Working on Things

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

14. Get car registration settled

15. Prepare for trips. Create and use a checklist. Buy tickets

For #3, I think my main form of making money is going to be from trading the Forex market for the short term. I'm analyzing my trades and trying to make proper decisions while limiting losses and going for big gains. It's a work in progress, but it's getting there for me. I have a trading system that's basically catering to my own style. 

Right now, I have decided to make the Daily chart my determining factor along with the 4-hour chart being my signal confirmation. I have noticed that pairing these two charts have given me biggest gains most reliably. I'm setting my stop loss at around the weekly high or low, so I'm not getting shut out that easily with plenty of time to exit for a smaller loss when there's a possible trade reversal. 

I'm still making money with my biggest asset at the moment. Eventually, I will be playing much more conservatively with bonds, stocks, and options. 

I really ought to also get #14 out of the way before the month is over. 

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My confidence level is soaring so high that I feel great and not really disappointed about anything with myself. I'm okay with continuously working on something and going for reaching a target. 

Withholding This Thought in Conversation

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book an Airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

17. Prepare for trips. Create and use checklist

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Since this is an anonymous blog, I feel like I can just let any crazy thoughts crash onto this site. I have become 100% confident about myself and feel great emotionally, physically, and mentally. It's something that I think everyone can achieve but they have to work for it. 

With the soulmate who won't count as one to others except to me and again, this is because I'm letting myself stay crazy here permanently while acknowledging that almost everyone will disagree with me, I think she's settling with her current boyfriend because he's only good looking enough for her! I also think her boyfriend can do better than her. 

This is really none of my business to say anything about my personal opinion with their relationship in their social circle. If they are happy from being able to still work it out, then great for them! 

Plus, I'm not interested in being with this soulmate anyway so it doesn't matter who she's with as long as she's happy. 

It took me a while to realize why I was mad at her. I thought she was being dishonest with me about her relationship initially with this new boyfriend and was moody and was acting like such a train wreck while constantly spending a lot of time with her. 

Deep down, I know that she really loves me still since she already told me in person privately a while ago so it doesn't hurt to claim that she still does! Sadly, I'm not into her because she doesn't have enough qualities I look for in a partner and also has a little too many breakups with several exes and a couple nasty divorces to go with it even though she tried her best to minimize some personal damages.

One of it wasn't her fault from being cheated on and for the other, she ended up bailing on an ex-husband she fell in love with and was treating her so badly verbally and psychologically. In some of her defense though, he wasn't interested in going to couples therapy.

She felt that turning into a mean and cranky lady would get her some results and became sort of accustomed to it. I guess it's because it worked on her mean ex-husband who begged her on his knees to sign some papers to receive some settlement money. She felt some power or maybe just had a life changing moment with becoming more impatient and then had plenty of moody situations that weren't fun for me to be around. 

I'm going to withhold talking about my feelings with her current relationship to others in person. I'm just going to be rather quiet about it, but I did write how I felt about it in this post briefly. If she's still together with him, then she must be doing something right or this could be how well-experienced she is at maintaining a long term relationship. I think she holds back on letting out some angry thoughts, so I can tell it will then be a little struggle with this boyfriend of hers who is good-looking to her but might have a few key relationship differences so she must still think it's worthwhile to work for it and keep that cute infatuation alive with him as long as she can. She has blatantly revealed several times that she values physical attraction the most at this stage of her life. I think it's a slippery slope for my own preferences because there can be some shallowness attached to it but it's her own happiness to pursue. People might argue in favor of this but I think it's mainly about what feels good and right to them. It's their right to feel this way, but if they don't want to accept how I see it while putting up a strong emotional reaction then I think they could go see a therapist about it. Overall, it's a strong emotion that's being put to the test without them being perfect themselves. Therefore, I don't feel bad for myself nor her anyway now. 

After all, this slightly bad friend I'm taking a break from is still a soulmate I can reconnect with whenever I'm ready even though I'll never want to be her life partner afterwards! It will suck to talk about dating with her, so I don't want to ever get into that. I already have other women I prefer talking about it with. This feeling of sadness while talking about dating is also the same with a close friend I'm not into but she currently does have the greatest potential to be my desirable partner. She can definitely work on it, and I guess she does have enough interest in improving herself to put in some effort. It's also another quality I admire! 

Personal Discussion About Soulmate Seeing a Therapist

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book an Airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

17. Prepare for trips. Create and use checklist

Having a good buddy to go on long trips with has been a lot of fun. I do enjoy getting along with her, and she is the closest out of all my current female friends who I can see myself in a romantic relationship with. It's just that I'm not convinced that she has gained enough qualities I'm looking for so I'm not interested at all. It still feels sad for me to talk about dating others with her. I think she really does like me like she said in person so she's actually comfortable. She has put on some protective front that was annoying at first, but she sort of has her guard down with me after I agreed to make some positive changes on her. 

