Ending The Year With A Bang

I would like to thank everyone who visited this site in spirit and wherever you are, God speed!!! I know I've written some sensitive material that might have been offensive in nature, and it's been brought to my own personal understanding. Yet, I just want to move on now and learn from my personal experiences and continue to grow in a really positive manner.

I am pleasantly delighted that the views on this site after seven years have on average doubled in months. I take delight on tracking down some of my posts you all read and reviewing them for purposes of keeping a piqued interest and to reexamine what was going on my head at that time. In a way, this isn't the best thing I have going for myself right now. Yet, it's been faring in a really enjoyable way for me.

One of the things I pledge to work on is not letting my distracting and stressful emotions get the best of me. A lot of it really deals with becoming irritated and feeling very mad about some events that took place for me. I don't want to act like an adolescent anymore with raging hormones; it's getting too old for me but instead I want to live a great and healthy life now. One of the biggest things I have to reveal is that I have become more intrepid about my bluntness, but I'm doing it with some fun style this time that makes me laugh hard inwardly. I'm obviously not in direct and physical contact with anyone when I'm writing, so I'm trying to put some original material down that makes me laugh outwardly, while no one is around. It's just one of my own reserved ways of having a good time. I've noticed that one of my dates in person really laughed at a lot of my comments while I really wasn't; I know they were funny, but I didn't act like it was at the time. I guess it's some food for thought in how I'm doing pretty decently with having platonic relations with a lot of females.

I like receiving some warm and deep hugs from beautiful women, which feels pretty good but I think the only person I would be able to get it consistently from is if I had a lovely girlfriend, so that could be a motivating drive for me to go get one. It was pretty crazy because I was seeing this one girl who was in a long term relationship already at this boring, vocational school for lunch. Okay, it felt weird but yeah, she was leaning her heart towards me, and I was attracted too but I just didn't feel right about her having a boyfriend already. Withholding myself from her felt like a mistake until it was finally revealed to me who my actual type of woman to marry is.

Simple Plans

Basically, that one church which screwed me over with nice people becoming annoying with me all of a sudden, yeah, I'm not going to be trying to still attend that church anymore. There's no benefit for me to fight so hard for that position; it won't even help me out that much in the long run anyway. I'm just going to let them go now. If they want a piece of me still, then I'll be available for them, but I totally doubt it because they are really fed up with me! I even learned that it's really all about communicating right since it mainly dealt with distressed and irrational people, but I understand this portion now.

That being said, I'm planning on engaging in some personal Bible studies; not so intense, but just enough to keep up with my intrigue in the Scriptures. I'm planning on doing it daily and then even trying out this whole prayer thing for the people in this world out of desiring to know real and fulfilling love.

Boy, I'm going to go really crazy with investing and still try to complete my temporary projects of trying to learn a language and gain some skills as a physician's assistant and a computer network expert. I still have other backups that I could get into also, so it seems like everything is set in place with pursuing after a pretty enriching and healthy life. I'm working out too on a daily basis and looking to get a six-pack someday! It's just being consistent and keeping up with it, no matter how badly the day just got to you. Maybe, one of these days, it will be just right for me to take on a wife of my dreams.  

Bread And Better

I think my side adventures of investing my money has put into some form of exciting career of trying to make money. Even if I don't milk a market for a lot of dough, I'm still pretty excited about sticking around. I think this means that I'm starting to really enjoy the pursuit of becoming a trader. I just asked a bunch of friends if they were interested in trading with me and that I would help them, but none of them want to lose money, even if the opportunity presents itself to make a lot of money!

I guess I'm the rare breed, the one in 10,000 people who endeavor to become a successful trader. My current bread and butter of earning a living is basically working a 2:15-10:45 job; not the typical 9 to 5 job but still it pays some dividends for me. Anyway, I'm looking to have a decent skill at an occupation so that I could keep earning some income, while I look into this whole investing opportunity. I think it's actually a lot of fun for me. Overall, it's really about balancing out how I play with my money. I'm not going to overspend on things anymore and basically handle a level I can deal with if I end up losing it.

Adjusting Trade Routine

I've been relatively still experimenting with tools that I think would work. This is still a work in progress, but it feels like I'm even more warmer. I believe these tools that I have right before me have a greater chance of making profit. I'm now including the news as part of my input before conducting some potentially rewarding trades.

I've wanted to stick with the 4H charts all this time and will still admire them, but now I'm drawn to just earning a quick 1:2 risk-reward trade with a smaller stoploss, so I've switched over to the 30M charts now. I'm also running a 1H charts too just to get a feel for how the market is currently doing. Along with having some good information from the news and having a bunch of common numbers other informed traders know about, I think I'm starting to get a decent feel for this market.

