I'm a wreck when it comes to being flawless in the area of self-control. One day, I may be binging on playing video games. Another, my mind could be wandering off while watching naughty films or TV shows and then live in a fantasy world for a short time. The only thing that's been great for me is that I have been able to get enough sleep and go to work on time, despite all of those distractions that fill up my soul.
I think the main reason for losing self-awareness and self-control like that is from just feeling a strong void in my conscience. I do have a short history in my adolescent years with being diagnosed with bipolar and major depression. I was a committed lad because I stuck to an oath of never killing myself over it and accepting all the help I could get.
I'm over those feelings now and don't care if people want to think I'm crazy from bothering them. They are just stupid from not being able to handle their bothersome feelings. I'm not them and neither do I care if I keep bothering them when I'm in the mood now. They can go for a restraining order for all I care now because it's happened to me twice already. They ended and I went back and bothered them so more. Those two things (people) couldn't do anything about it and have something to be sad about for the rest of their lives now.
I really don't care if they want to force me to stop from being all butt hurt or very disturbed by it and go complaining to the authorities. I have enough people to go bother intentionally in the future, but I won't from being honest in that I would rather not get in that mood again. If it happens, then it's where I'm back to being super confident now.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Thursday, April 30, 2015
Really Really Good Things
I guess right now I'm learning to become a very patient all over again. When I'm by myself, I am a very mean jerk and annoying person. Around others, I don't really let those true colors show that much. It's only when I become irritated that I become that way to that person, but for the most part, I am aware of those annoying feelings and how it bothers me.
I think it's a good thing to recall those bothersome incidents and to re-live them over and over again, while continuing to move forward in life. By doing so, it can help out with making minor adjustments in how you interact with others.
Okay, this is a very private and personal matter that I'm bringing up on this blog. I'm not going into the full details of how it happened because anyone could be reading this post and then become affected by it. The last few posts may have been rambunctious, but it was a hilarious romp for me. I've been gaining so much confidence in interacting with angry and annoyed people. It's actually funny to observe from a distance how they end up self-regretting some of the things they said.
People annoy each other all the time. It's just a fact and something we can't get away from. Some are better at blocking it out than others. One of the things that's been contributing to my new confidence and rude behaviors is from just not personally caring about it now. It's just been whether I'm in the mood or not now.
I think it's a good thing to recall those bothersome incidents and to re-live them over and over again, while continuing to move forward in life. By doing so, it can help out with making minor adjustments in how you interact with others.
Okay, this is a very private and personal matter that I'm bringing up on this blog. I'm not going into the full details of how it happened because anyone could be reading this post and then become affected by it. The last few posts may have been rambunctious, but it was a hilarious romp for me. I've been gaining so much confidence in interacting with angry and annoyed people. It's actually funny to observe from a distance how they end up self-regretting some of the things they said.
People annoy each other all the time. It's just a fact and something we can't get away from. Some are better at blocking it out than others. One of the things that's been contributing to my new confidence and rude behaviors is from just not personally caring about it now. It's just been whether I'm in the mood or not now.
Monday, April 27, 2015
How Not To Get Carried Away
Okay, this is a personal post that's based on my interpersonal-related faith with Christianity. I am a strict believer of the Bible and how everything it says goes for me, if I can literally make any sense out of it! Here's God's commandments in two sentences: love the Lord your God with all your heart, mind, and soul. Secondly, love your neighbors as yourself! So yes, I'm going to call myself stupid by calling others that too! Those idiotic, pretending Christians are so stupid and agitate me so much to bring me to anger that I want to bother the heck out of them. I've already mentioned names, taking a breather right now (because of my excitement); I'm not going to try to do that this time, but be my guest with digging through my original and funny posts. Hopefully, they are still funny to you!
I don't really care now with what they bring up because the more actions they do to convey how bothered they are, I'm being a very successful man to my own eyes. I don't care how mean it is now; it's like by waiting on my six pack abs and million dollars, once I have those things, it's my license to be a jerk to them! You can take it like what I said to the bank; I just don't really have a heart to go easy on them anymore from bothering me so much in the past. Maybe, it was my tormented soul that was angry over them acting unfair towards me. I guess after awhile, from taking that type of perceived abuse, it gets you really angry and then others around them are going to go ballistic because of it!
