Proper Way To Approach Angry Girl

At a certain age when you leave something unresolved for a long time and try to bring it back up again, the girl you have in mind in speaking to about it will become very agitated. She's going to be playing games with you and coming up with all these false accusations and then if you give a sign of it being right, she's going to go off on tangent from being stable. 

The general guideline is to pretty much play with the severity of the level. If it's so severe and been one-sided and very unfair to your perception from the other person then might as well even out the odds by doing something very tacky but capricious and making others a little concerned about how smart you are. 

Here's another thing to keep in mind; it's worthwhile approaching her and trying to communicate with her and getting through her negative games she's playing, if the guy actually finds her cute. Always communicate with the thought of trying to help her and bring improvement on her life, even if it's just making it up. If she's going to say that you're harassing her then just play it like you are selling yourself with helping her. 

Overall, if it's a repeated pattern and you clearly are aware of what you are saying, keep it nothing negative and nonthreatening. Don't even make sarcastic jokes about very negative things happening. Keep everything optimistic and then state clearly you are not harming her. If the pattern keeps going on, and she's not reporting you to the cops or anything and it's been going on for years where she just hangs up on you even though she's been threatening to do so like blackmail or just shuts down with you, don't up the ante and go stalking her, you are on the right page. Finally, pay 100% in detail to the girl and be sure to really like her even when you didn't all those other years. 

Executing Things Properly

Oh boy, my mind and heart are just really enlightened now. I know that I am starting to flourish in life now and understand things a little better. Those disturbances that I have had for awhile now are actually great realizations to what's making me grow as a person. I no longer feel stuck in life now and know my place and feel like a free bird more than one would know.

It's a form of self-sacrifice to go after those weird people in your life and to set up a communication channel with them. They have lots of mental issues and problems dealing with life and just can't seem to make it to the top. Anyhow talk is cheap but from looking at a greater perspective, things could have been worse and as long as I can see that there's an even more negative situation that could occur then my life can't really be that bad as some people like to see it.

I'm all smiles underneath now, especially with the hot potential I have now in what I could be doing especially with all that nasty jazz that was forced upon my life. My mind is free to exact a form of highly expressive joy and love to get to a situation of having people really needing to look up to me or just ignoring me from being one of those fall out people who actually found something worthwhile and to live for. This is what it's about for me; it's to go after things worthwhile to live after even if it means having to sacrifice your personal life. It's all done in good hope and measure, along with following the heart and living peacefully in love with someone.

Preparing My Heart

In order for me to execute things in a very timely manner with some sensitive issue dealing with people, I might as well treat them very seriously and work at keeping my heart pure until the day comes for me to act. In other words, it's going to painstakingly take great preparation to perform a simple act of reconciling with an individual. It's pretty much in our nature possibly to avoid these dumb situations that just make you look bad in general.

I've found that even though it seems like some people like to play mean games with you when you approach them, it's important to get the most important message across. I have found my meaning by actually having the heart to care for these dumb witted people. I'm now discovering a true and great higher meaning in life through coming back to some major disturbances in my life.

Pushing Forward

I'm starting to think that no matter how much bothered I have been in the past because of the great emotional difficulties it caused me, I might as well just hope that they stay happy and then work even harder for my own goals. Pretty much, whatever happens is going to be what occurs in my life. I'm just going to try my best at getting to where I need to be now.

With outsmarting even the greatest minds who just play very dumb games with you, it's just a bunch of huge headaches some people will just cause you. Even though some people are just a bunch of crass individuals who don't know anything, I might as well just be happy for them if things are going well and hope that they'll come around even if they do things that make me feel pain.

Troublesome Tactics

This is going to be very difficult to achieve for me because I had forgot how I mentioned I'm scared to death in dealing with people who snap after talking to them about a personal unresolved issue. I think the best way is to take a selfless approach after letting out all the personal frustration by being optimistic about something. There are many ways to go about it, while including being apologetic and expressing personal desire in making the other person's life better. In other words, it's called being subservient or what one of my English teachers said "Butt-kissing."

It's an age old principle that doesn't feel natural but it actually works when using it with part of a system you set up to deal with these crazy people in your life that you want to embrace so you can feel free in your life. I think you really can't focus on more than one person at a time when it deals with a group, so might as well deal with the worst person and just straight up "bother" that person after setting everything up and working things around your life because that problematic individual repeating the same mess on you is only something you would expect in the worst case scenario. What I mean is that, if that person ends up doing something that bothered you in the past again then with you feeling pretty happy and stable where you are at, although highly annoying it's not really going to inhibit your productivity level and other responsibilities that's expected of you.

