I literally see myself earning a lot of money from using the online world now. I don't envision myself running a website and trying to hustle people by selling products to provide some type of service like that. I prefer to be more of an investor, which is actually more riskier and has a lot more involved. I guess that's just how I've been rearing myself to go into.
I'm now seeing an opportunity with online poker. From playing all these years, it's not really that bad but just requires a lot of patience to become pretty good at it. Comparing to how people like to gamble in that game, it's just going to hit you occasionally with some crazy swings and not make you very profitable. The way I see it is that by using those user compensation points from playing at a normal casino level and being able to break even along with all those hours will contribute to income in the end.
I also plan on continuing to trade and go into later just investing my money. How I play with stocks and invest or play poker is making sure that I have a lot of wiggle room and exercising the utmost patience. It's easy to just want to go for big each time and make so much money at one time. It's not a very wise thing to do, and my best friend just doesn't seem to get it. He will invest most of his savings into something he really likes and hope it makes him happy later on.
The way I'm doing it is that I'm setting aside certain amount of funds that I'm comfortable with and then risking only 1% at a time. It seems to be better at keeping you in the game longer and giving you some valuable experience to work off of. If I end up doubling my money with that arrangement, then I know that I can put in more of my money and have a higher chance of making bigger gains. It also becomes a safer and much more comfortable route to get into.
Anyways, along with using the Internet to make myself a millionaire all in the name of enjoyment, I'm planning on continuing to stick with the Bible and working out at a gym. If I become a millionaire from what I have been doing someday then it's going to be a total game changer for me. I will have a lot more wiggle room to learn new things and travel around the world while contributing a good amount of cash to wonderful charities!
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
Tuesday, June 30, 2015
Sunday, June 28, 2015
Positive and Negative Energy
I'm now having a more fuller grasp of why I feel so out of control now. I understand that it's really basically about goal setting with the things I went to do and then sometimes not feeling so about going after them. It's more like my best friend would say is being in between everything. The emotion does not feel great and can lead a person to definitely a crazy or unwanted route. It's like setting yourself up for a vulnerable attack.
I think the important thing is to just be able to recognize it and then let it settle in as a part of you. I normally have a horrible action attached to those emotions, but I figure why settle for second best when you can go straight for the gold! "It's so hard, " says my best pal. I really hate it when he says that. I'm going to tell him that when I hear him say that again, I'm going to take two weeks off from him. He's sort of a loner and likes to be accommodating from enjoying company, so he'll change his ways fortunately if I do that to him. He's also going to be laughing about his mistake I pointed out to him for those two weeks. I also get to space myself out a little and chase after some cute girl, so in a way, it's a win-win situation for me!
The art of being so good with obtaining something has a lot to do with awesome time management. I'm noticing that for myself because I've been acing my grad school courses by getting 100% on one course and 99.9% on the other. I also finished my final paper early and it feels like I've had so much time to pass. I really enjoy that feeling and would like to continue that journey on my way to getting something going. In a nutshell, from reading on some jerk's site, the jerk really has a point in that you can keep away from your normal addictions while feeling negative and be more desperate and hard-working for obtaining a goal that you want to achieve. I'm also going to do that, not that I have many interests with being a jerk. I'm like that to a few people I want to be pushovers with, but I'm realizing being a psycho to them is about getting something positive out of it, so why not to begin with?
I think the important thing is to just be able to recognize it and then let it settle in as a part of you. I normally have a horrible action attached to those emotions, but I figure why settle for second best when you can go straight for the gold! "It's so hard, " says my best pal. I really hate it when he says that. I'm going to tell him that when I hear him say that again, I'm going to take two weeks off from him. He's sort of a loner and likes to be accommodating from enjoying company, so he'll change his ways fortunately if I do that to him. He's also going to be laughing about his mistake I pointed out to him for those two weeks. I also get to space myself out a little and chase after some cute girl, so in a way, it's a win-win situation for me!
The art of being so good with obtaining something has a lot to do with awesome time management. I'm noticing that for myself because I've been acing my grad school courses by getting 100% on one course and 99.9% on the other. I also finished my final paper early and it feels like I've had so much time to pass. I really enjoy that feeling and would like to continue that journey on my way to getting something going. In a nutshell, from reading on some jerk's site, the jerk really has a point in that you can keep away from your normal addictions while feeling negative and be more desperate and hard-working for obtaining a goal that you want to achieve. I'm also going to do that, not that I have many interests with being a jerk. I'm like that to a few people I want to be pushovers with, but I'm realizing being a psycho to them is about getting something positive out of it, so why not to begin with?
Sunday, June 21, 2015
Goals To Share
My ultimate goal is to practically obtain a six pack and become a millionaire.
I'm setting aside my daily life for Bible worship, working out, playing poker and doing day trades, and trying to manage my hair loss! Along with that, I'm focusing on personal side projects whenever I can commit myself to not being distracted from being angry about people in my past. Anyway, I'm pretty happy overall as a person so far.
The person is practically an idiot if he or she gets me mad and that's how I feel now. I guess I'm living up to jokes and honesty for the most part with interpersonal relationships.
I'm setting aside my daily life for Bible worship, working out, playing poker and doing day trades, and trying to manage my hair loss! Along with that, I'm focusing on personal side projects whenever I can commit myself to not being distracted from being angry about people in my past. Anyway, I'm pretty happy overall as a person so far.
The person is practically an idiot if he or she gets me mad and that's how I feel now. I guess I'm living up to jokes and honesty for the most part with interpersonal relationships.
Reaching Strong Goals
I'm simplifying it again. My biggest weakness is getting carried away emotionally. I can be taken back by feeling negative emotions and then doing crazy stuff because of it. I don't look to drugs nor alcohol as an outlet, but mainly it seems like those feelings come from how I perceive myself in this physical world and from not having the desires that I want. It's practically an age old question that I never seriously tried to address for myself.
From making some progress these days, I have a primary church that I go to be fed the Word and to have great fellowship with everyone. I might join in a secondary church to just go socialize with doing some religious, Christian activity that nobody really wants to do like witnessing to people on the street and messing around with other believers and maybe pick up a beautiful and loving wife. I guess I can go for that then and I think it makes sense even though my reasons might offend some people at the secondary churches. What can I do really, I can't help it?
