Thinking About the Details

4AverageLife's Main Personal List

1. Fall in love with the type who fulfills my preferences and then marry this good woman.

2. Work out regularly with cardio-muscular exercises. 

3. Become a millionaire with a lot of free time on my hands as soon as possible without stressing myself out. 

4. Play everywhere with the DJI FPV drone.

5. Buy a single family home. 

6. Finish my software engineering related courses.

7. Work on applying clean stuff to my face. 

8. Continue to do growing-naturally-taller routines, even if some of them are a scam! 

9. Read as a habit

10. Force myself to initiate cooking.

11. Force myself to initiate doing proper things at work.

12. Speed up process.

13. Dentist appointment

14. Research for future trips. Buy tickets and book airbnb.

15. Conduct regular hygiene. Take shower before sleeping.

16. Get car registration settled

17. Return old drone for selling and unused merchandise

Gosh, I hardly did anything yesterday because I was so distracted with doing some maintenance with my room and helping out a close friend. My mom ended up trying to throw away a lot of clothes and some of it was something she didn't like. I really want to get my own property for myself, but I'm still saving up and trying to make a lot of money on the side as a trader and investor. It's coming along better than ever and also you never know what's going to happen, so I'm taking a risk with my money and not minding taking some losses. It's like taking some losses sometimes but gaining it back plus a lot more in grand fashion!

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I understand how a close friend of mine really likes me. She even told me in person, after having a few spats that left us annoyed with each other. We get along well as friends, and it's probably because I'm naturally built for getting along and adapting to anyone with her needs. She still doesn't have enough qualities I look for in a romantic partner though. It's something she potentially could gain, but I'm not going to play this hand to avoid feeling like I'm wasting my time and commit myself to someone who is the right person. Our relationship still could turn romantic and I've already become very happy about being always nice to her. It's just that it's probably entirely on her now to gain those qualities I really need in a partner! It might never even happen as I find myself the right person to be with, which is totally fine. 

Therefore, it's still sad to me whenever she wants to bring up any details about my dating life. She's someone who could be my partner if she had enough for me and can even gain it, but she doesn't right now so I'm not interested in her. I'm realizing that it's pretty sad for me to talk about dating with any girl who I don't think has enough of the right qualities I look for in a person. 

I know a friend who does have enough, but she's a single mom and that's not within my preferences. I'm able to talk about dating with her and not be so bothered by it. I think even with girls who do have enough preferences and aren't interested in me, I'm okay with them criticizing me or giving me some pointers. I wouldn't be able to stand them calling me like a brother though because this attention will only be going to my little sister.