Man, if there was some format to play some video games where you got to play Street Fighter and beat the living snot out of their character, then that would be very satisfying for me. I would like to watch that helpless thing (person) control a character while not knowing what to do and then I just take full advantage and score an easy knockout!
Of course, I'll just start feeling very weird after all of this! Maybe then, I'll had enough of my fill to stop bugging them from thinking about how stupid they are. Wow, it looks like no matter how much I get roughed up then as long as I'm still breathing and functioning right then I can eventually wind up a total knock out back at them! This means I'm going to be playing smart and keeping my feelings and thoughts in check, so I'm not going to go out with a bang-bang style where I completely expose myself. This is so I don't get roughed up that much in the process, like seeing a slammer for the first time in my life. I can imagine doing the deed in my head, but it's not worth it to me while knowing and believing that God has been faithful in delivering me out of those troublesome times. I'm going to be so much more careful and smarter this time around, but I'm pretty go loose mode from predicting how they are going to act with me. They are pretty dumb from the get go and I don't really care now, so it's two factors that favor me in wanting to go bother them so heavily.
I don't really care now with what they bring up because the more actions they do to convey how bothered they are, I'm being a very successful man to my own eyes. I don't care how mean it is now; it's like by waiting on my six pack abs and million dollars, once I have those things, it's my license to be a jerk to them! You can take it like what I said to the bank; I just don't really have a heart to go easy on them anymore from bothering me so much in the past. Maybe, it was my tormented soul that was angry over them acting unfair towards me. I guess after awhile, from taking that type of perceived abuse, it gets you really angry and then others around them are going to go ballistic because of it!
Man, if there was some format to play some video games where you got to play Street Fighter and beat the living snot out of their character, then that would be very satisfying for me. I would like to watch that helpless thing (person) control a character while not knowing what to do and then I just take full advantage and score an easy knockout!
Of course, I'll just start feeling very weird after all of this! Maybe then, I'll had enough of my fill to stop bugging them from thinking about how stupid they are. Wow, it looks like no matter how much I get roughed up then as long as I'm still breathing and functioning right then I can eventually wind up a total knock out back at them! This means I'm going to be playing smart and keeping my feelings and thoughts in check, so I'm not going to go out with a bang-bang style where I completely expose myself. This is so I don't get roughed up that much in the process, like seeing a slammer for the first time in my life. I can imagine doing the deed in my head, but it's not worth it to me while knowing and believing that God has been faithful in delivering me out of those troublesome times. I'm going to be so much more careful and smarter this time around, but I'm pretty go loose mode from predicting how they are going to act with me. They are pretty dumb from the get go and I don't really care now, so it's two factors that favor me in wanting to go bother them so heavily.
16 Foods That Cause You Cancer
This is taken from a popular post. I was dismayed by how I have been feasting on some foods unwittingly. It's no wonder now why my chest felt a little bad. It's from building up all that processed sugar. Anyway, it doesn't hurt to indulge in these foods every once in awhile for just fun!
Friday, April 24, 2015
Picking Up From Where I Left Off
Okay I have this pretty weird feeling of being hellbent on bothering this person who failed to extend a restraining order on me. Every time I see a police car drive by me, I get this edgy and angry feeling that wants to escalate and escape out of so much excitement. From being motivated, I messaged the thing (person) again on yelp. I have been letting that thing know how I feel about the reviews and just picked funny for all the reviews. I am the only person to have participated in voting, so what a downer for that person and sure enough, no more reviews for the whole year so far!
The situation isn't that serious to begin with but a major and massive letdown waiting to happen for the other person. It's like a mental breakdown waiting to happen and for me to just laugh about as I please and enjoy the suffering the person goes through. I can't really be pushed around that easily, which is what I'm finding out and it's hard for me to be forced into doing something, but I can man up and take it.
So this whole situation is starting to leave me feeling pretty weird and that those individuals are pretty stupid to me! I'm feeling okay about trusting in God again, even through all my rowdy antics. The secret is that I'm just praying for God's favor and trying to allow the Holy Spirit to work in me by faith. I'm then just going with whatever and losing myself through the moods I engage myself in.
