Trading Log

After about two days, this trade has managed to make about 170 pips which just means that it's a really nice return. Also, the indicators are showing that there is still more potential movement. I really love these types of trades, and I hope to make these often enough.

I'm basically looking at trading when it bounces off a resistance or support level. Also, I'm testing out my aggressive entry strategy as well. It looks like as long as the spread is decent enough, I could probably end up scaling all my trades to accommodate about 2-5% of my funds at a time while entering all the different currencies. It's because I'm trading with the daily chart and noticing the moves are big enough to profit while doing this strategy.

Pretty Simple

This is what I personally believe will work a lot when it comes to living a fully enriched life. The first and most important thing is to seek a relationship after God from reading the pages of the Bible. By loving Jesus, it just sets up the person to be the very best he or she can be in this life.

That being said, how it applies to me is finding an attractive and pretty strong-willed Christian woman to marry. It is through studying the Bible daily and applying its principles and finding a way to work out with the differences. I think all of that theoretically makes sense and works out in the end.

It's just pretty much hard work to have balance in every aspect of my life, but in the end, I believe that becoming a millionaire with six-pack abs will help me out a whole lot in marrying a decent and attractive believer.

I guess I can see myself having a little fun with playing golf too, even though I'm not that good at it. It would be fun to improve my game a little and to just have fun at it. I guess I have this imagination that needs to be filled up, and it's about coming to acceptance for me in that things are not always going to go accordingly to what I want and that I should work really hard at it without losing heart to minimize what I see as threats. It's to also take advantage of those who wronged me in a way too, without them really having to know about it.

Trading Update

This is my current best trade that I have running as of now. I have been constantly looking at the charts to analyze a feasible pattern of trading and then trying to test it out in the live market. I do have a trading group that I can go hang out with to exchange some ideas and learn how to be successful in this market. It's pretty fun for me and something I can see myself doing really well in and eventually becoming a millionaire over!

I practically just changed it up a little again and made it even more simpler for my eyes. I have been trying to figure what the best times are to enter and exit the market. I'm also just trying off the daily chart from not desiring to spend a whole lot of time of this each day, and it looks like I'm on my way to tweaking this system so that it could cause me to make some moderate gains.

It's really quite simple actually. I'm just basing it off the laws of supply and demand, when it comes to dealing with trading currency. The numbers don't lie and the charts do a wonderful job at depicting where the market is currently going. It then just becomes a whole bunch of speculation after that.

Doh!

From the last post, it sounded all dandy just that I forgot to consider one thing. The girl I want to be married to has to have her sight set on Jesus. Basically, she needs to be a Christian for me to want to be very interested in her and with those really fun nights I would like to enjoy. I say this with a sense of humor. I'm sure if I texted this to someone I'm annoyed at, then he would get really mad and want to disown me as a friend. I guess there's other, attractive Christians to go find if it isn't here. I'm going to just hold my horses a little and find out as soon as possible, while trying to meet up a few female friends who could be available as well and making new ones.

One of the Most Important Realizations Ever

Apart from realizing, Jesus is the way, truth, and the light. God sent Himself while being flesh and blood and was a perfect being because God can only do the impossible. God did this through being His Son Jesus and saved His believers from condemnation. That pretty much means everything to me, so I choose to worship God through believing upon Jesus with the help of the Holy Spirit.

However, there's something personal about my flaw that I just realized and have been developing at while giving effort. I've become a much nicer guy from trying to man-handle my own emotional disturbances. Basically, my personality flaw that causes disruptions in my personal relationships is from being annoyed at people and just texting them anything that bothers them. Why would I do that? Because it makes me laugh so hard and then I become cool with the person again. The other person doesn't like it and tries to chase me away from his or her life.

I've finally received help from what I believe God in this matter, just to come to the realization. Now, I'm making an effort to change my ways so I can be a better witness to these people I struggle in having a nice relationship with.

Another side note, my main reason for writing this deep post was because I was thinking about this friendly girl I was able to be around as just an acquaintance. I'm thinking I could marry her right now and have so much fun each night after going out doing something. I'm just putting it in Disney terms to sound still appropriate because it's funny to me! I know readers know what I'm talking about here. Anyway, I'm attracted to her and don't even know if she already has a boyfriend in mind that she's going to marry. Anyhow, just right in the nick of time, I realized my relationship crashing flaw from help above and so I'm going to work hard to make this second nature where I won't be sending texts while I'm annoyed at someone. I don't want to do this to her friends and then lose a decent opportunity; that would suck. I'm going to have to prove that I'm a changed man not just to her, but to everyone affected by me because of it. If I can do this, then I think I'm the nicest and coolest guy in the world for the job of having fun with her each night while married! Okay, maybe that's too much probably like once every two or three days to some degree.

Only in the Movies

An awesome writer has the ability to incite the worst out of people and sometimes to put on the brakes and then slowly reverse. These writers have a place in the world, and their talent belongs in movies, scripts, plays, and novels- they entertain the masses with their incredible gift.

I have an ability to write and make a contribution to the world with it. Yet, I don't really want to be just merely an entertainer. I want it to be used for something more useful. Now, I know that I have a personality flaw when dealing with my writing. I've worked on my texting, and it dramatically like changed overnight. It was like an effortless feeling to get to my friends actually responding back to me with "Yeah, let's go hang out." and "when?"

There's a time and place for my writing ability. If I abuse it, I can end up getting in trouble with some charismatic people who will try to lead a mob town against me. People in misery like to lead on others into thinking their conclusions are correct, and in one case that I was actively involved with, the other guy was having some trouble drawing reasonable conclusions and sticking to hasty generalizations. He would just go off and say things with absolutes, like for example, "No one wants to hang out with you." I laugh at that statement. He said, "Everybody is younger than you." I was like so and so isn't, and he was like "Oh really?" Basically, I couldn't take his comments very seriously.

Just In Time

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh! I'm so scared.

For this post, I'm just raving about how I managed to finally figure out my personality flaws that makes a few people go nuts and run away from me! It leaves me feeling so sad. I end up texting them non-threatening messages that talk about nonsense and drive them crazy from being so annoyed at them. No one honestly should encourage me to get there because that's pretty much the borderline of losing my cool.

I'm constantly laughing while I'm sending those text messages because I know they are going to read it. What I put on there makes me laugh while thinking about how the person is going to react. I then forget about it and become cool with the person I was annoyed with. However, the person I did it too now becomes unstable and doesn't want me around him or her. Well, that sucks, I'm so cool about hanging out with the person, but he or she is like not interested anymore.

It's funny in an inappropriate way especially if the reader likes to hate people in general. Maybe I'm a super and very cool person to be the most prettiest girl's lover if the world takes away my phone and access to social media on the Internet. If anybody would take away my ability to write, then I become like the greatest guy in the world.

I can see how my texting can be a struggle when I'm incredibly annoyed. The reason why it's scary is because I'm functioning like a normal person still and can be planning really scary stuff while thinking it isn't so bad to do to the person, like setting manure on fire and pretending it was an accident. Maybe I could set up a scarecrow and put the person's name, while the person is sleeping on the front lawn, overnight. I'll spray can it to create visible letters that says "Bird watcher". Those are the funny and sometimes nasty things I can think about doing, but it's better that I don't act on those feelings. Likewise, it was hard for me to see this with my texting because I take pride of keeping my cool in check. If the person is offended, then it's like I pulled a dirty prank on him or her already. I should definitely call texting someone while I'm mad at them one of my nasty tools that I should never take out from the toolbox of explosives.

Moving Forward

This one girl who I was attracted to physically and then the next girl and the next. All of those young women are a part of my memory, but it isn't really that significant enough to feel bothered about. I think my personality also gets me to linger about things longer than I should. It's like I'm missing out on something. I've actually developed an obsession to solve personal problems that I'm interested in dealing with. It could even be the smallest thing.

