Stuff I Missed

This is just a personal post where I will talk about the stuff I missed. I think my last couple posts were actually pretty funny or cool or whatever that actually some people come on to visit this site. I'm becoming a lot more comfortable with my own shell, and it just keeps on getting better.

The mindset is so important, and I really have to test this idea that I really put all in my heart and soul into loving God then I will learn some things through the ups and downs of life. I expect to be hit very hard, and it did happen in a way. I get bothered massively by people when they go through some type of conflict with me. It's probably my worst and everything else is like something happens and I get the normal scared, sad, or happy reaction and then it fizzles away. What if I became stranded on a deserted island with nobody to talk to? As long as I had my game boy and it never ran out of battery. No, I'm just kidding. Putting very little serious thought into it, I wouldn't care as long as I had shelter, food and water, stuff to keep me occupied, a Bible so I should carry around a pocket Bible while traveling to places, and maybe some tools so I could try reaching out to civilization or build a raft boat. If I could just make myself comfortable in that deserted island then what's there to not do?

Okay, so I rambled about something dealing with not talking to people. I'm trying to get a beautiful Christian wife now who will stay with me and give me constantly what I want hahaha, so I need to talk to people at least. These are activities of  my list that I have neglected so far:

1. Reorganize
2. Car wash
3. Growth stretches
4. Climbing gym
5. Programming
6. Bowling
7. Golf
8. Cooking
9. Avoid surfing web

These are the things I have done:

1. Bible (Amen!) hahaha
2. Schedule meetups with people
3. Drink diet shake
4. Work out
5. Trade
6. Hair care
7. Avoid playing Magic and Poker at personal time

It doesn't seem so bad. I'm prioritizing in a way with the ones that I deem more important. I am going to see how it's like to do every activity on my list even if it wears me out and I end up hating myself. 

Staying Updated With Goals

I guess it's about not being stumped by others and socializing with some bad people who lost it with me. I might as well just get random without shouting and let my mind run off because that's just how I get things done sometimes. I get this thrill off of trying to stay positive with them and patching up the rough spots the relationship got into.

As a result for future relationships, I'm made into a stronger and more keen person with handling myself around others. I'm also really numb about socializing with people, even though I'm open to it. I think that's why I don't really connect with the majority of people. A few friends willing to go all the way with me or being there for somebody is good enough!

I will accept what fate has in store for me and continue to trust in the Lord's way by trying to engage in studying the Scriptures accurately. Even though it's difficult and more challenging than I could have ever imagined, the thing that keeps me going is that digging deep into the Word of God is very rewarding and in a way prophetic, because the Lord's promises and blessings become revealed in that fashion.

Retiring From Poker

It looks like my days of trying to make a living with playing online poker has come to a close. I ended up working my way to the $50 balance that I needed for withdrawing all of it. One of the main reasons for stopping is because it is time-consuming and too unpredictable for me. I guess I'll keep around the skills I've obtained from playing the game and then use it every once in awhile playing recreationally.

 I only played poker with actual money for like ten years on and off, so I did have a decent run with it. Winning felt great in the beginning, but then after it just started wearing out. Losing really sucks, but at least now, I can be understanding about those circumstances. It used to take me a long time to recover from it while I was feeling frustrated or mulling negatively about it.

In a way, it's a form of entertainment among other friends and with the stakes not being so high. I'm sure there are some people out there who don't even wager a penny because they don't want to perceive themselves as gambling.

Developing Confidence Under Conflict With People

This one is something that has been a big load to deal with for me. It's like that few people I had a fine relationship with go into fight mode with me because they develop an inferiority complex issue. The first thing to accept is that those people have an inferiority complex! Next thing to do is to just not care whatever they do and let them know that. Just laugh away with the text messages you send them and tell them to have a nice life after telling them to not try make an assassination plot against you.

They will be like "What?" and "why do you keep talking about this?" It's just to throw them off, while having fun. Act this way with mainly guys and don't talk like that with girls. The girls are like a totally different planet you are on and the approach is entirely different.

For the girls, especially if you are a male, you have to treat them with the best manners you can give them. Using your common sense here, don't call her names that you think she's worthy of hearing. Don't justify what you did as wrong or show any hint of it. Be like, there's absolutely nothing wrong that happened unless you cheated on her then you are screwed! Besides doing something crazy like being a thief or killing her friend from dealing drugs, nothing so serious and she literally has an inferiority complex with you, just be like there's nothing wrong with yourself.

To show that there is nothing wrong with you with the girl, you have to lead her while talking to her using values. It's sort of like ethics, but the purpose is just to lead her in the right direction. You can state something like sometimes people go through struggles in life. To be a winner out of the struggle, it's an awesome thing to talk it through with the person you hate right now! Sometimes when a girl does something based on wanting to not talk about it, it sometimes becomes interesting for everyone to find out and by talking about it, she can hide all the bad stuff about herself that she knows and bring out all the good in herself and make the world a better place!

This is just from experience of how to deal with people who have an inferiority complex. I know they have it because I'm a man with a height of only 5' 3". I don't really think so much about how short I am now and keep forgetting to exercise in trying to make myself grow taller.

Meeting Girls Strategy

This is a fun post that I'm going to be really honest about for the single guys who are willing to go out of their way to meet someone special. Also, the guy will have probably exhausted all his limited choices like I did in the past. I was attracted to this girl, but then I figured she wasn't going to be the right person for me anyway. I also had these weird feelings that swing back and forth from being attracted and then not really with a female friend of mine. I guess she's just a friend, but I don't think any guy should pursue a relationship with her for personal reasons that I won't tell. I wouldn't want her to find out from reading about herself!

The thing I'm doing is really simple. The first step is to sign up for an account at meetup.com. Put a 50-mile radius from your ZIP code and then start browsing through meetups that would interest you. Of course, if they have a Magic: the Gathering event with just one half-decent looking girl stating she's going, I'm not even going to care and schedule to go check it out with another buddy of mine!

Other than that, it's great to have a flexible mind with a plethora of interests! I really hate Disneyland so I stay away from it, even though I know a lot of pretty girls who could be by my type and me theirs would go there. Go for an event where you would be comfortable with the activity and start searching for good-looking women who state they are going. Just judge it based on the photo alone. If they are wearing sun glasses, forget about it and don't even count it. If the event costs some money, then forget about it unless it's like grabbing food, bowling, going to the movies, etc. Also at huge events like at a convention, don't expect to talk to the girl you have your eyes set on because she probably won't even show and you will notice so much stuff going on that she won't even be interesting anymore.

At the beginning, sign up for some meet-ups that require approvals from a moderator. Just put in something decent and let go of any inferiority complexes. Don't waste time looking at the profiles of pretty girls who joined and will likely never join an event. I just don't budge to sign up for those groups that need approvals now, unless there are some exceptions like the event host is a pretty girl! Also, don't show your group meet-ups for others to see and change that option. I joined like a 100 groups and don't want people feeling weird about my curiosity. It's true though that other members will be able to see the groups that you are a part of with them. It feels actually nice to be able to feel connected like that.

So basically, I just start numbering the pretty girls who state they will be showing up. A lot of times, I'm like generalizing with the words "Old" or "she's taken" based on the physical information I see. I was attracted to some photos and then when I saw her in person, she seemed a little old as well. It happens, but it made me interested in showing up to the meetings. Some interesting activities include sports, socializing with games, dining out, and joining groups that you can easily relate too. Most of the time, there will be fewer girls going than guys with really cool events, but sometimes, when I notice more pretty girls than guys with events like dancing fitness pro events or museum hopping, I really want to consider going or at least I try to go to those heavy intense work-out sessions so I can just hang out with the girls. Lastly, I do care about my health and enjoy looking at artwork on occasion so it's part of my interest and that's the main thing before searching for pretty girls to hang out with.

Follow Up to Last Post

I just had a little fun there, but yeah I came to know Christ at a young age. I had an inferiority complex back then, well, I just felt tormented because I felt a great need to be a really high moral person. When people say because I'm a Christian, why am I being a hypocrite, that really gets to me. Now I perceive it as them making a threat with me because if I am deserving of something bad, why are they revealing that to me anyway? It's because I'm not going to have that bad thing happen to me no matter how much they say it to me! It all comes down to the rudimentary assumption that they have an inferiority complex because they can't keep a sure-steady, social stature from being totally agitated.