I believe I could also expand this Forex trading into also Binary Options, which is something new for me to explore. Despite the lower payouts, I'm actually excited about the opportunities the platform has to offer.

Interesting Question

This is the question that popped out of my head while I woke up after dreaming. I didn't even notice that I fell asleep on the couch because I thought I was tucked away nice and warm on my own bed. I guess it happens because I surely didn't remember prior to falling asleep. It's turning into a pretty bad habit, and I want to get used to at least using the bedroom and at least brushing my teeth before I fall asleep.

Anyway, getting back to my question. I was asking myself all morning and still a little curious to this pretty normal inquiry. Basically, how do you end up in a strong, loving, and exciting marriage with the beautiful person who is actually your type? I think it is one of the most important questions that get overlooked so easily. First off, is there really such a thing as someone being your type actually being interested with you also? Secondly, is it even possible that a dummy and a not so good-looking guy like myself could actually get the girl of my dreams?

I don't seriously know, and even if I draw some laughter from an unbelieving crowd, it's just something I'm curious about finding the answer to. Well, for starters, I think there are some personal standards that I should meet or exceed. I'm also basing off of what I feel my type would be really into; I think she wants a pretty level-headed, sensitive, and good man to be by her side.

24-7 New Years Resolutions

I'm going to start adding in a little visual on my posts now, because it seems to make it a little more easier on the eyes and probably a little more sentimental in reading these posts for others. I've already created my permanent goals that I want to keep going with in my life. There is however something I really want to try to maintain again from now on and for the rest of the life. I really want to maintain my own personal health and keep up with it; like brushing my teeth on a daily basis twice and flossing. I really need to do this.

Also, I really need to make an appointment with a dentist now and go for a routine clean on my teeth. I'm really being bad at going to the dentist. Since I have also had some Lasik done on my eyes, I feel pretty confident about not needing glasses for awhile so I'm not going to bother in seeing an optometrist nor even waste their time. It does feel a little weird not having glasses because I did look pretty good with glasses. I think the reason why I didn't get that much attention from girls is probably because maybe they don't really care that much about how I look, and the ones who did say I was handsome were the girls I treated fairly well with a good amount of respect.

Overall, I think there just needs to be balance in how you treat a girl. Some deserve it a little better than others and some are just worth leaving alone to let them keep to themselves while moving on. I'm now exploring the capacities of fully moving on while holding no grudges with anyone now. When I do see them in person now, I'm going to do the best I can to just communicate at a basic level while saying funny stuff that's going to make me laugh so hard, so I won't feel bad about them reacting very negatively with me and so I can understand about having to move on at that moment in my life. Yeah, I'll just let them come to me now; instead of me going to them.

Reaching Christmas Time

I'm really excited about this year's Christmas because I'm expecting it like never before. I've usually waited until the last minute to buy presents for everyone. I'm not really the type to receive gifts from everyone either. It sort of bites to think in a selfish manner like that. I think with me never having received gifts from anyone makes me think that I haven't really been that much open of a person. By being constantly stressed out, I'm leaving myself out of others' circles. Likewise, I think it's the same for others too.

Maybe I give off the feeling that I'm not very much into gifts and not very big on being a party animal. The majority in the world is pretty selfish, but to have a gathering place where the selfish ones could be motivated into giving and the ones who are looking to give could just freely give without feeling sheepish, is quite a wonder. Working through my own ambitions and emotional problems, I'm starting to just accept them as my own personal frailty and to also look into relating to others who might be in a similar jam as I am.

A lot of it is really just about being a natural freak of nature and forcing upon basic communication with the people you want to do it to. It's also hard work and sticking closely to what you believe in so much and at the same time having fun with it to the maximum level with contentment, just in case the person does something unexpectedly negative and feels she has a reason for it.

Benefits of Blogging Personal Efforts

Sometimes when the morning is just feeling uneasy from something I'm having trouble settling in my head, by just taking a little moment out of the day to just let it all out by typing stuff onto this blog, it's really making me happy again! I'm really starting to more or less think a little bit more smarter, despite my feelings being out of whack at the moment. I seem to be better at managing my feelings of people annoying me because I have never taken the initiative to block anyone from communicating with me and even though I felt uncomfortable, I managed to become cool with it eventually.

I think the way to handle people being crazy with you and just doing depressing stuff to you is to just reveal the right things to them by talking in a timely and skillful manner. It's basically establishing control and making them look bad in a moral sense and also showing you how bad they really are being at an emotional level so you can keep out of their way when you sense they will go berserk with you. It's best to keep it fresh and original and make it very effective from the start, instead of letting it linger. If it didn't work out from just having been a little lazy or something, I wouldn't stress it so much either and just try to be original again and then hammer the baby home!

Becoming Humble At Taking Risks

By learning all that I can, I believe that I might not be able to handle so well with the idea of becoming a winning poker player. Getting into the world of professional gambling may be fun, but it's just too risky for me and also is something I just can't factor into my lifestyle anymore.