I'm actually seen as a nice guy, but I sometimes throw some things out there that gets people thinking I was out of line. I now understand why some people don't really want to be friends with me. It really doesn't quite matter so much anymore because I prefer being friends with those who are interested with me and also Jesus is the ultimate friend for me who will always be around because of my faith. I'm starting to see that perhaps lingering on some things dealing with people might not really be that important to worry about anyway. To be the greatest it takes a lot of work anyway and only a few will ever achieve it, while the rest pretty much get to struggle with their daily affairs. Even though the person might be great at that area, working to balance his or life might be some more work. Life is like a constant battle. It's an ongoing fight to be the very best you can be.

Learning About Personal Weaknesses

A good thing that I've acquired from the past is a sense of humor. Every once in awhile, I like to naturally bring up something to myself that didn't turn out to what I wanted. I could have done it differently now that I think about it, and it's something that just puts a smile on my face. It's a little uncomfortable, but I want to face these types of insecure thoughts and grow from them as a person.

One of the biggest things I've learned about myself is from making this one guy I know flip out. I actually like him as a friend, and I'm saying that not in a marriage-type of feeling way but more like I can see him as a buddy. I learned that I get annoyed sometimes and then just start attacking people that I'm annoyed at with text messages. It could sometimes even be like a build-up from something that happened in the past.

It definitely made me more aware of the person I am. I have also been constantly making an effort to improve myself mentally, physically, and emotionally. I keep my emotions in check even when I'm annoyed at people. It's got to the point where I can seriously elaborate on topics while thinking fairly cleanly while I'm still mad about something. Maybe it's a good thing after all to shy away from unnecessary battles and just leave it alone, even when I'm feeling annoyed about something.

Trying To Be Helpful

I think it really comes down to what makes someone happy and how he or she likes to tick. No matter what mistakes were done from stupid things, it's a great thing to think with a sound mind again and move forward. Just try not to repeat the same mistake again by not forgetting about it and understand the lesson that you get out of it. It's just important to not lose heart with having to backtrack or work even harder to work around those mistakes and get something happening.

I really can't testify enough about how developing a relationship with the true and living God through His Son Jesus is wonderful. Yeah, all of this stuff makes sense to me even if it's boring. It's like I'm in some zone of thought and it's entertaining to me.

Current Best Trade

For the demo account I'm running, so far I've had this currency pair run for almost a week and it has continued to make me a nice gain. I'm once again updating my trading style and experimenting with different ideas. Like always, I feel satisfied with I have going.

It looks like this time I'm trading currencies based on determining if the price is at a current high or low level along with relying on an indicator to give me a signal. I also don't want to trade too low or high when I have a good signal, so I'm also relying on that as well.

By trying to do all this, it's limiting my trading aggression and forcing me to sort out and pick only the best trades that I think I can profit off of. I'm basically just having fun with this, nothing really much to go off of, but just that. Once I'm able to start generating profit consistently, I will be ready to attempt this with real money and try different ideas of maximizing my profit taking which will be the fun part.

Staying Busy

I don't really see myself playing around with video games and watching T.V. so much anymore. I think I'm developing a preference for hanging out with people more often than just being a homebody.

On top of that, I see it as being very beneficial with working out everyday and conducting personal hygiene. I'm just trying to be smart these days. Well, the trading currency part is still something I'm working at. I think I can live with making what I'm currently doing for my day job as a career.

In the meantime, I'll just continue to build confidence and see if I can find an opportunity somewhere while just persisting.

Becoming More Serious

Well, I do owe about $13,000 for educational loans still. I have a car that I need to make monthly payments with still. It would be really nice to be relieved of any strenuous obligations for housing and transportation. I guess it makes sense then to just work hard and try flirting with some available and single Christian women I would like to get to know - haha.

The current job place that I'm working at is something I can see myself turning it into a living now. Even though I have a degree in Computer Science, I think I can still do something else. If this is where God has allowed me to get to, then I might as well benefit from it and use the experience to enrich myself wholesomely. I still use a little bit of my college background on my other interests anyway.

Last night, I ended up watching a re-run of a basketball game and knew my teams were going to lose ahead of time. I also ended up checking up on the storyline of a T.V. show by reading its Wiki site. Today in the morning after reading the Bible, I skipped my work out and ended up playing Bloons TD5 which is pretty fun and quite easy to play.

Pretty much I let my mind wander a little off-course from my ideal lifestyle again by letting fun distractions get to me. I don't really want to continue going that route when I have some bigger plans that I would like to attend to. I've really seen how my day starts right after reading the Bible. I probably get like 10% out of the ten chapters I'm reading, but that little bit is inspiring to me because I truly want to honor the Lord and love Jesus with all my heart, might, and soul. I need about two more weeks to finish the New Testament and then after that, it's starting all over again. I still have quite a ways to go with the Old Testament. I'll just keep reading and reviewing and trying to retain whenever and whatever I can comprehend in the Bible.

I can also see myself capitalizing on the side with developing my programming skills and creativity while keeping this full-time career and also managing to work out enough to get some muscles and a six-pack, while also getting married to start a family with a beautiful Christian woman. I'm really going to start looking into it with this whole programming thing and just go after whatever interests me while not currently caring about the quality. I'll fix it as it goes and just deal with the cheesiness. To summarize, instead of playing games and poker, I'm going to let myself be immersed with learning how to program and make something that I could eventually sell with no problem! It makes a whole lot of sense because I can do this at my own time, and it fits my personality. I'll just put aside my fun longings like space travel and surviving in the wild naked and afraid for now and work at developing wealth, a six-pack, and Christian wife (wherever Jesus leads me on this one, even if I'm supposed to stay single).

Happy Veteran's Day

Currently I'm still making some progress with this long-term and aggressive trading style. What I like about it is that most of the trades are running for days without getting stopped out. If the signals end up being a bad one, then I can just get out of it instead of just watching the charts and hoping it turns around.

Today, I ended up just messing around with playing the piano and thinking about if I could handle everything about marrying someone I am actually comfortable with dating and physically attracted to. I think it really comes down to if she's happy being with me or not. If she genuinely is and I feel the same way for her, then this mutual interest of being happy for making the other happy would be wonderful! It then becomes like having any physical infirmities instead of being the traditionally big and strong looking guy wouldn't really matter so much then. It's nice to be those things of course, but love conquers all and that's what really matters in the end.

Being in a happy relationship is really about being selfless in both directions. I'm starting to see that now.

Leviticus 13:46-59

Last month, I stopped at Leviticus 13:45 which stated that the person with leprosy will have his clothes torn while his head is made bare and his mustache needs to be covered and then he will cry "Unclean! Unclean!" Verse 46 says that he's going to be unclean for as long as he has the sore. As a result of the disease, he becomes isolated and is supposed to live alone. Leprosy must have been such a big deal back then because there was really no cure for it, from the medicine not having been quite as developed as today. In the New Testament, Jesus goes around curing people with leprosy and that must have been an amazing testimony for those who were healed.

Verses 47-59 talk about the law concerning garments that are infected with the bacteria. In today's America, leprosy is classified as a rare disease where there were 56 reported incidents in 2014 (Mayo Clinic). It is now an infectious, but curable disease that spreads by skin-to-skin contact while mainly causing skin lesions and nerve damage. Despite it not being so much of occurrence in this day and age, the part that still gets me is that for back then, the ones who had it were isolated and treated as outcasts. I guess it's depressing and can be seen as unfair for some people. I know I would want to avoid a person who had it too during its infectious stages.

