I'm of the acceptance that I can't do everything at once, but I now have this drive that I can always do better. I have this true self-confidence and that's probably what it's always been about for me. It's about performing better than before and doesn't matter what force is causing me to feel this. I'm basically a natural grinder.
At the same time, I have accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior for all the past and ongoing mischievous sins that I commit. I'm even angry at myself sometimes like I can haunt myself with flashbacks that I wish I could take back and do better. It makes me want to yell out loud and start swearing over like I'm a guy who has been driven mad. I still believe that I can do better.
