Storing Wealth

It's a lovely thing to be able to possess knowledge, confidence, patience, courtesy, and diligence. The saying goes "You reap what you sow." It's crazy how the Bible mentions that in a verse and that pop culture will still address those types of adages occasionally.

I think it first comes down to making a decision to what impacts your interests the most. Secondly, it's about carrying it out in the utmost effort. Distractions exist in life obviously, but sometimes we need those forms of entertainment so that we won't get so burnt out.

I haven't really been specializing in anything, but it looks like I've been basically writing for myself. I've been making this a habit in that basically, I would want to read this blog myself on a consistent basis. I still have some work to do get to that point obviously, so I really haven't reached my fullest potential yet. Also, this is something that I'm doing for fun while being like a lone wolf.

Starting To Put Things Together

Time and maintaining self-control play a large factor
to coming up with solutions.

I myself am starting to believe that there are more
to life than what you think about.

It sounds a little cliche.

Living Life

I'm starting to see how I could make a living and do some fun things while at it. I'm going to just be very patient with finding the right person to settle down with. I seriously don't care about the woman's appearance- she just needs to have the right personality and lifestyle that would be compatible for me. After all, it's about settling down now and if an ugly lady ends up putting on makeup and wearing the right clothes, then she's going to look pretty anyway!

I already know that I'm not that bad looking and actually have a decent amount of intelligence. That's good enough for me, despite me being short. I don't think being short really matters either now. If I date a taller lady and she doesn't mind, then I won't care either about it now. Who cares what people really think when it comes down to true love?

Simple and Narrow Path

Even though I don't feel motivated emotionally, I do know mentally, physically, and spiritually what might be good for me. Therefore, if all my other senses are indicating the optimal direction then I shouldn't really be letting my feelings override everything like a silly and selfish person we could all be sometimes.

I guess it's something that I would like to call taking heart, and it's actually very rewarding to have kept a stable path for a long time and to feel content over it. It's like being a good man who ends up settling down while having kids to go with a beautiful and loving wife and then enjoying a long life.

What I notice about small churches is a possible flaw in that their emotions can take over and cause some setbacks; there's also a little deception and lack of necessity in the environment that could be taking place. Something about big churches that could be good is a very strong vision which has been blessed by influential people or God or maybe both!

I think a great, small church might exist in some parts of the world where the gospel is seriously lacking and by an extremely dedicated person who wants to serve God. I think churches in the U.S. could be based on personal needs and going shopping for it. I truly think that it's going to take personal effort with studying the details yourself and gathering information that's given to you to put together a working concept to find the truth or redemption that one was looking for. Being locked onto a feeling could be reinforcing and even feel so right that you don't want to give it up, but when the mind and spirit take over to see what's going on, then maybe, something truly happened that really shouldn't have.

Becoming Practical

It looks like I'm going to be kicking the habit of a few things I notice bad about myself. I'm not specifically going into those details because I think it's better being left in the dark and only for my closest friends to know about.

I can reveal though that T.V. is starting to become an issue for me. I'm also noticing that I'm enjoying on reading about random stuff all over the Internet. It could be about people like today, I ended up reading about a former pilot who fought in the Vietnam War preventing a greater massacre from occurring even though there were people on his side against it. He was bashed by some of his superiors and Congressmen; however, he ended up being awarded the highest medal of honor the Army can dish out. It's called the My Lai massacre, which I read about after looking up on house arrest from Wikipedia. It was actually pretty fun to branch out like that from one topic to another and read up on exciting details.

I can sort of feel the sensitive nature that some would be keen to go crazy about. Yet, my mind dwells a little too much in an area that is quite distracting. I think I'm seeing that even though I'm going to get bored with something, it might actually be better to keep myself on a straight and narrow path. It's like a disease if I don't because then, I'm not really getting anything done right.

I get some flashbacks that I also feel embarrassed and want to start swearing over those instances to myself while no one is looking. It's something in that moment that I become very mindless and do something uncanny with myself.

Some Little Things

I scratched up my convertible on the bottom a little and it looks like the hood could use a brand new paint job. I guess the radio in my car is sweet too, and I could do a little updating for the GPS instead of putting it aside and not treating it that diligently.

