Managing Emotions

I have had a tough time understanding my emotions, and how to relate it with people. I am not sure why one day, but I just felt bad if people rejected my offer of hanging out. I guess I lacked a lot of purpose with doing things and felt bad about wanting the things that I needed. I have had really good friends go out with me by taking granted for them. One of the weirdest things for me is that I can really hold back aggression for awhile, until I need to let it out. I just need to manage my emotions a whole heck of a lot better and be myself. It's pretty cool that I incorporate manners a lot and can feel a little zoned out with people, at times. I guess it's learning to forgive through my sensitivity. It's had some tolls on me, but I think I'll be fine. In a way, writing to a people who I hardly knew at the time seemed like a great experiment to see where I stand. It becomes very tough to stand for what's right when one gets totally angry. On the other hand, if you feel victimized and so guilty about everything and then relent by destroying your own personality because of a misunderstanding then that can be really hard to deal with. It takes a lot of emotional balance to deal with these situations.

I don't know where I really left off, but I guess I decided to be considerate to everyone. I think venting my thoughts through writing and feeling nervous about the reception was a great way for me to grow. It's been part of my identity, as I have been accustomed to doing these things. My mom and neighbor have told me to not to take these things so seriously. I guess having just a tad of frustration is good enough for me because I don't seem to go super crazy when venting in person, whether writing or statement. I do not believe in cursing out someone. I do not even know what's going on fully through a person's head and so I need feedback from these people who can get bad moods. What a tough realization! I don't really care anymore whether it's going to be negative or positive. I need to try to look at things where logically and reason it out with these people, even while I'm angry. I need to always be considerate, even while I'm angry. I just have to be assertive and allow myself to be more laid back.

Relational Things With People

Writing is a great way for me to unload. Maybe people may be feeling like I've lost base with them through writing in like, hey, "You are ignoring me." In actuality, I am trying to give real effort in being considerate and letting them know what I don't like about them. It's amazing because I can actually live through the hardships and have to always feel left out. I really do have private feelings that I do not want to publicly address. It seems to be abusive to my soul to write things that I would rather keep to myself. I think sharing is really important, and knowing that I'm pretty good against emotional arguments, I probably could set an agenda while being completely honest.

The problem that I had in the past was that I would be too sensitive about everything. I would take it so personal, like things would all fall on me with a burden that was too hard for me to deal with. What I am starting to realize is that if I develop good faith in a person, then he or she will react positively with me. It takes a lot of focus and practice to gain a total understanding. To be willing to work through the pressures, anger, attractions, anxieties, and compassion. For me, I really enjoy being filled with an emotion that has regard for others. It feels good to do something about it and put the person at ease. I am going through a lot of trials, and it's so important for me to not lose it. I know that certain types of people can understand my drives, but as I am becoming more conservative and relaxed, I don't need to feel bad about everything. I am armed with a mouth of all types of reason- emotional and physical. I have to see passed through it- I'm like thinking that life deals with marriage. I truly have nothing against guys marrying women I like; I'm happy for them and wish them well and will pray for their success. I believe in honoring a person's marriage to a very high standard.

The only real problem is that I sometimes conceive myself as being short. Well, I do have a mouth and if I want to help then I just need to holler. People don't seem to barge in all of a sudden and just say that I can't do something. I think I've attracted taller women without a problem, which is a total bonus! I am so serious; one time, I received a highly enthused call about hanging out with two, unrelated beautiful believers at separate times. I think it was from putting up a positive attitude at a car dealership not doing so well and making a courtesy call for them to come down. It's baby making season! Oh yeah, and I happen to be around the corner. I just need to stop being so stupid with thinking that I'm short. I have to deal with these insignificant emotions and let it get out of my system. I have a very large testosterone build-up that wants to be engaged only in marriage and causes me to want to be there for the woman of my life. I know who she is, and I hope she can make me the most fortunate man in the world. I'm not the greatest individual out there and so I can understand if passions ensue elsewhere in the end. However, I want to really know her and do the things she likes doing and so God will be still great no matter we form a family or not. I now feel blessed to have received this calling to marry.