Since I'm dealing with a crazy woman who I'm compatible with- what I mean is that I would be for her but possibly not her for me. I think I could considerably be a very special individual to her because I'm one of a kind in a pretty negative way. Oh well, I guess it is how it is. My friends tell me to avoid this crazy individual at all costs and that is what they would do- one of my friend says to forgot about this issue and move on while learning from your mistakes. Personally, even though she is a crazy girl with her mental bottled up concepts, I want to learn how to communicate with someone like her and just because she's a female which I have to give some form of credit. I would like to settle down someday and just communicating about an unresolved issue and seeing her become really stable and happy underneath would bring me some sense of comfort. I already have my mind set on winning the prize of other beautiful women's hearts, so I don't care about ending up with her; I just see this as a window of opportunity for me to establish a building block.

Honestly, what do you guys think if you're passing by to read this blog post? Am I on the right page or should I just turn the page and blot out this memory for good? I'm not the type who feels a lot in pain with this issue, and I do see a very proper strategy to attend to this matter along with not minding if another catastrophe happens again because I'm pretty much set in life.

Model of Staying Organized

I think what's important is to view life in not creating unnecessary stress for the self. I'm going to create a small example to relate to organization skills by trying to relate to someone. Sometimes people are going to be very stubborn about how their beliefs are and become pretty steamy when you disagree with them. Therefore, I believe that by nature people are just meant to be pretty crafty to attain some reasonable goals while dealing with very aggressive and infuriated people.

My mind sometimes feels really intoxicated after waking up and feeling really groggy. It's like I'm moving very slowly throughout the day and only picking up from I left off when it's time to get to work. I think the reason for being organized in general is to just facilitate making life a lot easier and making the small things in life go by a lot quicker so it's easier to focus on achieving a grand goal. The top goal could be things like making money or setting up plans to attend the evening with a beautiful date.

By having things lie around along with things that I don't really need to pursue with what I have going, it's making my life feel a lot cluttered. I'm pretty much going to loosen it up and maybe when I feel the urge to spice things up again then I'll make everything messy again. It's pretty much entropy at work like my chemistry teacher enjoyed mentioning. He also had fun using real life couples in my high school class to represent compounds- man, he was a funny and intentionally weird guy.

Improving Rest

For most of my life, I've lived a pretty tired and lethargic life. Maybe I would be so active at night time when optimally I should be resting to keep up with others and then in the morning, I would constantly pay for the lack of rest by stressing myself out in trying to stay awake! When this type of lifestyle kicks in and the person wants to do something about it like I did, it takes discipline to fix it!

First off, it didn't happen overnight for me to start feeling well-rested. I had to really sacrifice at the time what I truly valued as my daily ritual of pampering myself with all that excess time that goes way into the wee hours. At first, it didn't feel good. I think that's probably one of the main reasons why people don't kick a habit. It just doesn't feel good and makes the person feel so unnatural about things- it's just something a person really fears. In general, fear is what limits a person from succeeding; of course, it would feel normal to be afraid of failing! Basically, even though the feelings really hurt, if the person wants it deep down in his or heart to change then perseverance will take place.

I finally managed to prevail through all of those debilitating emotions by following my heart and going for  really nice and well-rested nights! I need to mention that proper diet also plays a critical role, so I have been taking this supplement that's been really helping me stay up at my long grueling job! I work quite a lot by average about ten hours a day; when I factor in the drive time and lunch then it's pretty much about 50% of the time, I'm at work during the week. I do get compensated pretty decently, so I guess it's okay motivation for me so far even though things could be better. Therefore, I'm trying to work hard to change it into a lifestyle that I personally want while accepting this predicament in myself for now.

Healthy Workout Session

I see it that the first thing is the ensure that a person is going to be able to not overdo it and stress out the muscles so much. It's really difficult to realize this but from trying to overdo it, it's going to create a lot of displeasure in the morning and cause the person limit his own activity. In other words, from overdoing it, the person will become more motivated to stop working out in general rather than changing it into a healthy habit.

I think I realize this but this one guy has been dirty trash talking with me about how he's a lot stronger than me and tries to get me rattled to the point that I would overdo it in working out to try to outperform him. It's rather important to not let another influence you in such a negative way that you don't receive an optimal workout. Any form of exercise is better than nothing at all, so might as well block out those bothersome thoughts others place on you and go for living a very healthy life.

What I've been worried about is my diet. Many experts stress that proper diet is the most important element to any daily workout regime. I have trouble with it, and I guess I'm not alone. Still, I believe that if a person can tone down the workout to an acceptable form of working out and then work at including a proper diet later then it should still suffice until the person can inhabit proper goals of what to intake.

