fat around the entrails and organs inside the trunk the priest burns it and sprinkles the blood all around the altar to make atonement.
Verse 7 states that the priest who made the atonement gets to have it. I read from the last chapter, the animal with the blood that was used to make atonement must be left burning in the fire and not eaten. I'm not sure if God is allowing an exception here. Verse 6 does state that a burnt offering can be touched and eaten by all the male priests.
Verses 9-10 talk about how the grain offerings after a portion of it being sacrificed to God belongs to all of the priests.
Verses 11-20 then go on to talk about the peace offerings. This one is interesting in that I recall the story of how King David was able to eat cakes that were supposed to be for the priests. God did not hold David at fault for doing so which makes it seem like the peace offering could be the most lenient of all the sacrificial offerings.
My favorite offering would still be the grain offering because I'm a meat lover and I think the smell of oil and frankincense burning to make atonement for a sin might be nice! Verse 16 mentions that the peace offering can be done of a voluntary nature. I guess because of that, verse 13 states that the person can offer leavened bread for the sacrifice of thanksgiving with his peace offering.
Verse 14 also talks about the person having to make a heave offering by offering one more cake. I don't know what this is really about. It looks like it's a form of payment for the priest that sprinkled the blood of the peace offering.
Verse 15 gets very detailed in that the flesh of the sacrifice needs to eaten the same day after being burnt. The rest of it has to be discarded.
Verse 16 states that if a person sacrificed meat in excess by just making it voluntary then they can eat it the second day. Verse 17 says for the third day, all of the remainder would have to be burned with fire. Verse 18 prohibits anyone from eating the meat on the third day. I guess the meat starts rotting and gets pretty unsanitary by then. Imagine having no refrigerator and all that flesh lying around; that might actually be nasty considering I'm a fan of beef!
Verse 19 states that if the cut up meat makes contact with an unclean item then it can't be eaten. All of that good meat would then have to go to waste by being burned up in flames! Verse 20 talks about the concept of being clean and unclean for the priests. The priest can do some messy stuff and then be called unclean- if he is to eat clean meat while unclean then he gets cut off from the people.
Verse 24 allows the children of Israel to use fat of animals that died naturally or were torn by wild beasts. They just can't eat it. Verse 25 states anyone who gets caught eating the fat has to be cut off from the community. Verse 26-27 says the same consequence applies if the person eats blood of a bird or beast. I know how in the Philippines and in Africa, the inhabitants there have a common thing for drinking cow's blood. I haven't really tried it, but I heard it tastes pretty good. Well, this law of God did only apply to the children of Israel back then.
Verse 30-31 talks about the wave offering! I don't know what this is. All that is clear is that the person provides the fat of an animal.
Verse 32 says to offer the right thigh to the priest who makes the peace offering for a heave offering, which I don't understand either. I recall Jacob getting his thigh bone dislocated after wrestling with a man. In that chapter, the description says that Jacob had a fairly even match with God, until Jacob got popped right there.
Verse 38 describes how all of these commandments were given to Moses who was with God on Mount Sinai.
Saturday, December 6, 2014
Leviticus 6
In verse 2, instead of still discussing about accidental sins, it is now covering what looks to be deliberate sins. I'm sure many would agree here in that a sin would be a person lying to you about personal things you've entrusted to him or found a way to extort you of any possessions. It's obviously morally wrong if a person does that to you. Verse 3 makes it a little more detailed and might get harder in that if you swear an oath while lying regarding a possession you found, then you are guilty of also sinning.
My sister found someone's prized baseball card once and brought it home. She was talking about how the guy was wondering where his card went and was going crazy while searching for it. She didn't say anything, so I don't know in the Bible yet if God is supposed to hold her accountable. I don't know what happened to that card now though. I once stole two dollars from a classmate when I was in second grade. I gave it back to him, but then that commercial of getting two Big Macs for two dollars was so good that I stole it again and said nothing. My classmate was so perplexed and never suspected me from displaying my angel face. I then showed my mom, and well, I had the nerve to tell her how I got the money and then she punished me so much. With the money, I think she still kept it for herself. My mom really spanked me and implanted in me very quick the guilt of stealing, so I never got around to taking another person's lunch money again.
Verse 4 states that from us having sinned and being found guilty, what God commanded us to do is restore what was stolen or extorted or the lost thing that was found. In addition, you are to restore its full value and add one-fifth more to it and then give it to the owner. This is in addition to doing a trespass offering. Wow, the consequences of having sinned is so much work. Why not just be on God's good side and never sin?
Verse 6 mentions that the trespass offering given to the Lord is a ram without blemish from the flock; and also, there needed to be a professional estimated value of the property that was wrongfully taken. Verse 7 concludes the trespass offering with the priest having made atonement.