The only reason why I gave my life to Christ at a campsite was because I felt so touched as a kid (for reals!) that Jesus could wipe away my silly mistakes (sins, but this is how my teacher explained it). I felt like a wreck because I got smacked around by my mommy for messing up some math problems. She would discipline me and smack my hand with a wooden stick for messing up and the number of mistakes I made. It hurt, but then again, my mom isn't that good at math as I thought she was.

I practiced on some math problems and got good at it later on. I excelled at it because I had a bigger love then hate relationship with it. I loved beating to the punch all my classmates with solving simple math problems in third grade. I was afraid deep down inside that I would never be perfect enough. The message for me was that if I put my trust in Christ, he would make me a completely new person. It was just like how it felt for me after messing up a math problem. I would get better and start whizzing through it flawlessly. I had this image and it was so attractive to me that I was hooked and so I said my prayer to accept Christ with another kid who I never saw after some ages passed by because of my inferiority complex. It heightened because another kid I grew up with and knowing as my best friend gave a fit about something because he had an inferiority complex too. So two guys going at it, one more aggressive than the other, guess who got out of it sooner? He did because I stayed quiet and held it all in. I never recovered from it, but since I realize that the conflict I have been part of are people with an inferiority complex, I feel so much better!

My Faith in Jesus

A few individuals have used the argument that I'm not moral enough because I'm a Christian. I now get it supposedly. These people were like making threats with me in that they were saying things that never were going to happen anyway, but just telling me them because they were trying to make me feel bad.

I get that some people don't really have a thick skin, so here's the best argument in the whole world. I'm only 5' 3". The people I have been dealing with for the most part are taller than me. What they are bothered by is a 5'3" Asian guy who sent them some texts that they can't really decipher too well. They can't trust me for telling them anything because they are so bothered by it. Well, it's because they have an inferiority complex- just look at my height. My words must matter to them even though they don't understand it because they let it get to them. It's really silly. Because my words are more important than what they are feeling, I deny everything bad that they think and confirm everything good that they think, as long as it doesn't have a negative attribute about me!

Basically, I just say something like that and if they want to push something even further, I get up and leave. They can save the embarrassment for now and know that they let themselves get carried away. Everyone who followed through with them did the same, but it doesn't matter totally because I have a great personality with making a strong effort to let go of any resentment with them over the past. This is why I am meant to have really close friends and still do to this day.

I don't care about the restraining orders and how a little out-of-it girl thought I was a psycho! I am also recovering from bi-polar which I don't even believe myself at times. I was just depressed because I heard voices in my head that I couldn't get rid of. After they went away, I was a little bit over-happy all the time and I think I make myself super happy still and go overboard with that happiness all by myself because Jesus rocks! I believe God led me to the right person at the right time to be healed of my mental sickness at the time. It didn't cure my penchant for making other people with inferiority complexes mad though. Now, it all makes sense that other people feeling for these taller people and asking me to stop is because they themselves have an inferiority complex too and can't sort it out too well in a holistic or logical fashion.

There are some really cool and chill people who enjoy laughing and having a good time. I'm suddenly just flared up to socialize with people who had their fair share of struggles with me. I can deal with all types, even the angry and anti-social ones while they annoy me now. I don't need to join in with their inferiority complex in thinking that they are less of a person because they need to resort to those types of action to get what they want.

Approaching Things Without Yelling

I think the only time I will be yelling is if I end up in a physical fight with someone who lands a punch on me. I will go down screaming in agony! Actually, I imagine myself getting on top of the person and yelling, "Why did you do that?" I might choke him a little just to scare him and then let off and go from nice to screaming in my tone of voice, until he gives me an answer or I get tired of holding him down. I will then help him back up reluctantly and apologize while playing like I'm a fool for doing it.

I have the best argument in the world for all conflicts that I never ended up using. I was too befuddled trying to figure out the other person's side. I don't think all of that matters now, and it starts with the person in your head, which is you!

In all confrontations or whatever mess I get myself into, I don't plan on raising my voice anymore. I don't care how mad I get, I'm going to let all of that out inside my heart and soul. I'm going to just keep on talking and let myself get bored. With the girls, I have try to talk consistently really nice even if they know I'm faking it! The only time I'm shouting is if I end up pinning a guy on the floor who wants to hurt me, while asking him why he's doing that. I don't even care if I know the reason with that guy trying to hurt me. I'll do the same thing. That's the only time I will be yelling during conflict, on top of yelling if I'm talking in a really loud environment.

Running Through Schedule

I now have a running list to remind myself of what I am doing. Currently, I'm trying to take my money out of online poker. They require that I have a minimum of $50. I didn't really put too much into it because I considered myself a low-ball and super cheap gambler. I'm only two dollars away now. I basically played a little poker at around $23 and doubled it from some guy who bluffed against me and I just luckily had a strong enough hand to call for all of my money in that hand.

I then tried playing a little bit of slots and that didn't work. I also tripled my money today, but it was only $3 that I put in. I didn't want to risk it all like I did last time. I'm not about to make myself get all cocky now because I know how stupid it is to be that way. I just want to take out my money, so that I can move on to do bigger and better stuff. It's always hard to achieve your goal in poker, so I don't want to live for that thrill ride and would rather go to Six Flags for it instead.

Starting Off Strong With Trades

These last couple days of the month I was down by 110 pips. Now I am up by 450 pips! I basically updated my swing trading strategy and it seems to be working so far. Also, I have been confirming that my trading entries have been a decently strong choice by looking up the news for each pair. I just need to look at the title and a few sentences of the summary on the search engine to get an idea if I'm on par with the experts. So far, all my trades have looked that way so I think I could be on to something in the next couple months. I will see if I can close out with a profitable month and make it repeatable for the next three, before I really start getting serious.

This system of mine is starting to look a little advanced and very comprehensive because I'm trying to combine with fundamental and technical analysis. I wouldn't have received these ideas if it wasn't for my reading up on how to trade successfully. Pretty much, the saying could be true in that you need to read in order to achieve.

Wow, this has been going on for awhile!

When I really have the time, I think of at least five years of blogging on here talking about repetitive things habitually should be good enough for me to try making websites that talk about other stuff. I thought I was going to be talking a lot about Magic: the Gathering because I do know enough about it to even create a book about it, so I'm really thinking if I should just to monetize it. I would have to go back into building decks again after having said that I'm retiring the other day!

It's a pretty crazy hobby of mine, but I will have to see if I'm good enough to get people to check me out. I totally doubt it, even with the hard work I put into it. However, if I put in the hard work for currency trading then yeah, that's seriously living the life! Maybe I could create a website about trading currency and talk about different strategies that I come across. It would be my own mess of complicated stuff that I won't even understand myself and then people just coming on there to read it would be actually healthy for me because I would have some form of practice with communicating effectively!

I like that better because I can visualize myself earning a great amount of money by doing that. On top of that, I guess I can create another website about fitness and proper nutrition. I could be covering delicious and healthy recipes that I've tried myself! I could even endorse products that have worked for me and make a website off of it. Just the traffic that I generate online would be good enough to try to take advantage of for earning lots of money!

Retiring From Magic: the Gathering

I played my heart out with Magic: the Gathering for these past years. It looks like the wearing out portion is starting to take its toll on me. I believe very strongly that I have two of the best decks ever created, and I've been proving that to myself countlessly while trying out different styles and putting those decks to the test. Of course, my best decks lose, but all decks in Magic: the Gathering lose! Losing is a part of the game, and my best friend treats it like an accomplishment whenever he beats me in this game now. He's been at it for only a few months and has progressed pretty well, even though I don't think his decks are really that good. To me, they are just slightly average and part of meta (fancy word for how others like to play). He is trying to put all his heart and soul into it and acting like a little kid when it comes to boasting about how good his deck is! Oh well, it's just whatever.

I've tried all sorts of combinations and all colors. I'm just ready to retire from deck building now and move on with trading currency for earning a fortune. I'm not kidding about my trading, this is how it looks right now. It's boring for the uninterested mind, and that's how it's meant to be for the majority! I will take the opportunity people give me to game this system and earn some cold, hard profits.

Reorganizing

Well, I'm not really ready to get a long-term and cute girlfriend to eventually settle down with. I have my mind set on being successful financially and with a killer body to really worry about a pretty, needy woman's life and love issues. Maybe, someday it will come to me but now, it's not something I want to stress about. Even though I'm getting older, I'm just starting to accept being a single man. Well, a happy thing for me is that my ultimate type of girl happens to like most of my Facebook comments. She's engaged though to a really lucky guy who doesn't know how blessed he is. I'm cool with how our relationship is, and it's nice! Oh yeah, I haven't thought about the whole having children after marriage part, so I'm just not sure about that. Maybe, if only love turned out to be so much fun, then the possibilities would be so awesome!