I think I'm pretty mindless over my stuff these days, which is a little bad. I haven't really used the stuff I bought to maximal use, so maybe I'm not really meant to be a consumer then.

I think I need to just spend time and get used to a formal routine for myself and just accept that sometimes, there won't be much going on for me on most days that I want to be out there. I guess it should be motivation to keep on doing hard work and researching for a better outcome. One of my friends' brother has constantly been egotistical and likes to communicate with us in private about it. It's pretty funny, and I think he's being really foolish and can see that he isn't going too far in life.

I should just let up on the video games and T.V. whenever I'm with my closest pal. It's not really making my situation of getting bored any better. It only does a decent amount of providing me satisfaction of having a great friend to hang out with.

Trading Result

I ended up doing 6 trades and won half of them. It's not that bad considering how I still have plenty of bank roll left over and still a decent amount of money to support myself.

Well then, I guess I just have to put up an effort in a constant manner properly and maybe, I'll do just fine!

Grand Focus

I'm just typing away really quickly right now because this is all I really have going for right now. I'm enjoying some time off right after Thanksgiving. One of my relative's friend said that it's going to be 2015 and that why should one really go crazy over Black Friday? A person can just shop online these days instead of lining up like at a Best Buy for some goodies.

I'm not really interested in purchasing any stuff now. I guess I'm really content with the stuff that I have, so I'm realizing that I get bored over stuff that I originally would think is fun. I'm starting to analyze my own personality a little better. Overall, my psychology is that I'm living a normal up and down life and actually doing just fine for being a male. It's just that I got on the nerves of very few people, and they tried to run me over for it figuratively speaking but just couldn't. I'm starting to realize that I think I can actually snap them out of their short-tempered outbursts with me. Yeah, maybe if they are going to act that way with me over something that is perceived to be not that big of a deal, compared to bigger examples in life, then maybe they do need to go talk it over with a professional.

Simple Goals In Mind

I'm really having a lot of fun watching The Simpsons after all these years of growing up with it. For me, I really like the satire that comes out from the show. I guess every once in awhile I just can't help myself but give into those entertaining things and just let my brain rot.

Believe it or not though, things have been getting easier for me to communicate without coming across as very insincere. I'm really missing a few more practices in my life. Like for instance, I notice that for being a small-time Christian, I should be really reading the Bible everyday. I still skip it, but every once in awhile during a weekday, I do look at Scriptures. I'm trying to make reading the Bible a habit for me. I am convinced in God by just reason of faith- it gives me hope and a state of peace for my heart. I prefer to be loving much as possible to others; it's really bad how being annoyed with someone can inspire a short fuse and hatred.

I remember doing that to my baby cousin who was about hitting people while he was growing up. It was this five or six year old kid mimicking Power Rangers and just yelling at people while hitting them for no reason. I think I was around 14 or 15, I fought back and ended up doing my weak Tae Kwon Do kicks and punches on him. He screamed, "Ouch!" I tried to hurt him as much as possible, but my master made us practice by not hurting each other. I had that mentality set up of snapping my punches, so it made the feeling less painful. Oh well, my cousin is breathing and alive today! He declined an invitation to one of my birthdays recently, too.

Trading Result

Today, I entered 12 trades and ended up losing 9 of them! What I noticed I did wrong was that I was entering trades that were pretty close to support and resistance, so it didn't work out. I also noticed that I need a trading time frame of at least an hour. The good thing though is that I can mainly rely on my 1-hour chart to get it going.

I'll try again and see how it ends up. Fortunately, I'm not losing that much from losing all these trades so it's really nice that I'm getting a lot of chances to just have fun with it. If I end up blowing my account, then I have Forex to invest in anyway and also stuff to work on for upgrading my career and salary.

Won Good Amount of Trades

I invested in eight stocks today and ended up winning seven of them. Wow, it's really nice because it took me about a half hour's amount of effort to get it going. I thought I was going to end up losing those trades from following a pattern systematically, but it ended up going my favor. 

I'm still messing around with the stock market, so I only have about $2000 of my own money to work with. I'm just investing the bare minimum of $25 with binary trades. I ended up profiting $100 from just thirty minutes of work! I was on longer because I was worried about losing those trades, but I went for it this time because I was just curious about how my charts work.