Verses 47-49 note that an infected garment will be noticeable by looking for a greenish or reddish colorization and interestingly, being on leather won't also prevent it from spreading. It must be shown to the priest. Verse 50-51 states that the priest isolates it for seven days and looks to see afterwards, if it spread. If it did, then it's unclean. Verse 52 states that the priest burns the unclean garment in fire. Briefly, I'm getting the impression that God really loves us because He chose to still preserve us in His law that He gave to Moses from being unclean. God doesn't really value materialistic things because He wants His ultimate creation (us) to be about having a relationship with Him through His Son Jesus!

Verse 53-54 states that if the greenish or reddish looking bacteria hasn't spread then the priest commands it to be washed and isolated another seven days. Verse 55 states if the color has not got back to normal then it's unclean and gets burned. "It continues eating away, whether the damage is outside or inside." I quoted that portion because I thought it had some spiritual meaning to reflect on, but it just looks like a keen physical observation made for science!

Verse 56 states that if the priest notices that the color faded then he must do the dirty job (haha) of tearing it out. Verse 57 states if it spreads again, then the garment gets burned. Verse 58 states if the bacteria managed to disappear then it needs to be washed a second time and then becomes made clean. Verse 59 concludes this section about how God wants the priests to deal with the infected garments. It is part of God's law.

Thinking About Future

At my current workplace, my boss has asked me personally if I'm going to still stick around after ten years. He said that if my heart isn't for his business, then I should stop wasting my time and get out of it. I really have some thinking to do. I told him that I would have made up my mind by the end of the year.

My boss pretty much started the company from the ground up and then became the CEO. He says that if I keep asking people how to do things, then I will be below someone and never progress. He's really old-fashioned like that and believes that you have to do everything on your own and catch it with your own eyes. He pretty much went into this business thinking it was going to be the best direction for his family and while having no income. Basically, even though he had days where he felt the business was a total nightmare, he stuck with it and settled in with a decent 120 K salary while having workers underneath him.

I'm in a different school of thought. With the onset of better technology, I believe that equipping ourselves with a sound mind and receiving right instruction while updating our skill set with obtaining useful information, we can succeed with exceeding amounts of wealth and help make the world a better place. I haven't really willed myself and neither been given a lot of tasks to work on. However, I have been gaining valuable work experience that might even surpass my own manager one day.

My people skills are pretty decent, and I also have a physical intimidation factor too. It's really all about how I set my mind to something and working very hard to achieve excellence. This would also mean caring about every minute detail about my weaknesses and strengths. I can try really hard sometimes and go beyond my normal limits while feeling displeased with myself. However, looking back, it left a great starting point for others to build upon. I'm really happy that I did something out of nothing. It was really worth the good feelings.

New Updates

I have managed to allow most of my recent trades to stick around for a few days without stopping out. I've had to end a few bad trades early, but it turns out to be a good practice because you could end up losing more. I've cashed out on some of them already. Keeping in mind this is just a demo account, I sort of have something going on here. This style seems to be simple for someone who doesn't really have a whole lot of expertise with trading. 

For my push-ups, I have managed to finally hit 60 repetitions and not too sure about my sit-ups. I wasn't really paying attention this morning. Also, the day was cold and really breezy for a nice run, so I really didn't sweat that hard. I've been maxing out a set of push-ups and sit-ups, along with running for about 20 minutes for about two weeks straight. I have to say that it feels pretty good getting it done and helps keep my body more alert and better focused on mundane tasks at my job. I'm going to keep this routine going until I reach about 77 push-ups and 80 sit-ups under two minutes for each exercise separately and then I will switch over to the vigorous work-out program I purchased to get my six-pack abs pumping! My weight is also being better maintained and I've been losing quite a few pounds. I should be able to keep this up and reach my ideal weight again. 

Basically, I'm just getting home after work and applying minoxidil on my head, which is what Rogaine is made of and wearing a hair helmet every other day for like twenty minutes, so that oxygen would flow better for my head and keep my hair from falling out. For the old guy that I am, I managed to do those growth stretches yesterday and boy those yoga stretches are a pain! They take about twenty minutes to complete and you are like in a very uncomfortable pose.  

I have also been reading the Bible fast as possible and trying to get a good grasp of it at the same time. Okay, I'm worshiping God through His Son Jesus in spirit even though I don't really know what I was reading from not paying attention to it enough from trying to read it fast while thinking about something else. I figure that I'm going to be re-reading the Bible over again as much as I can in my lifetime, so I'm not really stressing about missing some important verses.

I have actually joined a Toastmaster's group and my buddy's programming group which meet weekly. With the Toastmaster's group, I'm going to work on my speaking skills and try to practice some leadership qualities, so I can have better confidence in dealing with problematic people the healthy way. The whole playing Magic: the Gathering thing is something I'm going to limit to for once a week. My deck is pretty much an all-around and efficient deck that controls the game while going for attacking the opponent rather fast. 

Using All Imagination

Losing relationships with some people and them not really considering me a serious friend anymore really sucks! All I need to really do is just make fun of them when the going gets tough and stay honest. Another thing is to just laugh at them for whatever thing they did and go along with the flow. Being agitated and having that adrenaline flow is just a part of me that I don't really want to bother getting rid of. I might as well just save it and use it for something more meaningful then bashing some people who are in denial with me!

Okay problem solved- it's a waste of time imagining other possibilities with some individuals when it's not really going to get there anyway. I'm starting to think more practically now. I have a shot at forcing the girl with the former restraining order to add me as a friend on Facebook. Or better yet, going back to that church again and making a friend with someone there again. It would mean the whole world for me, but I'm not stressing it with having just one particular thing. I see many alternatives just feeding onto my positive ego. After all, I've even gone as far as thinking that if that church building is no longer in service, I'll be happy that they are all gone too!

I have some very strong energy that could turn the tide while dealing with people. I'm not going to waste my time with imagining those things anymore. I don't even care about offending those people now because I'm going to get them to add me as a friend on Facebook anyway. If they don't like it, they can just leave the premises of wherever I found them. I'll make a great friend with someone there anyway. Those particular individuals don't have to be a nice friend to me.

In the meantime, I'm centering my life around reading the Bible and listening to some sermons while I drive around town. Secondly, I'm working out and trying to get some six pack abs along with muscles. I'm dealing with it a little at a time, and it's not hurting that I'm maintaining it consistently. Also, I'm going to do those yoga stretches to improve my posture and try to force my body to grow. It hurts to read up on people saying that it's not going to work and stuff like that. I'm even a little reluctant myself, but the power of the mind is from doing something about it and having enough confidence in forming a relationship with an attractive Christian lady I have yet to find!

Lastly, I have a lot of endeavors that I'm thinking about doing for my pleasure in making money. It's just so fun and why not make a living off of it. Not very many people can say that their jobs are 100% pure fun and absolutely rewarding. Imagining myself being a millionaire and helping people potentially while boosting the economy is a ride that I want to take. Focusing on programming, martial arts, surviving in the woods with minimal resources, being trained to provide medical assistance, and having decent knowledge to provide computer security, there are a lot of directions that I can still go. I'm getting older and towards the end of the road. I might just go with trying to date any Christian lady that I personally like. It won't matter whether I like her appearance or not, but absolutely, I would like to keep in touch with those special gems and marry one of them if I can find the capacity. Basically, I'm disregarding my advice from my parents and older relatives to stick to just Korean girls! I'm going with whatever good thing I can find and seeing if I can settle with her. I'll work super hard to make it work, no matter how much they want to put forces on me to make it hard for me. I'm willing to pay the price to marry and keep around an exceptionally and beautiful Christian lady. If Jesus is putting it in my heart to marry well, then so be it, I accept it.