Honestly, it's easier for me to slip up over the little things because nobody is watching me and I don't really have any accountability with a life partner. Maybe, marriage would help stabilize me more in that area. For the time being, I'm having fun being single and I think I can party even harder than any group of girls can. I'm just saying this because I think guys have an advantage with being single if they are smart and flexible about it.

I ended up reorganizing my table with all these envelopes that I left on there for a few months. In a busy society, it's actually lagging behind pretty greatly. Yet, I managed to complete everything needed in about an hour's worth of time. I guess I don't get that much mail, so there's no worries except that I have to worry about those deadlines or I could shoot down my credit score.

I just need to be a person with better time management and to also have a thick skin with problematic individuals. Even my own best bud can annoy me at times and I have to put up with his immature and arrogant comments. Yeah, I guess it's just whatever after all.

Kicking Off A Brand New Year

Well, it's been a lot of time wasted for me. I could have done a lot more healthier things, besides just stuffing myself and letting myself get heavier. Anyway, this is the text I wrote to this girl who has always been yelling at me in agony, "Why do you call me?" every time I've spoken with her. I've had no response to that of late because it just has left me so stumped. It's like the best option is to give her what she wants, which is to leave her alone.

I haven't been trying to act like a force of nature for the recent past years. As a result, I've had a lot more friendlier acquaintances. Friends do laugh when I talk about my past moments of yelling at people. When I even yelled at some girls because they were ticking me off, they just started laughing and ignoring the stuff I said. Well, this is what I texted her:

"People sometimes need to look beyond their flesh and bone and try to think like God. Your feelings matter but some people were made to be better than you so giving them a chance to help you is a very good thing."

It seems pretty sincere because I'm actually trying to use the best manners I can give her. It's mediocre at best, but I'm really trying to lead her in the proper direction even if it doesn't involve me being a part of her life. It's just natural for people to care about each other and some more than others. Talking it out can be a great way of relieving stressful problems and nice practice for concealing the bad things and bringing out the best in you! Even the least brightest person can sometimes pick up that some situation isn't going so well and so they have to be a bigger person than the situation would normally call them for.

In other words, I'm going off in some realistic and creatively altruistic direction while setting a positive and righteous tone. This is my new way of leading any girl who has a conflict with me. Being delicate in my speech is something I haven't done in the longest time, but I'm going to need it for my other, sensitive half someday.

Finishing Off the Year

Wow, it's that time of the year again for the new year to be arriving! I've learned so much about dealing with angry and messed up individuals. It's funny and I don't really mind all the stuff they put me through all these years. Sometimes, people just have to not take some things so seriously and examine themselves, instead of just being in the flesh!

I have learned from being a guy, how a guy is supposed to resolve conflict with another guy or female! I have had so many instances of being annoyed with unintentional conflict having developed among guys and girls. I can write things that are capable of offending people when I'm feeling very ticked off at them. I am the little Asian guy that writes stuff to offend only people I'm mad at for any reason. I have heard comments from others about them saying that I'm so scary and they need to get away from me- the little Asian guy who is starting to get thin hair on the top a little. I'm the little Asian guy who offended a small church of stupid and unstable believers and so they kicked me out of their church. I stand only 5'3" while weighing in at about 145-175 pounds at different periods. The extra pounds must add on to my fearsome build for people who don't have that much thick skin, I guess.

Okay, all of these crazy stories that make you want to get mad at me for leave me with a solution of how to deal with it. I'm going to be really blunt about how to solve those problems so pay attention to these last paragraphs a little carefully.

Conflict is basically anything that makes you feel bothered. It can be a little annoyance with yourself or some huge deal to you because someone made a threat to end your career, relationships, or life, etc. The main thing is to put on some thick skin and ignore rash comments they make at you. It's to basically not get affected by it and show no emotion to it. If they start yelling and getting in your face or I feel some tension in the air, I want to smack them but I have to wish they lay a physical hand on me first while still playing nice in person, before I righteously get to defend myself by putting them in physical pain so they can't attempt laying a finger on me. There is a different approach for dealing with a man or woman.

For the guys, you mainly need to be straight-forward with him. When I think of one-word to describe resolving this conflict, it's to out-smart him. If you are a guy, you are already on the right track for dealing with any woman who you feel angry, bothered, or upset with. Just from being a guy, it's a big deal with resolving problems to other girls at any time no matter how long it went. The guy gets to be the man of the house someday, if he ever gets there. He's going to be the leader of the household and bring in food for the table! It's important for the man to treat women with the best manners he can give and lead the woman he's in conflict with by mainly describing values to her. Using one word to describe it, it's to be delicate with her.

Priorities

Instead of having fun and doing what I need to do, I guess the little things do matter for me and it would nice to take care of those things that require maintenance, such as keeping my room in orderly fashion. It has a tendency to stay messy, and I'm starting to not like that because I figure that being a grown-up now, I should have a room that looks as such.

I also need to take care of my finances better. I mean I could do a whole lot better. I guess watching anime and playing Magic: the Gathering and messing around with trading currency can be really nerdy and a lot fun, but I really should be focusing on the necessities first. I guess to prepare myself, I really need to focus on the little stuff now and make sure they are in neat and orderly fashion before I go do my thing with the big stuff and other things that interest me.

Next Step

The next step for me is to pretty much write about all the topics that interest me. I think I have hit enough wide topics that might get a few visitors on each of those sites, if I decide to just pack it with useful information and make it easy on the eyes. I could then just make money with advertisements.

I find that I'm drawn to a lot of those Top 20 articles when it comes to just reading about celebrities. It's fun and sometimes entertaining to read about what movies they were in and to not be really attracted to them as I originally thought they were. It's just fun for me to read, so maybe I could do something like that in my own website.

Of course, it's going to take some money, but I think writing about my personal interests at such an eclectic proportion will be beneficial for me because I would be making some sort of contribution for others on the web. Also, it might wear me out to go send out offensive messages to people, even though I know they are filled with bullocks now. It all comes down to understanding the person, which is hard when you are filled with any type of emotion. Basically, you need to think on your feet and have a thick skin about a lot of stuff because most humans in general are basically stupid!

Pretty Simple Goals

I'm going to list some of my personal interests on here just to help myself. I don't really mind people reading about them, so that's why I have this blog in the first place.

• Implementing cool computer technology
• Singing with piano playing
• Trading currency
• Magic: the Gathering
• Bible study
• Dating and staying married to a beautiful Christian woman
• Hanging out with good friends
• Health
• Martial Arts
• Having nice and agreeing fans of my writing and thoughts
• Excelling at sports
• Binge-watching an anime series every once in awhile
• Expert mode survivalist
• Finding out and trying to stick to copying some fun and interesting trends
• Re-visiting tradition as long as it stays fun and in a good mood
• Finding good deals and taking advantage of them
• Acquiring interesting purchases that could improve quality of life
• Maybe, a pet lover
• Reading other people's comments and discussion points
• Personal thoughts
• Career advancement

Approaching Christmas Eve

Well, I just ended up mainly playing Magic: the Gathering the last couple days when I was off work. It looks like I'm not really hurt that bad at all if I end up losing and something I can come to an acceptance with. After all, it's really all about having fun to start with even though some games can become edge-of-your-seat chaotic and competitive. I guess that's what makes me coming back for more, which is just competing against one other and being friendly about it. It is after all, a two player game for the most part. It's like another form of playing chess, but for this one, you are customizing the cards you want to play with and testing it continuously or as long as you feel compelled to while aspiring towards hopeless perfection! No deck will ever be virtually impenetrable. There will always be a way because the higher-ups won't let that occur for so long, in order to make the game fair. It is after all, a lot of fun to exploit those advantages from mistakes the publishers make occasionally and try to make a career out of it. The game has become so popular that there is a cult following for it and also professional players who can do tournaments on the side.

I just can't stand too much poker action anymore. It's filled with variances in the game that will tempt my blood to boil. I don't feel that fullness in playing the game so much anymore, unlike the best players in the world. I thought I was going to go become an online professional player, but my style doesn't seem suited for making money, so I'm going to have to let it go this time around.