I really have a system going that relies on support and resistance, candlestick patterns, moving averages, and an overall market sentiment that I receive from investing.com. It's been quite a ways for me to get this far for now. I'm going to try out the same methodology for about a whole month and see where I end up. I might be able to profit at the bare minimum on any given notice per month, which is pretty cool. 

Looking Smart

I ran across an article that talks about how you can predict if the man is smart. It says that if the man's face is long and has pretty wide-set eyes then you can count on the guy being pretty smart. Honestly, from comparing myself to those details- man, I look pretty smart! Just look at my last photo- it adds up to how I look pretty intelligent. I'm not that bad looking either, which is nice! It gives me all the confidence I need from being a shorty and chase after taller women too, if I feel like it. Just not now because I might be taken!

Here's the link below:

http://www.medicaldaily.com/facial-features-predict-iq-men-long-face-and-wide-set-eyes-make-men-look-smart-not-women-273710

Self-pose

This is me right after having woke up. I guess I don't look too bad. I read one time in the media about an actor, Josh Hartnett sporting what's called the woke-up-from-bed look. It had a small fad of being considered to be sexy, and he was pulling it off while wearing jeans and a white T-shirt. I just thought I try it out too. Hey, I like my teeth appearing white! I've been taking decent care of them, and like the feeling of them being clean.

The only problem about me according to my dad is that I need to work on some six-pack abs. Everything about me is not that bad even though I am a short and stocky individual.

At one point in the late 80s and early 90s, Tom Cruise was considered to be the best looking actor alive and he stands only 5' 7". He became a world famous movie star with the success of Top Gun. This goes to show that even short actors can end up being successful and have tall, beautiful wives.

Photo With A Female Friend

I put this photo up and it was fun. She was excited because I asked her to go with me to fly a plane. I ended up going with a girl because I was just in the mood for doing that. After taking a lesson with her and figuring that the teacher was going to give us our money's worth, she didn't want to go eat at any restaurant. It bugged me a little that she didn't want to go anywhere, but now I've found out that she's very picky and complains pretty often about anything in the restaurant from being picky. She even has a buddy that she can call and start venting while cussing in Chinese!

Anyway, I'm not revealing the woman's name. It's so funny because we are just friends. It was good times and I don't think I'm all that great looking of a guy. Oh well, it was just one of those days. She seems to be in a friendly and approachable mood with me. I can tell that she's cool with me, and it looks like she doesn't have anyone to settle down with right now.

My Portrait

This is an old photo of my best friend and me at a Halloween event at Queen Mary. It's where you go through some mazes featured on a ghost ship. It's pretty crazy how they make the boat inside claustrophobic by caving up space with props and hiding cast members in scary makeup on those corners. It's funny and a little entertaining for me to get a little startled. This is actually one of my first photos that I'm posting on this site after who knows, five years! 

I'm going to start opening up a little more because I'm a big kid now and fully grown up. I realize my own flaws and my obsessions from getting so mad at stuff sometimes. It's a good thing that I know what's going on now, which was driving me so crazy for awhile. I had to take some baby steps and it's like overnight after having those pieces come together, I had like this light bulb turn on inside my head. 

I'm the short one with a decent stocky build. I am stocky in person for a short guy but I've been accused of being stalky on Facebook by messaging people who I managed to get on their nerves. They were trying to help me out, but got flustered by me and then was like I want to tap out after bugging them so much. What their downfall is their lack of altruistic human character. For the longest time, I was letting it be their strong vantage point, so they are accustomed to shouting, cussing at me, and making uncontrolled remarks with lack of supporting content because they know I'll leave them alone from doing that. I just know that it's because I got on their nerves somehow after they were about trying to help me. 

The way to get around those people acting that way is to just keeping asking them "Why" questions dealing with their bad character and apologizing for bugging them. Once they stop responding to your "Why" questions, keep on repeating those "Why" questions and tell them you are sorry. The most important part of it all is to figure out the answers to those questions you are asking them first! If you don't and wait on their answer, it will drive you crazy. 