There's really nothing for me at the church with the former restraining order girl, except for faces that I want to seduce for my own glory! I'll be seriously messing around with them and act like I'm tossing things around and kicking stuff and pretending to be a drunkard who doesn't care about what's going on in the world. I'll probably start acting that way and yelling at the preacher there too. It sounds like a fun deal, just that I made a promise to them that I have to keep. In other words, I'm limiting myself to stalking them by focusing on a more important goal I have in mind.
I guess I have to start asking this question when I see a Korean girl who attends a church and I know that she's not really dating anyone or even if she is, I have to ask this question to myself and take my time with addressing it, "Can I single her out and be someone I can love for the rest of my life?" In other words, I need to ask myself if her inner qualities are attractive to me. I guess that will do a lot of filtering for me then in finding the right person. I try hard sometimes and I don't know how well I'm doing but looking back, yeah, I could have been pretty successful with landing a cute wife, even though I didn't know she was that good looking at the time.
From making some progress these days, I have a primary church that I go to be fed the Word and to have great fellowship with everyone. I might join in a secondary church to just go socialize with doing some religious, Christian activity that nobody really wants to do like witnessing to people on the street and messing around with other believers and maybe pick up a beautiful and loving wife. I guess I can go for that then and I think it makes sense even though my reasons might offend some people at the secondary churches. What can I do really, I can't help it?
There's really nothing for me at the church with the former restraining order girl, except for faces that I want to seduce for my own glory! I'll be seriously messing around with them and act like I'm tossing things around and kicking stuff and pretending to be a drunkard who doesn't care about what's going on in the world. I'll probably start acting that way and yelling at the preacher there too. It sounds like a fun deal, just that I made a promise to them that I have to keep. In other words, I'm limiting myself to stalking them by focusing on a more important goal I have in mind.
I guess I have to start asking this question when I see a Korean girl who attends a church and I know that she's not really dating anyone or even if she is, I have to ask this question to myself and take my time with addressing it, "Can I single her out and be someone I can love for the rest of my life?" In other words, I need to ask myself if her inner qualities are attractive to me. I guess that will do a lot of filtering for me then in finding the right person. I try hard sometimes and I don't know how well I'm doing but looking back, yeah, I could have been pretty successful with landing a cute wife, even though I didn't know she was that good looking at the time.
Happy Father's Day
Well hello there! I'm thinking about online dating. The most common response for a man when he tries to message a pretty girl is getting back nothing!
The Bible says to abide in the Father by adhering faithfully to the Word. This includes reading the Bible and obeying the Word to stay in constant fellowship, thanks to our forgiveness which comes from believing upon Jesus. A Bible verse says to ask and that you shall receive. Another says to knock and that the door will be opened. In other words, it's going to happen eventually anyways if you keep on asking and knocking! Why not stay steadfast in the Lord while doing that to obtain your needs?
What I'm saying is that I think the most effective way is to sort of be smart about it and sort of get enough information with what the girl likes and if you see a godly future with her and maybe you can pick her above everyone else then ask her out! A common response will be I'm too busy. I have got this a lot too, "Let me think about it" from pursuing her a little further. This is considering that you are doing this in person with the woman. When it comes to online dating, expect to not get back a response but at least you tried and didn't get your heart broken. Actually, I have a friend who feels like his heart is already broken when stuff like that happens. Umm, it's bad for your ego if you are a guy but who knows really? Maybe the match that you end up loving will be someone you never expected in the first place. I think the most important quality is never giving up and settling for a positive outcome no matter what you did in the past. I was psychotic, weird, oblivious, offensive, and a stalker to some people in the past. I didn't really like the people that much with whom I did that too. With the girl I like, I just practically leave her alone. See the difference already?
Actually, I haven't found a girl who has swept me off my feet for the longest time. I think my strongest crush in high school felt scandalous for me because she was a white girl! She's my good friend on Facebook now, so not a bad constellation prize. I also had a crush on this Korean girl, but really hated her personality so I bailed on out of there. She's also my friend on Facebook too. Both of those attractive ladies added me first, so haha I get the last laugh!
The Bible says to abide in the Father by adhering faithfully to the Word. This includes reading the Bible and obeying the Word to stay in constant fellowship, thanks to our forgiveness which comes from believing upon Jesus. A Bible verse says to ask and that you shall receive. Another says to knock and that the door will be opened. In other words, it's going to happen eventually anyways if you keep on asking and knocking! Why not stay steadfast in the Lord while doing that to obtain your needs?
What I'm saying is that I think the most effective way is to sort of be smart about it and sort of get enough information with what the girl likes and if you see a godly future with her and maybe you can pick her above everyone else then ask her out! A common response will be I'm too busy. I have got this a lot too, "Let me think about it" from pursuing her a little further. This is considering that you are doing this in person with the woman. When it comes to online dating, expect to not get back a response but at least you tried and didn't get your heart broken. Actually, I have a friend who feels like his heart is already broken when stuff like that happens. Umm, it's bad for your ego if you are a guy but who knows really? Maybe the match that you end up loving will be someone you never expected in the first place. I think the most important quality is never giving up and settling for a positive outcome no matter what you did in the past. I was psychotic, weird, oblivious, offensive, and a stalker to some people in the past. I didn't really like the people that much with whom I did that too. With the girl I like, I just practically leave her alone. See the difference already?
Actually, I haven't found a girl who has swept me off my feet for the longest time. I think my strongest crush in high school felt scandalous for me because she was a white girl! She's my good friend on Facebook now, so not a bad constellation prize. I also had a crush on this Korean girl, but really hated her personality so I bailed on out of there. She's also my friend on Facebook too. Both of those attractive ladies added me first, so haha I get the last laugh!
Friday, June 19, 2015
Summing Up My Intentions With Former Restraining Order Girl
This one is pretty much the last batch of my crazy e-mails. I have been getting kick out of them so much, and Lee hasn't responded by trying to get me kicked off the site nor has she continued any further activity. I pretty much owned her in one area of her life while using words as a weapon.