I think I'm going to create a separate for-profit website, where I'll just write about MTG, trading currency, anything related to health, and I.T. related topics that interest me. It could be in a way my own research that I'm publishing for free over the web. I'll keep this thing just personal and have fun with my writing.

Taller and Shorter Couples

From doing google searches on short guys, I'm reading some funny reasons about why short guys can be better than taller guys. It's true that a lot of women out there prefer their partner to be taller than they are. It's something of their nature with accepting how things are supposed to be. I'm not a girl so I can't really say much about that, but that's what a woman said as a vivid comment, so I believe her.

This website that I came has posts with the lady of the guy-girl couple usually making some comments and revealing the height difference. It's pretty cool that I got to read it and had fun. For the people who are closest to you especially family, things get really interesting after you are able to raise a few kids successfully. It's like after that, being short or tall doesn't matter while you are married.

They also had photos there and I had a great laugh at some of them, but hey I'm short too so I can relate now and feel good about my body. I'm not really that bad looking after all, and what my mom tells me is that it's not that I'm short that makes the difference, it's really how my build just makes me look incredibly healthy. When I'm able to have a nice and clean shaven face, I look incredibly handsome and so I join in the party of other losers out there who are trying to find a really hot date. I'm an exception where people will change their minds about my height because of everything about me that they can get to know. I cause conflict all the time from having some sort of inferiority complex and lack of sensibility, but that's not becoming the case for me anymore because I literally resolved my first conflict with someone in my life who has anger problems.

This is the website to check out for successful relationships dealing with shorter guys and taller women http://www.oocities.org/tallershorter/couples.htm. The pictures are quite funny and can leave a few men feeling jealous, so don't forget to check that section out.

Complaining Through Prayer

Obviously, it would be great for all of us to always have a thick skin about everything but it's nearly impossible to have that state of stoic mind. I've seen first hand though that using the thick skin does help me to organize my thoughts better and also it doesn't make me feel so bad about expressing my passion with others when we are in a heated moment. From listening to the radio yesterday, it says that everyone doesn't have a right to complain if he or she doesn't pray to God about it. I'm praying to God and telling Him that I don't care about the situations and that I'm going to surprise their flesh and make them feel knocked down.

In a sense, it's just the flesh we are dealing with and the hard work that I'm putting forth is pointing out the stupidity of the person who is having a beef with me. I'm going to pray a lot more while putting on my thinking skills and the thick skin on the fly, which are going to be my main tools for getting people to let go of their flesh. By putting all my undivided attention on the person and hard work with this whole neglecting of personal feelings, I'm going to be like a master at work. It doesn't matter what I put down here and how people prepare for it. I was made for this type of situation and just from praying to God about it, it makes things more legit for me to push it even with escalating force.

I am after all a self-seeking peacemaker when the need calls for it. That's the easy part and cheap thrills, but I don't really care. The only up-side I see to it is that I could have potential to be fair with refereeing both sides that I don't have any conflict of interest with. A third-party with no ties and is equally interested in both people's cases. If I could be that third-party person for a group of two people, while I master my self-seeking peacemaking skills, then it would be awesome!

Trading Update

From looking at my charts, I'm just practically looking for only one setup now. It will occur on the daily and 4 hour charts simultaneously for whichever I come across. It has had pretty decent results, and I've been profiting again. Fortunately, I'm only dealing with a demo account; otherwise, I would have been down another 1025 pips in real life, which wouldn't be so swell at all! Anyhow, I'm in control of my destiny here and it's fitting my style and seems to be working okay for me these days. Also, this is a little out of touch but I believe that when you have a bad day, you need to brush yourself off and then go on the attack again. Eventually, from hard work, I believe that it's going to pay-off and be massively rewarding from something that you like doing. Seriously, having a thick skin can go really a long ways to a successful path in your life. Of course, God is the one who deserves the credit in my opinion. I want to live this life of mine which I struggle with to not be a hypocrite and make it all for God!

Resolving Conflict, It Works!

If your speech or texting is with a nicely skilled degree of good etiquette and nice intention to the person who sees you as a pest, you don't really have anything to lose. They are trying to throw mean punches at you because they want you to fall lower than them. They already know that something's not right with them, and in most cases, this applies for me. I was kicked out of a church for a reason! This is why it's so important to keep a thick skin as your shield on the very high. This one guy who gave me a hard time ended up going on the defensive with me, because I'm just that kind of writer. It's a been there and done that type of deal, so I tried it out and it naturally fit so well. It ended with me giving him high hopes of the best kind of blessing out there. I wasn't worrying about my own personal feelings, which is what bothered and imperfect people are going to try to make you go into. They end up hating your guts for a reason and like to stay there. He ended up giving me a very helpful message in the end, as I told him that I don't care what wrong he did to me. He's so convinced though that I was more wrong than him. It's a pride type of deal that young guys have. I was cool enough to understand it now I guess because of keeping a thick skin, which has blossomed quite so well. I'm becoming a better problem remover with some dummies.

Copy and Paste Issue

It's a little easy to tweak copy and paste text. It only takes a few seconds. Just go to the HTML section and delete the little '' and '&nsbp'. It's interesting because those commands without the quotation marks would actually affect this post all together. It is live code in itself with this post that I am currently making, which is interesting in a way. There's also a live spell-checker in this thing too.

Message for People Who Are Scared of Me

It starts all the way from the beginning. You don't want to repeat what I did wrong that personally deals with you. You just say you don't want to talk about it. That's fine, indeed! Being called a psycho is a name-call and a general fallacy. It's just that you said you are scared and offended. About what? Can you tell me? All the way from the beginning and not what I did recently and up to like five years ago. From like the first message which you started by asking if I was like at your church or something and onward. You probably won't even know what it is. I know a woman who will tell me all the time and repeat what I did wrong, whenever I ask no matter how upset or afraid she is with me. I think you are scared because you don't know what it is and trying to blame me for it. You are just being selfish and out of it! It's because of our different personalities and they clashed. A lot of people are like this and struggle with having always perfect human relationships. Are you perfect in all your past, present, and future relationships including me? I don't have all the messages I kept anymore and I don't want to read most of them out of boredom. But I will take a few and just read them line-by-line and ask what you felt. I don't care how vulgar you want to be, but I will tell you for sure that our viewpoint won't even match up because it's all about paying attention to linguistics and not the mood nor event that made you feel uncomfortable. I was being positive all the way through and I'm good enough to explain how something you see bad means actually okay. This is the solution that I've been waiting for and it's boring and long process, but would resolve your feelings of conflict with me. I will do it while maintaining that hypothesis about you not knowing what it is and feeling scared because of it, which I think is very true. I don't care about my personal feelings here. I'm going to develop thick skin by doing this and communicate better, so there you go!

Gaining People Skills

Today, I learned that dealing with people sometimes I need to have a thick skin and think about what I'm going to say. Personality can sometimes cause people to clash with one another. It happens.

A lot of it that I found important was that sensing the mood and how everything that took place is very important when you are dealing with a person. Also, it would be very useful to communicate for confirming how the other person perceived what you said. In a text message, I would say going line by line somehow and asking what they thought about it and confirming or clarifying it. This is why you really need to have a thick skin in those cases because tempers can start flaring and make it difficult to resolve a conflicting solution. I guess having a mediator is important.

What Happened Today

I woke up and then started playing the piano for about three hours straight while singing songs. I visited back Fur Elise and a little bit of Moonlight Sonata which are both beautiful pieces by Beethoven. Fur Elise has a lighter and more passionate sound than the other, but what I like about it is that for me, it's about going through hardships and finding your way back out of it, only to reap the reward for having done your best!

Moonlight Sonata is an enraging piece to me. It feels like all of that passion is going to burst and just make you go on a tirade. It's tone is also quite dark to me, but at the same time, it's a really moving and beautiful piece. Basically, both of these songs are what I would grade to be at the intermediate level. They are both not absolutely impossible to master. It just takes practice and determination.

Instead of playing Magic: the Gathering today, I binged on playing my piano for my whole morning before going to work. I skipped taking a shower too because I was so focused on playing. I ended up singing Lion King's Can You Feel the Love Tonight and my song that I revised. I ended up playing on my run-down piano and also electronic piano keyboard. It's just in case I play an out-of-tune piano, so that's why I practice on both. This is all just for showing off purposes!