Knowledge Saves Time

The old saying goes, "Knowledge is power!" Hence, the funny image of Spongebob. I finally found out that appearance wise with very pretty female friends I have, first off, I actually have some female friends who look very pretty! In itself, it feels amazing I have some allowing me to be their friend on Facebook. The ladies who decided to remove me as a friend are sort of like in between with appearance and doesn't really appear that pretty in person.

Anyhow, I've found out that for visual stimulation, there are plenty of women out there who could be easy to the eyes if there's one girl who you feel so lustfully attracted to. This being said, I'm making a loose judgement call here that I don't think the appearance of a lady really matters too much. I don't want her to be super overweight of course that she won't be mobile anymore. That's more of a health concern for me, but dealing with natural looks and how she was born, I don't think it really matters too much to me now.

Whenever I feel that physical attraction buildup because of a lady looking so pretty to me, I'm just going to realize that there are replacements out there, which is sadly true. There are plenty of pretty actresses out there, but why waste time trying to contact them? I think good looks might actually be more common than one could think, so whether the person has it or not, it's really all about the inside personality for me first. I understand we have strengths and weaknesses and those are the things that people feel bonded to more!

GOALLLLLLL!!!

In a televised Spanish or Mexican soccer game, when a player of the team being rooted for makes a goal, the announcer goes really crazy and starts screaming "Goalllll!" and holds it for a few minutes. It's so funny because I remember that. I asked some Mexican friends about it, and they did the same thing while smiling with me about it.

I want to reach my goal, so that's what I'm referring to by writing this post. I asked my best friend if he thought I was annoying and then he said that no, I'm not and pretty much a chill person. My mind is a little displaced because a young woman in her twenties and likes to cuss quite a bit told me that I'm annoying to her and been that way for two years! She's been wanting me to stop messaging her because she's so bothered by it and says that I'm stalking her on Facebook. I really had to ask why after all that time, I'm still annoying to her?  I think I know the real answer to that one.

Anyhow, I'm looking to get back into trading again. I haven't done it for a few weeks now. I'm also trying to exercise into getting some very hard shaped abs and I'm trying to commit myself to doing some growth stretches. I guess I'm experiencing some laziness right now. I'm actually going after studying Network Security, Network Design, and computer programming right now. I'm going to go for being certified in those areas and then go looking for an assistant's position. I do have a computer science degree which is nice to begin with.

 Also, I'm planning on keeping up with reading the Bible. I just might finish off my thoughts of the Bible passages I read. I'm entirely not a pastor or anything and not even remotely a Bible student. I'm just going to keep it honest and if I don't know something, I'm going to admit it. If I'm making any opinions, then I'm also going to state that as well. Basically, for me anything that the Bible says pretty much goes and if some stuff makes me feel uncomfortable then I'm going to mention that too. I'm not going to hold back anything. Whether good or bad, I'm going to let it out.

Oh yeah, I do need a social life too so I definitely need to focus on that. It's a good thing that I can find stuff to do to keep myself occupied. I understand that with the way I socialize, it's really all about the person becoming annoyed in general, if something wrong is happening. With the person getting carried away and getting him or herself into a nightmarish world of Lala Land, I realize that's all I'm really been dealing with this whole time. I'm going to try to do my thing and snap them out of it, if it ever deals with me now and just continue to get better at socializing. I guess just by knowing the actual stuff underneath all of that horrific emotions getting plastered onto my face, it gives me some wiggle room to be a little more creative in getting them off their annoyed mood swings.

Getting Down Focus Power

With my insides wanting to tear me to pieces on rare occasions, on a daily basis I realize that my moodiness can be controlled by undiscovered biological mechanisms. If I'm not really thinking about anything and my brain just wants to become hyper-moody and I noticed it, then well, I don't have to get so mad about anything because it's just complete baloney!

I've learned a natural technique where I can just set aside the bad mood on a consistent basis now. It can be any negative emotion as well for me and by doing that I can just feel relaxed and focused with the utmost fashion.