I even went psychotic with her in real life for one time. It wasn't physical abuse nor emotional abuse nor any in between. That's how smart I am man. I made an impact after like five years of lying in wait and hiding out in the wilderness of some sort. It's not a good idea to put a restraining order on someone, who you don't really understand too well and while feeling like you can't stand the person being around you anymore. That's the lesson I learned from someone doing that to me. I know someone and I have been dealing with him by actually being witty and fair too, like I would add him as a friend if he ever wanted me on a social media site. I just plain don't care what people think, if I did. Like in South Park, was it Kyle or Stan? Either one of them accepted an outcast on Facebook and he was the loner's only friend. The outcast ended up making other people uncomfortable from the friendship, so Kyle or Stan started losing friends much to his annoyance. Like that, I still wouldn't care and be up in everybody's faces and probably influence a lot of people to enter into some professional counseling.
This one is titled "Re: ". Okay, it's a response to how I said I would leave her alone if she said stop. This message can be very scary, if you have something against me so be warned. I mean, why would you even read my blog if you had something against me? I was sort of breaking the fourth wall. Is that what they say? No, this is real life.
That's actually wrong. If you tell me to stop bugging you, it's a lie. I'm still going to bother the heck out of you. Go for another restraining order then because this time I'm going to make fun of you in court at the hearing and live it out like it's going to be my last day ever seeing your idiotic self near my face!
I'm not violating a restraining order. That's no lie, I did it to your for your stupid personality.
I actually want Chai to add me as a buddy on g-mail so I can hound him with bothersome messages.
I want you to add me as a friend on Facebook, so I just have bragging rights. I don't need to comment on your boring and stupid and weird comments just from feeling that way because you will always put me in that mood.
If you are too uncomfortable and Chai is willing to negotiate our thing, it's way too important than having a Facebook relationship with you. You are too ugly in general in the person for anyone to be around anyway. I don't care what others think or say about you. It's never going to be 1 million people who feel that way about you. You are a loser! So add me again, loser, she who is a bad judge of character. Why did you add me in the beginning then stupid? You are going to deny it or say that's irrelevant? Then why did you add me as a friend on Facebook and end up blocking me. You have a bad judge of character. I want you as a friend, so I know you are bothered. Plain simple!
I even went psychotic with her in real life for one time. It wasn't physical abuse nor emotional abuse nor any in between. That's how smart I am man. I made an impact after like five years of lying in wait and hiding out in the wilderness of some sort. It's not a good idea to put a restraining order on someone, who you don't really understand too well and while feeling like you can't stand the person being around you anymore. That's the lesson I learned from someone doing that to me. I know someone and I have been dealing with him by actually being witty and fair too, like I would add him as a friend if he ever wanted me on a social media site. I just plain don't care what people think, if I did. Like in South Park, was it Kyle or Stan? Either one of them accepted an outcast on Facebook and he was the loner's only friend. The outcast ended up making other people uncomfortable from the friendship, so Kyle or Stan started losing friends much to his annoyance. Like that, I still wouldn't care and be up in everybody's faces and probably influence a lot of people to enter into some professional counseling.
This one is titled "Re: ". Okay, it's a response to how I said I would leave her alone if she said stop. This message can be very scary, if you have something against me so be warned. I mean, why would you even read my blog if you had something against me? I was sort of breaking the fourth wall. Is that what they say? No, this is real life.
That's actually wrong. If you tell me to stop bugging you, it's a lie. I'm still going to bother the heck out of you. Go for another restraining order then because this time I'm going to make fun of you in court at the hearing and live it out like it's going to be my last day ever seeing your idiotic self near my face!
I'm not violating a restraining order. That's no lie, I did it to your for your stupid personality.
I actually want Chai to add me as a buddy on g-mail so I can hound him with bothersome messages.
I want you to add me as a friend on Facebook, so I just have bragging rights. I don't need to comment on your boring and stupid and weird comments just from feeling that way because you will always put me in that mood.
If you are too uncomfortable and Chai is willing to negotiate our thing, it's way too important than having a Facebook relationship with you. You are too ugly in general in the person for anyone to be around anyway. I don't care what others think or say about you. It's never going to be 1 million people who feel that way about you. You are a loser! So add me again, loser, she who is a bad judge of character. Why did you add me in the beginning then stupid? You are going to deny it or say that's irrelevant? Then why did you add me as a friend on Facebook and end up blocking me. You have a bad judge of character. I want you as a friend, so I know you are bothered. Plain simple!
Dangerous Plan For Girl With Former Restraining Order
This message is crazy and going to have your head spinning, but the insults are really well woven to decrease Lee's sense of worth. It really strengthens my resolve to lower her social status to like a Class D from Class C-. Something tells me that Lee is sort of feeling wish washy about sticking around that church, or that maybe she's gone for longer periods of time now. I think she's always going to visit from feeling like it's a place of home. I pretty much crippled her imaginatively speaking in a way like how it turned out with Jacob wrestling God. I messed with her wishbone because she made me so angry basically. I don't think she's going to be walking this world feeling the same way, but I think she could revert back to a status that's designed to scare me practically. Yeah, she and everybody siding with her and are against me lost.
This one is titled "My True Plans".
Are you reading this? It's not going to do you any good because you are going to be helpless. It only takes me a minute to write this. I'm planning on disrupting the service by harassing Chai before he goes to speak and maybe before worshiping begins and then leaving before the cops arrive. If the cops are there beforehand, I'm not interacting with them and just leaving. No attempt needed, my job is finished for the week until you guys don't exist anymore! Reason is I'll be bored having to wait that long.
Let Chai know that he has something coming and let Golf know too. If someone else besides them is the senior pastor, I have no business being there and don't care to pursue the relationship of me bullying them around on g-mail! Same goes for you too, if you aren't at the church, I'll do the same for you. You can go for a second restraining order. That's sort of what I want so I can make fun of you in court and laugh about it while feeling like you are a helpless little girl.
These are all happening if I can become a self-made millionaire and a obtain a six-pack. Yeah, there's enough reasoning for you to have a hidden crush on me. I'm smart enough to figure that out. Also my two profile pics on yelp are pretty cute, and I know that you would feel that way.
This one is titled "My True Plans".