I also made up a version of Mary had a Little Lamb and Jingle Bells where you only need to use three fingers to play. I made them just in case anybody was interested in learning to play a little piano. It would be like I'm giving them a high five and something for them to dwell in, if they ever decide to take lessons somewhere or purchase a piano out of impulsiveness.

This is my song that I created and these are the lyrics. I changed it around just slightly because my friends were complaining about how they couldn't understand what I was singing. It's more natural in communicating for me, I suppose because now I can express it in that manner.

The title of my written song is Jumping Betty (no real significance to the song, but taken from the video game Borderlands 2 ). The girl I was interested in, well sort of, is named Betty, but shh, nothing in the song is there that will give her enough evidence to sue me. Here are the lyrics, each line is where I take a small pause.

Waking up this morning to what's like a summer's day.

I find today to be unique.

Isn't it natural for people to bond with each other? I know apologies are not enough, still trying to make things right. She never let me take the lead. Why won't she let me try for once?

It's like the roses were

Not enough!

Oh well...

I have a secret to let you in on now.

I'm nothing at all. There's nowhere else to fall. Even when I come to her arms, begging on my knees. Does she make me all? She makes me all!

The battle trumpet sounds off. Desperation cries out. Shuffling my feet to places I don't belong. It's been hard to say.

I'm nothing at all. There's nowhere else to fall. Even when I come to her arms ,begging on my knees. Does she make me all. She makes me all...

This is a song about Stacy.

My girl from care group.

I asked her how she was doing. She didn't answer.

So this is my song for her!

She gives me joy so much that I'm speechless and I like it.

Her love for me is irresistible. I can't fight it. I can't fight it, yeah.

She shines so much her light of mercy. I receive it.

I'm bowed and broken. Everything's so new. She's like an inspiration to breathe. I'd like to see her live her life and get through all her days.

She gives me joy so much that I'm speechless and I like it.

Her love for me is irresistible. I can't fight it. I can't fight, yeah.

I'm nothing at all. There's nowhere else to fall. Even when I come to her arms, begging on my knees. Does she make me all? She makes me all!

The battle trumpet sounds off. Desperation cries out. Shuffling my feet to places I don't belong. It's been hard to say.

I'm nothing at all. There's nowhere else to fall. Even when I come to her arms ,begging on my knees. Does she make me all. She makes me all...

If life's like water, I'm dry as a desert.

If life's like Las Vegas, I really lost my shirt.

I'm lost without a clue. I flip a shout-out to the love I thought once know.

I never thought this was possible, but I'd like to say thank you for letting me give you a good time.

She gives me joy so much that I'm speechless and I like it.

Her love for me is irresistible. I can't fight it. I can't fight, yeah.

She shines so much her light of mercy. I receive it.

WHOA!

I don't know where you are.

Wherever you are.

May you go live in peace...

It's All Hidden Smiles

I am smiling underneath while wanting to cry at the same time. This happens when I stand around taller people. I still talk and function normal. It's just that I'm trying to hide the fact that I'm smiling. I'm hurting on the inside a lot, but it doesn't bug so much that I need medication for it.

It's just comedic for me to be a shorty and around taller women or sometimes taller men. I wish I was a 6 footer. I'd be happy with that, but I guess you can't have everything you want in life. Well, from reading up on the movie The Invention of Lying, I found out that Jennifer Garner's character regarded the main character as ugly and unfit to pass on beautiful genes because the nose of his kids would be so ugly. The main character became successful and rich, and from that Jennifer Garner's character felt he would be a great husband and father. Enough said right there, I just need to be those two things and that's all the confidence I will ever need in getting married.

If I get a six-pack and some muscles, then I'm going to have a pretty cute girlfriend for sure along with topping those things too. Well, at least I'll find someone with a better chance and with me wanting a Christian woman. Who knows how blessed God will truly make me out to be?

My List of Priorities

I created a list last night and practically forgot what I put on there, while I was brainstorming. Oh well, I remember some parts to it.

1. Settle down with a physically attractive, Christian woman.

Enough said there, I guess there's plenty of them out there. God provides! I was e-mailed by two, beautiful Christian ladies for going out by tonight. Yeah, that feels good, but I'm still taking my time with responding to those. What goes around, comes around. The same thing happens to me too when I message pretty girls. They take their time in responding back and sometimes never.

2. Read the Bible.

I just finished reading the New Testament and retained like 5% of it and have to go back to re-read it again. I just reached Psalms and that's probably the half way point for the Old Testament.

3. Become a Forex multi-millionaire.

Yeah, that would seriously be the life. Playing golf while making money and literally sleeping on the job.

4. Get muscles and a six-pack. Become an expert rock-climber.

5. Program apps.

6. Constantly learn on my job and also gain promotions when applicable.

7. Do self-maintenance.

8. Try to force myself to grow taller.

9. Get survival skills and be trained in medicine.

10. Socialize


I have about 12 things that I remember, but I guess I condensed it down a little bit.

Hard Work

I have this bored, tortured feeling from waking up and trying to set myself aside some time to give into my daily routine. However, when I detract from it by playing Magic: the Gathering or surfing the web, then I forget about all my worries and troubles. It's only when I make myself aware of how much time I wasted, then I start feeling bad and want to rewind the clock again. Time isn't coming back, unless you invent a time machine. Why waste all this time trying to build one, when life is moving forward anyway?

I just need to take the initiative. That's really all there is to it. I'm not really thinking and only focused and engaged in playing Magic: the Gathering. I am like so plugged in, when I do it. It's a lot of guilty fun for me. Yet, I don't desire to become a professional with it so all of that excess energy spent playing it is to just have fun. It was the same thing for me in college, except I was playing Starcraft and watching downloaded movies with bad quality.

I guess the weakness all originates from not wanting to face my own personal doldrums of just sitting there and letting the hours go by painfully, while trying to accomplish something that I don't really have my heart set on doing. It was about graduating after taking a lot of boring college courses for me.

Because of this weakness and setting my mind on fun things to do, I'm losing track of my precious time to do things like working out everyday and reading the Bible. I basically just need to take the initiative even if I'm not feeling it. I just need to be more logically oriented in this manner with that being the pay-off is going to feel so much better later for me. I'm going to just try writing down everything that I should be doing as a priority and leave out the fun, while letting that just be a natural thing for me when I make a little time for it. I just need to have a little bit of fun each day, but enough to keep me refreshed and recharged.

Basically, just learning how to keep myself from going crazy while being mad at a person has helped put things back in perspective for me. It's a constant battle. I mean I deal with this annoying guy on a regular basis and I just don't overreact nor say anything. I make him mad by replying with something funny, which I share with his laughing brother. His method is really talking about something I don't understand and then just laughing. I was angry that he was laughing at me about something I don't understand, but then I just got used to it and brush it off. He wants to talk to me sometimes though, and I just get back at him by not saying anything. He is bothering me a lot less in frequency then I'm accustomed to these days.

Relating To People

Well, this is funny in that everybody thinks negatively about something or someone at some point in time of their life. The truth is it's about how much we verbalize it or act on those feelings that can probably get others to think how much of a jerk you are to them.

I'm just laughing in that I'm aware of this thing that people do to one another now. I'm also aware how some people just let it out and talk about their frustrations with close friends. I've been around people doing that because I don't say anything about it. It's pretty annoying to me now when I see it, but I still don't say anything. In fact, I felt it was like the most scariest thing to be a part of for awhile.

Just having this understanding now, it helps me to compartmentalize my negative feelings from just being awkwardly moody when a nice or annoying friend is talking about how his or her day is going. When I did express myself in a really insane and offensive manner that made me laugh so hard to the point of calming down, the other person became scared of me and made complaints about me behind my back. I just know because I hear about them from annoying friends.

I'm choosing not to express myself in a true fashion like that anymore because the other person I still want to be friends with doesn't want to function right anymore. A real and taller man I knew put a restraining order on me and before he said I was a terrorist, he looked like he wanted to go to the bathroom from trembling so much when I approached him to have a friendly chat. I should have asked him, "Are you okay?" I didn't because I was laughing so hard at him, inside my own head. I did all the wrong moves on purpose because I just felt like it and didn't care. I was angry when the cop said that I had to still work with him and got to be 0 yards away from him and keep things work-related. I felt like I was being told like a kid what to do by a cop. It made me mad and so that's how life went. I don't care now! I just fully feel like laughing about the incident even though the guy wouldn't when I talk about it with him. The restraining order isn't around anymore and lasts for only three years. I'm an experienced restraining order getter now. I still have a clean non-criminal record because it doesn't count as really anything. It just makes life harder because you want to get back at the person and for doing that, you could go to jail.