I realize now that my mood might just randomly want to get a little agitated for no reason. I don't have to give into that feeling because it feels so weak! It's this natural state where you just accept the environment around you and then let go of the destructive mood and becoming so relaxed that working hard feels so easy! With having established a clear mind now, I feel like a winner and also very sorry for having bothered some people with psychological terrorism. It's all personal now and just between him or her and me. I don't need any help with it because of this calm and peaceful natural motives going on inside of me.

Free Time Activity Choices

I'm going to exercise discipline and patience now. Just forget about my dumb emotions now and how I feel lost and stressed about things. I'm just going to live through it and breathe well enough to calm my biometrics down. Even with a pretty girl around, I'm not going go hyper with her. With a lot of bad comments people make, I'm going to just take it in and filter out my selfish emotions. I'm not going to go crazy over that stuff.

A lot of this stuff helps because of my purposed heart of loving Jesus. My faith is ever-growing and I'm learning to understand more of its foundation. It's this sense of peacefulness and rationalism going on at the same time for my heart. I just feel joyful about doing good things because of my faith in God.

Basically, I'm going to avoid playing video games and watching television much as possible. It causes me distraction and away from interacting while feeling connected to people. I'm also going to avoid reading up on professional athletes and celebrities too then; I just don't have the time for it anymore. Basically, I'm going to try to avoid reading so much of pop culture.

The problem I'm facing right now is that I feel this extreme boredom or distaste for what I think would be good for me. I also feel like I'm getting lost in transition with myself. I think I'm going to just live through it and treat it like they are some form of withdrawal symptoms for me, even if it takes a long time to get over. I prefer being nice about stuff. I understand that some people are doing it all wrong but don't want to change still. Maybe, I just don't belong in some areas and have been extremely lucky to end up in some situations.

Patience With Proper Timing

I'm not feeling so avoidant anymore around people and my miseries anymore. I have been learning to properly channel my energy while letting go of angry emotions I have for people. After all, I've been nice enough of a person to keep moody people at bay by keeping it at a not so serious level. My assessment comes from the consequences and discernment of the situation, while throwing out my own emotional experiences. If what I say is correct, then that is very good for me.

There are millions of other people out there where I can try to reach for a better opportunity. I don't think letting myself get stuck with the bad one in my past is going to be a great investment for me. However, I made a written promise with them whether one would think it's foolish or not. It doesn't involve anything radical changing and not a very serious step. They are bothered by me; that's for sure and can't get rid of the feeling too well. With God being my witness, I'm going to carry it out to the best of my ability, but I think it's going to feel very rewarding when I do reach that situation and try to explain it to them.

Goals To Reach

Okay, I'm going to let go of of wasting time and be about developing decent relationships with others. I guess reading books and researching on stuff while reading about interesting news is a good thing. A quote says that discipline is about doing what you don't want to do when you don't want to. Basically, you are being an idiot then if you are dedicating your life to passing some video game and not getting any money out of it. I guess it's okay then when you are a kid though and it's illegal to work at that age.

It's time for me to grow up and despite the joys and cool feelings that go with investing my time playing fun video games like Call of Duty and Assassin's Creed, I'm at the age where I can't invest in that luxury now. I would rather spend my time mingling with good people and growing in my faithful relationship with God while focusing on building a loving family.

Choosing the Right Goals

With the actions that I'm taking, I'm feeling really empty inside and not feeling any fulfillment. It doesn't really have much effect with making my life that much better. Sure, it's entertaining at times and can keep me feeling lost while escaping from reality but that's not what God commanded us to do in the Bible.

I have some very sound goals and able to communicate it, but I'm having difficulty with staying on track with a permanent basis. It's the struggle to be seriously content. It's like this long process of waiting and can be very stressful. I guess it's just about concentrating and relaxing at the same time.

Spending Better Time

I'm having a hard time with my ineffectiveness of not doing what I want to do. I might have enough patience to work at something with the proper encouragement, but my insides feel all jittery. It must be an overwhelming emotion that just wants to consume you and cause your life to feel like it's falling apart.

I need to step up to the plate and clean up my act. My old habits are pretty much just messing around by myself while playing video games and just feeling lonely at times while depressed about having to go to work I feel bored with sometimes. I think I need to establish a better comfort level for others and myself and then to be able to accept my failed attempts and not let that bring me down so much.