Verse 9 mentions the law of the burnt offering which is pretty much about keeping the fire on altar from never burning out. This is interesting in that to remove the ashes from the altar the priest has to first put on his holy garments before moving them beside the altar. Then he needs to take them off before going to throw away the ashes outside the camp in a clean area. Maybe it was to not get it all dirty.
Verse 14-23 covers the law of the grain offering. Verse 16 states that the remainder of the grain offering is to be eaten with unleavened bread in a holy place; in the court of the tabernacle of meeting. Verse 17 talks about a portion of the grain offering given to Aaron and his sons is the most holy. Verse 18 pretty much sums it up in that this holy food will be only for Aaron and his male descendants who become priests. Verse 23 pretty much says to refrain from eating part of the grain offering if you are not a priest.
Verse 25 states that the burnt offering and sin offering are killed in the same place. After the sin offering is killed, it becomes the most holy. Verse 26 states that the priest who made it a sin offering gets to eat it in the holy place- the court of the tabernacle of meeting. Now, I feel a little jealous that the priest had this privilege of getting free food for his services. Verse 27 says the sin offering that was burned must be handled only by people God said are holy. Verse 29 says that these people are the male priests, descendants of Aaron or the tribe of Levites! If the blood from the offering was sprinkled on any garment, then the garment has to be washed in a holy place.
Verse 28 says that if the food was boiled in a pot then after its use, it needs to be like smashed and broken into pieces. It sounds pretty amusing. If it was boiled in a bronze pot, then it needs to be scoured and rinsed in water; it seems sort of like doing the dishes. Maybe there were some possible contaminants that could accumulate and God didn't want that to happen.
Verse 30 pretty much says something like if the blood of a sin offering was used to make atonement, then it can't be eaten and must be kept burning in the fire. So, it looks like for the burnt offering the priests get to eat it, but not with the one that was used to make atonement.
After reading this passage, what comes to my mind is that the dude at my old retreat who spoke about Christians being like priests in the Old Testament in regards to these modern days, might have been a little out of it! How can all of God's people be a pastor to begin with? The New Testament talks about how among God's people, they were meant to born and gifted in a variety of ways. In the time of Moses, there were gifted craftsman but God did not call them to be part of Aaron's priesthood.
I think the more accurate assessment for believers so far is that Jesus is the ultimate priest we can go to for atonement of our sins. The New Testament talks about how Christ, God's Son is the mediator that bridges our relationship between God the Father. What makes it crazy and might be hard to even grasp for some is that Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit are all the same and share one body. Only God can do the impossible like this- a verse says that nothing is impossible for God.
Friday, December 5, 2014
Leviticus 5
Leviticus 5:1 states that a person sins if he became a witness to an oath by seeing or just knowing about it and then does not tell it. It's pretty interesting how God takes the swearing of an oath very seriously. Verse 4 states that the person is guilty if he is unaware of having said such an oath.
Verse 2 talks about a person being unclean by touching some dead animals that could be plagued with diseases or something like that. You wouldn't want to touch a dead animal that's been rotting for days because it could be infested with so many germs and make you sick! Fungi act as decomposers, which break down dead plants and animals. They are poisonous for the normal, human body. It states that even if the person is unaware of this, he is still guilty!
Verse 6 states that these types of sins are trespassing against the Lord and needs a trespass offering. The sin offering has to be a female lamb or kid of the goats.
Verse 7 states if he can't bring one from the flock then he can bring two turtledoves or two young pigeons. One of the birds is used as a sin offering and the other is used as a burnt offering. Verse 10 mentions that the priest makes atonement on behalf of the sin committed.
Verse 11 states that if the person can't bring either then he is to bring one-tenth of an ephah of fine flour as a sin offering. I don't know what an ephah is but okay. This time, the person isn't to put oil nor frankincense on it because it's a sin offering. Verse 12 states that the priest burns a portion of it on the altar for a memorial and the rest belongs to the priest for a grain offering. From remembering the last chapter, God seems to favor the grain offering the most by calling it the most holy offering!
Verse 15 states if the person commits these types of sins which is trespassing the Lord and sins unintentionally, then he needs to bring a ram without blemish from the flocks, along with shekels of silver. Verse 16 states that the silver is pretty much paying like a fine and then has to add one-fifth to it and give it to the priest. The priest ends up making atonement for the sin and then he becomes forgiven.
Verse 17 summarizes that a person making an unintentionally sin is still guilty for having committed it. One of my friends asked me that if his dumb brother was sinning against God and doesn't know of it, then is God going to be more lenient? Looks like based on what I've been reading in the Bible so far, it comes down to if the friend's brother has confessed his sin and been forgiven of it.
Even with having erred while being ignorant, God states in verse 19, "It is a trespass offering; he has certainly trespassed against the Lord."
