It really feels like I'm all about preparation right now with doing my thing. I'm incredibly lucky with the position I'm at right now because it was a lot harder in the past from feeling like I was in survival mode all the time. It was stressful and tough to deal with. My mentality has managed to progress into a more lovely effort to continuously thrive.
I'm trying to balance out making a living, working out, cooking, socializing and other fun things, and finding girls to ask out for fun now. I've been rejected already several times, so I don't care anymore but I'm not going to ask out some random chick without getting a feel for who she is and if I want to partner up. I'm just looking for the best out there for me and willing to wait because I have plenty of things to keep myself occupied.
It's also sad, but I do have the Internet with pornographic material to stimulate me without masturbating properly! I swore an oath to God to never do that while single, so I think I'm going to marry a woman who isn't a swinger so it's bye-bye porn for me. Hopefully, she's a very sexually-spirited partner and down whenever I'm ready for it. I'll probably have to make myself more attractive to give her extra persuasiveness like making myself rich to support a lot of kids and keeping around a healthy figure that still has some sexy moves to pleasure her with wholesome fun to go along with it.
Yeah, I don't think I care that much about the body becoming so old and crusty and still staying active. If she's going to be my only sexual partner, then I might as well find one who will always be into it whenever and I'm visually stimulated by her enough and fall in love which I know will then keep me attracted to her for the rest of my life.