Battle With The Misfits

I think I can literally pinpoint sometimes who the insecure people are, especially by them wronging me in certain areas. Perhaps, they are trying to battle with themselves of a total insecurity that they are unaware of. I've never thought of writing this type of subject but I think they have a truly bad outcome in the future because of their unwilling minds to expand. It takes time to get to know one, and I can sort of see the negativity behind the social engagements. I have seen this type of person before, and I truly don't need to apologize to them for whatever reason. It should be the other way, around. =)

I have never really thought that writing could become a tool for offending people. You basically write with confidence and then see how they react. With the events that circulate, sometimes these readers can fail to see the truth behind nothing in visual text. I'm really holding back all my frustrations and engaging in slight mental laughter and allowing them to read it. It's an area where I hold a ton of power to these readers. They can try to offset me in the social world, but it comes at a price. If they mention it to anyone, it will be to their downfall. If I say it, I just get some laughs from friends. My intentions are not really to harm, and if I have no legal law suits and even if I'm very personable with writing, these individuals seriously have an issue. I'm finally seeing that they really know about their own problems. I think my personality displayed on any medium is a force that's helping and brings the truth out of people. I just need to not let my anger get in the way with these pet peeves. If I do, it will only be relenting to trouble. I can seriously see myself with victory from the hard work I put into it. God has made me into a peace keeper, and now that I know, I don't have to be afraid to work under annoyances and stay patient.

Struggles With Desire

Life is filled with temperamental desires.
The emotions that set you apart from others can leave you.
Struggles and undefined values of the past.
Longing to have something-that has now departed.

The will of the Lord is to sometimes make us bolder.
To make sense and meaning in life by living the right way.
To know the love of the Creator and be reminded by it.
Daily bread that can satisfy us all to the heart's content.

Persuasive Ethics

This title is something that I sort of conjured up from examining my personality. This area is something I have an issue with priding over, possibly because I've been placed in these situations of discomfort. Take for example, you write a letter then the person hates it and then continue to write letters he hates and then all of a sudden there's a restraining order, for an event outside of not intentionally writing a letter that he would hate under stress.

It could be very frustrating for a stubborn person and by natural right, I think it's fine to feel that way. If your attitude is angry but trying to hold back from hurting the individual where you make painstaking decisions with the writing of the words, but fire in some bad sentences then I think it should be given you some credit for at least trying to be yourself. The issue of the matter is then to see if it's worth going in for the gem, which is patch up the relationship. I believe that females may actually be a little sneaky with trying to push you away, but give you a chance if you did something to aggravate her by trying to be nice in a certain bad period. A good technique when around authority is to state what made you broken inside and be authentic about trying to make it right. While making this attempt, if you feel so horrible and not sure and confused, then I think compassion ensues in your area. In the battle of the wits, you can sometimes make them appear higher but I suggest not to do that because there's too much fear involved and can totally mess your direction. It's so important to never resort to violence and be apologetic only when you have to. I don't know if this is a correct way, but I'm not apologizing without an understanding because I want people to change sometimes. There's a lot of temptations involved with wanting them to suffer when you know you did not do anything wrong to them. It's important to limit these feelings and exercise the freedom of choice - love!

The issue then arising is how you are feeling at the moment. For me, I really hate these periods where people try to push you away momentarily from feeling bad about themselves. I feel like I have a burden from what I did. The issue then becomes where you want to lead the correspondence to. I usually shoot for bringing back the acquaintance to par, meaning the area I enjoyed them being in. I believe that by possessing good character, being attentive, and having honesty by assuming that you are not at fault, there's a possibility of them coming to like you. Sometimes, I do things without fully understanding people. These circumstances are rough because you want answers. If you don't get it, it's so frustrating. Even through all the negativity, if you maintain a nice personality, I think they will eventually tell you. Sometimes I act on sheer consciousness with the answer I received. The answers of what to do is sometimes a natural thing of beauty, which should be always done with true intentions of love! Even if they don't like you, I think you can sometimes captivate them with how you lead them with pure, loving intentions. It's a matter of persistence, even if they say they don't want to, it's a matter of battling wills. If you perceive that they did more wrong to you, but don't want to harm the individual, then I suggest to keep going at it.

Be discerning of when the right time to apologize happens. Don't apologize for the wrong thing! It will prevent the person from growing as a more deeper individual, and they can actually view you as a weak individual later. Be sure to maintain an understanding through all the negative emotions. You need to maintain a moral self-respect to be able to justifiably love this individual that you are not pleased with. I think it's natural to go by your desires, but always keep it ethically clean. It's fun to have fun through the process, but things can get ugly for you if you don't bring it up with them. The yelling part is something I truly abhor on both sides. I really hate being yelled at and don't like to yell, but have resorted to it under countless frustrations of hearing physical screams in my memory bank. Yelling should be avoided at all costs, but sometimes it may be done out of love and anguish. Don't do it just because you love to. Sometimes tons of fear can arise from around these people who are plainly filled with weirdness in their hot pursuit of being angry and doing stupid things to make others distrust them, it's an area that sometimes requires pure bravery and some help from God.