Are you reading this? It's not going to do you any good because you are going to be helpless. It only takes me a minute to write this. I'm planning on disrupting the service by harassing Chai before he goes to speak and maybe before worshiping begins and then leaving before the cops arrive. If the cops are there beforehand, I'm not interacting with them and just leaving. No attempt needed, my job is finished for the week until you guys don't exist anymore! Reason is I'll be bored having to wait that long.
Let Chai know that he has something coming and let Golf know too. If someone else besides them is the senior pastor, I have no business being there and don't care to pursue the relationship of me bullying them around on g-mail! Same goes for you too, if you aren't at the church, I'll do the same for you. You can go for a second restraining order. That's sort of what I want so I can make fun of you in court and laugh about it while feeling like you are a helpless little girl.
These are all happening if I can become a self-made millionaire and a obtain a six-pack. Yeah, there's enough reasoning for you to have a hidden crush on me. I'm smart enough to figure that out. Also my two profile pics on yelp are pretty cute, and I know that you would feel that way.
Very Nasty Message To Girl With Former Restraining Order
This message is delivered so cut, clean, and heartless. It really makes sense too.
This one is titled "Trespassing Laws".
Put up a sign saying no trespassing. A church that has that sign? Hmm, that's funny to begin with and so weird. Why should a person go that church in the first place? I won't bother to go in.
Secondly, get the church out of debt and signed in some owner's name. The owner says no, I can't go in. Wow, that's so funny. A church doesn't want me to be there. It's also pretty weird for like the whole world to go there anyway. I won't go in then.
There's two ways. I read the law. I'm not breaking and entering by showing up during the Service hours sign. You guys are so stupid and ignorant to the law to begin with. I guess I'll be yelling out your absurdities with the law when I show up someday, unless you guys move out and go to another location. That's funny too.
You are so stupid for not being able to extend the restraining order. I think that's all there is for you in going after a repeat. I don't care. I'll voluntarily drop off the address and give it to the police and tell them that I told you guys that I gave it voluntarily and that I'll be waiting for the trial date so I can still make fun of everyone there and start laughing the whole time.
It was never serious to begin with and it will always be that way.
This one is titled "Trespassing Laws".
Put up a sign saying no trespassing. A church that has that sign? Hmm, that's funny to begin with and so weird. Why should a person go that church in the first place? I won't bother to go in.
Secondly, get the church out of debt and signed in some owner's name. The owner says no, I can't go in. Wow, that's so funny. A church doesn't want me to be there. It's also pretty weird for like the whole world to go there anyway. I won't go in then.
There's two ways. I read the law. I'm not breaking and entering by showing up during the Service hours sign. You guys are so stupid and ignorant to the law to begin with. I guess I'll be yelling out your absurdities with the law when I show up someday, unless you guys move out and go to another location. That's funny too.
You are so stupid for not being able to extend the restraining order. I think that's all there is for you in going after a repeat. I don't care. I'll voluntarily drop off the address and give it to the police and tell them that I told you guys that I gave it voluntarily and that I'll be waiting for the trial date so I can still make fun of everyone there and start laughing the whole time.
It was never serious to begin with and it will always be that way.
More Obscene Messages To Girl With Former Restraining Order
This one was titled "Suck It!" Yeah I know, Degeneration X was very degenerative indeed and such a negative influence.
You are an ignoranus. You can force me to abide, but you never shall have my heart. It was never serious to begin with and that will haunt you forever!
These are angry messages man. They are not weak; they just go straight for penetrating the target while making me laugh and for others too. I become a pretty smart guy for some reason when I'm so mad and you have given me enough time to prepare.
This one is titled, "Hi Miss Idiot!"
How's it going idiot? You can't tell that I mean you know harm and that I was absolutely ticked off with you. You are stupid because I'm good at hiding behind my words. You couldn't even tell that this doesn't really mean anything and is not a big deal. It never was. You are a very stupid individual and I don't care now how bothered you get!
You are an ignoranus. You can force me to abide, but you never shall have my heart. It was never serious to begin with and that will haunt you forever!
These are angry messages man. They are not weak; they just go straight for penetrating the target while making me laugh and for others too. I become a pretty smart guy for some reason when I'm so mad and you have given me enough time to prepare.
This one is titled, "Hi Miss Idiot!"
How's it going idiot? You can't tell that I mean you know harm and that I was absolutely ticked off with you. You are stupid because I'm good at hiding behind my words. You couldn't even tell that this doesn't really mean anything and is not a big deal. It never was. You are a very stupid individual and I don't care now how bothered you get!
Letter to Girl With Former Restraining Order (1st One)
I'm reading my messages I sent to Lee (the girl with former court R.O.) and laughing hysterically. I'm going to share it with the whole wide world on this blog. I think this is the time for people to like disengage and demote this site with a nasty reputation because I'm not slandering her. I'm just making her look stupid in writing and shutting down her online activities.
This is how the message goes word for word. I didn't know that I can be very funny and witty while being angry and obsessed about something. It looks like I have an angry tone that's just very snappy and stuns you.
Dated a month ago:
A girl with former restraining order adds me back on Facebook. How does that sound? It sounds good with a nice ring to it, while you look even more stupid.
I don't care what your issues are now. I can even show how to keep my messages from popping up while keeping me as a Facebook friend. Want me to bother your people at the church? It's all because of your stupidity! You couldn't even extend the restraining order. Go for another one, then! Do it, I'll make you and while you are so agitated and frustrated and living out your moment, I'll live out mine. You going to have a baby? That's fine, have fun introducing more sin into the world.
You are very stupid, and I don't care now what problems you have with me. They are not my concern- they are yours. Go see a professional therapist to manage your feelings that annoy you so much! Please don't leave Hope of God LA unless you guys switch locations. I'm cool with that because the place you guys are at reek like no yesterday with other traditional, Catholic churches that don't know you guys exist.
I don't care what your issues are now. I can even show how to keep my messages from popping up while keeping me as a Facebook friend. Want me to bother your people at the church? It's all because of your stupidity! You couldn't even extend the restraining order. Go for another one, then! Do it, I'll make you and while you are so agitated and frustrated and living out your moment, I'll live out mine. You going to have a baby? That's fine, have fun introducing more sin into the world.