Improving Personal Life

I see myself now not letting any form or media or even the celebrities who sell out to be in a role that seems rather raunchy no matter how much appreciation she receives to be an influence to me. It shouldn't really have to matter for me and is only going to be a waste of time to take it to the next level for searching for that type of self-pleasure. It isn't going to establish my life any better like it's living a deceiving life. Since I am guilty with probably like almost all men, I see it that guys are worthy of being rejected by other women. It's funny how guys become angry by thinking about selfish things and try to let it out with friends sometimes and will feel very indignant when things are not going well and obstinate about changing the perceived self. For an obvious example, a good-looking womanizer gets to be with this very beautiful lady another has a good heart for and becomes troubled over what he perceives his personal unhappiness and her instability and willingness to still be with him inexcusable for breaking his heart. One of my friends have talked about how girls do this and that and put herself in a very negative spotlight and is worthy of being condemned; by force of habit, it's hard for him to let the thought go on a daily basis because he's secretly a little jealous or uncomfortable about all the attention she's getting- I guess he just needs a little confirmation what will become of her. He also is depressed underneath about his situation and seems like all he can do is just accept where he's at. I really hate this type of mindset in myself.

The way life is for me is that it just is the way it is, and no matter how hard it is, a person should diligently work hard and strive for happiness while limiting wasting personal time on something that is only going to be short-lived and not very smart in a direct sense. I see myself doing two main activities now everyday while allowing the chance for true love seeping in my life: building a very cool investment skill and working out. Oh, I almost forgot to mention that I'm trying to get back into reading a little bit of the Bible everyday. I'm a believer of those things and the heart of the Bible is truly a tremendous spiritual influence while going after the greatest things I want to live for and trying to strive for perfect freedom.

Taking Proper Gambles

The way that I see that life is worth living for is to go after those things that are just almost impossible to achieve and high in idealism. Even if it's just constant failure and feelings of getting hurt and even possibly getting yourself killed by another turned enemy, I think there some things that are just worth sacrificing personal life over. For instance, a parent dying for his or her own child is considered to be a very natural act of sacrifice; it's just ignored quite a bit until a person actually gets to be in that situation and then just those realizations come into play to be able to make a selfless decision.

Regardless of how others think sometimes, the self is pretty much considered to be the best at determining what's the greatest thing in life. I see it if a person is just so built up with frustration and can't get rid of it and just has to express it in a form to try to let it go or influence something to make him or herself feel better, then might as well be ready to sacrifice everything while sticking to a very selfless agenda. Even though feelings may think otherwise, I think it's possible for anyone to still suck it up and make a selfless act that is very powerful and something to look up to while making the ailing person happy! I just see it less often done in women for some reason because I believe that an average women might have a very difficult time coping with some perturbing emotions because it just feels so physical and debilitating. My mom told me that men and women have different brain chemistry, so it could be an influential factor in why they both think so differently.

Stepping It Up

I guess my life has been really busy trying to live a pretty decent life. What makes a person live a pretty successful and happy life? It's something that I wonder for myself and what I really want to be dwelling in. I just can't really stand having to accept my limitations; I feel so much better when I try to fly and reach higher places that seem so out of reach for me. It's just the excitement of pursuing after something really worthwhile and doing it in a very healthy fashion while being moral and really joyful about living life.

I no longer allow defeat or disappointments to bring me down. When I feel that others do this to me, I become pretty angry and go about trying to beat them in other areas and even go to lengths to bother them by making fun of them. I'm just not really the type of guy who can sometimes accept how things just are. It's like I really need to step up my game and totally live a life worth working for. Deep down inside, I've been scared about the unknown but during those times that I did suck it up and tried really hard to my breaking point and even came up short, I see that I actually grew as a person and have something worthwhile to recall nowadays even though I wasn't appreciating it back then.

Taking It Au Naturel

The person I truly want to be is this pretty cool person who can handle very difficult situations when people put him on the spot. It doesn't matter whether I'm dealing with a difficult person or not. I just want to be this pretty funny, charming, and intelligent guy that almost everybody sensible would love.

Obviously, I want to become really rich and found the love of my life! I don't care about being famous; I'll live a pretty quiet and enjoyable life. I also have this strong desire to be very diligent, and it's always been in my blood. I just sometimes have trouble focusing like I'm tripping out on stupid stuff people put me through. I guess that's normal to go through those things and as stressful as it could be, I think it's wonderful when everything comes together and you're no longer mad about what was bothering you.