Thanksgiving Pursuit of God

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone or glad that you were able to read this after the date. I'm realizing that my struggles and successes can be so easy to be consumed with that you can forget the big picture of God's salvation. Having been tested so erratically because of my former eccentric ways of being taciturn, I realize that commitment through my sufferings have been not always done in vain. It's wonderful to have better people to step up the plate, after you die to yourself and have had major battles with getting business going.

I believe there are key elements to being successful in life. However, I'm starting to learn that the result won't always be pretty and will often entail the deepest pet peeves you could ever dream of. My younger sister has told me that making friends are very easy; this implies to me you don't ever have to worry about how you come across as a person as long as you observe some natural ethics. It's quite funny that by being quiet, it's been easy for me to be overlooked and that I heard some very odd conversations about people being rude from her and roommates. Man, those sort of things really offend me. By being so mustered, I took on the role of trying to evangelize because I feel this bravery that takes over me. This sense of satisfaction from telling people that they are loved by Jesus in no matter what condition they are in. It's been tough for me to always point the good because I would often find myself upset at people's criticism and especially, if the sister starts yelling and screaming just because you said a word she did not understand! 1 Corinthians 13 of the Bible states that love is not rude and is patient. Thanks to accepting pure honesty with myself, which takes a lot of bravery to do; I think that the heart is the most important for any individual. The natural-outward appearance gets complimented through observing healthy practices, being diligent, having a wonderful personality, confidence, and giving effort.

What I'm trying to say is that it's worth suffering by limiting entertainment, doing hard work, and getting to know your innate desires. Some desires might actually be so entertaining and inspiring to give thanks to the Lord! I think as long as you trust in the Lord, you can definitely not have any fear of losing it; especially, if you try to do things for God's kingdom. I'm not saying to become a missionary and make these big changes that you are not comfortable with. I'm saying being open to making adjustments without being selfish.

Social Courage

I know that for me, I'm a really short guy and as a result I've felt very shy and discouraged about sexually advancing on women during those sinful years. For the taller guys out there, there are very nice guys who sometimes feel insecure about being just plain tall. It's pretty funny to read that this balances out for them with women being naturally attracted to them. What I am coming to realize is that almost everyone still respects me even though they might try to do harm to me.

Maybe there's this ironic tall guy's way-of-thought by associating myself with being short. A chiropractor and yes, he's a licensed practitioner informed me with aid of this machine that I should weigh in at 152 pounds with my height of 5' 3.5". That's pretty ironic with the weight being a little high. I am just 160 pounds at the moment. People are like, "That's it?" when they see me sometimes. According to National Heart and Lung Institute by using the Body Mass Index - http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/, I am considered to be substantially overweight. My next-door neighbor asked me if I took steroids because she felt my chest was too big. When people guess my height, they usually add about an inch. I've stood on my toes and any noticeable change in chest does not really occur. I have sort of been feeling that I need to take advantage a little ever since writing. It's sort of made me feel guilty a little to write to people with no harm's way intended for them and then receive this mystical reaction of how they were just plain hurt by it. The majority of people don't seem to mind what I write.

It's probably this circumstance where you just don't want to wake up and find that your life has to suck for a little bit. So with this negativity being implied from what they may feel from a pretty decent guy, all these small issues that they can't resolve must make them bitter. It's interesting indeed, and I have to live with it. I thought midgets could do this nicely and get away with it! I'm not getting that special treatment! Oh man, I have to change my perceptions a little and give my appearance some more credit. People have been telling me "So what?!" about my height, even those who think "You're so short!" When I get placed with that sort of criticism, I think I still want to be prolific. I think I might not have too much to worry about it because my appearance meets an expectation that I can protect another individual, if I truly work at it.

In a way, I know that I am not really getting any special treatment. I have been very sensitive about my appearance and how it's been bugging me throughout life. I do not want to undergo any surgery, just have this feeling that I wish I could be this way a little more sometimes. My mom just wishes to tell me to shut up, every time I nag to her about being short. Maybe it's another indication that I am normal to her and that I'm really hurting myself for a stupid reason. I think I can now afford to earn the trust of women who may feel I am a bitter rivalry.

There must be a trick to all of this nonsense. There are people in my life who I truly respect with a committed passion. Maybe if I placed them in the shoes while writing to these people who I feel annoyed with, it would give a pretty normal and respectful effect. So maybe I might need some time to reason it out these days.

Trying Hard And Enduring Suffering

Sometimes, it could feel as if people do not want to deal with you. It takes a lot of work, especially when you don't know what's happening. I have dealt with a lot of harsh situations and turned up a little short on knowing where my successes lie. It takes a little bit of talent to be able to come up with things on the fly. You always wish you could have this ideal situation, but it might not always come to pass. I think if it's a manageable situation then things can really occur in what you were looking for.