Trading Result

Out of all 24 pairs that I'm trading on my demo account, I had two stop out on me. With the remaining 22 pairs, 13 of them are currently in the money and the rest are slightly losing. Overall, I'm making some profit today. I don't really know what's going to happen in the future, but I really like this dangerous setup of mine. I'm going to try to keep running with this strategy and analyzing what will be the best way for me to make money in the future. The currency market is always going to be there, so I'm not stressing about rushing into it now. It looks like I could probably verify it will run more smoother by also looking at the 4H chart. I can also maximize my profit by adjusting my lots in accordance with using a tighter stop loss. It's going to be a little more advanced, but it's fun considering how I have this cool aggressive strategy that I'm running with now.

Revised Trading Strategy

I accept that in currency trading there's always going to highs and lows in the business. Unless you have exactly all the information in the world by like being in a bank and have incredibly a lot of money, it's going to be basically impossible to be virtually perfect in each investment.

I pretty much reduced the setup of indicators to what I believe to be the most important piece of the puzzle. I don't care about winning or losing right now, as long as I make profit in the end after I put money in and it's all convenient for me. In addition, this is really just my preference that I'm dealing with here. There's really no sure-fire way and mine is just so different. I guess I'll see if this method holds up as I continue to analyze it. I'm pretty much using the daily chart which is just so easy for me to work with. This ECN broker allows for 24 different pairs to be traded, so I'm trading all of them so far based on this indicator alone just to test it. 

Trading Progress

Right now, I'm letting a professional manage my account. He's slowly rebuilding the funds after having lost more than half of my $2,000 account the first month. I like how he's trading and he said that he's willing to share with me some of his strategies, so I'm really hoping it works out for both of us. 

One of my demo accounts is winning and I'm thinking about putting in real money with that. It's still too early to tell for me. The picture I have above is my system that I have toned down to just three indicators instead of four at the bottom. The familiar ones include the trend lines and stochastic oscillator. I don't think anyone understood what I was talking about.

The one I showed is basically my own doing. I'm trying to put in the least amount of effort to trading, so I have decided to go with the daily chart, so I only need to monitor once per day and whenever I get the chance while being curious. I made some, obvious bad decisions, but it's been a free experience for me without losing anything. I'm still waiting to become consistent with this, before I actually do put in real money. 

Great Working Out Strategy

The ideal amount of push-ups a man should be able to do without taking a break is 77 and for a woman it's 50. Right now, I'm stronger than the ideal woman and with her push-ups. No duh, I'm a man's man or I at least wish to be! I can only do four more push-ups than the ideal woman can, oh well; I'm still weak.

For sit-ups, men and women should both be able to do 80 non-stop. My sister can only do like 20 before complaining. I can only do 65 right now. I'm about 15 away from joining in with the champs!

For running, men should be able to hit 6 min and 30 seconds per mile. It needs to be maintained for at least two miles. I've done it for the first mile, but then blow out during the second mile and get like 7 min and 15 seconds. I'm actually a pretty decent runner from having built endurance while doing marathon training. For women, they need to do run it at 7 minutes and 48 seconds per mile at least twice. Oh man, that's too easy for me! So okay, I've seen some very athletic and female specimen and run right past them to the finish line while I have this slightly chubby body of mine. I impress the ladies with my running skill, ha-ha! It's called true determination and muscle usage while I have a slightly fat tummy.

With my description of doing push-ups, sit-ups, and running at least two miles, I'm doing it everyday by just trying to max out a set of push-ups and sit-ups and then doing a two-mile run. The running part obviously takes the longest for me to finish. It doesn't matter if I'm sore or not. I can still perform this basic routine, and it's been helping me to lose a little bit of weight like only a pound each day from working out. I guess when I stop losing weight from doing this work-out, then that's the day that I became two skinny and my body wants to conserve some fat. I'm going to start changing up my work out once I can hit 77 push-ups and 80 sit-ups non-stop and doing it rather easily and it's all under two minutes for each.

Review of My Last Post

My last post has some embarrassing material and fortunately, I was able to write it without putting down names. I believe that only the people closest to me will be minimally affected by it and that it might be safe to share with the whole world. Originally, I didn't mean to put it on here. I actually left it word-for-word on a section for people who wanted to rant anonymously.

This morning I received an e-mail from a reader that I made his or her day and wished me a happy life. I wanted to boost up everybody's morale or anybody who could benefit out of it, so that's why I made the decision to paste it on here. Whether that was actually meant to be a sarcastic message for me or not, it was still touching to me. I'm looking to be a more positive person, even through my negative outcomes and personal challenges. You really can't win them all, which is where I'm selfish about wanting, but it's turning out to be enjoyable that God is giving me something spiritual to work on with myself.

Dumb Restraining Orders

Out of two dumb restraining orders, I developed a best friend who likes to play Magic: the Gathering with me.

The first one came from a sensitive guy who was my friend and coworker who referred me to his job. I just can't feel bad about it anymore. He wrote in a long e-mail that I pushed his buttons so much and he made me sign in person a paper he wrote with his pencil while he was talking to me in an irritated voice that I would never talk to him again. I went along with it and thought that was that.

Another friend who struggles with being smart in relationships and gets lazy by playing video games tried to intervene for us. He told me I was the better man, and I guess I still am to him because he said he doesn't hang out with him. Whether he's lying about that or not, I got to take photos with him so that doesn't hurt while just hanging out and it got put on his Facebook. He had moments of raising his voice while being in frustration with me in our phone conversations. He then said that I was texting crazy stuff to him. He didn't want to read it because he just complained about how long it was. Anyway with this guy, my old co-worker got mad at him and said that they were no longer friends because of me. I saw this as my window of opportunity to go screw that co-worker. I rushed him at his house. The lucky guy locked his door and roommates were around so I couldn't like grab an ax or something. The next morning at work I said something to him. He was shaking so much all over his body like he was freezing or wanted to go to the bathroom. Anyway, that's what the restraining order said in that I just rushed him. His proof was a blog post that talked about how he felt I was into doing terrorist activities! I guess that's a minus then that an offended and sensitive friend would take something from my blog. It's really hard to incriminate me with everything I have on there now because I consciously give effort to not obviously break the law by making vivid threats. 

The second one isn't that bad as the first because I lost a guy friend who I'm grateful to for having hooked me up with a job. He even let me hit on a girl he was cheating with because he wanted to set his life straight. The girl had a nice body and really ballooned up chest, but her face was a little whack. Anyway, we hit it off according to him. I thought I was just doing him a favor. I kept pressing to go out with her and it worked. She relented to me. I didn't go any further after that. I thought it was going to be too much work, and she seemed still attracted to him. 

The second one came from a church girl who was trying to kick me out of her church. Long story short, I let it default by submitting to the court for three years. After it ended and not making any contact, I heard she went to go extend it and when I went back, the pastor gave me some court papers to try to prove it. Anyway, she failed to get it extended. I was on cloud nine after that. I went back and fluffed my way and just sat there. The cops came in and couldn't take me in while they had me handcuffed. A few people were laughing. No one really came out to check up on me. After two weeks, I dressed in my machine shop clothes, had shades on that made me look like a murderer, and sneaked in the church through the back entrance. The girl with the former restraining order has lousy singing ability. I was debating whether I should or not. I was feeling scared and pressured and even had my phone on record to get the whole sound experience. After hearing her talk like an angry woman who still had some hate in her, I was like I'm going in. I went up on stage, she screamed and was like "AHHHHHHHHHHHH!" The pastor came up and tried to block my entrance path to her, but I wasn't there for her. I ended up throwing a Jehovah Witness Bible at him but it missed. DANG! He had that scared look on his face and then he smiled with laughter. I yelled "Oh shoot!", after his wife got up and scrambled off stage and tripped on the carpet. I got up really fast and ran out the back. A puny guy came out to try to stop me, and he was laughing. I even ran faster and got to my car. 