I can see how the Bible states that getting carried away with the lusts of this world, which is like separating yourself from reality and dwelling on delusions, such as binging on drugs and alcohol or even minor stuff like treating a television set as a religious shrine, is a sin! No duh! It's starting to feel really silly for me, and I came out on the positive end after confronting an angry individual who was mad that I took away his leadership position. Yeah, I did something like that because he just got on my nerves.
These incidents were unintentional but I'll take it for building my confidence. The wretched thing who cried about not keeping a restraining order on me lost a lot of good pals at the church, after my few visits. I obviously can make a girl look bad, and that's what I did. It's all from just having been in the mood. So now I understand how I'm actually feared over silly things that people can't really handle themselves too well over. Wow, I'm still a nobody and when it comes to people generating buzz about my image, well, who cares over the attention. I'll take it any day if it means promoting my faith to a world that doesn't really care about that and wants fast relief and easy access when times feel too agitating for them.
The situation isn't that serious to begin with but a major and massive letdown waiting to happen for the other person. It's like a mental breakdown waiting to happen and for me to just laugh about as I please and enjoy the suffering the person goes through. I can't really be pushed around that easily, which is what I'm finding out and it's hard for me to be forced into doing something, but I can man up and take it.
So this whole situation is starting to leave me feeling pretty weird and that those individuals are pretty stupid to me! I'm feeling okay about trusting in God again, even through all my rowdy antics. The secret is that I'm just praying for God's favor and trying to allow the Holy Spirit to work in me by faith. I'm then just going with whatever and losing myself through the moods I engage myself in.
I can see how the Bible states that getting carried away with the lusts of this world, which is like separating yourself from reality and dwelling on delusions, such as binging on drugs and alcohol or even minor stuff like treating a television set as a religious shrine, is a sin! No duh! It's starting to feel really silly for me, and I came out on the positive end after confronting an angry individual who was mad that I took away his leadership position. Yeah, I did something like that because he just got on my nerves.
These incidents were unintentional but I'll take it for building my confidence. The wretched thing who cried about not keeping a restraining order on me lost a lot of good pals at the church, after my few visits. I obviously can make a girl look bad, and that's what I did. It's all from just having been in the mood. So now I understand how I'm actually feared over silly things that people can't really handle themselves too well over. Wow, I'm still a nobody and when it comes to people generating buzz about my image, well, who cares over the attention. I'll take it any day if it means promoting my faith to a world that doesn't really care about that and wants fast relief and easy access when times feel too agitating for them.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Doesn't Really Matter
Okay, it's time to get back into studying the Word. The Bible says that God's Word does not come back void. I can seriously believe that for reals! A friend of mine told me that it's better to withstand your temptations and to do something healthy to let it go. The Bible says that it you resist temptation, then the devil will flee from you. I think this is where seriously staying in the Word and in prayer will help just about any believer to have a more fuller and meaningful relationship with God.
Where I'm going with my post is that, what others have been bothered about is not really that important to begin with. In fact, their personal decisions don't really matter with anything big or significant but just bother me for some reason, which caused me to go about bothering them back. It's accidental with me bothering them, but it's just a sign of them not being very smart from being unable to put aside my silly frustrations with them. It's just one of those annoying things I have to deal with on a daily basis, while being in the mood for seriously bugging them. I don't really care now about what their comments are or how they conduct themselves as long as they can remain peaceful and functioning adults for the most part. Yeah, I guess I'm good at rattling people's cages without even intending for that effect when I'm bothered by them and try hard to not let it get to me.
I think because of my unique situations and in okay standing with everything so far in life, I'm just able to get these annoying experiences from time to time. What those irritated people have decided isn't really that important to begin with, and they are rather incompetent in their dealings with me. My reputation goes around with a few people who like to flip the handle every once in awhile, not liking me in general and trying to avoid me. A few of them have also annoyed me a pretty good deal with a decision to not add me on Facebook, but they have been friendly with me nonetheless, which is interesting now. I'm starting to think Facebook isn't really that significant and the stuff I talk about isn't really that big of a deal either. If people are having a hard time with me by being bothered about it, it's just because they aren't that smart and that's about it. It's really up to me and how confident of a person I am to go around stirring up a small fight where they end up wanting to shout at me for bothering them. They have had some bad turnouts that I can laugh about, so it's not a bad constellation prize if I feel like I need a little revenge to fall back on. It's just a feeling, and the big thing is that they are just alive and going about with their existence while not making a most, sacrificial contribution to society.