Steering Mind In Right Direction

Let's just face it. I'm not great at the things I do and that if I want to get good at something then I have to spend a lot of time on it. I don't really have a lot of time to spend on things and don't really have anything for appealing to others.

Likewise, the majority of people aren't really that special anyway just like me. They could be going through any issue and even could make it seem like a normal thing to unsuspecting individuals.

Changing Things Around

I think a lot of it deals with patience, confidence, and just determination in getting things done consistently. I struggled for years with my emotional anxieties and now feel like I'm in control a lot better.

I just need to utilize my time better and be more in control with making smart actions now. Others are nice to have around, but what it really comes down to is just making time for them. I realize some bad qualities of certain women now and having those angst of not getting results is normal to me, but I struggle with not getting annoyed by it from others.

I guess I've been just taking a long vacation of just existing. TV has been like running my life for the past couple days. I'm starting to want to just take charge of my life.

Managing Life Better

I realize that it's really easy to get lost in my train of thought from being all about sensuality! It's actually considered to be a sin because those moments where you are caught up in a selfish cycle while wasting time can end up being bad for you.

I just learned something crazy in that actresses who make their living off of being incredibly attractive are most of the time average or even slightly ugly ladies in real life. I noticed that even around my weird female friends too, who are not the prettiest sight at times but like to dress up sometimes with the make up to give you that wow factor!

Okay, this only adds more reasons to believe that it's not about chasing after the woman's youthful and fleeing beautiful appearances. I believe I can accept being with the right person now who I know I can develop a strong and loving bonded relationship. I really want to be a pleasing gentleman with her and do the best I can, without bothering her.

For this entire week, I've been just messing around while thinking about how I can improve and make my life better. I watched some incredible T.V. shows last night to feed my guilty pleasures. It was those survival reality shows. It's crazy how those survival experts perform to adapt to hazardous and natural environments with lack of resources, while battling hunger and thirst. I'm really inspired by it and want to learn it myself.

What I think about while watching those shows is how I'm this bottled up and selfish individual who has felt uncomfortable over people removing him as a friend on Facebook and then forcing me to not talk about it with them. It's really just a minor annoyance with people and if that's bothering me so much still, then should I go see a psychologist? People are going to try to come up naturally with giving advice. What I learned is that the problem with women are that they don't really want advice on fixing problems, they just want to be heard while venting their problems. Fortunately, my issue with those weird ladies is that it's not a huge deal in itself. I just had to take some time off to learn to not go crazy with my emotions and feel like I'm under control. It's helped from just willing to myself to think positive with a lot of strong confidence and looking for some laughs, no matter what I engage myself in. I'm ready now to deal with those poor and unfortunate souls who are misguided with their train of thought. I honestly would just stay quiet and not try to overreact if I did something selfish or didn't know about it and wanted to get mad at the same time. I guess I have the upper hand then as usual.

Making Use of My Time

I'm actually rooting for the Lakers to win man because I actually like their team. I don't care if they suck right now or for the whole season; they just have a nice team going with some rookies and decent players. I know from having done a little reading that they really suck at guarding the perimeter and give up almost the most uncontested 3-point shots in the league. I guess it's always been a weakness for the Lakers team for awhile.

Okay, so I've been watching reruns of basketball games when I'm off work and sometimes I just crash on the couch instead of changing. It makes a very awesome experience during the week! I'm starting to tap into my personal drives and realizing that being angry just doesn't make any dang sense.

I get that feeling of being mad and then my smart brain starts activating and then I go on cruise control to appease my anger without breaking the law or anything. I end up doing stuff to bug those passive aggressive people- I've been doing it since like the beginning of time, ever since I chose to take a more active approach to dealing with my frustrations.

I'm understanding that I'm bugging those idiots but at the same time don't feel any remorse for it now. They shouldn't be bothered by whatever the incident was to begin with because there really isn't any serious considerations. It's like if they forgot it ever existed, then there wouldn't even be any evidence for them to go crazy again.

They must be just sensitive in the wrong and crazy way and be the ones who go complaining in their own erratic ways. A common one I noticed while I'm around those people is that they start talking loud and explaining about something that bugs them. It really scares me when they do that. Yet, I guess if I can stick around and still talk to them even after all their craziness, then I can handle them up to this point.