I'm totally just going to live out my heart now and be me for once. I don't define myself as an absolute jerk even though sometimes I want to be that way 24-7 with a few people I dislike from making me so annoyed or angry. I think there's a balance I need to learn, and it's something I'm picking up from approaching these bothered people in my life. I'm learning what not to become from talking to these distressed and stupid people. I have yet to see if I'll be donating a couple fat checks to charity and feel good about myself- I got to try it someday after working hard and ethically to make myself rich! I'm going after a Master's in Stanford University and so for the first time in my life, this blog which is about school and how I've been writing about life, I now mention a fact related to education after I don't know, five years or so.

Need To Assume And Deduce What's Right

I'm assuming that when I talk to a person directly about something they want to put behind themselves and it really puts them in a tight spot, they are going to feel extremely uncomfortable. In other words, they are going to feel extremely angry and not be able to take anything. The only problem I've been having with these people being upfront with me is that they call me crazy and ask me to get some therapy!

First of all, that makes me really angry hearing that and I think it's their intention to make me so mad that I would stop bothering them about the issue. I have yet to go up there and try all these natural witty comments that are formulating in my head now. I'm learning so much patience and to not get so carried away anymore. It's just taking a lot of self-awareness and practice. I'm not so afraid anymore of anything bad happening to me now, and I'm willing to risk all my marbles much to the chagrin of this buddy whose really dependent on me. I guess I'm not the one that's going to be harming myself, but if these people do end up harming me then my buddy will need to hold them responsible for what becomes of my precious life.

Committing To Everything Important

I have this really strong feeling that it's probably better to take everything face value and to allow first impressions to mean everything. I know that I am really strong at making comebacks to the point that it will really affect the others who are engaged in the opposition with me. I'm pretty much a natural at it.

I might as well just let my feelings run really hot and become extremely direct and honest about it. I might as well just let some of that old stuff that actually worked get back into my system and then proceed forward into the future. In other words, I think I just need to not let some things just get to me so much. I think I could sound like the really calm, smart, collective, and funny person that I really want to be and engage a really heated person whose just stuck and can't do anything. Obviously, if the person really snaps then my safety could be in danger. I might as well let them know that at least I'll die happy while trying and knowing what they did was wrong as they put me into my grave. I'm going to struggle for my life and then call for help if I manage to stay alive!

Sense and Sensibility

Now I truly understand what could make people mad. The hard part is working around and getting something selfish out of the person I'm directing my attention to. I guess there has to be some elements set up such as peer pressure, timing, and the setting. If it's done at a place where you could look like the bad guy then it's probably better not to engage in the conversation unless you're considering it to be your last stand or something.

I think over all it's just feeling the proper vibe and going for it. The way I see it is that it takes a lot of preparation like studying for a test. You have to think about every possible outcome and make sure those possibilities won't ever occur. You also need a proper motive and probably a sensible pretext if it sounds really offensive to the person.

Conquering My Fears

I'm pretty much scared to death underneath when I approach some people who have a tendency to snap about an unresolved issue. At first, I was mad at them and couldn't get that bothersome feeling out of my system. They would keep on badgering me with me going up to talk to them that I needed to get some help. It was one of the worst negative feelings where it just pumps me up underneath and makes me want to outshine them.

It's been a work in progress for me to still stay really positive, friendly, and neutral about the incident. Because I'm trying to be the mediator with my own situations when dealing with these people, it's creating a lot of mess and being really hard for me to find an end to it. I think it's just a matter of being myself and trying my best in those areas when I do go engage them. At least, it's just a civil affair and not really something from me wronging others in a terrible way. There's really something for me to learn, and it's really for my professional endeavors. I think I'm just going to go random really and just pretty much gamble with letting it go wherever it wants to go.

Focusing On Priorities

Becoming a conqueror over my flesh has been really tough while handling personal disappointments. I think we all have our moments where we just give ourselves over to self-gratuitous pleasures from being dejected about some life's mishaps. I think I'm the type that feels a little bad and sort of humored to have given into lonely pleasures that are very questionable from a moral standpoint. The crazy thing is that even though one may justify they are working towards an unattainable goal, no progress has really been made because it's very egocentric and closed off from the eyes of an angry mob!

After having been afraid of personally fussing with my stressful and uncomfortable issues, I think it's really good for me to just deal with them now. Looking back and this is just going to be only one time of probably a couple more times with relevant people- I'm just saying that I'm never mentioning this again with this blog; I pretty much received a restraining order from a different girl after trying to get another girl to add me on her Facebook. The restraining order is off now and even though I had some hedonistic fun blocking that "Restraining Order" girl off of my Facebook page, the court injunction is over and it didn't limit me from progressing academically in my life and gain the "cool" status with others.

