Humble, Broken-hearted, and Contrite Spirit

Today, I read an age-old passage about David committing adultery with Bathsheba in the Bible (2 Samuel 11:2-13). The aftermath of the situation was not very pretty (2 Samuel 11:14-27, 2 Samuel 12:1-12).  I think the most important part of this incident was that David confessed when he was caught by a prophet and sought to be right with the Lord again. (2 Samuel 12:13-14) One of the most sorrowful passages I've ever read came from Psalm 51, which relates the incident to the negative consequences of David's sin. The prayer that David makes to the Lord is so deepening and convicting of his guilt that it even relates to me. I could imagine David tearing his clothes up over the sin which was like a Jewish thing that symbolizes they are just absolutely feeling devastated about it.

A verse of the Bible states that sorrows of our sin can lead us to godly repentance.  (2 Corinthians 7:10) I guess the Lord tries to move everyone to a lifestyle of repentance through the working of His Holy Spirit. We need to open our eyes to see the goodness of God in life. 2 Samuel 12:8 states that God would have gave David everything he wanted and even much more if it was not enough. This implies to me that David lost self-control over his sexual urges and then pursued after a married woman. Nowadays and being blunt, men are pretty visual and can be sexually stimulated that way even if it's not the woman's intention. Doing my best to be mature here and not bashing any guy I know whose at fault with this, we should be happy where we're at and that if you're currently a single guy and are willing to wait on the Lord and are diligent with your lifestyle then maybe God has the perfect woman for you to marry and then become sexually fulfilled. The foundation all starts with our faith! According to the New Testament, faith in Christ is what justifies a man's righteousness.

Time To Move On

I guess it's a lot easier to move on when there are a lot of things to keep you busy. Sometimes, it's really more from having a lack of attitude. I guess I'm the type who can sort through things in a humble manner, if I'm given some time out and a fair amount of information. Eventually, I think it's God who just keeps on bringing me up no matter how dire the situation gets for me.

Situations are not really easy to deal with all the time. It's like my mind lacks discipline when I'm stuck in an obsession that leads me no where. It's like so important for me to stick it out and put my mind on something else that's really beneficial for me. I need to constantly be in a mode of working hard and then obtain some satisfactions so that I won't really worry about the past anymore.

Wow, Have Not Written For A Week

I guess I've been just pretty busy about stuff. I guess I'm just sort of messing around a little too. It took me awhile to finally come around to understanding all the weird stuff that happened to me. Man, that really bites another one's dust. This whole inspiration thing where you have a big heart about living and continuously persist into the days of this life is a meaning that I'm starting to uphold.

My heart refuses to give in to the evils of this world. I guess that's what writing is about. It's about clinging to your good values and then hoping for the best outcome no matter what hardships come into your zone. I'm starting to be really attracted to people who have good influences and are genuinely sweet and caring people.

My mind is really bright for some reason and I'm wasting away these days if I don't use it for the sake of improving this world. I guess one of my worst fears is just being by myself all the time while knowing I'm missing some good things in life. I can't guarantee myself victory in everything that I've done including all the regrettably stupid things that I've done. It's just time to truly face it and accept it and to become a stronger individual while working even harder to become the person I want to be and at the same time loving this transition. 

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 14

7. I received an e-mail stating to not to come to the church anymore; otherwise, they would call the cops. I was highly skeptical. No call was made when I approached this public property. I am aware of the church's debt being managed by the government, and I have also contributed with tithes. The angry pastor who thought he could arrest me with his bare hands mentioned something about being too busy outside church and working at a car dealership. The pastor wrote on his personal e-mail to me verbatim, "I will personally arrest you"; that is how I interpret what he means. It is very alarming to me that others would act like the pastor while they are really angry about something and ignore their social status. It looks like others have been trying to support each other; however, it seems like others have been a little off. Therefore, I thought I was off the hook to meet up with church-goers at a gathering place. I was just trying to talk some sense in a hidden manner, so that it would not sound so intrusive. I now have a restraining order to deal with. I was dragged into something I did not want to be a part of, but really tried to find my place with in the confusion of everyone allowing me to coexist with one another and exercising gracefulness. I totally wonder if it is because they don't want to tolerate me anymore. I am wondering if it's something I did that was considered really bad to them, and they can't really confirm it because the Court has already verified that I am not a violent person.

8. No problems occurred while I was asked not to come to someone's property. I did keep my distance from everyone. I'm just a new person at church who was given a restraining order, all of a sudden. I think they saw me as a significant figure. I showed it by exercising self-control and limiting my desires of lashing out in anger. I seriously want to do this to others right now. Even though I hated the idea, I had no problem leaving the property after only trying to consult an individual who does not even live there at his vehicle, while touching someone else's grass. 

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 13

5. On my mark, I believe that the first time the police came over was based on an individual who does not live at the apartment. This individual and I are at the same level of status, as he and I can be similar to being called a repetitious visitor and people acted not so mindful about it. People will claim that there was fighting but no additional resident from another apartment complex had laid a physical complaint. It was an extremely quiet and staged prank based on what I know to be legal. I gave another violent man a weak bear hug from behind and he just stood there and took his time to give me an angry reaction. I then released my hold. This happened on the day everybody was celebrating his birthday, so I think that increases emotional disappointment around me. My birthday was around the same time, too. Unfortunately, I thought my birthday present could have been completely forgetting about the issue. The other very skinny, male vegetarian simply said in a calm voice, "Call the cops." I would consider him to be a very fortunate person because I would not mind him trying to strike me. I remember he had stated the same thing at another location that is miles away. He even let me approach him at that property. Nothing significant happened at that location. I was totally dumbfounded at this place of being outside the apartment where I visibly cannot lay harm to anyone and to my overpowering friend who retreated from facing the law enforcers. I believe that if I had gone inside then the cops would have left without trying to harass me with comments like forcing me take my pills and pretending to be a great psychologist. He asked me for my birth date and asked for my I.D. The officer provided all the information. If I had not given my I.D. then I believe no poor sheriff would be driving to my home which is 30 miles away in the morning from the apartment. I was still new to this club and just a distant face, as the aging pastor stated. The first page of the restraining order states that the birthday is unknown. I actually yelled at the cops too, but not on purpose. They simply dangled their hand cuffs at me and that pretty much made me more angrier but tacit and law-abiding. I have also passed with flying colors the psychological screening test for becoming an officer. I took the writing test this year! I have a letter stating it with the mayor's signature on it; I am not sure if the Court would like to see it to find any relevance with this motion. I feel like taking it again just to see if I can be admitted into the police academy, while having a restraining order that is appears to be technically default in addition to a default restraining order which I tried to challenge, but found no use in really caring remotely anything about him at that time. I recently shared a pool lane with a person who really looked like the man who put a default restraining order on me. I really did not flinch and not really mind him and went on my own business swimming. He even acted like he knew me by staring at me swimming for awhile and had an awkward swimming stroke. I did not really speak with him to confirm it. Maybe, I will confront the situation to find resolve later.

