I'm a wreck when it comes to being flawless in the area of self-control. One day, I may be binging on playing video games. Another, my mind could be wandering off while watching naughty films or TV shows and then live in a fantasy world for a short time. The only thing that's been great for me is that I have been able to get enough sleep and go to work on time, despite all of those distractions that fill up my soul.
I think the main reason for losing self-awareness and self-control like that is from just feeling a strong void in my conscience. I do have a short history in my adolescent years with being diagnosed with bipolar and major depression. I was a committed lad because I stuck to an oath of never killing myself over it and accepting all the help I could get.
I'm over those feelings now and don't care if people want to think I'm crazy from bothering them. They are just stupid from not being able to handle their bothersome feelings. I'm not them and neither do I care if I keep bothering them when I'm in the mood now. They can go for a restraining order for all I care now because it's happened to me twice already. They ended and I went back and bothered them so more. Those two things (people) couldn't do anything about it and have something to be sad about for the rest of their lives now.
I really don't care if they want to force me to stop from being all butt hurt or very disturbed by it and go complaining to the authorities. I have enough people to go bother intentionally in the future, but I won't from being honest in that I would rather not get in that mood again. If it happens, then it's where I'm back to being super confident now.
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