After little digression, I must get back to what I initially wished to point out. The girl, Annie, (*pause to chuckle to myself) just told me she was uncomfortable and that's why she reused to add me as a friend. She kept on being annoying with me by telling me it was her personal decision. In all good faith with the people, I tried to get her to be more specific with me but then things got really awry for me. I guess you can't really entrust being given wisdom by people when you know it the most. I think Annie blocked me on Facebook because she was mad about me making rude comments about her- I was pretty mad about her not being a generous person with the church we attended together; she was considered a leader and I believed that leaders had this role of needing to be selfless at a church they serve. I also was very confused and ticked off underneath for being physically attracted to her at the same time. Why did it have to be her? I think I was just desperate for a relationship underneath my subconscious but I was so darn mad because she was the wrong person for me to be with. All of those feelings transpired into me making fun of her and boy it was fun! I must confess for all the rudeness I just exaggerated in honest measures.

Received Confirmation

Just yesterday, the girl I'm into told me that she already found her soul mate. It's the person she is with, and frankly I'm convinced that she's with the right person so hope things work out between them. I think the reason why I hold her so much in regard is because she's the first person I actually love and am really comfortable about marrying with no issues. I mean I can already figure her weaknesses and what I would have to sacrifice to make it work, but just the willingness now for me to form a significant other is pretty much like a boss!

I mean I've had long term crushes with some girls ever since I had an idea of what puberty was, but it never developed into something where I'd become gutsy and risk being turned down with my feelings getting hurt. Honestly, since I'm not really the jealous type I don't really feel hurt over the girl's decision to be with the other great guy.

I feel really pressured, lonely, and all of these impulsive selfish feelings from time to time and learning how to manage them is something I'm relenting to now. I think all of these good things that I want to go after and do consistently is something that is going to take time in developing. I guess I can pursuing after everything that I want to go for and just let myself be hammered if things don't turn out the way I suppose I wanted it to go now. It's to also be very diligent about something and have high hopes but then just manage the feelings that hurt if I keep failing and moving forward.

Just Need To Confirm

This girl I've actually developed true feelings for and notice now at an unconditional love kind of stage is a pretty normal and above average smart girl. She's also really appropriate and friendly enough for me to not even mind being in the shadows if she settles down with the great guy she's with right now. I'm just happy that a guy like me can actually experience what it means to fall in love from a personal level; I'm pretty much all tears underneath. That's why I'm laughing because it was a retardation for me in noticing those small feelings of love get bigger all of a sudden for a girl.

Definitely, I really need to check out how the girl feels about me. I would just like to know how crazy I'm being with these feelings with her. Also, I'm going to be very happy for her and feel really satisfied anyway if she ends up in a happy marriage with someone else. I don't mind now because my view of soul mates is that they don't have to be lovers but just aware they were naturally meant for each other and can still live a normal life apart from each other. At the moment, I truly think there can only be one pairing for soul mates so that means it has to be both sides and not just one. This is why I'm going to have to find out how she feels- it could just be that I'm in love with her while she's truly in love with someone else and me experiencing the healthy side effects for the very first time which just feels so satisfying to me.

Pretty Funny Incident

Unlike some of my other dumb friends who became very upset over losing a love of their life, I'm completely open-minded about it these days. With this girl I fell for, I had a chance to hang out with her for awhile and she even mentioned we were dating at one point and seemed pretty attracted to me at that restaurant I ate at with her. I just didn't know what was up between us two at the time from being totally clouded with my personal complexes. Basically, I just felt really down and out underneath from feeling short or unintelligent and trying to put on a pretty good face. This seems to work if you're pretty young and actually good looking. I didn't know this at the time, but I was actually pretty handsome for a short dude. At least I stood a little taller than her, which makes me smile and giggle underneath.

Now, I'm all smiles because I know that I truly have accepted into loving and willfully desiring marriage with her. It's a great accomplishment for me because she's the first person with who I feel this way. I've developed into a not so jealous person because with the guy she's with, the guy is pretty awesome! He can cook, post up really cute photos of them together and they look really great together (!), and actually be there for her. I think she's seriously in the hands of great company; whereas, though I feel like she would be a long love lost or a past time soul mate, I'm the type who'd really be happy for where she wants to end up and not feel so bad about it for myself. Honestly, with all these pretty women and nice people out there, I think there's plenty of God's provisions out there even while being single and in love with the one you want to pledge your whole life to.

IQ Test

This is a question that only people with an I.Q. of 120 or over will be able to answer correctly.

 

If:

2 + 3 = 10
7 + 2 = 63
6 + 5 = 66
8 + 4 = 96

Then:

9 + 7 = ?