Being able to put preferences on good looks aside and still be heavily attracted to someone is another great quality in itself. My close friend is really within range of having desirable looks I like. It really doesn't matter to me to be honest, so most women fall into this category from not being that picky. It's maybe if she's too pretty or too ugly that I might have a personal objection. 

I have realized this from going on a date with someone on the lower end and someone more on the normal end. My close friend fluctuates from being on the lower to higher end, which is probably based on my physical mood and also her efforts while I am always around her. I actually take care of my hygiene and good appearance while considering when I'll be hanging out with her. She might fall into the category of most ladies that I'm totally fine with. 

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I'm starting to understand how a soulmate is someone I won't ever be referring to as one with my future dates. It's a crazy acceptance thing that I have going on and she will technically not count as one if I explain it to them, so I'll just avoid this complication by not approaching it like that anymore. I don't think I will ever do this again with anyone. It's just on this blog alone for all the anonymous readers as well to get confused by me and not be able to do anything about it!

I totally ticked off my last few dates and they were great! I just wasn't clicking with what I was supposed to do. I think it just took going on a date with the right one to be able to think about all these things better and start putting it together. It just puts things into perspective after going through periods with self-doubt and lacking some confidence. Contrary to what a close friend says that you have to date around to gain experience, I only needed one good date to start understanding what it takes! 

With the soulmate I'm not talking to right now, she was just giving away too much information about her dating preferences while being moody and complaining about not getting what she thinks she deserves around us. It felt like she was ridiculing us because we didn't fully have what she expects in a romantic partner. She's also a mess and an undesirable train wreck in my point of view!  

The way she was acting sometimes while constantly being around her felt really ill-mannered and was driving me crazy so I ended up making fun of her with a rude text message. She didn't take so kindly to it, so I personally think she should go see a therapist. I have been actually enjoying spending my time while being apart from her. According to my close friend, I did something that was demeaning to her but she doesn't know when she is saying degrading things to me, but I just ignore them because I don't care. 

The way I see it is that they both talk behind people's backs in a negative manner to vent, and they are not being that kind about the subject while doing this. They are doing something far worse than I am doing to make them feel shame in person via text because I am outraged by what they said or did. I am saving them the trouble of me yelling at them and going bonkers! They both have been seeing therapists and I think the soulmate could go see one again and work on persevering better, along with managing her mood swings better!

Trading Forex Better

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book an Airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

17. Prepare for trips. Create and use checklist

To achieve #3, I think it's more of a timely thing while constantly making proper adjustments. It's basically about being on top in the end and it's starting to make sense with what I have going. The biggest change for me is going to be trading at night before I go to sleep. It totally makes sense now for me with my own reasoning and preferences.

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I'm finding out that in the Forex market, it's probably better to exit trades on Friday if you don't have that much of a good position. It's because there's a lot of uncertainty with the market closing out that day and firing back up after a day of rest. Anything can really drive the price and I don't really know what's going to happen, so it would be better to just avoid it. 

Managing trades around the clock when it's open makes a ton of sense because it's going on a continuous 24 hour loop. With different market sessions opening up daily, it makes sense to take a glimpse around each of these times for entering and exiting positions. 

I have thought about tightening my stop loss once I have good profit but I'm figuring that it's okay to leave the original stop loss there from having decent faith in my system because the payoff will be better. On a Friday, if the position is good then I see this as the appropriate time to tighten the stop loss to break even. I'm doing a swing trading approach, so this will be different for other traders to cater to our different ideas.  

My method is now utilizing the monthly, daily, and 4 hour charts. My base is the 4 hour and the other two determine if I take a good signal. 

Creating Personal Rules of Engagement

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise (on weekday)

17. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

18. Put some money back into bank account during the week

For #11, I think I'm going to keep a separate running tab for it. I'm going to go watch episodes or play after I complete these bolded tasks. 

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For playing online recreational Poker with real money, I've decided to commit to a way of conduct so that it doesn't interfere with my psyche when things don't go the way I want it to. 

1. Play and exit with some profit whenever you feel like it.

2. Buy in for 50 big blinds each time and quit for the day after getting cleaned out four times. 

3. Quit for the day when your profit has become at least 200 big blinds.

4. Quit for the day when you get cleaned out with a bad beat. 

This is what I will commit myself to from now on easily. 

What I'm Finding Out

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Make this a habit. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Make this a habit. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. 

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Return unused merchandise (on weekday)

17. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

18. Prepare for upcoming trip by using checklist

#3 feels easily within my reach now. It's just a matter of time.

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Ever since I've learned to shut out criticism and belittling comments from anyone, I just don't really care how they think about me anymore and am not even surprised by them treating me badly. I feel 100% good about what I stand for and this feeling extends to me mentally, physically, and emotionally as well. 

One of the tricks I use is to put on a little smile whenever anything feels bad for whatever reason. Another thing that works really well for me is my faith in Christ!!! The Lord's work done inside the heart of a person is amazing even if there's no physical healing done which would be a miracle. 