6. I am an aspiring writer and all my e-mails were based on assuming everyone was my friend and behaving malevolently around others by speaking with a spiteful attitude. These former friends are only male. I only sent my worst comments to men and left out the women. I was requested to not to text females and I resorted not to do that because I thought the men could relate to my anger. The petitioner is a woman, I am sorry for referring to her in a possibly negative and ridiculing manner. It is totally unintentional at least for the time being. The transcript of the Court will state that my writing was not violent at all to my surprise. I hope there is no reconsideration of me being violent based on any future uprisings. As long as I do not mind and am lawfully abiding within the boundaries of this injunction, I am very and extremely much not being violent. I actually have a published poem in my name with poetry.com; unfortunately, the men tried to convince the girls that my poem was demeaning and I suppose men's feelings could sometimes be different from a woman. However, I have experience with casually knowing women to want to mean good things and be wholesome in what I write about them especially with a poem. To combat the issue of my legality and authenticity of my writing, I believe that a writer would not try to mess up with his image by writing inaccurately. He would at least imply direct words are a possible maybe if he could be obviously proven wrong. Maybe there was nothing to be disproved in this case, and they had to go bonkers from feeling the writer's suspicions were correct.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 12

3. If the Court would not want to grant me that sufficient amount of evidence, then I apologize for only just having a possible ability to see the plaintiff in the honorable Court. I just wish to give my side of this incident that I never really had any emotional attachment over. This would infer that I do not need to follow around any person continuously. While practicing escapism through my writing, it would show that a temporary over-reaction took place with the people who were indirectly involved with me. This motion aims to defeat the element of stalking, which is highly laughable to me. I was trying something positive, and they just wanted to prevent me from doing something. I am having too much trouble relating to them. After having been there for an average few hours out of the week in a year, I am not sure how they assumed to know me so well. This restraining order is not highly personal, and the intent is to reflect others' wishes remotely without others being able to file a restraining order on me. My intent was not to attract negative attention with anyone. For at least some odd reason, I feel I have been engaged in cruel and unusual punishment. It is a relatively awesome thing that I would like to ponder about how I could do things while having a good conscience about it, no matter how cantankerous I appear when others become insecure over indirect matters. With everything feeling so laughable to me, I am not sure how many restraining orders became shot at me to impose good order. I believe they were telling me to submit and to respect a relationship because they thought it was good. I felt they were forcing me to be in a relationship. I wonder if having others force you into a relationship is not really that bad. It seems like they were feeding off and receiving anxiety based on me feeling guilty over something. My attempts of trying to understand what I had to feel guilty over made them feel that I was assuming to be guilty of something right away. They still did not want to understand that there was a possibility of increasing my discomfort over this whole matter by not wanting to discuss it with me and telling everyone they were explaining things very clearly with me. In case someone wants to read this to others and try to laugh out loud, I might as well state that I like hanging out with some people at the apartment because I get along really well with them. For protection, I am not even stating their names. Everybody else who I do not mention in this whole motion are the ones I get along with, and they represent the majority. It looks like everything is based on their wrong ideology and reluctant cops. They asked but did not follow through, and they do not even belong to a church or would assert themselves as being righteous people. I am not so sure about righteous people doing something like taking another person to court because they can't solve their own mess of forcing another person to behave under their own account of maintaining a relationship.

4. The officer and I shared an abnormal experience. The officer played a larger role than an indifferent law enforcer by harassing me with curse words, threatening to send me to a mental hospital if I did not answer his questions, and lying about how he found me when I was away about 100 yards from the undisturbed apartment residence before the restraining order. I have suspicion that he had collaborated already with the party (without me) and wanted to stay mad for the sake of fulfilling his needs of wanting to help out everybody. The officer even spoke to witnesses who were outside, and I believe he had hired them. They simply pointed with their fingers repetitiously that I was walking around at least a 100 yards away from the apartment. I just wanted to clear up my head by observing the stressful site at a distant location and being a smart citizen. He stated that I was making him very angry and even brought out a taser gun when I was facing away from him and walking with my head down. I was only looking at his I.D. badge. On the night everybody thinks he arrested me, he directed me to my parked car, I was definitely away of at least 100 yards before the restraining order took place and he opened the door at night and started shouting at me to start my car. He then shut the door very violently and walked away from me and gave me a lot of time to leave. I drove into a gas station and then he stopped harassing me there. This officer's name is A. Hyunnh. I had even asked him repeatedly where the location of the police station was and he would not give me a direct answer. I just wanted to get a clear picture of what everybody was requesting for me to do, after he would calm down. I went to the only two police stations, and they stated this officer does not exist. I totally question if this officer is a real legitimate cop. Things have not been very clear for me. I believe that if I had gone inside then the cops would have left without trying to harass me with comments like burning my car. I actually showed up on a Saturday morning and parked next to the apartment on the main street and might have smiled at him if he was paroling that day. I guess he did not notice. While I was in hand cuffs for some interesting reason, I felt that celebrities have been hand cuffed in movies and so I should not really take it that seriously for this incident. I even saw his partner hit the back of the car repeatedly. The other cop who was there told me not to come again, and he said in a very calm concerned look. That made me want to really listen. Officer A. Hyunnh said "I will give you a can of whoop A-- if you ever come back again." That is a very laughable statement to me now. I do not really mind the idea of being totally mocked, just that this angry drive was sort of killing me but now it's released by being very successful at what I'm doing. I can now look back and feel highly special with all this treatment that I had. I am seriously noticeably a very short person, too even though my writing seems to equate to being adult-like sometimes. I noticeably want to get taller and am trying out protein shakes for larger muscles. This main desire does not require another person. Protein bars are sold separately.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 11

This impending order implies that if there is any more backing after someone reads this, that I should not be bothering someone else. I have texted her countless times, could go to her house and make her feel nonthreatening with what she's already been through, and even continue to leave messages that she wishes to shrug off and not challenge legally. This person is Betty, and I have done no sick thing to her. I have hugged her once or twice and she responded positively. Annie has never had a hug from me, maybe I should after something great happens! The apartment renters could have also been wanting an excuse to do something terribly wrong by trying to blame that their desire was in association with an unfair officer's abuse.