After looking at this problem for a while, I gave up on it and read the solution. I felt really dumb afterwards in missing the logic; I went totally overboard by treating the numbers like they were algebraic numbers. I'm not really going to give in the answer so that this could challenge some people's minds. I so wanted the answer to be 16! After completely ruining the approach of this problem with my wandering mathematical imagination, I now see how I missed it after reading up on the solution. 

Anyhow after feeling dumb, I took a boring I.Q. test and scored 124. I guess my personal suspicions were correct in how I normally test. I have also read that people could increase their I.Q. through proper nutrition and exercise along with continually practicing these exams. Overall, high I.Q. must be something that people could also obtain through diligence. I heard that people who consider one of the best presidents ever, Ronald Reagan had only an IQ of 105. It just goes to say that having a high I.Q. doesn't really mean anything unless it's being used for something. Also, using any amount of intelligence to the fullest scale that any person can muster would be able to amount to a great achievement. Therefore, I must conclude that the heart of a human's will can be very powerful and admirable.  

Attracting A Certain Group of Women

It looks like my appearance doesn't even matter to some group of women. A low achieving buddy keeps on saying that women want the money and his twin brother says that women want to be with a strong man. I disagree, I believe that a woman wants the full man!

These women I have been affiliating with seem to be very blessed in their appearance; okay, some of them are really pretty and crazy enough to enter a relationship with me. I feel really accepted in my place now in this world! I guess this whole complex thing I'm feeling doesn't really matter to others but to myself the most. In considering the desires of others, if they don't really cross paths with mine, I don't have to really feel like a loser over it.

I'm pretty much going to do the best I can to eliminate my personal short height complex. I knew a guy in college once who stated that he was 6 feet tall and how short he was. He would just shrug his shoulders and be like "Oh well." I seriously wouldn't mind saying that I am short at 6 feet tall, too. It seems like I'm into pretty Biblical minded and spiritual women, which so seems like I don't really have to settle down with them to enjoy their acquaintance in the first place. Anyhow the best of these complicated and sensitive creatures don't seem to really care about being taller than the person they are going to marry. I guess being with a short and honest man for a taller spiritual lady could be a rarity and unique thing for the woman too and something to be joyful about.

Nice Profit With Forex

What I'm seeing before myself now is a couple years of hard work and dedication unfolding before my eyes. The gain potential with the system I've been working on looks to be priceless! I have pretty much made my trade analysis even more easier for myself and with all that expensive training material- why really pay for it when others can advise you for free if you know what I mean. There's a sneaky way some computer literate people are aware of but that's not what I wish to be promoting at this time.

I have added something new which is pretty much predicting reversal trends of the market; this looks to be an extremely powerful tool for my trading style. I'm no longer looking to trade every second of the market. I just want to ride it to make me profit and then get out when I can't milk the system anymore and do this on a very consistent basis. I am pretty much a swing trader now for life!

Letting Go of Lost Causes With Women

First off, I'm going to say that it's been very easy to be forgetful with the guys who have become a lost cause with me. With the women, well not so much to put it bluntly- I sort of do want to know what's making them be inclined in that direction. I just don't really care so much about the guys because I'm honestly not going to set out having a intimate relationship with them. I think it's funny to pretend to be interested in guys for myself because it offends some of them, and I love to see their sensitive reaction. Actually, my closest friend at the moment is very touchy about guys coming onto him- it's funny to make those kind of remarks with him and see him get really edgy.

I'm not really so worried about those types of guys anymore, but I would prefer them to consider making a life decision to love and care for fully that one special lady in his life. Basically, guys being together isn't going to promote any healthy babies and if everyone were attracted to the same sex then how would this world keep moving forward into the next generation? It feels morally twisted to me even if the guy isn't into girls from having pampered himself into going the other way. At least protect the body from engaging in very rough intimate acts which could be uncomfortable, if the guy is going to turn out gay! I would just stay very close friends and live with one like a partner but not go that full out because it wouldn't naturally fit in perfectly like it was supposed to.

Respecting Women

Something that I have known myself for doing is rationalizing any type of behavior and justifying it to be good. With the exception of advocating very dangerous drugs, I guess when things come out of the heart it has its most powerful effect on the person. To give a better clear illustration, when a man deeply falls in love with a beautiful woman, he'll go through incredible lengths and persevere with all the obstacles to get to the goal of being with his soul mate. There's just hands down nothing more powerful then being driven by the motives of the heart and carrying them out at its fullest; it's this type of passion that takes people into a successful path.