Trading Update

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Make this a habit. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Make this a habit. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. 

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise (on weekday)

17. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

18. Prepare for upcoming trip by using checklist

#3 feels easily within my reach now. It's just a matter of time.

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What really works is following Warren Buffet's first and second rules to investing. Rules #1 and #2 is to make sure you don't lose! From looking at my losses, it's all about limiting them and I could have saved myself 95% of my losses last night by looking at my trades in the evening. 

I decided to forgo doing this because I had a hot run where I gained over 40% in a period of two weeks. From looking at my trades and implementing a couple additional technical indicators on my base chart, I realized that I could have saved myself some money by just avoiding it at that time. I learned from my mistake and don't mind making adjustments, while continuously moving forward with my personal trading rules.

What's lucky for me is that my system is picking up plenty of opportunities on a daily basis to make profit so it doesn't hurt to lay off on some of them. From googling on how to make money with Forex, it says you have to be an extremely skilled trader and most traders will pretty much set themselves up for big losses in this market while concluding that it's some form of gambling. 

This isn't the case for me anymore, and I think I really have some working theories that are consistent in this market. It's just that I won't be sharing it with anyone and only helping a few special people in my life who I think are deserving of being blessed to be making money with me. I'm going to be very selective and don't care about making more money with people who have gigantic pockets. 

With my system, I have accepted that I can limit losses and set myself up for money making opportunities by trading once per market session. There are three main sessions in a 24-hour slot, so it makes sense for me to break it down and conveniently trade in the morning, late afternoon, and late evening or before I hit the sack since this system is catered to only me and I can even do it in my sleep! 

Potentially Seeing Plenty of Money

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Make this a habit. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Make this a habit. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. 

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise (on weekday)

17. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

18. Put some money back into bank account during the week

19. Fun task: catch up on episodes for a movie and to keep up with a close friend

20. Prepare for upcoming trip by using checklist

#3 really does seem believable for me right now. 

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The art of getting rich off of trading is practically limiting losses and making huge gains while letting that keep on piling up by grabbing as much ROI as you can monthly! I might have come across an ingenious method that I just invented out of luck and creativity, but it's been convenient for me in making some money. Over the past months, I have been perfecting a system and with some tinkering, it's starting to make healthy returns!  I don't ever plan on commercializing this product while only wanting to help out a few special people in my life. 

A conservative investor I highly respect talks about how you can't time the stock market, which I completely believe. I think when it comes to speculating other financial instruments like cryptocurrency, then it's definitely possible with the right technical indicators and methods. This is a work of art in itself and takes a lot of patience while testing it with using small amounts of real money to eventually make a living off of it. It's important to never risk any money you can't afford to lose, so it won't be smart to put it all on the line with just a few trades. If it goes wrong, then it becomes a lot worse than when you win because the wins won't sustain your living after a while and statistically, you will have some bad trades that wipes out a big portion of your account which will be more difficult to recover from.

I don't think some people are able to learn from this, and hopefully, they will learn their lesson by moving on to better things instead of continuously doing this destructive habit with their financial assets. 

Hopeful About What I'm Believing

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Make this a habit. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Make this a habit. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. 

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise (on weekday)

17. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

18. Put some money back into bank account during the week

19. Fun task: catch up on episodes for a movie and to keep up with a close friend

20. Prepare for upcoming trip by using checklist

To get to #3, I have pretty much adopted a waiting game for the most part while being as smart as I can be. I do believe that I might have cracked some code with trading my style off the Forex market and that it could turn out to become something lucrative and fast yielding. I'm not going to pressure the special individuals I handpick into making a ton of money with me in the future.  

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I believe that a buddy is seriously an idiot. Also, a soulmate thought she could get away with joking about something related to me indirectly that could personally be felt as derogatory when the tables are turned on her. I hope she learned her lesson. It's all in the past now. 

I'm not associating with the buddy I just alluded to. I think he's a lost cause and born to think pretty dumb while feeling that he's entitled and special after all the hard work he put into something and not getting the actual results he wanted. I think he can seriously benefit from seeing a therapist to cope with this common loss, if it's too much for him to handle on his own. 

Interesting Feelings

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Make this a habit. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Make this a habit. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping. 

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise (on weekday)

17. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

18. Put some money back into bank account during the week

19. Fun task: catch up on episodes for a movie and to keep up with a close friend

I managed to complete #4 and #14 last night. I was going to do #9 but I fell asleep. I almost completed all my tasks, so I think this format is working for me exclusively. 

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It's crazy that I know some of my stupid frenemies might have some issues cluttered up in their head. I don't care if I sound demeaning to them because they can be as well with me or anyone and shouldn't be doing that if they say that I shouldn't demean them. 

I stopped caring about all the mean things they want to bring up out of having anger issues. I finally managed to get over this personal traumatic experience and don't mind smiling about it with a sense of serenity. 