A lot of it for me deals with having an open heart. To be able to carry the burden of a big heart and be diligent. I think one of the neat things about being born different is that it could used as an advantage. Let's say, I was burned up in a car accident which would be really enraging and stressful or make me want to get some plastic surgery. I think if there's an understanding we can negotiate then things turn out better. For me, my crippling effect has been failure to get a grip of myself. I realize that I'm trying to keep my intentions to the purest form with no compromise and be honest without any intent of hurting the person. It gets frankly odd that a person may not see this as good and go spinning out of control, like it's okay for them to show it around me. I don't think I really have anything to apologize for. More or less, it must be just a person's sinful nature that I'm dealing with. I must be standing in his or her way. The balance that occurs is to think about the opposition. I think it's just simply that they don't like it, but what I really feel is that they are going to put themselves in a guilty situation. I really have to learn the right conduct to stay happy with these people who just plainly associate with weirdness.

Made Up Jack and Jill Story

One day, Jack and Jill were playing on a hill. Jack was the older brother, who used to watch his parents fight all the time. Jack always longed for a little brother that he could rough-house, but he never had one. Jill longed to be a middle child and have a little sister. Jill also did not receive her wish. Jack grew up a little mentally messed up from feeling lack of confidence. He felt low body-image and brain power, even though he excelled pretty well in school. He was a pretty well-disciplined boy, but felt an empty load of stress. It came to a period in life where Jack finally decided to put up his covers and stop considering others. He was just so fed up with everyone hurting his feelings by feeling so sensitive.

Jill on the other hand grew up pretty assertive and eventually started using some foul language. Jack does not know where Jill gets it from. Jack having a messed up head starts pumping adrenaline and gets no regard for his sister. It turned out to be a wrestling match because he was only trying to hug Jill. Jack did throw Jill into the grass once. I think Jack did not mind so much because he felt she would not get hurt. Jill then tiger-clawed Jack on the neck. Jack said, "You are hurting me." "Let go!" Jill said. Jack is the older brother and had absolutely no regard for his behavior that night. Jack was so fed up with Jill about not letting him change the radio station and being insulted for his taste in music. He was also fed up with Jill being so rude to him. Jill said, "I could take you! I could take you!" She wanted to avoid getting hugged, so she started screaming "Help me! Help me!" The neighbors would hear her and Jack would just stand there letting Jill look like a fool. Later, Jack stamped on Jill's car window and kept apologizing for his testosterone-driven moment. Jill just sped off, I think in the end, Jack was declared the victor.

Living In Confidence With Jesus

These days I sometimes feel like I'm a loose junkie because I can't get worries off my mind that I'm not in the same situation anymore. I guess I don't feel so secure about being very stable with myself always, like nothing is happening in my life. I really want to feel excited about something. It's really difficult for me to place commitments in this world because I've brought myself down so many times. I think by placing my desires upon living out the Bible, it has made me feel more encouraged to be of this world. Even through our shortcomings, it's by figuring out that the center of our very lives is on the Savior of this world that we fill ourselves back up when things are tough.

Repentance is truly a vital part, to get right with God. I know that some of us are more consumed with other things- it could be having looks, money, the best girlfriend/boyfriend, or stability. Through all the sufferings that occur, some have fallen even into suicide and selfish crimes only to allow the Enemy of this world to momentarily, weaken the faith. I get really uncomfortable around others at times too, with the thought of not wanting to come across as a negative person. It's been really hard for me to make negative remarks about people; it's like I want to try to still stay nice. I've sometimes believed that by reconciling with the people who have been against me, after being friendly to them, we would have a stronger relationship.

I believe that the curiosity of sex has also made me a little naughty on myself. Here's what I've come to discover, sexual abstinence leading up to marriage should be very sexy with all the tensions and strings flying up to the roof. Even if you are single and desiring it so much, you just have to be brave and observe God's command, so that you can reap this sexy benefit. It may be hard to see emotionally when under distress, but following God's commands are really in our best interest because the Lord has interest in all our human needs. We don't have to settle for second best under the Lord's wing. We just need to have a strong relationship with Jesus. I guess we know where our strengths and weaknesses are. It's generally important to me to really be able to see the potential goodness placed on the heart. Losing it could just really disrupt the flow in each of our lives. What the Bible truly says is by taking the whole account of the Bible and letting the Spirit teach us. This happens by having a strong relationship with Jesus. The relationship can grow even with the faith of a mustard seed.