I'm starting to gain this high interest of investing to earn a high amount of potential profit. It's only little by little for me, and it's going to take a lot more time but I have faith that it's eventually going to come together. No longer am I about investing in learning products; I want to go out and gather the free material that is out there and put together a system that is well suited for me. I'm ready to take the scary journey of doing it mainly on my own, and I'll take the free advice that professionals are willing to offer me in exchange for a transaction we could both be happy in settling with.

My mom told me that a true business man never spends and just keeps on spending because it won't generate profit. In order to have a business, there needs to be some form of income which will make profit. This is what a business is all about; it's about making profit and no matter how much bad feelings I have from thinking negatively about it and how life should be about finding fulfillment and joy with some working routine, it's pretty much the cut and dry approach.

Starting To Change For Maturing

I think when I have wrote stuff with people that has ended up making me laugh so hard, it has created some positive intended effects for myself. I think I'm meant to be someone who dwells on original jokes and shares them with others who don't like me at the moment. It's probably one of my strong suits when it comes to basic communication.

I don't need to waste my time over matters that doesn't interest me; neither do I need to go after being on people's cases. There is this feeling of an endless supply of people's interests and issues- to try to analyze every one of them, it's going to create a mental overload! I might as well just go after what makes sense to me at the moment and develop in certain key areas when the timing is right.

I was such an emotional wreck, but now I'm starting to gain a whole ton of stability and it's only getting better for me. Yet, it's time for me to avoid the potential bad things that could happen for me and go after balancing my emotional drives with the people I'm fully interested in.

Vacation, So Much Fun!

What's really awesome for me is that I don't have to work for the next couple weeks. I'm going to really enjoy this vacation, along with the bonuses I received from work. For the first time, I actually have a decent amount for a salary. I didn't expect myself to reach this level, but it's a great confidence booster. For my income, I reached only 40 K compared to my 25 K that never could top itself out. I was recommended a job by a friend who ended up putting a restraining order on me and then quitting his job because of it and not wanting to be around me. Yeah, he was just really stressed out and not thinking straight; he's still a little like that and is never going to change. Oh well, I can shake off my feelings of being really angry at him.

It's funny though and seems like a story you would only find in the movies. I think I have enough of those incidences for others to be sort of interested at poking their noses with me. I really should just start thinking about the worst, possible outcomes and if it's something I can't really handle or is going to look bad on me then might as well just avoid it and move on.

Being Under Emotional Discomfort

When life feels so unfair about anything, big or small, there are things that could happen and create this personal feeling of being tormented. It's very difficult to manage, and it's not a wonderful aspect to live with. Yet, no matter how much I do things right, it's only going to keep on adding itself on a daily basis to having to reach a high level and to stay there.

When it becomes all empty inside and allowing society to define who we are supposed to be, life just feels so meaningless at times. My life isn't really supposed to be about keeping myself occupied with funny T.V. shows or playing super fun and crazy-addictive video games. It isn't really about wasting time like a drug and then hoping for the day to never end.

I really think it's all about perseverance and thinking about the right level. If others can't reach this level while reaching out to them, I believe it's appropriate to let them go now and to just move on. If time permits by a chance meeting, then I think that's the appropriate time to conduct personal business and to attempt things to settle then.

Feeling Down But Staying Positive

For me, I feel really hurt inside when a person doesn't want to have anything to do with me. I'm not used to the feeling of someone trying to push me far away as possible and doing whatever they can to get it their way. I just don't want to be a bad person to them, so when I try to make things better and things just keep getting worse, I might as well just let it go then if I run out of time in being with them. When I am with them, I should do the best I can to solve it, but when I am not with them, I should make the effort as much as possible to not go chasing after them.

The feelings I get of being hurt from being so let down and rejected over nothing serious should pretty much be something I should feel and then be able to use to relate to others who are also feeling sad. With it, I should manage myself by being actually positive and working at something to be successful at. I don't need to cover my shame and frustrations over taking it out on video games, neither do I need to keep my head low, I should keep it high and aim for the wonderful things in life. After all, I know who my type of girl is now that I want to marry.

Like A Spiritual Sodom And Gomorrah

Sodom and Gomorrah are two ancient cities based on the Bible where they both ended up becoming in ruins. The main characters of this Bible story were pretty much running away from the cities, while it was getting blown up into bits. The sad thing that happened was that the wife of the main dude Lot (interesting name) looked back at the city and then turned into a pillar of salt. Seems pretty messed up, along with adding to a crazy tale about his daughters.