I now understand a little better from how I communicated my emotional justifications. It caused even more frustration with those church people who kicked me out of their congregation. I was like, "I'm not sure, tell me what it is, what I did." They would just start fuming whenever I talked like that and sense that I was ready to break down and cry or something. They would shout at me, "Go get help!" They were convinced that I was guilty of something and needed to receive this respective punishment. In all actuality, they were just under a state of predisposition and frustrated very heavily like I mentioned from the last post. It caused them to sin unrelentingly and ignore the values of the Holy Spirit their church was so heavy to emphasize on. They did it unintentionally, but based on what I've been reading; they are still guilty of having sinned and should confess it.
I think the New Testament states somewhere that even though believers err in sin, Jesus became like the ultimate sacrificial lamb and died to atone for the sins of the past, present, and the future. It looks like so far to me that as long as the Christian trusts in Jesus to be his or her Lord and Savior and continues to be changed and repents then he or she shall receive forgiveness of all sins that went unnoticed.
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Leviticus 4
Leviticus 4 starts out with revealing how a person can unintentionally sin and that even the anointed priest can as well. They are to sacrifice a bull and turn the whole body into ashes. The method still remains the same with the earlier chapters by removing all the fat and killing it outside the tabernacle of meeting. A lot of it seems to also be about sprinkling and pouring the blood of the livestock too.
In the New Testament, it talks quite a bit about how Jesus shed his blood on the cross or that's what I heard often while going to sermons. Maybe, there's a relation to the shedding of blood with a sacrificial animal and to Christ who did it to atone for all the sins of his believers.
Also I think there's a relation to Adam and Eve in that they were first to sin against God and how after that, sin became introduced into the world and flesh. What Paul states in the New Testament is that flesh is weak but the Spirit is willing. This means that even though we sin without knowing it sometimes, God can still forgive us of them if we are willing to confess Jesus to be our Lord and Savior and repent of it.
Verse 13 gets interesting in that God states that even the whole congregation of Israel can become guilty of unintentionally sinning. In verse 15, I thought that the priest took care of holding the livestock but in this case and from before, the person responsible for the sin clings on to the head of the animal being sacrificed, before the blood is shed. To atone for a whole congregation's unintentional sin, God commanded the elders of the tribes of Israel to cling on to the head before the sacrifice was made.
Verse 17 talks about the priest dipping his finger in blood and then sprinkling it seven times in front of the veil of an altar, which I think is the most holy place. In the Bible, the number seven represents God or perfection. Jesus commanded his appointed disciple Peter to forgive others 7 times seventy times, which translates to infinite!
Verse 20 states that after the priest completes the ritual of the bull being offered as a sin offering, he makes atonement for the people and the Lord forgives them. It's interesting how God uses a mediator like Jesus for example is the ultimate mediator for being atoned of all sins!
Verse 22-23 talks about how if a ruler has sinned unintentionally, then they are to offer a male kid of the goats without a blemish. The ruler then lays his hands on the goat before it is killed.
In verse 32, a commoner like most of us can unintentionally sin but just needs to bring a sin offering. Maybe God was more flexible to us back then because we probably didn't have the luxury of certain livestock from some of us being too poor. This verse is really interesting in that if the person offers a lamb, it has to be a female without any defects! Wow, I don't know what that signifies really but instead of being male, the Lord allowed for a female which is huge for way back then.
Based on this chapter, I realized that some members of a congregation who self-appointed themselves as leaders unintentionally sinned against me by kicking me out of their church. I tell this story to some people, and they just laugh about it! I was really angry and making fun of them and doing all sorts to things to get my fill of vengeance to release all of that pent-up frustration. They went far as to call the cops on me and desensitize themselves over watching me get hand-cuffed and detained in a police vehicle, only twice?! Wow, I'm such a rebel!
Referring back to the New Testament again, Jesus commanded Peter to pretty much forgive others automatically. I'm going to forgive them and move on from this ordeal. I'm just a lucky son of a gun from not really having anything truly that bad happen to me for all the ingenious antics I pulled off. Actually, I think I can cure them of their disease of being frustrated with me for like what's going to be ten years. I understand it was based on getting on their nerves after they became predisposed with me; that's how the law officers were too and I guess there's never really enough training to be perfect on the field for the majority.
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
Leviticus 1-3
It's interesting that in verse 9, it talks about an offering made by fire that is a sweet aroma to the Lord. Verse 14 seems to feel like it got creative in that the Lord even allowed for birds to be sacrificed! However, they had to be turtledoves or young pigeons. Verse 17 describes how after draining all the blood, removing the feathers, splitting it at its wings and then offering it as burnt sacrifice, it creates a sweet aroma to the Lord.
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Right now, I feel like how all these rules and regulations could get a little too tied down for me. Back then, it might be cool to do it a few times, but having to do it often might just turn really boring. It probably has to deal with fearing and trusting the Lord enough to want to honor Him under all circumstances.
