What's really crazy is that with my vow to God, I'm not breaking it at all but still I have found some leeway to view erotic softcore films. They are mostly in the gender of comedy, so I really doubt the act with two ladies kissing each other really means anything for each other. What is crazy is that even though I didn't do the thing that would make me break my vow, I still became bored of those films! It's probably from realizing it's mostly acting. I'm falling asleep while watching it too, and this doesn't really happen much to me.
I was so close to breaking the vow like that easy, and there's really no way out for me so I can't. My mind is stubborn like that. Maybe once I get married and she needs a little extra motivation or push, then maybe it will be my time to make a release point. I hope I find her soon!
In the meantime with yesterday, I actually updated my Extras [To-Do] list and got rid of something on there. This means the approach is working for me! It's like I can't do anything else until I have exhausted everything on my Extras list. I'm really taking a liking to all this. I only have about seven things left to attempt and finish up on. It's pretty motivating for me actually to get my life back in order.
Academy of Scrappy Credible Undergraduate Desire