2. I want a review of the case so that I could counter-sue for defamation, money for therapy, and a restraining order to deter any willing petitioner from forcefully using a weapon against me, out of bad judgment. It seems that they wanted to force a relationship under their own terms and did not want to discuss about it. Since it was relational and my background of getting negative feedback with their direct replies from every one of them not wanting to talk about it with me, I did not see it as wrong to continue discussing it through a different medium that I felt was less direct. The consequences that they thought they could legally impose on me were excommunication from a church and being arrested for no apparently bad reason. The main evidence that I celebrate is that never went to jail so that means no police record with no absolute victims. It could have been reported with a very active and biased officer motioning out of being very angry but it did not happen with me. If the arguing could go back and forth, then they relent to wanting to not talk after I impose my views then I think they are wrong for stating I should be arrested. The implied remarks of stopping a discussion with them were not really that verifiable to me as it had never crossed my mind. It feels like they would not mind using violent force since they sort of praised it with their written accounts. They would try to hide things by stating it was uncircumstantial evidence and try to ride on the fear itself. I believe it is practicing McCarthyism, which has been a notable practice; history does have the potential to repeat itself in eccentric, social circumstances.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 10

It pretty much appears that they were misinterpreting something badly with me and could not find any resolution with it because they were only focused on themselves and badly placed their resentful feelings with me. There was really nothing logical about this because they were very closed off and not articulate. I did my best to understand them and what would make them happy but it was too unclear for me. Therefore, I deduce that they pretty much had no idea but stated that they did. I did not resort to being a rude person by not saying unpleasant things (e.g. cursing and bruising forceful) to them and limiting my attempts of questioning them. Compared to what others could potentially do, I could have been more highly active about this but tried to encourage their personal freedom to understand something good and being at peace with one another. I believe that I potentially have the ability to get along with about 99.49 out of 100 women in this world. Overall, I could argue that it appears that they were the rude and dangerous ones and in need of getting therapeutic help. It looks like they just needed to be ensured of something positive with a good impression upon me and just took things too far. All these elements that have been added on to me have been quite a challenge to talk through, but I don't really need or feel the need to be bothered ever. I'm just being natural about this event and trying to add the element of being nice.

The party of apartment renters were pretty much responding to a mishandled situation which is to their discredit in being effective, successful peacemakers by doing something in front of others for the motive of probably respect or pride in who they want to associate with. The party of apartment renters pretty much could use a man in the house, and if it's supposed to be me this is not a good start. They personally acted different in the off-hours which means when nobody is around; they have been much more polite and receptive to my benefit. This is more of a publicized attempt to teach the lesson that someone else's opinions are always better than a person who sees it right but uses the same concepts but in a different medium- meaning I agree but wish to go about it in a manner that is suitable for me. I actually admit to liking Annie a little better than Betty to be on the safe and truthful side even though I have been sort of trying to pretend that I am chasing after Betty by writing horrific love-letter attempts. I can sort of reluctantly imagine Annie being in the arms of another person, which is definitely not a problem for me. I really wish Annie would be spiritually content by finding someone to help complement her fragile and precious traits. I just fear that Annie may have been in a relationship that became broken but she invested a lot of herself. This is not an attempt to destroy Annie's image; I would actually help by listening and accepting her and being a friend who wants to just plainly love people who give you a hard time. For a very short and not so handsome guy that I am. A person has the ability to turn it around whenever he or she wants to. That faith puts me in a better situation than most people. A song incants, "Why can't we be friends?" while avoiding all the sexual references. I believe that I touched upon a universal truth that can be only described in feelings and more words that transpire to maintaining relationships with people outside the owners' property that is used and touched upon by people who rent the place and invite people who reflect on violence with diplomacy and cover it up. I cannot do anything only with that. Everything else, I will stay neutral. I just appeal for sake of noticing that a Court's favor coming from my request could benefit everyone in this world. Annie and Betty do not live at the rented apartment in a permanent basis but they are source of this conflict. The source of this whole conflict does not revolve around an apartment. It transcended from someone else trying to do others favors but almost had the chance to get away with it. I know now that justice is served through God's eyes without me having to really do anything. With Annie, I was sort of offended about having to feel physically attracted to her and how I felt impelled to talk to her about not putting me on Facebook. With Betty, I've had this thing of liking her for some reason and thought maybe the act of bringing up going out with her might have been bad timing. Normally, young and single women have historically felt complemented when I said something about their good looks or natural propensity of being nice. It's been really difficult for me to say these things about Annie and Betty because they have blown me off. I just feel impelled to talk to them to bring them relief somehow and let go of this adrenaline rush from having negative focus on them. Everybody else did not want to respect or discern this decision of mine; I am not scaring them because I took measures early to prevent Annie and Betty from being influenced by others to place a TRO on me. Annie did not testify at court; I think it's a resemblance of how I sort of like her and get along with people I actually tend to like. At the time, I was not feeling really good about Betty, Lee, or my sister and because of it relating to not really liking them I think that's the result I saw happen at the court, which is practically shooting myself in the foot. I've been a coward all this time and failed to come clean with myself because of my private practices. I want to get outside more and hang out with close friends who are related to this circle. I am practically head over heels fond of some people at the church. That is why, those girls remain friendly with me even if they decided not to keep me posted with important stuff. What I wrote was insignificant and only a minority compared to the whole population treated it like life and death; it's horrible. To keep this thing at bay without me shedding any bad light, I'm going to treat this as a topic of establishing a spousal relationship- no fair, I never asked them out in the first place and was not being a jerk because it took them over a year to not finally tolerate me. They went way overboard and allowed themselves room to curve into the land of nod.  

Man It's So Easy To...

Man it's so easy to get people to stop bothering you. It only gets easier once you make the commitment to become selfless. It's a concept that Carlos Julio, a guy I know, has some trouble still understanding. To encourage and influence others to be selfless (yes, do your part to make the world happy), make the commitment to be a selfless individual. Then, incorporate a lot of hard work at your workplace and be so diligent at your job and truly be selfless and ready to be so giving to others. YOU HAVE TO LIKE DOING THIS; IT'S A KEY and can contribute to becoming the most imaginative good person you could think of. I mean be so ready to forgive others who trespass against you in a social sense. Be willing to take care of the guy like Julio who just is seeking a little attention through being jealous of your conduct and tries to be a little weird about it to make something excusable in his mind. Just be forgiving to this guy Julio. Generosity may seem so hard to give but the benefits of it could be pretty nice. I guess don't lose yourself and continue being yourself. Exercise common sense. 

I think having a good job and then trying to help economically after you're convinced a guy like Julio is going to not try to take advantage in a selfish manner with others will pick a guy like Julio up and help him to conceive things a little better. So while I was in a pretty angry state, I guess it was just so bottled up and that all I had to release it was just yell at someone; I know how bad that sounds and I really hate the idea of yelling and don't really want to resort to more screaming and then taking it to a much weirder level without exercising unconditional forgiveness. Just don't get really mad and stay sharp with a guy like Julio. Forgive him and still have a little fun with him. Nothing really wrong with that.   

I Finally Understand How To Live Emotionally

It's more simple than I could imagine. With whatever that upsets me or angers me, I'm supposed to be able to forgive the person who offended me. I did not know that's all it requires. I guess I was just not smart enough to pick it up so fast, but the fact that I understand now and am applying forgiveness to those who offended me, my life has become much more free. With the way I see it, they pretty much forced me out and were pretty much at the top of their worst behavior; whereas, I was acting pretty emotional and trying to control my temper which I did manage to do. Now that I am forgiving them, I no longer feel that much burden anymore.