I never heard from the cops about that incident, but I have the girl's scream on my cell phone. I played it and my buddy's twin brother who is a complete jerk started laughing his tail off with his obnoxious and childish laughter. He wanted to continuously hear it after that, and I'm like forget it all the time. The last thing I've heard about them is that they said it's okay for me to come back, meaning they aren't going to try to force me to leave now and that most of the people who got involved with the court order left the church. They want to force themselves in accepting me because they don't want me to commit a crime that I'll get away with and will massively screw them over while still being accepted by the false god that they worship. 

Some Natural but Funny to Me Plans

Here's one idea that's stirring in my head that makes sense and can be personally funny, while others might think it's natural. I'm going to see if I can settle down with an attractive Christian woman! I don't care about race anymore and my parents saying that I have to be with a Korean woman. They can be offended all they want because it isn't being selfish if you are happy by making the other person happy by being with the person. It's the right type of feeling you should have in the first place!

The last example is where I have an idea that if someone gives me an account of how he or she is bothered and I don't like it, then I can make the person look very bad while making fun of him or her. However, if I need to address a person's sins because it seems highly inappropriate, I can ask the person if he's meaning good intentions while literally laughing about it. If the person agrees to doing something wrong, then it doesn't matter how bad he responds to my lecturing because he's going to still look bad.

Fortunately, I come across pretty nice still to others if I did something wrong to an aggravated person's mind. If the same person can't handle it and tries to get me in trouble, I can make that person look bad by making fun of her! While explaining with my hard-to-argue style, it would be a futile attempt to get me in trouble. I'm no idiot at getting myself in trouble because I don't want to be in jail no matter how mad I get, and secondly, I want to serve God's purpose in this world.

 I practically wasted my time trying to hang out with some slightly odd and challenged Christians. They didn't want me there, and I tried to force myself in. Lesson learned- the focus is on God putting His focus on me and that's how everyone else should think about themselves! I think I placed the love of the people more than God and fortunately, they kicked me out. I'm saying so because the right thing is to put more focus on God than the people. God needs to come first and that's what I was lacking there. Still I made a promise to God that if I become a millionaire with six-pack abs, I'm going to go visit them. I don't care if they call the cops on me again. I'll explain my position while making fun of them and happily leave.

Okay, it's time to put that aside and be committed to good works out of my love for Jesus! I'm going to try to rise early to read the Bible, work out, and then do some boring trading for making a living. I'm going to put aside playful activities for now and do them when I don't have better things to do idealistically speaking. I think I'll just do it sparingly like once a week in playing Magic: the Gathering. Looking at pretty women isn't that fun as trying to be with a pretty Christian lady anymore! I have this really cool programming group that I'm a part of, and I'm looking forward to learning more. Or maybe I can just taunt myself to not entertain myself by doing work and letting that be my motivation to finish my paid work and do a very good job at it. I have a close friend that I get to play Magic: the Gathering with and it's pretty awesome man! I'm going to limit it to once a week or if I have nothing planned the next morning. I'm just going to tell my buddy, I'm trying to be with a pretty lady. He'll understand I suppose and wish me luck even in his misery of not getting to play me. It's about serious commitment and I just need to get used to doing it pretty long term, while living the roller coaster life and setting my sights on pleasing Jesus. Basically, I don't want to start all over again after having gone for awhile. That's my spiritual and natural motivation to not slip up.

Lev 13:36-45

Verse 36 states that the priest will examine the skin to see if the scaly skin has spread all over the patient and if that happens then, the person is declared to be unclean. In addition, the priest might have to look for yellow hair all over the skin. Verse 37 states if the scale stays where it is and black hair starts to grow over it, then it's been healed and the priest calls the person clean.

Verse 38 to 39 mentions how if a man or woman has white bright spots on the skin of the body, then the priest looks for white spots that grow on the skin. If this occurs, then the person is clean. Verse 40 states that leprosy can sometimes cause hair to fall out from the head and forehead. Verse 41 states that even if this were to occur, the person can still be declared clean upon examination.

Briefly, I'm just recalling how Deuteronomy 4:2 explicitly states, "Do not add to or subtract from these commands I am giving you. Just obey the commands of the LORD your God that I am giving you." (NLT)
Likewise, I'm just trying to summarize each Bible verse, even if I don't understand it. I'm not going to try to add or remove anything and be really careful about making my own interpretations or relying on some person who has this so-called godly perspective. I guess trying to learn the Bible verse-by-verse really makes sense for taking that exact approach.

Verse 42 says if the bald head or forehead has a reddish-white sore, leprosy is breaking out. In Verse 43, the priest will examine it to confirm if there's leprosy and in Verse 44, it mentions how the priest will make the verdict of the man being unclean or not. Verse 45 uses the derogatory term, "leper". I'm trying to avoid saying that statement out of wanting to be politically correct, but okay. Does that mean God is an insensitive almighty being after finding that in the Word of God? I guess it's how the heart really takes it, but for me, I believe God to be infallible and unconditionally loving to this world. John 3:16 states that God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only son that whosoever believe in him shall not perish but have everlasting life. Our struggles are really us having a hard time with it and in time it passes anyway. Just the question should really be, can the person really embrace the bad thing he or she is going through?

Losing Friend Poem

The truthfulness and times has its long-lasting effects. Oh the moments that we surely wish to forget. Alas though, they teach us very valuable moments in life. Your sweetness and fruits have not been forgotten. So painful to have lost your friendship, we can't turn back time. Inventions were made to speed up the clock and you're pretty rich as a result.

Positive in perspective, struggles to forget, we can't hold on to one another. For me, it's one of life's most fleeting miseries and mysteries.

Personal Poem

Distant star which sines the brightest.
Flowery scent that grows and never leaves the heart.
Any exchanging of words feel like submissive, joyful moments.
A dove will desirably sit on a hyssop branch for a lifetime.
Even during hourly investments, the heart yearns for you to accept his commitment.
Stirring doubts were portrayed by another blinded soul who would have heralded you if his satisfactions weren't lost.
Your Beauty is like wildfire waiting to be rekindled.
Your Heart's patience, diligence, and innocence fill the atrocious with generosity.

New Living Template Part 2

Hey, at least I drive a convertible that still drives nice and looks new!

I left with with the third thing that I'm going to do is do my dream job, which is my side job at the moment. I'm trying to become a successful currency trader. I want to become a millionaire with it! There are so many reasons why I want that to happen, but I'm trying to work for it and at the same time, enjoy the style of approach I'm taking it. I really like it actually, and it's pretty cool even though I only know very little of what it's about still. I'm just barely starting to take notice of what I'm doing right and where I need to make adjustments for me. Still, don't take any of my trading recommendations.

The next order of precedence is for me to do personal maintenance. I see it that I'll be showering right after I work out and skipping my trading session, before digging into my dream job. Oh well, it's another one of those hypocritical sessions. It's like it means everything in that I would skip only one level. No, I'm just kidding! I honestly don't think it really matters too much to me. I guess it just feels better after working out to take a shower.

The next step is to worry about my 1000 careers. At the moment, I only have two jobs that I need to juggle around. Still for the average American only dealing with one paying job, I have to deal with two of them! I'm stuck with those two jobs, until my dream job which is my third paying (sometimes losing) job starts making me dividends that I desire. I'm so lazy in my other jobs that I'm not trying to put in a promotion packet at the moment, even though I'm qualified. I guess I'll just get to it then, so that I can maximize my earnings.

The next order that I have installed in line of precedence is what I call play/work. It's a hybrid of being playful and also working on something to add on to my 1000 other jobs. I only have three paying jobs at the moment, but this section is where I get to attempt to have the most fun while I'm depressed about not making enough money in doing something that I think I could potentially make money in.