I've allowed myself to slip up and permit different types of visual mediums to influence me into seeing women giving themselves a bad rep. It has turned me into a  physical love craving machine if people know what I mean- one of my friends nicknamed me "The Machine" for a reason. If I actually had the nerve to carry out these sinful pleasures formed in my heart, then man, I would probably have only a couple more years left of living to do.

I have found out what it means to truly fall in love now. It's having unconditional love for a person and being willing to make sacrifices by choice, along with the wonderful feelings that come with it. There's the emotional part for the women or physical attraction for the guys, but it seems like some of them neglect the meaning of commitment which is what I believe to be the true form of love. It's actually difficult to get to this state of realizing what true love is- I guess I've found the gist of it because I fell in love with the person who I think is my soul mate.

Making the Attempt

I remember how in living life and creating goals, I would always disappoint myself after playing long hours of video games and trying to conquer other online players. I would feel like I lost track of time and that I would have to wait for another day to get into starting my new objectives. What I think really works is like how I believe the God of the Bible operates. It's never too late to start on something after having an epiphany.

Hopefully by being engaged in what you want to do, you will stop doing the stupid activities that make you feel depressed. These activities we long for are pretty much goals that are extremely challenging, and I think it's just like that for a purpose. The hardest part is the feelings of dealing with how hard it is or being bored from not being at the satisfied place and never giving up. My closest friends have given up a great deal in life and are not making too many strides anymore after having made wonderful progress while being young and in college. I guess they feel that their time is ticking and already accepting a possibility of a negative outcome.

This really isn't the wisest way to live for a man! I think a man is supposed to just man up and live up to anything getting in his way to go after the ultimate prize he wants to obtain. Therefore, after feeling so much guilt and shame in wasting my time- I conclude that once realizing it with the epiphany and starting on it and trying to maintain it then even though others may not see it, at least the self will be making healthy progress and eventually turn into something more optimistic and satisfying even if the times are rough! Just pursue after success in life and learn valuable mistakes from putting forth the best foot forward at all situations; just don't commit any crimes that get you locked up, that's all I got to say.

Breaking The Cycle

Deep within me, I feel this need to let go of things I deeply regret doing out of ignorance. I guess since I'm still single and haven't really tried to hold a position of responsibility, I'm just going all over the place and trying to ignore feelings of guilt in the first place. In other words, it probably means that I'm hardening my heart.

Ever since my teenager years, I've had this feeling of obsessive addiction coming out of my emotions. It's this sense of pleasure that I keep longing for day in and day out. Fortunately, it was no drugs or alcohol I caught on to; however, it was something even more powerful- it was coming straight from my heart and turning into an obsessive cycle. That's pretty much how I turned my life into being all about staying up to play video games and watch questionable content.

I've broken away from playing too many video games now because from what I really want to do, it really limits me from playing them. I think the reason why I'm able to stay away from video games rather than the questionable content I'm looking at is because I understand that video games aren't really that morally bad and designed for us in mind. The questionable content is really tricky because many might feel it's very offensive whereas others don't mind so much- it's the gray area in life that isn't fully explained. It's hard to take a stance here and unfortunately, if it were dealing with drugs, this type of emotional dependence of making it acceptable to the self would become really dangerous for anyone trapped in it. What I'm pretty much going at is how the feelings are invading my life and going out of control- it's pretty much this longing feeling of engaging in watching questionable content. Afterwards, I feel like a dunce each time after the moment is over- it's something I'm really having trouble controlling with myself. I think it's just that I don't want to deal with feelings of hardship so I try to take the easy way out by trying to entertain myself through watching bad influential content. Life doesn't feel boring and really exciting for the hour but then after it's done, life becomes all plain again. It's like living a lie and taking the wrong approach in finding lasting and true happiness. I think overall, I'm just lacking faith and being really ignorant towards myself on daily basis; I'm going to have go beyond the areas of what guys are normally called idiots for. I'm going to subject myself to feeling intense dislike or like and just becoming patient in growing up with this area. The good part is that I've learned that being honest and direct with others has made me more of an individual people can relate to and not get so hung over with.

Lifting My Fists Over My Head

When one feels really great about something and desires to express it without making a sound then he or she could lift up the hands shoulder wide over the heads and close them into fists and be like "Yes!" on the inside. I have recently been having those moments and it's been very consistent for me.

It basically deals with me relating to other women near my age. The ones who I didn't grow up with and just recently met. I met this really pretty girl at a party a lot of other single guys were going nuts for. Towards the end of her stay at the party, she ended up giving me a pretty nice hug; I was one of the few lucky guys. I lift up my fists over my head shoulder wide and go "Yes!" Furthermore, I saw her Facebook profile page, and she looked even more attractive and to myself, I thought that I could handle her so I added her and she confirmed me as a friend right away. I lift up my hands and do the same motion again and go "Yes!" I guess it's the perks of being single and not having to worry about any jealous girlfriend for a time being.