Self-discipline and Being Dashing

I guess my life right now is centered around being emotionally filled. I've been through some ups and downs with inexplicable matters at times, but I'm not quite ready to classify myself as a person who has bi-polar disease. I think life is characterized with difficulties sometimes. To go through some pains of development because without it, it's hard to stay humbled. I think some people feel hardships in their heart but try to internalize it to try to encourage others to stay on pace. Some of these people could also go through misconceptions that they are angry about and start being disruptive in their private social circles, too.

I haven't done much growing apart with individuals because I haven't confided in what makes me unique or acceptable to others. Philippians 4:13 says, "I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me." I believe that God has developed man in His image, but that because of sin in our human nature; His Spirit has called us to become reliant on Him for direction and answers. I have heard parents and elders tell me to have self-esteem. I've been a little reluctant about doing it for just confidence because I'm questioning some of my selfish motives, right now.

I think the more useful approach to encourage ourselves is to develop self-discipline and being dashing. By being self-disciplined, we can avoid things that surely make us and other people who count in our lives unhappy. By being dashing, the energy can be circulated from love and it's healthy to interact with others and to be so enthused about being around good people. These two attributes to me are down-to-earth and not encouraging others to be deceitful and selfish. It's just a pure coincidence in how God intended for us to truly help ourselves.

Election Time of the Year

I think my writing has finally come to a period with my development of keeping in check with reliance on the Holy Spirit. I believe that the best times have occurred from trying to be in overdrive and not worrying so much about how I am conceived. I think by being that way and tuning out to some friends going through a mid-life crisis of some sort really caused me to get some frustrated remarks. I guess people can feel a little jealous with you sometimes and them not knowing it. I used to feel really diffident, shy, and left out of the circle without that effortless ability we all need from each other.

It's come to a time in my life where it's really about making a stand for the truth. Today's date marks a very important day in history for a lot of us. We all have a good part in the making of something. Today is the Election Day with some important propositions to vote upon. I guess I became really rattled growing up and now that I'm getting out of it and willing to make some life's improvements for myself, I realize that my passions can be good but sometimes selfish. I have tried countless times to deprive my heart of desires by growing up, it's been hard to just want to give up. In anything I did, I would also conceive this expectation of myself and be willing to spend hours working at it. I would always find people better than me because of my nervousness. I'm starting to grow out of all those things. The Bible has truly been a mystery to me and changed my life through living out its applications. In a sense, I feel so free to be myself and acknowledge that there is a loving Creator out there to heal the heart, which is way more important than the countenance.

When Things Get Rough

When things get rough, I've realized that placing trust in God to deliver me into better times has come true. Sometimes, it's hard for an individual to see where God is especially if everything does not quite fit in a complete puzzle for him or her. I know that I've struggled emotionally to find Jesus, but there's been a period where I just decided to dedicate my time to studying the Bible and listening to the inspired teaching of God's Word. It's really filling and edifying and sometimes, our lives need to center around it so we don't starve ourselves and place our focus on idols of this world.

Currently, with my life I am trying to find a job to focus on. I have also had some friends ask me if I have a girlfriend. My next door neighbor and mom are expecting me to find a nice woman to marry soon. They just emphasize how they would want their man to have a stable job so that she could be supported by him. It's like the guy is supposed to support the woman and not the other way around. It must stem from how they are really tired with working so hard and want some relaxation. I think women seem to feel a little more bothered than guys do at times. Another friend told me the man in a relationship is someone who she gets to lean on during her fallen moments. I can really live with it because there's a joy in living with the spouse you really love and become best friends with. Right now, my life is a little tough because my emotions are not quite what they used to be. I really need to refrain from some things so that I can experience a more self-controlled life and allow the Holy Spirit to move me. I feel really good about marrying someone right now. I just can't deny what God may have in store for me with someone. I know that the world sees us as young still and marrying at around the age of twenty-five seems to be average. I will admit that my heart is desiring and getting excited to know more about a woman whose my type.

Brutal Confession (Effects on Pornography)

Pornography is an issue that I have struggled with in the past. I am currently recovering from this addiction and luckily, I never came to a relationship with a woman and invaded her special territory. I have to assume all the guilt for piquing my sexual desire even more by using a medium, instead of allowing it to flow naturally. This causes me to in a way get neutered with the thought of finding a decent woman to carry a long-term relationship with.

In a way, masturbating to porn reminds me of self-abuse. It's just killing the sensation that could be enjoyed with a loving wife. The Bible states to avoid fornication, and I think it's not that God does not want us to please ourselves, it's more about a genuine protection. It really protects us by giving us time to think about who we are committing to. God ideally would like for us to have one partner, just as Adam found his ideal woman out of Eve. There's an Eve to every man whose ever been interested in marriage or has a sexual liking to the opposite sex. There's definitely a danger of making your life more hectic by fooling around. Two of the most womanizers of the Bible are King David and King Solomon- father and son. They transgressed against God's command to take and marry only one wife. Genesis 2:24 says "This explains why a man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one." (NLT) A husband and wife's utmost devotion is a prized possession to God's eyes and places imagery on a strong relationship with Christ. I've surprised myself by finding someone whose my type. I would not want to disrupt a good relationship by deceiving it with pornographic material. I don't mind the idea of working out and increasing stamina for anticipated sex life. According to Apostle Paul, little profit is gained from exercise!