My close friend does like to say "Have a good night" to me often which irks me sometimes. I relate it to reading something like how she is saying that because she doesn't want to be involved with me in a romantic sense; otherwise, she would have just said "Good night" to me. She's said it both ways to me already, so I'm wondering now if her mood switches sometimes from being little interested to not in the mood. 

It really shouldn't bother me because I'm not interested in pursuing after her. She doesn't have enough qualities yet for me to be interested in her. It's probably that I feel a little annoyed underneath like I want to say "How dare you!" but I'm staying quiet about it because these are just subtle things and it's still a good thing to say to each other. I basically say "Have a good night" back to her like a parrot now with a little forced smile while disguising some annoyed feelings but it's something I will never bring up with her unconditionally. 

I do hate it even if she means well by saying that I'm like a brother to her sometimes. She sees it as something very special but I don't see it her way. It feels like an insult to me because I interpret it as like she's not interested in dating me so it's rude to say it that way because I could bring up things about her with why I don't want to date her and haven't talked about it officially with her. I feel some sort of frustration from realizing there's a double standard whether it's actually true or not. Also, I think no lady is worthy of calling me like their actual brother except my own little sister. It just makes me mad to hear it, even if they mean well. 

Creating Personal Rules of Engagement

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb. (After paycheck)

14. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

15. Get car registration settled (After paycheck)

16. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise (on weekday)

17. Buy a close friend a birthday present (After paycheck)

18. Put some money back into bank account during the week

For #11, I think I'm going to keep a separate running tab for it. I'm going to go watch episodes or play after I complete these bolded tasks. 

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For playing online recreational Poker with real money, I've decided to commit to a way of conduct so that it doesn't interfere with my psyche when things don't go the way I want it to. 

1. Play and exit with some profit whenever you feel like it.

2. Buy in for 50 big blinds each time and quit for the day after getting cleaned out four times. 

3. Quit for the day when your profit has become at least 200 big blinds.

4. Quit for the day when you get cleaned out with a bad beat. 

This is what I will commit myself to from now on easily. 

Good One Liner

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb.

15. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

16. Get car registration settled

17. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise

This is starting to get really good, and I'm understanding how my patience and drive is helping me settle down when it comes to stressing out over any type of work!

Thinking About the Details

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb.

15. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

16. Get car registration settled

17. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise

Gosh, I hardly did anything yesterday because I was so distracted with doing some maintenance with my room and helping out a close friend. My mom ended up trying to throw away a lot of clothes and some of it was something she didn't like. I really want to get my own property for myself, but I'm still saving up and trying to make a lot of money on the side as a trader and investor. It's coming along better than ever and also you never know what's going to happen, so I'm taking a risk with my money and not minding taking some losses. It's like taking some losses sometimes but gaining it back plus a lot more in grand fashion!

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I understand how a close friend of mine really likes me. She even told me in person, after having a few spats that left us annoyed with each other. We get along well as friends, and it's probably because I'm naturally built for getting along and adapting to anyone with her needs. She still doesn't have enough qualities I look for in a romantic partner though. It's something she potentially could gain, but I'm not going to play this hand to avoid feeling like I'm wasting my time and commit myself to someone who is the right person. Our relationship still could turn romantic and I've already become very happy about being always nice to her. It's just that it's probably entirely on her now to gain those qualities I really need in a partner! It might never even happen as I find myself the right person to be with, which is totally fine. 

Therefore, it's still sad to me whenever she wants to bring up any details about my dating life. She's someone who could be my partner if she had enough for me and can even gain it, but she doesn't right now so I'm not interested in her. I'm realizing that it's pretty sad for me to talk about dating with any girl who I don't think has enough of the right qualities I look for in a person. 

I know a friend who does have enough, but she's a single mom and that's not within my preferences. I'm able to talk about dating with her and not be so bothered by it. I think even with girls who do have enough preferences and aren't interested in me, I'm okay with them criticizing me or giving me some pointers. I wouldn't be able to stand them calling me like a brother though because this attention will only be going to my little sister. 

Projecting Personal Confidence

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb.

15. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

16. Get car registration settled

17. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise

I pretty much want to finish this as much as I can, so I can start focusing on other long term goals or tasks.

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I think a lot of it is pretty much a waiting game and going about something as smart as you can while spending as much time as you can on it. This is pretty much the formula to getting to where you want to go. Also, it's important to never lose heart and to stay persistent no matter how hard and lonely the road may be. If it's an uncommon dream among your family, friends, acquaintances, or peers then it probably has to mean something big! 

I think mistakes or failures are things you can embrace and not stress out so much over. This is something that took me a long time to get over. Also, I thought becoming a short man was in a way my own mistake and felt like something I had to drag myself over throughout life! No matter what people told me, is it going to make me feel better? I think the answer always came from myself. It's so cool that I'm no longer worried or feel that it's a curse with being a short man. I don't think it's bad to put on a small smile of confidence and just move on while feeling great about yourself! 

