I realize that I a lot of things are not really supposed to be that difficult to achieve. A lot of it really has to deal with attitude of willingness to go for it and to also work really hard for something. I don't think there's anything wrong with over-preparing on course materials. I realize that I naturally felt stuck in the past from not being able to study properly, but now I understand that it's part of me and I have learned to relax it. I'm pretty much ready to achieve high levels of success. I am really no stranger to success.