The last stage which I'm also breaking the rules with and making it first in my line of precedence is play. It deals with friendships, singing horribly and playing the piano alright, MTG, and video games that require me to move around like DDR. Overall, I'm just going to try to follow through all these steps daily even if I only spend like one minute on some of them each day. As long as I did the minimal amount of effort, it's doing something at least and better than nothing. I guess I'll be spending the most times in work and play modes. However, my line of precedence is what I have established and will to try to find some balance in. I think blogging for me is just play also. All this time, I've been writing about what I'm going to do and I consider all this to being playful.

New Living Template Part 1

I have been just sitting here all day just by myself not really doing anything in my bedroom. I've been just thinking to myself, playing some Magic: the Gathering, thinking some more, and playing MTG again. It's not the dream life I had imagined!

I have heard that studies have shown that the human brain can juggle at most seven things at once. In a few minutes, I created my own seven categories that I've been looking at doing in order of precedence that I would prefer.

Right now playing on stuff to just keep myself entertained is right at the top of the list. I'm going to notch it down a little bit and put it right at the bottom of my list.

The first one that I have chosen is the Holy Bible. It's pretty simple for me. I just need to read it. It only takes me about fifteen minutes a day to read about 10 chapters. I still don't know why I can't do it everyday. I'm really serious and not being sarcastic. I don't do it everyday even though I have this list staring at me stating that I need to put the Bible at the top of my list. I guess the main reason is because I have a lot of Christian literature that I'm juggling with at the same time, so I feel a little mentally bogged down. I might just go at it anyway. Doing something or a little everyday is better than not doing anything at all, so I'll just go with that idea and take it easy for now.

The next step for me is to exercise. I'm just doing some push up, sit-ups, and doing a run. The reason why I don't do this everyday is because it's on my mind to work out twice a day! I just get bogged down with mentally thinking again and then I go into play mode with MTG. I guess I'm thinking about trying some pointless yoga exercises to see if it will make me any taller still. It did make me grow half an inch more permanently and I'm not lying. It seriously did well beyond my final growth stages. I guess I'll just do the standard exercise for now. As I become more advanced later on, I'll switch it up and work on getting the six pack I so want! At night before I go to sleep I'll just do those stretches so that it will allow me to sleep better and just get knocked out from forcing myself to stay awake longer than my body wants to and also being uncomfortable being in those stressed positions from trying yoga!

If I was taller, then yeah! 

My Cool Photos

I realize that my cell phone is packed with lots of interesting and funny photos. It's not really that alluring where I'll get a million likes, but it's decent enough to have a few here and there to appreciate my effort.

The Path to Exile card is an awesome card for the Modern format in Magic: the Gathering. All of my buddies are frustrated or enthralled by it. In fact, about 98% of my playing buddies have expressed interest or acquired this card. It can be a pretty effective card, but will run you about 5 dollars a card.

This is what my best friend tried to make, which was his own cheap version of Magic: the Gathering (MTG). It's so funny because when he ordered his own designed deck, he couldn't wait long enough and wanted to play against my famed decks. I declined his offer because I just didn't see it happening! I ended up creating a steady online MTG account for him, and that's where we played and I slaughtered him in!

This is pretty much my computer desk and where I get to just hang out at and do my work whenever I feel inspired. 

Beginning Days of New Trading Style

Warning: Do not follow my trading recommendations.

I am trading on a demo account because it's my dream to make it big while being a currency trader. This is my attempt at becoming a millionaire. I'm basically sharing material because I figure why not try to teach something that I don't understand, so that I can become more knowledgable at it. 

Basically, my system is a pretty boring setup that mainly excites me. What I just found out is that when the bottom four indicators become in sync then I get to search the lower time frames down to the one hour looking for the same thing and for the the four vertical dots to light up in favor of the same direction. 

Then I get to put a stop loss using the trend line and then that's all the info I have for now. I've been winning and losing and not caring because it's a demo account! I'm just playing all sorts of risky business with it while attempting to learn how to be successful at it.

I'm assuming that no one really understands what I was talking about unless the reader is into this sort of stuff also! Anyhow, let me state that don't follow my recommendations. I don't know anything really. The way that I learned is by trying out other people's failing systems as well and while wanting to beam myself on the head from being frustrated, I came up with something that I find to be easy to work with. Everyone is different, and their journey is also going to vary. 

A few great professionals are out there, and it's like impossible to find them. The only way to get good at this is to come up with your solution that makes you money. You can share it if you would like, but not a lot of people are really going to trust that it works. There will be some daring people out there though with nothing to lose. I was one of those daring people who kept on losing because I paid for their education, which is a mistake. Don't pay for education, get it free! 

Excited About Life

There's a lot of joy and happiness in the Lord. I'm in a really blessed predicament. I guess it's possible for us to relate that people in this time of history have a lot of advantages compared to what it was like back then. I think the problem is really from feeling bad about yourself after something happened and not being able to make something better come out of it. I'm just thinking about why people just want to give up in life and kill themselves.

I'm starting to get annoyed with seeing some homeless people asking me for some spare change. Regardless though, I sympathize with them and think they should get some help from a professional who can get them on the right track. It could just be that they were just born with some type of ailment that keeps them from maintaining a job!

I would hate being a homeless person. When I felt like I had nowhere else to run to, I went for driving a truck. I would get a fat butt and high cholesterol level which I would abhor so much, but then again I am paying my bills and can have a chance to go home to an overweight wife as well. The worst level of human beings is that it's pretty common in that honest folks answered with how it's very difficult to manage your feelings and have total control over your worries and to also be willing about being aware of your emotions that cause you some pain that you just want to throw out and naturally forget about after letting it take place.

With so much to write about, I'm just feeling so much at awe and in peace. A lot of it is because I'm excited about finding my path in enjoying fellowship with Jesus and getting to know the Lord through reading every page of the Bible.

Reached 31 K Views

Out of the nine years I've had this blog, I think I've been at my site about 15,000 times. The rest? I don't know for sure where those views are coming from. Could they be from my potential enemies who want to get me in trouble for writing something bad? I'm not really that much of an idiot to do something like that, but I'll make fun of the person, if I think he's reading it. He can just go fuming along even more and stay off of my blog, after I ask him about the post I made about him.

 This is something random. I just realized that North and South Korea combine to have the worst suicide rate in the world. For North Koreans, it's mainly dealing with stress and to avoid punishment from the totalitarian regime. On the other hand, for South Korea, it deals with social pressure and family problems. I disappointed my parents so many times, but they still have the best hopes for me. I guess that's how you avoid feeling bad about yourself because you willingly did it, after being mad at them!

According to List 25 at http://list25.com/25-countries-with-the-highest-suicide-rates-in-the-world/5/,
the two Korean nations combine for 67.4 suicides out of 100,000. It is well-above the highest in the world. At first, I thought people were being sympathetic with me when they asked me if I was feeling alright, especially when I keep my head down and move around like that. It seems like a depressing look for a short man! However, I now feel offended. I don't really carry around personal stress or family problems that make me want to go kill myself. I want to go solve those problems, even if it ends up with me making things worse and getting people angry and firing off restraining orders at me from left to right! Out of all the nations, Koreans are killing themselves off the most. I thought it was those Japanese who invaded Korea who had the worst suicide rate. The Japanese do have one of the worst, but their 18.5 out of 100,000 suicide is a major gap. I guess out of all the nations, in Dante's Inferno, we would be seeing a lot of Koreans in the Forest of Suicides at the seventh circle which depicts violence out of the ninth circle (aka treachery) being the worst!

At first, I was cool with people asking me if I was doing fine. The saying is that ignorance is bliss, but now after reading about why Koreans commit suicide, I'm feeling offended about people asking me if I'm doing alright. I'm just going to say "Yes, I'm doing fine. Thank you for checking in with me." I guess it's a good thing to know that someone out there cares about me, besides my mom. My mom believes that she did a bad job in raising me. I agree completely! I let T.V. shows raise me up into having a brain that doesn't pay attention to anything I don't want to. I can't even force myself to pay attention sometimes. I have to ask people to repeat some phrases because I was thinking about something else during that time.