Secondly, I'm supposed to not lose heart and keep trying. Sometimes, my mind may act not so sure but I'm supposed to be actively engaged in doing something for all the things that my heart is desiring. I need to live being peaceful with myself and just flourish with this attitude that wishes to hack difficult circumstances while being in a relaxed and happy state for the rest of my life. It feels like 90% of it is all in my mind.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 9

1. I would have normally waited for three months to prove that I am not crazy, but the deadline looked slated to be a month. Therefore, I must file out of suspicion of fraud and grounds of perjury. I did not present my defense and the honorable Court allowed negotiation of time to take place, because of my submission to the Court with a lawyer. The transcript of the Court should state it was a borderline case, based on me having said nothing. All over the internet, I have read of accounts where people have tried to force upon a restraining order for selfish purposes. A person has felt she is going to court to prevent a restraining order from being placed on her, after facing a TRO repeatedly. She counter-filed a restraining order and this is something I am truly contemplating for my own protection. A party of highly aggravated and effeminate men have been associated with my former TRO, so I think it would make sense if I decided to go around town to dine at someone's favorite restaurant. I have only not stated my side to prevent this from happening, and it feels like 90% of the time, the favor is going to go on the person who filed it by default without wanting to carefully look at the details. The cops came over, tried to arrest me out of their own abuse and failed to do so, and I am now laughing over this whole incident. I am definitely confident after not being so sure of myself that I did not do anything which was the problem in allowing this to happen. From having not done anything, it appears to be my fault on the surface from having purposefully given lack of knowledge from others who only wished to speak with brevity while angered by something they felt totally tortured by. It was something that they did not want to resolve within themselves because the origin was from their own psychological faculty. I did not insult them directly, nor harrass them in a manner that made me end up in jail. The officer who was trying to abuse me tried with all his might but failed to arrest me. I am under a hedge of protection from heaven and wish to be punitive by showing up and letting visitors know that these people really are not the greatest and could use a lot of good friends and sound leadership. For a church, outsiders characterize them as placing the Bible as a second-hand thing and are filled with the lusts of life. Carlos also believes that these friends totally trust him for something. I sort of see him as being quiet and when he engages, his heart is really into it and is basically being happy about assuming things going for him. I guess that's sometimes a good thing, and I could learn to love him even while he has that flaw. Maybe for a occasionally frustrated guy as me, I know how to take things well and end up stronger in the end. No matter what happens, I project success for myself and that this motion is as healthy for any person who feels mistreated or a side that feels they are better. It's practicing optimal objectivity. 

I have had the privilege of being improperly placed under arrest by a misguided officer. The reason why it is improper is because hand cuffs were applied, I was placed in the vehicle, and over all his efforts he did not take me to jail contrary to what an untruthful clergy man told me would happen. This happened at an apartment complex where others could have noticed or filed a complaint to further note that I was a being a danger to a shared property. No other neighbor who was actually occupied at their home came out to verify the commotion or add to the consensus that I was being a brat. The apartment renters may try to counter this claim but I think they will fail in getting truthful answers of witnesses that are under oath and can be potentially violated to their advocation of perjury and going about just leading them to answer what they want to hear only. The party of witnesses were pretty much laughing at the officer's remarks of advocating violence for self-defense. The officer even admitted that he was losing a lot of patience with me. The officer may note to tell everyone not to say this outloud to others, even though it still happens in future incidences. The officer may or may not want to appear to the court, and I am totally indifferent about it now because I just want to let out the truth to his forced upon appeal which supposedly may hurt the image of a body of peaceful believers over a logical incident that was only placed on arguing over principles and agreed upon principles of not needing to over-compensate personal spaces. Some officers have been noted as not being that great workers to civilization, which was surprising to me. Knowledge is a very key factor raising awareness, which is something I lacked in and made me diffident. I now feel empowered just by having this spot to just set up an appeal. I just want the Court to just review it and provide a favor that will benefit everyone in this world. I think I have an idea. Not to make any support but a lot of cool celebrities in movies get hand cuffed or placed under arrest for something minimal and to create an effect for the audience to see that there is a side of appreciating personal expressions, so I must have been attracting attention even though I did not want it to get so rowdy and never put up my daisy dukes to fight or cause someone to be hospitalized. The officer even tried to convince me that I should lose my mind to him and go to a mental hospital, which now brings a lot of laughter to me with no hard feelings. The sheriffs have been a real treat to me because they see it as me not being in trouble at all. I really admire sheriffs and possibly over an officer who is trying to get a pay check and be a desk warmer.  When the officer said that he found me in the bushes and applied hand cuffs, that really was not being completely honest.  I am sort of astonished as to how a regular resident would fall for that remark because there are no bushes for me to hide in the apartment complex. I did not even go bother their house again by knocking on it or making a highly bad noise to disturb the neighbors living in the apartment. I was expecting to receive a phone call from Jarred who had taken the liberty to message me a few times. I wanted him to do me a favor which was to get the contact number of the officer. I had visited the two stations, and they stated that this so-called officer who had applied handcuffs on me was not a legitimate police officer at the city's two offices. I believe that he not was really supposed to patrol this area and was only trying to do an ill-advised favor.  I just wanted to exercise my right to be informed about the conflict, which I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I can sort of laugh at this amusing remark now. I did see him but I hid behind a large vehicle by bending down because I'm pretty short. Afterwards, I was walking toward my vehicle. The cop greeted me as I was walking towards my vehicle. I saw the car's light flashing in my eyes and really bothered my eyes because it was pretty close, and I felt terror griping me. I was actually walking around the dog pound that is at the end of the block and is about 100 yards away from the apartment complex where the renters reside. Dogs were totally barking a lot. People were outside, and they kept on pointing with their fingers that I was walking far away from there. I actually observed the cop talk to them outside and repetitiously asked. The cop was blinded and did not know that my car was parked pretty far from the apartment complex and that dogs were barking. I speculate that I could drive another person's vehicle, stay there, and no one would notice I am there. The cop did not wish to acknowledge this because he saw me from a distance. He just wanted any affirmation that I was hiding in that bush and did not care that I was straddling away from the building as far I can. He just did not understand the human element of what I was going through. He also did not tell me in person that I was hiding in the bush and that's the reason why he arrested me. He just told me to be quiet and to "Shut up." I would like this man to tell me in court why he applied hand cuffs on me and not take me to jail! I actually know a friend who is in the entry level office patrol of a police force and is very friendly with people. He also knows quite a bit about professionalism and treating the accused with proper respect. He should be voted among the city's finest. He could pretty much detail where this officer who mistreated me went wrong. The officer went in to apply hand cuffs by himself without any backup and fortunately, he found someone who was not in the mood for being violent. Still with three officers, I think it is not very advisable to want to harm someone who they would think is a dangerous man and risk their lives without any sufficent evidence on the spot. There must be a class that teaches all this at an academy. This is great because he was only in the mood for mocking me by bringing out his taser gun and not very threatened by me. He was just being immature and needed some time off but was totally feeling horrible because he thinks I lied to him about not coming back. I think the cop will be a changed man regardless of what happened alreadly; he has to if the renters want to keep this restraining order going. Whether I look bad or good after this situation, the situation to really look at is that if this thing gets off, I may want to relate this as being a bad experience to the people involved and that they may have less of a reputation already. I totally wonder if the group will benefit with this coming off, but I naturally want to testify that there is a great possibility on the long or short run. Overall, the cop's natural instincts were to think that I did something wrong and that the cop was just wrong about going after his instincts this time around and that it may always be. I want to press severe discipline on the cop by talking about it with his captain. I was never booked or even saw a cell after getting handcuffed- that is too remarkable for me. I even sat in the police man's car on the back and was treated like an accused criminal. I've seen a man sitting outside and a sole woman standing behind him sort of smiling with a cop in front of both of them with his patrol vehicle. There is some relation to this just that Chris ruined it by being the one to call this immature police man. I question why Chris had to be so effeminate when he knows these things. I wonder if Chris is doing this out of jealous attention or to protect his interests, like his pride that a lion protects in a diplomatic fashion. I am thinking all of this without putting that much effort, and I am completely happy to acknowledge that I can be a benefit if the judge would see it my way. I promise that I am good about these situations. I won't find my way to a jail cell after the restraining order comes off; regardless of when it is even in that short time frame where they want to re-evaluate using their ignorant skills and I get to vocalize. 

