I think my secret and internally intangible sauce comes from just thinking fully invested while putting it on auto-pilot instinctually.
From what I'm feeling, it looks like my friendship with this one lady is blossoming more beautifully and emotionally it's better than awesome when things are going good. I don't know, but maybe I've found my future romantic partner. She isn't perfect by any means, neither is she the ideal body type I look for in ladies normally but there's just something really special about her to me. I guess I'm more mentally checked in with her than I was with being zoned out in the past.