Simple Behaviors

I'm finding myself at a slight loss of maintaining this discipline of doing simple stuff to maintain myself. I feel very numb on the inside now and sometimes I get this buzzed feeling of doing something to passive aggressive people. They end up shouting at me and stuff like that, while tattle telling on me that I'm bothering them.

Anger is such a strong emotion and can be so deceiving at times. It's like afterwards, I feel like a messed up person having given into it. It's pretty simple with where I'm trying to be headed now.

I'm basically trying to live my life to the fullest and taking advantage of this precious time to do something that will benefit me. I have a lot of stuff to keep me busy at my disposal, but yet I don't focus on those things but strive to play some of those card games on Windows. I'm quite good at them too now from having messed around with them around for awhile. I think I need to research better and then plan my next steps while scheduling everything correctly and managing my time properly.

I feel so confident these days that it feels really good. I'm so happy for having finally reached that point.

A Strong Willed Mind

Now I figure that playing it cool and safe no matter what happened and how messed up the situation became is very possible! I've been finding out with myself that by being funny while I'm in a rut and very truthful, the odds stack more favorably to end anything that doesn't feel right to me. For example, if I'm feeling really bored and uncomfortable with my situation of just being lazy, I just tell myself a happy and honest joke which then helps me get back to focusing.

A lot of my choices really do entail my interests while living. Okay, so I don't really pertain to a lot of people, and I'm only probably at a slightly above average status at best. It's really the most unique who get the most out of something. Maybe I can't achieve greatness like that, but I can surely work at staying happy though.

I think I just need to tap into the right places for striking oil. Whatever the demand I have going, I just need to realize what it truly is and then to make adjustments or let to go of them as needed. I just found out that I get heavily ticked off by passive aggressive people. I don't really like them behaving like that with the smallest matters, like telling me to back away without explaining the situation to me. It's not really what they want that bothers me, it's their mannerisms and how it gets me so angry. I've been carried away at times and wanting them to do something very selfish for me.

I'm not so shy to let out my concerns now with these people and to tell subtle and truthful jokes that will get my heart burning with laughter again. I feel so comfortable at the thought of opening myself up and allowing them some breathing room when it isn't complete nonsense they are being crazy about! I'm glad I feel so settled in now despite the troubles I had with people who were angering me in the past. I don't have that feeling of bullying them anymore, but just poking fun at them truthfully and winning the battle of them being forced to talk about an issue that they want to avoid.

Taking It Easy

I'm realizing that life is about just doing the best one really can I suppose. It's great that I have a close buddy I can just go do stuff with anytime. Even if it's just one best friend that I have going, it's better than none.

I've learned that to combat my anger and potential mental illnesses while also not getting in trouble, it's going to take me some invented humor. I have been really finding out a lot about who I really am. A few people honestly admitted to me that dating others helped them learn more about themselves. I haven't really forgotten that lesson.

Now I feel really happy about my developments and just confident in knowing that I can really ease the suspenseful discomfort some idiots feel with me by just telling personal jokes on the fly. I'm starting to laugh a whole lot, while doing this with a keen effort of meaning to stay honest. My sister accused me a lot about how I used to make stuff up. It really got to me, so I couldn't say stuff to her while we were arguing but now I realize that I was just putting up an effort to break free of my own imaginative walls that's been holding me hostage.

My buddy at the moment has trouble talking to women because he's first thinking inappropriately about them. Secondly, he feels uncomfortable from worrying too much about how he will go against his morals and give in to what he sees as bad. I mean he doesn't want to get caught up with the wrong person, while not seeing some warning signs. His emotions of liking a woman based on her appearances is so great that he sort of knows how bad it is and is worried about giving in while making a mistake. He ends up walking away from her because he feels unworthy.

His brother on the other hand is the polar opposite. He'll go after talking to women he thinks looks like a 10 out of 10. I believe that he's lucky that his senses can still keep it fresh like that. I really can't because I feel like no girl will ever be 100% perfect in the area of appearances. Yet, I'm about falling in love deeply with the person even through all the flaws and working it out.