Anyway, I'm not interested in what those cities represent to typical Bible students. I'm just looking at it from how what it reminds me of my situation. Basically, something very bad was going on in those two cities that made God judge that they had to be destroyed. In a way, I feel that the church that screwed me over has something bad going on there and despite there being a couple good people there, it isn't really going to thrive that well. I'm just going to go for a figurative run and just go far away from that church now without turning my head back now. I'm calling for a separating of ways- a separate peace, in other words.

I'm just going to abandon every thought I had going with that church now and just go do my thing. I want to see things the way God intended it to be, and it's not happening for me so far. Oh well, might as well just keep on trying to read the Bible.

Getting Ready For A New Year

I'm pretty much planning some fun stuff over the next year. At least a good thing is that I finally figured out who my type of girl really is and yeah, she's still on my Facebook. It feels like she could be the last female standing for me, if I end up losing all my other female friends. Well, I'm never going to lose my adopted sister on there anyway. I also have a few more great female friends I'll never lose either.

Well, it can't be really that bad. I'm just getting mentally beat up by people who suck at managing their own personal feelings and get so cranky about it with me when I end up bugging them about stuff they put me through. It's something I'm just going to have to accept this sad area of defeat in and just move on with eventually. I don't want to be the bad guy anymore and then crash and burn later my other great relationships I've had over the years. I need to figure out this balance eventually because I'm really selfish in this area of wanting to get along with everyone.

Unexpected Year

Something I recall as a kid was having dealt with some mean-spirited female classmates. I think a large reason is that it just made me feel so much in despair and that pretty much entailed how I was down and out. In the process though, the girl ended up acting somewhat nice with me again after awhile. I used to be so sensitive about these little emotional things; I've truly lost a whole sight of it from trying to grind out something I can't let go of.

I think I should just accept how unfair the situation is for me and let me feel the sadness and grief that results over it. I mean I should let myself mourn over whatever it is and just do the best I can to push forward and move on. At the same time, I should be focusing on the positive and good things that I've come to realize and how I should be so diligent at going after things that are so greatly admired.

Honestly, it's really all about timing. Even if I didn't get the desired result, I'm going to have to take in the sad feelings and work at staying positive still and just move on the right and happy way. I'll just tell myself, maybe next time, it will be different.

Basic Communication

Now, I'm getting these thoughts of "This girl's crazy" and that. Boy, that was a weird interaction I had with this single mom; she sort of likes me in a hateful way. Therefore, she is not my type. What happened was that I was explaining to her why I'm bugging her and others and that if she wants me to stop, then they should try to get along with me in a friendly manner. She ended up whining about how I was being annoying to her and that she would block my messages. I told her that she had done so repeatedly; she ended up denying it and then stated she blocked me and wished me happy salutations of my journey in seeking her out.

Honestly, I think that girl was just messing with me without even knowing it. I think she was also feeling sick of me trying to reason with her at the same time and ended up sending me a sadistic and playful message. I'm just laughing because the comments I wrote make me laugh so much, and I truly understand her reaction even though I'm disappointed with her. I think it's been done and said with plenty of fair time to interact with one another and even though I feel drawn in to her, I don't feel right about it. I'm just going to move on and let her live her life.

The Bad Person I Could Have Been

I think the good thing about not giving into my evil and selfish desires of humiliating another person and annoying the heck out of him by just constantly yelling at him all the time is that my relationships with people I get along really well with have only become more stronger. The flip side of it is that the ones who I'm doing bad with have only become even more worse; it's like walking away from a drawn line and never looking back and just continuously going further away.

Despite my downfall with a bunch of sore losers and idiots who can't manage their own feelings and blame others for their own mess they put themselves into, I have very good welfare for myself. It looks like more and more though as time flies, I don't need to worry about these losers biting my rear behind later on in life. I was in so much panic mode because I was trying to be nice and like pulling the wrong strings on every end of a corner. Instead of getting chewed up in the grinder, I ended up escaping and it looks like there's a good sign of hope for me.

Now, I realize I'm communicating my thoughts of why I'm bugging these people at a personal level with them. At least, it's what I would call basic communication because I'm laying out my demands and capitalizing on what would bother these people.

Analyzing Spending Of Time

I think a major part of spending time really comes with the thoughts we center our minds on. For a pretty annoying amount of time, I was thinking about how to solve a relationship issue with some people I hardly know and were fed up with me. I kept on trying but it seems like things were getting worse because my mentality on the topic wasn't so penchant about it.

I then came up with the strategy of asking those people to go separate ways with me, and I think that's where it made me start thinking more positive. It's something relatively new to me, and it's actually worked out quite well for me in the standing of others. Basically, the ones who are more or less prone to becoming anxious about something or have to acquaint themselves with such people are not really around the people I associate with! Oh well, if they ended up deciding to delete me as a Facebook friend and block my calls and messages, then I guess I have no problems asking to go separate paths with them. In a way, for myself, it's just practicing in how to break up with a girl, so I don't see any problems with those people and I'll take it as it goes in life now.