Let's Get To Work Man

About nine years ago, I graduated from high school. I would then go on to practically finish college in four years with a very long major that made me take up about 210 units by the time I got out, keep in mind I did this while also transferring from a semester-long city college. It was a pain to have to take some additional courses. I have the sweat and tears of failure all underneath me. Why is it that I don't want to repeat the same thing again?

Happy Easter

Well, that's a nice picture. Okay, is that all I have to put on here for right now. I guess I don't know what else to put except finish up that funny and awfully long and super boring posts on vacating my restraining order. I'm just putting it out because I'm just sharing it. I might as well share some of my files. Eh, I guess I'm not going to try to do something stupid or something that I'll regret and then post it on this blog.

Hmm, I even wonder now if this blog is even worth any value to really place a restraining order on me. I think the two people who placed a restraining order on me really based it off of this blog. I guess I'm just writing stuff that are not really that bad and they just happened to be around to think weird about something.

If you look at it, for every person who acts pretty weird with me I think there's like 50 other people who don't mind talking to me. I read on the blog conduct of rules that there's a freedom of speech and that they can't really do anything about people slandering. Hmm, so what's the point of writing on this blog if every once in awhile I'm writing while not inspired by anything. I might as well just go play and ask those people who placed a restraining order on me to jokingly take some pills after it gets off. When the restraining order gets off for the maximum period, it's going to be highly interesting what happens next when I see them in person. So the next people who think about placing a restraining order are not going to want to place a restraining order on me because I am going to encourage them to hang tough this time around. Anyway have a Happy Easter and hope you have fun and enjoy your company. I say all this while laughing pretty hard underneath.

TributeTo U.S. Soldiers In Middle East

I myself tried to sign up with the U.S. Army on the year I graduated from my college. I could see myself tracking down enemy signals and decoding difficult locations of the enemy. I was going to go in to be a signal intelligence officer, or that's what it seemed. I was going to be on base, probably where the general was situated and be assisting him because I would be known as military intelligence personnel.

Nowadays, it's really hard to even get that type of opportunity for me. Yesterday, I read an article about Osama Bin Laden threatening the U.S. to not give the death penalty to one of al Quaeda's senior officers who was currently in Guantanamo Bay, Cuba. I just had to write a post to give some tribute to the men and women who put themselves in harm's way to ensure the world's protection. Being a believer of my faith, I recall reading an article on the LA Times about a soldier who became water baptized in Iraq and gave witness to the coming of the Lord. May God's Spirit solely rest on all these soldier's lives. I wanted in but my parents, friends, and sister all forced me not to go in so I had to give in to them. Nowadays, I really want to do something to make this world a more meaningful place.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 8

The person some people think that I had trouble with in a conflict are actually okay about communicating with me in a friendly manner. It is because I have not really done anything bad to them. Jarred and Carlos are still able to talk to me over the phone. Jarred has been capable of messaging me; I believe that my writing is on its way to polishing up and under a serious tone, it really does not make too much noise and cannot disturb or disparage others with a clean purpose. I never really had a motive for making people uncomfortable in the first place. The girls that were supposedly bothered by me, when they were inside I had heard them sort of feel okay with me being there. Meaning under my covert activity, they had not really talked or felt bothered by me or even might have been a lot better. It must be an emotion that I could place under feminine impersonal desires. I believe I had all this time to think about it and be relaxed over this whole incident now to really come to this conclusion. I was able to get some support that was related to my personal assurance as well. There's nothing wrong about petitioning if one feels that something is wrong in the judgment. That is why the lawmakers have made it an available situation to give both parties an equal chance. I did not get my chance in this hearing, so I just practically file to try to follow up. I don't think anyone was really that mindful enough to have the desire of going out of their way, but I believe I actually carry that trait.  I believe that I fall under the category of exception after taking time to understand what was right and wrong about this situation. The main point being that the focus of the problem did not place a TRO on me, then I think this restraining order should be vacated.

    I think Annie and Betty not wanting me to be on a Facebook page may relate a little to silly pretensions. They have been pretty direct with me in person, so I don't think they are incompetent and scared with me at all. With being able to talk with them, I believe that sets a more serious tone and is more vital than just a Facebook connection. Because we can connect by mingling, I do not see a bad reason for having the potential to write to them. It's a little questionable with how they might not want me to know who their friends are, especially when I have already been around the majority of them. If it's dealing with their suspicious problems of viewing their photos, I can see them in person and think they look fine even if I am agitated or annoyed by them. Problems started with the aggressors who brought up an issue with me, but keep in mind that the Court has not confirmed me to be violent which I am ecstatic over. Because of their personal decision and incidences which I care about as a distant friend should, I feel that my pursuance of one of them is going to be downplayed by me.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 7