In other words, they are just individuals who seem to be degenerate for the most part and just bother me, so I bother them when I'm in the mood. That's about all it is, and I've been smart enough to avoid very bad trouble with them all this time and still am and won't ever go that far because I still like them for some reason!
Where I'm going with my post is that, what others have been bothered about is not really that important to begin with. In fact, their personal decisions don't really matter with anything big or significant but just bother me for some reason, which caused me to go about bothering them back. It's accidental with me bothering them, but it's just a sign of them not being very smart from being unable to put aside my silly frustrations with them. It's just one of those annoying things I have to deal with on a daily basis, while being in the mood for seriously bugging them. I don't really care now about what their comments are or how they conduct themselves as long as they can remain peaceful and functioning adults for the most part. Yeah, I guess I'm good at rattling people's cages without even intending for that effect when I'm bothered by them and try hard to not let it get to me.
I think because of my unique situations and in okay standing with everything so far in life, I'm just able to get these annoying experiences from time to time. What those irritated people have decided isn't really that important to begin with, and they are rather incompetent in their dealings with me. My reputation goes around with a few people who like to flip the handle every once in awhile, not liking me in general and trying to avoid me. A few of them have also annoyed me a pretty good deal with a decision to not add me on Facebook, but they have been friendly with me nonetheless, which is interesting now. I'm starting to think Facebook isn't really that significant and the stuff I talk about isn't really that big of a deal either. If people are having a hard time with me by being bothered about it, it's just because they aren't that smart and that's about it. It's really up to me and how confident of a person I am to go around stirring up a small fight where they end up wanting to shout at me for bothering them. They have had some bad turnouts that I can laugh about, so it's not a bad constellation prize if I feel like I need a little revenge to fall back on. It's just a feeling, and the big thing is that they are just alive and going about with their existence while not making a most, sacrificial contribution to society.
In other words, they are just individuals who seem to be degenerate for the most part and just bother me, so I bother them when I'm in the mood. That's about all it is, and I've been smart enough to avoid very bad trouble with them all this time and still am and won't ever go that far because I still like them for some reason!
Friday, April 17, 2015
In 1 Minute
Okay, I'm just typing anything right now. So I'm lost with the words that I need to say right now. I used to have like this bi-polar feeling when I was writing about honest stuff about myself. I know how weird that is, but I felt like I had to hide a lot about myself. Next thing you know, a few people realize that I'm a weirdo or some annoying guy who can't make people laugh!
It's okay, I was diagnosed with a lot of stuff while I was a teenager going through puberty. Whether it was done incorrectly or not is now a matter of personal debate. Anyhow, since some professionals said that I had bi-polar, I don't really care now and the only reason why some people would say I need to take some pills is because I'm bothering them so much. Yeah, a person who went loco with me because I made him or her flip the handle from just being me and bothering people over stupid stuff... okay, this is too much information, but yeah, mainly that type of person who could be anyone with some mental problems would want to accuse me of saying that I need to be at a mental hospital or locked up in jail or something like that. I don't really care what those types of people think. It all depends on my mood if I want to bother them or not now.
It's okay, I was diagnosed with a lot of stuff while I was a teenager going through puberty. Whether it was done incorrectly or not is now a matter of personal debate. Anyhow, since some professionals said that I had bi-polar, I don't really care now and the only reason why some people would say I need to take some pills is because I'm bothering them so much. Yeah, a person who went loco with me because I made him or her flip the handle from just being me and bothering people over stupid stuff... okay, this is too much information, but yeah, mainly that type of person who could be anyone with some mental problems would want to accuse me of saying that I need to be at a mental hospital or locked up in jail or something like that. I don't really care what those types of people think. It all depends on my mood if I want to bother them or not now.
Wednesday, April 8, 2015
I Get It, Totally!
I think some people are jealous of me, and it affects how they communicate with me. They talk about how I'm super crazy and annoying to them and that I won't stop stalking them or leaving them alone. It's all because I have an issue with them, so that's why I didn't stop trying to argue my case with them!