Porn just gets you feeling down on yourself. The second you blow your lute, it's like the fun is over and you get down again. It's not fun to always mess around with yourself when it's repetitious and you are now conscience of all the acts. After awhile, the mellow fun just turns more gloomier and things will get harder. I've just personally had it with porn now. It's an area that I want to conquer for life. I am still like on a mission to find the most beautiful wife to enjoy sex and raise a family with. She will then be my best friend for life.

Porn in itself is really condemned by a lot of preachers. I personally want to condemn it too, but my feelings can get carried away. I want to let go of it because it's a temptation that I don't want to get too cocky with. I don't want to imagine myself sleeping around with many women and then find unwanted surprises. Some things included are AIDS, pregnancy, and moody girl to deal with. To just do it for pleasure and use a nice woman as a toy, just fills my heart with sadness. I really do not want to resist the Holy Spirit in my life. I know how society tries to help us cope with the consequences but relationships are really stemmed from genuine trust. Someone can really get hurt, if the relationship is not placed at a higher level.

Personally, I write this even though I know that I have a chance to hurt my reputation. I want to finally come clean with God by letting cyberspace be my witness. I am one of those people who want to experience an ecstatic, full meaning life. It's like the best calling you could ever get from the Creator. I know that I internalize most of my sins by not trying to get others involved with my selfishness. My own selfishness can become a snare to me and really nail my emotions. At the time of this writing, I'm in a period where I long to be in a committed relationship, have no snares that affect it, and be ecstatic about life while worshiping the Bible wholeheartedly.

Spiritual Life With Convenience of Marriage

Being more of a grownup now, I feel that I have way more privileges than I did before. With this time that's been given to me, I realize that time is too short and that life follows consequently in that path. To be able to make a spiritual connection with Jesus, it's been a very long and tough journey. It's been hard to be patient and to test some Biblical principles; it sometimes may feel like you are locked up in a religion rather than have this liberating life. The Son of God and Holy Spirit should not really come to surprise to anyone. I am sure that we have gone through some really good times that we wanted to last and were very peaceful. These things are a reminder of what is yet to come in heaven. True faith is also not meant to be blasphemous, but based on reality.

I have heard that God works a different time frame because God alone is the ruler of the universe. It sometimes gets me thinking that life's situations are things that we would like to blame on something other than ourselves. If Jesus already paid the ultimate sacrifice by being the sacrificial lamb on the cross that pours blood for all our life's sins, then why must we be still human? Heaven is marked with pure joy and happiness and even is implausible to many unbelievers. God does not force upon us the Holy Spirit, even though it can be evident at certain time periods. To be able to see it takes one to open up his or her heart to the possibility of a loving Father in heaven. This does not mean that Christians always have this arrogance about them and deal with difficult hardships without any fault. We're all human and Christians have this liberation in their souls. To be joyful, accepted by the Creator, loved and forgiven by Him, our souls have a void filled in the heavenly realms.

Briefly, I will confess a sin and give my human reasons why I should away stay from it. Apart from knowing that if one willingly repents of his sins and confesses it before the Lord, 1 John 1:9 shows us that Jesus washes away our sins and gives us a new life without constantly dwelling in a guilty conscience and to have the heart protected. I have been struggling to be patient with sexual satisfaction. To be married means to me, being an undefiled sexual partner with a lovely wife. Despite the fears and curiosity of losing my virginity, sex is ordained by God to Man as recreation, but to only be practiced in a godly marriage. To have that longing intimacy and commitment and trust in each other, is something that is not going to be found in one night stands or short-term sexual encounters. What I'm starting to realize is that a man can work up to a heightened sexual experience with his loving wife and never want to give up the attraction to an idol, such as porn, media, or other individuals. Abstaining from fornication is making a pledge to hold love in marriage with high enthusiasm! The time could definitely be right during the honeymoon.

Practicality Centered Around Human Reasoning

This title is a very general one for a very specific issue that I want to boldly address. My weaknesses have been centered around lack of discipline and inconsistency. Therefore, it fills me with nerves that cannot be explained sometimes and agitates me throughout the day. By relying on emotions, I lack a lot of knowledge, common sense, and government sometimes. I'm starting to realize that emotions do play a nice role with moral standards. It totally feels good to uphold wonderful values that have been going around since the beginning of Man. I think that sometimes we want to hold on to a few things to muster enough confidence in ourselves. Like, it gives us a reason to want to think we're better than others. What if those things you are looking for don't come to pass or another person proves how it will fail you?