    I don't think Annie and Betty were supposed to project themselves as being uncomfortable with me. They can't really illustrate what I told them that made them feel that way to this day. This is what they should be able to do with Chris and Jarred but it must not really be guy related. Chris and Jarred took on a role where they saw themselves as like a savior to Annie and Betty, which was based off of selfish pretenses. More like, maybe to feel like they could be an impressive person. Out of this pride, they tried to mark me for jail but if I am capable of evading it with all my full efforts then logically speaking they must have been wrong about me. I sort of care about it and had desires of compassion with them. It's marked by my willingness to feel guilt once confirmation was in. If Annie is involved with showing friendliness by touching people on the shoulder or arm then that's good that she smiled at me when I did that to Annie. Carlos sort of did not want me to touch girls in general; he felt I was going to do it to a rough amount; he's been going back and forth to avoid having to feel guilty about something. I've been able to indirectly get him to agree with me that he was not on his best behavior. I was on mine because I could have done a lot worse with Jarred and Carlos because a misunderstanding was in place. If I had truly acted out in my agitation, then this would have naturally been shown and they would be glad that I did not place Christopher Kuch in the hospital because I don't believe in doing that stuff. Sorry, I'm not trying to sound violent at all; just helping everyone to see that I'm not that different from an average person just slightly feel advantageous because the morals are modeled after Christ's sacrificial love and with good inspiration from Dr. Martin Luther King, it does not hurt any Pacific Coast judge reading this. I found out the truth, and I am okay with handling it. They really would say later that they did not know what they were doing. They just want to pretty much state they told me everything I needed to know and just did not want to reiterate it. It seems a little counteracting because if they can't reiterate it and wish to not even have brevity in speaking to me about this then why do they have to feel angry with something that does not relate to them. It's like the important people were okay with dismissing it but my heart was like not important to them. They chose to disrespect more than respect by making their decision and then demand respect from me, which is completely okay with me who would be laughing. I prove it by stating that I am a law-abiding and patient citizen. I think their lack of speech means that they can feel whatever I tell them is right. They try to go against what they know is good because they tried to convince themselves what I was doing was bad. I only naturally think that because they apologized to me about their rudeness which I accept now that they were not capable of judging the situation and because of this, it should by default testify that there is no unusual evidence. Chris felt personally threatened and decided to call the cops on me. He had been really rude to me and felt that I was taking it the wrong way; this does not mean that I should be locked up in a mental hospital as the cop had told me. Chris is not filing against me; a lady is trying to file on his behalf. It seems mystically forbidden for a social atmosphere. I'm not playing games as Chris kept accusing me of. I can say this because Chris has no restraining order against me and that a man knows how to respond if he's very certain of himself. It still works either way Chris feels that this motion may actually be valid for me, which is not to anyone's demise because I write to state that let's not make it that way. This whole thing may fall on one person and not deal with two parties regardless of the outcome and no amount of time would be fesible so it's best to let this thing drop in the Court of law to present what the majority feels is sensible. John Adams did state that the majority is always right. There's more to this then a simple call made by Chris who was not the owner of our house that we worship in. If I took part in washing dishes, bringing food for the table which was lots of fun, and interacted with people who I love to death- that is why I think this motion could be valid.

    I hope I'm dealing with a very mellow judge and someone who is capable of putting this together to realize it is more than open-ended that justice is served by just releasing this order. If you look at it from a criminal's perspective, it's just not my time yet then. Church people like Annie and Betty tend to be free willed and forgiving. I did read about different diagnostic methods of depression, and I don't think I have it because I'm still capable of controling my own emotions. I guess I speak out my mind a lot better in person and should come to an understanding that some individuals just want to stay uptight no matter what they want to do. I need to convince them that it's wrong to view an individual even Annie and Betty in this situation from a wrong angle especially when they think they are so right. I guess that's what really scares them the most that they could be wrong when they think they are so certain about something. A recent movie called "Invention of Lying" which is a sardonic film about people being blunt with one another illustrates that normal grown-ups are okay with hearing the bad news that they don't want to be missed by someone, but in this case with superficial reasoning. Setting that aside, I am like this just that I have not been able to completely understand their judgement and discernment with me. It has been unwittingly getting me to already discover answers without their confirmation. I truly and really want to be nice and cool about this whole situation. I have tested my writing and know it can be pushy, but people seem to be receptive somehow and not mind it to a back-breaking point. Sometimes people get a rough start in life. From time and time again, I have proven to myself that I can pick up on things and make things run more smoothly after a bad outing. I have been successful naturally because of my own preferences to die to myself and be willing to sympathize with the pains of others. It was the scary part that I was trying to understand more, and now that I see it, I was only normally scared about something only when I was by myself and not around others. I am doing pretty well to be able to write this long statement.

Some of the most Beautiful Pieces For Piano

I have to take a break from copy and pasting a file that keeps on making me laugh. It's not defaming or slandering or doing anything of that nature because I'm using full blunt honesty which I normally hate doing but trying because I'm a dude. If it makes them look bad, it's because your values choose to side with that and it's natural because I am 100% natural. Haha

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 6

I technically submitted to the gist of the nature which was not to talk to Annie and Betty, who are not the people in question with this restraining order. This was supposed to be done at someone's rented apartment, according to the so-called labeled leaders. These self-described leaders also stated that I could vocalize myself with a simple word, "Hello" with them. Trying to utilize reasonably in this situation where they were jumping to conclusions, I thought e-mailing them along with those people involved would be a sensible way of trying to relieve the situation, along with dissolve the adrenaline that I was getting. If I could say hello to them, then a restraining order's purpose is to not talk to them. This does not add up in a sense where I have any direction. E-mailing is my attempt to make sense with them. If none of it was really violent and my frustrating comments were turning into some off-humor, then my adrenaline is definitely not a dangerous part of me but will make me appear to be rash enough to be okay with imparting likeness or neutrality. I am definitely glad that the courts will confirm that none of my writing is violent. My embedded frustration that they thought I had was actually a joke because I related it to be just nothing and something I could still function in life efficiently with. The alleged comment that God would punish those who speak and lie about others in private was actually related to a sermon I heard once. I am pretty happy in my faith already dealing with Christ. Not that I cannot function or detect people who are prone to have temper tantrums, such as  a yelling police man who revealed that he was mad with me beforehand. The message someone felt uncomfortable about is actually only directed at Chris, but I sent it to a multitude of the guys. Annie and Betty are young women who are not related to Chris at all. Chris does have a relation with other guys, such as Jarred, Golf, and Chai. That is why I forwarded that copy to only Chris' male peers and leaders. The main people are Chris, Jarred, and Golf. They failed to show up to court to give witness. Annie, Betty, Chai showed up and I had little relation to them with this restraining order. Therefore, this whole restraining order should be nullified.

If they were the ideal and impartial people who said they wanted to help which they implied to me in the beginning. I think they would state something like this:

    I am concerned for you, I can in no way help you over the internet, but I can guess that you spend a     lot of time alone thinking to yourself. Which is fine, but complete isolation is not good for you. Go     spend some time with a close friend that you are comfortable with so you dont spend all of your time     thinking. And start working on your social skills.