Verse 3 states that after a portion of the grain offering is burned, then the rest goes to Aaron and his sons, so I guess future generation of priests would get their food this way. Verse 10 notes that a grain offering is the most holy to the Lord made by fire. I am conjecturing that I wouldn't have to bring in the meat so often and keep my livestock alive while just passing off some left over fine flour to give rather frequently. Life might have not been so bad after all for meat lovers!
Verse 13 states that it is required for the grain offering to be seasoned with salt, which represents a covenant with God. I'm not sure what green heads of grain roasted on the fire, grain beaten from full heads really means which is depicted in Verse 14.
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Leviticus 3 starts out with how a sacrificial peace offering from a Lord can be either male or female without any blemish! I guess this could account for being that God doesn't really discriminate based on gender. The New Testament talks about how there really isn't a male or female in heaven and that both genders were meant to be children of God and partake of God's blessings equally.
What seems to be an important commandment is that the killing of the offering was to be done outside the tabernacle (a huge tent constructed in Exodus for God's dwelling place) of meeting. Throughout this chapter, I'm sure fatty tissue can be rather tasty in a way but just imagining drinking it down gives a sick feeling to my stomach. The Lord commands it to be thoroughly removed of all the fat and offered to Lord. There was later in the Bible this was one priest who hogged all the fat and didn't really respect this common tradition laid out by God. What happened to him is that he led the people astray and probably went along with that feeling of wanting to not really care about living for the things of God, which was also on the minds of God's people. The Lord seriously took out like a rod or something and spanked them really good by causing some really hard times for the people.
Verse 17 states that restraining from eating fat and blood were to be done from here on out. That's a part of doing what's meant to be Kosher then I guess.
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
Exodus 37-40
Exodus 38 seems to pretty much talk the same thing, just that he overlaid the acacia wood with bronze. After finishing that off, it branched off to the different types of metals that were also used which also included silver. It also included another gifted craftsman, Aholiab. With him being a part of the tribe of Dan, it's pretty crazy in that I think God doesn't discriminate against His people from having a predisposed view. The tribe of Dan has some bad reputation, which was foretold by Jacob earlier in the Bible. They would go on to rebel against the tribes of Israel and start some sort of civil war that ended rather quickly.
I'm going to just keep on suffering while I keep on making mistakes. It's like this feeling of how I want to panic and just create an outburst from being frustrated. I can't really describe it, but it's a feeling that I get sometimes. Life is boring sometimes anyway so might as well continue to remind myself of the continual mistakes I'm making and get myself off of it as much as I could.
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Exodus 40 begins with the Lord speaking to Moses and commanding that on New Years Day, they have to set up the tabernacle of the tent of meeting. Inside the tent, they are to add the ark of the Testimony and do something with a veil. I don't even know what the ark of the Testimony is yet, but okay!
Verse 10 says that after anointing an altar with burnt offering and consecrating it, it becomes the most holy place. I think this is the place where God might come to visit often later on. Verse 12-13 talks about how Aaron and his sons need to take a bath with someone watching them before putting on the holy garments. Anyhow God knows what's going on, but it doesn't seem to bother the unbelievers from doing their interesting and deceitful acts.
Verse 15 talks about how God has chosen Aaron and his sons to be the chosen line of descendants to take on the priesthood. I went to a retreat once and this guy kept on talking about how we are called to be priests of God. He would use physical examples of the priest's holy garments and relate it to us. Boy, it was boring and I didn't get any details out of it. I just know that's what he claimed and that's it. I don't know anything else to go with it. With relating to this verse, it feels like right now that God was very specific about who were called into this line of work. Not everyone is suited to be a pastor either, and everyone has their meant-to-be roles.
Verse 33-34 is amazing in that it talks about Moses finishing the work of setting up the tabernacle of meeting. Then a cloud covered it and that signified glory of the Lord's physical presence. Verse 35 goes on to say that Moses couldn't enter it either because in the Bible it says that if you see God's physical being, then you die! There was pretty much a physical light that represented how God was ready to move, when it lifted above the tabernacle. It was cloud during the day, but a fire during the night. Boy, I can see how some readers could relate to this whole part with the fire and cloud thing being a myth or something.
Some people have obviously mentioned that they won't believe in God unless they see Him. Are we truly ready to receive Him though if it was actually truth? If that's the case, then why not go seeking for answers regarding the existence of God or not.
Loosely speaking, one of the most dangerous things is to assume something is happening while getting that emotional filling of how it all fits. Also, I notice that people view something and then get really flustered about it and want to be left alone sometimes. It's probably better to not hang on to something until there's actual evidence for it; if it's being fought against with credible evidence, then that's probably a formidable foe if you are siding with something.
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