Honestly, I haven't been really in the mood for looking at porn lately. I have this fantasy in mind of what I'm seeking to fill the gap, so it looks like I'm not addicted to porn at all. I guess in a way, it is pretty gross to watch others do some sex act even though the lady is super hot! Why isn't she a such and such person and all for me only? I'm just joking, but my fantasy revolves around making sense for me. I just need one lady who is into such and such and has such and such. I have read on an article's survey of different women that she exists out there, so my fantasy can definitely be fulfilled!
In the mean time, I'm not stressing so much about it anymore and just open to finding some great help that will let myself climb into some opportunities. I'm trying to limit the amount of resources I use and want to save up my money, so I would rather wait since I feel like feeling successful while having enough money to get around doing what I love is part of growing my personal confidence!
From what I'm learning about, feelings can change for the better or worse over time. It's like a girl I'm close to thought I was a brother to her and now she thinks I'm one of her great friends. This can open up romantic possibilities, which I don't want to force with my manly tendencies. Our compatibility might be growing to keep on getting bigger and off the charts, but the chemistry I feel could develop with her has been uncertain so far.
There's another lady who I went on a date with while acknowledging each other as friends. She's pretty attractive, and I feel like she has something really good to offer also so it's another option to look out for later on. I think I might have a chance with some attractive ladies who feel they have been social rejects at one point! It seems like ladies have this vulnerable side to themselves that you just want to be their knight in shining armor sometimes.