    You are probably scaring these girls you are talking to online, stop before they take some sort of     legal action against you.

In response to my full caring and at least a little bit of ecstatic laughing, I would now comfortably reply on these lines:

    I actually used to know these girls from a church I went out to. Things went really out of hand     because I did not really say anything about it. I thought they were all being nice and trying to reach     out to me. What makes me really mad is that they were trying to change me into someone I did not     want to be. I felt really forced and insulted at the same time. I guess I was really selfish at the time     only with feeling insulted. Other than that, I was really agitated about them doing something that     could potentially be bad for me. I don't know how I'm going to act, but by being the best I can be I     don't plan on stalking them. By visiting a certain area they are there and I think around people I do     really well, except that when I'm really distracted with adrenaline it gets really hard for me to be nice     because I have a tendency to yell really badly and then feel bad right away. If I feel bad then I end     up leaving them alone for good with a purpose. Over all, I think this whole thing is about them     wanting to be be in a relationship. I just never popped them the question because I was afraid of     rejection and more than that, I would feel really embarrassed feeling a rejection coming out of those     girls because I just didn't see them worth any class. Maybe, it's just kind to ask them if this is     dealing with a relationship even though I don't see a forecast with them and go from there. I'm man     enough to handle a confirmed rejection from some girls that I don't really see as my type but sort of     attracted to. I got some laughs and just a tad of appreciation thinking about having sexual relations     with them.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 5

I think my posts used to scare some people or made some people angered for no real reason that they would not want to bother to explain in a through manner. It's not that I wanted to offend some people. This formation of a psuedo-mob seems to be historically verifiable. I have been making some money because I have repeated surfers on my blog. To give the judge a chance to reflect his decision, if the judge has enough time here is the URL for my blog, http://www.academyofscud.blogspot.com! The questions that I ask may be so annoying to them because they don't know how to answer and still believe that I am not deserving of what it is that they can't really reveal to me. There is nothing wrong with asking relevant questions of my accusation because I thought I was going to be informed. I believe there is a right to be informed and is in their best interests to express their right of the First Amendment. The plaintiff and the ones who are responsible for letting this happen with me would probably like to think that it's mean but I should just keep writing because if someone is brave enough to read my writing they will probably let it influence themselves. This writing is probably so uncomfortable that some people need to disassociate themselves and act a little different around me then they normally would. I am not trying to suck up to anybody here. I'm just trying to make sense of this adrenaline flow I've finally understood and adjusting to it for the best results. I just need to be committed and that should work. I did a lot of "He says" deal outside of court. Anything dealing with legal matters, I let it be a lot of "She says" which implies my only female lawyer's confusion and frustration about this event. I would like to testify that relieving this situation will be better for a woman's image in general. My female lawyer was very defensive of me and really used legal arguments that I believe were not really prepared. I don't think I look bad at all with anything I do, but seems to bring so much indirect pain with unresolved feelings that do not really relate to me. I did not threaten, insult the girls, or abuse them. I simply stated what looked to be a reasonable thing to say. I have stated some things that were negative and provoking laughter but only to relieve myself of any frustration and doing it at a low level. I do not believe in using curse words or highly insulting words to hurt someone's feelings. I would rather use the truth in a full manner and wish them the best in dealing with it. They are supposed to be God fearing people, so I did not mean to imply that God was already working to punish them by pruning the membership and currently stunted with no multiple services on a Sunday.  They basically stymied and made things go to their favor. It was difficult to try to understand them because things did not click because they naturally do not represent the feelings of just one individual. I tried my best to listen and be considerate and cooperate, and it looked it was more about impressing them instead of really listening to them.  If they were supposed to be helpful, they would have given me a call about what to expect, as they all were already prepared what to state and I was not informed what was going to happen. The lead clergy man of a church had mentioned that I would expect a call from them to inform me of what the structure was going to be, but it had not happened. To their minds, I deserve a restraining order, to be cut off, and to be put in jail. They had repeatedly stated that by visiting them practically would land me in jail because that's what they said would happen. They will say that they did, but they add all of those events after as to try to cover it up. They will mention that they did not have to call me and that I still should have understood them. As a result, I am filing a side order which is to exercise my right to be informed. However, the police man did not send me to jail and did not really take a favorable side with me at the same time because he was in a bad mood for some reason. He showed it by stating that I was really ticking him off. If I must follow Jarred, Chris, Chai, Annie, and Betty then they would send me to jail even though I did not go to jail for doing something that they told me not to do multiple times and repeatedly in a sensible manner. Even though I do not understand everything and seems like they were exaggerating, I pretty much submitted to them already by honoring the gist of what needed to be done in their minds. It makes sense now with my model of how they are just trying to avoid having to feel guilt in an indirect manner. This may be apparent by them mentioning that they do not want to talk about it. They may try to naturally offset anything I say because it's in their nature to basically disagree with anything even if it's already sensible. I see a relation with all in them, in that there is no Facebook connection as it was once there. However, another person who people consider to be a leader at that church is Golf. He was involved in some type of exaggeration and was a witness and pretty active person, just that he sort of knew that the situation was not worth getting too carried over. Golf practically still has a connection with me on Facebook. If I did okay with one person with obviously someone who overreacted in this group with like views where they forced upon charge with me, then I believe that I have a shot of a domino effect which would be beneficial for everyone. I guess I cannot really handle a restraining order that does not seem like I deserve it. It's okay to talk about it because being blunt and revealing motives before letting something bad happen is good.

    I think that I have a lot of good people in my life. Sometimes, it can feel like for me that is too hard to reflect on what life is all about because I guess I can be a little deep down nervous inside and then feel like some of those people were starting to harass me, it's a really hard thing to stay calm inside for only a certain period. After that, it's understanding and resolving the situation which is considerably a normal human interaction. They did think I would need to get some professional help; I am not pretty sure if they said this because they felt like providing me with bad advice. I was told by someone who was a key factor that she did not have anything against me, but that she was sent outside by her leaders but she did not get really forced into talking to me that day. I recall her smiling quite a bit. She also had a smile, pretty cute concern, and seemed less than resilient about me approaching her, so I think she would have advocated a restraining order for a different purpose. It was because one of her ambitions with me may have not been met.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 4