Just Some Negative Thoughts I Feel is Truthful

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb.

15. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

16. Get car registration settled

17. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise

I want to get a lot of things done as quickly as possible! I just need to concentrate. 

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I think one of my friends I haven't talked to in a while acts like a crass jerk in a tactful manner sometimes and doesn't realize it for himself. He did like asking me why he doesn't really have any friends hit him up. I pretty much gave that reason, and he doesn't want to accept it from strongly feeling that he isn't one, which is completely fine if he didn't get miserable but he really does. 

I regularly have a few good friends contact me, which is better than nothing. I've become a lot better at not caring about anyone saying things about me that could be off-putting or feel demeaning. I'm still going to happily be myself!  

My close friend just revealed to me that whenever I try to be a smart alec with her via text which she claims is demeaning, it really messes with her head to the point that she ends up blaming herself and feels off-balance. She said that it's so rude and tried to explain that I should change for the better. 

Anyhow, she doesn't have all the qualities yet that I look for in a romantic partner but she currently has the most potential out of all my female friends. We're close friends by fate which is good enough! I have chosen to act nice towards her in my not-so-fond moments with her and discussed it with her, which she's happy about. She's also trying to be nice with people she's not so fond of and finds it to be very difficult unlike me. 

Maybe Powerful Ritual

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Research for future trips

15. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

16. Get car registration settled

I just highlighted #11. I wasn't even paying attention all day today at work which is bad. I'm going to shape up right now. 

At least I have my debt cleared out now. It was so annoying dealing with this private collections agency and seeing my credit score drop. Man, it's going to take a while to see that rise back up to a wonderful number again! 

Working on Grinding Through Stress Properly and Positively

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Call to settle a debt

15. Research for future trips

16. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

17. Get car registration settled

I feel like when I'm under some stress, I don't want to resort to playing Poker anymore because it detracts from the actual source of discomfort which is probably most likely something I need to embrace while overcoming it by working on a solution. Basically, I want to let my mind wandering off be the last thing I have in mind. I want to put in a lot of effort while being positive and relaxed about all of it! 

Something new that I've learned from studying the Bible is that I'm inspired to let people live the way that makes them happy even if it goes against the account of how God intended things or doesn't personally please me. Obviously it's wrong if some try to deceive others and conduct crimes but those are things I'm willing to forgive but at the same time, I will play a role to try to prevent those occurrences and even support consequences that go on record. 

I have a voice that can be heard now from just communicating about my personal opinions and debating sometimes anytime. I'm so confident about who I am as a person and it feels so good. I mean really good!  

Finally Reached an Important Goal while Relaxed

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Call to settle a debt

15. Research for future trips

16. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

I'm very stoked about my results with making money off of Forex this month. The money just came rolling into me like a flooding stream, and I didn't have to micromanage it. I just had to develop a daily routine that was manageable and didn't take me that long. It looks like I could get it done in under twenty minutes of work everyday! 

I'm going to trade on Monday to Thursday and looking to close out trades on Friday. The only time the Forex market closes is on Saturday. This can create a bad and unpredictable offset with the market transitions so unless my position is well within its means of already being profitable, it's probably going to be better to close it out or not engage the market on a Friday and early Sunday. 

I'm excited to have found something that could really accentuate my lifestyle and complement it so well! It could be that it's more like a blessing in disguise that I finally put it together from just naturally putting in this effort. The fact that it's been available all this time makes it so much cooler, especially with it going untouched by most people and even by the famous ones in the world. 

The main trick is to go for big gains and small losses while minimizing them. As a swing trader, there's no need to constantly stare at the market which I know a friend likes to do as a scalper but I feel like it's a misconceived effort from being too greedy and fearful about losing. 

From trying to get rich off of Bitcoin, he has been forced to be a swing trader by his trading robot anyway which I find to be funny. 

I know now that I am a rarity in this world from pulling off an impressive return with Forex this month on my own accord and while feeling relaxed about my developing private strategy. 

Feeling Ton of Excitement

A4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Call to settle a debt

15. Research for future trips

16. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

I have now bought the drone and so now the goal is to only play everywhere with it! It's still a significant difference with my goal change I think.

I am seriously digging this new Forex strategy I came across by just fiddling around with some technical indicators. I pretty much just ate $5,000 worth of Forex education for being a daily scalper which didn't work out for me in the end. I don't think it's going to be a long way for me to earn it back now. 

This month is my all time high ever with ROI percentage wise from doing it on my own, and it's been done with relatively little effort and low worries! I went on this run in a matter of just two weeks. I just need to check it once in the morning and once in the late afternoon. I believe that I can keep up with this routine while naturally looking to come up with ways to keep on improving my strategy to limit losses while netting big gains per trade! 

Everything is also perfectly legal without any opposition from the government and makes a ton of sense for doing this to make a healthy living to reach my financial goals and freedom of time. 