After having a brain that struggled like a mentally challenged individual, I sort of got out of that funk and now it feels a little more effortless and more about battling my lazy tendencies to make myself into a better person and more happier. I feel very content with how things are going though. I just go after things while I'm blind-sided a lot. It usually takes me some time to get better at it. I've had my opportunities, but they were so weird! I have to admit that it wasn't really conventional for me, so I guess I let them coast on by.

Message I Sent To Girl

The girl isn't very shy about her age. I think she's 35 now. Wow, age creeps out pretty fast especially for those older than you, but shhhh, don't mention that to her. She probably is going to love the big 4-0 like Jennifer Garner did. Why did she divorce the hunky Ben Affleck anyway?

Okay the girl I wrote to is a lady and a woman and a female and lot of things that make up the same description of being just a girl! I was just playing with words right there. She's now a counselor and she doesn't volunteer any responses back to me. I guess it's because I don't really need it. Yay!

This message that I wrote is pretty much like a turning point, it's harsh for only one person. The person who put a restraining order on me better be gulping.

hey it's seriously a good plan for me to wait until i have a sixpack and become a millionaire before I come visit again. I'm glad I made that promise to God. Thanks for the times you greeted me. I won't forgot those moments. I'm not going to put you down unless you do something inappropriate. With you not responding to me, it doesn't really deter me. You have to make mention of it with me, if you want this to stop. I'm sure you can handle it because all these years, you never blocked me for talking about anything. If I'm lucky, I will come across paths with you again and make some of my own effort come to fruition. Well in heaven, nothing matters in this life but for now, it's all fun and games for me with what I'm doing here now. I picked up a very strong tool to prevent myself from writing very ugly messages with people. Lee isn't exempt from those. I'm not apologizing and I will have fun describing it in court while laughing at her fuming with so much anger. I don't care if she wants another three years or 12 years to life, she can have it, but I'm making fun of her because I don't care about her feelings now.

That's me in the sexy outfit! :) :) :)

Simple Plan

The last post I talked about working at adding friends on Facebook who supported or put a restraining order on me. I guess you can count the official title of having one from a guy and a girl separately as multiple restraining orders! I don't give a care. It's a total of 2, only two more than what the average people in this world will ever have in America! Even more unique is that I got one from each gender when I was a really crazy, psychotic go-getter. My dating orientation isn't really what I'm trying to imply here though.

I'm sure those church people are like "Give it up" to me and playing the cold shoulders card now. Yeah, I'm pretty good at making that happen. Yeah, I got kicked out of a church! Something to really laugh about even if you have no ties with me. It's great, I don't care! Hahaha! Seriously, I'm not making a sarcastic remark there. To make myself focus and not get too carried away with my social games with people, I'm just going to wait until I have some washboard abs. I'll let that to also mean going through my own hardships and triumphs.

Once I obtain it, I'm going to go around testing my subjects. I will be saying like "I want to add you as a friend. You denied me so many times, but since I have a sixpack now, I have this newfound confidence and positive energy." Some of them are not going to be that joyful about it. If they talk about it behind my back, I'm going to find it to be funny that they are doing that anyway. Honestly, who honestly goes around bugging people to add him on Facebook while sporting some rock-hard abs that no one really has. It's a novelty and really hard for outsiders to support the person who I am bothering. Maybe, they'll be like saying I'm a show-off until I make some positive remarks about their friend. It will be hard to stay mad at me forever. I did it when I was an irrational kid but I had glasses back then. I don't have those trusty spectacles for me now.

I seriously value getting my health with those special hard abs and confidence-builder above being friends with some people who said yes to a restraining order on me. When I have a sixpack, I might even wait to become a millionaire. Then yeah, with all the positivity I'm portraying, it will hard to feel bad for me and me looking down on people is going to be so much easier. However, if I say those disparaging comments while wanting to actually be their friends; it might just come across me just being mad at them for what they did in the past. A restraining order is never going away and it's going to be used to make them look bad for life because it's fun for me to toy with the enemy's weapons.

Crazy Synopsis

Here's the crazy synopsis I just thought up about my old restraining orders. Because they expired even with the people making an effort to extend it, from applying my new foundation of examining the desires and intentions of the offending party, I'm not really frustrated by it at all! Well, no duh, from how I worded it.

I get to say all I want to them now in person because it's not officially illegal for me being around them anymore. They no longer have the protection of the court to sustain their silly nonsense with me. They are not really going to be people you can take very seriously because of my planned conduct with them. I'm going to also be working at adding them on Facebook too, ahahaha!

Besides if they decide to go for another one, I have all this backdrop story I can fudge along the way to make fun of them in court and then while I had my laughs that exceed my whole lifetime which is exaggerating in that I'll do my best story-telling to talk about how I offended them so that I'm laughing so much and so hard and they are just fuming even more angry; I tell them that since I lived up to not bothering them for the default amount of time the court gave me, I won't mind doing it again and that it will be very beneficial for me because they have something to talk about which will affect their personal relationships and not my own relationships with people because they are already intact. Basically in a nutshell, no matter how much they want to downplay the seriousness factor which will be inevitable by them, they still went for a court order and that's always going to go against them for life. When people find out with my social style of ambush, it's really going to suck for them.

Making Some Changes

I'm going to make this blog a little more personal by sharing a bit more cool things. I guess I'll just write every once in awhile and then add some of my photos. I've been working on some music too and there really is a way for me to share it. It's not really that good and looks like it's going to be a pretty hefty process for mastering it.

In the meantime, I feel very energetic about going to the gym everyday and being around attractive people even if I don't ever say anything to them. I guess then I'll be just going out to meet new people with common interests. With the relationships I currently have, it's quite decent and stable, I think I can make it better.

I'm going to be honest with myself. I don't think this blog is ever going to be that big. I'm just doing it for fun and what I share isn't really going to be hurting anyone. Well, I'll probably be saying that I'm going to be offending some people and then write about it without caring about their feelings so much anymore now.

The old church with the restraining order that expired isn't really much of a topic to me anymore now. I just don't fully care about it. Something new, my car seat isn't really working and my legs are fully extended for my short height. I'm driving it around while using the back seat cushion as a booster seat! It doesn't really bother me too much at the moment, so I guess I'm fine until the dealer can get it fixed for me again.

It Really Works!

I have found that I am able to better control my inner rage that makes me go e-mail people irritating messages for scaring them unintentionally. It's really about understanding the person's intentions and desires. From trying to think about all of that while I'm feeling so angry and in a mood for busting some heads, I don't think I'm really worth the trouble for those people. I guess if I treat it as a game, then I now know how to play it for the win!

It's basically just thinking about what they want, like they just don't want to be bothered because they don't know how to handle it. It was really just that simple! Because they couldn't, they signed me up for a civil restraining order for about three years. I was so confused and in a world of controlled rage during that time. I really couldn't send them any more messages or go up to give them a nice hard punch on the back and tell them "Good job" sarcastically.

Looks like, I didn't have to go through any anger management class. The Lord's grace and goodness working in me while fellowshipping with other like-minded believers was good enough for me. Actually when those restraining orders ended after having heard actual threats that they were trying to extend it, I was on cloud nine! I don't mind talking about it again with the judge, all for their embarrassment and for my laughing pleasure now. I guess by telling them that I'm going to make fun of them and describing it in a great way while everybody is around with just not caring, it's just going to make them be not taken that seriously and in addition, just deter them from signing me up for another court injunction. The only hope I have for them while feeling bad is that they left the church for good by the time I go visit. It will be then just like a relaxing in-and-out trip.

