I now believe that possibly with some things that don't work out, despite personal feelings of wanting to hang on to something, then maybe it's better to initiate the going of our separate ways and to just go from there. I think life is really all about struggles and getting there, even if we lack in certain traits or characteristics others are looking for.
What I should really focus on now is what I can do and with what I'm going to do in the present. I don't think I want to plan too far away with some things that are too low in personal value now. Basically, I'm holding no negative feelings at anything that's happened to me now, but I'm not stupid either. I really like this arrangement I'm making for myself now.