Working on Status

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Call to settle a debt

15. Research for future trips

16. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

Yesterday, I ended up reading and then getting some coffee after reading about fifty pages on a novel. I was getting really into it and then I decided to catch up on watching a show. I knocked out without any hesitation. 

I think watching TV should really come last as a rewarding state in a sense. It can be in some form a way to decongest after taking care of everything else and if there's still some left in the tank. Basically, entertainment in the form of really not doing much productive work should come last. It took me a while but playing video games is pretty foolish but addictive. It's still fun though to mess around every once in a while with it, if you have some company around. 

With reading, I'm applying some speed reading now and going back to reread after breaking some concentration. I think it's going to take a force of habit to keep my mind fixated on something besides letting it wander off so much. At least, it's something I'm finding to be enjoyable now and it is exercising my brain in a sense. 

I have pretty much missed out on reading for most of my childhood, when I could have probably become some real hotshot and rich guy with a great job and some respect among my peers while also scoring a decent chick to willingly be my wife. It wasn't just because I was doing things too soon, but that's just how my mind sort of works. I was pretty good at reviewing my recent actions and determining what I needed to do with making improvements. I had so many issues with patience and exhibited signs of panic wanting it to be over with, but now I'm able to hang in there better and manage this stress without really putting too much effort over it. I'm just so glad that I found something that I think will work for me.

New Plan of Thought

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Call to settle a debt

15. Research for future trips

16. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

I'm going to have to pull the trigger and purchase that FPV drone I've been wanting now on Ebay. 

It looks like I'm on a roll with an effective and profitable Forex system that could make me a lot of easy money while putting in little effort daily! It has a bunch of ideas that I've stayed glued on over the years and there are still a few issues, so it's been about just almagating all of it. I think it's going to be a system that I need to constantly tweak, but I'm excited with the high amount of profit I'm able to earn on a regular basis while controlling my risk appropriately. 

I could really be on my way to a financially independent life at a quicker pace. 

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My interesting view that I just came to accept is that there's no need to control anyone to behave a certain way if it isn't to your liking. It's a little too bossy and the main homegirl I'm hanging with right now likes to bring this up with me. I'm probably not going to say much, if she complains about it but if she wants to push it then I will debate just like all the other annoying times she likes to do this to me! 

I guess thinking about it, since I'm worried that she isn't living up to Biblical standards, I can just pray that God will work a true miracle in her life. If she doesn't, then at least she can work on being truly happy with whatever things she wants to work on.  I can totally respect that out of love even if some of her ways don't really mesh with mine. 

Working With What I Have

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Call to settle a debt

15. Research for future trips

16. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

I see things starting to come along well. It's awesome that I am knocking things off this list and even recalling it in the evening when my mind is slowed down.

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I have three good female friends. They are all within range of at least having the physical appearance of being my ideal partner. The only problem is that none of them meet enough of my preferences yet and they all differ from each other. It's crazy to compare and contrast them while noticing my likes and dislikes about each of them.

For the one who currently has the most potential to be my future partner, she has flat out told me that she really likes me and currently texts me the most out of the three as a buddy and asks me to go hang out with her and then buy her dinner. We have a great relationship. However, the things she likes to argue with me can get annoying sometimes! She's lacking in a major quality and maybe a few small ones that I value in a partner because of her personality flaw and upbringing. I'm fine with everything else about her and even meeting her needs. If she can develop this quality, then I just think she might be the right one for me! 

There's another good friend who has enough qualities and a good enough appearance for me to want to partner up. It's just that she's a single parent with her own kid and it's not my preference to pursue after her. I think she's been warming up to me a bit and I feel like I'm doing the same and able to open up about all of my shallow preferences and concerns in relationships. I can just talk about my dating problems with her and she's so cool about it, too! She's looking for her perfect match though and is cool about staying single for the rest of her life if he doesn't exist. I fully respect her approach! 

Lastly, this friend is pretty much a very flawed soulmate. She is moody and can be annoying while so nagging. She's also been in several serious relationships and gone through divorce twice! Man, she's too much for me to want to even tame. I'm just not into treating her as an intimate partner anymore. 

With the flawed soulmate, I have distanced myself from her because she was driving me crazy. I made fun of her and hurt her feelings via text before she cut me loose but knowing her, it's easy to establish a relationship back up again with her because she values spending time with friends of all backgrounds. She sort of has my view in life so maybe that's why we got along so well and are the rare misfits who match so well together and can always be around each other 24/7! 

With the flawed soulmate, she's in a serious relationship right now and it made me mad that she dismissed it as something she doesn't really know the good parts about. I really wanted to hear the details, but I guess she can be stupid in the wrong situations and has a quality that she could work on. It took me a while to get over it, but I'm seriously okay and hope she can work on it and manage to stay happy. Besides, I'm not into her. 