New Stuff To Try

All of a sudden I'm just trying to surround myself with new faces and among that crowd get to be around pretty and attractive women. Haha! That was pretty fun to write for me, and the attempt that I'm going at for it is true. 

I'm going to be such a rough and tough meanie to that old church group. I just so know it! I truly hope they don't gather at that same building anymore, when I do get there someday. I don't know when I'll be there because it could be never again! 

I'm back to developing a pretty healthy routine for myself. Of course, it's pretty different from what would originally attract people. Sometimes, a person who wears sheep's clothing (like a Ph. D. holder and a good guy image) could probably have the best intentions of trying to pocket your measly twenty dollars every so often! You basically just give him a nice tip just to hear him talk for two hours about his life's work

Interesting Way To Hang Out

Okay, I think I'm normal here but I'm interested in hanging out with completely new people, especially if they are attractive women! I have a source that I look up and then when I get information that this pretty girl is showing up and it's well within my reason to go while fitting my schedule and interests, then why not?

I'll just go hang out and try to appreciate them in the beginning. I might just encourage them to bring out their best behavior so that I have a lot of fun hanging out with them. I've learned from my mom and experiences that women love being appreciated and hate it deep down if you don't like them. They are sensitive like that, even the ones who act the most masculine!

Yeah, so it makes sense that this one girl goes even more crazier and hates me more when I respond to her with sarcastic remarks while making fun of her. No wonder, she kept on texting me back with statements like "Psycho!" and "Get off my lawn!" Also, their frustration just comes from you acting retarded to them. For once, the guy has an unspoken rule and duty of taking care of his lady while being the knight in shining armor! I got it from a song by Kenny Rogers.

Don't reveal to those types of cranky women personally who you are giving a hard time on accident or purposefully that they are like your guinea pigs. They will hate you even more for life! It's like having proper manners by making appreciative comments that you truly mean to a woman. They sort of melt secretly when they are mad at you. Slowly, the negativity goes away from them and they become like more functional adults with you. It just takes time in other words. I'm just noticing there's something that triggers their craziness, but bringing them to the point where they won't genuinely overreact with you is tough. I've done it where I've made them stay quiet the whole time and get them to make an effort to be stoic. I haven't had a chance to know what I was doing yet when they did act genuinely like a better person to me. I guess the day I do is the day I actually find a very pretty girlfriend haha.

I'm revealing all of this information for free because I'm impressed that I know this much while being a very short man! It's just funny to me to write about this topic and to get better at some problem that's been trying to bust my chops all this time. Just because a man is short doesn't really mean that he is excluded from drama that girls put on people sometimes! I thought I had a pass at life from being my own height, and it hasn't worked out to my favor anymore. From not understanding things and developing frustration out of trying to put in the least effort, I got my butt kicked so many times. The world isn't that forgiving.

I guess looking and appreciating a woman's physical beauty in a way can uphold the woman's self-esteem. I don't really know what my mom was explaining about when I asked her why women put on make-up. She was telling me in literally a different language. Well, with the guys being the average, frustrated chump so they end up doing stuff to compensate for their boredom, I can see how some just get lost in their own world and never really find a way out of their own deception. The up and down feelings just won't go away, unless you fearlessly take them on and not have problems with yourself while being at the lowest point in your life. There's just no better way, either than facing yourself and spending time meditating on something that brings fulfillment. The search is over for me, but I can only say it and not transfer everything that makes of me to someone. That's how it is for mostly everyone. I found it through attempting to develop a relationship with Christ while studying the pages of the Bible. I don't do it enough though because I do other things. Hopefully, the witness that I'm trying to give will be enough for me to engage enough of it for my hungry spirit.

Well, This is Interesting

Just when I thought I was giving up on Magic: the Gathering, my best friend comes along and starts liking it too! I think I have one of the best Modern decks ever assembled or at least among the top 10 Modern decks. The reason for that is because I've played against those really strong decks and tested against it. I manage to beat them using what I call the sideboard. The sideboard (SB) is in a tournament format, 15 additional cards that you can interchange among your own minimum of a 60 card deck.

You are allowed to have more than 60 in a standard MTG tournament, but it might be a disadvantage in that you might not draw what you need when the opponent is working a crazy combo! Because of my sideboard, I lay waste to all those decks of former champions. I have had all this time to just test and continuously re-test my deck against those super strong decks. I'm fairly satisfied that I've performed a flawless victory against them a few times already! It's a blue/white combination, which is fairly common to see in the final match of a tournament. Last year, the best deck of the main tournament was blue/white, so it's just a coincidence because I don't follow that champion's strategy.

I have modified my deck like so many times and then all of a sudden, I just received an inspiration that I wanted to go by and it just worked out for me. Obviously with practically unlimited time, I can build a deck that will beat multiple past champion's deck with one deck, but conceivably the time isn't nearly enough for me to be able to be a very tough contender for the title and earning a sweet prize money! I've also had the privilege of playing against other crazed MTG addicts and so from observing their strategies, I adopted a few of their ideas as well and continuously redesigned my ultimate, recreational deck that is all fairplay!

I even have an idea how I can virtually win every single game on my first turn, if there's a no restrictions list in the card game! It wouldn't be legal in a professional tournament though. Oh well. The makers of this popular trading card game need to make money by feeding to the addictions of these super crazed gamers by making it fun for everybody and a continuous challenge.

So my best friend is keeping me around longer with busting out my deck. He really loves it because I let him play with it to teach him, and he even performed a flawless victory against me too with it! He likes it that he chose one of my colors for his own favorites and he decided to use one of my useful cards for his own deck. I'm pretty familiar with the other color he is playing and from the research he put in, I say that he's starting out at around a novice/intermediate level.

Don't Think Height Really Matters

I'm starting to think after my hour at the gym that being short doesn't really matter. I feel good after completing my workout, so just saying something to an attractive and taller woman doesn't really mean anything to me. All I'm feeling is that man, I'm struggling with not liking her being taller than me.

That's my inner core and conscious thought, but once I settle in and get to know her personality as a friend, I just don't care! Basically, whoever the person God allows me to marry, yeah, I said allow! With that person, if I feel good about her and she feels the same way about me than jackpot!

Just be yourself, keep meeting people, and be self-confident about tying the knot with someone. Finding a common ground of interest really helps a lot because it makes bonding a little easier for me.

It just comes down to asking a girl you like if you want to hang out with her and if she says yes, then yeah, it's all good. A guy I know was like all "Woah" when one girl he was attracted to agreed to hang out with her. Funny times and I still remember because I wasn't laughing back then when I witnessed that incident.

If she says no, you struck out or lost all your money while playing poker or something even worse of a feeling like that. It is what it is, but just try to understand her intentions and maybe, if it's still good you could find a work-around.

Secret To Dating

I've discovered the ultimate secret to dating. I'll say it in two words- work out.

Seriously, don't take a shower, shave and use that shiny soap and lotion that makes your face all clean and beautiful. Don't even try putting on your best clothes.

No, do all those things! Working out is the secret that gives the guys that macho feeling of confidence before going on a date. My mom even tells me that my face looks much more toned after I work out. It's a secret that I have uncovered from just messing around in the past.

I've successfully bonded with all girls, even the taller ones. I once hung out with a girl, and I didn't even know I was on a date with her. Yeah, it was at Disneyland just me and her. She was just talking and talking and talking... Was that a date? I don't know for sure. I didn't work out that day because I thought walking through Disneyland was a work out. She didn't call me back. She's a pretty hot girl, but I don't think she's right for me. I still would like to deal with her weirdness just because of how hot I think she is. Man, I would be really tempting to do something with her, but okay since she's gone from my life, I'm not going to worry about it.