It's super funny now that I understand, but I'm still angry underneath at them. It's been a struggle trying to find resolution without having to talk to them. It's like I'm going against my personality and letting them go behind their backs. I'm at a very healthy status right now, but man I've gained some pounds. I need to trim down again, so I can get closer to my six pack!
The most beautiful girl on the planet to me right now is this one girl who isn't very smart! It's like I have to make some silly compromises to try to appeal to her, but man, I don't think she even knows after I told her directly how I felt. I'm getting second thoughts about beautiful appearances now and that maybe, I should just settle for someone with a better personality and a little bit less on spectrum of beauty. Beauty is a superficial thing and it does create some tension every once in awhile, but it's not the most important ingredient with being happy in life. There are several people who are happy and successful and not even that beautiful in appearance! Those people are cool in my opinion, but I don't like those who act like a bunch of angry and selfish individuals.
I guess a lady for me is definitely shorter than me. She's also not too fat and has a strong faithful connection with Jesus. She's also not that much younger than me, by like two years apart at the most. I can deal with that and be fond of her then. Currently, she also looks Asian to me. This ideal lady for me is hard to find considering that they are probably already taken and that I'm just a short person in general. Well, her being Asian sort of helps because plenty of them are shorter than me. There was this one girl who I had a crush on from middle school; she was taller than me and then I outgrew her ahahaha (sorry, digression through laughter). I ended up not liking her because she did a lot of swearing and was just angry a lot of the times. Okay, those types of girls are annoying to me.
It's super funny now that I understand, but I'm still angry underneath at them. It's been a struggle trying to find resolution without having to talk to them. It's like I'm going against my personality and letting them go behind their backs. I'm at a very healthy status right now, but man I've gained some pounds. I need to trim down again, so I can get closer to my six pack!
The most beautiful girl on the planet to me right now is this one girl who isn't very smart! It's like I have to make some silly compromises to try to appeal to her, but man, I don't think she even knows after I told her directly how I felt. I'm getting second thoughts about beautiful appearances now and that maybe, I should just settle for someone with a better personality and a little bit less on spectrum of beauty. Beauty is a superficial thing and it does create some tension every once in awhile, but it's not the most important ingredient with being happy in life. There are several people who are happy and successful and not even that beautiful in appearance! Those people are cool in my opinion, but I don't like those who act like a bunch of angry and selfish individuals.
I guess a lady for me is definitely shorter than me. She's also not too fat and has a strong faithful connection with Jesus. She's also not that much younger than me, by like two years apart at the most. I can deal with that and be fond of her then. Currently, she also looks Asian to me. This ideal lady for me is hard to find considering that they are probably already taken and that I'm just a short person in general. Well, her being Asian sort of helps because plenty of them are shorter than me. There was this one girl who I had a crush on from middle school; she was taller than me and then I outgrew her ahahaha (sorry, digression through laughter). I ended up not liking her because she did a lot of swearing and was just angry a lot of the times. Okay, those types of girls are annoying to me.
Friday, April 3, 2015
Leviticus 13:1-2
In the first verse of this chapter, God speaks to Moses and Aaron. Alright! It looks like God isn't exclusive and keeps to Himself; what I mean is that, it looks like God wasn't like, "Moses is better than all of you, and he's all mine!" God also spoke to Aaron, the guy who created the golden calf, after a compromise with the people. I'm sure the people of Israel really had a lot of fun partying there in the middle of the desert, while waiting for Moses. I wouldn't really be a party animal, while thinking there isn't really much to do for back then, but I guess people's minds can still run wild.
Verse 2 gives a description about a man who has a swelling, scab, or bright spot that becomes like a leprous sore. What looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, and acts like a duck is a duck! Does this man have leprosy? This verse says if a man develops those types of symptoms then he has to go see Aaron or one of his sons who are also priests. I'm assuming this is the same referring to a female, but I have yet to confirm that.
Verse 2 gives a description about a man who has a swelling, scab, or bright spot that becomes like a leprous sore. What looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, and acts like a duck is a duck! Does this man have leprosy? This verse says if a man develops those types of symptoms then he has to go see Aaron or one of his sons who are also priests. I'm assuming this is the same referring to a female, but I have yet to confirm that.
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