To be honest about my assessment which I won't discuss out of the blue with just anyone, I think the flawed soulmate is just settling with someone good looking enough for her right now and also think her partner can do better than her. I'll let her know this and tell her that as long as she's able to work on the relationship and maintain happiness then that's the most important thing going for her! 

Status Updates

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Call to settle a debt

15. Research for future trips

16. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

The good thing is that I have a few things knocked off my list finally. It's going to look like it took me several days to get it done like a slow poke. However, this is far from the truth because I am creating multiple entries daily, so a lot of it is just copy and paste with my ideas and then just writing at least a sentence about it. 

I ended up spending most of my time last night reading and had a good time doing it. I think I need to recognize that even though I'm ambitious about finishing a 600 page novel with small text right now as fast as I can, my speed reading skills aren't that great yet. This is what I'm looking to practice from just reading things that I think aren't that important and trying to be attentive to most details without putting in that much effort. 

I'm going to need to learn when it is appropriate to call it quits for the night and get my other tasks out of the way as quickly as I can!

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I have found out with my trading, I am well over 20% ROI for the month. This is heck of a lot good and I did it in less than two weeks while starting out the month with a loss! 

I have figured that I am mainly a speculator using technical indicators. I don't want to spend that much time on it, so I am subscribed to an ultra conservative yet successful investing group. I completely believe in their products and have already made some money as well and look to secure my wealth with a peace of mind by going this direction in the future. 

I am a swing trader who tries to engage in proper market timing from using technical indicators. I am specializing in the Forex market and able to make calls or shorts using leverage. Leverage scares off a lot of traders and investors already from what I know. You just have to understand your risks and it can't be that bad if you size your positions appropriately. 

I believe why this month has been working for me is because I'm following the principle of going for big gains and small losses while not losing that often. This translates to a nice paycheck in the trading world! I am seeing big percentage gains on my risked positions from timing the market appropriately and it seems to be something I'm doing effortlessly now. This is what I have always dreamed of and it feels great that I can see myself reaching my goal of being a millionaire soon! I may even be able to do well for myself already even if I'm not a millionaire and managing my finances currently. 

Another trick I have up my sleeve is that I am looking at the top chart which is the monthly and then pairing it with the Daily and 4-hour. My trades don't usually last more than a couple weeks but I do at least leave it overnight, so this figures that I'm a swing trader who is timing the market. I don't time it spot on but just look for an appropriate direction and position based on indicators showing me the market is overbought or undersold. If it's too overbought or undersold and there's momentum that's pushing into more profit, I don't really like to stick around and close out the position while settling for a handsome profit!  

Serious Dream Mode

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Get my mom new trash cans.

14. Dentist appointment

15. Call to settle a debt

16. Research for future trips

17. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

18. Get haircut for visiting a cousin I mentored at his high school

I'm dreaming big!

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My dream is that I will marry a good woman someday and enjoy getting to know her really well and often if you know what I mean! It's not my only dream that I don't care to ever obtain in my life. 

I want to have a lot of free time and donate some of my resources as a wealthy man. I also want to be in ideal shape. I basically want to obtain the dream of freedom in all of these categories: time, money, relationships, physical, and spiritual. I want to be an enlightened millionaire and willing to put in enough hard work for it! 

I think it starts off with recognizing your talents and making necessary adjustments while having a dream in mind. You have to sometimes let some go while picking and choosing because it just wasn't meant for you. 

What I'm Looking For in Partner and Will Find

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Get my mom new trash cans.

14. Dentist appointment

15. Call to settle a debt

16. Research for future trips

17. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

18. Get haircut for visiting a cousin I mentored at his high school

I'm dreaming big!

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I don't expect to ever bring this up with anyone, but a soulmate of mine doesn't meet my preferences for wanting to be partners with. I'm not going to mention she's an actual soulmate to girls I'm interested in. I tried it once on a date and I thought it was too cringy! The reason why I call her a soulmate is because we both agreed upon it with being soulmates at a low level. That's what a soulmate is in my definition- it's a lifelong thing and irreversible. 

Therefore, I now believe you can have more than one soulmate and find even better ones! I'm not going to be mentioning this regularly in person as a conversation because it's just not practical to bring up. It's going to stay a private thought or unless someone really gets open about hearing me talking about it.

Anyway, this soulmate of mine is someone I'm not interested in partnering up with. It's because she's been in a little too many serious relationships to my liking. Also, she doesn't have enough qualities I look for in a partner. 

For my preferences, I have found out that I don't want her to have been in too many serious relationships or something that resulted in marriage. The soulmate I'm referring to has already been in two failed marriages and broke up with another long-term serious partner! That's just way too much and red flags all over for me. Another thing is that I don't want to deal with any step kids unless they were literally adopted! It's not my time yet to be a step dad and I don't care how great she is for me, I will rather stay single if these are the only girls I can attract for the rest of my life! 