You are very stupid, and I don't care now what problems you have with me. They are not my concern- they are yours. Go see a professional therapist to manage your feelings that annoy you so much! Please don't leave Hope of God LA unless you guys switch locations. I'm cool with that because the place you guys are at reek like no yesterday with other traditional, Catholic churches that don't know you guys exist.
My Psychotic Plans
I'm a weird person who laughs about how short and crazy I am to unsuspecting people. I am also laughing at how silly I look as a person, too. Actually not, I look pretty intimidating and border line psycho path. I can actually switch it back and forth, depending on my mood. I think all of that is funny to talk about.
I used to worry about the cops being on my tail. Not anymore, I don't want them to pull me over for speeding in my mustang convertible. That's about it! I'm still moody and it really picks up my confidence level with successfully being a meanie to my friends who put a restraining order on me. Notice how I said the word, friends. Oh really? Yes, I plan on being a super mean friend to them. Notice how I used the word friend again. They are a bunch of idiots that I don't mind putting another of those restraining orders on me again. I'll go stalk them for all I care and be like nah, she's not worth it and then leave while in the motion. I want to be like the most annoying person in the world that people can laugh about at my victims' expense.
Yes, I find that to be extremely comforting and pleasing and making me very happy and proud of my life. Okay, I just have that confidence to screw over people now and forcing them to be my friends, whether they like it or not. If I was the girl, I would leave the church because then I win. Either way, she lost. I won even with a default restraining order on me saying that she gets three years because I didn't challenge it. How? I'm happy I didn't get to see her ugly face for all those years and had encouragement to find something better. If I show up to where she's at which is at that church, I am totally kicking their tails when it comes to legal issues and also forcing them to be highly generous people with me. If she leaves, then her purpose of getting a restraining order becomes ineffective and something I get to show off about.
My haunch is usually right or wrong and goes against me when I feel it won't. When I feel something is right, it doesn't go that way. It's hard to gauge what I feel about the girl because either direction is both good for me. It's pretty much a landslide victory already. I'm living the way I want to live even right now and actually pretty happy about it, so it can't be that bad for me already. It's like any action the person does to try to offend me, it doesn't work because I have something better up my sleeve. For all responses, it's going to turn out good for me. The only thing that they can do to try to make my life difficult in all that massive bubbliness and positivity is making me take the hardest and longest path. That's pretty much their only logical direction for them to go. It's like playing a game and delaying their loss, while hoping something will turn around and give them fortune again. That's how I see life in dealing with drama and I'm so good at making myself happy over being successful in managing it.
I used to worry about the cops being on my tail. Not anymore, I don't want them to pull me over for speeding in my mustang convertible. That's about it! I'm still moody and it really picks up my confidence level with successfully being a meanie to my friends who put a restraining order on me. Notice how I said the word, friends. Oh really? Yes, I plan on being a super mean friend to them. Notice how I used the word friend again. They are a bunch of idiots that I don't mind putting another of those restraining orders on me again. I'll go stalk them for all I care and be like nah, she's not worth it and then leave while in the motion. I want to be like the most annoying person in the world that people can laugh about at my victims' expense.
Yes, I find that to be extremely comforting and pleasing and making me very happy and proud of my life. Okay, I just have that confidence to screw over people now and forcing them to be my friends, whether they like it or not. If I was the girl, I would leave the church because then I win. Either way, she lost. I won even with a default restraining order on me saying that she gets three years because I didn't challenge it. How? I'm happy I didn't get to see her ugly face for all those years and had encouragement to find something better. If I show up to where she's at which is at that church, I am totally kicking their tails when it comes to legal issues and also forcing them to be highly generous people with me. If she leaves, then her purpose of getting a restraining order becomes ineffective and something I get to show off about.
My haunch is usually right or wrong and goes against me when I feel it won't. When I feel something is right, it doesn't go that way. It's hard to gauge what I feel about the girl because either direction is both good for me. It's pretty much a landslide victory already. I'm living the way I want to live even right now and actually pretty happy about it, so it can't be that bad for me already. It's like any action the person does to try to offend me, it doesn't work because I have something better up my sleeve. For all responses, it's going to turn out good for me. The only thing that they can do to try to make my life difficult in all that massive bubbliness and positivity is making me take the hardest and longest path. That's pretty much their only logical direction for them to go. It's like playing a game and delaying their loss, while hoping something will turn around and give them fortune again. That's how I see life in dealing with drama and I'm so good at making myself happy over being successful in managing it.
Thursday, June 18, 2015
Reason Why I Turn Cuckoo
It's mainly one reason: from being mad. I can finally justify that's the reason why I have been crazy all these years. The reason why I haven't gone to jail for killing someone or being disruptive in public is because my subconscious likes to be positive. If I don't have that peacefulness underneath my core then I get depressed and feel lost. From taking a personality test, it's something I was just born with.
I was just born with wanting to be nice and also having great relationships with everybody. This isn't how the real world is. Some want to just do selfish things because maybe they think there's really no other option or just think it's something to feel proud about accomplishing. I'm now noticing that my brain likes to think about stuff that I have been struggling with while working on things that I'm not too fond of. It must be some sort of defense mechanism to keep myself from becoming too bored.
When I go crazy with someone, underneath I still want them to be friends with me even if I'm going to force it upon them. I'm starting to believe that it doesn't matter how much of psycho I am to someone who can't stand me because I'm about wanting them to do something positive by making me happy. If they can't do that and would feel like dying or something if they went with my plan of just being casual friends who meet up once in a blue moon, then they seriously need some professional counseling.
I really understand that it's not really about centering on the problem, but understanding the bigger picture. I want something positive to result out of the moment, so that's why I have been ticking the way I have been. Overall, it's a lot of hard work that I'm starting to understand and enjoy more often than not.
I was just born with wanting to be nice and also having great relationships with everybody. This isn't how the real world is. Some want to just do selfish things because maybe they think there's really no other option or just think it's something to feel proud about accomplishing. I'm now noticing that my brain likes to think about stuff that I have been struggling with while working on things that I'm not too fond of. It must be some sort of defense mechanism to keep myself from becoming too bored.