Big Three Activities

I'm reminding myself of a simple routine to do for myself to reach my own personal goals, right before I go work in the afternoon at a business. Right after completing those three tasks for myself, I would then have time to go after more worthwhile long-term goals in mind and be able to run personal errands. I think this is a great and simple way to balance out on being a task-oriented or goal-oriented person.

The power of three makes it not to complicated and not to banal to think about completing. I mean, what if it could be done in any order; just pick your preference each morning. I think some people could possibly even do a list of top 10 activities they can't live without and maybe, drinking coffee would be one of them!

Mine is a pretty simple list and crazy at the same time. I have only three main things I must do, while keeping in check that it's always subject to change. The three things are for me right now: working out on a daily basis, learning a language, and doing some trading. I actually have a fourth one I'm trying to add in currently and that's just listening to a little bit of the New King James Bible each morning, which has been recorded by Hollywood actors and is a pretty refreshing sound that could be used like a bedtime story for me, if I wanted it to be.

Prioritizing Tasks

Something I am still struggling with is trying to complete the most favorable tasks for myself first and then maintaining that on a daily basis. Just like others, I definitely have goals in mind. I'm just breaking it down even further now and just going for the things that make sense.

I don't harbor any bad feelings for others and now understand the ridiculous humor out of a friend placing a restraining order on another friend. I also understand how incredibly funny it is for a person to get kicked out of any Christian-related church and asked to never come back by congregation members. I guess when those things happen, it's probably better to just move on and deal with how funny it is and just to continually stay positive. I also think it's funny now when any acquaintance just doesn't want to deal with your shenanigans and deletes you as a Facebook friend on purpose or ends up blocking your phone calls now.

The most important thing is to just not be negative and to preach about being positive and live in this wonderful manner. I think it's good to move on and keep an open heart to greater possibilities in the future- that's how I intend to do it.

What I'm So Used To Doing

In the current situation I am in, I am so used to just playing video games. That's right, I would just kill my time by finding some useless missions of some role-playing game to keep my mind occupied and away from all the unnecessary drama people have to deal with sometimes. In a way, it can actually be a pretty common thing I suppose; however, I'm just not that good looking as I would have liked to become.

Therefore, I just want to keep improving my body and see if I can become in even better shape than before and to keep on developing myself. I also still remember some commitments in the back of my head and I'm like putting them aside always while trying to go after something I want to do. I think there are really good things to stress out over and something nice to be able to withstand while just not being very sure of things sometimes.

No matter what things throw you off in the beginning, I think the more important thing to do is to just climb back up to the top again. It's to pretty much aim to be more better than before. What I notice is this, when others start wrongly accusing you of things that aren't really there but they tap your guilty conscience and then you end up doing something wrong, then you end up in a situation that becomes very hard to climb out of. The effects only start multiplying and make things get even more worse. I must surely be fortunate because I finally reached the light at the end of the tunnel.

Not That Good With People I Guess

I guess it's normal to develop issues with people. What I had going was a definite misunderstanding and something I had a little trouble learning to take very lightly. Sometimes, the imaginations of others stressing out so much becomes so brutal in that they end up taking measures and doing stuff to try to make you look bad. I think overall, I'm not really that attractive of a person then and I think there's probably reasons why things happen in this world.

All I can really do is just be diligent to the best of my ability and try to be successful in this world. People are just going to come and go, and I'm really seen upon as no different to most people. However, some see me as this strange and annoying person who doesn't know when to stop trying. I think in life trials are meant to occur in which the emotions get put on some type of trial and then get tested. A situation could be very unpleasant and cause you to become angry and bitter but those things do occur for mostly everyone. We are just not so privy about it with ourselves and are used to looking down on others who do become this way and then to be able to have an attractive focus of direction as our answer, like watching T.V. or hanging out with people who you don't stress out so much around.

I think I'm seriously doing my part by trying to eliminate all the negativity that I've been dealing with. It doesn't really bother me so much as it used to.

Probably Going To Be Awhile

I think from being a guy and it's noticeable that I could be seen upon as a pretty wild character, it probably scares a lot of people. I'm just one of those people who just give off some signs that make bothered people go more worse. It's just the way I am, and there's really nothing I can do about it. I also like to conceal my true successes with other people too and just be noticed as like a regular person.

I think the type of person I am is that I don't appeal to all and don't have access to everybody. It must just be a natural thing sometimes for people to just choose a certain crowd and just associate with them. All I can really say now is that I'm trying to be nice and that's just the best I can flow with and to just go from there. There are some very cool and open individuals I know and maybe, when sometimes the decision of one might seem a little negative, in some ways, it actually works out for the better in mysterious outcomes.