I really could care less if people went for those civil restraining orders and said that I'm bothering them too much that they need the law's assistance to leave them alone. Some people or intra-personal skills they got. I'll say something like that because you get to appear next to them. It doesn't even make sense, when I can appear next to the person and act like an angel for a certain amount of time to contradict what the person is saying against me to the judge.

Anyway, I'm laughing and have learned how I can be still nice by not acting on my agitated and angry feelings of wanting to offend people for just annoying me in general. It could be from the past and recalling it in the moment. It could even be from the present and trying to get rid of those feelings. It could be any feeling and so I just want to be cool and nice, while also making other people laugh in a good way. I guess it's easy to be a little fearful about giving me a hard time and making fun of me now. It's probably just easier to leave me alone and not get in my way of things.

Decent Plans With Consistency

I'm really going to stick to my current job for as long as possible. I'm going to keep at it for a life-time and become a master at it, while gaining little knowledge at a time on other workings of the business I'm in. I'm really lucky in that I actually have a job that can pay well and that I don't really need to obtain a Master's or Ph. D. anymore. 

The only thing I really feel shy about is finding a girlfriend. It sort of makes me feel a little sad to see other people paired up and displaying a light form of public affection, but that's the funny part for me. Now I'm understanding and better equipped with how certain people want to interact with me, and they are filled with a lot of surprises. It's part of being human and that's what it is all about. 

I'm constantly talking about the Bible with my high school, Catholic buddy and whatever I learn from church. I guess it's my way of trying to pass on God's Word to someone. Along with that I'm looking to maintain my hair through a little bit of research and keep it from all falling out now. Yeah, I'm putting on a little Rogaine each day after I apply some natural ingredients to my head that are known to rejuvenate hair and get it thicker again. 

I'm going to work out everyday like twice whenever I can. Once in the morning with the basic push-up, sit-up, and run. After work, I'm going to hit the gym again to do some weight training. I'm not looking to kill myself, but just get progressively stronger to the point that I have a six-pack and can do one-handed pull-ups easily! Well, I do want to be very good at rock-climbing so that's what it's going to take for me, which is getting in really good shape with my whole body. 

On top of working out to try to get in top shape, I might as well become tactically skilled as well in survival, so that includes doing archery and bowling strikes all the time. I'm going to try to stretch my way to getting a little taller too. Who cares, if nobody believes it works. I just don't care. I'll be a flexible short person for all I care. 

It reminds me, I should take up cooking on some healthy and delicious meals too. I just need to manage my time better to get to this pretty balanced life that I have in mind. Last, but not least, I'm going to make millions of dollars someday and do an unassisted back-flip! 

Combining More Trading Strategies

I practically purchased two different systems and received coaching for them. These are the two systems somewhat in its modified version. By just doing a little run-down of what I can do, I have different setups that I am looking for. By doing so, I was browsing through all the 24 pairs I am looking at really fast and ended up with four trades. I don't know if those trades are good, but I'm still experimenting with this.

Overall, it's pretty fun and all my trades lasted throughout the night without stopping out. I ended up taking profit of about 130 pips. I'm still down about 260 pips though from having made some messy trades at the beginning of the month. One thing I like about these setups is that I am enjoying the style and looking forward to what it might lead me to in the future.

More Trading Adjustments

I've made a little more tweak to the system and I'm finding that I'm getting more specific trades. I'm mainly looking for like a perfect setup on the Daily chart and then looking for factors on the Weekly chart that would place my market outlook of the currency heavily in my favor that I'm looking to trade.

I still have yet to test my idea on doing bounce trades with support and resistance, but I'm still refining the other method which is loosely based on how I learned those indicators in the past. I'm going off with experimenting those indicators and doing it on my own. I really have a slightly modified version of the original system that I purchased about five years ago. The system is now defunct of course, but I've decided to hang on to it and just go at it by myself while blending in a whole lots of things that I've picked up over the past.

Leviticus 14:15-23

Verse 15 leaves off with how the priest is to take a log of oil (less than one-half of a pint) and pour it into the palm of his own left hand. Verse 16 states that the priest will then dip his right finger in the oil that's on his left hand and sprinkle some oil with his finger seven times before the Lord. / ( The only thing I'm really getting out of this is how the number seven represents God. ) Verse 17 says that  some of the oil gets put on the tip of the right ear of the person who is to be cleansed, on the thumb of the right hand, on the big toe of the right food, and on the blood of the trespass offering. (I'm asking to myself now, what if the person doesn't have a big toe or thumb on his right side? Would this then mean that the priest can't complete this ritual? I don't really know and I don't even have an answer to those questions. The Bible hasn't been that absolutely clear so far apart from speculation, and I'm not really going to go there for now. )

Verse 18 states that the rest of the oil that is on the priest's hand will be put on the head of the person who is to be cleansed. After doing so, the priest is then ready to make atonement for him before the Lord. / ( I know I've said this a few times on the very little occasions I've tried writing about the Bible, but I'm so glad that Jesus is the high priest that anyone can go to for atonement of sins without having to bother doing these old-time sacrifices. ) Verse 19 states that the priest does the sin offering and then makes atonement for the person who is to be cleansed from uncleanness. After this, the priest kills the burnt offering. / ( I'm just loosely thinking about how the Mayans and Aztecs engaged in some crazy human sacrifices, like how in the movie Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom, this one evil looking guy with a skull cap ripped out the heart of a man in a cage, before he was sent to his doom. This is unlike the Bible because instead of humans being sacrificed, it was animals. I'm sure in these days, some vegetarians who form PETA would detest these type of practices. Why is it that vegetarians don't detest to killing plants for energy? They are practically living things too. )

(Who knows? ) Verse 20 talks about the priest offering burnt offering and grain offering on the offering table, which is called an altar! "So the priest shall make atonement for him, and he shall be clean." Verse 21-22 says that if the man who is assumed to have all his fingers and toes can't pay for the sacrifices, he takes one male lamb as a trespass offering to be waved for being made atonement. / (From just having gone through a disease and being declared unclean, is the person unrighteous before the Lord's sight? I don't think it's because of that. It's more like it's a constant, spiritual battle and because of human pride, we are not going to seek out for God's help when we should really be confessing our daily sins. ) Furthermore, the person to be cleansed takes about 1/2 of a gallon of fine flour mixed with oil as a grain offering, about less than one-half pint of oil, and two turtledoves or two young pigeons, whichever he can afford. Of the birds, one is going to be sin offering and the other a burnt offering. (/ This is interesting in that for the person to have been considered clean after doing the ritual of being cured of leprosy, one bird dies and the other is set free in the wild after being dipped in the dead bird's blood. In this case, after doing a cleansing ceremony from being cured of leprosy, another ritual has to be taken place to be cleansed of sins. This seems very plausible because from the guy with leprosy not being let inside the camp, the priest wouldn't be able to make atonement for him. This seems really symbolic to how being a sinful person, it can separate us from God by like being sent off into the wild and how God gives us over to our own sins to whip us back into shape, but won't let go of us. It's like God keeps us at a distance because we are His children.) Verse 23 states that the person to be cleansed after having been declared clean from being cured of leprosy, on the eighth day, those items become brought to the priest at the door of the tabernacle of meeting, before the Lord. (/ After being declared clean by the priest, it looks like the person who had to be outside of camp from leprosy is allowed back in to his or her possessions. One question I really need to ask, is if all of these rituals only apply for men. I mean I'm sure women and children were also susceptible to leprosy. Would they have been treated differently by the priests? Also the Bible translates it a little with the old English standard, so it does seem to be a little confusing here. Somehow, it would probably be like a great celebration for friends and family to see their loved one again and just maybe, if the person was poor, others wouldn't mind giving some items for sacrificing maybe for a favor in return later on. )

Feeling Good

It's this nervous type of feeling that I'm getting in that I need to finish something that I started. I want to get this blog ended for the year with 365 posts again! You can't really blame me for that because I've been doing it for at five years now straight. It would just be like a kick in the private area for me if I missed it by just one post, just like how I missed a few posts last month. I'm going to be on it this month until I get 365 posts total!