When I go crazy with someone, underneath I still want them to be friends with me even if I'm going to force it upon them. I'm starting to believe that it doesn't matter how much of psycho I am to someone who can't stand me because I'm about wanting them to do something positive by making me happy. If they can't do that and would feel like dying or something if they went with my plan of just being casual friends who meet up once in a blue moon, then they seriously need some professional counseling.
I really understand that it's not really about centering on the problem, but understanding the bigger picture. I want something positive to result out of the moment, so that's why I have been ticking the way I have been. Overall, it's a lot of hard work that I'm starting to understand and enjoy more often than not.
Ambitious Goals
Well, I'm on a Christian dating site now. I'm trying to see if there's really anyone I'm interested in feeling the same way for me. I guess that's pretty hard and going to take a long time, wherever I decide to go, oh well.
In the meantime, I'll put in all the effort I can as best as possible. I don't really care about messing up, being rejected, or being around a lot of nonsense. I'm actually quite used to it for being a not so good looking fellow and short too. I'm just going to walk with a air of confidence and positiveness, wherever I go now. If I get angry or turn into a psycho, it's because I want to be positive in the end which no one is going to understand me for anyway.
Okay, so I want to have constant fellowship with God, while being obedient to His ways and be a rather productive fellow doing the things that I enjoy. Right now I'm thinking about how having a wife could solely benefit me for only one purpose. Maybe there's actually more to it and I'm starting to feel less uncomfortable about dating taller women, the more I work out and physically stronger I feel. It must be that strong hormone that relaxes my body after giving myself a nice and hard workout.
I'm going to try to work out twice a day then and keep it just moderate and not super hard. I just like the feeling of struggling with something and then finishing it through, rather I fail excessively or not. I'll just pick myself back up and try again the next day. I don't really mind everything now that I think of it. I think the main trick is pretty much just looking at yourself from a third-person perspective and visualizing what you are about to do and distancing yourself from the now part and looking at it for the future. I think that's the trick for managing time better and not regretting situations.
In the meantime, I'll put in all the effort I can as best as possible. I don't really care about messing up, being rejected, or being around a lot of nonsense. I'm actually quite used to it for being a not so good looking fellow and short too. I'm just going to walk with a air of confidence and positiveness, wherever I go now. If I get angry or turn into a psycho, it's because I want to be positive in the end which no one is going to understand me for anyway.
Okay, so I want to have constant fellowship with God, while being obedient to His ways and be a rather productive fellow doing the things that I enjoy. Right now I'm thinking about how having a wife could solely benefit me for only one purpose. Maybe there's actually more to it and I'm starting to feel less uncomfortable about dating taller women, the more I work out and physically stronger I feel. It must be that strong hormone that relaxes my body after giving myself a nice and hard workout.
I'm going to try to work out twice a day then and keep it just moderate and not super hard. I just like the feeling of struggling with something and then finishing it through, rather I fail excessively or not. I'll just pick myself back up and try again the next day. I don't really mind everything now that I think of it. I think the main trick is pretty much just looking at yourself from a third-person perspective and visualizing what you are about to do and distancing yourself from the now part and looking at it for the future. I think that's the trick for managing time better and not regretting situations.
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Good Times
Being an absolute true Christian and wanting to abide everything that the Bible says is such a small percentage. Sure, we have believers in this world, but it seems like these days, more are combining the elements of being selfishly happy with what Jesus has done for us on the cross. I'm starting to think that being lonely is not a very smart thing to feel. Because of my faith in the Lord, I feel a constant happiness that will carry me even to the grave. I think because of Christ's unfailing love, Jesus will actually permit those believers to be washed away of their sins, the moment they decide to confess it.
I'm not saying that it's okay to continue sinning. We shouldn't and should be about repenting while taking an active approach of finding out what's wrong about us, but I don't think everybody is willing to do that all the time. We physically and mentally can't because there are a lot of other drama out there that we might have to deal with. The Bible verse says the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.
I'm starting to be forgiving of others for their selfishness, and I see mine too. Ideally, going the path of the Lord is probably done by not that many in this world. I just want to go that route because of my joy for the Lord, and it's nothing else.
Man, my problems have actually been pretty funny but I think the solution that I have to come up with will be a universally sound one that fits into the equation of the Lord. In other words, it's sort of weeding out the bad paths already. I guess being short and not well recognized gives me an opportunity to spiritually grow in my walk with Jesus. I am sustained with gladness and joy because of him. Making money is just doing the extra stuff to try to get by and for earning myself an early retirement!
I'm not saying that it's okay to continue sinning. We shouldn't and should be about repenting while taking an active approach of finding out what's wrong about us, but I don't think everybody is willing to do that all the time. We physically and mentally can't because there are a lot of other drama out there that we might have to deal with. The Bible verse says the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.
I'm starting to be forgiving of others for their selfishness, and I see mine too. Ideally, going the path of the Lord is probably done by not that many in this world. I just want to go that route because of my joy for the Lord, and it's nothing else.
Man, my problems have actually been pretty funny but I think the solution that I have to come up with will be a universally sound one that fits into the equation of the Lord. In other words, it's sort of weeding out the bad paths already. I guess being short and not well recognized gives me an opportunity to spiritually grow in my walk with Jesus. I am sustained with gladness and joy because of him. Making money is just doing the extra stuff to try to get by and for earning myself an early retirement!
Christian Dating
Okay, I might have inner qualities that make up a decent person to be with, but still I would have to continuously work at it to have a good life with someone. I am pretty short and not that great looking. People don't really laugh at my comments, when I'm intending to be funny. I get responses here and there, but never really close any deals.
It just makes sense for people, including myself, to be selfish and some of them do get to live pretty fortunate lives. It's not everybody that gets to have the happily ever tale in life. That's what life is all about. I guess the concern should then be what I could do to make the most out of life, and it could also be the how part.
I have developed an aversion to my anger issues in the past, but feel like giving into them again. What really ticks me off is when a person responds pretty rude to me and also in general, I think I need to take a very active role in life with someone if I want to get good results. I think being honest is like the hardest thing to do, even while being angry. Accepting challenges and going after uncomfortable things for trying to obtain a greater good is something people should do. If I'm in position to advance, the smarter thing would be for me to go get it.