Fortunately, it's proof to me that I don't attract only these types of girls and they are single as well without having ever had to deal with anything too serious or that obvious on paper. Lastly, I want to marry someone with enough qualities that I'm attracted to and prefer this over looks. I can probably even go as low as 4 out of 10 in looks according to my standards. Ideally, I would like 5 to 7 because that's around how I confidently feel with my appearance to keep it fair. 7 is on the high end with how I feel about myself but close friends who like me rate me around there. 

Eager to Continue

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Get my mom new trash cans.

14. Dentist appointment

15. Call to settle a debt

16. Research for future trips

17. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

18. Get haircut for visiting a cousin I mentored at his high school

It's becoming sort of just putting myself in motion with getting these personal tasks out of the way. 

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I think becoming wealthy is about being as smart as possible while being patient. It's something I believe will happen for myself. I'm just trying to get there as soon as possible, and I think I've found my preferred trading platform in Forex. What's so crazy is that Forex currently has a confirmed average trading volume of over 6.6 trillion dollars daily!  There's plenty in it for me to earn myself a little piece of the pie and stay a giving millionaire.

For a friend I'm not talking to, he gets depressed because he thinks illogically while thinking he's the most correct with his conclusions. He is incorrect often on his investing decisions and then ignores finding his personal faults. He can also respond negatively after receiving some criticism about his deliberations to the point that it becomes annoying associating with him.  

The best way is for me to reach my goals and be happy before talking to him again and using how I reached my goals just to make a strong point with him. I think it's about recognizing your talent and putting enough work into it. I think he and his dumb brother are both just living their lives like a bunch of peaceful idiots while not having much going for them! 

It looks like I'm not bothered too much about anybody seeing me negatively anymore and even vocalizing it. I have gained all the confidence I need to function healthy and reach what I'm looking for.  

Making Progress

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Get my mom new trash cans.

14. Dentist appointment

15. Call to settle a debt

16. Research for future trips

It seems like a lot of these small tasks I have on my To Do list can really be completed by just going on my computer. I really want to do a lot better with my focus. 

It looks like I already have the grinding spirit so I just need to put in the effort to initiate it and then keep up with the enthusiasm to bring it to the finish line! 

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My understanding is that I want to continue to try as best as possible while not being so hard on myself. It looks like Forex might be the best option for myself with making money the most rapidly and conveniently. I'm seeing a good return on it this month and plan to continue getting sharper. 

Picking and Choosing

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Get my mom new trash cans.

14. Dentist appointment

15. Call to settle a debt

16. Research for future trips

I'm realizing that I'm at a major disadvantage whenever I get home. I end up zoning out a little and relaxing while not doing what I had in mind. I think I just need to push myself besides just giving in to some leisurely activities. I do have objectives that I want to reach, and my confidence level is at an all-time high. I think I can even handle the stress and boredom of it that comes attached with it while being patient with grinding at something. I just need to pick and choose what it's going to be. 

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I think the main homie who is a girl right now really likes me and considers us to be in a close platonic relationship. Otherwise, she wouldn't have been calling me to hang out with her all this time. Whenever she talks about me being with another girl besides her, it feels pretty sad because I know now why I'm not interested in her. She doesn't have enough qualities I look for in a partner, but her appearance really is compatible enough with mine so I guess some witnesses can suspect we're a couple whenever we run some routines together. Even though she's dating another love interest, it's still sad for me to want to talk about but if she ever interrogates me I'm going to open up. 

Personal Feedback

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Get my mom new trash cans.

I would like to get myself back into doing #2, but #3 seems to be taking a good amount of free time away right now. What's great is that my style of investing and trading is more of a less hands-on approach, so all I really need is to bring in a steady form of profit and to be able to do it at will. I'm still in the process of figuring out a great routine. 

Taking Initiative

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Buy and play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Get my mom new trash cans.

#3 is definitely a very important goal of mine and it seems to be a pervasive theme of my life right now. It's taking precedence over a lot of these other side things, but I do believe that it comes in second place compared to my faith in Christ. For #4, I have found a website that will buy back my old drone so that I can use it towards purchasing a new one that I want. To get #9, I really need to find some time. I think #12 is a relative thing but for the most part, I think it's concentrating on finishing a task at hand while giving an effort to finish it without putting too many breaks in between. I have been putting #13 for a while but it's starting to come to my mind.

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I have realized for myself that I just need to get myself started on doing something and then what I have to do just naturally comes next. Sometimes, my mind will be distracted so I just have to snap myself out of it and put myself back on course. 

It might even be something that happens persistently for me, but I think by being patient with myself and being calm about it, I don't really have to stress out about my mind doing this to me and just let myself persevere with a happy and positive attitude while working hard at things. Honestly, I'm so glad that I have made a true friend now even if she has to be a girl who looks compatible with me but I'm not interested in romantically. It's sad to me because I am interested in a female partner and for her wanting to sometimes bring up about me finding another partner someday because I know why I'm not into her anymore. She is already dating someone else though, which isn't my reason.