Simplified Again With Personal Ambitions

I'm just keeping it simple by looking to work out daily, studying a foreign language, doing my thing with trading the foreign exchange market, blogging, listening to the Bible, and then studying for a I.T. career. I've picked for my I.T. career the field of network engineering. The main reason for this is because there is so many new opportunities forming everyday and new jobs being added to it; it's so tremendous and I want to be a part of this exciting growth in this I.T. world now. For this reason alone, even though I am a trained programmer with a successful computer science undergraduate background, I want to switch over to that field now.

I think it totally makes sense with how I want to spend my personal time for developing in a no nonsense direction. I'm basically cutting out the stuff that are wasting my time and letting go of my grudges with some people who don't make sense to me. I might as well just let them go and do their thing and stay out of their way. I'm a genius with people because I figured out how to deal with them now, but I don't have the time to commit to them anymore when it's really time for me to grow as a person and become successful at something. I might as well just go separate paths with them and let this be a powerful experience for me to gain more in the favor of my direction.

Personal Dedication

I'm planning on mainly dedicating with keeping my desk clean! I'm also working at not wasting my time with thoughts that I don't have a great use for anymore. I'm working at letting go of all my grudges still by not relying on my emotions and actually being aware of them. I'm really going to have to try sooner or later without worrying so much about being let down. I think it's sort of funny to be turned down by others over some mishap that doesn't relate to them, but I guess you can treat a person to be sort of like a customer in the real world and go along with the saying that the customer is always right!

It's a work in progress for me, but what's really helping me a lot is just not relying on my emotions so much anymore and going after the sound things the Bible encourages all of us to do. A big help of keeping my life in balance comes from thinking about my ideal type, and it's a pretty neat thing because I did actually get a chance to meet her in person at a friend's party and talk to her a bit. I'm pretty glad to have discovered her for myself and that there might be a possibility of more of her type being out there. I'm basically inspired to go after the things that would be pleasing to her also by preventing myself from doing some things related to the flesh.

New Trade Setup

I have really modified my trading tools again but this time I'm using a lot of western technical indicators with some of my knowledge of candlesticks along with a decent risk-reward ratio to help me trade. It's sort of a trial and error basis and it also looks like from my trading preferences, I just prefer to trade whenever I can and just get into a swing trade. I'm basically placing in a stop loss to account for the news and all of the unpredictable things that go on in a market, along with having a pretty decent win ratio. I think I can seriously hack it this way without getting so greedy and actually accept a balance for myself  in my own trading preferences with all that I can do.

Still Staying Up To Date

Possibly in place of my difficult times of wishing to play online poker to get that itch satisfied, I think I'll just have to settle for writing one of my boring posts instead on this blog. I really like this confidentiality of my true identity that I'm actually with-holding from everyone. In other words, I must be not really into continuously putting up funny images on this site. I'm just keeping it the way it is.

My life has pretty much been about keeping up with cool things! It's pretty clear and some things really distract me. I think I should really try to get back to maintaining my own personal health even if I linger off of it, not because I feel about it but because I truly desire to obtain a very active and healthy body I can feel confident and energetic about. In other words, it would just be cool to have it and something really fun to enjoy.

Yeah, I don't look down on others with however they want to live their lives; I don't even hold grudges even though some of them test my patience every once in awhile. I'm just not even going to relying on my emotions- this is pretty much my main battle plan and has been working effectively at coming up with very cool strategies that actually make sense and work. It's also getting me to act a lot more shrewd around some people to. I guess it's overall nothing negative and just going after the cool and positive stuff in my own life, while parting ways with people who don't want to hack it with me. It sucks to lose a girl of your dreams in this manner too, but I like imagining how to please her at the moment. Anyway, I think she's not a huge Facebook fan, so it doesn't really hurt so bad neither does it make me feel she has something against me.

Investing and Saving Money

Instead of going after the quick spoils in life, I think the better thing to do is just hard work and then obtaining the riches from it. Obviously, we all have our own levels of interest and what we can handle but nonetheless, the principles still stay the same. When our lives circulate around what distresses us so much, it really causes so much distractions and headaches for others who actually care about us. I may be a selfless person from how I wish to live and how I feel excited about portraying myself with, but nonetheless what if I go overboard too and then end up losing it with some individuals?

In other words, through digression we sometimes get the impulse to go out and by a hamburger or buy a friend a ticket to an attraction, and other stuff like that. When our minds are just completely whacked out of cycle for letting something get to us so much then it causes a frenzy and makes the person do some crazy things others become displeased with. It doesn't matter whether we did good or bad, but what matters more is if the other person who is judging the situation is actually pleased with you or not. Some are just so selfless at not expressing their approval or disapproval with you and are just plain so cool!

