I Get It, Totally!

I think some people are jealous of me, and it affects how they communicate with me. They talk about how I'm super crazy and annoying to them and that I won't stop stalking them or leaving them alone. It's all because I have an issue with them, so that's why I didn't stop trying to argue my case with them!

It's super funny now that I understand, but I'm still angry underneath at them. It's been a struggle trying to find resolution without having to talk to them. It's like I'm going against my personality and letting them go behind their backs. I'm at a very healthy status right now, but man I've gained some pounds. I need to trim down again, so I can get closer to my six pack!

The most beautiful girl on the planet to me right now is this one girl who isn't very smart! It's like I have to make some silly compromises to try to appeal to her, but man, I don't think she even knows after I told her directly how I felt. I'm getting second thoughts about beautiful appearances now and that maybe, I should just settle for someone with a better personality and a little bit less on spectrum of beauty. Beauty is a superficial thing and it does create some tension every once in awhile, but it's not the most important ingredient with being happy in life. There are several people who are happy and successful and not even that beautiful in appearance! Those people are cool in my opinion, but I don't like those who act like a bunch of angry and selfish individuals.

I guess a lady for me is definitely shorter than me. She's also not too fat and has a strong faithful connection with Jesus. She's also not that much younger than me, by like two years apart at the most. I can deal with that and be fond of her then. Currently, she also looks Asian to me. This ideal lady for me is hard to find considering that they are probably already taken and that I'm just a short person in general. Well, her being Asian sort of helps because plenty of them are shorter than me. There was this one girl who I had a crush on from middle school; she was taller than me and then I outgrew her ahahaha (sorry, digression through laughter). I ended up not liking her because she did a lot of swearing and was just angry a lot of the times. Okay, those types of girls are annoying to me.