Tuesday, June 16, 2015
Elements of Success
What I notice for myself is two main ingredients: drive and skill. For the drive, you need to have the willpower to keep on plowing through when things feel really bleak and grim. Often times, it's so easy to just doubt yourself on going some path that interests you so much and become bored of it. I think it's easy to just feel bummed out after going after something that you tried so hard for and then developing this vicious cycle of not expecting much out of it the next time. Therefore, you just don't keep on giving it all you got.
My best friend's brother has had this conquest of going around to touch women in a carnal manner. Family members are actually aggravated by his stupidity and also feel sad for him at the same time. It was just one selfish act at a very young age that led to his brain's demise. This act also has played a role in turning my best friend into a concerned type, which leads him to bail out in certain situations. The best friend has given himself a green light in the past, but hated those experiences, so he's never going to be convinced with doing something, but I believe God can turn it around. Nothing can surpass God, if He is in with changing your life for His glory.
Anyhow, the brother has never given up and kept on going. It turned into some sort of obsession for him, and he basically shows off about it with us. I've been telling him recently after five years of listening to his nonsense that he's the one who is doing the action and not the women giving him the action that he craves. He doesn't really show off so much about it anymore because it's just so much of a witty comment that rips his heart in two. You just have to outsmart him by saying something more wittier and that is something I'm pretty good at, if you give me like five years to figure it out. My best buddy can't do it so well and just lets the aggravation get to him and start laying the blame on him. The fact that the brother had the drive allowed him to show off to us about how he developed some skills to maintain a little bit of attention with unsuspecting young women! He even took photos with a girl and talks about his favorite conquest of doing everything he could imagine with just one girl. However, my witty comment just crushes his moments of showing off and he began to accept it and reply with, "So what?"
Anyway, the brother seems pretty happy with the things he is doing even though I don't agree with him morally. The fact that he likes to show off is where I really stick it to him with comments that get him to calm down. He can't really make so much fun of me anymore because I play dirty with him too.
I'm really feeling worn down each night I come home from work. The nice living room is just alluring with the beautiful backdrop to just lie there and enjoy yourself. When I go to my room, I'm just filled with complex thoughts of playing my heart out until my exhaustion kicks in. It's something I'm trying hard to deal with right now. Will I turn into some workaholic? I don't ever think so because I don't want to work. I want to become rich and enjoy myself for all the days of my life. To get there, I need to put in my time and go through the excess of ups and downs and making mistakes and feeling lonely and sad or angry with myself. The vulnerable feeling that kicks in is like an excuse to go have my fun of familiar addictions. The thing about it is that if I do it too much, I start feeling like it's an empty route and that I need to clean up. It's pretty much an off and on thing for me.
My best friend's brother has had this conquest of going around to touch women in a carnal manner. Family members are actually aggravated by his stupidity and also feel sad for him at the same time. It was just one selfish act at a very young age that led to his brain's demise. This act also has played a role in turning my best friend into a concerned type, which leads him to bail out in certain situations. The best friend has given himself a green light in the past, but hated those experiences, so he's never going to be convinced with doing something, but I believe God can turn it around. Nothing can surpass God, if He is in with changing your life for His glory.
Anyhow, the brother has never given up and kept on going. It turned into some sort of obsession for him, and he basically shows off about it with us. I've been telling him recently after five years of listening to his nonsense that he's the one who is doing the action and not the women giving him the action that he craves. He doesn't really show off so much about it anymore because it's just so much of a witty comment that rips his heart in two. You just have to outsmart him by saying something more wittier and that is something I'm pretty good at, if you give me like five years to figure it out. My best buddy can't do it so well and just lets the aggravation get to him and start laying the blame on him. The fact that the brother had the drive allowed him to show off to us about how he developed some skills to maintain a little bit of attention with unsuspecting young women! He even took photos with a girl and talks about his favorite conquest of doing everything he could imagine with just one girl. However, my witty comment just crushes his moments of showing off and he began to accept it and reply with, "So what?"
Anyway, the brother seems pretty happy with the things he is doing even though I don't agree with him morally. The fact that he likes to show off is where I really stick it to him with comments that get him to calm down. He can't really make so much fun of me anymore because I play dirty with him too.
I'm really feeling worn down each night I come home from work. The nice living room is just alluring with the beautiful backdrop to just lie there and enjoy yourself. When I go to my room, I'm just filled with complex thoughts of playing my heart out until my exhaustion kicks in. It's something I'm trying hard to deal with right now. Will I turn into some workaholic? I don't ever think so because I don't want to work. I want to become rich and enjoy myself for all the days of my life. To get there, I need to put in my time and go through the excess of ups and downs and making mistakes and feeling lonely and sad or angry with myself. The vulnerable feeling that kicks in is like an excuse to go have my fun of familiar addictions. The thing about it is that if I do it too much, I start feeling like it's an empty route and that I need to clean up. It's pretty much an off and on thing for me.
Not Much of a Life. Oh well!
I don't believe in using swear words ever, so I never say them while I'm around people. I can now see the positives of wanting to be friends with some people who were bothered by me, just for the heck of it. Yeah, I think it could be a possibility in that it would make sense and a good choice for them to go get some professional counseling.
The appearance of beautiful women are throwing me off left and right a lot. They can be this gorgeous woman physically and then the next day or hour, I might not feel the same way about them. I don't think relying on just physicality is going to make me a happy person. I'll just go for the inner and mushy stuff now. I find women who like to use bad words to be quite annoying. It's just me I suppose.
I'm just looking to make some money now and getting there. I'm almost done with my second grad course, which has been an experience for me. I'm on my way to getting a 99% grade. I messed up a little with formatting my paper, so the teacher took off a few points. It's still an A, but would have been nice for me to catch that. Oh well, that's a lesson learned for me. I'm trying to be a lot more scrupulous and it looks like I'll be actually finished with my paper this week already.
I'm trying to earn a living right now with trading stocks. I think I can make a living off of being an online poker player too. Both of those endeavors are like at a starting point for me, but I'm slowly but surely getting there. I guess I like these types of boring challenges for earning money. It's just convenient for me I suppose.
The appearance of beautiful women are throwing me off left and right a lot. They can be this gorgeous woman physically and then the next day or hour, I might not feel the same way about them. I don't think relying on just physicality is going to make me a happy person. I'll just go for the inner and mushy stuff now. I find women who like to use bad words to be quite annoying. It's just me I suppose.