Well, in a nutshell it's really about monitoring what you are spending on. All I really do is just go online and check my transactions and how much money I have left in my bank. I try to cut down on things I don't really find the time to use for if I did end up spending. I am also working at specializing on some times. Right now, I just want to hang out to this blog today because I'm actually a little worried about not receiving my 365 posts on time this year. I guess that's why I'm just hanging around these posts today to get as much done as possible while I'm still in the mood for blogging.

Adjusting Goals

Sometimes when we talk about our goals, we are actually hiding our true intentions. I know this because I'm accustomed to having done this all the time. From not wishing to waste my time over thoughts I don't want to commit to now and not relying on my personal feelings, I'm actually relating to those thoughts being something I can ignore and push out of my own system.

Those hidden agendas is what was really preoccupying most of my thoughts. From wishing to hold no grudges and actually not relying on my feelings so that I won't overreact, I'm now thinking more reasonably. Actually, I wasted time over imagining a very realistic scenario and outcome; I think that's how good I've become at keeping up with the hidden agenda regarding a bunch of bad people. Yet, initiating the separating of ways with them and not pursuing them in a vengeful way is actually turning out to be quite good for me. I'm also not stupid at the same time and am quite keen at surprising individuals going off-center with me.

The major perspective is turning out to be first what the Bible is encouraging us to do and secondly, what my actual type who would fall for me would be pleased with. Everything seems to be in place for me now, I just need to secure a really nice home now to be complete in this physical realm. Seriously, with my own type I want to her to be really giddy and head-over-heels swept off her feet with me while I find ways to support and please her; I am also the type who won't let go of family and stay committed to for very long and extended periods of time, from actually having an ability to look at others' perspective by overthrowing my own emotions and not grudging over them.

Living For Better Things

I think the act of blogging whatever I'm thinking about while holding nothing against anyone, it really becomes a powerful tool to just communicate about anything with anyone interested at the moment and also my own personal subconscious. In other words, it's really the act of doing something meaningful to me and isn't really wasting any time because I'm physically doing something by typing away on this keyboard and creating some casual essay about my personal life I want to adorn with excitement and satisfaction.

At the same time, I'm not relying on my own feelings to manage what I would normally see as a negative thing. Seriously, initiating the separating of ways with some people is the most ingenious thing I could have ever come up with. It's also with no grudge and having nothing against them; it's seriously something that I never really did in the past and just flowed so naturally for me, but now I'm actually willing myself to go in this direction.

Actual Physical Stuff To Work On

I've been totally discouraged to go after a funny career of being an online poker player. Basically, I had a personal arrangement where I didn't need to put in any more money and I could literally build my bankroll for free starting by gaining a quarter to a few dollars each day in under fifteen minutes. It would have been just for fun, but looks like that option is no longer available for me now. I'm highly discouraged to turn it into an actual gamble on my income, so I'm just going to let it go. I'm not going to rely on my feelings of wanting to go back to it now. I think this area of gambling wouldn't even satisfy what the Bible encourages us to do and the woman who ends up falling for me.

That being said, I will have an additional 15 to 30 minutes to do whatever I need to do for getting at my own personal goals. No more thoughts to waste my own time with, even if I know I'm a genius and solved the approach to making it work which I actually did. Seriously, it's just not worth it to me these days and it would be better to just go separate ways. I'm ready to move on to greater things now and I'm not holding any grudge on anybody. I'm just fully free now and I'm not relying on my own feelings. I will be constantly monitoring myself because this is going to be rather difficult to be keeping up with, but I think it would be pleasing to the passages found in the Bible and also my actual type I want to settle down with.

Thinking Straight

No longer am I going to waste my time of matters in my head with things that I don't want to commit to for long periods of time. I'm going to for a more pragmatic approach this time and not rely so much on my own feelings for myself. When it comes time to fall in love or something, that will become a cool matter to resolve but for now I have a big house to go fetch before I try swaying the heart of my actual type. I want to do everything in my power to make her fully satisfied and also excited about sharing a life with me. I seriously believe that she will be the most beautiful woman in the world to me and that everyone who thinks otherwise is just being crazy!

Whatever I had going that's taking too long and not promoting my current endeavors, I'm just going to numb those thoughts out now. I'll worry about it later when my emotional I.Q. deems it worthy to. For now, it's time for me to ransack my own feelings and go after nothing negative in my end. I want to live a fully satisfying and exciting life to the maximum amount possible with whatever current situation I am in. It's so much easier when there are no grudges going through your own heart, and this is where I intend to keep it without relying on my feelings. It's hard work in my focus to stay concentrated on the important matters I want to stay committed in now.

Turning People Loose

I think it's best for me to just not exhibit any negative feelings with anything that happened and to just go after what would be great for me. I'm going to just have to do my best to not give into my personal feelings when they deal with anything negative. This is something that I'm pretty aware of in that I can actually monitor my own personal feelings regarding anything in the moment I'm dealing with something.