Growing up from adolescence, I have a sin in my life that comes from a common, socially benign temptation compared to others; yet, Christ has shown me mercy and not put me to death through the guilt I have undergone. I still remain innocent from not having made physical contact in an intimate sense, but my spirit-filled life is always endangered. I now realize the importance of placing confidence in God, the author and finisher of our faith, according to the original Biblical text. This active faith found in transpiring reason, truths, and obedience fills the mind, heart, and soul. I now realize the joys that God has personally given me and the priorities that still are becoming more apparent. It does not really strike me as really stressful anymore, but more of an alarm or a calling in my life. Because of faith, with all of these human things that inspire goodness and encouragement I am able to put my life more on overdrive and enjoy that ideal life worth finding. Placing trust in the Lord through doubtful times and by being confident about my deflowering ability, I don't need to visit and give into these old temptations. Living life selfishly is something that I have a hard time telling myself, but I realize that desire should be centered in God's kingdom and that we need it to walk closer with the Lord. Sin may be pleasurable, but the real meat comes from accepting ourselves, not trying to sin, confessing when we do, and not torturing our personal aspirations, especially if we can conceive God in it! No need to stay stuck or rotten when something can be done to fix it.

Just A Story Part 2

One day there was this man who just felt that life was really a mixed up box of candy. What he took out would be used to bring him delight. He felt that others around him prevented him from enjoying a piece of chocolate. He was feeling a little jealous with Forrest Gump who had plenty of chocolate to eat. The man had a dream that was explained emotionally and could not be fulfilled by seeking only his own pleasures. The things he went looking for were fairly common to a man with no confidence.

One day, he felt enlivened with the thought of helping out a friend. This friend, Mikestar Vonovich Sticker, gave him a call and said an opening was available at work. He was very friendly and joyful and was like hey, you have an opportunity to kill me at work by neglecting every piece of it! So Joe here thinks about it and is like yes, I need a job and I want a place to serve someone. He worked on a cool resume to submit for the first time, even lied about having a degree, and then started examining a template that had some meaning to him. The degree part was later found by management and they were like he's not advancing without proof of that degree. That degree was what he wanted to pursue after before leaving, so the inconsistency settles in and kiss his chances of a safe career there.

Mr. Sticker had some girl problems and always led his support circle, and it was not highly evident that he was so bottled up about life. He had so many regrets that he shared with Joe, but Joe could not see through him. One day, Joe was clowning around at work and was like yes, I made an absolute strive to befriend a client who was a jerk. I should share it with Mr. Sticker. Mr. Sticker became very mad and was like no, you shouldn't do that. Joe insisted he was so happy and became flustered by his remarks. After all, Joe had done everything that he could to get up to date. Joe took advantage of the work place, and started studying for a course and eventually, Aced it!

Then one day, Mr. Sticker expressed absolute distrust with a spiritual community. The type of community that is hard to bond in with absolute shyness. It's quite frankly weird that a very friendly dude like Mr. Sticker would have some hatred and need to exalt himself by discussing these matters. Joe has been part of these gossip circles and never once lifted up his voice to tell a concern. Joe happened to be well-liked by everyone, and did not know he much he was valued. Joe just started blogging and stated jokingly, that Mr. Sticker was a crack head after trying to communicate that he wished to know how he was raised and why Mr. Sticker always seemed to be in a good mood. His father had passed away at an early age, but he had such a pretty big family; something Joe envied. Joe felt very distant from his sister. His sister lies to Joe about how they never were close and had time spent together; she feels emotionally incompetent about herself.

Mr. Sticker became very angry about the remark and started researching for details about how Joe could be a psycho-maniac out to cap everyone with a machete. Joe stated out of stress, in his own body he felt as burning buildings. The torture of school equated with September 11 attacks to Joe. Mr. Sticker took the statement out of context and started convincing his low I.Q. buddy that Joe was a terrorist and needed a restraining order. He succeeded because Joe did not want to defend himself and wanted to settle down first.