I'm just looking to make some money now and getting there. I'm almost done with my second grad course, which has been an experience for me. I'm on my way to getting a 99% grade. I messed up a little with formatting my paper, so the teacher took off a few points. It's still an A, but would have been nice for me to catch that. Oh well, that's a lesson learned for me. I'm trying to be a lot more scrupulous and it looks like I'll be actually finished with my paper this week already.
I'm trying to earn a living right now with trading stocks. I think I can make a living off of being an online poker player too. Both of those endeavors are like at a starting point for me, but I'm slowly but surely getting there. I guess I like these types of boring challenges for earning money. It's just convenient for me I suppose.
Finding Things To Do
Instead of just coming home and acting really tired and then staying up, I might as well just give myself a good night's rest. My best friend is suffering from anxiety, which makes him pretty tired and depression which makes him very talkative and annoying sometimes. I think he's depressed because he has been through some major disappointments in his life, compared to what others have and from naturally seeing how some things could fall apart and then avoiding it. I don't think it's really him comparing himself to others that is making him sad. I think it's just his own personal sense of pride that's been hurt because of all his expectations not having been met. I think I'm a decent encouragement for him to keep on living though because he has someone to hope the best things will happen for.
I'm actually a little worried about how things might turn out for him in the future. Turning on the TV or playing video games feel like they are starting to outlive their entertaining purposes for me. It feels like that I am actually a social creature who wants to binge on hanging out with cool people. Being left out and unheard by people is like my worst nightmare that I have been living on and off. I'm just bored basically and not feeling content with my life.
In a way, I think I'm at a higher status than what a typical woman would be accustomed to. I mean, I don't get that obvious recognition of status or social acceptance. Actually, maybe there are women out there who are really outcasts and don't have this typical lifestyle of being connected socially. Maybe, in their Facebook page, they don't even have anyone caring about them. If they can embrace that while nothing is absolutely wrong with them, which is probably untrue anyway, then I will give them better props over myself.
Monday, June 15, 2015
Art of Doing Something
To keep myself from feeling guilty, I practically just need to do productive things. It's cool and all from being a dork and slightly nerdy. I guess I just want to be a millionaire with a six-pack right now for all the selfish reasons in the world. Also, I want to continue to read up on the Bible and get somewhere with gaining knowledge in my faith and living a fruitful life that would be pleasing to the Lord.
I have been so distracted as of late that it's not even funny. I think that moment where I feel like I have nothing to do and so can go about indulging in some guilty pleasure is what makes me vulnerable. My mind is actually pretty weak right now, so I need to fix it right now!
I have been so distracted as of late that it's not even funny. I think that moment where I feel like I have nothing to do and so can go about indulging in some guilty pleasure is what makes me vulnerable. My mind is actually pretty weak right now, so I need to fix it right now!
Friday, June 12, 2015
Answer To My Life's Problems With People
I want to get some people to add me back on Facebook after using the blocking feature. I don't want any complications with my female co-worker who only has a thing for other girls. I'm going to leave her alone, until I leave that job place and see her like at a bar or some place down in history, if God is willing to make that happen.
Here's the solution that every person should try with their own will. Ask the person if he or she can live with him or herself in unblocking you and adding you back as a friend. If the person says they can't then they are crazy. Tell them to go get some help and then to do the positive thing in making you happy. If the person says yes, then that's the ideal answer you want to hear and will let them know that they are stupid for the way they acted in the first place. If the person doesn't say anything, then that person is basically still stupid for the way they acted in the first place, and you just have to keep repeating that to them and say that anything good which will come out of it is them doing a selfless act which will make you happy! Along with that, you can tell them that everything they acted was stupid and how you acted, no matter how much of psycho you were, was all for that good intention of wanting to be their friend and that it's all about being positive. They have the chance to do something positive and along with being left alone if they were to give in. Along with that, they are just stupid from the way they acted.
That's the total answer to my riddle that's been kicking my butt for the last ten years or so. I actually acted this way subconsciously in getting that message out, so some people did add me back on Facebook, but I was constantly crazy with them and couldn't handle it. I was like yelling at them everyday for the most part. I guess I forgot the basics, while I was doing it from being a crazy person. This is the answer that every person should see and will get the person to stop haunting you, if you never see the person again. It's a free answer that I'm giving away to making any person who is under my situation a happy man or woman. Remember, I have the spiritual gift of giving and encouragement. I am super honest nowadays and it's helping me stay on track with learning how to succeed. It's really just me and not God that's making me go around sinning. I just have to watch out for my temptations a little better, and it's really just stuff that's going on my head and being made more aware of it from reading the Bible.
Here's the solution that every person should try with their own will. Ask the person if he or she can live with him or herself in unblocking you and adding you back as a friend. If the person says they can't then they are crazy. Tell them to go get some help and then to do the positive thing in making you happy. If the person says yes, then that's the ideal answer you want to hear and will let them know that they are stupid for the way they acted in the first place. If the person doesn't say anything, then that person is basically still stupid for the way they acted in the first place, and you just have to keep repeating that to them and say that anything good which will come out of it is them doing a selfless act which will make you happy! Along with that, you can tell them that everything they acted was stupid and how you acted, no matter how much of psycho you were, was all for that good intention of wanting to be their friend and that it's all about being positive. They have the chance to do something positive and along with being left alone if they were to give in. Along with that, they are just stupid from the way they acted.
That's the total answer to my riddle that's been kicking my butt for the last ten years or so. I actually acted this way subconsciously in getting that message out, so some people did add me back on Facebook, but I was constantly crazy with them and couldn't handle it. I was like yelling at them everyday for the most part. I guess I forgot the basics, while I was doing it from being a crazy person. This is the answer that every person should see and will get the person to stop haunting you, if you never see the person again. It's a free answer that I'm giving away to making any person who is under my situation a happy man or woman. Remember, I have the spiritual gift of giving and encouragement. I am super honest nowadays and it's helping me stay on track with learning how to succeed. It's really just me and not God that's making me go around sinning. I just have to watch out for my temptations a little better, and it's really just stuff that's going on my head and being made more aware of it from reading the Bible.
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