It would also be not so cool for me if I exceed my amount as well. It would just be so crazy, but I really like I'm how one of the most active bloggers around from just putting whatever while averaging one post daily. Even though I'm not really getting attention on this blog, like I only had about 18 visits today and yes, not including my own. The maximum I've had was like 100 people and that's it! It's a high note for me, when I manage to get those types of post going.

I think it happens when I'm talking all funny or controversial about stuff that happened in my life. Everybody can get all rattled about the little stuff and get annoyed with other people's personalities and start dissing them behind their back. It's just that I choose not to do it, while thinking about it and then I just offend people by telling them very offensive jokes about themselves because I'm so annoyed with them. Yeah, it's all part of being human while maintaining relations with others.

In terms of Jesus talk, I believe that Jesus is perfect even though he offended the Pharisees back in the New Testament. Sure, we live in the New Testament but I'm talking about like back in 30 A.D. during the Roman Empire. In a nutshell, even though Jesus is still perfect while he offended those religious leaders, we are not when we offend others because we live in sin! Uh oh, our hearts are basically composed of evil and corrupt desires. The Bible says so and by having heard that from someone, I was so mad at him for awhile. I'm now more open to accepting while I have a little sense of humor about my past misgivings and also from having sought after repentance. The reason why we aren't perfect with others and can sometimes have conflict in a social atmosphere is because of our personality flaws.

Success After So Many Failures

It takes so many attempts to succeed for me, but it's well worth it for me to get there. It's humbling for me. I guess a lot of the reasons for why I keep on trying is because it's just addictive for me. I think it's important to have a strong ambition and great work ethic. It's really hard in the beginning, unless you were just born for something but once you can get through it, it becomes a little easier and can be much more enjoyable. I guess this is just like anything with life.

I totally believe that sticking to the roots of worshiping God with the Bible will seriously help you get to where you need to be. Maybe, I'm just like a commoner or unique peasant to the world that people can just have a nice regard for because of my demeanor. I mean I want to give off a great witness to the world about how loving God really is and that those who are not saved from being convicted of His goodness might open up their hearts too.

Some places are evil and I'm among the people there. I know that, but I still would like some to come to the knowledge that they are in a bad place and should change their ways while accepting Jesus as their Lord and Savior. I can't really force that on people, but it would be nice to see some bad people just do a complete 180-degree turn in their lives.

One of those Magic the Gathering Nights

My MTG deck looks very powerful in the modern format and might also be competitive with some older style formats as well. I played my buddy all night until like 4:00 am after I visited his place at 11:00 pm. It was a whole lot of fun! I kept on beating him multiple times, even though he got me a few times. His deck is basically composed of my deck's weaknesses.

The key to winning against the weak parts of my deck was to basically create a strong sideboard, which is 15 additional cards that you can switch out in between games. This has been made legal in the professional tournament circuit. I only needed to sideboard half of my original deck, but those 8 cards really can make a difference in game play against his. My buddy was so convinced of my hot streak that he is considering obtaining the cards that I've used against his. He is pretty convinced that maybe his deck will become invulnerable once he tries it on his.

I'm actually a little skeptical about that. It's just that those cards work very well against his. This is pretty much the run down of what I'm playing in case anyone was wondering. I'm running a control deck with leveling creatures. The counter-spells and Path to Exile cards really disrupt his ultra-speed burn deck that relies on taking out the opponent with quick momentum before he or she bounces back. In addition, I've added in the really sought-after Spellskite which is just a two cost artifact creature and costs about a hefty 22 dollars to purchase. The Spellskite is noteworthy for redirecting spells that can target creatures to it, so it works fairly well against the famous lightning bolts my buddy loves to use. I'm also running the cheap two-cost Aegies of the Gods which gives me hexproof against his powerful burn spells.

The games have been really close where he's brought my life down to 5 starting at 20 life. It becomes a close game, but my deck has been edging out the wins because of those control cards. I think the ingenuity of my deck is that it has life gaining capabilities and can do a massive amount of damage because I utilize my leveling creatures efficiently with the counter-spells.

Making More Trading Adjustments

Okay so I thought yesterday's indicators looked all cool, but now I've made a few modifications to it again. The EURCHF has been trading for a few days so far and has a few more pips, which seems pretty cool. I wonder what if I applied the same methodology to other pairs. I wonder if the volatility of the market would move in my favor and then generate a lot more pips.

I'm going to go for what seems to be a more sure thing this time. I don't really want to waste my money on getting stopped out a lot from being aggressive with my trades. I'll just stick to being patient and more picky, in order to expect a nice payout on the long run. I'm basically not entering trades where I would calculate the stop loss to be close to 100 pips.

I'm using the weekly to see if I can match up wisely with the daily. All I really care about is undersold or overbought conditions with the weekly. I'm just looking at one indicator. On the daily, I'm factoring in everything. Maybe I could just program an additional indicator eventually to tell me if the weekly is where I want it to be. I'll do it eventually, if this method starts to work for me.

So far, I have only two planned methods to go with trading. I guess I'll where this takes me for the rest of the month. So far, my month has been mainly losses with a few big wins. One of those big trades turned into a loss as well. I'm just doing whatever right now and trying to close in on a successful method that I feel comfortable with.

More Trade Tweaking

I've decided to combine things that I've learned from reading and attempted with mastering. This is pretty much my own three-in-one system. It's nothing totally special if the trader is definitely a pro, but there are some interesting parts with it.

The highlighted areas are pretty much my profit taking areas. I've decided to use the best oscillators and moving averages that I have become accustomed to and have a decent feeling for already. These are pretty much the two, separate proprietary systems that I've purchased in the past years. It was on and off, and now I've combined these two together and trying to make it fit the whole puzzle for me, while doing it the way I want to. The lines are pretty much acting as guidelines for me in what to expect the market is going to do. They are calculated support and resistance, which is going to be tested against by the market. It may act like that or go completely haywire! My third way of trading is pretty much from pin formations on the candlestick. Some of them are strong enough to be used as an indicator, especially on the daily chart and it can last for days while waiting for another setup to form.

At least there's one thing about any market with investing involved. It moves up and down! Timing it right is an art and what can create millionaires all over the world. I'm just trying to go over it and looking for simple patterns using what I have on the chart. It really does make more sense though with how the indicators will behave as the market goes bullish or bearish.

New Trade

Wow, I am so off right now. Good thing it's only a demo account! I got rid of the 24 pair scanner and went back to scanning the daily charts while using weekly for a general view. I only managed to feasibly get into one trade that I liked per my own personal trading engagement rules. I'm now trying to use the indicators appropriately for how I used them.

I guess I was trying to loosely adapt them into a more aggressive trading style, but it's made my results unsubtle. I guess for the weekly, I'm just caring about price action and trend momentum being at overbought or undersold conditions. I'm pretty much going to dedicate myself with looking at the charts at least once a day and try sticking to my personal trading rules.

For this EURCHF pair, I have the SL at the high of yesterday while having gone bearish. Within minutes, I saw that the market was 7 pips in profit after making up for the spread. I guess these higher time frames could also help with scalping pairs as well. My goal is to catch a long and profitable ride while working at a reliable signal. I have 24 pairs to work with, so I'm seeing some action even though it's mainly turned out bad so far. I've been able to get a few 100 to 200 pip trades, but I'm trying to make sense of it and get it working for me!

Best Trade Update

I have a nice risk to reward ratio of 1:2 going with this trade, which is based off the weekly chart. I'm basically avoiding swing lows and highs that go to and beyond the 100 pip range for the stop loss.  I figure that I enjoy these long trades that make me profit while I just comfortably watch the market do its thing.

Currently, I'm still finding my proper feel for the markets, but this pair is the more traditional GBP/USD pair that I've experienced a handsome return with. It's still projected to move a little more in my favor. It seems to be a bit more reliable and longer lasting signal because I'm just counting weeks and entering the market based on the daily time frame.

By filtering the market in this manner, based off of 24 different currencies. I will probably have at the most five trading at a time, or put about 5% to 10% at risk.

Leviticus 14:1 - 14

I have finally made it out of just trying to summarize Leviticus 13 on this blog! I'm just trying to make sense out of it verse by verse, and it seems so hard to try to do this consistently. I have so much going on my mind. This reminds me, I need to read the my daily portion of the Bible. I'm almost done with the New Testament. I don't know what's going on in the Bible, but a few verses do stick to me so I hope it gets better as I continuously read the Bible. "It will," says everybody!