What's also great is that some women who were lost causes with me ended up expressing their friendly wishes with me. I lift up my hands over my head again and go "Yes!" There's this really cute girl who blocked me from Facebook for being insecure with me adding her as a friend. She ended up adding me finally without me really making a fuss with her. I did go direct with another girl who deleted me as a friend- she ended up responding with a really cool statement. Overall, I lift up my hands over my head shoulder width apart and go "Yes!" Cowabunga!!!

Making Better Choices

I believe that the main selfish part of me is how I wish to be a lot taller. Ever since growing up, I've felt emotionally left out from wanting to be of average height compared to everybody else. I think being a short kid made me feel like I was excluded from sports games and looked upon to be the last person picked for a short game during recess. Normally, I would feel like crying underneath and not even want to remember these kind of feelings and memories. Now, this could end up scaring people- I'm starting to laugh about recalling those awkward moments.

I'm starting to not really care so much about what's on my outside, but still from how I grew up I long to be taller. I principally believe that it doesn't matter how much a person looks now; even the girl I feel who could be my soul mate whether she positively returns the feelings with me or not seems to make me want to smile from looking a little exotic. It's definitely got to be the relationship component, itself and not about how good looking a woman is to me. Still, I guess it wouldn't hurt to score the hottest girl and have an awesome thing going.

I'm looking to get a really healthy routine going during the week and then with all the free time on the weekends start making plans to attend some random outings or hanging out with anyone available. More and more, I'm starting to become desensitized to physical appearances and caring a lot more about the beauty that lies in having good character. In a nutshell, I'm back with playing online poker and being up only $60 makes me think that I should save the fun for only in the weekends. Pretty much, I'm going to face any emotional hardships that I'm going through and just do the best I can with where I'm at and to be accepting of situations if others beat me to a competitive goal, but at least I'll make myself to be a good opponent to play against whether there's hard feelings or not.

Facing Fresh Things

Now I realize that when some of my friends talk about having girl problems then maybe it's because they're not really worthy of being with someone nice. What I notice is that if a guy is complaining to friends about something then it's only going to make the situation worse for the guy and isn't going to be solving anything. However, I see a more healthier way of coming up with a solution; it's basically to just cope with the feelings and continue living a productive and happy life the best way one can.

I see it like how it all naturally just fits and one just needs to have a good eye for catching the great things. If a guy just feels pressured in the wrong area in life and goes in a really selfish path or keeping to himself then he's going to pretty much stress himself out and feel depressed about some things.

Playing things at face value and being direct in any matter isn't going to exaggerate any situation; neither is the approach taken going to be really denounced all of a sudden. I believe that a guy is just supposed to make sense and have some meaning in his life. What I'm also becoming more accepting is that some people are just born to not reach personal goals in life. To me, this doesn't mean for me to place pity on them; it just means to me that it's life and some people just have to learn to deal more than others.

Happy New Years

One of the worst successive years for me have now passed. Having gone through a lot of pretty crazy emotions, I'm pretty fortunate that I came out on top with people whenever I became fully direct, open, and honest with the ones I perceived problems with. It was towards the end of the year that I started adopting this approach; it was really difficult because I notice that us guys just like to assume things in a black and white fashion and then not bother with something that could ultimately result in unnecessary drama!

What's funny is that right before the end of year, a girl messaged me on Facebook explaining in clear English what her reason was from deleting me as a friend. This was so helpful for me because now I can see a very logical reason behind the feelings. I guess women do really prefer to be emotional over being rational and with my direct approach, she must have perceived something she felt sad over and then decided to fulfill my request of giving me a straight answer so that she wouldn't personally look so bad with me.

Being straight-forward really has its advantages for a dude especially in dealing with women because the guy gets to most likely receive honest replies from them and notice the girls who are slightly crazy and unable to function very well socially.  It definitely took me awhile but I guess from being a sensitive guy when it comes to dealing with lost causes. A friend asked me why(?); my response is that I grew up feeling left out because my young friends portrayed me as a bad person from not being able to resolve any negative differences and went haywire with me. I guess it's understandable for kids to act crazy like this from not being fully mature yet, but it still pops up on a rare occasion with some people. It might be even more common then I would like it to be. Anyhow, because of my sensitivity to these issues I've adapted to a pretty moral state from being fully straight-forward with everybody who I think has a problem with me.