Joe later regretted not defending himself as he now knows that he never deserved one in the first place because he has rights to being a decent human being. Although Mr. Sticker felt that his life was a mess and torturous which Joe didn't pick up on, Mr. Sticker never once told him what made him scared with his angry and bitter eyes. Joe started seeking after God in life because he felt stuck, aggravated, angry at something, and in love with someone all at the same time. He experienced an ultimate high and low and eventually, confirmed that God is totally real and cannot be denied. The man pushes away God to create his own image of Him; there is an identity of God that no man can consecrate, it's like settling on a higher principle ground and guess what, God truly lives because the Old Testament of the Bible has been validated with the main message- the delivery of the Messiah speech. One can truly research on the truths of the Dead Sea Scrolls and may result in a horrific turn-around for someone who wants to keep denying for sake of his pride and turf- a man who sold his soul.

Just A Story

One day a man came to his senses and said to himself, "Boy, I have been depressed at myself for no reason." He eventually felt that life didn't matter with how his appearance was. His mom would tell him that she was continuously worried about him losing hair and getting bald. The man would be like, "Hey, I think I'm ugly naturally so why does it matter with being a dude?" The difficulty in life sometimes for this man is that he has problems settling on people's desires and wants people to change to suit his personal needs. It could in a way, mean that he wants to be served selfishly.

The man's friend just one day decided to tear his computer apart and started trash talking to the world. He was just in a fit of raging filth and had no idea why this woman in his life left him. He never really had a chance to bed her, while he was married to her. Even after exchanging their dues, the couple never interlocked lips. It was because he received a phone call that sent him to go desperately confirm that a lost cow was now in the stomach of a jailed thief.

And then the story goes that they decided to meet Jesus in their hearts. The best thing to have ever happened to them, despite all the miserable things that can occur. Life sometimes feel unfair, and it may be that a person's true desire may never be met in this world, out of having committed sins. It's a tough journey with the walk, and when our hearts are closed we just can't see anything. Some people are closer to the narrow path of happiness, and just happen to try to cope with the good things by trying to be positive. In a way, I think it gives a defensive mechanism. Complaining and whining to others is just a sign of weakness, especially if it's a little thing. It's my prayer that people would have a glad understanding of what Jesus has done. To be able to see how he works in the individual's life and to grow in faith. To become transformed and have a type of peace and moral prosperity that transcends human will and understanding.

Staying On Track

There are rough seasons that I believe I'm going through emotionally. I don't think that I have any struggles with depression or anything. I have been writing this blog for almost a year now pretty consistently, and I find it a little tough to pull through right now. Maybe I'm hitting a rough bump this season. I might as well visit the basics that has kept me trying to focus on God whenever I have written. The Bible tells us in 1 Cor 10:31, whether you eat or drink, whatever you do, do for the glory of God. It may feel like a plain statement that even includes our dining to focus on God. Like every area of our lives should be on track with the Lord. How then is it possible that people become Christians and remain in the Lord even through a bunch of crisis situations?

I think I have been the person who has only wanted to hear good news about people. I have never really done so well with new thoughts and burdens, except for merely existing and feeling lonely for not interacting with people, even family. All of those things are starting to change; it feels sure pretty vexing to feel sidelined at times. I think in times of boredom and blocking out priorities, we can surely get under someone's thick skin easily. I guess it's normal for close people who love you to start questioning your antics, when this happens. For a time being, I just did not want to defend myself. I just wanted all this conflict to go away. I just wanted to flap my wings and splutter and allow the Lord to intervene in my life. It's hard adjusting, but man I'm glad that my faith has not stayed put. It feels like I have the potential to imagine thousands of lives on paper. Perhaps, I should start having fun by writing imaginary stories that are dedicated to portraying human reasoning to honor God and the will of the Father with down-to-earth Biblical applications.

Short Glimpse of Transition

I believe that some of us go through a really hard time in life, such as; family issues and relationship compatibility issues. It just goes to show that living life at large may not always entail that true good feeling you were looking for. I'm pretty positive that there are some things that we just can't let go of, but may put off in times of facing hardships. To be someone who looks very closely at himself, I think some of us come to the conclusion that it's better not to judge ourselves out of fear with feeling self-pity. I am sure it's sometimes a burdensome task or rather comical thing to push out opposition that states your two cents are wrong.

Having had a little fun experience with writing all these years, I'm realizing the effects of how it's easier for me to transition with thoughts a lot quicker, egocentrically; therefore, I may feel that I'm being under self-absorption. One of the neat experiences I have had is not knowing how my writing effects others; by being so naive, I have forgotten how people can wrongly place blame on you. I recall that I did not defend myself and allowed a bewildered friend to attack me with something he held back from illustrating. It was an expression of disapproval in his life, but then later, I started defending myself after all the attacks took place. Therefore, it feels like I did everything in vain! Perhaps, there's this old guy's voice underneath me guffawing at everything that's taking place. I don't think I have the credentials to pretend to label myself as a professor anymore! God is good and loving and wishes no one would perish in this world. Read the Bible and see if God is right for you.