Verse 1 of Leviticus 14 says that God talked to Moses. The end of that verse. Verse 2 mentions a law made specifically for lepers (oh, the humanity). I really am not accustomed to using that word. I'm sensitive about saying bad words around people too. I just don't do it and incited a few people (a girl and a boy) to dare me to say a cuss word. It's always like that- a male and a female do something to me and it's just one of each gender. The restraining order is the same too- one from a male stupid person and a female crybaby.

Okay verse 2 finishes with the law of the leper pertaining to being cleansed. On the day of his cleansing, he is brought to the priest. Verse 3 states that the priest goes out of the camp and examines him to confirm healing took place. / (I will be using this to add side notes to avoid any confusion. It looks like lepers are cast out of camp and have to live by themselves. I think this was verified from the last chapter. What a sad and lonely life!)  Verses 4-5 state that on confirmation of the person being healed, the priest commands two living and clean birds, cedar wood, scarlet, and hyssop to be obtained. / (They all must have some symbolic representation.) Verse 5 says that one of the bird gets killed in an earthen vessel over running water. / (Wow, that's seems a little gruesome like not messing around here with this ritual.)  Verse 6 states the other bird gets dipped in the blood of the bird that was killed over running water along with the cedar wood, scarlet, and hyssop. / (It looks like to me that some symbolic form of redemption is taking place.) After that, verse 7 states the same blood gets sprinkled seven times who is to be cleansed and then is pronounced clean and the living bird becomes lucky and sent off into the wild. / (Imagine the birds being used were the pope's doves. In one iconic scene of the media, the pope sent off doves to go freely into the wild probably from secretly being annoyed of them but they didn't want to fly away. It's nothing like home sweet home! All of this description of a ritual took up one paragraph which took five minutes to write up and could be even faster if the priest rushes it. The number seven also means God! God is represented in the Bible with the number seven which means perfection. Man is represented with 6 for imperfection. The anti-christ is given the number 666. The New Testament states that only three things remain: faith, hope, and love. Man is imperfect in those qualities.)

Verse 8 states that in addition, the person who is to be cleansed of leprosy takes a bath, does laundry, and shaves off every hair all around the body. /(Imagine being hairy or seeing hair in the weirdest places of the body, especially for the girls!) After that, he stays outside the camp for another seven days. / (God gets to have His way here, I guess.) Verse 9 on the seventh day after that, the person now becomes fully hairless including the eyebrows and does laundry again. After that he's clean. / (Shaving the hair is probably just keeping away the contaminant germs, or that's what I'm presupposing with no medical knowledge of leprosy.) Verse 10 states on the eighth day, the cured person takes two male lambs without blemish, a ewe lamb without blemish, three-tenths of whatever an ephah means (4.8 gallons) of grain offering mixed oil, and a log of oil. / (Yummy!)

Verse 11 states the priest who made the person clean presents the person at the door of tabernacle of meeting to the Lord. Verse 12 states the priest uses a male lamb and offers it as trespass offering and does a wave offering with the log of oil before the Lord. / (It looks like the trespass offering and wave offering is some form of cleansing ritual that takes place before God allows a person to be cleansed.) Verse 13 states the priest kills the lamb in the place where sin offering and burnt offering is done in a holy place. One of the lambs is used to offer a sin offering and trespass offering for the priest! / (So yeah, God doesn't look at priests as being so holy and divine. He knows they sin too.) It is the most holy. Verse 14 states the priest takes some of the blood from the trespass offering and puts it on the right ear of the person to be cleansed, on the thumb of his right hand, and on the big toe of his right foot.

Embracing Conflict

I took a short introvert-extrovert personality test. The result that came out for me is that I'm an omni-vert. What that pretty much means is that I have the best of both qualities. I enjoy some peace and quiet and every now and then, I'm cool about socializing with others even though I need some people to approach me. It's only because I feel shy from being shorter than others. If this wasn't the case, I would probably be trying something since my childhood era!

An extrovert is comfortable with conflict. With that being plain said, I'm also an extrovert and introvert at the same time, so I feel very confident about people being bothered with me now!

My weakness is that I thought my strongest point was what was bothering people. It's actually a negative quality with me because I didn't notice that I was heavily annoyed to the borderline of being angry. You see, I've learned to keep my emotions in check even when stuff are making me so enraged. I put it out in the form of angry jokes that offends the people I'm annoyed with.

Learning to separate those angry feelings with others and doing the right thing in pushing forward with a more suitable state of mind has started to make me laugh about my past conduct and mistakes. I also think it's funny with how others treated me too in their speech. They are just words and said really out-loud in an angry voice. They are weaklings to me anyway and doing me a service with helping me becoming desensitized with people whose voices suck and should never aspire to be professional singers!

I'm cool with just about everybody now that I ever engaged in some type of conflict with. I still feel the angry, annoyed feeling where it wants to go out and start telling creative and offensive jokes about the person I'm not feeling good about. I'm just more aware of it and not choosing to go that route anymore. I prefer to be a much cooler and nicer person, just because it makes me happier and that's the direction I want to go now.

Funny Being Sad

I sometimes get these sad and sorrowful feelings from being around taller people. I just turn shy and keep to myself. I smile a lot on the outside though and try to look presentable and nice. This is why it's pretty funny!

I'm not really that attracted to taller women though because it makes me feel annoyed being shorter than her. Sometimes, I wish that things could work out and she would be a Christian and turn into a very cool wife. Well, there are shorter women out there and some of them are crazy enough to go along for the ride with just about anybody nice. It's probably easy for some guys to take advantage of them though, which is unfair and could cause some problems for me too in the long run.

Maybe learning to set aside my annoyances and trying to settle down with a taller, attractive, and more stable Christian woman might be better for me after all. Even if people think we are strange or humans to avoid making friends with, I guess if we have God in our lives then we can't really lose anyway!

I think the biggest thing I need to work on is being sure of myself. I don't think potential girlfriends want to be with a short man, no matter how sexy he is, if he's always anxious about stuff and can't handle his personal matters that well with some form of elegance.

After all, this is the reason why I'm working at becoming a millionaire and having a six pack. On top of being at the peak of my game, it would introduce a lot of benefits and also allow me to compete with other guys who are just naturally gifted at finding the woman they want. Well, if those guys do then it's a good thing and hats off to them. I'm not going to be jealous about that because some marriages end up disastrous anyway. I hope it becomes like something where I like this one girl so much and enamored about everything with her and she falls in love too and that other guys would not be so interested in her. It could seriously take awhile.

Missed Last Days

I guess I have been keeping myself busy. Let's see what I really want to do. I don't really want to just sit there and watch a lot of T.V. It wouldn't be that good for me. I do want to continue to work out, so I'm now going to add in a little bit of cooking and trying to attempt to make some healthy and delicious foods.

I have like ten books on cooking and recipes and never attempted to make any of those foods. I've probably tried reading through them at least once and that was it. I think it's a waste keeping those books in my shelf, and I did keep it there for a reason along with some of my hacking books.

My bookshelf is pretty much books about God, hacking, and cooking healthy and delicious food! For the longest time, I had this problem with sitting there and stressing out about stuff. It was really hard for me to stay relaxed and concentrate. I just wasn't sure of myself and had so much anxiety. I don't know how all of that fell out of me. Maybe, it's because I turned more dumb or something. I didn't do it through drinking nor drugs because that would have probably made things worse for me.

Hmm, I guess my dumb state of mind is something I could take advantage of by studying hard again. Oh yeah, I did get a couple 100% grades on my grad school courses. I think that was a major confidence booster. I haven't gone back to grad school after that because I'm onto something with learning to trade and dedicating myself to this cool job while working out and trying to get a very hot Christian wife.

Updating Trading Style

It seems like every time I talk about making profit on here, then all of a sudden it doesn't go so well for me. I think it's really all about the proper timing and that's something I'm just going to need to learn to have a better feel for somehow. It's just cool with keeping it simple and having fun doing this.

I pretty much rigged the coding of this program that is only supposed to be used for 10 pairs of currencies and fit in 24 pairs while adjusting the font size to barely legible. I put it all in alphabetical order so I could just analyze what I'm going to try to trade using just one screen. How about that? It's like a general bird's eye view before trying to go after making profit.

This is what my indicators look like now though and I'm just going to mess with it to see how I can maximize my profit. The only good thing about all this is that I'm learning for free by just putting my time into it. All of these indicators are files I acquired and have been outdated for awhile. Still, they appear to be pretty robust while fitting my trading style.