For these last couple days, I've been imagining in my head all the possibilities that I could do and imagining things that I believe have an ability in. I'm not going to focus on things that I don't want to commit to right now and go for the ones that I seriously have the demand for now. I understand that people are people now and how I don't have a grudge for any one of them who ended up becoming negative with me. I'm not using my own feelings in this matter either.

I do believe that initiating the parting of ways with a person could really be powerful on my end and give me a reason to seek after better things in my own life. I think this has to be done by the better side to be very effective.

Going Separate Ways

I now believe that possibly with some things that don't work out, despite personal feelings of wanting to hang on to something, then maybe it's better to initiate the going of our separate ways and to just go from there. I think life is really all about struggles and getting there, even if we lack in certain traits or characteristics others are looking for.

What I should really focus on now is what I can do and with what I'm going to do in the present. I don't think I want to plan too far away with some things that are too low in personal value now. Basically, I'm holding no negative feelings at anything that's happened to me now, but I'm not stupid either. I really like this arrangement I'm making for myself now.

Not Wasting Time With Stupid Thoughts

I think stupid thoughts are pretty much the way you think and then get nothing accomplished from it. In other words, it's pretty much thinking about something and then not putting it into any form action related to it. I believe this is a form of wasting time. Obviously, there are preferences in the way we have with thinking. For instance, sometimes it's just addicting and flavorful to check up on which actors are in a movie and to read up a little on their interests with the development of the movie they are starring in.

However, some thoughts are greater than others and so we all have a value system with which thoughts should be given greater preference than others. Definitely, focusing on just being random with negative movements and actions is really losing. I know this and I think I can limit myself to doing positive things most of the time, if I can't do it all the time. I think the key is to pretty much not use any emotions.

Sometimes the things we perceive to be true really don't cut it because it was from having been really emotional or holding a grudge on something. It's pretty funny how some people do this to me now, and I'm not going to get all angry really sudden now if I can't understand what they are doing or being a certain way to make me feel so bugged. I'm not going to give in to these negative feelings because the way I see it now, it's losing and wasting time with stupid thoughts.

It Doesn't Matter What I Am

To some people, it doesn't even matter that I think I'm a nobody. It doesn't matter that I always want to humble and thinking righteously. I'm always going to try to put up the good fight and keep on racing to the end. I'm now pulling the plugs on some indecent things no matter how addicted or distant I feel from it because I actually believe in God that I want to please and also have a type I like in a female and I want to please her too.

I am trying to make time for everything now that is important, but I've been stuck on things that aren't that important. I need to do this more for myself now and because I just want to. My mind used to be in a different place and I used to set things on overdrive, but now I'm not really like that with a mind of my own and some people are just not taking it too well with me.

I'm going to live a blameless life to the best of my ability. I think the solution is really to not have a grudge with anything and to settle things down with some people by just initiating a parting of ways, despite my true intentions of staying friends. I think it's better for me to do this just to be the better man now. Anything that I see or hear, I won't give into my anger but go after showing love. Basically, what's been working pretty well for me is not relying on my personal feelings and then working at resolving the situation with the best solution and then not having any negative reaction from it. It's pretty much losing in anything when a person shows any form of negativity in a conversation and this is something that I finally figured out. I'm not going to use my emotions at all and go for what I want and then go for the best solution of moving on. It's pretty much just apologizing to the person and asking them to part ways and go separate ways despite my intentions of trying to become friends with them again. I think that's pretty much what I'm going to be doing a lot for awhile with some people. So far, they haven't given me the sign of wanting to truly move on with me; I think they still want to hang on to a part of me, since I asked them in this unique fashion. Yeah, I'm absolutely different in a good way and I intend to keep it that way.

Fighting Off Grudges

There are big or little things people can do to get us angry, sad, or upset. As long as we don't let those things get to us and put in our effort to not use our unreliable feelings in those areas and work hard in areas we could be more productive then I think it's okay to engage in a conversation with a person who would normally upset you.

I think what I'm saying is to basically be in the act of moving on by not holding any grudges and fighting it off on the inside and to let go of any insecurity. Wow, now that I think of it, my little sister and some people I've associated with are really in a mess with their hearts. They really did it to themselves more than what I really did to bother them as a person.

I think the general guideline is to look up on some definition of words like the word grudge because some people will place a different meaning onto it. By having a dictionary at our use, we actually have something that could be our standard. What I get from the word grudge in the dictionary is pretty much making a negative reaction towards something in a nutshell. I am going to eliminate all of those negative emotions directed at that person now and not even flirt around with it and just go from there. So pretty much, the opposite of not having a grudge would pretty much be always showing love! That's it, I finally have it and all this time I was struggling with my own insecurities. I guess I'm meant to be an exception to a crowd in this world.