With the actions that I'm taking, I'm feeling really empty inside and not feeling any fulfillment. It doesn't really have much effect with making my life that much better. Sure, it's entertaining at times and can keep me feeling lost while escaping from reality but that's not what God commanded us to do in the Bible.
I have some very sound goals and able to communicate it, but I'm having difficulty with staying on track with a permanent basis. It's the struggle to be seriously content. It's like this long process of waiting and can be very stressful. I guess it's just about concentrating and relaxing at the same time.