The first time I went to discuss about this matter, I was largely unaware of the proceedings because a lot of my time was being taken up. I already have a restraining order from a person I associated with awhile ago. He felt that I was a terrorist and then later joined the army to be shipped out to Iraq. I really feel compassionate for him because I did not know how much he really misses his dad. I wrote that his dad had died of cancer and that he was jokingly not smart for leaving the family he grew up with and then coming to the West Coast. It is a little devestating to me that Washington, a name given to a man, would ponder so much about a restraining order on his birthday which is the Fourth of July- that is when he tried to issue the restraining order. I had filed a counter TRO at Washington after I received it shortly and forgot about my troubles with him. I did not even know that it would appear on my court record that the TRO even went through. He must have showed up to court at the time, which I did not even appear at. The judgement was based on me not showing up to court because I thought we were still friends even though he has obviously some negative periods with himself. He had told me some very intimate details about him that would really take the shine out of his life, and I'm not going to do that out of respecting what I want to make a popular ideology, which is to avoid any speculation that it's gossip. I do try to talk honestly in private about my concerns and directly with certain people at the same time, so that's just being me all the time and not trying to be bad. I have polished a lot of my writing, and now can speculate that I was scattering thoughts all over and burning up my frustration on many different plates. I now want to combine all my efforts into one and then release everything. I will be the very best person I can be because I now have the right emotions working with me. In a way, it sort of favors me to be someone who people think I will go to jail but in actuality, do not have enough evidence. When I asked for it, they simply avoided talking to me. They had stated they already gone over it several times with me, as their excuse. It also felt like they were adding on new things to discuss how I was being a bad person, so I thought it would make sense to believe that they really did not go over it with me countless times. One of the main thesis in this discourse is if anyone has had a good experience with being around someone they know and hanging out in a one-on-one fashion, then they would really advocate the idea that I've been neutral with what I have always been doing. They have never pointed out anything bad with me. There is also probably a multiple amount of sub-thesis comments, just that I do not really have time to point them all out. This is not a rehearsed written sample from me. Then, they put a restraining order on me which is making me laugh so hard now. I think it's good to get this thing off just for the sake of helping them to improve to improve the moderating effect of their invented religion which says that they should have been humble in the first place. Maybe this publicity will generate more visitors to a very well-structured church that is a place of worshipping God, where the true believers really do know Him. I am also acting around others in a convinced manner who respond positively to me with this pretty factual comment. Most people don't care about being ethical if it does not deal with them. I totally wonder if some voting plaintiffs who are not directly written on this thing will actually vote and support justice in the future elections. Some females who have psychological degrees may feel a little resilient about marketing over unclarity and leave it to the defacto standard. There are movers and shakers in creating it. I believe in being ethical regardless of how others want to project their decisions after being mad. I hope the best is influenced with what some people can term my behavior only on this restraining order as being neutral and totally laughing when people think there is a demise that happened to me.

    I am really concerned about the others who did this to me. They were practically abusing the practicality of what a restraining order is supposed to be used for. It's normally used for people who are violent, not for people you don't want to be friends with anymore. Besides, they communicated with me and were not supposed to e-mail me with requests if they thought I was being violent. A saying goes, "You do not negotiate with terrorists." They were being hypocritical when they stated they would not negotiate with me. There are other methods of dealing with their own pain of not wanting to be friends, if I was never being violent. If it was not even in my intention to be violent, then there was no reason for me to even make the attempt of stalking someone who was not even in my grasp of desire. I was following up for clarification not just following a girl because I wanted to chase after all of them. I have also heard that chasing after a girl is not really supposed to result in a restraining order if she does not like you and you do not repeatedly go to her throughout the whole week most of the time that result in skipping your studies and work. Maybe this implies that she did like me and that the men were trying to protect them by being psuedo-friends with the girls. This is where they totally abused the usage of a restraining order and attempted to make me look bad. I think my emotions are not really affected that bad, but want to serve in the way of giving back and providing at least some accountability to the Court and hopefully allow the judge to be compassionate whenever this situation arises. For a younger sensitive man acting as the defendant who does not really want to open up and then does things and trying to save the embarrassment of the plaintiff. I was dealing with very sensitive men who probably really care about it if comments were stated negatively about their appearance and could not voice their opinions with me very effectively. I attribute it to them being slightly feminine at the time and that they have cowardice in filing a restraining order with me very directly. If one of the main comments were directed only at them and someone tries to state that she should have received that message and the Court should be concerned about it and that the main reason for having a restraining order then the men should have showed up to court the first time to give witness. There was error on their end. I needed a lot of time to recollect (filing motion) because this restraining order is dealing with more than one person who is not related to me as being a former significant other at the moment. This is all about keeping history from repeating itself- that is my main worry.

Motion To Vacate Restraining Order Part 3

I felt like I was being controlled and did not really want to follow suit. This is because I associate with a faith and someone's picture of my faith is that it includes submitting to them because they claim to be leaders over everything dealing with my life. The person went to say that I should submit to authority, which is doing everything that they say. Therefore, I think threatening someone with a restraining order for not being manageable does not seem to be the perfect fit reason for a restraining order. I remember that the last time I was battling at court to let go of a default restraining order for not showing up, the other guy said nothing but started showing up at other events to say hi to me. It seemed very possible to get the restraining order off even though everybody thought it was impossible. The judge had said that he could not legally give any advice but implied that he could and even the deputy told me to get a lawyer. I just felt like I was being totally controlled, but nevertheless I submitted temporarily which was about two-in-a-half months and did not try to set foot on the person's door. The demanded program was to be completed in three months. I thought rounding it up would be reasonable. For awhile, without making any attempt to barge right in the door, I did drop off another person to the house because he had expressed interest in showing up. I thought it would be good to get him exposed to a natural environment of people because of his rather vexing and meaningless gossip and because I just wanted to help. I have not been able to follow up with him because of this restraining order being a distraction. I did not complete the full program because I had disagreed with it. It took them a long while to submit a restraining order, but only on the catalyst of a phone call to the police. The police officer was very biased about the situation and made unfair propositions with me. He really did not signify being the city's finest. He had attempted to arrest me and applied handcuffs, but knew he couldn't take me to jail so he had asked someone to put a restraining order on me. He even lied about me hiding in the bushes because if I had hid there, he would not have found me. The bushes are also not part of the property of the whole apartment complex that wants to file a restraining order. I heard from the person I dropped off that the police officer had joked about permissibly ending my life, if I ever set foot on the apartment again. It's really peculiar to me on the night of the phone call to the police because the walls are not super thick and that other neighbors would have come out with the apartment complex doors being only about 2-and-a-half yards across each other. A photo of the complexes would prove its proximity. I can have someone else go take it for me, but will save it to grace and let it be up to someone who feels bothered about the details to do something about it. I live in a street that could be termed as narrow (just ask Annie and Jarred because they rode over once with a very long-term good friend who tries to be cool and nice) and the apartment complex pavement is much more narrow. The opposition may state that I'm complaining so much but my reason is that I believe there's enough in everyone to agree to disposing this restraining order; if I am able to file a petition then it may be very well possible.

    Making a loose connection about the world being in a crisis, I think I can help by donating a gripload. I sort of have a passion of making a large earning to donate to wonderful organizations that would support needy people. I think I file this because I'm hoping to generate enough interest and encourage a good outreach to find a cure to any crisis. It's a struggle but hard work should not be in vain and any distractions like this restraining order should be extracted.